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Rereading the posts I make in the throws of my hyperfixations, down bad to the worst degree

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Source: This

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Personal stuff

This is not a return

I don't know how to begin this.

This is mostly for my friends.

Idk if I'll ever come back the way I used to. With fics and chatting and all that. I loved it back then, but now it's so much. It got outta hand for me; I'm not trying to be negative though! It's just a lot that I can't handle.

I graduated, got my dream job, and yet everything still feels bleak which is kinda crazy. I think it's depression. But I want to write again, I want to chat and make friends again, it's just.. please be patient. I can't do what I used to do, or what I want to do.

I have a few half done fics because I'm trying to distract myself and have a good hobby, so you may or may not see my AO3 update with new stuff. idk.

uhh.. anyways. Love y'all, I'm not giving up, I'm not dead (yet), I'm depressed and trying my best to give myself a fighting chance. This isn't really a "return", it's a note. I post it here because going through all my servers is a lot and seeing all the @'s and notifications makes me feel horrible for not being there and anxious.

Love y'all

-Delsin

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Shouting this at all the tumblr porn bots that have been following me

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Me aloud: oh yeah I’ve been plotting a book for about 8 years now :)

Me in my head: Ive had the same universe in my head for 8 years; they grow with me. There will never be a book because I could never have an end.

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Me, coming back to reality after daydreaming, staring at the cleared rhythm game level on my screen that I was definitely not conscious for:

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I spent too much time on this only for it to look like crap so 💀

This is just a personal hc of mine tbh so yeah

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honestly i HIGHLY recommend making getting tattoos/piercings/other body mods a part of your transition. have a part of your skin that makes you insecure, like stretch marks or old acne scars? tattoo. have a part of your body that you think looks too feminine/too curvy? tattoo. think your nose is too small/cute/feminine? piercing. lips too shapely? piercing. nipples didn’t heal right after top surgery? tattoos AND piercings.

putting art over your insecurities is a great way not just to hide what makes you insecure, but to grow to love it as what it is: potential. canvas. you can put a tattoo almost anywhere. you can put a piercing almost anywhere. you can put scarification and branding and horn implants almost anywhere.

it’s hard to love your body, and many of us will never get there. but if we can appreciate our bodies in a neutral way, to see the potential for wearing art that makes us happy, maybe we can hate our bodies a little bit less. maybe instead of focusing on the body, we can simply love the art we wear, and that’s good enough.

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Night yall

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I love tobias

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“JKR doesn’t target trans mascs, when we talk about her transphobia we have to acknowledge it’s not about us!!!!”

she has an entire manifesto about us. wake the fuck up. you are not helping trans women by actively harming trans men and mascs.

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He’s so soft looking. I want to tuck his little ass in to bed and kiss him a soft goodnight. The AntiChrist has worked so hard to be that cute.

Idk about you guys but I think the antichrist looks rather cute and pathetic

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I’m choosing to ignore the Hollywood sign before I dig into the “Copia is about to get crucified” theory 😔

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oh satanas the serotonin for the week has been depleted oh shit oh fuck-

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Rare photos from trans history: Olympic runner and Zdeněk Koubek styles Cinda Glenn’s hair, 1936. Koubek was one of the first trans men to gain international fame after he transitioned in 1935.

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Is this what the tumor thinks as it adds eyes, teeth, and hair?

i think more of our body parts should have teeth