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This is how it always starts. "We'll stay friends." And then we fade away. I don't want to fade.

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I had a fiance. And now I don’t. Things can change fast within an hour.

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I'm never going to get mad at someone for wanting to better themselves. But when they say they want to stop dating for a while to do it it hurts. My birthdays in 2 days and I'm being dumped. I want to cry but if I do I won't be able to sleep well. I love her so much and I want her happy first and foremost but I don't want to just stop like this. This isn't fair. I want my girlfriend for my birthday.

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when I was younger I was really obsessed with this show, it was my first real hyper focus that I can still remember. I knew every episode inside and out and I used to do nothing but take in more and more of that show every day for nearly three years. I had to put it behind me when I finally realized no one else cared about it. I eventually stopped talking about it unless others brought it up first. Now, today I was playing with my girlfriend on Overwatch (my current hyper focus), and we had a little chill match going on. It was us, some other random players (one of which was a McCree VA and someone else I’m going to refer to as Trucks). Trucks brought up some old show they used to watch which was on Netflix, to which I brought up an old show I used to love was on Netflix. You can all see where I’m going from here. We started talking about that show, and how I had theories still and ships and that I still loved it. We pretty much took over the match chat talking about it. We ended up even scaring away the McCree va. I know I made my girlfriend upset with that, even if she isn’t saying anything about it. I just. I want to be able to apologize and know if she’s mad at me or not already.