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the urge to disappear to see if anyone notices

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shutting down is the only way out

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no, i will not move on. in fact, i will dwell on it. i will build a small emotional house and live here forever, thinking about it daily and sobbing.

hope this clears things up.

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why why why why why!!!!

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bouquet vending machine in korea.

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i’m so fucking tired of feeling wrong. i have felt wrong for my entire life.

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Nothing scares me more than someone loving me one day and deciding they don’t want me the next. Nothing terrifies me more than being so close to someone and then watching them become a stranger again.

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I don't need therapy, I need to blast music in my ears until I can't hear my thoughts anymore

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“Date someone who gives you chills just by the way they look into your eyes.”

— Unknown

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the hours and days and months gallop past

I am on the wrong side of frosted glass

my protest

a cold puff of air against icy panes

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One minute you’re recovering so well, feeling like life is worth living and you are worth loving. The next you are alone again, feeling 13 years old and harming yourself, reminded of why no one could ever like you in the first place. I fear I will always return back to that person…

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kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

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@notyourmaria Hi saying once again I’m just using the term my psychiatrist said to me and how it feels! This is a poetry account based on feelings, so even if it isn’t the proper terminology or technically 100% terminal it feels that way, as I’ve said in my replies multiple times! There is no need to say everyone with bpd is dramatic, I’m expressing my feelings on how it feels towards me, and a lot of other people feel the same way

remembering the fact bpd is considered a terminal illness and my own brain is trying to constantly kill me. im never going to be okay.

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i have a subconscious fear of being happy