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# 03*16*23

Something really sent me back today. It's hard to be one of those people stuck in high school because of all the bad shit that happened then. I never really truly accepted that I had issues with my self image until tonight. Looking at an old picture of me that I used to spend dozens of minutes a day just analyzing on my phone and thinking, " how fat!"

It was probably the lowest weight I have been from teen to now.

I know that such things have been an issue to people of all sorts, least likely cis males, but even they have these insecurities. Of course, as a cis-woman ( my gender identity is a discussion for another time) it's worse due to media. And so the extremes keep worsening, to add dysphoria to dysmorphia is straight up lethal. On an entirely different note, I was also recalling things people have told me that may have created an almost " gifted child" like syndrome within myself. I have been described as unusual in various ways by teachers and students in my past. It was always followed by " You're gonna be famous, I know it" I admit now that it has stunted me heavily as I think, maybe tomorrow I'll create the thing that will do it. But that's not how it works. My practice has been stunted due to being surrounded by people who have traumatized me. They have started to change for the better but that does not retract any of the damage they have inflicted. I wake up and talk to them like nothing happened, all for the sake of a good day ( which is rare) for everyone. Soon this cycle will end.

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Warning

Find out more about me on this link: ABOUTME

Warning, why? This is a blog. I'll tag posts that aren't necessarily blog or journal logs as #yay lmao and maybe bad bad ones #naw if i'm able to

I don't want to risk triggering someone or causing anyone any type of harm. I just need somewhere to post. To anyone still willing to read, thanks. MORE TAGS: #myart ( my art obvs) #myinspo #mymusic #progress or #wip

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I need to follow less people permanently arguing with strangers and more people saying shit like "I would be the first person to sit down with Thomas the Tank Engine and truly listen."

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Creative Gardens, 1986

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Cumbrian Decay

Photographed by Freddie Ardley - instagram

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Björk (2000) Ph. Warren du Preez

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that's right: official Microsoft foxgirl clipart

(FOX.WMF, modified 8/14/1996, 4:59 PM; clipart included with Calendar Creator 5.0 for Windows 95 (1997).)

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Björk photographed by Andrew Catlin, 1991

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lesbians over 60, photographs by elana freedom, published in common lives/lesbian lives no. 15/16, june 1985

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part of accepting love for me also requires accepting grief, dissolution. my pets will die, my friends may drift from me, lovers may have a change of heart. none of it makes the love in vain. part of accepting love is accepting movement. but love is mostly letting myself get lost in the moment, i am learning. letting myself be fully alive in the now. i dont always need to think that far ahead all the time. the potential exists now.

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Sigrid Holmwood - Raining Fire, 2022

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Taught him how to change his steam game bg

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am posting more on my misc acc, this is for official stuff ig. @sillybluhd just posted my 2007?8? walkman and its contents

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Just wanted to share more iconic photos of this living cultural legend!

APO WHANG-OD 106-year-old Filipino tribal tattoo artist for VOGUE PHILIPPINES, APRIL 2023

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the bravest thing a girl can do is read a shit analysis of their favourite character and simply keep scrolling

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Negan Comforts Male Reader With Post-Operative Painkiller Constipation