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[sugarbes]

Yeah so, reached goal 1.

Even tho life goes how it wants, i m back, i am mostly bulimic and for a few months i just dissapeared.

I m back now, my life is a total chaos, not only because of my weight but because i lost control of everything.

I think now, it s the best time to get back on track. I was slipping for a while between being healthy or being skinny but my weight increased and not in muscle, but in fat.

I ve always been like this, losing and gaining, but from today it s time to change everything. No more binges, and shit eating, just feeling the hunger and controlling my feelings.

So hello again! I m bee, and my journey restarts today. It s fall, it s time to look small in big sweaters.

7 sep 2023

Cw: 58.2 kg (128 lbs)

Gw1: 54

Gw2:52

Gw3:50

Ugw:48

Sooo, let s lose that 10 kg !!

[sugarbes]

Wakey wakey

[sugarbes]

Even tho life goes how it wants, i m back, i am mostly bulimic and for a few months i just dissapeared.

I m back now, my life is a total chaos, not only because of my weight but because i lost control of everything.

I think now, it s the best time to get back on track. I was slipping for a while between being healthy or being skinny but my weight increased and not in muscle, but in fat.

I ve always been like this, losing and gaining, but from today it s time to change everything. No more binges, and shit eating, just feeling the hunger and controlling my feelings.

So hello again! I m bee, and my journey restarts today. It s fall, it s time to look small in big sweaters.

7 sep 2023

Cw: 58.2 kg (128 lbs)

Gw1: 54

Gw2:52

Gw3:50

Ugw:48

Sooo, let s lose that 10 kg !!

[sugarbes]

Yeah so, almost 60 kg again

What the fuck

[sugarbes]

Wc

117 lbs

I wanna get ro 100 soon

[sugarbes]

Long time no see

I just saw myself in a reflection and i remembered i need to lose more weight. My progress is still progress but i want more.

Sooo i m back

[sugarbes]

I gained weight haha, fat for prom haha

[sugarbes]

Wc 53 kg

[sugarbes]

You can.

It s been a while..

[sugarbes]

It s been a while..

[sugarbes]

I m 54 kg 119 lbs

Down from my highest weight 70 kg 155 lbs

And... i still feel fat, i m still fat, my legs rub against each other my tummy falls when i sit, i still have a chubby face...

I just... i wanna look better... i m still fat... wtf

[sugarbes]

My skin looks better, i have no sex drive it s atrocious, my familiy is starting to give up on me, i m barely hungry, i sleep too much, and sometimes not at all, mood swings constantly, anger issues and attacks, i can t THINK, can t keep myself focused, i m depressed and burnt out, no friends anymore.

Well yeah

Also, in my process i will talk about every changes in my body, such as:

Skin

Sex drive

Family wise

Hunger

Sleep

Mood

Thinking process

Attention

Concentration

Mental health

Friends wise

(Maybe it will help someone out there)

[sugarbes]

Wc 54 kg

[sugarbes]

I m scared, my bulimia has affected my relationship

It s so weird, cuz.. like sometimes i wanna eat and keep the food inside cuz i know that s normal and that s the way i should work but all of a sudden my brain tells me that i have to go throw up or else i ll be a giant and i won t be able to move, and live...

I m dizzy all the time, i m getting sick of food, i m not underweight.. or something but if i try to eat normal i m afraid i ll gain weight cuz my metabolism is f8cked...

It s so shitty... to not be able to make a choice for you... you want to get better, but getting worse is your better..

It sucks having and ed, it s not estethic, it s pain, it destroys your relationships... it destroys you...

But damn, it feels so good being sick

[sugarbes]

I m back, same weight...

I wanna lose 5 kg in a month.... can I?

[sugarbes]

Body check

[sugarbes]

First day of autumn, any diets u guys follow?