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Do not write fanfiction. One second you're normal and the next you're downloading a calendar from 2004 and tearing your hair out over what specific date every event in your fic happens

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I actually can't stop thinking about how the losing party last election dressed like vikings and tried to break into the white house and the losing party this election are sharing suicide prevention hotlines

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I feel so fucking lucky to have been shaped into the person I am today by One Direction. 2024 me does not exist as I am today, without them. How lucky am I to have be changed by them. I’m here today on this tumblr, with all of you- friends, mutuals, strangers- because of them. One Direction will always be woven into the fabric of my memories, experiences and dreams. That is a truth that cannot change. I am so so lucky to have loved them and be loved by so many of you because of them. Wow.

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Just after sunset during the Minneapolis memorial for Liam, someone released five red heart balloons. As they rose up together, one balloon rose higher and faster while the other four seemed to hang back sending it off. To me, the moment felt like these lyrics

You will find me In places that we've never been For reasons we don't understand Walking in the wind

Liam may be gone, but we will continue to find him in many ways as we carry on his memory.

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we’re gonna be ok btw

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I got invited and am going to a Taylor Swift event being hosted by Rob Sheffield this week and tbfh nothing has felt so surreal

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Along with everything—thank you for grieving with me, little people in my phone. I mean it when I say that having everyone on here to share our loss with has made it less isolating. I love you all

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this is the only place I knew I could come where people would know how this feels without having to explain

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OT5 in the bread van in Rio De Janeiro, Brasil, 2014

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i hope your doing well, take care of yourself friend 🫂

it’s definitely like a surreal feeling, like I find myself just sitting in silence with the grief of it all quite often. I love you so very dearly and I hope you’re doing what you need to do to take care of yourself as well!🩷

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Harry via Instagram 🖤 - 10.17.2024

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i can't believe i'm in my 20s processing a 1d member's death

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"1D was a big part of my childhood and adolescence, so I'm allowed to be upset that one of its members died young even if he turned out to be vile"/"He died before getting to recover and left his young child fatherless"/"Him dying tragically and having a hard life doesn't redeem him from all the vile things he has done" are all statements that can coexist, btw

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that line in best song ever “i hope you’ll remember how we danced” hits me like a truck every time and it makes me so sad but also really happy because like we all know that one direction were always such terrible terrible dancers but despite that they always got up on stage and did their own thing and just had fun and tbh i’m going to remember every single moment i’ve shared with them for the rest of my life and like as trivial as that line seems it means the world to me

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no matter how dramatic it sounds, i cannot explain how vastly different my entire life would be if it wasn’t for the people i met through those five boys. they quite literally changed and saved my life. personal feelings on him aside, he will always be a part of that and a crucial part of my history and story and i can’t even put into words how i am feeling right now.

friends i still talk to, friends who have drifted, just know that i think of you so so often and always with love, and i thank those boys for getting to know even a small part of you all.