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Vent post

I dunno if I'm just getting more sensitive these days, but I can't stand even being on most social media other than Tumblr anymore, though even here is on thin ice. It seems everywhere you go everyone just wants to disregard their fellow man, especially those who are marginalized, poor, or under the thumb of oppression and treat them as if they're the scum of the earth. I'm sick and tired of the lack of compassion.

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Every day I mourn the irrepairable damage that cringe compilationers have done to the art community as a whole. Fly high possessive undertale selfshippers and amateur flipaclip furry animators. Your legacy will not be in vain and I wish people weren't so cruel to you

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hi. just a reminder

you’re not too much. not too broken. not too late.

you are allowed to be proud of your survival. you are allowed to rest. you are allowed to take up space.

you are already enough. you are already whole.

love, someone who gets it

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Too many people will pass around "always trust your gut!" and "your intuition never lies" content when actually your "intuition" isn't immune to either propaganda, bigotry or trauma reactions. Which is important to be aware of actually

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i don't know who needs to hear this, but guilt, self-hatred and shame are not sustainable sources of growth and healing. you can't hate yourself into feeling better, or being better. you can't repeatedly punish yourself for your flawed humanity and expect wholesome results.

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Sometimes it is your fault.. Sometimes you don’t listen well enough, you’re selfish, you’re rude and you aren’t always right. Sometimes you fucked it up and tbh that’s okay. It happens, learn from it, apologize and keep it moving. Just because you fucked up doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. Don’t dwell on it

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okay I did it :P

Considering making an angelkin sideblog..

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I want a relationship that is completely undefinable by any existing labels or words. Like, we're so close and we hug and kiss each other's foreheads and cuddle and travel and explore together, and we get along so well and have so much in common. But at the same time, our relationship isn't fully romantic or fully platonic; it's a completely separate, open-to-interpretation thing that we tweaked as needed, and we have our own boundaries and things we are and aren't comfortable with, and we respect each other in every way, shape, and form.

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being neutral about other peoples kinks is necessary by the way. when consenting adults are doing things between consenting adults, and you prioritize your discomfort over their autonomy and right to exist safely in a space without having their private interests excavated and recontextualized to make them out to be predators, that says way more about your willingness to place yourself in the position of moral authority than it does about them and you deputizing yourself on the basis of nothing but vibes and your personal traumas makes you very dangerous politically.

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OKAY i know i do this a lot but i was getting tired of me just constantly moving around the same 3 colors of my ponysonas and calling it new so i made an actual new one that i like a whole lot more than just trying to force in a space theme.

more info under da cut

This is Star Sprout ! they may not look like it, but they are a unicorn, their horn is just uh. stunted, and hides beneath their hair and hat (think grown up scootaloo with her tiny foal wings), so most people mistake them for an earth pony (tfw sorta masking metaphor..)

Their family sells foraged and homegrown plants, herbs, fungi, etc in neighboring towns where they live (some small farm between Fillydelphia and the Foal Mountains) Ideally, they want to move to a small town at some point so they can be independent and make new friends ! (ponyville, duh)

If you were to ask them what their special talent is, they wouldn't really be able to give you a straight answer. They're a good artist, sure, but they feel as if it isn't interesting enough of one (it didn't even appear on their flank...at least not in a way that seems literal enough to them)

Bonus hidden horn:

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I always love and appreciate how loving and positive your account is- you’re an inspiration to me-@scribblesshipping

YAAAAA THANK U SM !!!! i try to be genuine and a light in this dark dark world... promote recovery !!! be whimsy !!!! :D

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things I wish people told me in my early 20s

you’re so young and you have so much time - do not feel pressured to have everything sorted or figured out or make major life decisions please take your time and relax

how you’re perceived by others doesn’t matter and you have to live life for yourself and do whats right for you. most of the people who’s opinions feel important now will be completely irrelevant in 5 years, they don’t matter at all.

you don’t need anyone to save you or take care of you, you can do that all by yourself

there’s nothing inherently wrong with you, you aren’t broken and you don’t need to be fixed. you are loveable and wonderful. be gentle with yourself.

everyone has their own path and their own timeline. enjoy yours and don’t compare your journey to others. your time will come and it’s all part of the becoming and unfolding of your story and who you are

you will make mistakes and bad decisions… doesn’t mean you’re irredeemable or your life is unfixable. there is no wrong path or bad version of the story destiny will flow where it’s meant to always

many things which feel like a huge deal now will fade into insignificance in a few years… it may hurt for a moment but long term it really doesn’t have a major impact on your life. you’ll be okay

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I can be shaped by more than the things that hurt me

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My tip for trying to compartmentalize your emotions or desires is to realize when you're using hyperbolic shorthand for an actually realistic desire. I know realizing even that can be difficult sometimes but let me demonstrate

"I wish I was popular" -> I want to be noticed and engaged with, and I need reassurance and the feeling of connection

"I wanna delete my blog and ghost my friends" -> I want to act out in a visible way that expresses how frustrated I am / I feel overwhelmed with connections and need time to cool off

"I wanna do something reckless/dangerous" -> I feel trapped in obligations and am buckling under stress, I need a sufficient outlet and more freedom to exist in peace

Obviously there may be different kinds of feelings or needs under your particular impulses, these are just some fairly common examples of what you could be feeling. The harder part is trying to figure out what it is that causes this impulse, and even harder might be if you don't have control over the situation, and are unable to have your needs met. It's not always your fault if you're feeling bad, but realizing where it stems from can help you seek out new paths to relieve it. This is something I've learnt working in therapy.

The toddler in your heart has valid needs. But it is a toddler and will scream and cry about it. Learn to sit by until it's done and then ask if it wants a juice box or a hug