supercriminalbean

[supercriminalbean]

Saw her books at the store the other day 🥰🥰😭

I feel like maisy mouse should get more love on here I think she'd be besties with snoopy, miffy, etc.

look at her she's so cute

[supercriminalbean]

WELL OFF THE MARK HERE

But might explain a few things

[supercriminalbean]

Okay I'm aware if been so down and negative lately so I have some good news.

I don't have to drop out of my course due to this condition and can now swap to part time and carry on to next year which is a giant relief and makes me wanna cry.

And alsooo

Imma drop a fic today/tomorrow.

[supercriminalbean]

In 12 hours it'll be exactly 3weeks since I've been in extreme pain 4 visit to hospital/doctors. 3 blood test and no one taking me completely seriously due to my weight either doctors give me pain killers then kick me out the door or refuse me meds cos they think I'm a drug addict and kick me out the door. 3 months ago it came out that my town had the worst hospital in my country and now I'm suffering due to the media following us closely so they care more about their already diagnosed or on the waiting list patients to take me seriously. I have been fighting with this medical care in my town for multiple years now but the last 8 months I'm losing hope.

Anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk.

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Does anyone have any advice on pain management when you're sick? My younger siblings gave me a sinus infection, it's been raining on and off all day, and I was already mid-flare, so I'm in some of the worst pain I've had in a bit.

I don't want to start layering meds, I take too many as it is and I'm lucky they aren't interacting for me.

But like, is there some way I can reduce the shivering and horrible aching? I can barely move and I know I won't be able to sleep tonight.

[supercriminalbean]

48 hours ago this was told to me (not in exact words but iykyk)

Doctors are like: ughhhhh. You're confusing. Come back if you die

[supercriminalbean]

Yall I hate to break it to you but sometimes disability isn’t the most eco-friendly sustainable practices 100% ethically sourced thing.

I have no idea where the metal in my leg is from. Or where all of the surgical instruments or medications i’ve taken are from.

I can guarantee the knee brace I rely on, my cane, my (future) wheelchair, etc aren’t made in the best ways either.

I use single-use things. KT tape for my joints, individually packaged things, etc. I would love to use something more sustainable but that’s not an option for me.

In an ideal world some of this stuff could be better (like sourcing materials in a more ethical way), but some stuff wouldn’t change (needing single use products). Stop holding disabled folks to impossibly high standards, especially ones that majority of ableds can’t even live up to.

[supercriminalbean]

Not sure if I'm flaring or

... getting sick or

... bad tacos or

... allergies or

... forgot to take meds or

... God hates me or

... this is my new normal or

... I'm gravely injured or

... I should just try Yoga

[supercriminalbean]

i’m gonna hold your hand with a glove on when i say this

when disabled/chronically ill people tell you they can’t do something, then that is not your cue to tell them that they can actually or that they’ll always find an excuse if they’re looking for one.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes that doesn’t mean it’s outside the realm of possibility, sometimes it means if they (attempted to) do that, they will seriously hurt themselves.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes it’s preventative care, and they refuse to do that thing to prevent a flare up from happening/their symptoms getting worse in the first place.

disabled/chronically ill people are not “looking for excuses”, they are giving you reasons why. something they don’t even have to do! so maybe just accept the reasons they give you.

[supercriminalbean]

They (my chronic illnesses) just hate to see me winning (not being debilitatingly exhausted)

[supercriminalbean]

If I end up back in hospital today can the bau team turn up and just give me a hug?

[supercriminalbean]

Im on a cocktail of medications including morphine, Panadol, codeine, ibuprofen and more, some weird criminal minds head canon coming to you in the next few days as

[supercriminalbean]

Happy pride month specifically to folks on the asexual and aromantic spectrum who oftentimes feel isolated and left out of the conversation. You belong here as much as the rest of us and I hope that you are all loved in a way that is comforting to you.

[supercriminalbean]

1:30am now outta hospital I am tired, in pain drugged up and over being chronically ill with who knows what.

[supercriminalbean]

Welp back in hospital

[supercriminalbean]

I have two bat tattoos time for more?

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don’t you just love when you’re talking about your adhd to a non-adhd person and they’re like “oh that’s not adhd!!! that’s just having a short attention span from all the distractions we have these days, you should just put your phone away” like i’m gonna hit you with a steel chair