surrealcyborg - Tumblr blog

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I know it always happens, people end up hating me. It's not worth talking to to people on tumblr if we have really great conversation but then just stop when I really thought I've done nothing wrong. At this point I'm so fragile that fake internet friendship breakups hurt! So don't do this to me if you intend to ignore me for no reason! I'd like to have zero emotions and my life is tumultuous I can't have this. I might delete all at once everything on the Internet and I don't want to exist in the first place! At this point tumblr hasn't done anything. It's something I do to avoid life. It is as bad as second life when I used to do that shit. Six years on this site is enough. I've got to move on. If I want my art to gain exposure, portfolio sites exist for a reason. And Instagram works pretty well too. I won't delete or deactivate. At least deleting the phone app will have me off this site completely. Practically quitting cold turkey and I do that to many things I become to obsessed with when I feel it is no longer healthy to my well being. This site is no longer healthy.

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They take you, the use you, they leave you.

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i wonder what’s gonna fuck me up next

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I am sick, sick. Love turns, lust turns, into the death urge.

Sylvia Plath, from a journal entry (via silksaturn)

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I love the abstract, delicate, profound, vague, voluptuously wordless sensation of living ecstatically.

Anais Nin (via kittencrimson)

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What I Think Others Must Think of Me on Here

I am no longer here for you art. I'm here for your sad, pathetic personality that which you portray online.

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Pizza related images. I may be lonely, but at least I always have pizza.

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Visited a whole foods market today and I'm in love with these flowers!

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Loneliness becomes a lover, solitude a darling sin.

The Spy Who Loved Me, Ian Fleming (b. 28 March 1908)

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me: why do Bad Things happen to me

me, remembering im a fundamentally horrible person: ah.....yes,..

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Awww my Luna moth photo from my old blog still makes its way around 💖. I love moths!!! I was thinking about this earlier today and how I haven't seen one since this encounter years ago.

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I need to finish this. I hold myself back every time I get so close to completing something so I can feel sad, depressed, guilty. It’s for the fear of me not liking the finished product because I can still make changes if it’s not done yet. I have so many other great pieces that are 90% done. This is bad habit. I need to finish things or else if I die I will haunt my artwork.