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Hello 2021

What’s up everybody? It has been the long time since the last time I tried to wording. Guess what?? It’s 2021 now! My goodness we made it. I remember how I used to have this kind of mentality where I thought that the journey is going to be too much for me to handle, you fill yourself with doubts and fears, thinking that life will give you so much pressure that you will die slowly but sure. Yet now you promise to yourself that you will go all the way, it’s about living it. I guess we all want to create something that when we look back on it we are so proud of it.

I know the earth may still have some challenges to face in the future. We’ll never know, but don’t you feel exciting a bit knowing the fact that what else does life have in store for you. I don’t know about you, but when it comes to me, have I told anybody that I feel like I’ve been here before. Some people say that my life doesn’t go the way I expected, but me? I guess everything is written, it’s all about fulfilling it.

Every single letter that was stricken, there’s none of it not coming true. I guess as what I believe be done unto me.

It was like the exact setting, the surroundings, the place, the faces, the impressions, the look, the acts, the moments, the meeting, only in different time frame. It happened now, but I knew that I was expecting it long time ago. And everything started to make sense, everything was worth waiting for.

2020 was indeed my year! I might not getting an amount of big cash, landing in some prestigious landmark or any cool places that I was saying, not yet. But will be! I believe! And hey let me ask you something, do you really think the power of money can give you something exactly like what you wanted? Can you you buy a time machine? Because my wish for a restart was granted in full! And it takes a leap of faith to dare heavens.

I mean the surroundings, the place, the looks, the moments, the meeting! I don’t think you can buy heavens! No amount of money can get you the kind of life that is not supposed to be for you.

But it doesn’t matter anymore, what’s the point of having everything but you lose you?

I don’t care about what people say or even believe anymore, eventhough ten thousand people say the world is going to come to an end with the dragons come out of their lairs, scary monsters emerging from the earth, as devils try to make some farewell parties with some horses involved as what is written in the scriptures. I believe it takes way better than that to take us all home, I believe heavens can do better than that!

I believe I am something different! When people believe horrific story as how the heavens work, there’ll be me in the midst of it holding on to something different, ready to turn the world upside down. It takes a simple love story where Jacob meet Rachel that I will do over and over and over if I have to like ten thousand times. To make people believe and feel like home everytime they go back to ten thousands years old of love story.

Ask yourself, would you prefer a love story or a horror movie in your life? Would you go to the same scene if the story is so bad and scary to even imagine? I believe heavens create something that they really really love in terms of story, till they decided to do it twice!

If some people believe at the end of the day they will be swolen by dragons and monsters come out of the earth to deal with humans, then let as what they believe be done unto them!

I am telling you the way to move on is to go back!

It was when I went back, when I go to the source for the answer and started to listen to my heart, that’s when I am home. I am talking about myself here, it’s all back to us! When you put yourself first, in terms of self love, the rest of it just comes along. It takes a couple to create a nation that is fulfiling the promise of God, and I believe it takes a you to create your story and it takes all of us to create our story. Something big always starts with a small act.

The same thing that starts all of this will be the same thing that will end of all this. The same story that starts all of this, is going to be used to end of what is written. In another words heavens love of what they are doing from the start until the end of it.

Cheers for this new year, may all the good old blessings will after us till we stop

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The things you learn in maturity aren’t simple things such as acquiring information and skills. You learn not to engage in self-destructive behavior. You leant not to burn up energy in anxiety. You discover how to manage your tensions, if you have any, which you do. You learn that self-pity and resentment are among the most toxic of drugs. You find that the world loves talent, but pays off on character. You come to understand that most people are neither for you nor against you, they are thinking about themselves. You learn that no matter how hard you try to please, some people in this world are not going to love you, a lesson that is at first troubling and then really quite relaxing.

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Love yourself!

Let me ask you one thing, what will you do if you are being given a time machine?

Well for me,  if I am being given such thing as time machine, I will of course use it wisely, for one purpose only. For me, myself and I, instead of the sake of everybody and the world, oh please! Everybody tries to change the world yet forget on how they shall make some changes first, in order to make a difference. I will use it to go back in time, times when I was way younger than now.

Go back to when I call myself as “my younger self”. And I promise to myself that I will do nothing but only the right thing for her. I will tell her to go easy on herself and don’t be so hard sometimes. For life is not that hard and don’t be fooled by the phrase delivered by some people whose lives are in miseries. It’s our hearts sometimes that are hard to believe, that’s why everything takes longtime to happen, nothing can keep you away from all the things you want, but yourself. 

I’ll learn myself more instead of being distracted and busy with others, so as to know me better and devise the kind of system that works best for me. As to avoid her being stupid, but smarter and wiser, to realize that the story for her is not to find someone but finding herself.

I will respect her more by treating her right. To apply the kind of lifestyle according to heavenly standard and not the world. Taking care of not only her body, but mind and soul. Loving her so hard, that no one insecurity is able to penetrate her beautiful soul, and let it grow and flourish in its time. That no one’s voice is able to shake her belief system that she has been devised for herself just because of people full of doubts. And be firm and strong on her own ground. 

To be presence for her, whenever she needs me the most, in all of her insecurities, when she feels afraid, nervous, in doubt, shy, sad, mad, angry, and hurt by the world. Instead of punish her for being human (alive), not like those heartless who are dead yet are still wandering around, cause they are no good to the living.

No matter where I go, no matter what I do, no matter how many people I will meet during the journey, I will always make sure that I bring myself along. That’s the only way I know that I’m safe, that I’m secure. Because I always have me no matter what.  

That she will only keep the focus on herself instead of others, for there is no way to love others unless you love yourself first. Appreciate things more because as you grow you are supposed to take things more seriously, as to realize not to everybody can get the chance to experience life, yet still remember to laugh all the time. Believe in her more even when nobody believes her. To tell myself more to set the right example at the very young age, for a good example is the best sermon.

When I look into her eyes I see life instead of nothing because she loves herself. And everyone surrounds her can tell how in love she is because she is alive.  All I want to do is to set her free, to be whatever she wants to be because I trust her that she will turn to be her best.

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The tale of two brothers

In this time, where people are mostly being inside in the name of safety, I guess it’s time for

me to really put attention on what is inside. Lots of people got so stressed in this hard time, they worry about their health, financial, and mental condition, it’s not something so surprisingly actually, thanks to this pandemic.

There are two types of people to view this particular crisis. First those who keep looking on the ugly side of the hard time, what’s going to happen next, which is not necessarily wrong, it’s normal. Bad things indeed may happen in times of crisis, however it’s best not to add unnecessarily burden by worrying about the things may happen to others yet not to you. It’s just it’s not good to spend time for something that doesn’t even bring us any comfort anyways. 

I don’t know about you but all I can think of right now is this picture:

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Like when you were little you used to be daddy’s little girl but when you grow up, you become your mom’s best friend. You liked to talk about sisterhood, yet you are inspired by the example of brotherhood. Not because of the old perspective was wrong, no! What is it with people that sometimes just because you choose A they quickly judge you as a B hater. When being served with new covenant they instantly think there must be something wrong with the old one, without the old there wouldn’t be new.

Means I learn a lot because I bring up more subjects. Just as Moses who climbed to the top of the mountain before he died, where there I believe he was able to have wider point of view of everything, where he saw the bigger picture. Things just keep getting better when you trust Him to get you to the top.

Do you know that in times of crisis like this pandemic, those who are willing to risk themselves, to put themselves in the front-line of this pandemic battle, are actually some people who we may never hear about, but they put their hands on right to the source. Not just important people, but some people who are lower when it comes to position in the governmental system who are neither the president or the vice took a stand to deliver hope to the world. I may have to say those cleaning service we used to look down, their services now are important due to the crisis. This hard time teaches us that those ordinary or even everybody have a chance to shine!

I remember how after the baptism being performed on me, I changed and put my dress back on. Took my seat and continue the service, these two fellows were hugging each other, taping each other’s back and were in tears. I didn’t know what exactly was happening but I believe, it was because of the Spirit and the satisfaction of your labor being paid of finally.

The thing is, as they were doing that, unnoticed by them I WAS SO AMAZED AND STUNNED by them. “I wish I have something like this” I said that to myself. They were so in love with each other, expressing their support and compliments towards each other, that I promised to myself that I would do anything, everything just to make that brotherhood love to never cease, for the world deserves something like this.

It’s like they have secrets that only just the two of them who know, just like lovers in a relationship. And guess what I don’t even want to know, not in a negative way of course, but in way where I have so much respect towards them, that I need to know my place as an outsider, or a woman in the middle of these two gentlemen. I can never be the center of this story just because I took the center place on the picture, IT’S NOT ABOUT ME! It’s about these two brothers who love each other! It’s called the tale of two brothers.

You have to know that these two young fellows are not part of senior members of their church, they even just started their mission when somehow I happened to meet them. So technically they are juniors on the field. Not many experiences I believe. However amazingly heavens use something that according to the world judgement would not be considered as worthy enough, and they did it in a matter of short time.

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Does that make sense to you?

Today March 24th 2020, well actually what is being so well known these days is about this corona virus. Hopefully it will end as soon as possible.

However that is not what I am trying to say now. Now what I am trying to say is,

I REALLY REALLY AM ABLE TO HAVE A BIG LAUGH NOW, THANKS TO HEAVENS!

How do I know that somehow my heart can beat again?

How do I know that somehow I have the courage to start at something without even let my stupid thoughts and stupid emotions to rule over me?

How do I know at older age I still can act like such teen, feeling shy, nervous and acting silly just to get the attention? Feeling like wanting to take out all the dresses from my wardrobe that I used to feel not confident to put them on. Like no matter how pretty those dresses are, they mean nothing if they never being seen.

How do I know that somehow I am still able to respect life when I told many times to myself, that one more scripture and I‘m losing it! Thanks to people and their lack of wisdom yet dragging God and silly traditions to justify what they have done over others, must be sucks being God, for He got to be blamed for all the stupidity that mankind created. Yet somehow the words are living in me.

How do I know that everything is possible if I never tried to ask something that is impossible, like A TIME MACHINE and indeed it is what being given to you. All I wanted to do to life is run and run, but now I’m stayed and still!

How do I know how good actually I am in life, when I am able to treat it nicely despite how bad the world used to treat me.

When people are getting sick with life why am I feeling like getting a cure here?

Sometimes all you need is a person for I am not dead yet! It takes a living one to bring you back to life again.

It’s like you’ll never know how much you love your root until you try to uproot yourself. But that’s not something I want to talk about. What I am trying to say is, just because you love yourself so much that doesn’t mean you’re not able to love someone else. Just because you try to understand yourself better doesn’t mean you don’t want to learn about others. Why you have to choose when you can have the best of both world, where it takes two to be perfect. When you can abandon yourself in someone’s eyes and those eyes take you into a whole new perspective of life. To learn to see yourself from a different side, I guess that is the true meaning of converting. Learning to see things from different perspective by staring at someone’s heavenly eyes instead of busy being afraid and insecure with myself. How sucks my old perspective of life. That I was so selfish, kept blaming life for everything that I was creating. Till I wasn’t able to see things from His side. Now I never want to doubt in the power of heavens again. I open my heart and now I believe.

I wouldn’t trade my freedom with anything, the problem is then why on earth I’m letting myself being caught in silliness, instead of being free living my dream, the life and dreams in the eyes. It’s just a matter of time, for love sets me free so it’s my free will to love.

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Heavens worked!

You know what suck is, suck is when it is too much for you sometimes to deal with, yet nobody helps to make it easier either.

Guess what do your self a favor and do something about that!

Nobody gives a shit with you, unless you do!

There are always all kinds of people, and believe me they enrich you in all terms when it comes to lessons towards wisdom.

Learn to see the good side of life, and live it up!

Life is actually so much fun if you live it up!

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