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Hoo boy i don't think i'd get any fic writing done this week and next 🥹 i have to get some research writing done first

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Can't believe Angela Zhang, my drama icon during my high school years, is singing a song for Love and Deepspace. What a flex. What a queen.

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서울 후암동 (Huam-dong, Seoul) 1

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滋賀県 東近江市 永源寺 Siga Higashiomi Eigenji

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農家cafe Raku

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its extremely important to read widely and deeply in a variety of genres. read obscure self published shit that only 4 people have read. read culturally relevant works of literature that have helped shape the canon. read horror. read women's lit. read historical fiction and comedies and nonfiction and hentai and poetry and science fiction and fantasy and mysteries and romance and good things and bad things and things u hate and things you love and things you COULD like if only the author changed x y and z and things which are beautiful but not meant for you.

doing all of this reading will lay a groundwork of rich complexity in your heart. so that you can write really good porn

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reblog to give writers the power to write 10k words of porn without plot

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hey, did you know that the world is a better place because of your creations and art and writing, no matter how niche or how many people see it

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03/15/2025 | Kiba Park

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“Appeal to a wider audience” is corporate lingo for “strip more themes from a piece of media so it’s safer and more sanitized for investors”

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Yoshiteru Ashikaga

A former 13th Shogun of the Muromachi Shogunate shrouded in many mysteries.

He reigns nobly over Kyoto, a city known as a "utopia."

For some reason, he seems interested in you and is trying to bring you to his side.

Come with me—for the sake of eternal peace and a perfect utopia.

Eternal and Unchanging

Birthday: May 20

Height: 174.5 cm

Blood Type: Type O

Hobbies: Absentmindedly listening to people's conversations while sipping tea and eating sweets

Special Skills: Memorization, swordsmanship

Favorite Food: Warm meals (though he has a sensitive tongue)

Image Flower: Snowdrop

Hisahide Matsunaga

A notorious warlord of the Sengoku era, known for repeatedly staging rebellions.

Blessed with handsome looks, impeccable manners, and a refined intellect. This guy seems to have it all.

There are even rumors that women can't help but fall for a certain hidden side of him.

If you don't want to be betrayed, always stay strong. Just kidding.

Master of Deception

Birthday: December 22

Height: 177.8 cm

Blood Type: Type A

Hobbies: He has many hobbies, but he quickly loses interest in them after picking them up.

Special Skills: Mixing gunpowder, negotiation

Favorite Food: Beltfish

Image Flower: Queen of the Night

Kuroda Kanbei

Though he always wears a gentle smile, he's an enigmatic strategist.

With intelligence beyond human comprehension, he commands the battlefield, his tactics deciding the fate of his soldiers.

Unbound by societal morals, he sees people as nothing more than his "playthings."

All humans are adorable. But among them, I like you the most.

Praise and Scorn

Birthday: February 8

Height: 183.0 cm

Blood Type: AB

Hobbies: Assembling small pieces of wood to build miniature castles

Special Skills: Foresight

Favorite Food: Sea bream

Image Flower: Wisteria

Saizo Kirigakure ♡

A timid young man who carries a subtle but unsettling air of danger.

He tends to ramble with pessimistic remarks.

It's said that enemies who encounter him on the battlefield at night never return alive.

Ah, I survived again. Sorry for being too strong.

Fate Unknown

Birthday: October 17

Height: 175.0 cm

Blood Type: Type B

Hobbies: Drawing

Special Skills: All-around ninja skills

Favorite Food: Meat

Image Flower: Moonflower

Sen no Rikyu

He has a flashy, suspicious appearance, yet he's made a name for himself as a master of the tea ceremony.

A dangerous man with a twisted sense of humor, he manipulates information during tea gatherings to lead others to misfortune.

Harboring a warped heart, he still scatters malice with a smile to this day.

Well then, shall we build the gates of our utopia atop a mountain of corpses and coat them in gaudy gold?

Taking Pleasure in Others' Misfortune

Birthday: September 19

Height: 179.0 cm

Blood Type: Type A

Hobbies: Tea ceremony

Special Skills: Secret discussions held in the tea room

Favorite Food: Unconventional, avant-garde Japanese sweets

Image Flower: Hydrangea

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*touches his face longingly*

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LianYu Art Museum: LiZeYan Rozen

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i found a small fandom, less than 10 pages of works on AO3 (one of my past fandoms was Star Wars, that's why that seems tiny to me), and i want to be involved in this fandom. but, because the fandom is so small, i know that it's way more likely for me to be noticed, and i'm intimidated by that thought. with Star Wars, i was noticed but i was pretty much under the radar, because the fandom is huge. but with this small fandom, i know if i post something, i won't really be under the radar anymore, because there's so little fan content. how can i become less scared of this?

You're not alone in this, anon. I've been noticing it in myself, in recent years, that I'm more self-conscious about my online presence than I used to be. We could dig deep into that whole conversation another time if you're interested, but for now let's focus in on dealing with that state of mind.

What part of being noticed to you find scary?

There are a lot of possibilities, of course. You could worry about being deemed not good enough. Or you could fear that the things you want to write are not the things that people want to read. Maybe you worry that you'll be someone who creates one of those famous "fanon" ideas that everyone latches onto and later hates because everyone latched onto it.

An even deeper worry might be that, even with a small audience, you won't be noticed after all. Or that they'll notice and then reject you.

Posting your fanworks in a place where other people can see them brings its own kind of stage fright, sometimes, and it sounds like you might be experiencing that. The good thing about AO3, though, is that you can post any time that you want to, so you can wait until you're in a good frame of mind before you dive in.

There are a few things you could try out and see if any of them help:

Turn off comments when you post your work. If people can't comment, then you won't feel bad about not receiving any (if that's your worry).

Write your stuff without posting it at all. Get comfortable with your fics first and feel good about them on your own terms. Then, when you post you won't feel as nervous about whether other people like them (if that's your worry).

Reach out to other folks in the fandom, either by commenting on their works on AO3 or by finding them here on tumblr or on other social media. Make some acquaintances and maybe even friends, and that might make you feel more like a welcome community member than a stranger or an interloper (if that's your worry).

It all comes down to trying to pinpoint what the scary thing actually is so that you can find the best way to make it less scary. As someone who has been posting in a fandom with (one sec while I check) 4 pages of results on AO3, I'll just say that people are lovely actually and things are rarely ever as bad in reality as you fear that they might be in your head. ❤️

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It's coming

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Quick what are you doing RIGHT now (besides scrolling Tumblr)