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going on haitus!! kind of impulsive but also not really. we need to get some irl and system shit under control + we’re having guests over for the week so we need to go singlet mode while sorting things out. WE WILL COME BACK, THIS ACCOUNT IS NOT GETTING DELETED!!!! mutuals/friends if yall want my (nuttys) account, ill be on there while this one goes dark so feel free to ask for it!!!

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I just wanted to thank you again for the resources and advice. Looking into it, what I experience is infinitely closer to PDID than OSDD. I'll definitely make sure to bring both of those up to my psychiatrist and go over them separately too, just to be sure. :D

Now, the thing I wanted to say is, I don't know if I have trauma. All I remember is memories from ages 6 til 12 of me staring into a mirror or at my hands, repeating "I'm me" like a mantra and feeling extremely detached from my body, my surroundings, my emotions, etc. I don't know what would cause a 6 year old to feel like that, and I don't know if it can just happen irrationally, but I don't remember any trauma.

And I do know that dissociative disorders are traumagenic, and that's what makes me feel like I'm faking. Because since my dissociation started young, I don't think I'm endogenic, but at the same time, I don't remember any trauma either.

I don't know why I'm typing this. I just feel like I'm being dramatic whenever I see the word trauma attached to my symptoms, because I'm I'm traumatized.

I don't know.

just a gentle reminder that the point of the disorder is to not remember trauma and that whats traumatic for a child may not be traumatic for a teen or an adult!! honestly, DP/DR at that young of an age seems to have been traumatic enough considering the response that you recalled and the response that you’re currently exploring

kinda to repeat what i said in that ask, dont look into trauma until youve developed your coping skills and safety plan. it would suck to go searching for it and end up flashing back or making dissociation worse or even splitting because you werent ready to pull yourself out or you didnt have a safe place/person to explore with

also, some kids are more prone to dissociation than others! dont discount anything if thats the only coping mechanism you had/utilized at the time. not to mention, part of dissociative amnesia is “filling in the blanks”. i know that pseudomemories are treated weird in the psych field and that people online are generally dickish about them, but theyre there for a reason. if your only memories from that time (or if most of your memories from that time) are of that particular event with those particular words and actions, its probably repeated enough without trauma/consequence attached to be the only “safe” memory and/or was the only memory from that time that was “safe” enough to fill in those blanks/cover up trauma. again, dont look into it, but those are just a couple reasons why that might be happening!!

i get feeling weird about the word “trauma”. i feel the exact same way whenever i talk about that sort of stuff with irls or people who dont have a CDD because its just so embarrassing to admit that something happened. i mean, part of having PTSD/CPTSD/a CDD is denial, and that discomfort (and the “im being dramatic” response!) sounds like it might be coming from a place of denial (conscious or not)

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Dissociative Identity Disorder is just PTSD's premium edition guys

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(cw: sexual assault) the pedophile -as it is understood outside of academic circles- is a mythical creature. the idea that a complete stranger who kidnaps and sexually assaults kids is their biggest threat is absolutely insane; not one case of CSA (child sexual assault) in a hundred looks like that. CSA is committed almost uniformly by adults in a preestablished position of authority (such as family, family friends, clergy, or teachers) and in a way that a victim who doesn't know what sexual assault looks like will be left unsure what happened to them. without knowing concretely how sex and sexuality works, would you be able to tell the difference between molestation and the various other forms of unwanted physical touch and abuse kids are regularly subjected to? would it even seem that different? but parenthood and the submission of youth to adults as institutions are threatened by the reality of CSA. adults need to justify their ownership of children through an imagined outside threat constantly held at bay through their diligence. the truth - that putting yourself in such a position of authority over children directly enables abuse (including sexual abuse) - is thrown aside.

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you explained why your account name is plurlpositivity… and i agree that is has a cute ring to it :^

dont feel super duper pressured to change it, its YOUR account lmao

Should I rebrand to ''System Positivity''?

[Plaintext: Should I rebrand to ''System Positivity?'']

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I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH DISSOCIATIVE DISORDERS THAT AREN’T TALKED ABOUT OFTEN!!!!

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH OSDD-2!!!

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH OSDD-3!!!

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH OSDD-4!!!

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH UDD!!!

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE WITH P-DID!!!

YOU ARE VALID!!!!!

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mild vent.

lots of hypersexual persectors/traumaholders/fragments fronting as of late and ive never been more sure of our CDD because as hard as i try to remember what theyve been up to for the past however long, i just cant. i need to know what theyve been doing to make sure we arent in active danger, because if we are then i have to delete everything and start us over with a new instant blocklist. but theres just. nothing. nothing at all. blank. as far as im aware, they havent put us in any physical danger, but we keep logging back into this account despite having never logged out and im real nervous about what that implies.

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Does anyone have recommendations on good social norms for beginners? I'm looking to start conforming more but I'm not sure which norms will provide the most social currency. Thanks

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im complaining again about white/american people stealing cultures

today: taking a pre-existing thing and japan-ifying it.

people dont call themselves [animal][gender] (like catboy or doggirl), they call themselves kemonomimis. people dont call themselves selfshippers or insert x canon, they call themselves yumeshippers. its only ever americans and white people. its fucking weird.

this perpetuated stereotype of “thing from place japan = better/cuter/cooler” is annoying. you people are annoying. use the words that were made for you and leave stuff that isnt a part of your ethnicity/culture alone. if youre not japanese, you do not need to be using japanese terms to refer to something that already has a word. your experience isnt enhanced in any way by using japanese terminology. please for the love of god stop.

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first youtube analysis i've wanted to watch voluntarily

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nothing more fun /s than finally noticing you switched after 2 hours of feeling blurry all because your dad said “can you put your pizza away” and the first thought you had was “its not my pizza, its elliotts pizza”

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@flipcupbrandon its you!!!

oh if requests are open...mayhaps a MinuteTech or a Spoke...your choice

i have never drawn minute before and i wish i could say the same for spoke

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is this a threat or a prophetic vision, mr broogle

Glad everyone is having a fun time with their self-discoveries in preparation for pride month personally I'm totally straight

-🗡

For now

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and saying they are not only keeps you from progressing but scares/triggers other autistic programmees.

Your newest hyperfixation and/or your special interests are NOT scripts that were used in your programming.

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Are you 🫵 pissed off about the Lilo and Stitch monstrosity remake? Do you want to know how you can actually make a difference in supporting the people and ecosystems of Hawaii?

Tourism is a big issue in Hawaii (which the remake got rid of the original's commentary on because it makes foreigners look bad). I'm not gonna promote it, BUT I know that realistically, thousands of people arrive here every single day by the airplane-ful. And the majority of them aren't educated on the socio-cultural and economic impacts of tourism. SO, I'm making this post in an effort to educate visitors. If you or someone you know is visiting or moving to Hawaii (whether by circumstances in or out of your control), here are some suggestions on how you can give back!

You can donate to the Hawaii Community Foundation, which has been instrumental in giving aid to the displaced community of Lahaina after the Maui wildfires in 2023. They also provide scholarships to students of under-represented communities.

If you're interested in visiting Kualoa Ranch, you can do their Mālama Experience where you get your hands dirty giving back to the ‘āina (land)!

There are other organizations you can join to volunteer with, too, like Kupu and Mālama Maunalua. Check them out; maybe you can help with a beach cleanup or plant native trees! These are both non-profit organizations that accept monetary donations.

Visit the Bishop Museum to learn about Hawaiian history and culture! They also have events focused on sustainability and conservation.

If you're visiting Hilo on the Big Island, go visit the Laulima Nature Center! They're a non-profit aimed at protecting Hawaii's native species, and they even have an online store that ships to the US mainland and internationally! (After I post this, I'm gonna head on over and get myself a manu o Kū pin ♡)

A few other tips I have:

DO: Respect the locals' homes. Several beaches and hiking trails have access points in residential areas. Please be mindful to keep your voices down when passing by, and park ONLY in designated parking areas.

DO: Wear reef-safe sunscreen! Sunscreens containing oxybenzone and octinoxate are banned in Hawaii because they are known to damage coral reefs.

DON'T: Approach wildlife, particularly honu (sea turtles) and 'īlio holo i ka uaua (Hawaiian monk seals). Stay at least 10 feet (3 meters) away from turtles and at least 50 feet (15 meters) away from monk seals. If you see someone harassing animals, report them to the statewide NOAA Marine Wildlife Hotline: (888) 256-9840. You can also contact the Hawaii State Department of Land and Natural Resources.

DON'T: Collect sand, rocks, or other natural items to bring home with you. This is to protect the ecosystems and also out of respect for Kānaka Maoli (Native Hawaiians), who have cultural beliefs regarding lava rocks in particular. Taking lava rocks is extremely disrespectful.

DON'T: Litter! Please throw away your waste in proper trash cans. If you see a bin that says "ʻōpala," that's a trash can!

Many Kānaka Maoli (Native Hawaiians) are moving to the US mainland because the cost of living in Hawaii has been driven up so high (because of people moving here), they can't afford to live in their ancestral home. So, if you are going to visit or move to Hawaii, please:

- Make the effort to support local businesses, especially those owned by Native Hawaiians!

- Educate yourself and your loved ones about actual Hawaiian culture!

- Try Hawaiian food, like poi!

- Learn some Hawaiian words and don't be afraid to ask how to pronounce words correctly!

- Donate to a food bank!

- Watch films and read books written by Native Hawaiians!

My hope is that whoever sees this post will use it to educate themselves, their friends, and their families who are considering visiting.

My background is in sustainability and the environment, so that's what I know to suggest off the top of my head. If any Kānaka Maoli read this post and have suggestions to add, please do!

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having a physical form is so uncomfy. like blegh :c

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REAL ASF its always “all systems matter!” “all persecutors/prosecutors are valid!” until the system has a conservative alter as if we WANTED them 💀 like man we didnt ask for a republican, hes a product of his environment its not our fault

We should really emphasize the fact that alters can be ANYONE and believe in ANYTHING because we have an alter refusing to show themselves but everytime someone fronts after they did, our entire feed is filled with looksmaxxing posts antivax posts and posts advocating for the consumption of raw meat and milk. WHO ARE YOU.