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finderskeepersff · 5 years

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55. Part 2

“You know you better change that caption Cassius, I ain’t playing” resting my chin just on his shoulder watching him, I ain’t playing with him calling me dick pleaser on his caption “I am watching, go on” he ain’t typing because he is thinking of something stupid, it’s the first time he is putting me on his page and he wants to be a whole ass dummy over it “I actually want to see your bio too while you’re at it, I let you off too much. You don’t even have a picture of me, and guess what I have you on my page. I am going to delete your pictures” Cassius cackled “ok, ok, I will be good” I will bite him if he does be stupid again “ok, just close your eyes” he moved away from me so I cant see his phone “seriously, like I am not playing with you” staring at him as he typed what ever the fuck he want “I am aggy with you actually, how you got more followers with some simple ass shit” Cassius snorted laughing “simple ass shit? Clearly my face is good enough” I bet his profile is not locked “well I can also have that, just I have my account locked, let me take that off and we will see” I don’t pay much attention to this but I am now “so you ready?” nodding my head, we ain’t left this car because he kept trying to be ugly “me and Sofia” he took that long write that “give me your phone” reaching over “I am joking, just relax. Read it” he held his phone out to me “my fiancée Sofia, my think-piece. My trap queen and the woman at my side to make shit happen. You see how beautiful she is, she loved this hood nigga and now she rolling in a Lambo. This nigga is in love with her goofy ass” I read out from his phone, looking up from his phone “you try so hard to not be cute, I take that from you” looking down at his phone and posted the picture “so I want to see how many bitches thirst over you” I really would like to see “that picture of Kyle and I, that got many likes. I am rolling” side eyeing him, taping on the image of him and Kyle, the first comment is run a train on me “you follow this chick?” tapping on her name “why do you follow her?” Cassius shrugged “I know her actually, she lives in my block. I don’t really care for it, you my baby” he took the phone from me “am I” I don’t know how to feel about it.

Olivia smiled at me “Cassius why don’t you get me Cartier’ bottle and make it and then you feed him, take him” Olivia looked at Cassius and I, Cassius is fine but I am not. I don’t know what to feel about a lot of the things. Like I know he wouldn’t fuck on me, he is too stuck on me and he wouldn’t leave my side but I don’t think he should be following these girls on there and then talking to Celine, it’s not logical to speak to her “we was just watching Jungle Book, weren’t we?” Cartier is more happy to see his hands, I don’t know what Mia is on “you must be bored with these girl my young don” Cassius took Cartier “how did your little meeting go? Olivia fell asleep and snored, she won’t admit to it” Olivia put a finger up at Mia but Olivia does snore, just nobody says anything “god bless Kenton’ ears” I had to laugh “sorry” I said through my laugh “mhmm, bitch asses” that was funny “so it went fine, we was outside the house for a while actually” Mia shuffled over to me so Olivia can sit “we heard the damn car” that is true “it went ok, I guess. So Cassius told me that he is speaking to Celine, in regards to Bryce” I am not saying the real truth that Carnell sold him “I don’t like that” Olivia put her finger up “one minute, the same bitch I was going to fight. Is he on crack?” side eyeing Olivia “I mean not literally but why? She likes him, she clearly wants his dick again Sofia. Don’t have that, no way. She was in your home flirting with him, you being too nice with all that” Olivia is not quiet “it’s not that I am being nice but Cassius likes to use Celine in other ways, I don’t like to be on his case about things but that is my cousin, she fucked my man and I still find that annoying-” I stopped speaking seeing Cassius “test that for me” Olivia is giving Cassius dead eyes “where are you going to feed him?” hopefully not here, testing the milk on my wrist “that is fine” passing him the bottle “just in the room, I mean bedroom. I will probably fall asleep” nodding my head.

“So yeah, I don’t like it and I said it to him but I know he isn’t fully getting it but I don’t like to be on his case but he had sex with this girl for years. He may not have verbally claimed her but she was there, he would stay at her place and everything and I don’t want him to have contact with her. I mean could he stray away from me and then on top of that” Mia touched my hand “why are you are getting upset, Sofia” I smiled trying to not cry “I just don’t want to lose him, you know. There is many girls out there that want this and are better than me, I try and not be on his case because I don’t want to lose him. I am scared. Then on his Instagram, he has all that now. I never paid attention to it and I did in the car, he never posted me. Just him and his son, and the girls are wild for it. He follows these girls, what do you think? How am I supposed to be ok with that? Then he said it’s nothing. I know her, you probably did Cassius, you probably fucked her too and I know he did, that winking emoji does it. I know he loves me but it doesn’t harm anyone if I don’t know” wiping the tear that fell “this needs to be nipped in the bud quick, I think Cassius wouldn’t stray away. Niggas that wash your hair are to keep, not a lie. I think he does love you so he wouldn’t do that, Cassius seems like a guy that doesn’t see the wrong in it. She’s a friend and that is it, you don’t really bark at Cassius like you should. We all do it, I did it with Mitch and you remember that time. I was like fuck you I am gone, you need to tell him you don’t like it. He can’t be speaking to a woman or women he was fucking. He has a girl he is marrying here and that is worth ten of them, Sofia stop it. Do not cry, he is not straying away or disliking you, I think it is far from that. He doesn’t see the wrong in it, I mean Cassius doesn’t the wrong in many things I see that” I am such an emotional wreck “I think you should get his phone and see first” Olivia added “don’t be weak either” I just want an easy life.

I am weak, I know I am weak but I need to suck it up and raise it with him. Pushing the door open, I expected Cassius to be awake but he isn’t “Sofia” Mia said behind me “what?” turning to her “get his phone” nodding my head, I don’t want the burner phone so I hope that I can just find his phone, I just want to see for myself without him shrugging it off, I don’t like it and I never raised it with him and I forgot all about the Insta page and now I think of it, it’s wrong. It’s just not good, I want to see. Looking over at the bed seeing Cassius and Cartier asleep in bed, they are so cute together. I knew he would fall asleep, walking around the bed. Lowkey Cassius can be scary, he is not openly scary to me but he has that side to him so I hope he just stays asleep and I can just check and then know what I am working with. His phone is always on the side table but it don’t look like it is this time, so it has to be in his pocket. Lifting up the bed cover, it’s there in his pocket but how the hell can I actually get that. Maybe I should just leave it but then it’s going to drive me crazy, it’s kind of awkward getting a phone out of a jean pocket but let me try this. Looking up at Cassius, and he is still asleep. Slowly digging into his pocket, I gasped as Cassius gripped my wrist “what are you doing?” fear hit me quick.

I swallowed hard “what are you doing Sofia?” he said again, this is not good but I don’t care I need to do it “I want to see your phone” I said, I said it but that slight fear in me wanted me to be a coward about this “why?” He didn’t let my wrist go “because I don’t like what I saw earlier, I would like to see your phone” he let my wrist go “they put you up to this? I mean look at it, I don’t really care but that is dumb” looking over at the door, Mia and Olivia are both there watching “no, let me correct you there Cassius. I want to see it, it was me that told them about this, it’s me. So give me it” Cassius is angry at me, the look he is giving is really not cute and I feel the second argument coming “have it, do as you please Sofia but you fooling yourself” he unlocked his phone “that is all” taking his phone “who said you can take it out of the room?” he said as I walked off “me!” I retorted.

Cassius did come down, and he has made himself comfortable to watch me “you know these girl you have followed how do you know them? They all look like hoes” Cassius laughed “I follow you, does that make you one? They ain’t hoes Sofia” squinting my eyes at him “so who are they Cassius, answer me that. You don’t know them? What is it?. Mia and Olivia, I want to speak to him alone” he will probably speak better “sure, I am going to get something to eat, come on Olivia” Mia got up from the couch “ain’t no secret Sofia, I do know them from school and then now” who is this Bianca, why is she messaging him. Looking up from the phone waiting for them to leave “I fuck with them, I had sex with them. That is what you wanted to know, technically I know them” looking back down at the phone “I don’t want to speak wrong of the dead but if I was to be good with Jordan and I fucked him, which I didn’t, you would be cool with that? Your brother, you fine with that?” I know he wouldn’t be “but you didn’t” he said “I didn’t! Because I fucked you!” I pointed at him “Bianca? Who is that? Y’all message a lot on this” Cassius sighed out “a school friend, my ex in school. I was a teenager” he defended “but nigga you ain’t one now, talking about meet me?” looking at Cassius “read the rest then” looking back down at the message “I know what I put in there, I said no. I said I have a son, I have a wife. I don’t play that, so she said I feel that. And then the messages were fine, I ain’t fucking on you Sofia. What do you want me to do!? I follow females, but that ain’t shit. Don’t be toxic like your friends, use your own brain. You know me, you just jumping off one thing” pulling a face at him.

“Don’t call my friends toxic, they ain’t that. I went to them because I was so upset, Celine is a no Cassius. These girls that have had your dick is a no too, when will you get it, when will you accept that you and Celine is a no. I feel you have this bond with her you can’t let go, am I right? Why can’t you just let her go, she fucking wants you. My friend fought her on what? She saw it. And you openly call her when you know she wants you, these bitches want you, and you think I can’t feel insecure. I don’t think you are cheating but just for you to look at these girls and feel some type of way, am I not that good” Cassius rubbed his temples on his head “not that good? If I wanted a girl that wanted me for just money then I can get that, you came into my life and you was all feelings, I ain’t that. I find it hard at times to show that but with you I do because I love you woman! I want you, I love you, I have cried for you. I have sat here and seen things and thought will this look good on Sofia, what will Sofia look like as a bride and you think I look at these hoes and care? Fuck Celine, I don’t care for her. What you want me to do to make you feel better? I don’t like this, I don’t like you upset and why are you crying!?” wiping the tears that fell “you said you imagined me as a bride” I sobbed out “wow, I mean yes I did. Don’t cry” Cassius took his phone from me and sat next to me “you ain’t insecure, I don’t believe that hype. I don’t want no other woman, trust me on that. I don’t post you on there because you mine and I don’t like niggas seeing you like that” Cassius held my hand, I am a mess.

Cassius’ thumb lightly grazed my hand “I don’t like you sad, I really don’t Sofia. I am not doing anything to upset you at all. I am not” I feel stupid “I just see other females and I don’t like it, even with Celine. I don’t want to lose you and it’s like what if I am just annoying, even now. I wasn’t doubting your trust, I was doubting other girls. I mean look at Bianca, she wants you” I hope he understands “but I want you, I get it. Because I dislike other men with you, trust me I do understand but you shouldn’t let doubts come into your mind like that because you and I are here for the long run, it hurts to know you don’t think I was being faithful. You think I can be bothered with any other girl? I mean that is the laughable part, I can’t be bothered with much Sofia. You being highly sensitive though” looking up at him “don’t cry” he wiped my tears “you know I was thinking, when we old. I would wipe your ass” I snorted laughing “shut up, you will be older than me. You’re already thirty dummy” he is so cute when he smiles “then you can wipe my ass, I am good with that. Clean my wrinkly balls” I gagged “be quiet” he is so disgusting.

Cassius placed his arm around me “on a real, I just want you to know that I am yours. For the first time I am seeing us getting old together, I never thought that far ahead because I didn’t see it with the shit that was going on. If I felt that I wanted another woman why would I think that, you know the funny thing. In these kind of situations I usually go to Kyle and ask him for help, I am so bad at this but I did it myself. I am learning, I learning how to love and how to be a better person for you. Why would I do that for what? Just to cheat with some random bitch, ok I followed some girls that I do actually know but I ain’t got nothing to hide, and yes they do be some random bitches that come into my DMs but that ain’t nothing, I love you Sofia” I feel bad now “I am sorry” I apologised “why you saying sorry? You acted on what you saw, I am not angry with you. I mean I did get annoyed but I had nothing to hide. Sofia I ain’t that guy to be taking it out on you and then call you out on it, I am not here for that. I am just here to love you. And you acted that way because I didn’t really explain and you saw that, If I saw that I would do the same. I know you baby, I do. Don’t apologise for it” I hate myself, I actually doubted him “we can’t help that we too sexy, you know that right?” I giggled resting my head on his shoulder.

Scratching the side of my face as I blew the smoke out from my lips, I don’t have anything to prove to people but I like Sofia to see that I am proud of her and she is my girl. I ain’t angry at the situation but I want her to feel secure, placing the blunt between my lips tapping the picture of Sofia when we went to Miami on her birthday, I like these pictures because it’s a start of something new and it was like that feeling was there. She looked beautiful on her birthday so you know, I am posting it. Typing in the caption ‘I was feeling her from start, Miami for her 25th. Look at my baby smile’ pressing send, moving the blunt back. It’s funny because a lot of niggas on here and girls didn’t know I am engaged so it’s like what? And congratulations, I am blessed with Sofia so much. I will post one more picture and then I am done, I am not hiding Sofia but I just don’t want niggas feeling on my girl either. I am going to post this, when she fell asleep with Cartier in arms. She was so tired, tapping on the picture and captioning the picture ‘I know none y’all niggas bitches look this pretty while asleep’ pressing send, I got up from the seat outside. I am outside because I wanted a blunt so I had to stay outside.

“You came back, finally” Sofia said, pulling the dining chair back “I know, I was having a blunt outside, young king” touching Cartier’ cheek “y’all scare me” walking around the dining table “nigga bye, I just wanted my friend to air it out. It’s not good to keep it in is it?” sitting down on the chair on opposite side “I get it but she could just come and talk to me” which I wish she did “but we needed receipts before we attack you” Olivia is something else “y’all really ride for Sofia and I get it, she is loved and that is what she needs. I am not cheating or anything, I adore Sofia a lot. I get it, I get why she reacted like that. She knows me, I know she does. She knows when I am going through stuff, I don’t do feelings but like, look at her. How can I not?” Sofia just giggled, as she does “she’s ok” Mia waved her off “but like I don’t want you to think we are against you but Sofia is not vocal at all, she has to be pushed. She is a soft hearted girl and she gets hurt so easily. She walked in and she cried so of course we was like you need to deal with it. I said it to her, I goes a nigga that washes your hair is for life, I knew it” I wish Sofia doesn’t tell everyone that “but y’all can fuck after, can we start wedding prep? Get a date at least” I guess I am going to need to do this.

I liked the sound of sex actually, I am glad Mia said that “ok listen to me, Cassius. You have been too quiet. You need to go suit shopping, you need to get the theme right. Sofia what colour?” I shrugged, let Sofia choose “well who are your best men?” Sofia asked “just Kyle” I ain’t having nobody else “ok, I think grey. Get a grey suit. I don’t mind grey or blue ok” Mia ticked something on her paper “so we found a venue, it’s about ten thousand to just hire and a coordinator, then you adding the rest. So could be more” I shrugged “anything for you Sofia, I mean there won’t be many of my side coming. I mean nobody. I don’t think anyways” Sofia sighed out “Jasmine will be” blowing out air as Sofia said that “Celine is not invited” Olivia added “that is Bryce’ mom, I am marrying Sofia what does it matter? She’s bound to be there because of family relations now” I don’t get the issue, it’s not an issue really because I don’t want her like that.

#Chrianna #Chrianna FF #Fanfic #Fanfiction

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the-trth-untold · 6 years

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now its ur turn. do all of the sweetheart asks.

god jsjsjhdjk im just letting u kno these answers r gonna be BORING but hhhh THANK U

1. Talk about your first love.

i’ve never been in love, never been in a relationship before. BUT i can vaguely remember my first crush back in 2nd grade. all i can remember was that his name was kyle and he was the only boy who ever spoke to me and my brain just went !!!

2. What’s the most beautiful song you’ve ever heard in your opinion?

Break My Heart Again - FINNEAS or What Was Our Love All About - Adrian Milanio and Marylou Villegas

these are just two that i can think of there are A LOT of beautiful songs

3. How’s your heart feeling right now?

fine??

4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do?

i dont really do any self care things??

5. What’s your skincare routine?

i dont do any skincare routines either... ik im a monster

6. How did you get to be so beautiful?

u must be blind if u think that

7. Do you have any stuffed animals?

i used to have over 50 stuffed animals, i would always place them all over my bed neatly but i got rid of them now :(

8. Best trip you’ve ever been on?

Myrtle Beach, SC because it was my first vacation spot and i was so happy seeing two dolphins close to the shore

9. Favorite thing about your room?

the color of my walls and blankets lol mint green and peach colors

i dont have anything cool in my room

10. Opinion on love?

i mean, it’d be nice to experience it some day and i hope i do but right now im content being by myself

11. Are you affectionate?

if i know you very well i can be, if not im very awkward and will barely make any eye contact with you

12. Who do you look up to?

i look up to people who have struggled a lot in their life, people who can be optimistic in any situation

13. Favorite poet?

i dont read much poetry, but i loved reading some things Emily Dickinson has published

14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place?

honestly any disney song makes me happy! im a huge disney nerd and listening to any of those songs makes me feel nostalgic.

when im in a bad place, any slow, ballad sounding song can calm me down

15. Do you play an instrument?

i played the flute in middle school but dropped it after less than a week LOL

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?

i like doing digital art but im not good at it and i dont have adobe illustrator anymore so i haven’t done anything recently

17. Do you dance? What style of dance?

i cannot dance and no one will make me

IM TOO EMBARRASSED EVEN IF IM ALONE HAHAHA

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology?

im a libra

i somewhat believe in astrology, i know there’s more to it than just your sun sign and there are different placements that make you different from the stereotypical traits people use for each sign

a lot of the “things about each sign” can be used for anyone because the responses can be very vague and many people can relate to

19. Favorite old film?

too many

the shining, the breakfast club, carrie, pretty in pink, etcetcetc

20. What’s your hairstyle?

idk its a mess

curly/wavy and i have hardcut bangs

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?

fall weather, where its like 50 F (or 10 C for all u weirdos out there), cold enough to put on a flannel and boots

22. What upsets you most about the world?

i only have two hands but there are so many cats and dogs. i cannot pet all of them. (IM SORRY THIS WAS UR ANSWER DASHA BUT IM KEEPING IT ITS SO CUTE AND FUNNY AND I RELATE)

23. Are you in love right now?

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!

i dont have a crush lol

25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them!

yes!!! i have two gorgeous puppies!!! if u wanna check them out u can follow my instagram i post them all the time @ the.moon.atomic

they’re such dorks but they fit my household idk how to describe it they just belong in my house hahha

26. Do you have a lucky number?

i dont really believe in lucky numbers

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash?

no, and i never heard about wishing on a fallen eyelash haha

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work?

no???????? i dont even know what that is

29. Do you believe in magic in general?

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?

when people finally stop hiding their true selves, show their real smiles, and laugh so hard they snort

idk i just love people, well, most anyway sjsjhzjdsk

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue?

love them

theyre such pure colors and they just remind me of newborn babies hahaha

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite?

piano definitely

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain?

yes! yes to both! i love rain more though, sorry wind

34. Who makes you happy?

my friends, family, and my mutuals

35. What makes you happy?

listening to music

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like?

ohh well i’d be living on germany for starters hahaha

id like to have my own house, maybe living with a best friend

definitely like 5784538902 cats and dogs, i love them

at some point id like to have a relationship LOL

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup?

only on rare days ill put on makeup, i only use eyeshadow, liner, and mascara and ive never gone to a store thats just for make up, i just go to a pharmacy lol

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own?

only if i absolutely have to, the dress i wore for my senior pictures is my favorite

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it?

noo, ive never been in a relationship

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them?

i kinda really dont have one, not irl anyway

@neo-bangtan @mini-pretzel are my closest friends online, i love everything about u guys

41. Introvert or extrovert?

introvert

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI?

im isfj

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, or an angel?

uh idk?? i wouldnt want to be immortal so

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you?

acid jazz singer - the fratellis

45. Parlez-vous français?

no my french sucks

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to?

honestly i cant think of any place pennsylvania sucks ahhaha

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home?

home...... my bed...... LOL

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous!

only if im not looking at myself lol

49. Favorite shoe you own?

slip ons or my new balance

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them?

N O i am so accident prone i can barely walk barefoot without tripping

51. Do you feel loved?

kinda? sometimes?

52. How do you express love to those you care about?

just giving them a hug lol or saying i love you

53. Favorite term(s) of endearment?

no ones ever called me any but i like baby, im a simple girl

54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you?

nothing?

55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been?

meeting new people who share the same interests

56. Are you happy right now?

im pretty neutral atm

57. What makes you smile?

really awful jokes that ARENT EVEN FUNNY AND TALKING DASHA AND KARINA

58. Do you laugh a lot?

i guess??

59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic?

soft vibes i guess haha

60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)?

i dont see myself marrying but if i would it would definitely be for love

61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married?

i dont really want to get married, most of the time it ends in divorce and theres just a lot of paper work and its a hassle i dont see a point in it

62. Favorite flower?

hydrangeas

63. Favorite artist?

edgar degas

64. Favorite music artist?

bts lol

65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you?

i try to be kind to everyone, i dont know if others perceive me that way but i think kindness is very important to me

66. Ever made a playlist for someone?

once and i loved it, pls ask me to make a playlist for u

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath?

music and a soft blanket

68. Early bird or night owl?

early bird

69. Morning routine?

wake up, look in the mirror, look away from the mirror, go back to bed. (AGAIN THIS IS UR ANSWER DASHA BUT IM KEEPING IT HHAHAHAHA)

70. Night routine?

shower and watch netflix until i fall asleep

71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion?

being humble

72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after?

yes yes and yes

im such a cry baby i will cry at everything if u yell at me or if disappoint u im so sensitive

73. Do you like hugs?

yes but i dont receive many hugs

74. When was the last time you kissed someone?

never

75. Are you small or tall?

small, 5′4 or 164cm

76. Do you like wholesome memes?

who doesnt

77. Favorite thing about the past?

anything that makes me feel nostalgic

78. Do you ever wonder about the future?

yes

79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in?

nooo

80. Do you like plane flights? Airports?

ive never been on a plane

81. Sunrises or sunsets?

sunsets

82. The beach or a forest?

beach

83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood?

when im sleeping lol

84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t?

i try to

85. Favorite kind of tree?

what kind of question is this i dont know anything about trees

86. Do you care about the health of the Earth?

i want to but i dont do anything for it

87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything?

fieldtrips in school

88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book?

i try to read more, my favorite book is more happy than not

89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment?

disney, i just put my christmas tree down and the ornaments are disney characters

90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have?

honesty i guess?

91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance.

my eyes

92. When was the last time you truly felt calm, without much of anything to worry about?

after i bathe

93. Do you worry a lot?

yes all the time

94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside?

dazzling lights of the city

95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason?

96. Favorite pastry?

??????????? i dont know??????????

97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness?

YEAH

98. How’s your day/night going?

fine so far, i dont have to work today so im just chillaxing

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