#//yells i cant cut posts on tablet

[pinksparklelps]

Im doing all the artist asks cuz im most likely not getting any asks and i want to answer these

1) traditional but i like digital cuz i can do more things

2) uuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

3) not counting school, 1

4) i have DA but I rarely use it i mainly just post art here

5) animals and fictional creechurs

6) hands

7) when im drawing things that are really difficult, when i dont have the design memorized, and for really detailed drawings

8) jus for fun, cant make money off my art and im not really the best at it

9) a lot

10) no

11) im not sure i just follow blogs based on my current hyperfixation

12) sure

13) i like to draw for people close to me or if its someone I really admire. I show affection thru gifts and since all the people im close with arent in my area i can only draw for em and i think its more personal because im making the gift myself with my skills and time <3

14) just with icy sometimes

15) what counts as average i draw pretty fast

16) i draw more cuz back then my fidgets and stuff were seen as ‘distractions’

17) not completely. I can mostly tell people younger than me how to improve and can tell others that references arent anything to be embarrassed about but thats kinda about it. Its not easy for me to give constructive criticism and others are more experienced than me so im not the best to ask

18) perspective ig and some anatomy cuz thats difficult. Im often staring at dogs and cats to see how they move their legs

19) hands and extremely detailed things

20) circle /hj

21) no ill get frustrated really fast and just quit

22) im not sure. My style is still similar to how it was in 6th grade but you can tell I understand things way better like i drew scenes of bluestars prophecy in the book my first time reading it (in pen which I really regret) and ive redrawn them like a couple days ago so im putting some under the cut

23) kinda an even mix of both

24) both

25) depends on how im feeling

26) ibis paint x on my phone and krita on my pc + drawing tablet

27) depends on whos in the piece, the bg, the effects, ect

28) i use a mechanical pencil because i dont have to sharpen it

29) I usually do big pieces on digital but ill always do a sketch on paper, take a pic, and then trace it in digital

30) i dont think anything. I draw because its fun and its one of my coping methods

Heres bluefur getting her nine lives

Bluestar looking at rusty

Bluestar losing her ninth life

Bluestar looking over thunderclan (you can tell i was lazy back then)

And bluefur yelling about her lost kits

[irl-dogboy]

ok gonna. vent and stuff under the cut. im very sorry ive been doing these vent posts so often recently i have just not been having a good time u_u lmk if u read through and need anything tagged. i might make a whole new tag for ppl to block bc ngl i dont think anybody wants to read these lol

iiiiiiiiiiiiiii grew up too fast and i wish that the adults in my life were responsible!!!! yup thats what today’s problem is!!!!!!

i hate that i have to play parent to my parents and aunts and uncles when they get drunk. and ill admit that they dont get drunk often!!! but. when they do its so annoying. and i feel like a dick for saying that (which is a whole other problem) but i can hear uncle harassing my fucking dog right now, shes trying to sleep bcause today has been really stressful for her. but shes being woken up by his annoying aggressive dog and his yelling and annoying shit. and i want to go get my dog and bring her in and make sure shes ok but i cant because im literally terrified of him.

but like i know that my parents have been irresponsible fucks since the very fucking beginning!!!!! i was watching family guy at age 4!!!!!! i was allowed to do whatever the fuck i wanted online when i was like 8!!!!!!!! EIGHT YEARS OLD!!!!!! I MADE A DEVIANTART ACCOUNT IN 2012!!!!! I WAS FUCKING EIGHT OR NINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND THEY DIDNT CARE!!!!!!!!! i dont do it anymore but i used to do nsfw roleplays when i was 11 fucking years old!!!!! i found pony porn when i was 10!!!!!! they did not fucking care!!! not once did they check, or ask me about what i was doing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they dont know to this day!!!!! and i dont know if i can call that any kind of traumatic but its certainly given me a shit ton of problems!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been being the bigger person, the responsible one, since i was 11 years old. im so fucking sick of it. its not like hurried child syndrome, but. i just. hello????? and ive been brainwashed or something to feel bad for thinking that theyre assholes!!! its never their fault, its always “you know we’re shit parents” LIKE SELF AWARENESS FIXES ANYTHING!!!!! good job buddy you acknowledged something ive known for 5 or 6 years. gonna do anything to change? no? rad!!! and its like??? i cant even complain to them because theyve done good things too!!! i have a nintendo switch. i have a 3ds. i have a laptop, and a tablet, and a little portable speaker, so theyve made me think that im spoiled for wanting an ounce of responsibility!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

and the thing that gets me the most, more than anything that theyve ever done to me, is my parents have been putting off taking my dog to the vet. which is fucking insane. because she has a giant fucking tumor and its getting worse and shes acting different and shes old and i want her to live as long and as happily as possible but she cant even curl up into a lil donut to sleep because of the tumor she has. and it just makes me so fucking MAD because ive been begging them to take her to the vet for months in case its something bad and we dont wanna be too late to save her they just keep!!!! putting it off!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its like? am i the only one that fucking cares about her???? im the only one that feeds her and fills up her water and checks on her when shes stressed and i want her to be okay because shes basically the only thing im fucking living for and i want her to be ok. so. fucking. badly

and like. obviously this is some real intense wishful thinking but i wish that like a teacher or a distant relative would appear and just. take me away. idk. i just wish my parents werent my parents and my family wasnt my family LOL

[lashydsdomain]

1-154. you wont

bitch

bet i will

1: Full name

lashy. das all you get

2: Age

19

3: 3 Fears

stairs, glass breaking, not being able to get ahold of someone

4: 3 things I love

my ocs uwu, my friends, my fucking tablet goddamn

5: 4 turns on

not comfy sharing on tumblr

6: 4 turns off

ill say ill come back to this one then leave this in the post

7: My best friend

rn i would say it’s probably blitztrolls

8: Sexual orientation

pan uwu

9: My best first date

ahh.... i havent had an in person first date still ;u;

10: How tall am I

5′5″

11: What do I miss

not being stressed eue;;;

12: What time were I born

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

13: Favourite color

pale blu

14: Do I have a crush

ye u//w//u

15: Favourite quote

you know these things are asked and my mind goes blank

16: Favourite place

the woods just after it’s rained

17: Favourite food

im a basic bitch and just gonna say mac n cheese

18: Do I use sarcasm

no absolutely not. nope.

19: What am I listening to right now

ambles playlist- it’s on ocean eyes by billie elish rn

20: First thing I notice in new person

prooooobably like. their face? typing style if it’s online

21: Shoe size

uhhhhhh i think like a womens 10?

22: Eye color

blue/green

23: Hair color

dark brown

24: Favourite style of clothing

loose and baggy because if i cant be comfortable what’s the point

25: Ever done a prank call?

HELL YEAH

27: Meaning behind my URL

lashyd was one of my first fantrolls and i liked the way it sounded

28: Favourite movie

mmmmm either labyrinth, princess mononoke or annihilation

29: Favourite song

no clue my friend im bad at picking

30: Favourite band

same as above sweats

31: How I feel right now

excited but tired

32: Someone I love

passivetrolls u//w//u/

33: My current relationship status

in a relationship!

34: My relationship with my parents

love my dad, kinda dislike my mom

35: Favourite holiday

christ mass

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

none, im so scared of needles ;u;

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

mmmmmaybe something stupid and simple on like my ankle?? i dunno what tho sweats

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

another fandom and i got bored with homeschooling lmao

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

i dislike them but they have tried to contact me a few times before i blocked them

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

not usually

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

i dont text so ill go w discord and no i have not the last person i messaged was you shenk gdi

42: When did I last hold hands?

the 2nd ;u;

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

7ish minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

hellllllllllll no

45: Where am I right now?

room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

prooooobably my bf or my dad. hate alcohol tho

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

loud but only w speakers

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

only da

49: Am I excited for anything?

absolutely motherfucker im making new friends left and right

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

i got two uwu

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

:))))))) irl most of the time tbh

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

last night

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

i would probably cry ugnfldkjfgslfdjg the last person i kissed was my bf wheezes

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

i mean probably.

55: What is something I disliked about today?

ehhhh nothing bad has really happened today

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

probably my friend from serbia uwu

57: What do I think about most?

ocs probably sweats

58: What’s my strangest talent?

burping on command? i dunno

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

glass shattering ouo;;;

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

beh ind

61: What was the last lie I told?

calling myself a basic bitch lmao

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone probably? video calls make me nervous

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

hell yeah to both

64: Do I believe in magic?

hell yeah i yell tossing salt on all my rocks

65: Do I believe in luck?

yeee

66: What’s the weather like right now?

uhhh clear i think

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Shibuya Goldfish

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

nop

69: Do I have any nicknames?

lash, lashy, gremlin and then stupid relationship nicknames gldsfgjfgs

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

prooobably almost falling down some stairs at a con and chipping my shin and probably partly pulling my shoulder out of the socket

71: Do I spend money or save it?

i try to save but end up spending it ouo;;;;

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

nearly

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?

there are some half customized MH dolls so i guess yeah

74: Favourite animal?

cat uwu

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

drawing ambles trollcall pick

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

satan stan obviously

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Here - Ancient Magus' Bride OP

78: How can you win my heart?

art of my ocs ngl

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

fuck if i knew

80: What is my favorite word?

probably fuck if you would ask my phone lmao

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

passivetrollsblitztrollstavvys-trollsfilibusterfrogwe-are-the-legion

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

hey fuckers lets rumble

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not that i know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

teleportation ngl

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

probably 87

86: What is my current desktop picture?

87: Had sex?

sweats how about we move on

88: Bought condoms?

ye

89: Gotten pregnant?

hell no

90: Failed a class?

i think yeah

91: Kissed a boy?

yeeeeeeee

92: Kissed a girl?

nop

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

does it count if we were indoors

94: Had job?

not yet wheezes

95: Left the house without my wallet?

ye

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

i dont think so i mgiht have when i was younger

97: Had sex in public?

n o

98: Played on a sports team?

ye!

99: Smoked weed?

ye.

100: Did drugs?

only weedles

101: Smoked cigarettes?

nop

102: Drank alcohol?

yes and i hated it

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

nop

104: Been overweight?

ye

105: Been underweight?

nop

106: Been to a wedding?

nop

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

 every day p much

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

nop

109: Been outside my home country?

ye!

110: Gotten my heart broken?

;;;; yeah

111: Been to a professional sports game?

ye

112: Broken a bone?

possibly?

113: Cut myself?

if this is on accident then ya

114: Been to prom?

prom is a waste of time ngl just go to arbys

115: Been in airplane?

yeye

116: Fly by helicopter?

n o

117: What concerts have I been to?

blueman group and the 4th of july ones that play around here

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

yeeee

119: Learned another language?

bits and pieces

120: Wore make up?

yeah

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

nop

122: Had oral sex?

lets just skip the sex questions

123: Dyed my hair?

yeee

124: Voted in a presidential election?

ee

125: Rode in an ambulance?

nop

126: Had a surgery?

nop

127: Met someone famous?

yeye

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

god no

129: Peed outside?

this question is weird

130: Been fishing?

hell the fuck yeah

131: Helped with charity?

prrrrobaby?

132: Been rejected by a crush?

yeah ;u;

133: Broken a mirror?

i dont think so

134: What do I want for birthday?

money

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

NO

136: Was I named after anyone?

i was named after two people uwu

137: Do I like my handwriting?

i can barely read it lmao i hate it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

my stuffed tigger uwu

139: Favourite Tv Show?

fuck i dunno probably cyberchase or fetch i dont watch tv anymore lmao

140: Where do I want to live when older?

somewhere quiet but convenient

141: Play any musical instrument?

flute and violin

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

i have a scar on my knuckle from making garlic bread ;u; wasnt even good

143: Favourite pizza toping?

banana peppers

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

nah

145: Am I afraid of heights?

mmmm at times

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

yeah >w>;;;

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

all the mc fuckin time

148: What I’m really bad at

telling people when im not up for something

149: What my greatest achievments are

being alive you fuckers cant beat me i won over hundreds of other fuckers and im here

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

Lets Not, Kids

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

buy so much cosplay shit and helping friends get what they need

152: What do I like about myself

im getting better uwu

153: My closest Tumblr friend

passivetrolls or blitztrolls wheezes

154: Something I fantasize about

being able to help my friends out of the places they are right now QuQ

155: Any question you’d like?

more questions for amble and my other girls!

[theannaredfield]

Trigger Warning: Parental Abuse

I’m posting these so I don’t lose them in my drafts.

My Diary Entries from 2018

2/23- home, [brother] tried to punch me in the stomach twice. Stomped on my foot repeatedly, tried to hit me with a chair. Nothing done, gave him what he wanted.

•[Sister] hurt her eye by jumping off a chair because my mom was too busy paying attention to some dumb family history

•I swear she cares more about this damn family history than the well-being of her own kids!

2/24- she’s disregarded my feelings with an annoyed tone. Told us we annoy her and she gets nothing done because of us. Yelled at us. Let [sister] cry on the floor telling her she was being dramatic.. just like she’d do to me...

2/25- She said she wishes she could beat us, lock us in cages, said what terrible children we are, said she’d let us starve. She told [sister] ‘don’t disobey me’ like she’s some sort of ruler, saying don’t be rude or don’t misbehave is different from don’t disobey... I’m scared.. she said she’d get really mad.. is she gonna beat us? I’ve tried to tell her about my depression again and she just ignored it, or told me to just stop feeling like this. But I cant! It isn’t that easy...

2/26- [brother] bit me.. no one cared, or even checked it

3/1- [sister] spilled sprinkles all over the floor but I get yelled at for telling her to clean it up. She’s a spoiled brat.

She pulled my hair and screamed in my face

My mom said she hates us. She’s yelling at me... I don’t know.. she called me lazy.. she’s mad.. I’m scared...

3/2- She says how she hates us, how we’re annoying.. how she’s tired of us, and how she wishes she could kill us...

I told her I felt sick and she just yelled at me that I’m ‘stressing her out’

3/5- [brother] bit me, hit Mommy and [sister] and was being an all around dick. Mommy gave him what he wanted because she wanted to baby him and because she didn’t want to deal with it. He is learning that if he’s a horrible enough person people will do as he asks.

3/8- I have nothing. Even now the desk that was suppose to be for me to be used by ME is given to them. I have no bed. No desk, no table to work at, no room. I have nothing! And if I say anything about having nothing everyone gets mad at me. I hate it. They get everything and I get nothing! They get whatever they want but if I ask for anything it’s too much!

3/9- my mom threatened to beat us cause she’s ‘had enough’ of us. Then [brother] told her to kill her self.. did he get in trouble for being rude or wrong?? No.. And now she’s sayin she’ll shoot herself because she can never get anything done..

3/12- my mom is talking about how she doesn’t like how her kids have to grow up in a society with a bunch of trans kids and the LGBT and all that.. she’d probably never accept or understand me for being bisexual if I told her then.. she stereotypes them all.

So [brother] was being irresponsible, saying he would break the PS3 controller and ‘commit suicide’ because I didn’t want him being rude, a brat, or inappropriate. So he throws up because he made himself by being dramatic and I’m blamed for it because I ‘tortured him and made him upset’ yes, it’s all my fault.. everything’s my fault.. maybe I should die, then life would be happy..

3/13- my mom’s telling me that she’s gonna abandon us because she’s sick of how we act. Leaving me with the responsibility. Blaming me for not parenting them I guess... she doesn’t want to be a parent.. she’s been threatening to throw [sister] and [brother] outside and beat them and kill them...

3/15- my mom claims that she does all the baby sitting while it’s really me. [brother] hit, bit, kicked and caused a bump on [Sister]’s Head. He also punched me. Didn’t do anything of which he was told but my mom did basically nothing about it. He’ll never learn what he did is wrong.. he’s just as abusive as his dad..

3/18- she told me that I wouldn’t be leaving her.. I feel like a prisoner.. what if she keeps me like a slave forever.. she doesn’t even care about feeding [brother] and [sister] and I, only about keeping us quiet.. and out of her way...

my dad’s wife is posting about all this stuff she’s going with my siblings.. like going to the mall and spending money and going to medieval themed restaurants... they don’t care about taking me or inviting me or having me in their lives.. I mean nothing to them.. nothing...

3/29- I tell her how I’m upset and I don’t want my dad to hate me and I’m crying and she just tells me to ‘stop’ in a not caring, annoyed tone. She doesn’t want to deal with my emotions....

She’s blown me off for 4 days straight all because of Ryan. She cares more about pleasing him than doing stuff with me.

4/2- back to saying how bad we are, and how annoying we are and avoiding us by being on her phone in the room alone. She hates us...

now she’s saying she wants to shoot herself in the head because we don’t trust her. If she didn’t secretly go meet people though we could trust her. She complains about living here but honestly she does this to herself.

4/3- my mom told [sister] that she wishes she could ‘go bye bye and never come back’ She doesn’t love us, she just pretends to. We’re a nuisance to her.

Now she’s saying we’re lazy and don’t do anything. She doesn’t reprimand [Brother] at all. She hurts [sister] because [sister] was fighting against [Brother]. But [Brother] is over here saying how I’m the stupidest one in the house, how I’m a liar and how I ruin everything for the family. Nothing gets done. I hate my life. Kill me. [Brother] gets whatever he wants because Mom babies him.. I hate life. She said if we ever want anything in this house we should listen. I just wanted pencils and a new phone case so my phone doesn’t break. I do listen. I do my homework and everything... am I just not good enough? Probably... Honestly things would be better if I just killed myself probably...

4/4- [Brother] hit me multiple times in the chest and arms and nothing was done about it

My mom said she’d like to buy a passport and leave us because she’s so sick of us.. she doesn’t love us...

4/9- once again she’s saying how she wants to kill us, how she hates us, how she wants us to ‘leave her the fuck alone’.. I hate being alive.. I wish I was dead.. any more I can imaging myself dead.. being hung.. I wanna die..

4/12- my mom’s been saying how we’re stupid, how she hates us, how we annoy her. She thinks just because she buys us stuff everything wrong she does is forgiven.. but she’s wrong... [Brother] threatened to hit me till I died, my mom didn’t give a shit.. she never does... also someone moved my stuff again.. they always mess with my stuff and then say ‘it wasn’t me who moved it’ but someone obviously did. Assholes...

[Brother] told my mom he wanted to die because of her and she just told him ‘I’m going to beat your ass!’ And then told him that he needed to ‘cut your overdramatic crap’.. she’s so unsupportive. She told him he would never make it though life and he’s too dependent on his technology. While she is way too dependent on her phone (it’s all she really pays any attention to.))

4/13- said how she wishes she could lock us in cages.. chances are that’s what she would do if cps wouldn’t find out..

Once again she blames me for her problems.. I hate life.. please let me die.. I wanna die

4/14- [Brother] was throwing up and mom couldn’t even be bothered to get out of bed. She complained that she had to and said we’re the reason she hates weekends.

Now she’s saying she’s going to ditch us, and abandon us. Walk out on us, because she hates us.. She’s referring to us as ungrateful kids who think money grows on trees.. I told her she didn’t have to buy the iPad.. she chose to..

4/15- she’s saying how she’s gonna send us away cause we’re annoying. How she wants a normal family, how she’s gonna ‘beat the fuck’ out of us, how she’ll ship us to a third world country where they have no food so we can starve. How she’ll let killers attack us.. she refused to get us stuff to drink because her skin ‘looks bad’ and has barely gotten out of bed all day to watch us. Just stayed on her phone.. she doesn’t care about us...

4/17- mom told [brother] if he cut his foot with scissors she’d let him get gang green and die.

4/25- for the past week my mom has been repeatedly complaining about us. Saying how she hates us, how we ruined her life, how we’re no help. How she wishes she could beat us. How we’re so annoying. I asked [brother] to turn down the tv and she yelled at me to shut up. She claims she’s gonna kill all of us. She blames others for the problems of her kids. She refuses to get [brother] the help that teachers suggest and once again she shows how she doesn’t care about us, but if we make her look good. She didn’t say anything about my report card, she doesn’t care. It’s just a bragging right. She wants to seem like the best parent. She hates that [Brother]’s teachers speak bad about her parenting because it makes her look bad. At the funeral when we were in the car she forced [Brother] and [Sister] to give their opinion on where they wanted to live, and called them stupid if they didn’t give her the answer she wanted. Today [Brother] was being annoying and when he was just standing, holding his tablet she smacked him. He wasn’t doing anything.. she’s threatened to become a raging alcoholic and threatened to abandon us. She constantly says how she hates her life, how she wants a different life.. and she wonders why we’re depressed. But does she think it’s her? No.. of course not.. she doesn’t realize how much we all help her. I hate it here.. she makes me want to kill myself.. maybe one day I’ll actually do it..

4/26- my mom called me a brat again. And babied [Brother]. She yelled at me to just go away.. maybe I’ll just kill my self.. then I’ll go away for good..

My mom is yelling at us all.. saying how I’m looking for a beating cause I’m just as bad as [Brother]..

4/27- once again my mom ignores [Brother] throwing up and refuses to come to him

5/3-Once again she's saying how she hates us, how we're pieces of shit, and how we're never gonna make something of ourselves.. not caring to listen to how we feel. She doesn’t want to be bothered with us. She says she’s ‘sick of helping’ us

She’s treating us like slaves.. dogs..

5/9- She lied to me, got my hopes up so I’d do her job. Then she’s sayin I’m spoiled for asking so much of her and that she wants new children cause we’re ‘slobs’

5/23- She said she wants to buy a taser to shock us with when we don’t listen. That’s abuse. She also said she’d send me away cause I’m depressed. I don’t deserve to be around if I’m not perfect.

11/7- She keeps screaming about how she’ll take a belt and start beating us. She got up and said she’ll beat my grandmother. She says how much she hates all of us.. she did the same thing with my grandpa. And when he died she pretended to care..

[lululandd]

keep scrolling :3 im ranting, tldr.

so like one of my best friend is like having a "money crisis" or whatever and borrowed a lil sum of money from me, like around USD 55 (yea it doesnt seem like much but here in my country that could buy you a bicycle/a month's worth of gas/1 tb external hdd/whatever) and less sums from other people. the more annoying part is i keep seeing posts on instagram of him hanging out/eating at restaurants and he had said in group chat that he had bought tickets to hongkong/singapore. THOSE SHITS COSTS LIKE AT LEAST USD 100!! like why isnt he paying._. the most annoying part is i dont/cant wanna call him out on it, bcos he gon pull out bullshit cards like "you know i have money troubles, why arent you being sympathetic" etc. and im gonna look like the bad guy in his fucking eyes and he gon gossip about me -_- and i stayed quiet. parts of me wants the money back, other parts of me wants to let the money go, the small voice yells "cut that motherfucker out of yo life" so i left the group chat. ~~~~~~ the other thing im pissed at, is my other best friend, the girl one, wanted to buy the same drawing tablet as me. she knows how much i make in a month, which is like a little less than half of what she makes. (she makes 9ish, i make 4ish.) we're both in the same line of work, and she has this online trophy making thing on the side, while im like, still figuring things out whether i wanna start making digital art/be a pianist. i went with the first one. but then after i bought the goddamn drawing tablet she be all like "my lil sis also wants a drawing tablet, and after seeing your drawing tablet i want one too" like BITCH YOUVE BEEN LIKING THE SAME BOYS I HAVE SINCE GRADE SCHOOL (i've sort of forgiven her), BITCH COPIES MY FUCKING PERSONALITY (i started swearing, she did too. im trying to be a positive uplifting person, she did too), BITCH BE COPYING MY POSES WHEN WE TAKE SELFIES TOGETHER (i wink, she winks. i make ugly faces, she makes ugly faces, i smile, she smiles), SHE BOUGHT THE SAME PHONE AS ME (it was the samsung galaxy S4). and you know what, she's been getting more attention and recognition._. "ooh she so pretty" "oohh she so nice and wonderful" but no one ever says that to me. no one thinks im wonderful. no one thinks im pretty. im just meh. MOTHERFUCKER WHY SO YOU HAVE TO TAKE THIS DRAWING THING FROM ME TOO😭😭 I WORKED HARD TO GET THE MONEY FOR THAT GODDAMN DRAWING TABLET NOW SHE GON GET MORE RECOGNITION ON THAT SHIT. so i went ham on practising the piano. fuck drawing. she aint got a motherfucking piano. fuck them. in my head they annoying af, so i left them. if all yall that read this (im so sorry) thinks im annoying, then hey, im gone from their lives right? they dont have to deal with lil ol annoying me.