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#…among a lot of really really hard neurodevelopment catch-up work in therapy…bruh…
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it’s my first day of trying assignments for art therapy! my thoughts on what I kind of realized today are in the tags if you want to read 💛
#katie only look at this tag when you’re in a good and SOLID headspace with not much vulnerability to sudden feelings hijacks
#I’m embarrassed and super insecure about showing anyone any art I ever do because I stopped learning at about 10 and decided I was
#a SHIT drawer but like. I need to work towards open-arm accepting every part of me as the state it’s in right now and THEN I can work on
#improving or changing each part and I need to work on not thinking I am categorically
#incapable untreatable insufficient inferior disappointing and never as good as anyone else
#because that’s untrue black and white thinking and I am the only one who can love this body the way it should have been loved when I was
#younger and taught to hate it and be terrified of it and treated it badly
#this year is a LOT of effort in several different areas to slowly feel neutral about myself
#…among a lot of really really hard neurodevelopment catch-up work in therapy…bruh…
#…brain surgery on your own self without tools to use and having to only use single electrical pulses from where
#you’re stuck working within the area itself—it’s so exhausting. like SO exhausting I thought my brain was totally spent and dead a few
#times over the years but I truly don’t have the words to describe how the effort of developing or RE-building parts of my brain/brain stem
#is. the best I can do is compare it to the time after you’ve found that a ship that you’re in that’s got holes and bent beams in a storm and
#is slow-flooding—that’s the ship
#/!;and you know it has to BE fixed and you’re the only one there so it’s gotta be you but you DO have instructions from a helpful
#coast guard officer who you FINALLY made radio contact with and he’s your only instructions but he’s a lifeline bc of it
#so you’re in this ship and you’ve gotta fix it and the officer tells you all the things you have to do like un-weld an entire damaged
#bunch of panels from the hull so you can bend the beam etc etc
#religion
#and under normal circumstances that gets done but a team of five trained guys who’ve Got It and they have the power tools to make it easy
#you are in this bungled ship with a few holes and flooded hallways and some major structural damage
#and you have
#one. single. screwdriver. for the first task. of undoing NINETEEN THOUSAND BOLTS
#just to access the damaged area at all
#and after THAT you can scope out the area and plan what you want it to be when you’re done
#and THEN you do the final step of actually doing the repair and closing
#that is what we do in therapy
#and our daily lives while we PRACTICE all the things we’re told to try in therapy
#katie does art therapy
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