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teeth sink into her lower lip, a small attempt to hold back a smile that desperately wants to break free. they're both wasted and the chances of either of them remember this conversation the next morning are slim to none, but ashtyn can't seem to care. “ have you looked in the mirror lately ? you're, like, literally breathtaking. ” drunken giggles ensue as she reaches up to teasingly twirl a strand of bunnie's hair around her finger. she might be drunk, but it doesn't mean her words are far from the truth. “ we should kiss. ”
@beenstalked : “ you're so hot. ”
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her head hangs low as she shuffles into devyn's apartment. she can't help but feel silly showing up here this late at night all because of a bad dream, but there aren't many other places or people she feels comfortable running to. “ thanks. i'm sorry for showing up out of the blue like this, i just ... needed someone. ”
tension in her body slowly releases itself as devyn's thumb ghosts over her fingers, the crisp temperature of his apartment resulting in goosebumps raising across the skin of her bare arms. sure, a healthy individual would probably want to talk about it, but ashtyn has always struggled in that department. “ i've never been good at that stuff, ” talking, expressing thoughts and feelings. she will always choose the easier way out. “ a distraction would be nice. and do y'think maybe ... i could sleep next to you tonight ? it might help to have someone there. ”
@barriicades , continued.
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maybe she would have been better off letting his call go to voicemail. her head falls back against the pillows of her childhood bed, swollen eyes stuck to the ceiling. his voice pains her to hear, causes twists and knots in her gut to form at the hurt clear in his words, the way his voice wavers here and there. NATHAN WEILER NEVER CRIED UNTIL IT CONCERNED ASHTYN LANE. there is a point where she has to pull the phone away from her ear and squeeze her eyes shut, desperate for a break.
when she raises the phone back to her ear, she catches the end of his questions and opens her mouth to speak. she wants to lie, wants to tell him she's moved to a place where he would never find her. BUT EVEN HE DESERVES THE TRUTH, DOESN'T HE ? she feels like it is the least she can do especially after dipping in the middle of the night and running as far as her feet would take her ( or, well, her car ... and her shitty '03 altima could only take her as far as california ).
“ i went HOME. ” the word is bitter falling from her lips. where is home anyways ? if it wasn't with her family and it wasn't with nathan, then where ? everyone deserves a place to call home, a place to rest their bones — ashtyn feels she will never find it. “ as for why ... ” her voice trails off, teeth sinking harshly into her lower lip when she feels tears claw at the corners of her tired eyes.
ashtyn picks at her brain, files through an assortment of reasons WHY and tries her best to collect them into something that doesn't come out as word vomit. “ i ... we ... w-well ... ” voice trembles now, the anxiety and fear prompting her thumb to hover over the ' hang up ' button.
“ can we talk about that some other time ? ” she finally chokes out, pulling the phone away again so he can't hear her uneven breathing, the faint sniffle of her nose, her other hand fumbling to wipe away at the tears that have started to stream down her cheeks. “ i-i ... i'm so t-tired ... had a long drive b-back here and ... i c-can't ... do this right now. please nate. ”
@rejectsblame , x.
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a bittersweet smile appears while she nods slowly in agreement. she has wondered herself how different things would be if the two grew up together — sure, she grew up alongside her other siblings, but nothing could ever compare to the bond twins share. “ i think about that a lot. i do too ... there were so many times growing up when i felt so alone. it would have been nice to have each other. ” ashtyn finally replies, a soft sigh following before she feels the need to lighten the mood of the conversation. “ maybe mom and dad knew the world wasn't ready to handle both of us together yet. ”
@stvpidbltch : “ i wish we had grown up together. ”
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she should have known better, should have expected that there were only so many calls and texts she could avoid before foster took matters into his own hands. more than anything it is embarrassing to be seen like this, in the same hoodie she's lived in for days ( she lost count after three ... ), the disasterous state of her bedroom being a clear indicator of just how bad things have gotten again.
she's draped across the foot of her bed in this state of apathy, peeking over the rim of her glasses as he speaks. as much as she wants to call his bluff, shake her head and dismiss his words, she struggles— maybe it's because he has been here for her time and time again. given her space when she's needed it, sat in silence just for the sake of being much needed company, encouraged her to take a step outside for the first time in days or weeks just to get a look at the clouds and a breath of fresh air.
“ you say that every time, and i know you mean it ... you haven't given me a reason to doubt you yet. ” she rolls onto her back, stares up at the ceiling while her mind continues to trudge on the war path.
“ i just— ... i don't get it. doesn't it hurt you when i push you away ? ” her head turns so she can look at him, expression almost at a wince like she is scared to hear the answer. “ you just ... you just stay. you're here every time. why ? ”
@unstiffen : “ i'm here. and i'm not going
anywhere. ”
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her mind has always been a tumultuous place, deafening chaos that only worsens during times of high anxiety. she has been struggling to find her bearings for the past several minutes now, frantically glancing around the room of crowded people she is all too unfamiliar with. there is a pit of guilt resting deep in her stomach for feeling this way. the more it gnaws away, the more she finds she is beginning to struggle to breathe properly. she looks over at lukas as he speaks, guilt clear in her eyes and in her shaking hands.
“ um ... n-...no — please, ” she says in response to his offer of making everyone leave, shaking her head quickly. she doesn't want to be the one to ruin everyone else's night over a panic attack. drawing a wavering breath of air, she swallows thickly and continues, “ m-maybe some fresh air wouldn't be a bad idea. ”
@volltonig : ��“ do you want me to make the others
leave ? or we could go, get some fresh air. ”
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she inhales a sharp breath, a final attempt at holding back tears as she carefully maneuvers foster's head to rest in her lap, and for a moment she is transported back to being fifteen. see, death and ashtyn have never been strangers, more like teetering on the lines of lovers and bitter enemies. she remembers cradling her mother just like this for the last time that one morning, running fingers through her hair and whispering words of comfort that everything would be okay though deep down she knew the truth all too well: IT WAS TIME TO SAY GOODBYE.
her touch has never been so gentle yet frantic, fingertips brushing along his cheek while she leans down and presses her forehead against him. when her body begins to rack with quiet sobs, she pulls him tighter against her and holds on for dear life.
“ i-i ... m'gonna find you help, foster — j-jus- fuck, just h-hold on, okay ? everything's gonna be okay. everything's gonna be okay. ” the words come out rushed and she can't bring herself to lift her head up and look at the wounds he's starting to succumb to; the stench of iron and crimson staining her hands tells her all she needs to know.
her tears fall recklessly, staining foster's face as she presses further into him, bringing her to hastily wipe them from his skin. “ i'm not letting you leave me — you said you weren't going anywhere, please — ” her words barely rise above a whisper now, she lifts her head up to press a kiss to his forehead and lingers there. “ please don't leave me. ”
@unstiffen , [ nononono! ] + reverse
because draven and i love pain <3
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“ you like this, don't you ? ” she questions, glancing over to gauge koda's reaction to her fingers carding through his hair. her touch is slow and gentle, cautious as if she's afraid HE MIGHT SHATTER under her fingertips. the corner of her mouth pulls up into a half smile. “ i remember you saying that. ”
@gaurdog / @lifescare , ♡
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