#ㅤ ⁽ ☼ ⁾ ㅤ musings．

[bledsun]

i’ve been watching a lot of this creators content which has given me many, many feelings

luka can be very hypocritical, selfish, & generally not nice™ to create distance between herself & others ( purposefully or otherwise )

at her core, in the places she doesn’t even allow herself to see, she is an incredibly soft & romantic person. she wants love: to feel loved, to be loved, to express love, to be surrounded by love

however, she does not and has not ever seen herself as someone who is deserving of love. she doesn’t see herself as someone who can be loved or should be, she is too violent & too dangerous & too rough around the edge & too horrible

this is one of the major reasons why she still remains so tied to qailertetang & being a warrior: she is used to fighting & destruction & pain, she was reborn in it & is built for it. how could she do anything else? be anything else?

if she ever allowed herself a moment of rest, she would be someone who dreams of love & another life, a life where she can be married & have a family & rebuild her relationships with her parents & to live

i am rooting for luka to have a happy ending even if she isn’t