#🪐 . . 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜 ▸ ooc.

[mellowdisco]

sorry about not being on here and only coming on to rb edits and fcs dksfhj i’ve been taking some time away to try and figure out what i should do w this blog because while i do love all of the threads and dynamics i currently have (and i do mean this with my whole ass chest and heart), i’ve been feeling bad about some stuff... 

like there are drafts i haven’t touched in 1-2 months that i’m not even sure if i should still tackle. most of my partners are fast-paced and i worry they feel like i’m not the partner for them and just don’t want to say it 😭 ik some ppl have expiry dates and have probably already considered them dropped so i’m at an awkward point where i don’t know what to do. i also have a lot of insecurities when it comes to my writing and stance with people that adds to it

most of this is just a Me problem too honestly... i find it hard to communicate and feel insecure about our threads if we aren’t close or if we don’t interact much ooc, if someone stops replying to me ooc i start to worry i’ve done something wrong so it puts me off from replying to threads which i’m 100% aware is honestly SO dumb and unfair. i never blame anyone but myself for this and it’s something i should and have been trying to work on.

because i’ve always been aware of these insecurities, my initial idea for this blog was to keep it private and friends only, but at the same time i want to meet more people and don’t want to close off potential new partners 😔 so i was never really strict w that rule. 

i want people i can rave about our muses / ships with when we’re feeling musey while still being able to talk about other stuff. bc that’s really only why i’m here. no weird vibes just pure pals who talk and write sometimes<3 i feel like everyone but me has Those Partners while i’m just floating here like pennywise’s red balloon...

maybe this blog needs a big clean up overall, idk. i’m thinking of moving (again... i know) and taking w me the people who are genuinely still interested in writing whether it be w our existing stuff or new ones. or... just disappear quietly and start completely fresh on a new blog w new muses (those i have long term stuff with, we could either continue on d.iscord or on a private sideblog)

if you do end up reading all of that mess, i’m sorry dsfksjfgf i’d love some opinions on what you think i should do... or maybe a show of hands who here would genuinely still like to write together? that might help me w my decision-making but if not, pls just scroll past this post and move on with your day<3 i know this is really awkward so i’ll just assume you didn’t see this post, no hard feelings!

[mellowdisco]

i know main muses are called mains for a reason but i still feel bad for throwing the same 3 muses at people... i can’t help it since they’re the most flexible but fdsgds will i use this as an excuse to add in more muses even though i currently have 42753 unused muses? stay tuned to find out!

[mellowdisco]

there’s a new public l.isa gif pack. and n.ayeon ones. 👁️ SO TEMPTED.

[mellowdisco]

          replies will run on untagged queue again (it should last about 2 weeks!!) \o/ been feeling a lil dispirited so i’ll prolly be on here less? muse is always here though so i’ll still do replies as they come in / whenever but for ims it might take me a while to get back to you, pls reach out on disco instead for “faster” response <3

[mellowdisco]

what if you fill out my interest checker and i throw a smol starter at you based on your submission? maybe i just want new things and meet more of your muses... you have no proof though (pls stop gatekeeping them from me)

[mellowdisco]

          i’ve grown a liking for doing memes lately so feel free to send in some whenever, especially if we don’t have a thread yet or if you feel our current one is going nowhere / outdated and you’d like to start new ones ... or even simply because we want to throw them in diff situations 0:) basically everyone should send me memes... if they want to. i say this all the time but i almost never do starter calls because i’m terrible at writing baseless starters 😭 but i do want to meet all of your muses so yea. write me starters or send me memes or im me if you want to plot <3

[mellowdisco]

who’s accepting memes 🤲🏽 i can’t do replies rn but i want my muses to be doing things skdjs

[mellowdisco]

last ooc post of the day i promise but i just wanted to update that i also added an exclusives page ... there’s literally only 2 on there rn and they’re the people i’ve written the longest with and am most confident won’t drop me bc of my sloth tendencies 😭 but if we’ve written for a while, i’m more than willing to add you there, just lmk!

[mellowdisco]

will be around after i’m done deep cleaning the house for eid which will be tomorrow! in the meantime if anyone wants to just chat or plot on d.iscord, hmu<3 feel free to check out my opens or send in memes if we don’t have anything going on!

[mellowdisco]

         another update post from your least favorite cl.own ✨

will do some cleaning on this blog and take some time to check new followers later tonight! i really encourage filling up my interest checker so i know there’s interest (...obviously dshjf) though no pressure if not, just lmk you’re interested in writing together in someway (ims, reply to my opens, send memes, etc) if i’m not following you back yet. the muse list on my page really needs to be updated lmao so i’ll get on that soon too. i’m also waaaay behind on ooc replies bc i’m holding myself off until i get more thread replies out fksdgjf so please bear with me 🧸

[mellowdisco]

when you want a pride icon but can’t make anything look nice. my brain: just slap some text on it

[mellowdisco]

mun vs muse (taeyang)

tagged by: @milkynuit & @notfrsale 💖

tagging: anyone who wants to do it!

[mellowdisco]

i haven't stopped thinking about ‘everything everywhere all at once’ ever since i saw it it's such a wonder on so many levels of things i care deeply about i can't stand it!!!!!!!!! also rly want a plot or a whole verse based off it pls give me that corny love transcends every multiverse despite all the hardships bs sjdjks

[mellowdisco]

          ♡ consider this a plotting / starter call while i work on queueing up replies to last the whole week (lbr i always end up getting impatient and publishing them all at once... we’ll see) just hit the heart and i’ll im you! alternatively you may just hmu on d.iscord just let me know who you are when messaging! i don’t usually do this bc i’m actually terrible w starters but i want more stuff so... teehee...

mintea🌿#7182

[mellowdisco]

be honest how badly would my starters be ignored if i post them without gifs... simply don’t have the time to gif every single fc i use but i’m also over sacrificing my meal allowance for commissions 😭

[mellowdisco]

went through my followers list and softblocked a bunch of blogs that have been archived, inactive, have not made any attempt to interact within the past 3-4 months and those who obviously didn’t read my rules hehe. will dedicate tomorrow to doing drafts for queue!!