#'im sry' DON'T EVER BE SORRY

[torialefay]

i had an anon ask talking about 'chris touching his hair before he turned around the first time in his solo performance' (from over a week ago im so sry) and i saved it to my drafts, so ofc tumblr ate it 😚🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

BUT i still wanted to talk ab it bc-

we don't talk enough ab the small, unconscious, "masculine" mannerisms that chris has. and it drives me CRAZY. here's a lil list of some i've noticed, so pls let me know any others that you've seen:

1) when he brings his thumb up to swipe at his nose before he does something (pls tell me yall know what im talking ab)

2) along the same lines, when he taps his cap a little before he goes to do something

3) when he grabs everyone by the wasit to move them

4) the tongue in cheek thing (yall know exactly what i mean)

5) his voice when he responds to something saying "sweeeet"

6) his entire style is just very... "dude" and like idk how else to describe it

7) walking at the back to watch over all the members

8) his jaw clench 🥵

9) the manspread + lean back pose (ik for a lot of people this sucks, but im sorry its so hot when he does it)

10) how annoying he is by like grabbing onto people casually and pulling them into him or just holding onto them and not letting them move

and then he'll go and be the cutiest little thing ever and it's just like.... idek what's happening & im delusional and someone kill me /j

[illubean]

Can I request a toph reader who's blind but can still fight and walk on her own with the seismic sens.Can the character be Kurapika,Gon,Killua and Illumi please ?

HXH w/ Toph!Reader

Characters: Gon Freecs, Killua Zoldyck, Illumi Zoldyck Type: Headcanons, Gn!reader

couldn't think of anything for kurapika im sry :(

Warnings: none

Gon Freecs

totally does not notice your blind

he's a lil slow...but he does ask why your eyes look the way they do

and when you tell him he's like OH MY GOD IM SORRY

he thinks your seismic sense is the coolest thing ever

he probably asks you to teach it to him and you're like idk I just do it

he tries walking around barefoot but it doesn't really work..

he's a lil disappointed that he can't learn it but he just chalks it up to being one of your unique abilities

he gets to watch you chuck rocks and random dudes at heaven's arena and his admiration for you grows

you are a role model to him because of how strong you are

if you guys end up walking around somewhere where your seismic sense is weaker like on sand or softer mud he makes sure to help you

not because he thinks you can't handle it yourself, but because he wants to!

Killua Zoldyck

he's put off by you being barefoot all the time

Gon is already a freak who doesn't wear socks under his boots now this?

a lot of time's he forgets you're actually blind

and whenever he makes a snarky comment about your sight he's like "Oh, right. Sorry.."

he's a little annoyed that you can out sarcasm him

your rowdy and carefree personality makes him admire you to an extent too

he thinks you're fun to be around

he's tried to pull pranks on you a couple times because you technically can't see him then forgets about his seismic sense

no matter how much hatsu he uses or how soft his footsteps are you notice him every time

which results in him getting a rock to the face.

anyways you remind him a lot like himself

getting raised by rich fancy pantsy parents who want to control your life

I mean both of you ran away from home because you wanted to do your own thing

so he feels a sort of connection to you that he doesn't his other friends :D

Illumi Zoldyck

orignially upon hearing you're blind he has like zero interest in you

he thinks your like any other civilian but like...inferior

but when he see's you in action? color him impressed

he's very confused on why you dont wear shoes like anywhere

and when you tell him about your seismic sense he's like oh that makes sense...but it's still gross how do you not have ringworm

what he doesn't appreciate though is your lazy lifestyle

he is throwing you outside and hosing you down equipped with rubber gloves and a mask if you don't bathe for too long

he can put up with you being sarcastic but he cannot put up with you being DIRTY by CHOICE

and when he finds out you can be clean and civilized he's like WHYY DO YOU CHOOSE TO BE A SLOB

he lwky hates how strong willed and independent you are because he can't use you

your personalities clash most days

[luveline]

shy!reader patching up tasm!peter’s wounds and getting all flustered bc his flirting is both incessant and incredibly effective (a friends-to-lovers snapshot, if you will)

idk if this is what u meant im sry lol ♥︎ fem!reader tw stitches

"Pete," you chide, barely above a whisper. 

"What?" 

"Hands to yourself." 

"Isn't that hypocritical?" 

You stop yourself from laughing because you need very steady hands. "How can you…" You drift off as you push the needle back into his skin, pull the string taut, and start again. "How can you make jokes right now? Aren't you hurting?" 

His hand pauses where it had been tracing the hem of your shirt, fingertip stuttering over the slightest slip of your bare skin. "Bub, you know it doesn't bother me." 

"It bothers me," you say. Normal best friends go to the movies, the library, and spend altogether too much money on takeout. They don't stitch each other up in the middle of the night. 

"I'm sorry! I swear, I was so fast. He was- Faster." He does his awful forgive me smile that makes your stomach flip. "Besides, I like this part." 

"What?" 

"Your," — he shivers as you pull another stitch closed — "hands. You have super soft hands. Like silk." 

"Spare me," you say under your breath. 

"What was that?" 

You shake your head. "Last one," you say gently. 

Peter doesn't speak again until his stitches are done, disinfected and covered. "Hey," he says, hand covering your upper arm, squeezing lightly, "Thank you, sweetheart. Seriously. Your stitches are better than mine, you're as good as an actual nurse." 

"I have to be good at them 'cause you get hurt so much," you say, shrugging off his second compliment. 

He rubs your arm. "You encourage me." 

"I don't." 

"S'like asking a mouse to stop trying for the cheese in a mouse trap." 

"... I'm the trap?" 

"The cheese, actually." 

Your face is on fire. "Peter." 

"You're embarrassed? That's hardly my smoothest line. I got a new one, by the way. Has anyone ever told you-" 

"No," you say quickly, getting off of his bed in a hurry and almost tripling over a rogue hoodie. "I need to wash my hands." 

His pleased laughter follows you all the way to the bathroom. 

[proxythe]

i'm curious, what are some of your favorite persona dynamics that you don't talk about/draw as much? you have such good taste

omfg thank u for asking um let me think …

kotone & junpei - i’ve drawn very little for them even tho they’re literally one of my favorite friendships in the entire franchise 😭 they make me laugh so hard and i love to imagine how chaotic they are together. i loved junpeis sl and how protective he is over her even as just a friend. it’s rare to find a good m/f friendship where romance isn’t forced on it (tho im sorry to anyone who wanted to romance junpei) and i think kotone and junpei are such cute & funny friends

junpei & shinji - i drew 1 single thing for this duo but it’s also really really funny to me. shinji rarely gets to be silly and i just think he’d be like junpei’s older brother. i laugh every time i play dancing and shinji just goes “you’re too damn loud junpei” because it makes the brother vision so clear. also junpei thinks shinji is a badass. also i like imagining junpei bothering shinji about everything and shinji going along with it. and just imagine for one second shinji doing some dumb shit with junpei and tell me u dont love this duo also

junpei/fuuka - SORRY for another junpei one but. and yall might get on me,,, but this ship is soo fucking cute omfg. i lowkey love it a lot. i didn’t see it before reload (and dancing) but ever since playing dancing into reload, they’ve really grown on me. their dances are so cute together and, with kotone’s guidance, i think junpei would be able to sweep fuuka off her feet… fuuka would cook for junpei and immediately kill him

yukari & aki - i know u said “don’t talk about as much” but i couldn’t not mention them. they’re like the angelic behalf of shinji&junpei. i’ve always felt like they preferred each others company out of the others. like i feel like they wouldn’t bother each other and would actually enjoy being around each other. + reload added some interactions/lines that i loved. time to bring up my brief moment of disappointment when yukari asks aki for help in a study session but he doesn’t get to answer </3

yukari & kotone - this one is soo cute. i do think romantically they’d also be really cute but even as just friends i just love seeing yukari get to interact with another girl and have a super fun relationship with her. i cry when kotone can tell yukari her favorite color is also pink. they’re just girls…

i also love aigis & aki (i think aigis could find comfort in him about kotone since their situations are similar)

and recently (i went into it a bit on a diff ask) chidori with yukari & fuuka !! i love chidori having actual friends that isn’t strega, though i also love her with jin in more of a sibling sense (but if u ship them that’s fine)

sry this is so long omfg &ty for saying i have good taste lol

[ratwars]

Who do you think is the deepest character in diabolik lovers and whyyyyyy :3 (sorry if this is weird btw :,))

Tomà out here activating my dialovers derangement syndrome 🥲 ty ty ty also sry sry sry in advance 🙏💜

Minors dni with this post

This is not weird omg no one ever asks me about dialovers you need to understand I was into VNs including otome before I was into any anime (including bsd) and diabolik lovers is my longest term obsession that isn't music 💜🙏 This is mostly going to involve things from the games (because the anime was basically silly fanservice that barely scratches the surface for anyone) but I'll leave out drama cd stuff because I would actually need to go refresh myself on those.

Absolute novel under the cut sorry. also cw noncon, cw dubcon, cw abuse, cw csa, cw suicide, cw matricide

Anyone not familiar with the series who decides to continue pls be aware of these warnings and take care of yourself. Also pls understand everything I say is in terms of the series and setting. Absolutely nothing that happens in these games would make any of these characters redeemable irl. This is fiction and a trashfire Do-S fetish franchise. Trauma doesn't excuse abuse. I don't condone any of the bad behavior from this series irl. (Sorry since this isn't my sideblog I feel I need to explain this so ppl don't come at me thinking I'm excusing stuff for reals with this little analysis)

Also this is probably going to have spelling mistakes and horrific formatting because I wrote it on mobile so my bad on that too.

This was so hard to answer because so many of them have serious trauma, maladaptive coping mechanisms, and large amounts of growth throughout the various sequels. I think you could make the logical argument of depth for every single character. The Sakamaki triplets are def the most tragic of the first two games in this regard though (maybe only rivaled by the Tsukinami brothers once we get to Dark Fate because of the whole being the sole survivors of genocide thing)

But as a whole I think Carla and Shin deal with their predicaments in a more outwardly focused manner (which makes sense given their stories and roles as antagonists in their debut game) so I don't think I could objectively call them the deepest esp Carla even though he is my fave.

So out of the Sakamaki triplets I am going to go with Laito. Shocking I know because I have said before he is the one I am the most terrified of. But hear me out.

(I'm using HBD (haunted dark bridal) to refer to the first game, and MB (more blood) to refer to the second game going forward)

His first route in hdb is a stomach twisting mess of isolation, noncon, gaslighting and victim blaming. It is also the only route in that game where Yui tries to kill herself, which imo is really notable. Tbh the first time I played it I was so deeply uncomfortable I didn't really give his character a lot of thought. During replays and some of his drama cds though it def changed my perspective of him (in terms of the deepness of his character, not my dislike of him)

Here are my arguments in topical format because I don't really want to go through and do the research needed to refresh myself and make this chronological. Also if I am mistaken with anything I've paraphrased my bad it's because this isn't a real essay more of a rant that you might regret reading lol.

- Cordelia

We can't go into the rest of my arguments without the facts. He was groomed by his mother and experienced a childhood of CSA at her hands. And he is absolutely confused and suffering when he has his flashbacks. Yes he kills her with the other two triplets, but that didn't actually solve anything for him internally, and I think it is a pretty clear-cut argument that his negative traits and behaviors can be linked back to his unresolved trauma from this. He even says it himself too when he tries to project onto Yui and claim her hatred for him must be the same as his for Cordelia (though unnamed in his quote im pretty sure) that a hatred can run so deep that even killing the person won't relieve the burning. The other ironic part of this is that in the dialovers universe it is explained multiple times that the highest act of love for a vampire is murder. So. Every LI (Reiji, Laito, Ayato, Kanato) that committed matricide out of their hatred probably has some deeper more complex feelings going on than that. (You could also argue maybe a similar thing about Carla and patricide as well though he is Founder/First Blood not vampire. But he is more open about his reasoning and feelings around his parents and why he did what he did imo)

- His disdain of purity (plot twist. It's jealousy).

We repeatedly see him mock both Yui's purity and religiosity. He is arguably the worst out of all of the LIs when it comes to this topic, and hits this point right out the gate when he assaults her in the abandoned church. It is simultaneously a logical and also weird choice on his part to continue on with when you realize how unwavering her faith actually is, and if you do other routes before this one you are already coming in realizing no matter how much she "breaks", "changes", or "gives in" in other ways, she never actually abandons her faith completely even in future games when she is living quite literally in the demon world. Even in routes where she becomes a vampire she doesn't eschew God. However it is canon that she is a devout Catholic and that she originally wanted to be a nun (before the events of the game screw that up for her), so it is still relevant.

While it may have started as a way to try and break her down, it really becomes more and more clear through his routes that like a bunch of his other behaviors, he is projecting his own struggles onto Yui.

He is jealous of her purity, so he attacks it. He is jealous of her faith, so he attacks it. He is jealous of her unwavering belief in goodness and in humanity, so he just. keeps. attacking. it. Because seeing it exist in front of him hurts, but especially early on he isn't aware of his own emotions or why he acts the way he does. So many things in his routes and his monologues highlight the fact that Laito views himself as permanently dirtied by his past, and this behavior is tied to that.

- His inability to identify his feelings from his fake front and his use of sex to maladaptively deal with his trauma.

** I wrote way too much on this and decide nvm I think even if someone has only seen the anime his hypersexuality probably speaks for itself. Plus this is getting so long 😔**

-His lack of control in MB and "forced" behavior. His confusion over his own tears near the end of HDB.

There are various instances (esp in MB where his characterization is wildly different and desperate compared to HDB) where we see his mask start to crack, or realize that his mask wasn't actually very good to begin with and the exhaustion from the continous abuse in his routes has caused both Yui (and us as the reader) to fall for his bullshit more easily. He plays the part of a pervert, but Shu (who arguably is a massive pervert) calls him out in MB for being a phony. His behavior in MB makes him come across as desperate and out of control, as opposed to his calculated sadism in HDB. This all comes back to his inner turmoil, unresolved feelings, and trauma and we slowly unpeal those layers through the rest of the series.

I think at baseline it is really easy to dismiss Laito. I did from the beginning too. Plus he never stops calling Yui Bitch-chan no matter how many sequels he gets 🤦‍♂️ But that is just falling for his fake front, exactly what he wants you to do because then he can just keep carrying on without dealing with his bs and let off steam temporarily in the process. But under the surface there is a lot more going on. And he definitely is a character that has an insane amount of depth.

Sorry for the multi part novel. I don't even like him as an LI even in this series. But for a series with so many inconsistencies, retcons across games, and questionable writing choices, they did a good job with his character. I just need him to stay far away from both me and Yui 🥲 Imagine if you had asked me something that prompted me to talk about my faves 💀💀💀

[lunar-eclipse-things]

A Late night Out With Logan

Ships: Platonic or romantic analogical however you want to look at it

Genre: Fluff or Tooth-rotting fluff idk

TW: Swearing

Word count: im sry i don't really know but i think it’s around 3k-4k

Notes: credits to @⭐️cayy⭐️ on discord without them I wouldn’t even be able to post this (I’m sorry cayy if I got your pronouns wrong) and grammar @Lazzy the Lizard (he/ they) on discord for giving me the prompt and @Ax3_E0nS on discord helping me think up silly words for logan and lastly logicality shipper on discord For also helping with general grammar (I’m sorry I know this is a long intro but it’s almost over I promise) this is my first ever fanfic so don't judge me and lastly I legit had to look some of these up.

Summary: Logan gets frustrated over trying to write his flash cards late at night and Virgil helps Logan get some sleep.

“Ok um what does shawty mean ok aw man my pencil ok now shawty means like a hot girl so maybe like damn shawty ok next.”

“Fuck around find out um so its a threat what do i say for this um maybe just say fuck around and find out no thats to basic, ok how about "Keep testing my patience and see what happens, yeah thats good.”

“Ok what's next Pimp ok so basically a male, hmm, maybe uh i wanna pimp you out' no what about um,' pimp me up 'no that's not good either um what about 'i wanna see you pimp it up' ughhh c'mon why can't i fucking think of anything .”

A wild anxiety appears.

"Logan it’s 2 in the morning what are you doing still up?" Virgil ask.

"Well I could ask you the same thing Virgil." Logan replies sassily.

"well for your precious information i was using the bathroom and saw a light coming from the study.”

Fair enough.”

"well pocket protector what are you doing up?"

"Well im trying to write out my flash cards."

"But Logan you need to go to sleep.”

“I know but i just need to write one more."

"Okay fine what is the one you’re writing right now."

"It’s pimp and i can't fucking think of anything."

"Well what about I think it just got a little easier out here for a pimp."

“Oh that’s a good one Virge.”

"Now will you go to bed, please?”

"but I have so many flash cards I still need to do."

"No Logan you need sleep."

"But my flash cards."

"Bou can finish them tomorrow."

"But the flash cards."

"Tomorrow."

"Finnneee."

Virge, why are you following me?"

"So I can know if you actually went to bed."

"Im not a child."

"Yeah, but you're stubborn."

"No I'm not I’m perfectly logical."

"Ok then go get in bed and go to fucking sleep."

"fine."

"goodnight Virgil."

"goodnight Logan."

The End.

Tysm to everyone who helped me make this as good as it could be it without everyone it would’ve been a hot mess.

Again this is the first ever fanfic I wrote so pls don’t judge constructive criticism is different from just pure out hate

[neuroticboyfriend]

one thing i will forever be bitter about is how now i cant consume media with addiction/themes of it. like when i was actively using i could but now its too triggering tbh. maybe in the future i think i could handle the happy ending ones. those seem nice.

on a seperate note how much longer do i have to be clean for to not be considered an 'addict'. (im currently abt 6 months clean off opiods.)

also (sry i feel like im writing an essay now lol) the one post u made abt IQ - if u ever meet those ppl again tell them they're all dumb fuckers bc im schizrphenic and when i did an IQ test i got 110. So. IQ's got nothing to do with schizophrenia.

Oki that is all. Your blog's really epic, have a nice day <3

i feel you on not being able to enjoy things without getting triggered - i tend to watch them anyway but i don't advise that honestly, i end up in an unsober headspace.

to answer your question though, it's kind of up to you. personally, i see it like i'll always be an addict. just like how i'm still schizophrenic while (for the most part) in psychotic remission. in both cases, i have a baseline neurodivergence that requires me to take care of myself in a different way. i can easily trigger my psychosis by engaging with the wrong content, and i can easily trigger my addiction the same way.

always being an addict doesnt mean i cant recover, though - i can recover from that hopeless state of mind, and be free of the obsession to use. i just can't cure my condition. im too tired to get into the ways being an addict is truly fundamental to who i am now, in a way that reminds me of autism/adhd as well as schizophrenia. it's up to you, and this is what helps me.

sorry that was all over the place, but yea. i'll probably make a post later when i have more spoons about what i mean. also thank you for the kindness. its much needed.

[oh-snapperss]

laughing, giggling, kicking my fits ohh my fuckingg god i can't get enough! so, im writing it while im reading sooo just keep that in mind why i might not grab all of the stuff quicly.

okay, so, first of all, it really pains me to see how etho thinks he NEED to be useful. like it's such a basic thing, but i really need him to lie down and take a breath. the whole scene after the advisor's meeting left something in my chest and i really can't explain what exactly, certainly not the bad thing! but the whole premiss, this deep feeling of "i'll do anything you'll tell me". aaaand ren is lifthing etho up. okay, my brain short-circuited just now ma gad.(i don't exactly remember my previous ask and idk if you saw it, but it was something along the line, that for ren etho is becoming the reason to continue fighting AND IDK I MIGHT BE WRONG or i might see what i want and not what both of you wanted to say, but oh my god i see it so clearly now). for etho it was near religious experience, but for ren etho is the human ever, not in way "just another one", but in a "the human". etho is so alive and ren want to keep it that way to hide him from harm. omg pov switch im dying. i cannot express how much i feel reading rens part. im not joking. and it echoes so much with what i said about how human etho is in rens eyes. :( "good night, my lord Ren" im jumping into the river. "There is no one to see the love on his face" im drowning. i would comment on chess part but i am in the river, drowned. sry. "I'm calling you, Ren, a liar" millions cheered. but i am so afraid of where this all going, seriously. the whole wine scene was so,,, peaceful, it was so soft and it felt like home, i smiled like an idiot reading it. :( "hes someone has king's eyes" is such i simple phrase yet i can't think about anything anymore. OHH etho want his walls back, he want to see ren the king, because it is so so much to see just ren. because it is hard, because they both want more so bad, but just can't. the final part is something so big i cannot express.

im so fucking sorry for this 400 words essay, honestly, but oh my god this is too good, this is amazing work and you both are so talented and good with your words it never ceases to amaze me.

ALRIGHT i'm gonna try and respond to this so osososoosoooo normally

first of all you're so right. etho so needs to sit down and breathe but he's so very lost in the fact he's meant to serve and die he can't stop enough to rest:D

ren lifting etho up was by far one of the gayest things i've ever seen written with my two eyes<33 (theo wrote that) and i remember looking at the words and looking at the call and then going YOU WANT ME TO FOLLOW THAT UP?? and then i made it gayer myself so. WOO

you're absolutely so so so right about that point!! i just now got to answer it but you hit the nail on the head with it and i'm honestly floored by how you said it!!

the scene with ren carrying him back was also one of the gayest things i've ever written or seen!! honestly the majority of the fic is like this LMAOOOO

"his someone has the king's eyes" was a fun phrase to think of!! that section where etho talks about what he wants to do after the war made both of us cry, and the ending to the chapter was. hhhh made me cry writing it /pos KSJDHFSKHFJD

thank you SO much for this ask dude holy shit!!!

[strangerthingssimps-blog]

Hurt Billy x Angry reader (reverse comfort)

Pronouns: she/her 

Summary: y/n goes over to Billy's and finds Neil hurting billy. (Short idea I had) 

"I wonder were billy is he should be here by now" y/n says to herself while waiting for her boyfriend at the cinema for their date. 

She then grabs her Phone and rings him up but there was still no answer. She then gets into her car and drives to his house just to make sure everything is okay. Maybe he was just left in charge of looking after max again like per usual. 

About 10 minutes later she gets to his house. She then saw billy's car and his dad's car parked which ment there was no excuse why he was late. This made you a bit worried was he tired of you. 

"WHAT DID YOU FUCKING SAY TO ME YOUNG MAN" She hears someone shouting from the house and realizes that it is billy's dad shouting. 

She locks her car and walks to the front door. She uses the spear key which was under the mat. She walks in to see max comforting suzan. 

"What happened" she says while max and suzan look at her. 

"Neil had a bad day and he's was taking out on mom and when billy was about to go out to meet up with you. Neil stopped him and billy said 'no I'm going to see my girlfriend' and Neil's started on billy" Max explains to her as y/n stands there in disbelief and puts her bag down and runs upstairs to Billy's room. 

She walks slowly to his room with suzan and max behind her. They all then here and glass shater and a voice screaming 'IM SORRY'. Y/n knew that voice was billy and ran into the bedroom. 

She says billy on the floor crying and begging for mercy while covered in blood from attacks from Neil. She then out of nowhere punched Neil in the face and he feel to the ground. This shocked all of them No one had ever had the guts to punch Neil before. Y/n then helped billy up and he sat on the bed as Neil got up.

Neil then went to punch y/n but he missed, she then grabbed  a piece of glass and waked it against his head nearly knocking him out. 

"WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE YOU WHORE" He screamed at her as she kicked him. 

"1, don't fucking call me a whore. 2, don't ever fucking abuse a women and finally DON'T FUCKING TOUCH HIM" She screams at him as she continues to kick Jim until he passes out. 

Everyone looks at her especially billy, Billy has never seen her like this before. He was normally the protective one in their  relationship. He then come up and hugged  her as suzan and max left the room with an unconscious Neil. 

After and minute of silence billy says "I never knew you could be so violent" she then laughs and responds with " I'm only violent when someone hurts someone I love, and you happen to be the main one" 

They then cuddle together on his bed for the rest of the night while watching back to the future. 

Sry it was short is was a mini idea I had and I wanted to turn it into a oneshot. 

[tokkias]

okay so out of curiosity, which fairy tail pair is your fave after nalu? and where does gruvia land on your list (im nosey) (and i’m assuming gajevy is nr 2 but i might be wrong) (just a vibe i get)

i am soooo aggressively neutral about pretty much every non-nalu ship, like i hardly give the time of day to any other ships unless it's brought up externally, i.e. i have been thinking about gajevy a lot lately, but that's because i wanted to write something for gajevy week and not because im big crazy insane over gajevy

ur vibe check is correct gajevy is my number 2 ship, probably the only other ship i would actively go out of my way to write for outside of requests, i think they are so beloved and i cannot wait for the babies to be born <3

as for gruvia im about as neutral about it as i am every other ship tbh? i think it's fine, i think it's pretty cute but i wouldn't say im a gruvia shipper? i really like gray and juvia separately as characters, probably both in my top 5, so i can vibe with it but if im reading a big 4 fic i am skipping over the gruvia parts sry. i don't see a lot of gruvia on my dash because the moment i see any gruvia discourse i block immediately, doesn't matter what side of the discourse it is on, i'm just so tired and i think the person who made the gruvia hate blog is a loser with no life who needs to go outside and talk to a real person

you didn't ask for this but i like to talk so here are my opinions on other ships:

jerza - similarly as apathetic as i am towards gruvia. probably even moreso because i don't care much for jellal as a character? tho that is changing through my reread so we shall see elfever - they have been living rent free in my brain for the past 3 weeks ngl?? i have written a bit of elf and ever separately recently and i just think they're soooo funny apart which is increased tenfold when they're together. underrated ship nali - guilty of being one of those nali antis back in 2015 but my justification is that i was 13. lisanna deserved so much better than that i am sorry babygirl. i actually don't mind nali, i think it's cute and i do like childhood best friends to lovers trope my beloved. if i were not so deep into nalu hell that i side eye every other ship for them i think i would be really fond of it. i was gonna joke about me being a nali fic writer in another universe but can you fucking imagine. i cannot stiyu - this is just the nalu we have at home. yukino is so boring as a character i physically cannot care about any ship involving her calu - cringe! cringe! cringe! gross yuck don't like it. the only ship in ft i actively hate hate hate. makes me feel icky and i will feel gross for hours afterwards if i am forced to look at any art or fic of it

[drunkjaked]

rules: list your top 10 biases and answer the following questions

jake

jay

mark (nct)

taehyung

yunjin (lsf)

jungkook

jaemin

beomgyu

sumin

hanni

Q1: between 1 and 4 who would your rather kiss?

A: sigh, jake.. his lips i couldn't turn him down sry

Q2: between 2 and 7 who would be your best friend?

A: jay? .. hmm.. yeah .. hmmm yeah okay, jay ⭐️

Q3: between 5 and 10 who has a better voice?

A: man.. they both sound so beautiful but there's just something about hanni's voice she just.. gets me 🤷

Q4: between 1 and 8 who is the funniest

A: i'm saying jake but .. the margin is small

Q5: between 6 and 9 who would you date?

A: jungkook every single time no hesitation.. sumin, girl im sorry but im sure you understand

Q6: between 9 and 10 who would you do a collaboration with?

A: hanni 🥇

Q7: between 4 and 8 who is the better dancer?

A: taehyung

Q8: between 3 and 5 who would you most likely marry?

A: what a horrible question how could i ever answer this are you kidding please be se—yunjin !

Q9: between 1 and 7 who would you nurse when they are sick?

A: "get well soon, jaemin!"

— me while nursing my jakey back to health 🤷

Q10: between 2 and 3 who has a better smile

A: jay .. sorry 🤦 his mouth just curves in the most gorgeous way im so sorry his teeth??? have you seen them.. his smile is just.. like probably my favourite in the world i think 🙏

Q11: between 6 and 8 who would you vacation with?

A: jungkook but i don't feel strongly about it .. i would be happy to go with either,,, just considered jungkook might even vlog the whole thing and make it all pretty and stuff so easily jungkook and i feel strongly about it 🥇🥇🥇

skyyyyyyyyy ( @bruh-changbin ) thank u for tagging me :DDD ! @forjongseong @hee-pster @heeseongism your turn (if u want) ! and everyone else that sees this and wants to join !!!

[illubean]

Leorio with Male!Overaffectionate!Reader

Characters: Leorio Paladaknight

Type: Fluff, Headcanons, Male!reader

IMGGNGNGBGNMFMG THIS WAS A RQ BUT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT SO ANON IF UR SEEING THIS IM SO SORRY 😭😭😭 also it's a lil short sry about that😓

Warnings: None

ok first of all it's gonna take a while for Leorio to come to terms with himself

he can't feel this way about a guy, can he? he's straight after all (spoiler alert hes not)

so you being super affectionate gives him some conflicted feelings

like yes he loves the attention but also ???

but eventually he does come to terms with himself being not so straight and he actually really enjoys how clingy you can get

his favorite thing is when you hang off of his arm in public, wether it be because you're nervous or just want to be close to him

he's not opposed to you planting kisses all over him or jumping on him, actually it just boosts his ego

like "yes look at me and my bf we are in love"

when you go to restaurants and you insist you guys sit on the same side of the table he won't hesitate to wrap an arm around your shoulder

he really enjoys it when you silently offer to feed him too he thinks its the cutest thing ever <3

in private he drops the cool guy type of persona and is quicker to return your affections

you guys are so in love it's disgusting

both of you refuse to leave each others side when you're home together

this includes going to the bathroom, you guys hold hands while one of you shits 💀

if you guys both have a day in together don't expect to get anything done because you WILL be cuddled up to each other all day

if he ever tries to get up in the middle of the night without you you probably end up clinging on to his waist/legs while he struggles to walk away (which results in his pants falling down whoopsies)

you just looked so peaceful he didn't want to wake you

from now on he'll just carry your tired form with him to the bathroom or the kitchen for a late night snack

[nancydrewwouldnever]

Hi Nancy! I'm very sorry you got some nasty asks bc you're so wholesome and I'm sending you this one cuz you're the cinephile (movie lover) and i had some sort of epiphany during the holidays -im the stunted ho anon from Maddy btw too haha. So I'm gonna give a lil bit of unnecessary backstory to my super long rant. I was really looking forward to this Xmas bc it meant taking my mom out of her nursing home for 2 days in 2 years and i had planned a lot of nice food, decorations, etc and it went that way save for the fact i got the nastiest bacterial tonsillitis in my life and we were relegated basically to watching the movies on tv. Turns out the greatest showman was playing. I know it was the sanitized version of pt barnum and i already knew hugh jackman is a fucking legend and was a stan accordingly but OMG were we blown away by the movie on Xmas Eve! Mom was even humming and tapping to the songs even if she doesn't know english lol it was a perfect bonding moment and everyone was so talented. Zendaya, Keala settle, even Zac Efron!! (I'm considering stanning him low-key lol). I'd listened to some of the songs already but i don't keep up w movies like that and i don't really care for musicals, but i loved it. The critics hated it but it was a success, hugh spent 8 years trying to get it greenlit (pls watch the vid w keala). What I'm getting at w this rambling is... Does Chris in his mediocrity -sry not sry- think he's gonna be able to pull a hugh jackman success / weird ass concept of fictionalized version of gene kelly (what is that treatment or future script really going to be about, bits of the most memorable roles of gene sewn into a jojo rabbit minus the Nazis kind of plot?? So groundbreaking). Why all this sudden interest of him in gene -prior to the ace ventura interview i don't think he'd ever mentioned his admiration for him?? Someone correct me if I'm wrong. That concept alone is disrespectful to genes wishes cuz it's still a bastardized version of a biopic, it's far more confusing than the light-year character thing that many people never really figured out. I get he wanted to fit his tap dancing ability into something he could show to the public but Chris isn't a good singer or dancer. With all due respect to mama Lisa, i doubt the 'provincial' level of tap dance in ma can compare to what gene did and they don't even look alike (re body build). I was optimistic at first but i cackled at the hate tweets bc i knew there was a kernel of truth. I get he prob thinks this will be a break or make moment, but taking into account how bleak his personal life is atm i doubt he has the willpower to stay rehearsing for 6 months and nail the performance. I know I'm dragging a movie that hasn't even been written, but the room for disaster is enormous. I think it'll be a huge flop. He should go the Mark ruffalo route and take some indies here and there, maybe work in europe or Asia and w more female directors. A musical or a comedy or something contrived like this project seems to be is once again not it... Are you exhausted?? What do you think? 🤔

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[twice-inamillion]

I was so confident and saving up money prior to the concert that they will stop by my country or even my neighbouring country. Now i have to go to far far away to see twice which gonna cost a triple from what im saving. Whats the point of buying the new candybong when i dont have to ever use it.

Asia aside from kr and jp, only 3stops? Felt so sorry for Asian Once where twice are more popular there since Sixteen era. Lastly no Taiwan stops which furious me the most, poor tzuyu. Jype only think about profits in big and developed countries

Sry i just rant here, ranting in twitter will have other big acc cancelling you as they dont care since twice going to their country and telling us to be mature, such hypocrisy when they did the same last year kr jp and us tour only.

No need to answer this if you don't want to, felt so good after voicing out

I feel your frustration. I was the same when Twice wouldn’t do much touring in the US. It isn’t until now that I have the chance to attend their tours.

I hope that they do extend their tours after seeing how popular they are in the US and Europe. I feel that there might be a part 3.

It’s fine if you rants you’re a fan after all. Better here than ranting elsewhere.

[artamos]

yea im rly sry abt all this im not like a huge fan of ur group n usully agree w puellas takes bt this is mental. abused kids r not serial killers not animal abusers they r fucking HURT KIDS. puella coulda jst said they int w rarted but they saw a traumatized persons messy issues n added it 4 combo points on the callout tbh. i want puella 2 know their muts also see jst wtf they r saying rn like

i hope you know that puella is usually very deceptive in the way they word things or even just, purposefully cropping posts and including some tags but not all (that give context) or will post a singular screenshot of a post that is out of context if you just scrolled you could see originally it wasn't anything bad just an unfortunately worded vent that clearly condemns whatever puella condemns too.

puella didn't listen about children killing animals, despite it being actually proven fucking wrong (google it if you fucking have to) but i knew that'll happen, puella only ever doubles down on what they state. it was extremely fucking upsetting though to see them double down on calling abused children future serial killers but.. alas i knew they wouldn't change stance from past interactions.

i don't think i'm personally some saint but i also don't see the benefit in calling these types of people out, which is where puella and i clash. also puella has lied about me being a year older and my boyfriend being a year younger, which i don't believe was a mistake, i have no proof it was intentional to slander me, but all my accounts either said 20 (i was 20 at the time) or just 'adult', so i have no idea why they lied. especially concerning that i was called weird (alluded to me being a pedophile) but no one actually cared for the person they were calling my victim? it makes me feel really sick they twisted my relationship into something sinister and at the same time was mad at my boyfriend still after labelling him my victim.

i'm not saying puella is intentonally doing this but it's an alarming pattern and i make habit of blocking them and all they're mutuals to avoid them. puella has been doing this shit for years i don't see them changing. before they post another callout i'd love to see them address them lying, their antisemitism towards me and ableism in regards to introjects and child abuse victims. them going through abuse doesn't negate them being ableist. it's unfair puella believes they don't need to ever rethink what they believe because they went through trauma too but then hold others to the standard of not being allowed to want to retraumatise themselves after being abused and somehow thats callout worthy rather than alarming behaviour that this person need support rather than vilification that further pushes them towards unhealthy coping mechanisms.

i don't think wanting to retraumatise yourself is good, but it's not a fucking moral failure. no one is going to be hurt from that other than the person themselves.

sorry for ranty style response i have honestly too much to say about this.

[rawrmeansilyindinosawr]

U want to forget but I don't, no, not just yet

We smoked blow on the last subway cart on the train track. u used ur body to hide my high, remember when we ran away together that one nite? we were infinite like the perks of being a wallflower tunnel scene, we were laughing and panicking and kissing. Flowers growing just into the wrong tree.

ive spent so much time in unmemorizing but can u rly forget when

You bleached my hair with ur bare hands when it was all firetruck red

didn't use gloves

somehow u were always magic

The white pieces tht go thru a layer of ur skin always just came off

when u fucked me on the couch after I stopped going to therapy 

cuz u said she didn't understand me

She didn't understand addiction

Or any of the layers in me

When that uber driver from Chinatown drove us back home and farted so loud n didn't say sorry

when you met me at Greenpoint three times in one day 

To drop me off to work

Bring me fried chicken

Then an umbrella cuz it rained

U rode the subway the entire day on myrtle wycoff

And myrtle Broadway

At broadway junction, u carried crates of clothes for me for my children's fashion show date

Even ripped and cut apart ur own

Said u didn't need them anyway

Coffee in the greca 

hazelnut creamer 

"Dark and sweet"

Remember when we switched Starbucks drinks outside the farmers market in la?

I miss when u'd sing Beyonce

N how you'd sit on the sidewalk and call it “photosynthesis"

I just didn't know what love felt like til I saw u w that one dog u would dog sit

-----

i thought I had my heart broken before but

this feels like the very first time

Losing you feels like losing everyone ive ever lost in every god damn lifetime

Ive spent the entire night up but i still feel like i haven't been awake

figuring out who u were all along makes me regret saying yes to Sally's that day

i trusted u with no boundaries

So how do I begin to mend?

the holes in my heart

I don't wanna live for anything anymore

Not money nor my family not even art

Its like someone kicked me on the curb

Saw me bleeding 

Then kept kicking

and kicking 

and kicking me

still not stopping 

even when im crying red

i swear my heart just stopped beating

i can't feel it anymore 

cant feel u anymore

even in this feeling

feeling so close to death

-----

u were a wallflower

Just as lost as me 

My therapist said we found in each other what wasn't healed yet

we were flowers just growing into the wrong tree

i wish we blossomed into a mango tree 

u said u just wanted to be enough 

and I wish u knew I always thought u were

sometimes i still wish it was u id see on the living room floor 

Doing whatever u were doing

scratching off a ticket

eating dinner 

Drilling another hole into something 

nothing ever mattered when u laid beside me 

Not drugs

Or "intentional planned dates"

Just shared plates 

shared forks

shared home

With a ceiling

and a door

U were always self made

-----

If I told u I forgave u would u believe true love conquers hate?

I miss the perfume samples u gave 

the journals you'd steal for me

the cheese it's at laguaria airport

when u forgot how to spell my last name

The 100 coconut waters

All of ur last last dollars

All I ever wanted was u

More than freedom I want u

More than my life together I want u

More than money more than drugs more than heaven more than being equally loved.

—

let my blood run down the sink drain

I always told u id die before u 

im sry we can't die together today 

my ears are ringing and time is impending 

i feel myself dying

i wish u were with me 

i miss ur voice i miss ur face