#( IF U WANT ME TO WRITE U A STARTER FROM A DIFFERENT MUSE THO IM HAPPY TO DO SO AS WELL MEL!! )

[bondedtrauma]

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  @miasmalungs​​​  asked  :   ❤️ + me

tomy  🤝  me

loving horror aesthetics

lobotomy i LOVE ur filthy rot brain. the aesthetics that your blog + muses hold are so FUCKING!!!! GOOD! we don’t have NEAR enough interactions on this blog NOR MY MULTI. i’m gonna bodyslam u into discord for plotting. also i hope u like the nickname ‘tomy’ because it’s sticking for life. i love your psd for your icons! it makes me want to switch my own to match lol. it can fit a lot more of an expression in a bigger canvas and brrrrr it scratches my brain. your blog aesthetic is so perfectly creepy and i ADORE IT. i love our alpha conversations ooc on discord too! some of the shit u and leo be saying tho.......my god i added both of the biggest crazies on this hellsite. also ur graphics are all gorg and i love seeing u post edits/reading new bios!

as for MUSES: HISAO is such a rat i love him SO MUCH. i want to write more with him and kaneki ofc -- they have such a funny dynamic and even if ken pushes him around he really loves his company :) he’s starting to see him as a dad figure that he always craved as a kid and it makes me....angsty. 12/10!!!!! AGELOS is a character i just KNOW elli’s savior complex would just jump out at. i havent interacted with him yet but i just read his bio / interactions and ;w; WEEP!!!!  i’m taking him away from u bc ur too mean to him. i wanna kiss their little forehead and tell them tht theyve done enough.

IZZABEL is so interesting to me ! i havent interacted with them yet, but i see her threads on my dash with other ppl and im always just so ENTRANCED by her. the best word i can use to describe her is just haunting. they are another oc i just wanna hug and say everything will be okay!!!!! i hope she finds peace at one point UGH. deserved. ELLIOT has such an intriguing backstory! the mystique of finding out that you dont actually know as much as you thought you did about someone is always a harrowing experience, and i feel like that could be explored so well within lovelace’s psyche. mwah i love that trope tldr LOL. 

i haven’t yet interacted with JUNIOR, but i’m always SO excited to see his threads on my dash. he is the literal definition of ‘ little shit ‘ , and i feel like sekiko would wanna punt him across a football field. i crave that interaction LOL. i don’t know much about him quite yet, but i want to learn ! hanako being his fc fits ur blogs aesthetic too oml...pats him on the head. he seems like someone who would bite. does he bite? EUN is my favorite muse on ur blog. like hands down i adore him. i actively look forward to seeing his threads with you and my mutuals. he is SO FUCKING FUNNY. like he’s not even trying to be but the threads have me cracking up each time. also his BROTHER is hot and thats extra points. he’s such a brat and elli would mother him 100%. if he ever tried a pick up line on sekiko she would laugh in his face.  ALSO putting the rest under a read more because its getting long lol

DAEJEON yes sirrrrr!!!! im proud to say i was the first like on ur first starter call for him after his creation. clocked in a .4076 miliseconds because i’m just built that different. i love the interaction that he and elli held, and i think they could have a really cute platonic/sibling dynamic!! she just needs to be looked after 24/7 she gets into so much trouble just because of her naivete all the time. another possible plot could be them working together seeing that she interns in cyber forensics :) i always love ocs with chainsawman characters as a fc and MIER is no exception!! i love the uncanny valley vibe he has going and want to see more of him on my dash!!!! LET ME INTERACT WITH HIM!!!!

grabs SYBIL by the neck and squeezes him like a squeaky toy. I LOVE HIM. i love characters like him and idc if its problematic i just adore them. hes so creepy and rude and the idea of him wearing/creating masks is SO cool. he and sekiko’s past threads have cracked me up and we should have more of them!! GIVE ME A STARTER FOR HIMMM I COULD FIX HIM. GORI is so heartbreaking!!!! i have a thing for being TERRIFIED of losing my s/o and gori’s backstory is so sad :( i can’t imagine having to raise a kid after such a Wild(tm) incident. he has all of my support and i want to give him a forehead kiss....

JURO my love!!!!!! he’s reminiscent of frankenstein’s monster for me, and i just LOVE him. he’s so precious to me tbh idek why i have such an attachment to this muse. i just DO. grabby hands give me more of him!! SEVEN is such a perfect twist on the guardian angel trope. we haven’t had many interactions, but he was so kind to sekiko and i just want to hug him!! he seems so gentle and kindhearted but know you hes probably secretly fucked up LOL. CASINO is the coolest name ever so i wanna get that out of the way LOL. i love disturbed characters and i love putting elli in front of them with her ‘ i can fix them ‘ mindset. please let her try to fix him. he’s so gross but i LOVEH IM!!!! nasty, nasty, NASTY. i wanna know why sybil let him go 👀 and, lastly, tomatsu! i don’t believe i’ve seen any interactions with him yet, nor interact, but his design is SO COOL. i want to see a thread of him going feral <3

tldr: follow lobotomy for pretty graphics and wild muses!!!! plot wiht me tomy

[mayalevesque]

{ sky ferreira ♔ twenty-four ♔ she/her } well, well, well if it isn’t maya levesque running around peach hollow. legend has it, they come from blueberry boulevard and have lived here for four years. if you’re wondering what they’ve been up to, i hear they’re a baker at get baked for a living. they have been known to be condescending yet charming. a word of advice to them, always look over your shoulder. you never know who is watching. 

(hi!! i’m bella :) i haven’t participated in an rp for a hot minute so i am still kinda re-learning some things etc., but overall i am super excited! with that being said, maya is a fairly new muse for me. the last time i used to rp, i always played the easygoing, sweet character. maya, however, is not quite as easygoing or sweet, so she is very different for me! she’s a tough girl, but she is sensitive and has a big heart. there is nothing i want more than to plot with you! i am literally down for practically anything. anyway, here is her intro + some wanted connections. thank u for reading <3) 

her birthday is september 10th, 1995

she grew up in santa cruz, california

maya’s parents were artists, but they were not at all successful. because of this, money was tight. her parents often “borrowed” money from other relatives

speaking of her parents, the two were both addicted to drugs and did not treat maya well to say the absolute least. in fact, they didn’t treat each other well either. they broke up at least a dozen times during her adolescence

in high school, maya struggled with her grades + did not participate in any extracurricular activities (although she enjoyed playing the guitar)

she never really had a close group of friends because she was scared of getting attached to anybody

she has never been in a **real** relationship either. she has slept with her fair share, but she never let herself get too close to any of them

she is a bisexual queen

if u have not noticed she kinda has a “trust no one” attitude lmao

she dropped out of high school with only six months left before graduation because she felt that school just wasn’t for her (she lowkey regrets it now but it’ll take a lot for her to admit to it because she stubborn as hell)

got her first job when she was fourteen, worked as a cashier at a touristy ice cream shop

she began working her second job at age eighteen. the work paid so well that she didn’t even need her first job anymore... she quit her second job only months after being hired, but she still added a shit ton of cash to her savings because of it

on a whim, maya used all of her savings to move far away from her toxic home to start all over. and here she is!!

maya thought that things would be different when she moved away, but they weren’t. she still had to deal with her trauma and her trust issues. to this day, it is still not an easy task to get close to maya

she puts up a somewhat mean front so people don’t try too hard to get to know her, but in reality she is very soft and caring<333

she has recently begun going to therapy because she knew that she couldn’t carry her burden any longer, and she knew that she needed help

works at get baked as a baker 

wanted connections:

roommate(s): a few roommates sounds so fun!! it would make sense too bc maya spent most of her savings moving to peach hollow and it would be realistic for her to have to split the rent. angst + tension? or a best friendship waiting to happen? plus adding the roommates factor into it? genius. also im likely going to make a pinterest for maya too so a collaborative bedroom pinterest board >>>>>

friendships: maya doesn’t make friends easily, but after four years of living in peach hollow, she is bound to make a few! they may not know everything about her tho, but she may feel inclined enough to enlighten them someday

someone who pushes her to get her mf GED: self explanatory basically! this would be a rocky relationship bc maya would def tell them to mind their own business etc. but only because she doesn’t wanna accept the fact that she’s unhappy, and getting her GED could help her in the longrun (mercy)

lover(s) and/or ex fling(s): people she has slept with or maybe even got attached to/loved but is afraid to admit. could be ongoing or something that happened in the past! we love the angsty/crying gifs don’t we??

The One She Falls In Love With: lmaoo this can be reciprocated or unreciprocated. either one will bring so much tension and drama and goooodddd i love the drama so either way it would be a Dream. help her trust people! or break her heart! or both??? the possibilities are endless

ex-friends/frenemies: maya can piss people off easily so if u feel your character and maya’s don’t mesh well, may i recommend a frenemy plot? i luv those..im also a sucker for rekindling friendships and frenemies to bff tropes so its perfect

regular customers: this sounds p standard but here’s a Twist: it would be cool if maya could like..talk to a drunk/high customer and the two end up oversharing things about themselves and then it becomes a whole big Thing the next time the customer comes back sober ya know?? then from there the plot ideas are literally limitless period. idk its 3 am what im writing no longer makes sense so i will end this here lol

NOTE: u can dm me on discord to plot but i most likely will get back to you faster on tumblr messages. i do not mind either though, just letting yall know! :) thanks again for reading!! (also one last note + fair warning i SUCK at starters. wish me luck :*)

[paralianprince]

what made you decide to play sealand over a different nation?

have you ever had the experience of looking through fanart of a character, one who you dont even necessarily care about or like that much, but some of the pictures just… hit to key for reasons you can’t even really articulate, they just give off a certain vibe or aesthetic or something idk, aura of the character & and in a burst of inspiration you suddenly adore & completely understand their entire Concept in a way that’s hard to explain but like you Feel It Though. 

that’s what happened to me with sea !  i just tripped and fell on my ass and was like “god dammit i guess i love sealand now.  fck” 

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he actually wasn’t my first blog, i started with hong kong, and ive also played japan, but he steadily became the character im most passionate about 

as for why i started to retire my other muses one by one until i only have sea and ladonia now, it’s a combination of Severe Anxiety regarding portraying a real culture (even if i research a lot, and talk to people from that place who are kind enough to give me pointers, which i was able to do with hk which Ruled, the feeling never went away) 

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and more importantly micronations are fun as hell and just so odd and entertaining to play because there’s so much cool weird shit about them.  they’re all incredibly vibrant and strange!  like a lot of them are so wack that sealand is completely normal by comparison.  and building a character out of that, and trying to convey that character to people, and trying to get people to understand them, is An Experience. 

and as a micro rper, i promise u, the experience of finding someone *else* who *also* plays micronations is so exciting that it borders on being a parallel for the bond they have with each other just by virtue of what they are, that they’ll inevitably struggle with making w actual nations, again, just bc of What they are

i’m pretty sure this ask was sent bc of my tags on that insecurity post from last night-- that i admit i have a bit of a complex about approaching people, bc i try to be humble / realistic that micronations probably aren’t thaaat high on most people’s priority list of characters they eagerly want to write with.  it’s possible, but i don’t want to assume, u kno?

and i dont want to make anyone feel obligated just bc i approached them, so i kind of waffle on whether i should reply to someone’s open, send something from a starter meme, etc.

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this is VERY MUCH a case of complaining about problems i specifically personally caused for myself tho.  and i don’t even really mean to complain, so much as just explain why i hesitate sometimes & that i’m trying to work thru it anyway!  and it’s EXTRA kinda my own fault, bc not only do i main micronations exclusively now, but i chose the two MOST overbearing in-your-face jackasses available.  because OF COURSE i would.  

ANYWAY I HOPE THIS SUFFICIENTLY EXPLAINS IT 

and while i’m here on my hill:  i’m totally of the opinion that most hws rpers should Try writing a micronation at least Once-- even if it’s just for like, a week or two, just to know what it’s like trying to develop them into rounded characters from not much at all, really.  also, ive had experience with both types of characters and, with my hand to god, i swear it really changes the way you interact w other characters & the way they interact with yours in return. 

and its FASCINATING to watch people play them for the first time, and talking with them about it as they go is extremely fun. i’m biased, of course-- i think it’s impossible not to be, when you’re invested in your character and the groups they belong to.  but still ! 

[exmateriadead]

Bold all that apply to you and your blog. Italics if you’re on the fence about something. Strike through for anything you’re against.

Feel free to add anything I may have missed in the appropriate category, or re-categorize something that is in the wrong place!

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TAGGING: @creepyflock​ + who ever wants to steal this

✧・ﾟ  MY BLOG IS

open to all - semi-selective - selective - moderately selective - highly selective - exclusive - only going to rp with mutuals - mostly going to rp with mutuals - indie idk what this blog is- affiliated with a group - spoiler free - spoilers tagged (upon request) - spoilers mostly tagged - not spoiler free

✧・ﾟ  I WILL RP WITH

any fandom - most fandoms - only fandoms I know - only people in my fandom - ocs - ocs with no fandom ties - ocs who are related to/know my character in their backstory - only one version of any particular character - people who have the same muse as me - people who do not have a rules page (this is usually how i determine whether we’ll vibe) - multimuse blogs - people in rp groups - indie rpers some of yall crazy tho so....im picky

✧・ﾟ  WHEN RPING, I LIKE TO USE

novellas (i really gotta be in a MOOD, but it is possible) - paragraphs - shorter forms of text - *action* - icons - gifs - gif icons (RARELY IF EVER) - no gifs/icons - formatted text - whatever my partner is using - my own style regardless of my partner’s reply

✧・ﾟ  I WILL SHIP WITH

no one (ld;sjflkdsjf)  - anyone - chemistry - select ship - ocs - others of my own muse - crossovers with characters from different fandoms - only one version of a particular character - one person in my main verse - multiship - one main/canon ship within my main verse (it be like that sometime)

✧・ﾟ  MY BLOG WILL CONTAIN ______ IN ITS CONTENT

fluff (you yearn you get stitches around here, im kidding sorta )- angst - gore - violence - smut (only a select FEW + on discord mind ya bidness) - blood - torture - shipping - death - dark humor - assault - suggestive themes

✧・ﾟ  I WILL FOLLOW ______ BACK

everyone - only some people - most people - only people in my fandom - every rp blog - people i actively wish to rp with - people who do not post a lot of ooc - people whose posts i am comfortable with on my dashboard

✧・ﾟ  TO RP WITH ME, YOU SHOULD

follow back - answer an open - message me ooc - message me ic (don’t do this esp if i don’t know u) - make a starter - answer my starter - send in a meme - like a starter call- scream at me to write with you best results come to my house and fight me with a butter knife so you earn my respect for a lifetime.

✧・ﾟ  OTHER

i practice reblog karma with memes - i expect reblog karma with memes - i expect my rules/about to be read - i always read the rules/about before following/interacting - if you follow me, i would like nsfw tagged - i expect all smut to be beneath a read-more - i am a multiverse blog - i am multi-muse - i do not wish for my ooc posts to be reblogged - i do not wish for my threads t im more stingy about headcanons so no reblog pls - i expect post length to be matched (unless I say otherwise) - i expect icons/gifs to be used in a reply if i have used them - i don’t expect post length to be matched, but I will try to match yours - i am patient when waiting for replies and expect the same courtesy, THATS ON PERIODT. 

[grandschemed]

@victorums

continued from here

her finger nudges kamui’s nose and he makes a little noise of protest, expression falling into playful discomfort as his lips twist into a helpless smile.  in return, he faces her as he raises a gloved finger to trace along the length of her cheek, marveling at her likeness and undeniable beauty.  how strange to face his mirror, but not mirror?  

and yet, her words wound him like a knife.  ‘i think it would destroy them if i had left.’  sobered, he removes his hand, gaze hardening as he focuses on the fact that nohr chose to cage him, alienate him from family - he was friendless and alone except for rare moments which felt like a breath of sunlight that he had never known in that dark kingdom.  he does not regret his decision.  he does not think of their love.

the guilt stings all the same.  

“i’m ... happy to know they have you here,” he echoes hollowly, bitterly, as he looks past the finery in the room.  nothing has changed - this home is still a prison.  the prince closes his eyes, yearning for light to drown in.  “i don’t know how you withstand the loneliness,” he murmurs, staring past the window into the night sky.  “is it ... better for you here?  you don’t regret the decision you’ve made?”

[pepprs]

[DONT RB] ok so there’s no way for me to talk abt this that isn’t gonna make me look like an absolute dumbass but im in the middle of a creative existential crisis and i rly need help figuring it out :•( this is gonna get SUPER LONG so im putting it under a readmore. thank u to anyone who reads this!!! and double thank u to anyone who can give some input / advice, i rly rly appreciate it. im sorry abt the length!

aight so for some background.... ive been drawing n writing poetry for abt 5 yrs now and both of those things r rly important to me. in school im an english major w a creative writing minor (for the poetry) and i work as a graphic designer (for the art) so ive been growing a lot as an artist and writer esp in the past 2 yrs and im kinda workin towards one or the other (or ideally both somehow!) as a career. one of the biggest dreams ive had since i started seriously pursuing both of these hobbies 5 yrs ago is to publish a book of poetry that i design / illustrate myself, and also to have a portfolio online where ppl can read all of my poetry and see all of my artwork (both professional / work stuff but also archives of all of my sketchbooks since those r rly important to me!!!) and maybe even make some sort of online shop where ppl can buy my art (stickers, keychains, etc!) and my poetry books!

that sounds pretty simple right? WRONG!!!!!! why? bc im a fucking idiot! and there are several dumb things i do that make this dream completely impossible for me to achieve! love that for me!

so for starters... ive been posting (almost) all of my art and ALL of my poetry online for all 5 yrs ive been creating it. that’s bad because:

ive hardly ever used my real name (which i would want to use for the book / shop / portfolio), it’s been under my usernames / aliases that go along w them (p*pe, pep, pea, etc and related usernames that shall not be mentioned) and i started going by my real first name only abt a yr ago, but still maintain those usernames for the most part in conjunction w my real name

my work has been primarily been posted to d*viantart and tumblr which aren’t exactly the most uh... professional places to do that. not that there rly are many i guess lmao but still

my online persona on these platforms is rly like. lax and loose which is Cool And Quirky when brought into a professional setting if it’s done right i guess.... but im just immature and unprofessional. i swear all the time, i shitpost constantly, im incessantly tmi? and that’s not even it like it’s just a whole mess!

SO there’s that whole set of problems and like im just concerned because... i stopped posting art online last yr for the most part and a lot of the old stuff that’s on dA (since that was rly where i did it most) is bad and not worth sharing like that anyways, so im not as worried abt that. but my poetry.... i still actively post that online in all my messiness and candidness here and like. it’s rly not that hard to find me? like if u copy a poem of mine and put it in google it’ll pull up my dA right away! and that’s like.... GOD i just am embarrassed for anyone irl to see that or for that to be connected with my irl / professional self in the future, but i don’t want to stop posting my work there (or here!!!!!) bc the community is so supportive and ive made some rly good connections / built a lot of traction over the 5 yrs ive been doing it. (PLUS for the online portfolio i wanna do specifically... i kinda want to post all of my art and poetry there, like everything ive ever done (specifically poetry, ive written almost 500 poems over the 5 yrs ive been doing it!), but i feel like that’s not rly the most professional thing to do and idk how to even gauge whether it is or not :-/)

but that’s not all!!!! because there’s another part to this and that is: the very nature of the content i produce is Not Good! for my art it’s not as much of a problem bc since I work as an artist rn a lot of what i make is professional, but for my personal art... a lot of that is either self portraits or my characters and a lot of my characters are like. animals. like specifically pepe (who is basically Me As A Cat).... i draw her constantly and so much of my best work is of her but it’s just like? embarrassing i guess for my ocs to take up so much of my portfolio and sketchbooks and stuff and share that. like i know everyone has characters and it’s not bad to do that and share that but i feel like ppl will judge me :-( so it’s made me rly hesitant to post stuff to my art ig for example bc i just don’t fucking know how to act, like it’s bad enough that i can’t type the way i want to and i have to type in proper caps n whatever instead bc irls i don’t know / trust as well follow me (including some ppl from work? Yikes?)....... but i feel like i can’t share my sketchbook stuff for example bc it’s all cats and my characters and visual shitposts and im uncomfy to share that bc like... im almost 20 and i don’t want ppl to think im immature or whatever? i kno i should feel like it’s my account and i can post wot i want but like. i fucking can’t bro i just can’t!!

and THEN.... my poetry. that’s the biggie bc like for my art? even tho im uncomfortable i don’t mind sharing that w ppl i know irl but for my POETRY.... it’s very easy to find like where i share that i guess? (the google thing i mentioned earlier but also its linked to my art on here and dA too... f) but i literally never actively share my writing w irl ppl unless im performing @ an open mic or workshopping in class bc im fucking terrified of the possibility of irl ppl finding my poetry. it’s almost ironic how public ive been w it online but how private i am abt it irl... it’s like im living a double life and it’s fucking terrible but it’s the only way i feel safe. bc like art is what i do for other ppl and also to destress and vent when i need a quick fix on my own time. but poetry.... that’s personal, it’s where i feel most like myself, it’s how i talk abt my life and ppl in it and make meaning of things and talk abt things authentically and Get Deep. and my literal worst nightmare is for ppl (who have the explicit ability to by virtue of Knowing Me) to read into it and Understand what im talking abt and have that power over me and see me differently for feeling the way i do or doing what i do. ive actually already been burned by this before after my mom read some work of mine that had been published irl (i don’t want to get too into it but basically i retroactively outed myself thru her reading that poem for what it was and it was Very Very Bad) and as paranoid abt it as i was before, it’s even worse now that it’s actually happened to me and could happen again at any time, esp if i decide to take my work further.

that manifests in a few ways too, like my writing is so cryptic and vague and very heavy on metaphors / symbolism and shit partially out of that deep fear and need to shield myself and my work. sometimes in spaces where i do feel comfy sharing, ppl have a hard time understanding my poetry unless i give context. online and on stage and in workshop ppl don’t rly know me outside of a context where the only thing we have in common is self expression thru poetry, so i don’t rly mind sharing more when it’s appropriate. but if i were to share my work as a book or w/e, ppl im close to (who maybe don’t always think like a poet / artist does bc they aren’t that) would want to buy it and read it and might ask abt what it means and i don’t even know what i would do in that situation. and if ppl were to read my work and see themselves / others in it, whether it is abt them or not, im scared it could genuinely damage relationships like it did with my mom.

SO UH.... idk where im going w this rly, i kno it’s long and rambly and melodramatic and im probably overthinking it and making a mountain out of a molehill and nobody even knows / cares abt me AND my work @ the same time enough to read That Deep into it. but it just fucking sucks that im so uncomfortable and insecure that i can’t comfortably fulfill literally the one single long term goal / life dream that i have. andthe thing that sucks is i can’t talk to Anybody abt this except like... my sister and brother bc they’re the only ppl i genuinely tell everything to, but they don’t have the knowledge and expertise abt art / poetry that like... my poetry prof does, for example. and my poetry prof is one of the best ppl ive ever met and the Only person ive ever met irl who respects and understands my poetry in the exact way i need someone to. she and i have been talking and she rly wants to help me publish my poetry bc she sees merit in my work and knows how bad i want to / how successful it’s been already, but i don’t know how to talk abt this to her bc im embarrassed to tell her abt posting online and being ashamed abt my muses and all that and it just!!! sucks so much bc i kinda want to publish my work @ least once before i graduate and do it semi regularly for the rest of my life? but there’s so much in my way and it’s just! FGGFHDGJGGGG

[aparoxysm]

☯ ✉

☯ Tell us all about your favorite muse you’ve ever written and why they meant so much to you.

i mean okay i’d be a liar if i didnt include Helena as one of my all time favourites, maybe not ‘top tier’ prize winning, but for me personally, i just love her and ALWAYS love to play her and i relate to her on an social level completely. she was the last phoebe i made for that nola town rp and once i did i was like “ok kellie no more phoebes ur becoming a freak” and so this time i really went all out. i was kind of worried when i made her tho bc i am super acutely aware of phoebe tonkining (see: nina dobreving) in rp bc like most of them that u meet tend to share the same ~highkey badass, big attitude, probably will post a bar starter 5 times out of 10 and like. i wanted something different but i also didn’t. i had this really clear image of this girl raised in a wesley-like fam of a hundred kids out in the bayou whos never had a lot of money, who grew up around a bunch of dudes, who has really modernist views on the world and is a true artist at heart and is really blended into the cultural nola vibe. literally, nothing special or that individual and i think that’s what i kind of tried to work to her advantage? i try to keep her really self aware that she’s not hot shit and that she doesnt get special privilages just bc she wears leather jackets and smokes cheap cigarettes, that shes not this ultimate badass thats above anyone else and that she really just likes to connect with other people and hear the opposing opinions of others so that she has a better wordly view than someone whos not open to that kind of thing. i love alternative styles, i think wicca culture is beautiful but also sometimes a wank, i WISH i knew more about motorbikes, my family has drinking problems, i relate to wanting to experience a whole abundance of types of people, i do take after my dad a lot, i find it hard to right my wrongs, ive always lowkey wanted real brothers i think, and so basically i wanted a way to blend all of that into one person and show that it can work no matter how contradicting it might seem on paper sometimes. idk i can talk about helena all day bascally.

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okay well all memes aside, i am actually very in awe of you. i am so fascinated by your chill behavior in rp in contrast to my no chill behavior in rp and i find it super interesting that we’ve stayed friends and in contact all this time when i was pretty much not even sure if you remembered me once cb shut down and lakewood was gonna start. i was pretty prepared for you to be like no thnx and that be the end of it idk i am literally just always prepared for you to think i am too much or whatever and be like “byeeee dont talk to me im waiting for the aliens my tru fam”. i am basically just like super happy that you let me annoy you bc i love writing with you and shit talking brandon and sally together :)))) i love hearing from you, i think youre fucking hilarious and you can literally make me laugh so much with the most minimalist of sentences (sometimes its even just a phrase or emoji and im so done its the perfect reaction) and i actually idolize you a lot, i think anyones super lucky to rp with you. u know those memes about feeling like ultimate affirmation and validation when that rp friend of urs reblogs ur things? 10/10 relate.

[britshits]

do you think cis muns can play trans/nb chars? i know this opinion varies but i remember coming across a post that said cis muns shouldn't and now i see a lot of that happening

boy, oh boy… this question …………………….. is like 110% up for debate ?? hell, im not 100% on where i personally stand bc there are legit SO MANY FACTORS ??? pls don’t read this thinking it’s gospel bc it’s truly not and ik this gon turn into some long ass semi-rant, so scroll for a tl;dr, but … [ cracks knuckles ] let’s gO !

i’ll be 100% real n say that i am always, always going to be uber picky when i come across cis muns playing trans/nb muses. i instinctively raise my hackles and put everything they do under the microscope, mainly bc they ( obviously ) don’t have first-hand experience of the pressures / prejudices / issues / feelings etc. that are exclusive to our community, so they have a tendency to fall into all the harmful tropes when it comes to trans characters—and, without that innate understanding of our struggles, they don’t see how these things can be damaging. there’s also the whole issue of the media perpetuating this bs, so really, while research can do wonders, it’s never gonna be a catch-all solution.

that’s not to say i don’t think that cis people can write solid, unproblematic trans characters. i have most definitely met people who are cis who’ve played wonderful trans and/or non binary charries, whom i adored and would educate themselves and readily listen to any tips that i or other trans people gave them. i actually haven’t met a cis person who has played a non binary muse in a way i have an issue with so far. ik that there’s a general issue in the rpc with people changing their charrie from cis to nb to fill a ratio, which is a Mess and a Half, and ofc the assumption that the character’s assigned sex at birth matches that of the face claim. but, other than that nasty business, the majority of cis ppl playing nb charries are #tight and willing to learn, at least as far as i’ve experienced.

when it comes to binary trans muses tho … lmfa o ….. where do i even begin ?? like idk what it is about cis ppl but a lot of them are just absolutely OBSESSED with what’s goin on in a trans person’s pants ?? i mentioned this in another ask, but bruh… if i had a pound for every time some1 has fuckcin offhandedly brought up / alluded to my charrie’s downstairs configuration when we’re plotting, i’d have enough money to buy this blue hellsite and shut it tf down like i goddamn want to, but anyway !! the reason i bring this up is bc i see so many ppl who have this approach with their own characters—i.e. fetishising them. i mean if ur trans, u do u man, sexualising ur charrie is ur prerogative ?? but fuc k n cis ppl doing this…………………….. mmm hooo my go dd … do u realise how disgusting and nasty this shit is ??????? i mean trans ppl have enough shit w/ ppl sexualising us irl ( esp. trans women !! they literally have it so fuckn rough w/ tht i cant even begin 2 describe ) so like, leave it out of rp thx ???

but nope !!! y’all can’t do that !!!!!!!! (((((((((: tbh in the rpc, most of the bs seems to affect trans male muses, as far as i’ve seen. i think it’s partly bc trans female muses are so few and far between, which is an issue in and of itself, but also bc a lot of the rpc is so fuckin guilty of the nasty obsession with m/m ships. it’s usually cishet girls who pull this shit and they pull it w/ all males tbh, like they legit use gay guys as a fuckn object like “OMG !!!! GAYSZ !!! SO CUT E I LOVE THEM !!! COME SHIP W/ ME I LOVE GAY BOYZ !!! :’)” lmfaooo miss me w/ this shit !!! u wanna chat about lesbians being fetishised by cishet men and yet u only give a fuck about mlm when they’re being a cutesy lil otps or banging it out so u can flick ur bean hmm ?? i see u. but yeah, it’s not exclusively cishet girls who do this shit… like, cis ppl in general are pretty shit at playing trans males, specifically. like you’re lucky to find a single starter that isn’t tagged as “indie smut rp” or “indie gay rp” or if their threads aren’t laced with sexualised scenarios or worse… the dreaded C-Word. like bruh if ur not a trans male u literally have no business using that word regarding ur muse. ever.

tbh 99% of the time they don’t even realise just how gross they’re being, bc, as i mentioned before, they don’t have any concept of what it’s like to be trans and how gross and intrusive ppl can be towards us. they think that it’s just the same as writing any character and that they can sexualise them if they want to, without realising that .. it’s very different when you’re outside that community. you’re not exploring an aspect of your identity, so much as reducing someone else’s to a very, very small sector of theirs and then using it for entertainment.

tl;dr: it’s literally a clusterfuck of nope tbh and, on a personal lvl, i’m almost at the point of thinking it would be better if cis ppl don’t play trans charries, bc the bad far outweighs the good in terms of how harmful it can be. that said, i do not think that telling cis ppl not to play trans characters is the right thing to do, bc of the following:

the people who do the disgusting things i’ve mentioned above or anything else that’s nasty don’t listen to us anyway, so it’s not gonna solve that problem.

it reinforces the “write what you know” mantra, which i think we can all agree is so old n outdated in 2k17.

sometimes writing characters is how people manage to learn new things about themselves. i’ve actually met people who, through their character research, have realised that they identify as non binary or trans. having an outlet for feelings they may be having really helps some ppl along.

lastly, and what i personally believe to be the crux of this issue, is that by trying to police something like this you are essentially forcing disclosure of ooc gender. not everyone is comfortable or ready to say they are trans or they may not be sure about their gender identity at all, so forcing them to make it known for the sake of playing a character is not okay. and, ofc, we have the obvious addition that ppl lie, so you’re relying on good faith to carry it out.

so yeah, that’s my v. long-winded two cents on the matter. i have a feeling i’ve missed some details, but it’s 3am and i need to be up by like 9:30 so that’s all for now !! feel free to drop me another question if i’ve fuckt anything up or u would like clarification on anything !

[grandzealot]

following / follow back policies

if i follow you first i have definitely read your rules

if i follow you back i probably didn’t read them ( ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  ) BUT i will definitely have read them by the time i write / reply to any starter ( and i usually brush up on them every now and then if we regularly interact )

i usually follow back all fallout blogs

and i usually follow back nonfallout blogs that have an easily located fallout verse description ( or if they have any other verse that im all about )

even if i didnt follow you back im likely willing to rp if u hit me up about what kind of verse our characters can interact within ( im selective about making au verses for richter tho - his personality just doesnt lend itself to different aus as easily as other characters... so pls dont ask for anything that branches far from any of his existing verses ) ( & if we do end up rping ill follow you back then )

ill unfollow for common reasons like ‘posts too much non rp content’ or ‘excessive vagueblogging/drama/negativity/hatefulness’ or if your blog is 95% sex rp ( its your blog and im 1000% encouraging of you doing what you want to do with it & not being judged for it - there just isnt a lot of room for interaction between our characters )

im happy to follow / interact with sideblogs just let me know about them

im chill with multimuse blogs too

dont feel obligated to only use ur most popular character with me if you would love to show a different muse more attention — esp female / poc / oc muses who are often skipped over in favor of white male canon ones. i know it can be extra hard so pls dont hesitate to throw such characters at me if they need love ! 

i dont care about ur format or theme situation either - im more about content and keeping a chill & comfortable dash c:

i want u to have a chill & comfortable dash too so feel free free to block or softblock me for any reason whatsoever. i probably wont notice and if i do i will assume its for the best!