#(I don't consider myself 'insanely fit' but my friends think I am lol)

[sasorikigai]

PEOPLE I'D LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER !

alias / name: Kathy

birthday: May 2nd

zodiac sign: Taurus

height: 5’6”

hobbies: running (from 5K to marathons. I do not discriminate), working out (at Orangetheory, I'm a certified PT), reading, writing, painting, drawing, etc.

favorite color: burgundy and merlot (that specific shade of red)

favorite book: 1Q84 and What I Talk about When I Talk About Running by Haruki Murakami

last song: Now You See It (Benny Benassi Remix) · Honorebel · Pitbull · Jump Smokers

last film / show: Dune: Part Two & Shōgun (episodes 1 & 2),

recent reads: Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Superathletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen by Christopher McDougall (current)

inspiration: Mortal Kombat games (predomnantly MK9 - MK11. We do not talk about MK1 here in regards to Hanzo Hasashi), animated series (Scorpion's Revenge is unparalleled), comics, and recent reboot 2021 movie (because Sanada is simply legendary).

story behind url: a combination of sasori (Scorpion in Japanese, his well-known codename), and ikigai (“iki” meaning “alive” and “gai” meaning “worth.” These phrases together refer to what gives your life value, meaning, or purpose). It's extremely fitting for Hanzo/Scorpion in a literal/figurative sense.

fun fact about me: My bucket list as of now is to complete all six World Major marathons (Chicago, New York, Boston, Tokyo, Berlin, and London). So far I have done Chicago last year and will be doing Berlin this year (my second star). Next one in my radar is New York (entered the lottery) and Tokyo (might attempt to do it next year).

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[msfbgraves]

hi i was wondering why people are saying terry is jewish? D:

i always thought he was roman catholic like his actor lol. i know the scene where the jewish sensei says he made the deal when terry attended shabbat services...but like, this is terry! i was under the impression he attended only to make said deal, not because hes actually jewish. he’s a businessman of course he knows the art of the deal and how to get people to be team terry. 

and i know some people think silver is a jewish name. i dont know anything about that because the only silver i knew growing up was a pasty white lutheran of english descent and wasnt remotely jewish whatsoever lol. 

not that i have anything against jewish faith/people/characters!! :D

...i just never thought that about terry, and i still don’t. unless proven!

he just seems like the classic “wasp” poster child especially in comparison to someone like danny boy who is obviously more “ethnic” (probably an underlying reason why ali’s parents didnt like him in kk1 as they were a wasp family too probably and he didnt fit in at the country club (traditionally a wasp place and anti italian and jewish, black, etc) 

anyway whats your take on this? :D

My take on this, Nonny, well, I have Thoughts, indeed.

Had I been in the writers' room, I would have cautioned them against subtly Jewish-coding Terry in S5. Because you're right, a surname alone means nothing. But put everything you see together and it paints a picture, alright, and in my personal opinion, a rather anti-semitic one.

Before I go any further, I am neither American nor Jewish; the only thing I do have is a history degree in social history so I was taught about European anti-semitism in the context of religious persecution on the Continent, mostly. Which is to say I am no expert and I'd not volunteer myself as a source; if you're interested, please, Wikipedia knows a lot more than I do. But for someone with a passing familiarity with the topic:

Yikes.

Another last caveat: I love Terry, he is my poor little meow meow, and I think Jewish coding him is actually interesting to play. But this man was conceptualised as a Bond villain and to make this Bond villain Jewish is, and I say this unironically, problematic representation in my book.

What we knew about Terry before:

He's in business.

It's an unreputable business.

He uses bribery.

He pollutes nature.

He is filthy rich.

He's queer coded: a single man with no partner and a penchant for surrounding himself with pretty boys, who is loud and very flamboyant.

He is manipulative and dishonest.

He's quite insanely loyal to those he considers his.

He has no obvious connections to an established upper class, rather, he constantly buys his way into new circles.

He's very cultured.

He is a danger to children. (He is, come on!)

If he were of unspecified religious affiliation, well. That's not anti- semitic, per se. But he is said to have attended Shabbat services and he has a name that is heavily over-represented among Jewish people.

Now I want to be very careful what I say because for all I know things are different among different Jewish circles and in different countries but as a rule of thumb, and if I have absolutely nothing else to go on:

Christians will open their church to everyone in an effort to convert. When visiting Christian places of worship I often simply mimic the motions because I don't want to have that conversation (though I will not take communion in Lutheran or Catholic or Anglican services, as that is a sacrament). But if visiting people think you already are Christian, well, they leave you to it, mostly.

Jewish people where I come from do not open their services to just anyone. I can't blame them, again and again and again and again they have been betrayed by non Jewish people, often Christians, who they thought were friends. They do not wish to recruit, and if you're in a Jewish place or service of worship, you are often there by express invitaton. I would never ask to join a Chanuka meal, and definitely not a Seder, and I have attended a Rosh Hashanah celebration in a synogogue only because it was a concert open to the public and even then some people were a little uncomfortable with that shikse joining their party. Which, fair enough; it is still in living memory that lifelong goy friends sold people to the Nazis.

As for his name: a lot of Jewish people are named after gemstones or precious materials, so much so that naming someone Gold - anything or Edelstein has become a shorthand for "this person is Jewish", especially when written by non Jews. Silver, possibly anglicised from Silber or Silberthal, isn't that much of a stretch. So a man called Silver attending shabbat services is likely Jewish or if not, likely closely affiliated with Jewish people in some way.

And with Jewish stereotypes, Terry is a problem.

It's not the representation that bothers me; we have Eli Moskovitch for ambiguous representation in Cobra Kai. Is he Jewish? We don't know, but with a name after a Jewish prophet and an Eastern European background? It's likelier than Samantha LaRusso, let's be honest.

But why is that likely?

Why is a kid with a Russian name in America likely Jewish?

Because it is likely that his family was driven out during one of the many waves of persecution in continental Europe, be it Eastern or Western. If you're going to flee your homeland, America is simply a safer place than Europe.

Why?

Because the Church, which for centuries meant either the Catholic or the Orthodox Church - Protestantism is relatively new - used to paint this picture of Jewish people:

They're merchants who will lie to you (Jewish people were often banned from trades so they went into finance. They were not particularly loyal to Christians because):

They spread diseases by poisoning the water (Dynatox, anyone?)

They look different (dark haired being the first marker)

They are rich and buy their way into respectability that they, as non-Christians, do not naturally possess (Terry hosting the charity ball)

They are a danger to Christian children because they prey on them for nefarious purposes (Here we have Terry seducing children to some kind of Dark Side)

Jewish people are also stereotyped to be both very studious and artistically talented.

The last reason is why they were often invited to some place in Europe when another place decided they had cursed them with the Plague and started yet another persecution and killing spree, only for that cycle to restart 50, 100, or 200 years later.

It... it is a lot, OK. And as Terry is so obviously a villain - we didn't need that. We simply didn't need that. Why could he not have struck a deal with sensei Rosenthal anywhere else? Why shabbat service? Are we led the believe that the Jewish sensei also does not have a non Jewish social circle?

This is not proof that Terry is indeed Jewish, though it would in my eyes be very interesting if his father was, and Terry may be looking to convert, or in true Terry fashion, may be pretending to be looking to convert to get close to people. But do I wish they hadn't done it. There's literal millennia of painting Jewish people like villains in stories, it's dangerous, and they should try something new.

[tenelkadjowrites]

hello!!! i hope you’re doing amazing <3 i have two questions, cause i’m obsessed with ur blog and you’re the sweetest human ever to answer things, so i’m not scared of u (some blog owners just kinda gives me not so good vibes)

first, have u ever considered writing a best friend’s brother fic? i can picture it with anyone u write, but fr i think san would stand out more for the role iykwim

also!! u don’t rlly write about the other members, is it because u find it harder to fit in one of ur works? or anything else?

anyways, i hope u didn’t find anything i’ve said here offensive or anything. have a good week <3

this answer is gonna be long so i'm gonna add a cut.

first off, thank you so much for calling me sweet <3 it is really important to me that this blog feels comforting and welcoming (as much as a blog can be with the type of smut i post lol.) and that ppl can feel safe sending in questions or comments or even just random things about ateez or whatever.

as far as writing a best friend's brother, i haven't written that trope altho i've written reader sleeping with their brother's best friend with the idol taemin and my current seonghwa fic i am working on is also reader with brother's best friend. i just haven't gotten any inspiration to write best friend's brother yet, i just kinda go wherever my brain takes me lmao. altho that trope does sound fun! def a lot of promise for something smutty and enjoyable lol.

as for why i don't write about other members, it isn't anything against them. i love every single member of that group, they are my comfort and a source of great joy for me. but my brain leans into seonghwa because, when it comes to idols, he is just very special to me. i feel a kinship with him (as much as one can with an idol you know from a distance) in that he is oftentimes the caretaker (as the older sister, i relate.) he is extremely considerate, thoughtful, kind, and loving. i love that he is so open with his emotions that he isn't afraid to cry openly (not to get too personal on this blog but i cry a lot whenever i feel the need to since its healthy to do so) and his dedication to ateez and atiny touches me. on top of that, i think he is an incredible performer and he has an energy to him on stage that speaks to me. and of course, i find him just...insanely attractive.

because of all those reasons, he ends up being my muse and my inspiration for my fics. when my brain lobs me an idea for a fic, it is typically tied to hwa. if i swapped hwa out for another member, it wouldn't feel "the same" in my brain and therefore i believe the work would suffer for it if that makes sense.

i have gotten asked before, on and off this blog, about when or why i won't write for other members to the point where sometimes i catch myself debating if i should swap hwa out for someone else for a fic due to demand. but then i think that is a disservice not only to the member i'd swap with, who wouldn't be getting the proper treatment i give all my fics and characterizations, but also to myself as a writer who is now writing for the blog vs writing for myself and then posting it on the blog on the off chance others might enjoy what i write.

i've also said this before but it bears repeating because it is truly important to me but writing is me. writing is my heart, my soul, my joy and my passion since i was around six years old. it's saved my life, it's given me purpose, it's given me a happiness nothing else has. i write these fics because of the pure joy it gives me and i try very very hard to stick to that and share the stories to hopefully give others comfort and a place to escape to during moments of their life where they want to shut the world out. so i stick to writing mostly hwa because that is where my heart and creativity lies and my work is better for it! <3

i know this answer was soooo long and i hope that is okay if you, or anyone else, took the time to read this lol! but i really wanted to give this a good answer! thank you so much for taking the time to send in thoughtful questions and i hope i answered them in a way that made sense. <3 have a wonderful night/day!

[fonulyn]

What was it about Nivannedy that pulled you in?

How did you discover them as a pairing and what was your first reaction?

ahhh i wish i was more awake so i could really wax poetic about them but i'm gonna give you the half-asleep version :'D

the very very first thing that made me think about the possibility of the pairing is how Piers reacts when the missile is going towards the city and towards Leon. like seriously. that face? that is not the face of someone who has heard a person he barely knows is in danger. he's in such distress when he learns that Leon is in danger, and immediately my brain went "ohhh I see" :'D

but even then I didn't really fall into the pairing immediately, idek why. probably because usually my favorite pairings stem from their canon interactions and with these two there really isn't any actual interaction, so it took me a while to give myself permission to go for it. that might sound insane, but like, it took a while before I internalized that you actually are allowed to ship characters that don't interact canonically :'D

then a friend wrote a fic about them and I went something like "WHAT WAIT HOW WAIT ARE YOU ALLOWED TO DO THAT??? ME TOO!!" and it's like a switch was flipped in my brain and i haven't been able to stop thinking about them since lmao. which is fairly evident considering i'm like the vast majority of the nivannedy tag lmaooo.

what pulled me in is that I genuinely think they'd complement each other really well, their personalities just fit. Piers has a lot of this fire and drive and determination to help that Leon had when he was younger (Leon still has it! but in a different way, he's less fire and brimstone, more silent tenacious drive to help) and I think he could easily remind Leon of how it was and give Leon some fuel he might be running low on. meanwhile Leon can be a balancing affect on Piers, who legit has a temper lol.

and like, Piers is stubborn and driven enough to get through the walls Leon has built around himself. he'd just refuse to leave lol. he'd stick around until Leon internalizes that he's sticking around. they could be so good for each other. they could support each other and grow together and have that wonderfully domestic and boring retired life, one day.

and as much as I love messy and complicated ships with a long and painful history (looking specifically at metaltango :'D), with Piers and Leon i love that there isn't any baggage. there aren't hurt feelings and abandonment and whatever else. they can sort of start fresh? build whatever the hell they want! but at the same time they've been through similar things, have both been hurt and survived a lot of shit, and they would understand each other in a way not everyone could.

i just have so much love for this pairing, without them i would've just quit fandom a long time ago tbh. they give me so much sheer joy that i can't really even put it into words. and I am incredibly happy and grateful that there are a few other people who are willing to row this tiny boat down the stream together with me 🥺💖

[lavender-lotion]

3, 4, 16 (DON'T say cherik), 22, 28

oh my god i absolutely hate you for asking me these aha you’re my favourite person in the entire world 

3. What is the best fandom you’ve ever been involved in?

to date, it’s been X-Men (alt timeline movies, ofc) despite the rocky beginning I had. in this fandom I’ve learned so much about my own writing, and my writing style has grown SO greatly since I first joined and has taken shape into... well whatever the hell it is now, which is something I really like (most of the time)!

I fairly quickly created a small, tight circle of people I really enjoy being around in this fandom, and have since cultivated my own little fandom space that I really, really enjoy. it’s filled with people I love chatting with, people as open-minded as accepting as I am, and it’s a place that I strive to make feel welcoming for all who join, as well! I run an 18+ X-Men Alternative Timeline Movies focused discord, so if you’re interested, join us here! 

I am trying to branch back out into The Fandom a little more after feeling a type of way for some time, and I’m honestly enjoying that a lot too! it’s been interesting to follow some more folk, and I’m really happy to see my dash start to thicken up after being close to barren for so long. 

currently, I have a small group of close friends I care a great deal for (hi, Mid!) that has absolutely made this fandom into one of the best i’ve been involved in. 

4. Do you regret getting involved in any fandoms?

very very very simplified and slightly unture answer: no. every single bad experience has taught me something that I’ve carried into my other fandom experiences, just like life lmao, but for more of a meaty answer to this question: yes. 

so much yes. 

I have SO MUCH regret around teen wolf, actually, for so many different reasons, but I’ve also learned SO much. seeing a server ran in a way I Did Not Like has helped me better mod my own fandom spaces, and I am very anti-totalitarianism and am VERY against showing abject favouritism to specific members, while I also always try incredibly hard to ensure no one feels ignored. I was reminded of how finicky friendships are, and learned not to be the person who puts in the sole work to keep ‘em going (and how to recognize if I am) because... when you stop the friendship might stop, too. I learned NOT to hit on close friends, no matter how much I might want to, and I learned the importance of open, clear and precise communication in romantic endeavours, which was actually a very good life lesson because I’d never been in a situation that could teach me it before. I’ve learned, or, am LEARNING, not to let personal experiences with one-on-one relationships taint my view of a fandom—this one is hard, and is something I am trying very, very hard to work through as I’ve recently been hit with a very strong and very sudden wave of inspiration for teen wolf.

but like, with that all said, I still absolutely LOVE the teen wolf fandom and have had so many amazing amazing amazing experiences that I wouldn’t change for all the bad, and that the bad experiences are really localized to the ship-focused spaces I was in and the personal relationships that I had, NOT with the fandom as a whole which I am slowly dipping my toes back into! I learned so much about myself and my writing during my time in the fandom, and that is another thing I absolutely wouldn’t change for the world. I am over the moon that I’m writing here again, honestly, and the reception I’ve gotten has been SO insanely amazing. 

starker is another one I regret-but-don’t-totally-regret-because-I-learned-shit. starker taught me the importance of 18+ fan spaces, and showed me what can happen when people... aren’t careful. when mods are minors themselves. I learned that cross-generational nsfw spaces are a RED flag, and that they mean GET OUT, and that anyone who would willingly allow minors and adults to mingle over explicit content are people I Do Not Want To Be Around. I learned a lot about myself there on an interpersonal scale, and I found out a lot about my sexuality and kink preferences, too (which was a wild time). while I do very much enjoy the lessons I learned from being in the space I was in, I could do without some of the more negative things I witnessed, even if they taught me a lot. 

16. Are their any popular ships in your fandom which you dislike?

SINCE I CAN’T SAY CHERIK I’m going to have to dig a little deeper and talk about Sterek, lmao. I was really, really, really into Sterek starting around... 2014? I read... fuck tons. absolutely insane amounts of Sterek fic. and I wanna say... around 2015? maybe? there was a really popular trope in Sterek, wherein Derek would push Stiles away (by being mean, by pretending to date one of the Pack (usually Erica), by bullying him, by telling him the pack didn’t want him, etc, etc) so that he could... keep Stiles safe? it almost always went the same way. there is a threat no one told Stiles about, Derek did “what he had to do” to keep Stiles safe (i.e cutting him off from all his friends and massive, obvious crush) and then when Stiles got hurt, the pack would come to his rescue and save him (only after Stiles got a little beat up), and then Derek would care for him, or not leave his side, or check up on him, and Stiles would wonder why he cared after everything that had happened and... bam. Derek would admit his undying love. And Stiles would just like forgive him and they’d get together and be happily ever after as a pack and...

that was so damaging lmao??? I can’t even tell you how many fics fitting into this trope that I read, to the point where I was like... “wow Derek loves Stiles so much he’s such an amazing person for keeping him safe by pushing him away and making him feel isolated and alone and hated” BUT LIKE WHAT. WHAT. that’s horrible??? so so so horrible??? I am so fucking thankful it isn’t something I really saw too much of when I came back around to the fandom around 2017, but.... oh boy. for a ship that I considered an OTP and read like the entire tag of, I have VERY few sterek fics of substance (when compared to the rest of my teen wolf writing) and this is the reason why. 

this trope and it’s absolutely ludicrous popularity a few years ago really, really turned me off the ship. 

22. Is there anything you regret writing?

content-wise: no. very, very easy no. I don’t regret any of the pairings or kinks I’ve written & I don’t think I ever will (I’m very anti-shame, lmao. if you like it, flaunt it). 

but... I do regret some of the emotional labour I’ve put into works? the emotional attachment I have with certain fics, or genres, or pairings, and how I’ve tied them to a specific person or persons. like, I can’t write ageplay anymore, because of how strong the association of ageplay is to someone I cared for deeply and no longer have in my life (and even if I ever manage to write it in general, I’ll never be able to write Steter ageplay). I have 13k of a fic that was supposed to be a surprise gift to a close friend that I hadn’t heard from in... ages, to the point where I gave up on sending the occasional monthly-message. I have one thing I wrote for a dear friend (who never interacted with it) and now I can’t help but feel like the story is awful, despite not doing horrifically stat-wise.  

I write because I love it. I write for people I care about, because writing is a labour of love, and it’s a way I can show them how much I care for them, but... sometimes that bites me in the ass, I guess. 

I’m working on it, lol. 

28. If someone were to draw a piece of fanart for your story, which story would it be and what would the picture be of?

god okay there is NOTHING better than the idea of this. I’ve had a few mood boards made for me here and there, which are always SO loved and cherished and massively appreciated down to my BONES, but I don’t know if I’ve... ever really gotten fan art? I had someone make some really, really cool like... OG bit-moji type art of a couple of my fics, which is amazing and I have it on my phone still, and @hd-hale once drew me a GORGEOUS sheriff stilinski inspired by Daddies’R’Us, but to get FAN ART i would CRY lmao

right now, I think something from to love and be loved by you would feel really, really extra special because even at 6/17 chapters posted, it’s my longest work ever. what would it be a picture of?? hell if i fucking know but probably something that hasn’t happened yet, lmao

[fr3aklike-me]

omg hahahha i definitely thought he was your younger brother omg. oooh that sounds good, is it like an array of foods everytime ? ohhh that’s cool, are there a lot of sacred places to go to ? like would a temple? be an appropriate place ? and of course, it’s really cool to learn about !! yeah i totally get that. i really like those parts of it too, it seems really nice to have values like that and practice patience and kindness :) ooooh i really like the God as a best friend as well, that seems really nice. if you’re comfortable answering, what parts do you not really believe in anymore ?

yeah, if it doesn’t feel comfortable then there won’t be growth and it just doesn’t feel right. i believe that there’s some kind of higher power, im not fully sure what i believe that is, but i don’t think humans are the most powerful for sure. i also do a lot of manifestation and things like that within myself to attract the positive things, and things that are supposed to happen. also don’t call me crazy pls i swear im not lol but i have always been psychic so i’ve been trying to listen to that more. like i’ll see exact visions of what’s about to happen before they do, or wake up thinking that something is gonna happen that day and it does, or knowing that someone is upset even if they haven’t done or said anything to make me think that. and i think that also ties into spirituality. a few days ago someone in my family passed away and she came and spoke to me before i knew she had passed. like we shared memories of when we used to see eachother, and then i found out that night. the time she passed was when she talked to me, so a lot of things like that don’t phase me because i already know. i just don’t say that bc i sound insane and my family is super super against anything like that. (my mother calls me cold hearted 🤨i’m like… but i’m not… lmaooo) and of course it’s not everything that doesn’t affect me, this is gonna sound stupid too bc i just talked about a person but when my cat died, i knew something was wrong and we couldn’t find him but he had already died and i left the house and i swear i kept feeling his presence like telling me to go home and it wouldn’t go away, and i just felt awful (i just figured he had been hiding, as cats do) but when i found him i was still absolutely so so sad even though i kinda already knew. anyways, sorry that was so long omg. ikr ?!? and i don’t think anyone in my religion believed there were dinosaurs even though there’s so many bones… like wtf. it doesn’t make sense to me. and yeah hell doesn’t make sense to me, i think heaven is real but not in the way christianity makes it out to be. but YES EXACTLY like if god is so loving and caring why would they send people who don’t follow exactly what’s written to hell??? but yesss i find religions so intersting, i always wished there was a world religion class in my school !!

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LMAO RIGHT he once introduced me to his friend, who was convinced I was his older sister. and yes! nowadays, we'll have a little bit of several different foods because we've realized that works best since we get the variety and it's suited to what we eat. oooh, so, mosques are kind of our religious temples, but the pilgrimage that's part of the five pillars is specifically for the Kaaba - it's pretty much the big place all Muslims should strive to visit at least once. and for sure, I think those values are so important both in and out of religion! in terms of what I don't believe in, I'm not sure how much I believe in the stories of the Prophets now, and Islam has a bunch of stories where the Prophets did these very powerful, unearthly things. and I just am really unsure where I stand in terms of believing those stories.

oooh, I definitely see that. my friend sometimes brings up how it does make sense to believe in a higher power when you consider how the world fits perfectly together like a puzzle? like, the way food grows naturally, how materials for shelter are here for us to find, how animals help us, etc. - it's all so perfectly sorted and fitted to one another. oooh, so I have heard of manifestation, but don't know much on it, what kind of things do you do for it? and omg no, I don't think you're crazy at all. I actually find that so interesting because I don't know much about that kind of form of spirituality. damn, that's actually so interesting that you have those very vivid and exact visions of things that will occur before they truly do. for the relative who passed away, I'm so sorry to hear that's happened. when you say she came to you, do you mean she came in a vision to you? like, around the time she passed away, she came to you in a vision and spoke to you about the memories you two shared? I'm also really sorry your mom called you that - like, it's not due to you being cold-hearted, it's because something has occurred that already makes you anticipate the future event. it's not stupid at all, animals are also super valuable and important, especially one who was in your family and home for a while. so, it's kind of like you almost had a sense that something was wrong already and an urge to head home to learn what had happened? also, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know your cat must've meant so much to you, so I'm so sorry that happened. and omg, yeah, like there is so much proof of other creatures and dinosaurs. and oooh, so how do you envision Heaven personally? omg, I think you would've loved my world religions class then! (I still have the notebook if you ever want any info on a religion we may have learned about hehe)