#(I'm goddamn tired man)

[nhura]

some crazy ass wips to work on this week... do me a favor and hold me accountable KUDASAAAAAAAAI (⁠ ⁠≧⁠Д⁠≦⁠)

[iite-cool]

someone needs to send simon to me RIGHT NOW. i am so sick of carrying my heavy shit around i want him to treat me like a princess and just like... think for me. he can make the decisions bc i'm done i'm tired i need a break

need him to chauffeur me around pls i don't have my license yet..... i'll give him kisses (everywhere).

this is a psa for simon riley: come find me!!!

[dynamightmite]

Something about the Shigaraki-Dabi-Hawks trifecta of being born into a house that can't love you, that can't even see you—and then doing everything to become visible from space. I will destroy myself I will burn myself I will give away every piece of myself so that maybe it doesn't feel so bad. The past will never die, and in the past I was small. And it hurt.

[stardustedknuckles]

Ugh now that I've accepted I don't want tits I can't quit thinking about them and how they're actively hindering my idea of self expression. But like. Top surgery is for people with a network. On top of needing thousands of dollars, the logistics of taking care of myself or getting someone to help are just. Hmm. Like maybe by the time I'm able to actually get it done I'll have someone who will be okay with dealing with all the aftermath but even I don't want to think about having wounds and recovering for weeks because last time I was doing that it was because I nearly died. The weeks after scare me more than the surgery.

[daydream-the-demon]

I'm the [tumblr] person who overuses comments in tags.

[tumblr] autosaved my tags even though I used them once.

Look in the tags and have a laugh.

(Possible tag game?) @author-of-the-year @jenumarts @thonethatflies620 @iamunabletothinkofablogname @ all my mutuals

[meitantei-lavi]

guh....... maybe drawing tasteful furry porn will fix me

[stormyweaver]

Being on here isn't even fun anymore. Idk, maybe it's just me. Maybe it's just this site. Did I ever even actually enjoy being on here... I'm kinda skeptical about it.

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya: Diluc gets rid of things he doesn’t need anymore…with how much he resents me, I must be no different-

Diluc:

Never banned Kaeya from the tavern, even with their History and how much Kaeya pesters him there nor makes any moves to

Kept every single letter Kaeya wrote to him while in Snezhnaya, which was also the vast majority correspondence penned by one person he kept in the Winery's stash (every Letter in Beautiful Handwriting/Hidden Strife Event)

Kept the fucken vase Kaeya used on a whim to give his Vision back in, even if it did NOT match the decor of the Winery (Genshin Manga/Venti SQ/Kaeya Hangout)

Was extremely patient with Kaeya accusing him of casting aside Crepus' legacy in response to him telling Kaeya to drink responsibly (Venti SQ)

In that same dialogue, was more in disbelief/offended that Kaeya seemed to believe he would ever think of callously throwing him out than by Kae's comment abt Crepus of all things (Venti SQ)

Stayed with Kaeya on the island the entire time, no matter how much they bickered, even though he could have gone after one of the others or even taken off on his own like they did instead (Midsummer Island Adventure)

Was genuinely surprised/touched when Kae revealed he thought fondly of their childhood days gathering seashells (Echoing Tales)

Let himself get arrested for Kaeya’s harebrained scheme to save a little girl Luc didn't even know about previously, and RIGHT after Kaeya outright accused HIM of being the murderer too (Genshin Manga)

Gave Kaeya a free drink without being asked when he came to visit him to deliver the aforementioned vase after the scheme was complete (Genshin Manga)

Never refuted Kaeya's claim that Dawn Winery was his home too, nor Kae's claims that people had every right to visit 'home' during festival seasons (Weinlesefest)

Let Kaeya score free booze for the Knights to distribute for the Weinlesefest to help better their image, that Lisa specifically sent Kaeya to ask of Diluc bc she KNEW Diluc wouldn’t say no to him (Weinlesefest)

Expressed he would have Elzer speak with Hertha bc Kaeya mentioned the Knights' financial situation as an afterthought, despite how much Diluc dislikes the Knights (Weinlesefest)

Got moody bc Kaeya didn’t want to stay for dinner and IMMEDIATELY jumped at the chance to make Kaeya stay when Addie intervened to insist (Weinlesefest)

Lets and NEVER stops the servants from referring to Kaeya as ‘master’ too (They do so freely in front of him in Weinlesefest & Kaeya Hangout in particular)

Was perfectly okay with Kaeya staying at the Winery when he left, even after their dispute (Letter with Clear Handwriting/Hidden Strife)

Always remembers every single one of Kaeya’s silly excuses to try and get free wine out of him, and teases him for forgetting which he’s already used & precisely how long ago he did (Kaeya Hangout)

Is said, by Elzer, to in fact be completely fine with Kaeya stealing drinks from the Winery, even if he outwardly complains abt it (Kaeya Hangout)

Solemnly asks about Kaeya when he thinks Kaeya already left, and unpromptedly talks him up to Traveler in regards to Kae's own ability to the Winery (Kaeya Hangout)

[starry-teacup]

who the fuck is markiplier

[sapphire-weapon]

They are waiting for 6 remakes to prove to you that you were wrong.

imagine having so little going on in your life that you're sitting around waiting for a game that won't come out for at least five years because someone on the internet made you feel insecure about whether a fictional relationship will be portrayed a certain way in a video game.

like, dude. these mfs think way more about me than i ever think about them or their ship. because, at the end of the day, i don't really care.

aeon's been a feature of RE's canon for 26 years, and it hasn't impeded my love for or enjoyment of the games. if aeon continues to be canon, then nothing in my life will have changed. i'm not going to get upset about something being the same way it's always been. it doesn't matter. RE will still be the same series i've always loved.

all i'm doing over here on this blog is interpreting the games' stories as they were written and providing analysis with evidence based in the text itself. that's why i have a giant wall of text post defending leon and ada's relationship as it's portrayed in OG -- because that's what the story is.

me liking or disliking the relationship has no bearing as to whether or not the relationship is canonically romantic. i don't have to like something for it to be true. and the fact is -- the truth is -- that for a majority of OG RE's runtime, leon and ada have a romantically coded relationship. and so i interpret it and analyze it that way, because that's what it is.

the fact also remains, however, that their relationship is no longer romantically coded in the remakes' version of events. and i'm not saying that because i dislike the relationship. clearly, as evidenced above, if the relationship was portrayed as romantic, i would treat and talk about it that way, regardless of whether i liked it or not. i'm saying that leon and ada's relationship is no longer romantically coded in the remakes' version of events because that's how the story is told.

and if that's upsetting for you (ubiquitous "you"), then maybe you should take it up with capcom's division 1 studio, because they're the ones writing the story. i didn't write the fucking story.

and, not for nothing, but like

i'm also wrong all the fucking time. i was wrong in predicting a wesker boss fight in SW. i was wrong in predicting more DLC coming for RE4make. i was wrong with my initial reading of remake ada from just base RE4make alone, and SW rendered all of my prior meta about her completely worthless.

and if i turn out to be wrong about aeon, i'm not going to be upset. i'm just going to add it to the list of shit i've been wrong about and move on with my life and continue analyzing the text with the new information we've been given.

but they keep trying to drag me into their ship wars as though i give a shit, and i don't. i don't fucking care about what ship is fucking canon, bro. i care about digging into the text and accurately interpreting the story because that's how i personally have fun in a fandom. it's not about the ship, for me. it's about the story.

like, eagleone isn't my only ship. it's not like i'm sitting over here concocting ways to twist the narrative in such a way that it looks like my ship is canon. i fucking ship leon with five other goddamn characters. and yet you don't see me making a case for any of those other ships being intended romances.

RE also isn't my only fandom. i play and talk about and care about other things and the industry in general all the time. i don't care about any of this RE ship shit nearly as much as they do, because i'm busy doing and caring about other things.

it's just so stupid, man. it doesn't matter. none of this matters. and it still won't matter when RE6make comes out.

we're all just trying to have fun here, and what i'm doing here on this blog, i do for myself. for my own fun. because this is how i have fun in fandom. it should have absolutely no bearing on anyone else's ability to have fun in the fandom -- and, if it does, then that person needs to stop fucking looking at my blog.

because none of this matters.

you know

i keep begging aeons to play other games, and this is exactly why.

[elizabro]

man I dated once asked "why do you think about being a woman so much?" as in why do I constantly think about sexism. I mean, I don't know. it's not like I want to be reminded. I've told men, specifically, at the beginning of relationships, I don't like to be reminded I'm a woman. and they're always sort of confused but still kind of get what I mean. like I don't want to be treated as delicate and demure. but somehow it always comes back into the equation. men want to dominate me in bed, hold me down, call me good girl. I tell a man who unprompted calls me daddy's girl in bed that it's a major turn-off for me; he still says it from time to time. we break up. this man had told me he's enlightened in feminist terms; he grew up with sisters yadda yadda. I doubted it from the get-go, but remained optimistic. a man I dated tells me he likes skinny women (like me). I have a little bit of a babyface. people often mistake me for someone younger. he insists that this is not part of the appeal, while being 7 years my senior. "how old did you think I was when you started hitting on me?" I ask him. he doesn't have an answer. why do you think about being a woman, and I'm trying to shop for clothes but struggle to find a shirt that's not too low-cut or too sheer. my brother complains during a family dinner that women's soccer is too boring. I look up scenes for the movie "into the wild" because my parents are watching it. there's a scene where the main character refuses a girl's advances because she's 16. most men in the comments are calling him stupid; saying they would have had sex with her anyway. I like em skinny like that, a man says. a shame kristen stewart had to go gay and shave her head. what a waste. we're only valuable if we cater to men's pleasure, I suppose.

why do you think about being a woman so much? a man cooks dinner for us at his place and says, you know, I'm not the kind of man who wants women to cook dinner for him all the time, and I say, congrats on having moved beyond the 19-fuckin-50s. we break up. I make a mental note to start lifting, become muscular. cut my hair really short. I like my long hair, though. and yet I can only think of how men like it. how cutting it would free me of so many unwanted sexual advances. I think of men pulling women's hair in porn; men trying to replicate that in their sex lives. men replicating a lot of things they see in porn. porn being overarchingly violent and degrading towards women, and what that means for women's sex lives. how come you think about being a woman all the time, as men stare at me on the street and in bars. a man I date tells me, every man in the bar was looking at you. undressing you with their eyes, as if it's supposed to be a compliment, and clearly more to stroke his own ego. I tell him this makes me uncomfortable, and he shrugs and says sorry, but it's true. I wonder why he is so comfortable reminding me that to most men I'm an object, delights in it even. why do you think about being a woman so much? I think of telling men that I'm kind of not entirely a woman, but this means jack shit to them, who are happy as long as I look the part. anyway I think I'm gonna stop dating men for awhile

[boneheadboner]

The GROWING URGE to draw some MelonGarbageBags smut my god. JUST. The sandwiching is good no matter who is in the middle But more often than not, Baggs is in the middle.

Baggs being smothered between Red and Sonia, taking it nice and deep from Red. As each thrust from the rougher skeleton drives his own length deep into Sonia's warmth. Further making it juicy being Red's growls and boasts about how good Baggs is taking him. And Sonia's sweet gentle praise about how wonderful he feels, and her loving intent seeping through her touches.

Getting bites and kisses as he's squished between heaven and hell. And hot damn does he love it.

I'M SORRY I JUST LOVE THE THREE OF THEM TOGETHER

[lesbiansanemi]

Gay trans men be normal about women challenge. Especially trans women and lesbians

[apocalypticdemon]

hhhhhhhhhh being annoyed with someone and knowing you're in the wrong about it is the fucking worst

[dragonqueer]

honestly i am so goddamn tired of fandom/shipping discourse. the mentality of "you know i find this thing kind of gross/weird but it's not my business what random people online do" is so goddamn rare to find these days lol. instead you'll always have people whinging loudly about it instead of knowing how to just mind their own gotdamn business.

and THEN even when you do have people who find xyz gross but claim they don't care because they have better things to do, they'll proceed to insult people over it. like ok then. so do you not care, or do you actually care? because it is one thing to find a certain trope or whatever gross, but it is another thing to automatically assume that anyone and everyone who DOES like it means they are gross and disgusting. do you understand.

[ayakashibackstreet]

I swear to God, these games want me fucking dead