I used to be way more of a doormat and appeasing because I was raised to be polite, but after enough people taking advantage of that, by college I was like āIām really done wasting my time enabling horrible behavior. Look, bud, you now get the same level of thoughtfulness/tact/politeness as you giveāima mirror whatever approach you come at me with, because I donāt have the energy to put 110% into a relationship while you give 40 anymoreā and itās so funny that like without fail the kind of people youāll show your favorite movie to super excited who will then go āEh I didnāt really like it it was kinda boringā or be even worse instead of like, saying nothing, or finding a polite thing to say, are sooo shocked when you just honestly tell them what you think of stuff they share back.
Like itās almost uproariously funny. One dude was like āIām gonna make fun of you & your taste & fave game for reccing it to me since you liked it so much yourself, bc while I havenāt even touched this video game personally, I watched a game sins video on it one time, so I have a PHD in knowing it has no redeeming qualities,ā and then was just offended out of his head at how hurtful I was for when he wanted me to watch a show he liked and I was like āThanks for thinking of me, but I know the MC from the show this is a spinoff of, and find her impossibly obnoxious, and I just donāt think the story would be worth it to me,ā like just couldnāt believe Iād be so tactless. Nother dude did the exact same thing, & then was so offended I didnāt pretend to not hate a ship in a mutual fandom whenever he kept bringing it up over and over despite already knowing I both hated, and didnāt want to talk about it. Knew a chick who would tell me she didnāt like things I brought up all the time, or thought my comments were stupid, but then was so offended any time I like, mentioned how much I was relieved a character from a game we both played that she liked & I hated, finally died & left the story.
Like without fail, that kind of person is always /so/ shocked, and /so/ offended if someone treats them even a less mean version fo the way they treat everyone they talk to. Occasionally after I start doing this bc the subtle kindness approach didnāt work, a person will go āWow Iāve been kind of an ass huh?ā & improve but 9 times out of 10 itās just Comedy Central with them failing to see any kind of double standard but lost in the way Iām not Yes Maning them into next year like the idealized npc version of me in their head. But anyway this is on my mind not even because of that all too common (esp in Avid befriending-many-people-&-jumping-fro-1-to-the-next fandom spaces) shitass personality Load Out, but because whenever I do have nicer people I interact w in such circles, which happens not like, infrequently, but way less frequent than the ones who suck, sadly, itās unimaginably funny to me in the opposite directionālike Iāll just be there talking to them nicely about something I canāt stand ā not lying or anything just like, yeah I donāt mind listening to you talk about this movie I hate, bc I like you, and I have no need to tell you how I feel about the movieāyou didnāt ask. You just wanna infodump. & I got no problem w thatāI like hearing you talk, & you donāt feel a need to cut down & preach at everything I ever say, so we actually got something good here back and forth. But inside my head against the backdrop of how many mediocre to shitty people Iāve known recently I just am like āBaby girl, I have things in my loadout for you & only you that you canāt even imagine.ā
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