#(which i regret and genuinely shouldnt have done- i was a wad to FP and donked it up. i needed to just apologize and work on being better) | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

thefunniestguy · 2 years

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Watching romance is both great and awful bc- it's so cute when it's well done !! It makes me so happy !!! I get immersed and it makes me feel like I'm the one falling in love !!!!! And then the episode ends and I sit wondering if I'll ever know what they feel like-

#YES this is about heartstopper #even if i did fall in love !! what if i fall for a girl ? as an afab person my parents woulllld kill me #but idk if i CAN feel romantic attraction #i want to !! i want to so bad !!!!#i wanna kiss girls ! guys ! everyone in between !! idc man i just wanna kiss !!!!! to fall in love !!#is it a matter of the right person coming along ??? timing ?????? or is there /never/ going to be a right person??#a lot of this did in fact stem from nick saying smth along the lines of 'i love liking you' and i realized #i for sure use the word 'love' too lightly and frequently #i always mean it tho..??? i love everyone. just platonically ofc #but theres times where ive told a friend i love them and then made it all awkward-#even when adding '/p' its awkward and weird and idk aaaaaaaaa #is that bc i dont get the weight of love ? bc i dont understand what it can mean outside of platonic ??? or just bc im ??? ???? ??????????#idk bestie idk aaaa #BUT if i have crushes on actors and canonmates does that mean im NOT aro/cupioromantic ????#sexuality is a hellhole of confusion hhh this is why ive cried so many tears over nick #finn's fun #simon says #im both very much finn and simon rn so theres a huge mix of. me as finn remembering how desperate i was for love for a while #(which i regret and genuinely shouldnt have done- i was a wad to FP and donked it up. i needed to just apologize and work on being better)#and as simon i just. miss betty . memories from as simon are the main way i feel love romantically <//3 but it sucks bc betty isnt here #(not that if i find a betty ill immediately be in love or want to date- ofc not /srs)#vent

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