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callixton · 5 months

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took 10 mg of my ex's ritalin in the hopes it would balance out my adhd and i'm having like. a real weird reaction to it. it is making me paranoid i don't have adhd but i think it is much more likely that my body just isn't sure how to deal with having a stimulant in it for the first time. i'm also not like. high in any way. i'm just sort of jittery and physically unable to settle. and i'm still having trouble focusing but not the way i usually do which i suspect might also be bc this isn't overriding how tired i am. i also can't stop talking when in a conversation

#i think maybe i should have just started on a lower dose too my body processes meds so weird sometimes #bc i'm paranoid i'm reading other peoples accounts and i guess the first 1-3 days it's pretty common for people to have this reaction befor #- it settles out #which sucks bc i really need it to work correctly now #and i don't know if it would be better to stick with the ritalin for the rest of the week and see if it evens out #or try a different adhd med on saturday when i see my other friend who's offered me all of their old ones #idk. advice appreciated #it is breaking through the executive dysfunction to some extent which is by far my worst adhd symptom i'm just still having a lot of troubl #- focusing. which again may fully be the exhaustion esp bc it's midnight #weird though! don't like it! really just wanted it to be the magic cure all!#ted talks

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