#8ut its not VISI8LE visi8le

[cornflowercanine]

nair product 8e like ‘lasts Up To SIX Whole DAYS!!!’ i am like -puts on arms- -my arms do not grow 8ack any hair for nearly a month-

[cornflowercanine]

its weird to me that ppl will say you shouldnt have kids for the stupidest reasons 8ut when YOU'RE the one saying you dont want kids they pull out even more stupid-ass reasons why you HAVE to have kids like this random person's life depends on it

[cornflowercanine]

i worry sometimes when i talk a8t ocd that Someone, Somewhere out there is gonna read like. two sentences i write a8out an itty-8itty t33nsy tiny part of ocd like "my ocd makes me question my sexuality when i already know what it is, just cause 8UT WHAT IF?!?!!!" and IMMEDI8LY jump to "omg i have ocd now!!!!" no research not even a single google no nothing 8ut honestly id prefer people attri8ute and associ8 ocd to/with an actual real ass neg8ive experience they have and that affects them instead of "haha uneven things make my ocd soo 8adddd!!" or "hey dont make ocd jokes ocd is serious! [still doesnt know what ocd is or why it's serious, literally at all" 8ut THEN that could result in people wrongly attri8uting All Of Ocd to a not that 8ig a deal thing they experienced, and then when they s33 ppl who Do have ocd they don't understand why it's such a 8ig deal for them and Why Don't You Just Stop Thinking (a8out) The 8ad Thoughts If They Make You Upset, Silly!!! That's What I Did!! and then you get callout posts for people struggling with pocd or any grosser o8session or intrusive thoughts that people don't like to think a8out cause they're lucky enough they don't end up thinking a8out it all the time always when they Don't Want To and i. dont think i n33d to explain why that sucks conclusion i think the solution to all this would 8e Just Google 8asic Ass Info A8out Ocd, Please. Like Literally Anything

[cornflowercanine]

i dont think its 8AD to NOT n33d tone indic8ors 8ut its really funny to me when ppl will 8e looking at some random persons 8log and s33 them sending an ask to their friend like 'im gonna 8eat you up you are my enemy /j' and just a8solutely explode in rage at this person choosing to not give their friend anxiety in a way they 8oth understand and works for them

[cornflowercanine]

i have this specific f33ling regarding my 8ody that comes around every once in a while and this one set of tw33ts i made summarized it 8etter than i have tried to descri8e since so

[cornflowercanine]

if one of those ‘enter password to s33′ 8logs follows you, do you get a notif for it? are they counted in your regular followers?

[cornflowercanine]

also ive 833n pondering making an arospec side8log for aro stuff and talking a8t 8eing arospec etc etc 8ut >if i stop talking a8t aspec experiences and f33lings on main exclus might follow me anyway thinking ‘8oy howdy am i glad i dont have to challenge my unfounded 8elief formed out of fake rumors and troll 8logs that exist only to promote apho8ia!’ >i have no fun aro pun url ideas >i h8 making a lot of side8logs, it f33ls clogged up >wouldnt have much to re8log or post aside from moping that things arent 8etter for arospec people

[cornflowercanine]

thinking a8t vrisrezi lads. and 8y thinking a8t vrisrezi i mean im thinking a8t how the fandom s33ms to universally h8 act 7 fsr, when i thought it was really nice, and my only 833f with it is just 833f with the retcon in and of itself, and 8y that i mean the retcon took ‘what if we took vrisrezi.. AND MADE IT 8AD’ and 8ass 8oosted it

[cornflowercanine]

-thinking for a long time- mastodon is fucking WACK dude

[cornflowercanine]

i downloaded a mc mod for the first time ever yesterday!!! (thank you holly for teaching me how to download pams harvits carft) 8ut the example world i spawned for it apparentally had 2 rare things right next to eachother and they look fucking SICK so i wanna share em

^i wasnt flying in this image the mountain really is just that tall at the top

^a8andoned village, also apparentally rare, u can s33 some of the fucked up mountains at the top there i rescued every cat that was in this village (one 8lack cat, one colorpoint (official name ‘ragdoll’), two white and i ACCIDENTALLY made another white kitten) and gave them proper names.

^8lue collar = snowkit, pink collar = cloudtail, (red collar 8ut its not visi8le) = whitewing, colorpoint teal collar = ivy, colorpoint orange collar = cotton, last 2 are named after my cattails kitties :3 heres some more images + my house

(this is the only image i have of the fully fenced staircase)

[cornflowercanine]

AUGH why do some 8logs ONLY open on dash >_< i was told its a settings thing 8ut it only happens with SOME 8logs, and in the settings the only thing like it is to make My Own 8log only visi8le on dash? so im assuming its an intentional thing other ppl do? 8ut i DONT like it

[cornflowercanine]

clove, do you have any tips on dealing w/ ocd? im desperately trying to keep my compulsive behavior in check so i dont end up feeding into my obsession but i feel like a lot of my anxiety is like.. internal. if that makes any sense

so um ! i dont have any personally helpful tips, sorry, there Should 8e active ocd-focused 8logs who can help out 8etter, im sorry!! :< 8ut i end up not giving in to compulsions in the same way i havent 833n self harming in like, a year or two, and that is !  just str8 up fucking forgetting! ocd hell 8rain is like “if you dont put your collar on your cat she’ll run away and die” and im like god ok -turns chair- -stands up- -puts on slippers- -stretches- -has already forgotten i was gonna put my collar on my cat- and 8y the time i remem8er im like oh ! my collar is not on my cat ! 8ut she is still alive ! s33 ocd hell 8rain we’re fine !!!!! (which is like, super super super diy erp (exposure response therapy) which is how ocd is normally treated, idk if it works if ur doing it 8y urself like this, 8ut its worth a shot i guess?) which is not helpful . 8ut i do not have any helpful help past ask someone else and o8vious thing of if you can s33 a therapist, thatd 8e really helpful!! i am genuinely sorry and hope youre a8le to work it out, its really hard to live with :(

and smth you might wanna know is theres a sorta su8type of ocd (not like, officially, its just a distinguishing term ppl use sometimes) that i kindasortapro8a8ly fit in called pure-o which is p much what it sounds like! its when most/all of ur compulsions are not outward or visi8le, so theres a whole lot of ‘repeat “safe” words in head’, ‘think a8t the walk i went on over and over and over again to MAKE SURE i wasnt responsi8le for that car hitting a 8ump’, ‘pray every single time i s33/hear/think something sinful’, etc etc etc, and its hard to deal with 8c a lot of times 8oth the o8sessions and the compulsions are in ! your thoughts ! and whereas it can 8e easier for me to Not Tap The Doorkno8 3 Times, its harder to force myself to Just Not Think Something, and looking up stuff a8t pure-o specifically can help u understand and deal with it 8etter, at least id hope u_u and at that point you kinda just have to try to stop it 8efore it starts, like if i notice im starting to think (as random example of mental compulsions) ‘oh god 8ut how can i 8e SURE im a les8ian i have to look up what other les8ians do and signs you arent a les8ian and-’ i have to like. physically. force myself to do something else thats distracting so i stop thinking a8out it and dont have the ... pathway? to have compulsions over it. like watching a video listening to my fave song playing a video making some food literally Anything that you have to put Any thought into that can distract you and get you off that train of thought.

i really do honestly hope things get easier for you, take care of yourself, ill k33p you in my thoughts, and good luck!!! :( ♥♥