#AND JUST GOES ‘omg gooze your hair looks so cute like that! i love that tiny ponytail it’s so adorable!’

[a-very-zilly-gooze]

today i had dress rehearsal for a concert i’m performing in and all i have to say is FUCK WHY DID I DATE A SHOW CHOIR KID ?!?

for concerned parties: i do not want her back, i know how awful she was to me and won’t put myself through that again

but holy shit she is so fucking pretty when she’s doing show choir things

my brain absolutely melted today and i just watched her in her happy place just killing it onstage and remembered why i liked her in the first place

and then i got onstage to do my part and SHE COMPLEMENTED ME ?!? which she has BARELY DONE since she dumped me ?!? but SHE SAID MY HAIR LOOKED SUPER CUTE WHEN I PUT IT UP IN A TINY PONYTAIL bc ya kno stage hot and i fucking d i e d like i said thank you and smiled but like i completely shut down after that

like i’ve been feelin really bad lately bc i want a girlfriend s o b a d rn (idk it’s kinda stupid) and then she comes up and pulls that shit ?!? and it just makes me feel that much worse ?!?

died.