#AND VENKA 😭😭😭

[barryhbo]

AUUGGJJFNFNDNNFNFNF YEAH IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT ALL DAY……… just. the fact that literally everyone except nezha dies. the way i knew there was no way rin could survive there was no other way this story could be told. how she spend a the whole trilogy under someone’s thumb and being controlled and then once she BECOMES the one on the other end how the power corrupts her…….the way she’s SUCHHH an unreliable narrator at the end and can’t trust anyone NOT EVEN KITAY. THE WAY KITAY DIES WITH HER ANYWAY. the way she’s changed so much but can’t see it so she thinks kitay and venka are the ones who changed. the way rin and nezha surrender to each other when it matters. like i’m just auuiuiicucucgjbvgghfdhjdjdjdjdjhdhhj. fucking hell.

real!! the last section of the book was so painful to read, seeing rin without a clear enemy to fight and how her paranoia leads her to distrust those closest to her.... without a war to fight, rin collapses inwards. she turns against venka and kitay, and oh kitay😭. when rin realises she's hurting kitay, when she realises she's lost everything and none of it matters, that her story was written before she was even born, history moves in circles, when she realises she has to die. absolutely broke me. rin is haunted by ghosts of the past, she banished tearzas ghost in the first book, she couldn't understand why tearza did what she did. but finally, here in the same place where tearza put the blade in her heart, rin understands. she knows there is no way forward, the war will never end.

and it's like. rin also dies with kitay hating her. the only person who has always been by her side, the person she loves more than anyone, and she turns on him at the very end. and their fight is painful because rin could so easily overpower him but realising she's hurting kitay makes her pull back and suddenly everything hits her - everything she's done, the horror of it all exhausts her. and she realises that she's seen this scene play out before - kitay is jiang, rin is riga, nezha is daji - daji and jiang were terrified of and loved riga, and riga would've burned down the world. rin realises there's only one way to end this, to break the cycle. 'i'll hate you for it but i'll love you forever. i can't help but love you. ruin me. ruin us. i'll let you' and rin does. there was no world where kitay lived and rin didn't.

and nezha 😭 it's the cruelest thing she could've done. she made him hold the blade, made him take responsibility for her death. nezha is left alone, he'll be remembered by history as the one who gave the country away, a hesperian puppet. nezha is left, just like daji was and he will be hated just like her. he's the only one left alive after spending his whole life trying to kill himself.

[faeriebabee]

when nezha said he'd die for rin vs when venka actually died for rin

[marialouisa11]

Just finished The Poppy War trilogy and. Man.

[jeanmoreaux]

do you have literature blogs similar to yours to recommend? all the ones i follow are inactive 😭

oh i can recommend you some people for sure! i still follow lots of inactive blogs too so i get the struggle. this is a very biased list i fear because most people i can think of at the top of my head are either friends or people i have followed for ages but i tried to mix it up a little. most of these blogs have vibes similar to my blog i’d say (with the guarantee that i missed to include some great ones):

@brimay @meyhew @malinaa @oretsev @stellwoods @bipercabeth @andrewmnyard @elletao @andrewmimyard @jeremyknoxs @greywrren @greenribon @noahczreny @permanentreverie @ronandreams @henessy @venka @grywrnn @newtmsa @blueegansey @ravenvsfox @deadpoets @jakeperalta @pemberlaey @fairyslight @delilahsbard @daniellewildes @kahans @minyarrd @winterflell @kadygrants @cosettepontmercys @bossuets @persephnoe @hijacked-victor @catboyparrish

you can also just take a look at the blogs i reblog stuff from. always a good way to find new blogs too.

[17isrighthere]

BEFORE VS. AFTER COLOURING CHALLENGE 💞 i did make a lot but because i felt a bit rusty with gifmaking lately so i just used it as an excuse to make a bunch of random gifs and see what would happen 😭 i'm not sure if i have a proper colouring style </3 but its usually pretty simple basic colouring and like i focused on kpop stages because those were the files i had but you can use any media 😭 TAGGING @ajusnice @woozification @emoremix @irlvernon @lesseraive @kiimtaehyung @twiceland @wnjunhui @nayeonblr @jjunhui @blooming--warrior @aziraaphales @edwards-teach @laurabenanti @ryudaeng @heeseunq @facethesuns @venka @soonhoonsol @jmin @heybaetae @userzil @sylvielaufeyz 🍓

[sleepy-vix]

tbh rin x nezha isnt that big of a loss to me, i'm just glad that kitay is alive (and im glad thay venka is on their side too cus i love her sm but im trying not to get attached bc i feel like she'll die 😭)

[parisakamali]

hi! you're one of my favorite blogs and i love your posts, especially the ones about books! can you recommend me some bookblrs (or blogs that mainly posts about literature and books) to follow?

hi! sorry it took me so long to reply, i forgot 😭 thank you so much for the lovely words omg!!! here are some of my favourite people:

@jordaclan @selwynkane @evelynhugos @nabrizoya@rosebudgirls @wespers @rhodeslibby @ouyangs @marksfarrows @venka @amycurtismarchs @kitrivas @masseffects @princekiem @parrishh @ohwarnette @augielandry @hollcws @fahey @runins @august-landry @sanktalina @silenas @zofiaboguskas @caryslast @jiangsziyas @jesperfayhey

i think some of them are on hiatus but they're all amazing creators with cool blogs <3 you can also check out these litblogs!

@storyseekers @novelsnet @litcreators @chaptersnet

[shamemp3]

top 5 tpw char

HHHDJDJDJ 😭

1. altan

2. rin

3. kitay

4. nezha

5. venka

[venka]

almost done with the burning god… VENKA…….

my GIRL. 😭😭😭😭

[jeanmoreaux]

I started reading the poppy war a few days ago because everyone was raving about it and I should have expected it in a war story but oh my god venka 💔

VENKA 😭💔 when i came to that part i wasn’t prepared either, even though it’s a war story, but i still didn’t expect it to go there.

btw how do you like the book so far? are you gonna continue the series?

[venka]

I meant The Poppy War, I haven't read the other books yet. when Rin finds her in that slaughtered village and Venka tells her what happened to her my heart broke into a million pieces

oh HELP. ignore that but yeah 😭😭😭 it's so heartbreaking the golyn niis scenes get me every time