#Amen = Amy x Owen

[phantom-of-the-ruckus]

The Handee Nutcracker: The final lineup

this is my first time drawing Owen and Amy young and it feels so weird

Here's goes Amy's thread! Ok, so Amy was a merchant's daughter. She met Owen when he was trying to sell some puppets he made. She became interested in his craft and both became good friends as she helped Owen sew clothes to his puppets, they fell in love.

Owen was an awkward guy around people, so he wasn't as outgoing as Amy was, but she understood and helped him sell his puppets or talk to the masters to improve his craft. Eventually the two started to think about making shows or telling a story

It slowly became a dream from both over the years as they thought about the characters, and what role they would have played. It wasn't completed as Amy became ill just a few months after Owen proposed to her. Her health began to decline slowly.

Eventually, she died quietly in bed leaving Owen with some ideas she came up with their plan. Owen became depressed and went through some heavy grief. He started to not take as much care of himself as he started to drink. He started to develop some unhealthy coping habits

His family wasn't being helpful (FYI he is not related to the Ruckus family) and accidentally encouraged him to continue this habit. He also started to become obsessed to finish the work he wanted to finish with Amy until he began to feel it wasn't perfect enough after finishing

He used dark magic to make his dream come true and for a bit of time it started to go well. He was doing much better at the duel of loosing his fiancé, and his father allowed him to work on the business with the Ruckus. He still had his moments

Sadly, just as in cannon, things started to become worse due to his complicated relationship and abuse from his father, which let Owen lean into his most unhealthy habits as he slowly began to destroy the world he created. This was also due to his denial to let things go

He also had a hard time accepting that it was ok to not be ok, so he slowly started to become the Owen we all know. Eventually he realized that his world was in danger, but he feared he would mess it up, so he sent his goddaughter to fix it.

Anyways, Amy was also based on Belle from A Christmas Carol, as I do love her design and the fact that Belle was an important figure in a main character's past. I just drew some inspo from her.

[regularbeans]

Best Singles of 2018 but it’s chill this year

This category should speak for itself but I just tacked so many amendments onto the description that it’s like... it just makes no fucking sense anymore. Technically this is a list for any single that was released this year or last year December (since I write these lists in December it’s easier for songs to slip under my radar so I sometimes count them for the next year, like the Grammy’s eh? But then sometimes I let a November 30th release date slide as well... or maybe the single was released earlier but the video would qualify or just... any dumb fucking reason. If you see a song that shouldn’t qualify just trust me to find a loophole so... lezzgo.

Also hey, I guess I’ll just straight up say it then, there’s no best covers, best collaborations OR best pop songs list either, I just kinda threw them all on here. With a good portion of this list being kpop I’d have to make a whole different kpop list too? No sir, no thank you, I’ll just dump it all on here especially since the past few years most of the pop songs list was already featured on the singles list so like... why make the extra effort? Enjoy All Songs.

Also the order is just ugh, it’s 200 songs, get off my weenie.

>> YOU CAN LISTEN TO ALL OF THIS IN THIS ORDER HERE I SPENT TWO HOURS PUTTING THESE SONGS IN ORDER WHY DID I DO THAT <<

200 Seventeen: Oh My! 199 Nicky Jam: Live It Up (feat. Will Smith, Era Istrefi) 198 Ariana Grande: imagine 197 Mona: Not Alone 196 The Lumineers: Pretty Paper 195 James Bay: Pink Lemonade 194 Lily Kershaw: Moonlight 193 GOT7: Lullaby 192 Bishop Briggs: Baby 191 Zara Larsson: Ruin My Life 190 (G)I-DLE: Hann (Alone) 189 Matt Simons: We Can Do Better 188 Cardi B: I Like It (feat. Bad Bunny, J Balvin) 187 Apink: I’m So Sick 186 Pentagon: Shine 185 Moon Byul & Seulgi: Selfish 184 FOURS: Sweet Reality 183 The Tallest Man on Earth: An Ocean 182 LSD: Audio (feat. Sia, Diplo, Labrinth) 181 David Guetta: Flames (feat. Sia) 180 The Strumbellas: Salvation 179 Wanna One: Boomerang 178 White Lies: Finish Line 177 Gabrielle Aplin: My Mistake 176 Lykke Li: hard rain 

175 Poets of the Fall: False Kings 174 Netta: Toy 173 Highlight: Loved 172 Dua Lipa: IDGAF 171 Christina Aguilera: Accelarate (feat. Ty Dolla $ign, 2 Chainz) 170 Tom Walker: Angels 169 Astro: Always You 168 Craig David: I Know You (feat. Bastille) 167 Vance Joy: Call If You Need Me 166 Years & Years: Sanctify 165 Imagine Dragons: Machine 164 LSD: Genius (feat. Sia, Diplo, Labrinth) 163 Jennie: Solo 162 Wanna One: Spring Breeze 161 Mumford & Sons: If I Say 160 Alle Farben: H.O.L.Y. (feat. RHODES) 159 Vance Joy: Saturday Sun 158 Eric Nally: Spirits 157 Gabbie Hanna: Monster 156 Sunmi: Heroine 155 Amy Shark: I Said Hi 154 Taemin: Eclipse 153 Scenic Route to Alaska: How It Feels 152 Sam Fender: Friday Fighting 151 The Score: Glory 

150 Sloes: Misunderstood 149 Ina Wroldsen: Mother 148 Dan Owen: Icarus 147 Amber Run: Heaven Is A Place 146 Cosmos & Creature: I Am Free 145 Echosmith: Over My Head 144 NONONO: Friends 143 Grizfolk: Endless Summer 142 Retro Video Club: Chemistry 141 Sam Smith: Fire On Fire 140 flor: get behind this 139 FOURS: Even In My Dreams 138 X Ambassadors: Don’t Stay 137 Andrew McMahon in the Wilderness: Ohio 136 (G)I-DLE: LATATA 135 Clean Bandit: Solo (feat. Demi Lovato) 134 Momoland: BAAM 133 Momoland: BBoom BBoom  132 Florence + the Machine: Hunger 131 Demi Lovato: Sober 130 Loïc Nottet: Go to Sleep 129 The Mowgli’s: Real Good Life 128 Twice: What Is Love? 127 Imagine Dragons: Bad Liar 126 Muse: Thought Contagion 

125 Shinedown: Devil 124 Three Days Grace: The Mountain 123 Imagine Dragons: Natural 122 iKON: Love Scenario 121 Snow Patrol: Empress 120 Sigrid: Sucker Punch 119 Will Jay: Never Been In Love 118 YUNGBLUD: Medication 117 Monsta X: Shoot Out 116 The Carters: Apeshit 115 Jess Glynne: I’ll Be There 114 Florence + the Machine: Big God 113 OneRepublic: Connection 112 Vance Joy: I’m With You 111 The Boyz: No Air 110 Vance Joy: We’re Going Home 109 Imagine Dragons: Next to Me 108 Alexander Oscar: Number 107 flor: heart 106 HAUS: Shameless 105 888: Are You Out? 104 Pop Evil: A Crime to Remember 103 The Collier: I’m Older 102 YUNGBLUD: Psychotic Kids 101 The Record Company: Life to Fix

100 The New Pacific: Anchor 099 The Midnight: Scream 098 Modern Me: Dead to Me 097 Layup: Whole New Level 096 Jack & Jack: No One Compares to You 095 FRENSHIP: Mi Amore 094 Bebe Rexha: I’m a Mess 093 IU: BBIBBI 092 dodie: Human (feat. Tom Walker) 091 FOURS: Snap Out of It 090 dodie: If I’m Being Honest 089 Walking On Cars: Monster 088 Tessa Violet: Bad Ideas 087 dodie: Party Tattoos 086 Tessa Violet: Crush 085 Years & Years: Palo Santo 084 Janelle Monáe: Pynk (feat. Grimes) 083 Rudimental: These Days (feat. Jess Glynne, Macklemore, Dan Caplen) 082 OneRepublic: Start Again (feat. Vegas Jones) 081 EXO: Tempo 080 Ariana Grande: God Is a Woman 079 Ariana Grande: no tears left to cry 078 Christina Aguilera: Fall In Line (feat. Demi Lovato) 077 Iz*One: La Vie en Rose 076 Mamamoo: Starry Night

075 Gabbie Hanna: Honestly 074 American Authors: Do My Own Thing 073 AJR: Sober Up 072 The Wombats: Cheetah Tongue 071 Hayley Kiyoko: Curious 070 Bastille: Quarter Past Midnight 069 Jess Glynne: Thursday 068 AJR: Burn the House Down 067 Matt Maeson: The Mask 066 Shawn Mendes: In My Blood 065 Bill Wurtz: And the Day Goes On 064 Shawn Mendes: Nervous 063 Hozier: Movement 062 The Chainsmokers: Sick Boy 061 Kendrick Lamar: All the Stars (feat. SZA) 060 NCT 127: Regular 059 Zendaya & Zac Efron: Rewrite the Stars 058 Mamamoo: Wind Flower 057 Cö Shu Nie: Asphyxia 056 The Faim: Saints of the Sinners 055 Loïc Nottet: On Fire 054 Mamamoo: Egotistic 053 Avril Lavigne: Head Above Water 052 Céline Dion: Ashes 051 Billie Eilish: lovely (feat. Khalid)

050 Bastille & Seeb: Grip 049 Snow Patrol: Life on Earth 048 Mumford & Sons: Guiding Light 047 Imagine Dragons: Zero 046 Childish Gambino: This Is America 045 Blackpink: Ddu-Du Ddu-Du 044 Bruno Mars: Finesse (feat. Cardi B) 043 Matt Maeson: The Hearse 042 Banners: Let Go 041 Kodaline: Follow Your Fire 040 K/DA: POP/STARS 039 Keala Settle: This Is Me 038 Fall Out Boy: Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) 037 Panic! at the Disco: Say Amen (Saturday Night) 036 Twenty One Pilots: Nico and the Niners 035 Bishop Briggs: White Flag 034 Sunmi: Siren 033 YUNGBLUD: 21st Century Liability 032 SIgrid: High Five 031 YUNGBLUD: California 030 Nothing But Thieves: Forever & Ever More 029 j-hope: Daydream 028 Zedd: The Middle (feat. Maren Morris, Grey) 027 j-hope: Airplane 026 BTS: Airplane pt.2 - japanese ver.

025 NEEDTOBREATHE: Bullets 024 Hozier: Nina Cried Power 023 Janelle Monáe: Make Me Feel 022 Panic! at the Disco: Hey Look Ma, I Made It 021 Twenty One Pilots: Jumpsuit 020 X Ambassadors: Amen (feat. Billy Raffoul) 019 BTS: Fake Love 018 Snow Patrol: What If This Is All the Love You Ever Get 017 Matt Maeson: Hallucinogenics 016 Mother Mother: So Down 015 Steve Aoki: Waste It On Me (feat. BTS) 014 BTS: Idol 013 American Authors: Deep Water 012 Editors: Darkness at the Door 011 Twenty One Pilots: My Blood 010 Mamamoo: Paint Me 009 Amber Run: Carousel 008 Editors: Hallelujah (So Low) 007 Years & Years: All For You 006 Snow Patrol: Don’t Give In 005 Panic! at the Disco: High Hopes 004 Editors: Magazine 003 Years & Years: If You’re Over Me 002 Editors: Cold  001 X Ambassadors: Joyful

I mean I was also surprised a little but in the same time they (they) only have three like, official singles this year as far as I’m aware? And they’re not among my most favouritest songs they released this year so... thaaaaaat’s politics!

[phantom-of-the-ruckus]

For you

I realized a typo, its meant to say "love" XD

I'm working on a larger piece for another fandom "At dead of Night" but I wanted to make some good Amen (Owen x Amy) and thought about a sweet scene of Owen being an awkward guy wanting to thank and totally not impress Amy- by giving her something nice

One of my friends, Cosmicsyntome/Intergalactic mom, drew a lovely Amy/Amyrose drawing for me which I adore, and they created Blue Berrymore! I named them and thought Owen probably made it for Amy as a gift. Here is the post: Link

Its a bit tragic considering their friendship will fall and things will lead up to Amy's eventual death at the hands of the Handeemen. At least Owen got to spend some time with her in the "Cannon" universe.

[phantom-of-the-ruckus]

Regarding what happened over my hiatus

I won't go into much detail, nor give names or make a petty response. I'm just gonna be mature as possible. So, I published a couple of days ago that my mental health was doing horrible and I needed to take a break due to an interaction that led me to be overly anxious. So here's what what happened:

Long story short, met another user then things went badly FOR ME, so I took a hard choice that I deemed as mature and block them. I block them from a response they made that caused me to feel guilty and overly anxious for politely speak my mind. Then, I see a post of theirs (they are still blocked, but I was impulsive and paranoid) and had a range of emotions that ultimately led me to the conclusion:

"You know what? I'm getting sick of this. I don't hate you, I'm just disappointed at your hypocrisy and immaturity. You can be better than this than your auto-destructive behavior. Do me a favor, and please take care of yourself and step out of what is triggering your behavior."

Regarding over their post, I kind of felt it was subtly addressed to those who block them (including myself) but not really directly about them, yet I can point out a huge list of things that only makes them look immature and a huge hypocrite (which my BFF agrees that it does.) I was indeed upset. I wasn't offended or anything, I just was angry that technically was insulting the innocent ones. I was all like:

"You can insult me and my likes. I won't defend them, but you DO NOT get those people involved who had done nothing against you."

Now, I just find it hilarious and childish over the point that it's simply ironical (points I mentioned previously). I'm still disappointed, and I swear that it was super tempting to make a petty response to annoy them but I'm more mature than that. I'm certainly just gonna keep things as they are. That previous post just made clear that reasoning is out of the picture, and I felt that I wasted my time with and genuinity with them. I did mention, and I'm still stand by this, that I won't hesitate to talk and tell the full story if a rumor or lie is spread about me.

If I'm being honest, I don't wish them the worse or anything. I just hope that they mature and start to actually take care of themselves. If you are reading this (which can be unlikely, but there's a possibility that you're not using your account that I block) I did mean my words and I was being honest with you back then and with this post. I'm sorry to say this, but I will keep things as they are now since it is for the best in my humble opinion. I hope that you take a time off and seek for help. You can't keep with talking this badly about yourself or make petty posts like the one you did. Those things will only start to kick the people out of your life and more people not to take you seriously because you're being childish and immature. Eventually, that behavior may even destroy your beautiful relationship with your partner. Stop, reconsider, and think.

You are not better than those who hurt you if you insult them back or make petty responses, you're only showing yourself as one of them as you did with that post; and, even if it was meant as a way to insult me or make me feel offended (Dude, I'm Latina. We taunt ourselves in a daily basis), I'm just so disappointed to see how low did you go with this. I know that you are better than this, and yet you show yourself there as a hypocrite and a two-faced person. Please take full responsibility of your actions and don't justify it with your bad experience. Even at our lowest, it is us who decide to destroy or rebuilt. Be the better version of yourself, and please leave this platform. It's doing you more harm than good.

Hopefully, things stay as they are and I will get back to make content once again. I just wanted to make a quick response to end things properly.

Note: I am not going to discuss it with anyone. Unless it is for a plausible reason (Like knowing what happened and want to hear my side) I won't answer questions about them or say names unless they force me to.

Thank you.

note: I do believe that I did mess up in some parts and I do take full responsibility of my actions

[phantom-of-the-ruckus]

My two main stories will update a bit later due to a busy week.

Anyways here's some Amen (OC! Amy x Owen) that was meant to be a holiday drawing but I forgot about it