#but also giving me some good Amen and Tonybeth

[phantom-of-the-ruckus]

Regarding what happened over my hiatus

I won't go into much detail, nor give names or make a petty response. I'm just gonna be mature as possible. So, I published a couple of days ago that my mental health was doing horrible and I needed to take a break due to an interaction that led me to be overly anxious. So here's what what happened:

Long story short, met another user then things went badly FOR ME, so I took a hard choice that I deemed as mature and block them. I block them from a response they made that caused me to feel guilty and overly anxious for politely speak my mind. Then, I see a post of theirs (they are still blocked, but I was impulsive and paranoid) and had a range of emotions that ultimately led me to the conclusion:

"You know what? I'm getting sick of this. I don't hate you, I'm just disappointed at your hypocrisy and immaturity. You can be better than this than your auto-destructive behavior. Do me a favor, and please take care of yourself and step out of what is triggering your behavior."

Regarding over their post, I kind of felt it was subtly addressed to those who block them (including myself) but not really directly about them, yet I can point out a huge list of things that only makes them look immature and a huge hypocrite (which my BFF agrees that it does.) I was indeed upset. I wasn't offended or anything, I just was angry that technically was insulting the innocent ones. I was all like:

"You can insult me and my likes. I won't defend them, but you DO NOT get those people involved who had done nothing against you."

Now, I just find it hilarious and childish over the point that it's simply ironical (points I mentioned previously). I'm still disappointed, and I swear that it was super tempting to make a petty response to annoy them but I'm more mature than that. I'm certainly just gonna keep things as they are. That previous post just made clear that reasoning is out of the picture, and I felt that I wasted my time with and genuinity with them. I did mention, and I'm still stand by this, that I won't hesitate to talk and tell the full story if a rumor or lie is spread about me.

If I'm being honest, I don't wish them the worse or anything. I just hope that they mature and start to actually take care of themselves. If you are reading this (which can be unlikely, but there's a possibility that you're not using your account that I block) I did mean my words and I was being honest with you back then and with this post. I'm sorry to say this, but I will keep things as they are now since it is for the best in my humble opinion. I hope that you take a time off and seek for help. You can't keep with talking this badly about yourself or make petty posts like the one you did. Those things will only start to kick the people out of your life and more people not to take you seriously because you're being childish and immature. Eventually, that behavior may even destroy your beautiful relationship with your partner. Stop, reconsider, and think.

You are not better than those who hurt you if you insult them back or make petty responses, you're only showing yourself as one of them as you did with that post; and, even if it was meant as a way to insult me or make me feel offended (Dude, I'm Latina. We taunt ourselves in a daily basis), I'm just so disappointed to see how low did you go with this. I know that you are better than this, and yet you show yourself there as a hypocrite and a two-faced person. Please take full responsibility of your actions and don't justify it with your bad experience. Even at our lowest, it is us who decide to destroy or rebuilt. Be the better version of yourself, and please leave this platform. It's doing you more harm than good.

Hopefully, things stay as they are and I will get back to make content once again. I just wanted to make a quick response to end things properly.

Note: I am not going to discuss it with anyone. Unless it is for a plausible reason (Like knowing what happened and want to hear my side) I won't answer questions about them or say names unless they force me to.

Thank you.

note: I do believe that I did mess up in some parts and I do take full responsibility of my actions