#Barbara myerhoff

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barbara myerhoff’s number our days

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Needle and thread: the life and death of a tailor by Barbara Myerhoff

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“The self is made, not given.

Barbara Myerhoff

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“The self is made, not given.” —Barbara Myerhoff

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“The self is made, not given.” - Barbara Myerhoff

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O Neoxamanismo e o auge do xamanismo psicodélico

Origens do Neoxamanismo

Nas últimas décadas, o Xamanismo saltou sobre as barreiras da estrutura puramente nativa para se tornar um conjunto diversificado de práticas que está cada vez mais presente na sociedade ocidental. Assim, certas práticas e elementos rituais, bem como um conceito de vida alternativa e natural, estão se espalhando por todo o planeta, dando origem a um novo paradigma: o Neoxamanismo. O Neoxamanismo é uma tendência crescente que teve início nos anos sessenta do século passado, quando o movimento hippie promoveu a idéia de buscar contato direto com o transcendente e simultaneamente quando alguns antropólogos estudaram com certos Xamãs indígenas, tornando-se seus aprendizes, na tentativa de assimilar em primeira mão os sistemas ancestrais xamânicos, afastando-se do ponto de vista teórico e contos de seus ancestrais. Exemplos destacados são o trabalho de Michael Harner sobre os nativos do Alto Amazonas ou as contribuições de Peter Furst e Barbara Myerhoff sobre os Xamãs mexicanos. Dessa maneira, o retorno ao simples e natural, a um modo alternativo de viver ou a encontrar uma nova forma de espiritualidade, ganhou novo ímpeto no Neoxamanismo. Esta mistura de costumes ancestrais espirituais e de cura, ao longo do tempo, também foi misturada com certas pseudoterapias da “Nova Era”, esoterismo ou mesmo elementos da magia do caos, criando uma grande variedade de correntes e escolas com uma grande número de seguidores, que por sua vez também geraram um grande número de detratores. Saiba mais sobre nosso curso online de Terapias Xamânicas

Xamanismo na sociedade de hoje

Um fator que explica o retorno do Xamanismo é o crescente desenvolvimento de abordagens holísticas da saúde que usam métodos que eram amplamente conhecidos na prática tradicional e tribal no passado. O Nexamanismo incorpora grande parte desse conhecimento antigo e está recebendo crescente atenção daqueles que buscam novas soluções para os problemas de saúde, independentemente de sua natureza, seja física, emocional, mental ou espiritual. Também devemos considerar que a ampla disseminação do Neoxamanismo se encontra no foco espiritual da ecologia. Neste momento de crise ambiental global, o Xamanismo fornece algo que falta ao nosso modo de vida antropocêntrico: conexão e respeito com o resto dos seres que habitam a Terra, bem como com o próprio planeta. Saiba mais sobre nosso curso online de Shaman Self Healing

Xamanismo psicodélico

Mas se algo caracteriza fundamentalmente o Xamã, é que ele adquire seu conhecimento através da expansão da consciência, ou o que equivale à mesma coisa, através do transe. Mircea Eliade, em seu clássico estudo sobre Xamanismo, Xamanismo e técnicas arcaicas de ecstasy, define-o como o "mestre das técnicas de ecstasy", uma vez que é através da metodologia do transe ou do êxtase que o Xamã se torna um homem do conhecimento. O Xamã é um mediador entre o desconhecido e o conhecido, entre o Céu e a Terra, entre o sagrado e o profano. O Neoxamanismo se baseia no Xamanismo para elaborar uma concepção mais ampla e atualizada da realidade e do ser humano, mesclando elementos de diferentes culturas. Nesse sentido, a mais difundida atualmente é a incorporação de plantas sagradas/ervas de poder ou psicodélicas para alcançar o êxtase xamânico, tornando-as o núcleo central de suas práticas. Saiba mais sobre nosso curso online de Cartas Alquímicas - Animais de Poder Podemos descobrir que certas plantas sagradas/ervas de poder psicoterapêuticas atuais são usadas como ayahuasca, os cogumelos sagrados ou iboga para tratar de seus propósitos terapêuticos. E, embora haja quem tente desvalorizar o Neoxamanismo, a verdade é que essas práticas estão mostrando que funcionam muito bem no trabalho psicoterapêutico transpessoal, ajudando muitas pessoas a se aprofundarem. Pode-se notar apenas que essas práticas Neoxamânicas devem ser usadas com integridade, respeito e pr��xis ética. Faço esse comentário porque esse Neoxamanismo está na "terra de ninguém", alguns até o tornaram um modismo, por isso acaba sendo um terreno fértil para vigaristas sempre prontos para enganar pessoas que são muito ingênuas, sem noção e psiconautas despreparados. Read the full article

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“Membership” in Narrative Therapy

Michael White, drawing on the work of Barbara Myerhoff, has proposed the metaphor of membership for examining the relationships that shape our perceptions, intentions, and actions. He describes how knowledge arises in communities of knowers; how different things are counted to be true, worthwhile, or valuable in different communities. Our ethics, our purposes, and the possibilities we perceive for our lives are shaped by the people who have significant membership in our lives. White describes the all-too-common process through which therapists, in joining the community of legitimate, properly-degreed, licensed professionals leave behind the “diverse, historical, and local associations” of their lives, replacing them with the more limited associations of “the monoculture of psychotherapy.“

White describes various ways that membership in a monoculture leads to thin descriptions of our lives. He states that thin descriptions lead to thin conclusions—to limited ideas about what’s possible, and to fixed notions about what is. While White does not directly address this issue, we see the metaphor of boundaries as reinforcing of thin descriptions and thin conclusions. We think that a focus on clear, consistent, unambiguous boundaries can encourage people to limit their memberships in life—to treat what is outside the borders demarcated by their “boundaries” as foreign, other, not readily trusted, and probably not as meaningful as what is inside.

White argues that lives are richer when they are “multiply contextualized.” In multiply contextualized lives, there are more possibilities for thick description. A thinly described life can become more thickly described through a process of “re-membering.” The term “re-membering” refers both to revising one’s memberships in life (that is, choosing who we carry in our hearts and minds as members of our lives) and to remembering the stories of who we are and have been and what is and has been and can be possible within those memberships. As knowledge is remembered, regenerated, and reclaimed through the tellings and re-tellings that occur in multiple contexts, the possibilities for fulfillment multiply. We find “membership language” much more useful than “boundary language.” Acknowledging and participating in our preferred memberships can inspire our practice, whereas boundaries may limit it.

- Gene Combs & Jill Freedman in "Relationships, not Boundaries." Theoretical Medicine 23, 202 - 217, 2002.

[brutefury]

really sad about barbara myerhoff dying before she even turned 50 after spending like 6 years studying old jewish people in part because she knew she would be a old jewish lady one day

[maoz]

if you need a book recommendation: "Number Our Days" by Barbara Myerhoff. It's related to anthropology (about elderly Jewish people in Los Angeles) but its really an amazing and enlightening book !!! Please read it

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40 Inspirational Quotes about Life

Inspirational Quotes about Life Life is full of challenges and as each day passes by, we wonder what each day would hold for us. The world is evolving, the world is changing, many are facing difficult moments in their life's while many are not. However, irrespective of your circumstances or difficulties you might be going through right now as you read this post, be rest assured that there is a light ahead of you. You just need to keep pushing, keep believing and keep working hard, and you will reach that light where your fears and worries will all pass you by. I have searched the web for some amazing as well as inspiring life quotes I believe will be the trigger that would motivate you to keep moving forward. These quotes I can assure you will restore some hope in you and make you believe not just in yourself but also in others around you. Furthermore, how you choose to meditate on these quotes is completely up to you. Some of these quotes are from amazing people who at some point in their life overcame adversity to accomplish great things. Also reading some of these inspiring quotes from these great people will remind you just how lucky you are to be alive this day.

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Inspirational Quotes about Life

1 - "Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." - Dennis P. Kimbro 2 - "The Way Get Started Is To Quit Talking And Begin Doing." – Walt Disney 3 - "We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." – Oscar Wilde 4 - "There is no royal road to anything. One thing at a time, all things in succession. That which grows fast, withers as rapidly. That which grows slowly, endures." – Josiah Gilbert Holland 5 - "Don’t Let Yesterday Take Up Too Much Of Today." – Will Rogers 6 - "I believe purpose is something for which one is responsible; it’s not just divinely assigned." – Michael J. Fox 7 - "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind." – Dr. Seuss 8 - "Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living, and your belief will help create the fact." – William James 9 - "You learn more from failure than success. Don’t let it stop you. Failure builds character." – Mohsin Jameel 10 - "If you organize your life around your passion, you can turn your passion into your story and then turn your story into something bigger―something that matters." – Blake Mycoskie 11 - "Accept no one’s definition of your life; define yourself." – Harvey Fierstein 12 - "When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and could say, I used everything you gave me." – Erma Bombeck 13 - "It’s Not Whether You Get Knocked Down, It’s Whether You Get Up." – Vince Lombardi 14 - "The self is made, not given." – Barbara Myerhoff 15 - "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." – Eleanor Roosevelt

Motivational Quotes 16 - "The quickest way to double your money is to fold it over and put it back in your pocket." – Will Rogers 17 - "If You Are Working On Something That You Really Care About, You Don’t Have To Be Pushed. The Vision Pulls You." – Steve Jobs 18 - "Lean forward into your life. Begin each day as if it were on purpose."– Mary Anne Radmacher 19 - "If you set your goals ridiculously high and it’s a failure, you will fail above everyone else’s success." – James Cameron 20 - "Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there." – Will Rogers 21 - "People Who Are Crazy Enough To Think They Can Change The World, Are The Ones Who Do." – Rob Siltanen 22 - "Having a sense of purpose is having a sense of self. A course to plot is a destination to hope for." – Bryant H. McGill 23 - "One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching." – Gerard Way 24 - "When I hear somebody sigh, ‘Life is hard,’ I am always tempted to ask, ‘Compared to what?’" – Sydney Harris 25 - "Failure Will Never Overtake Me If My Determination To Succeed Is Strong Enough." – Og Mandino 26 - "People who use time wisely spend it on activities that advance their overall purpose in life."– John C. Maxwell 27 - "It’s not about how hard you can hit; it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward." –Rocky Balboa, Rocky 28 - "The real opportunity for success lies within the person and not in the job." – Zig Ziglar 29 - "Entrepreneurs Are Great At Dealing With Uncertainty And Also Very Good At Minimizing Risk. That’s The Classic Entrepreneur." – Mohnish Pabrai 30 - "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." – Maya Angelou 31 - "Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness and bad days give you experience." – Unknown 32 - "Look at the sparrows; they do not know what they will do in the next moment. Let us literally live from moment to moment." – Mahatma Gandhi 33 - "We May Encounter Many Defeats But We Must Not Be Defeated." – Maya Angelou 34 - "Great minds have purposes, others have wishes." –Washington Irving 35 - "Everything that you are going through is preparing you for what you’ve asked for." – Unknown 36 - "Your crown has been bought and paid for. All you have to do it put it on." – James Baldwin 37 - "Whoever loves much, performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well." – Vincent Van Gogh 38 - "Knowing Is Not Enough; We Must Apply. Wishing Is Not Enough; We Must Do." – Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe 39 - "No man or woman is an island. To exist just for yourself is meaningless. You can achieve the most satisfaction when you feel related to some greater purpose in life, something greater than yourself.” – Denis Waitley 40 - Accept responsibility for your life. Know that it is you who will get you where you want to go, no one else. – Les Brown

Bonus Quotes

"The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." -Winston Churchill "There is no elevator to success — you have to take the stairs." - Anonymous "Courage is the first of human qualities because it is the quality which guarantees all others."– Winston Churchill "Challenges are what make life interesting and overcoming them is what makes life meaningful." – Joshua J. Marine "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." – Winston Churchill Read the full article

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50 Selfie Quotes and Captions for Badass Social Media Expression

Our latest collection of selfie quotes and captions on Everyday Power blog.

Selfies are definitely here to stay. The phenomenon, which started as a ‘thing’ for the younger generation, has grown so popular with over a million selfies being taken around the world daily.

Due to their popularity, people are always looking for ways to spice up their selfies for social media sharing. One way of making your selfie stand out is to have a captivating caption to go with it.

A good selfie caption can inspire your fans and also gain you more followers. To achieve this, you want to make sure your caption provides context, shows your personality and is engaging to your friends and followers.

One easy way to have an amazing selfie caption is to adopt it from interesting quotes. In fact, quotes are one of the best sources of inspiration for your selfie captions because they’re usually powerful and they resonate with many people.

To help you craft a badass social media presence, below you will find our collection of inspirational, wise, and humorous selfie quotes, selfie sayings, and selfie captions, collected over the years from a variety of sources.

Selfie Quotes and Captions for Badass Social Media Expression

1.) ”My life is my message.” –  Mahatma Gandhi

2.) ”Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking.” – Marcus Aurelius

3.) ”It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.” – Andre Gide

4.) ”Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive.” –Elbert Hubbard

5.) ”The self is made, not given.” ―Barbara Myerhoff

6.) ”There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” ―Maya Angelou

7.) ”Don’t give it five minutes if you’re not going to give it five years.” – Megan Markle

8.) ”Embrace the glorious mess that you are.” – Elizabeth Gilbert

9.) ”If not us, who? If not now, when?”– John F. Kennedy

10.) ”Rule #1 of life. Do what makes YOU happy.”– Unknown

Cool selfie quotes and captions

11.) ”Dream as if you’ll live forever, live as if you’ll die today.” –James Dean

12.) ”I’m looking California and feeling Minnesota.” –Chris Cornell

13.) ”I’m the one that’s got to die when it’s time for me to die, so let me live my life the way I want to.” —Jimi Hendrix

14.) ”Always be yourself, express yourself, have faith in yourself, do not go out and look for a successful personality and duplicate it.” –Bruce Lee

15.) ”I got my own back.” – Maya Angelou

16.) ”Confidence is not ‘they will like me.’ Confidence is ‘I’ll be fine if they don’t’.” – Unknown

17.) ”I don’t know where I’m going from here but I promise it won’t be boring.” – David Bowie

18.) ”Just keep moving forward and don’t give a shit about what anybody thinks. Do what you have to do, for you.” – Johnny Depp

19.) ”Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

20.) ”With patience you can even cook a stone.” – Unknown

Selfie quotes for your social media posts

21.) ”Some people want it to happen, some wish it would happen, others make it happen.” – Michael Jordan

22.) ”Stars can’t shine without darkness.” – Unknown

23.) ”Don’t let others decide who you are.” – Denis Rodman

24.) ”Confidence level: selfie with no filter.”- Unknown

25.) ”Didn’t they tell you that I was a savage?” – Rihanna

26.) ”I’m not a businessman, I’m a business, man.” – Jay Z

27.) ”Nothing can stop me, I’m all the way up.” – Fat Joe

28.) ”That which does not kill us makes us stronger.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

29.) ”The best revenge is to live on and prove yourself.” – Eddie Vedder

30.) ”There are no men like me. Only me.” – Jaime Lannister

Selfie quotes that will inspire your friends and followers

31.) ”I don’t have dreams, I have goals.” – Harvey Specter

32.) ”We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets.” – Marilyn Monroe

33.) ”I am f*cking crazy, but I am free.” – Lana Del Rey

34.) ”You know I got the sauce, you know I’m saucy” – Rihanna

35.) ”Only the real can relate.” — Cardi B

36.) ”Never trust people who smile constantly. They’re either selling something or not very bright.”- Laurell K. Hamilton

37.) ”I don’t care if you’re black, white, straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian, short, tall, fat, skinny, rich or poor. If you’re nice to me, I’ll be nice to you. Simple as that.” – Eminem

38.) ”Imma be what I set out to be without a doubt undoubtedly.” – Eminem

39.) ”I’m worth it. Always was and Always will be.” – Unknown

40.) ”Be happy in front of people who don’t like you, it kills them.” – Unknown

More selfie quotes and captions to inspire you

41.) ”Being Happy never goes out of style.” – Unknown

42.) ”There is no competition because there is nobody can be me.” – Unknown

43.) ”Just be yourself man, be proud of who you are.” – Eminem

44.) ”Be a little more you, and a lot less them.” – Unknown

45.) ”Sunsets are proof that endings can be beautiful.” – Unknown

46.) ”Smile, life is beautiful.” – Unknown

47.) ”Beauty begins the moment you decide to be yourself.” –Coco Chanel

48.) ”Smile in the mirror. Do that every day and you’ll start to see a big difference in your life.” –Toko Ono

49.) ”If I was you, I’d wanna be me too.” –Meghan Trainor

50.) ”Elegance is the only beauty that never fades.” –Audrey Hepburn

Which of these selfie quotes and captions was your favorite?

Social media has made it possible for people from diverse backgrounds to meet, share and inspire others. Selfie captions can be a great way to inspire your followers, so why not take advantage and be a source of inspiration to others?

There is nothing as fulfilling as knowing you have inspired someone else’s life. Hopefully, the above quotes will help you figure out the perfect selfie caption.

Did you enjoy these selfie quotes? Do you have any favorite selfie quotes and captions to share with us? Let us know in the comment section below. We would love to hear all about it.

The post 50 Selfie Quotes and Captions for Badass Social Media Expression appeared first on Everyday Power Blog.

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Why is psychedelic culture dominated by privileged white men?

For women, disinhibition and public loss of control was – and remains – far more problematic. A female subject could never, as Davy did, strip to the waist, place a thermometer under her armpit, shut herself in an airtight box filled with nitrous oxide until she lost consciousness, and emerge shouting: ‘Nothing exists but thoughts!’ Yet it was this experiment that made Davy’s reputation and launched a career that elevated him to president of the Royal Society in 1820 and made him the great scientific celebrity of his generation.

Davy’s intrepid journey to the far shores of consciousness set the tone for a century of science in which bold self-experimentation – whether with drugs, stratospheric balloon flights or gung-ho self-surgery – was a route to advancement in an exclusively male world.

This format remains standard in psychedelic reportage today, codified in the American biochemist Alexander Shulgin’s methodical reports on his new psychoactive compounds, and followed in the majority of the 20,000 drug experiences now logged on Erowid’s online database.

They would be seen as crudely reductive in most non-Western cultures, where the ‘drug effect’ is one of many elements in the experience, along with the rest of the plant, the ritual context, and the other people involved. For example, in Native American Church meetings, where the sacrament is the mescaline-containing peyote cactus, the visions prized by Western scientific investigators are more commonly seen as distractions. Such experiences are essentially communal, and to focus myopically on one’s own sensations is to miss the main event.

some of the most insightful descriptions of non-Western peyote use, for example, have come from female researchers such as Alice Marriott and Barbara Myerhoff in the 1970

There are examples among the first wave of LSD subjects – Adelle Davis, Anaïs Nin, Laura Huxley, Constance Newland – but they are rarely recalled in comparison with those of their male contemporaries

In recent years, the diversity of psychedelic users has become more visible. The largest international conference on psychedelics, Breaking Convention in London, has led the way in giving prominence to female voices, along with those of indigenous groups and nonwhite ethnicities. Similarly, a recent conference in San Francisco was dedicated to ‘Queering Psychedelics’: an initiative of the Chacruna Institute, whose primary focus is on representing indigenous traditions. In the words of Bia Labate, Chacruna’s founder, it aimed ‘to decolonise knowledge, to invert the white, straight, biomedical narrative that is hegemonic in the field of psychedelic science’.

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“Membership” in Narrative Therapy

Michael White, drawing on the work of Barbara Myerhoff, has proposed the metaphor of membership for examining the relationships that shape our perceptions, intentions, and actions. He describes how knowledge arises in communities of knowers; how different things are counted to be true, worthwhile, or valuable in different communities. Our ethics, our purposes, and the possibilities we perceive for our lives are shaped by the people who have significant membership in our lives. White describes the all-too-common process through which therapists, in joining the community of legitimate, properly-degreed, licensed professionals leave behind the “diverse, historical, and local associations” of their lives, replacing them with the more limited associations of “the monoculture of psychotherapy.”

White describes various ways that membership in a monoculture leads to thin descriptions of our lives. He states that thin descriptions lead to thin conclusions—to limited ideas about what’s possible, and to fixed notions about what is. While White does not directly address this issue, we see the metaphor of boundaries as reinforcing of thin descriptions and thin conclusions. We think that a focus on clear, consistent, unambiguous boundaries can encourage people to limit their memberships in life—to treat what is outside the borders demarcated by their “boundaries” as foreign, other, not readily trusted, and probably not as meaningful as what is inside.

White argues that lives are richer when they are “multiply contextualized.” In multiply contextualized lives, there are more possibilities for thick description. A thinly described life can become more thickly described through a process of “re-membering.” The term “re-membering” refers both to revising one’s memberships in life (that is, choosing who we carry in our hearts and minds as members of our lives) and to remembering the stories of who we are and have been and what is and has been and can be possible within those memberships. As knowledge is remembered, regenerated, and reclaimed through the tellings and re-tellings that occur in multiple contexts, the possibilities for fulfillment multiply. We find “membership language” much more useful than “boundary language.” Acknowledging and participating in our preferred memberships can inspire our practice, whereas boundaries may limit it.

- Gene Combs & Jill Freedman in “Relationships, not Boundaries.” Theoretical Medicine 23, 202 - 217, 2002.

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Peyotlowe łowy - Barbara G. Myerhoff. Tatewari - ogień.

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Барбара Майерхофф: Как мы выращиваемт душу

Много лет я работ��ю с пожилыми людьми и стариками. Всё это время я думаю: «Без слушателя каждый из нас отвергнут. Одиночество лишает нас принадлежащего по праву».

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Словно при рождении каждому из нас вручают отдельную историю (а каждая история рождения — это в каком-то смысле история об отделении), но никаких нас не существует, пока нас кто-то не признает, пока кто-то нас не увидит.

Не было никакого Адама, пока Ева не сказала: «Ах вот ты где. Привет!».

Но что, если нас не приняли, не услышали? Что станется с нашей историей?

Что происходит с потерявшим врожденное право, с покинутым слушателем, с не имеющим понимания себя? Он впадет в отчаяние, закатит некрасивую истерику. Не лучший способ привлечения внимания, зато у истерики всегда находятся свидетели. 

Истерика ранит, лишает гордости, и всё же она лучше равнодушия.

В «Анатомии меланхолии» Ричард Бартон говорит: «Угроза забвения — наиболее тяжелый камень из тех, что меланхолия может запустить в человека». 

А может, кое-что страшнее забвения? Например, утрата ощущения, что ты вообще существовал на земле. 

В своей работе я почувствовала, до чего Бартон прав. Тяжелейший груз, который человек способен выносить, — это вес воспоминаний, которые только и свидетельствуют о том, что он жил, что в его жизни был и есть смысл.

Вернемся к вопросу влияния истории на слушателя. 

Половина трагедии в том, чтобы оказаться неуслышанным и неувиденным — тогда как вторая в том, чтобы не услышать и не увидеть. 

Почему? Если я говорю, что в расказывании мы отращиваем душу, то сам процесс рассказа является партнерством. 

Тот, кто рассказывает — выращивает душу. И тот, кто слушает и видит, в каком-то смысле тоже отращивает душу.

Перейдем к примерам. Я работала с одним из выживших венгров. Когда мальчику было 11, родственники понимали, что спокойное время заканчивается. Ему велели заранее собрать вещи, так как уезжать придется в спешке. Он ходил по комнате и выбирал, что возьмет с собой. Меня приводят в трепет мысли о том, как мальчишка думал о том, что следует спасти среди своих детских вещей.

Теперь я своими глазами вижу, как пожилые ходят по своему дому и выбирают, что взять с собой в больницу или в дом престарелых. Каждый предмет они рассматривают как резервуар для воспоминаний, как контейнер, вмещающий целый мир. «Мне что, придется его бросить?». 

Мы задаем себе этот вопрос постоянно, разбирая свои шкафы и тумбочки. Кто-то не может выбросить ворох старых писем. Это не просто бумага и чернила — это кусок жизни.

Вернемся к одиннадцатилетнему ребенку. Он ходит по комнате, ощущая, что грядут перемены. Его нынешняя жизнь на исходе: что взять с собой? Он застыл перед выбором. 

Чуть позже он набивает вещами две коробки из-под обуви. В одной оказываются фотографии с семьей, его собственные стихи, открытка от подружки — все сокровища мальчика, его автобиография в вещах. В другой: запасные ботинки, бельё, платок, нож и часы… возможно, зубная щетка. 

Он вернется из школы и услышит: «Бежим!». Он схватит коробку из-под обуви. Они убегут.

На полпути он откроет коробку и поймет, что схватил неправильную: в этой найдутся платок, ботинки и зубная щетка. 

Он подумает: «Для кого я собрал эту коробку? Для кого собрал ту? Что расскажет та, другая коробка — тому, кто ее найдет?».

Сейчас тот мальчик вырос и рассказывает: «Я будто стоял на берегу моря с коробкой под мышкой. Меня словно толкают в спину, а я медлю. Я волнуюсь, что утону вместе с ней. Будто я бросаю одну из коробок назад, к берегу, чтобы кто-нибудь поймал ее».

Похоже на «Здесь был Тофлин», не находите? Или на царапины на стене. Или на слова героя другой моей книги.

В «Считанных днях» Шмуэль говорит о значении смерти в свете того, что весь его штетл сожрал Холокост. Он рассказывает:

«Состариться и умереть для мужчины — не самое страшное. Загвоздка в том, что я постоянно мысленно возвращаюсь назад, но дороги в прошлое нет. Нет возврата, ничего не осталось, нет продолжения. В чем ценность жизни? Зачем мы вообще начинали жить? Всё подходит к концу. Для меня состариться в моем городке было бы совсем другим делом. Теперь же всё пропало.

Я несу в себе всё и всех — люди, места, я взваливаю их на плечи и тащу. 

Я вижу старого раввина. Работников, впрягшихся в телеги. Мужчину, привязавшего к себе ребенка куском ткани, шагающего пешком из Вистулы: без денег, без дома, без еды. Его заветная мечта — найти лошадь, эта мечта не сбудется. Теперь уже я несу его. Ему не видать лошади, но пусть будет хотя бы шанс остаться в родном краю.

Со всей бедностью, со всеми бедами — мне было бы достаточно сохранить само место. Старикам вроде меня много не нужно. Но я возвращаюсь из воспоминаний и понимаю, что ничего нет. Всё исчезло без следа, стерто, как след карандаша ластиком. Так что уход из жизни обретает для меня новое значение.

Проститься с одной жизнью — ерунда. Но отпустить все эти жизни, что я несу в себе — горе совсем другого масштаба».

Мы умираем, не отдавая своих коробок, и живем, не ловя чужих. Одно разрушено, другое потеряно. Но я вижу, как молодое поколение начинает менять ситуацию. 

Молодежь стремится воссоединить разорванное, раскопать историю своего рода. Они копают глубже, чем поиск документа с деревом предков. Они возвращают себя, возвращают себе прошлое, на которое имеют полное право: оно наше и ничьё иное.

Мы расширяемся. В четвертом измерении — время — мы осознаем себя, и без этого в нас не находится души. 

Душа — не только в самой жизни, она и в знании, что живёшь, и в сознательном решении присутствовать в жизни, обращать на нее внимание. Много сил дает голод по прошлому, много возможностей в желании затребовать то, что в другом случае будет потеряно.  

из книги “Stories as equipment for living”, Barbara Myerhoff

Перевод: Елена Трускова