I was as pure as a river but now I think I'm possessed // You put a fever inside me, & I've been cold since you left.
You’ve got a girlfriend now and she's made of gold // & you've got your own mistakes and a bed at home.
I'm hoping you could save me now, but you break and fold // You've got a fire inside but you're heart's so cold.
'cause i've done some things that I can't speak // & I tried to wash you away but you just won't leave // So won't you take a breath & dive in deep? // 'cause I came here so you'd come for me.
2. Do you have a specific favorite fandom to write for?
3. Do you have any general advice for fic writers?
4. What is the most challenging thing for you while you are trying to write?
Let's go!
In 2020 I was doing photo edits for my fandom at the time, which was Barisi (Sonny Carisi/ Rafael Barba from SVU), and for pride month I wanted to take part in a bingo. I wanted to do a montage of sms exchanges and as I was writing it, I realized that I wanted to do a story around it. I'd never thought about writing before and now it's become my main hobby.
2. Now I can say that I've found my OTP in Aziraphale and Crowley, so that fandom is absolutely my favorite but also the one I keep coming back to is Mystrade.
3. Very difficult question. I consider that I'm the one who has the most to learn, to receive advice, so I find it hard to see myself giving advice. But maybe the one I give myself. Indulge yourself. Write what makes you happy, never what you think others expect of you.
4. I'm always afraid of writing the characters out-of-character. I love writing as close to canon as possible because I want the characters I write to be happy in their universe. So it's very important for me to stay true to who they are.
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wrote chapter 1 of my angsty barisi fic and it is currently in the editing stage!! i will actually have work coming out soon!! cannot wait 2 share with u all.
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1. How many works do you have on AO3?
34! On my main, 2 on my alt, and 1 anon. Would be closer to 42-45 but I went through a bender early this year and deleted/orphaned a lot of works
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
221,775 (plus the ~16k I'm editing rn) (not including the 2 on my alt)
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Currently only RWRB, though I wrote the most for Top Gun (both movies) and Julie and the Phantoms (most of those are what I deleted tho lol)
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
True Colors Shine in Darkness and in Secrecy (WIP) (RWRB)
Visceral In Doses (Top Gun)
Take All Of Me (Top Gun)
And I Am Your Tree (Young Royals)
Grit Your Teeth Another Time (Top Gun)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I try to! Sometimes if I feel like I have nothing to add to them, I won't, but I generally try to give thanks at least.
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
I have a LOT lmao I love angst, so. By fandom + Main angst content:
Top Gun (2 Main canon character deaths)
Real Genius (Offscreen Character Death)
JATP (Referenced canon character death + funerals!)
Young Royals (Uhhh grief? It's post-S1)
Spiderman: Across the Spiderverse (Main character death)
Hunger Games (SA, as a fade to black)
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Again, by fandom bc I have several:
Top Gun (Hangster, Valentines day, post-canon fic)
Young Royals (5+1 of Wille being carried+carrying someone)
JATP (Willex Valentine's Day date. Pure fluff. So much fluff.)
RWRB (Henry character study, mix of pre and post-canon)
8. Do you get hate on fics?
OMG so one person (I assume, diff accs but it was anonymous) left several hate comments on a fic I wrote when I was like 16 so I deleted that shit immediately. Someone gifted me a fic afterward bc they felt bad LMAO. Nothing really since, though
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
HAHAHAH yeahhhh. Idk how you'd classify it though? Like. I've got a variety of shit in there
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
Nah, not my style
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I'm aware of!
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I can barely ask people to beta-read my fics, and making friends is hard. Asking to co-write might put me in the grave
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
I have a few. I'm always soft for Barisi (SVU), Roy/Riza (royai?) (FMAB), and Willex (JATP), though
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Too many. A Barisi soulmate au I was rewriting. Icemav flower shop/pilot au, the entirety of Hangster as Exes as Youngblood. The TG/FMAB au I started. There's more. I have like 130 fics in my docs and over half of those are WIPs, so.
16. What are your writing strengths?
I've been told I'm good at writing physical touches, and movements. And I like to think I'm alright at descriptions
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
I get way too wordy with those mentioned above. I ramble a lot. Dialogue scares me, especially in smut (I worry I'll be too corny/porno-sounding). I basically don't do outlines unless the idea I have is really long, and even then they tend to be pretty frail and bare-bones.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
I used to pretty frequently when I was writing Barisi, mostly pet names and stuff in Spanish. I no longer feel confident in writing other languages that I don't know, which limits me to English and describing ASL.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Oh god. So it might have been Pokemon back when I was in elementary school. But I typically say Attack on Titan, the summer between 7th and 8th grade. I was friends with this one girl and would literally send, over Gmail, new chapters. I still have...most? of the writing in a doc and it is HORRENDOUS.
20. Favorite fic you’ve written?
It's not my best fic by any means, but I have a soft spot for I Hope We Make It (To The Other Side), which is a JATP fic that hit sooo many firsts for me. It was my first finished multi-chap fic, my first time plotting shit out. I think it was some of the longest writing I'd done at the time (my avg length of fic was like 2k and 3k for a long one). And I was SO PROUD of so many little things within it.
I also love Still Singin' Here Above The Ground, which is a RWRB fic that's pretty quiet but is just. Ugh. I'm really happy with how it turned out.
💘Is there any posted fic you want to rework/re-edit/re-write?
Yes?!?!?! Okay- sometimes I feel like I want to take fics from my old fandom and re-write them for Tarlos lol. But seriously- the Barisi amnesia fic- I am not satisfied with the end- I would like to revisit that. And there is one scene I never got in there that I really wanted to write. I would love to add that. (or rewrite for Tarlos and throw that scene in.)
💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?
ANY KIND! Okay- seriously. I love when people are unhinged in the comments. But also, comments are hard and I feel that so even emojis are fine! I have been corrected twice- and both times people were VERY respectful about it and I didn't mind at all and I made the changes.
🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?
answered here. But basically if there's something I'm upset about or have strong feelings about- My characters will feel the same.
SVUHGE2023-1: fic, Gen or Barisi, max rating Teen. Hurt poor Rafael all you want but don’t kill him, or any of his friends. Prompt: Rafael Barba doesn’t turn up for court when he’s supposed to.
SVUHGE2023-2: barisi, Prompt: Sonny catches Rafael singing in the shower, not realizing that Rafael sings incredibly well. (Maybe Raf is a little shy about it) :)
SVUHGE2023-3: Art or Edit, Rafael Barba, Gen, Prompt: Rafael in a Harvard sweater
SVUHGE2023-4: fic, any rating, Barisi, Prompt: rushing to get ready one morning Sonny & Rafael accidentally swap some clothing item. They don’t notice until others do.
SVUHGE2023-5: art or edit, barisi, Rating: any, Prompt: Sonny wearing Barba’s Harvard sweater & Barba wearing Sonny’s Fordham sweater. Sonny’s sweater is too long in sleeves & body for Barba, and because Barba had his Harvard sweater altered to fit his shorter shape, it’s too short everywhere on Sonny
SVUHGE2023-6: fic, Character/pairing: Rafael Barba, any, Rating: Gen or any, Prompt: Rafael is spending Christmas Day alone. For some reason he couldn’t go skiing in Europe as usual. He hasn’t told anyone and it’s fine. Really. But someone finds out and makes sure he’s not alone. This can be Gen, friendship or any ship. Just make Barba not sad & lonely on Christmas Day.
SVUHGE2023-7: fic or art, Characters/pairing: Rafael Barba/Female reader, Rating: Gen, Prompt: Rafael x female reader pairing celebrating Christmas underneath their Christmas tree together, exchanging gifts and laughter. It is their first Christmas together as a couple.
SVUHGE2023-8: Fic, Teen & up, Characters/pairing: Barisi. Bonus Sonny & Fin friendship and/or Rafael & Amanda friendship , No MCD, Prompt: Hurt/comfort with a happy ending based on the song Good Grief by Leanna Firestone.
SVUHGE2023-9: Fic or edit, Teen & up, Characters/pairing: Barisi. Bonus Sonny & Fin friendship and/or Rafael & Amanda friendship, no MCD, Prompt: Hurt/comfort with a happy ending based on the song I Lose to You by Madds Buckley.