#Exhaustedfander rambles

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Quick! Don’t imagine in the next Sanders Aside Patton patting the spot next to him telling Janus he saved him a spot. And definitely don’t imagine the others being really put off by Janus being there but Patton being really supportive and adamant about him saying. Oh! And definitely don’t think about all of the sides wondering aloud where Roman could be - meanwhile he ducked out after the events of the last episode! Don’t think about those things!

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I’ve said this before, but it still weirds me out: Why do some people still only refer to Janus as Deceit? I’m not taking about the fics that were written pre his name revel, but rather fics where he’s just referred to as...deceit, the whole time.  I know it’s such a small thing and I’m probably being dramatic, but I just don’t get it. Janus has a name, he has for several months now. I’m sure it isn't hard to tell I have a soft spot for Janus, considering he’s my image on my blog, but I just don’t get it. Dee is a cute nickname and I’ve always liked that, but why do folks still not use his name? I’m genuinely curious.

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Ho boy this oneshot is almost 100% gonna be a multi-chaptered thing. How many chapters? Who knows! But I’m currently writing some delicious Roman AngstTM and I love him dearly, but I also love to inflict pain upon him. 

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I’m going to try and have the next chapter of Hideaway up by tomorrow evening. I’d intended on getting more of it written tonight, but my mind’s been very occupied by the US Election and that’s pretty much all I can focus on. I hope my fellow Americans are doing alright at this time. It’s cetainly a stressful time in the Country, particularly for minorities. Let’s hope for the best! 

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I’ve written nearly 110,000 words of fanfiction in quarentine, starting in early May, and I’m not sure if I should be proud or embarased of that lmao. Maybe a little bit of both. I’ve really struggled to find my motivation for more orignal works, but at the very least, fanfiction has had my back and I’ve had a lot of insipiration since the last Sanders Sides episode. I’m happy I’m still writing. 

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I saw that Thomas Sanders’s shop restocked, caved, and bought all the dark sides t shirts. They’re my favorite logos of the sides and I’m so excited to finally have merch, especially Janus’s!

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Me going back and forth between writing two oneshots and a chaptered fic at once:

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My shirts Came!!!!

I’m so happy! I’ve wanted a shirt since I started wathing Sanders Sides, Virgil’s logo especially, and I’m so happy to have his, Janus and Remuss’s logos! They’re so cool! 

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My dad’s been making me feel like shit about writing fanfiction and keeps asking if I’ve been writing anything original lately. I haven’t had the motivation to write original stuff in a while and considering the state of the world and my own mental health, fanfiction is one of the few things that makes me happy right now. At least I know some folks actually apprecaite that I’m writing lol. I’ve got a Moceit oneshot coming out a little later tonight, so stay tuned for that.

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Oh the yearning in this upcoming chapter of Hideaway is... intense. The self-loathing, too, obviously. But the yearning is off the chartsssss