#HES LITERALLY BEEN MY BAE FOR SO LONG EVEN WHEN I WAS YOUNGER

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Archie & Casey Pt.2

Casey: [the breakfast he’s gonna make a point to stay for purely to be a dick is gonna be awkward, because he really did mean all night, y’all aren’t sleeping in this house, none of you]

Archie: [I can’t feel bad for y’all really, soz, it’s the least you deserve in many ways, bit shaming for you gal but you’ll survive]

Casey: [have fun at work Ian because it literally do be a weekday and you’ll be in the best mood ever, at least from poor Archie’s POV the bae won’t be this mad at you all night long so not every hook up has to be angry in a way that upsets me]

Archie: [back on side as much as he ever will be now]

Casey: [and he will be genuinely happy you’ve taken him to Cornwall so that can be the good bit before it fully goes to shit in Manchester and he dumps you for the first time, cos not saying it’s the end forever rn cos I know what you’re both like]

Archie: [oh the messiness, we’re gonna be really unbearably heartbroken when we get back honey, no one is gonna be living lol]

Casey: [and peeps thought America was being annoying LOL, how is she gonna bring up cornwall as a let’s go there thing in the am, like are we gonna say you’re dossing about in the car just driving having nowhere really to go for a bit first or is she just suggesting it asap]

Archie: [we did say we’d take you so I think we can suggest it like see I’m still me and I stick to what I say]

Casey: [very valid under the circumstances]

Archie: [we might even tell these people over breakfast before running it past you just ‘cos it sounds like you have actual plans and have not in fact been kidnapped like oh yes, we’re seeing my fam next]

Casey: [make those amends gal, we love to see it, just wanna let you know I googled flights to see and I’m dead cos she’s 12-15 and thus classed as a young adult yikes, but good to know it only takes 1 hr 15 from Dublin to Newquay as is only like 45 euros for you both one way, obvs that’s now and not Sept cos it won’t let me look that far but as a rough guide, then they’ve just gotta get from Newquay airport to wherever in Cornwall you used to live]

Archie: [I hope they wouldn’t immediately flag that and alert your parents if you aren’t travelling with them ‘cos imagine lmao, but for now just pushing through the awks like they remotely care because we’re trying for this boy here]

Casey: [I think they’d be bothered if she was trying to go solo aka total unaccompanied minor vibes which is worth noting for when she has to come back from Manchester without him, but since she’s with someone I doubt they are that fussed cos you’re not like a tiny tiny child but that’s just speculation on my part lol, I genuinely wonder how old this woman’s children should be cos the next morning awks are different vibes if you’re children than if you’re tweens or teens]

Archie: [soz to be evil but they should be like her age lol]

Casey: [a daughter that’s literally her age is too good to pass up at this point]

Archie: [there’s no way this woman and this girl don’t know how old you are then, honestly rude to just send you on your way lol]

Casey: [there should be a younger kid or kids for the annoyance as well as one that’s literally older than her for those awks, ooh what if they were all girls because Ian has had all sons]

Archie: [I die, we’re immediately jealous of these girls our age and up as if they’re going to wanna get on him because just who we are]

Casey: [I think the oldest gal should be 16 like Bobby for the weirdness of that and then a 13 year old because she’s only turned 14 in the summer herself and then like peak annoying age of like 9 or something lol for the kid or if there’s 2 younger then add another who’s a bit younger than that as well, there really isn’t room for y’all]

Archie: [for sure, these gals just think you are trash, as if the judgment on the adults wasn’t enough lmao, just like hey]

Casey: [hope your mum aka Ian’s mrs is a bottle blonde cos if it’s natural and y’all all are that’s gonna be such a creepy children of the corn vibe and also yeah you’ll hate that gal cos blondes are your man’s type too]

Archie: [we’re just gonna go deal with this sofa bed clear up and let you have another talk with your father if you want]

Casey: [shamelessly will hit him up for money because he is that messy irresponsible bitch who never has any despite having a job, sure Ian will have much to say about the state of your underage gf but nothing actually useful and clearly he’s not gonna push it far enough to start a full brawl before work, blatantly just wants you out asap]

Archie: [worth losing some cash to do it for this fam collectively packs your bags too, we know the vibe]

Casey: [get in the car and drive to the airport lads, a casual hour that you can fill talking about what you’re gonna do in Cornwall and how much of a fun vibe it’ll be]

Archie: [‘where’d he meet her?’ ‘cos we’re nosy]

Casey: [a shrug ‘an app or some bollocks’ is that even true, who can say with how little he cares about what other peeps are doing until it impacts him, but my dad and Sal vibes because let’s be honest Ian you’d have clearly ran through your co-workers being a hoe in the JJ era so]

Archie: [‘can believe it’ lowkey casting aspersions on this woman but we feel thoroughly shaded so we need to]

Casey: [a lol because we see what you’re getting at and agree that she’d need to resort to one, he clearly didn’t like her before and definitely will not be a fan from now on ‘knows how to pick ‘em, him’ and tell her all the horror stories you have for the shit girlfriends he’s had, leaving the shitshow relationship he had with your mum out of it for now but]

Archie: [‘I’m so glad my mum doesn’t date’ like oh no no no]

Casey: [‘money on there being loads of apps for posh lasses after a bit of rough’ like you should sign her up]

Archie: [shaking our head because we are immature and the bitch who would kick off hence your mother would never tell you if she is or isn’t dating like okay babe ‘my dad was perfect, she’ll have to be sad forever’]

Casey: [she so is that bitch, yet another reason this woman is married to her job ‘he were a policeman, like’ shading him for that because the kind of boy we are, excuse you let her think her dead father is perfect thank you]

Archie: [‘so?’ in a way we have never spoken to or in front of you]

Casey: [‘so it’d be shit to grow up with’ because imagine how your friends and other peeps at school etc would be gal, you should just have dropped it boy but we know you wouldn’t]

Archie: [‘It was shit growing up with a depressed mum, I’d rather take my chances, thanks’]

Casey: [‘Alright, calm down’ because he is that bitch who takes the piss when you’re mad but the world is ending when he is, obvs]

Archie: [just getting in the back and turning our phone on so we can scroll]

Casey: [doing a Jimothy move of chucking something that she didn’t take with her at her, not because she might actually want it but to get her attention, like Oi, cos still a wind up despite you clearly not being in the mood]

Archie: [‘thanks’ in the most I am ignoring you way possible]

Casey: [defs being really immature and driving dangerously so she and this bear he won who I picture in the back chilling get thrown around in the back like do not ignore me hun, like it’s all such a big LOL]

Archie: [‘what’s the point?’ as we pick this bear up like what are you achieving sir, honestly]

Casey: [‘of you being mardy back there? I dunno, mate’]

Archie: [‘I just don’t wanna talk to you right now’ bit of recycling of your words for fun]

Casey: [such an unimpressed noise like okay whatever then as if you’re not gonna be sick of the silence in less than a second, boy]

Archie: [just get comfortable like you might be able to get some sleep in this car even though the drive isn’t really long enough]

Casey: [‘what are you being a dickhead for now?’ literally immediately because like I said, emphasis on now like yet again you’re winding me up here]

Archie: [‘I’m just tired’ like it’s absolutely not what’s going on here but we aren’t confrontational soz another reason you’re a poor match]

Casey: [‘bollocks, it’s ‘cause you know your perfect dead dad wouldn’t be having this’ because you’re right, he absolutely would notp this as everyone will once they know]

Archie: [‘it’s not about you’ unintentionally harsh but true ‘if he weren’t dead I wouldn’t have been living here so none of this would’ve happened’ not said in a positive or negative way like that’s just facts]

Casey: [‘if he weren’t dead it wouldn’t have happened is right’ because what he said about girls with dead parents being absolute slags when they were talking about Libi is true of you gal]

Archie: [just making a noise of disbelief when we connect what you’re saying to that]

Casey: [stop trying to force a confrontation out of her sir, I hate you, he’d be so smug knowing saying that got to her, just all over his face]

Archie: [‘you can’t be jealous of my dead dad, that’s ridiculous’] 

Casey: [‘like you having loads to say when you reckon you don’t wanna talk to me’]

Archie: [‘yeah, exactly like that’ a verbal eyeroll because no]

Casey: [a lol because her attitude is so amusing to him rn]

Archie: [actually close your eyes and fake sleep now]

Casey: [being once again v mature and turning the music on and up]

Archie: [we’ve ignored worse]

Casey: [wake her up when you’re nearly there even though she’s not actually asleep just being like oi get up or something equally charming lol] 

Archie: [now for the joys of an airport, at least you don’t have anything to check in which always makes it quicker]

Casey: [am gonna make you have seats next to each other on this plane so you can’t just ignore each other though lol] 

Archie: [gotta be done lol]

Casey: [nudge her but not in an aggressive manner when you’re in your seats and look at her like are we gonna call a truce here or what] 

Archie: [shrug so you kind of nudge him back so it’s like guess so, yeah]

Casey: [‘just stop being a dickhead’ but again not in a confrontational way v much the tone of I will if you will] 

Archie: [‘we’re literally on our way’ in the same tone like I wouldn’t have got on the plane otherwise, although debatable how much choice either of you had at this point but you know]

Casey: [‘yeah, so I can’t be sending you no I miss yous’ like when he sent her a text immediately post cloakroom hookup, saying we would do that rn if we could aka the closest to a sorry for anything you’re gonna get for now but it’s as much him saying he wants things to go back to the way they were aka you to act like you used to if you’re not gonna fight with us in a fun way when we try and wind you up] 

Archie: [‘don’t need to’ which we’re saying like there’s nothing stopping us from spending all out time together now as a positive but it’s as clearly a negative but shh lol]

Casey: [‘what then?’ + one of her fave pet names cos he’s back to acting like he’s the most romantic and chivalrous and will do anything to make it up to her, whatever she needs]

Archie: [‘just be nice to me, boy’ honestly too close to home]

Casey: [‘you know now I ain’t got a dad like yours, never even had a mum how yours is’ because we can’t be pretending Ian is perfect once you’ve met him and a flop though your mum may be in a lot of ways she is still around and does care about you gal, it’s true so not even a blatant sob story but that’s how we’re using it so she’ll forgive us, like poor me I don’t know how to treat girls nicely, while we hold her hand like soz]

Archie: [squeeze his hand ‘you can take care of yourself better’ like highly debatable but you’re right in that Ian is no help to anyone girl]

Casey: [‘I shouldn’t of taken it out on you’ squeeze her hand back ‘you’re what I have got, and it’s not nowt, like’ casual declaration of love there nbd]

Archie: [‘I didn’t do what I said I would’ and shake our head]

Casey: [‘if I held that against every dickhead who don’t, who’d I have?’ well JJ you fool but you don’t see it that way]

Archie: [‘don’t say I’m good when I’m not’]

Casey: [‘this were a good idea’ debatable tbh but you think so rn]

Archie: [‘I’m trying to make it up to you’]

Casey: [‘the uni students who ain’t already’ll be back in a bit’ because you’re getting into newquay first and that’s literally all it’s known for is a cray students and stag parties when it’s not holidays, so he’s probably thinking you can stick around and he can get a job at a bar or club]

Archie: [‘fit right in’ like ah yes, my peers ‘I can’t get a job with anyone who’s going to check but maybe I’ll find something cash in hand…’]

Casey: [shakes his head ‘I’ll look after you like I said I would’ not realistic but okay it’s nice you don’t want her in a probably sketch as hell cash in hand situation]

Archie: [‘what am I going to do?]

Casey: [‘What you was doing back there’ aka come to work with me when I am and then his plan clearly is you can both sleep at the same time and do whatever you want when he has time off]

Archie: [nod ‘got it all worked out’ sounds a bit like you’re convincing yourself but okay ‘hope security is as shit’ like see if I get in lol]

Casey: [‘had time to when you were sleeping’ can’t resist a dig even though we’re being ‘nice’ now ‘you’ll be alright’ looking her over as we say so like yep you’re still fit enough to get in anywhere]

Archie: [‘I didn’t sleep’ because we’re simply never going to be fun to wind up, soz boy I don’t know what to tell you but we can 😌 at the compliment still]

Casey: [‘when you was crying then’ but in a more playful way than a horrible one, complete with another nudge]

Archie: [‘yeah’ like no lies detected but we can nudge back]

Casey: [touching her face as if he’s wiping away those tears, better late than never, but just wanna touch her obvs and you’re limited what you can do on this plane cos you can’t extra and attract more attention to yourself when she’s this young and peeps would notice]

Archie: [just looking at him like really, now, but in an affectionate way equally like why are you choosing now to be nice when we can’t do anything about it]

Casey: [LOOKING at her like 😏 ‘said I miss you’ in such a suggestive whisper]

Archie: [just putting our hand in his lap like it’s so casual]

Casey: [as casually pointing his hand where there’s a lovebite nobody else on this plane can see but he put there the night before]

Archie: [pulling his hand so he has to press into it]

Casey: [simply must]

Archie: [just pressing our own hand harder into you]

Casey: [the perfect time to bite your lip and look hot doing it]

Archie: [snuggle into his shoulder so you can be that close and whisper in his ear but you look like you’re being pretty innocent ‘I miss you harder’]

Casey: [and you can pull her hair pretty hard but look like you’re just innocently moving it so we’re definitely doing that response]

Archie: [sucking our thumb part so we don’t make a noise in response and part for the visual]

Casey: [taking off his jacket and putting it over her in what looks like a nice gesture of tucking you in and making you comfy cosy but is a blatant ploy to touch you as well obvs]

Archie: [a happy noise that could just be like thanks for the jacket but is obviously not, our eyes just switching between looking in yours and looking down at your lap]

Casey: [shall be giving you this bear from wherever he was packed as another innocent distraction for the other peeps nearby but it’s really so you can hold onto it gal as he touches you more and also makes a big show of getting comfortable again in his own seat to draw your eye even more shamelessly]

Archie: [‘you look after me so well’ putting our hand under whatever you’re wearing on your bottom ‘how do you feel?’ like we’re just seeing if you’re alright but not at all]

Casey: [‘yeah, I do’ alright cocky, is my response to that tbh ‘but you’re nice to me an’ all, sometimes’]

Archie: [‘when you’re being nice’ like gotta earn it]

Casey: [‘I’m always giving you what you want’ like you love it when I’m not being nice too, we both remember last night, looking innocently at this bear though as though that’s what we mean only]

Archie: [‘no you’re not’ and shifting in our seat like you aren’t right now, for example]

Casey: [making a song and dance of readjusting her makeshift covers like ugh you’ve moved and need to be re-tucked in so he can go as hard as he can feasibly go without getting caught by the rest of this plane ‘I am’]

Archie: [the way we’d have to tighten our grip ‘cos that’s all we can do ‘when we land’ like you’re going to then]

Casey: [a nod because that’s all you can be trusted with rn]

Archie: [‘I wanna be there now’ looking at him ‘are you excited?’]

Casey: [‘I wanna get there as badly as you’ true in the literal and double meaning ‘I’m so ready for it’]

Archie: [‘bad’ with the emphasis that is safe ‘not long now’ and we’re still touching you ‘cos you could always be readier until then]

Casey: [‘yeah’ with as much emphasis as he can likewise get away with without being fully indecent over here]

Archie: [on our notes app now because what else can we do rn and no one needs to be watching y’all that hard]

Archie: why aren’t we rich so you can fuck the shit out of me right here right now and all the hostesses can do is watch and wait to see what we want after

Casey: Give us chance to get a job first, see what I can do for the next flight

Archie: promise

Casey: you could wash cars, you did on a top job on theirs

Archie: are you gonna watch me every time

Casey: have to, you might really get kidnapped else

Archie: I dunno if I’d do as good a job if you weren’t

Casey: or you could babysit posh kids in their massive houses, we’d have a right laugh with that

Archie: until I had to actually had to look after them

Casey: I’ll be there to give you a hand, nowt I’ve not done before

Archie: alright, dad much

Casey: you heard, I always give you what you want, baby

Archie: I wanna call you daddy out loud you should look a bit older

Casey: 👨 is gonna take me longer than an hour

Archie: mine was only ever your brothers age, you don’t need to go too hard

Casey: I’ll leave it out trying for a 🧔 then

Archie: how would that even feel

Archie: gross, I bet

Casey: you’d get a rash off kissing me loads, can’t have that, they’d never let you in the clubs

Archie: 😷

Archie: can’t not kiss you

Casey: you’re doing alright with it now

Archie: no, it’s very hard actually

Casey: [obvs gotta lick his IRL rn to make it harder cos that’s who he is]

Archie: [😡 at you less dramatically]

Casey: [squish her cross face how JJ sometimes do because you can’t do the pouty lip thing here unfortunately]

Archie: [‘you’re a meanie’] 

Casey: [hitting her with a shhh that’s so suggestive but only to y’all because daddy energy]

Archie: [‘make me’ because we can lean into our childish energy and make it seem sassy but we’re really being as suggestive back]

Casey: For that I’m gonna make you SO loud

Casey: [and doing the most here for a second and deliberately only that because you’re being rude hun, excuse us everyone, look away for a moment]

Archie: [doing your best to make it sound like the kind of get off noises you make when someone tickles you or similar]

Archie: you’re the worst

Casey: You started it

Archie: no you did

Casey: you 

Archie: you wanted me to, if we’re going that far back

Casey: as far back as you wanna go, you wanted me to want you and it’s your fault I do this fucking much

Archie: you blame me, don’t you

Casey: everyone else is gonna blame me

Archie: even if I tell them I led you on

Casey: face of an angel, you

Archie: i’m not

Casey: our secret though, that

Archie: i don’t know about that

Casey: yeah, if you keep on how you are this whole plane’ll have a job not to know

Archie: everyone at your dad’s knew

Archie: before you fucked me so loud they all heard it and got confirmation

Casey: told you why he would do

Archie: you kept telling me

Casey: he ain’t as thick as that bitch he’s got now makes him look, he’d love to fuck you

Archie: would he

Casey: ‘course, I dunno if he could at his age, but you’re just his type

Archie: you like the same kind of girls

Casey: I get the kind of girls he’d be after if he were owt like me

Archie: I see the similarities 

Casey: before he went soft an’ all, there were

Archie: I wouldn’t call him soft

Casey: she’s got him doing whatever the fuck she says soon as she says it, least Jim’s mrs is fit enough to be calling the shots

Archie: yeah, I guess so

Archie: he still scared me

Casey: you ain’t gotta be scared of nobody, you’re mine

Archie: just you then

Casey: nor me, I meant it, I’ll never hurt you

Archie: yeah

Casey: never, Archie

Casey: I love you

Archie: [just staring at him like did you really just type that right now when I can’t say or do anything even if I had a clue how to and being like ‘scuse me and going to the tiny bathroom because we need a moment to collect ourselves]

Casey: Oi, you need to say something

Archie: You can’t oi me right now

Casey: I said I love you

Casey: are you not gonna say it back

Archie: you’ve never said it before

Casey: but I do, that’s why it were doing my head in how you was being at my dad’s, couldn’t tell you nowt when you were being a massive dickhead to me

Archie: that’s why you did what you did?

Casey: you and him both wound me up

Archie: I’m so sorry

Casey: your sister trying to fuck things up, I get, but I weren’t expecting you to turn on me an’ all after I sorted us not being split up

Archie: that’s not what I was trying to do at all

Archie: I wasn’t trying to do anything I was just fucking up, I couldn’t do what you needed me to

Casey: you were scared, I should’ve reckoned on that

Archie: I’m not brave like you

Casey: we won’t be going there again, alright

Archie: I’m sorry I let you down

Casey: I shouldn’t have taken you there, I wasn’t thinking

Archie: we had to go somewhere

Casey: but we could’ve come right to the airport

Archie: it’s not your fault, it’s mine

Casey: nah, it’s not

Casey: that fight I told you about when you asked about my worst one, what I said was between me and him, I know what he’s like

Archie: but

Archie: what did you do then

Archie: to make him so angry, I mean

Casey: he just was back then, told you he’s gone soft since

Archie: that’s horrible

Casey: I must’ve knocked it out of him by winning, ‘cause it was all mine after, properly passed down

Archie: you wouldn’t do that, would you

Casey: I’ve got no kids to smack round

Archie: yeah but still

Casey: I don’t want none, it don’t matter

Archie: don’t get no one pregnant

Casey: don’t miss no days of your pill, or run out

Archie: I’m not gonna

Casey: we’ll be alright 

Archie: I’m just saying, be careful

Archie: you fuck lots of people that ain’t me

Casey: I did, but I don’t

Archie: not currently, we are on the run, like

Casey: you fucking heard me, I love you

Archie: I did

Casey: I want it to be proper, only me and you

Archie: Okay

Casey: come out from hiding in the toilet, like

Archie: [do that girl]

Casey: [looking at her so intensely as she walks back to her seat]

Casey: Don’t you love me too

Archie: [looking at him like STOP IT as you get back in your seat like so pained]

Archie: you know I do

Casey: so tell me

Archie: [in his ear ‘I love you’ because snoopers be damned you don’t need to be peeping that hard]

Casey: [fully STARING at her lips whenever she moves back even slightly because he has never wanted to kiss her more]

Archie: it’s so unfair

Casey: I should’ve made you stay in there

Casey: [because cannot stop LOOKING at her]

Archie: [likewise we’re just 🥺]

Archie: should’ve come and got me

Casey: they’d have chucked us off the plane after hearing all that 

Archie: but I need you

Casey: if I touch you right now I won’t be able to stop

Archie: we can’t

Casey: but I need you an’ all

Archie: no one is going to know us, soon as we’re out of that airport

Casey: how long

Archie: too long 

Archie: [‘cos real however long of this flight you have left at this point]

Casey: [a lol cos couldn’t agree more and literally feel like he’s gonna die, that kind of lol]

Archie: [not helped by the 😍 we’re clearly giving you]

Casey: where are the rowdy dickheads, for fuck’s sake

Casey: I just wanna kiss you

Archie: you’re so fucking cute

Casey: that’s you

Archie: nah, I wanna do a lot more than just kiss 

Casey: go on, tell me what you’d do

Archie: I should be in your lap

Casey: it’d be too easy to pull you over here if there were owt else going on for these twats to be looking at

Archie: no one has to know, or see you put your fingers inside me

Casey: you want me to show you exactly how I’d fuck you if I could be inside you for real

Archie: yes daddy

Archie: the more you love me the harder you’ll do it

Casey: they’ll hear it, you might have to cry louder than you’ve ever so they don’t all know how wet you are

Archie: I wish you could feel it

Casey: go back to the toilet and show me

Archie: watch me go

Archie: [back to this loo, no one else is probably going on such a short flight]

Casey: [absolutely is watching her go and touching himself in the way boys can just get away with as standard for some reason]

Archie: put your headphones in and I’ll film it

Casey: alright

Archie: it’s too fucking loud to waste

Casey: the state of me is gonna be a massive waste

Archie: i’ll clean it up 

Casey: you take such good care of me

Archie: [send this video with sound effects]

Archie: how would you take care of me

Casey: I never said where I wanted to kiss you

Archie: you like eating me out 😻

Casey: I like how much you like it 

Archie: it makes me feel little

Archie: i can’t explain, how much power you have, even on your knees

Casey: I reckon you should try to explain

Archie: I have zero control, all you have to do is just touch me with your tongue and I’m so defenceless and small

Casey: you are, well exposed and vulnerable

Archie: you could make me do or say anything

Casey: I really fucking love you

Archie: I love you the mostest 

Casey: you know I’ve never said it before, don’t you

Archie: never, to no one?

Casey: to none of the lasses I’ve seen

Archie: shit

Archie: i’m gonna cry for you and send that too then, okay

Casey: if you cry out here I’ll have to hold you, be a shit mate otherwise

Archie: I’m such a fucking baby

Casey: they’ve all worked that out already, it’s alright

Casey: come here

Archie: you know I’m gonna grind my pussy on you ‘til I cum right

Casey: til we both do

Archie: if I leave my knickers here, will you get it inside me, do it quick, please, no one will ever see

Casey: I’ll slip right in before they know what’s going on

Archie: I’m so close, it’s all I need I promise

Casey: I need to feel you

Archie: feel how you saying you love me has got me

Casey: and say it again

Archie: if you say it again I’m saying it out loud I don’t care

Casey: nor do I, we’re basically there anyways, what the fuck can they do about it

Archie: I’m yours no one can do anything about it

Archie: [so come out]

Casey: [the actual lack of fucks given, you’re gonna get in trouble lads]

Archie: [least we were not joking about being close it’ll be over before anyone can clock exactly what y’all are doing]

Casey: [you’re all welcome for that, fellow passengers]

Archie: [never mind how blissed out we now look lol]

Casey: [go about your own business please and thanks]

Archie: [we’re just dead bye]

Archie: your cum is inside me right now 🥰

Casey: And yours is all over me

Archie: how the fuck did we just get away with that

Casey: you kept your promise

Archie: you’re just 

Casey: I was the same way ‘cause of you

Archie: I like when we cum at the same time

Casey: me too, I feel dead close to you then

Archie: you are

Casey: it’s like we’re a proper couple

Archie: aren’t we

Casey: yeah, but you know what I mean

Archie: yeah, like other couples

Casey: without the boring bollocks they bother with, but what’s decent

Archie: I get it

Casey: it don’t have to be a secret no more when we get off this plane

Archie: are you excited for that or sad

Casey: Oi, you better be excited, I’m gonna take you out

Archie: I was asking you, I’m excited 

Casey: I wouldn’t be taking you out, or getting you another necklace, if I weren’t

Archie: [😁]

Archie: I love you and you love me, that’s why

Casey: [a smile that’s slightly more chill than that but v genuine]

Casey: that’ll be it, yeah

Archie: [just snuggling in a real platonic way don’t mind us]

Archie: I never thought you’d love me back

Casey: [he’s playing with her hair in a very soft way, nothing to see here people]

Casey: nor did I, bit rude but 

Archie: [lol]

Archie: how I know you aren’t totally bullshitting me though

Casey: I thought I loved her but since then I’ve not

Archie: Janis, yeah

Casey: I dunno, it was ages ago anyway

Archie: you probably did

Archie: you’re older, I thought you would’ve loved more people even

Casey: it ain’t how I do things, nor the lasses I used to get with

Archie: casual

Casey: was meant to be like that with you too, tah very much

Archie: [just looking around like how would you like me to exit this plane]

Casey: [doing the pulling her closer thing because do not]

Archie: [after 😏 at him]

Archie: we can keep it casual, like

Casey: [doing another IRL shh for your smug face and your suggestion of keeping it casual]

Archie: [heheheh ‘cos we’re happy and amused]

Casey: [actually tickle her this time but somewhere where peeps can see that’s what you’re doing like when my boo got me on the waddle and I attacked]

Archie: [you’re safe boy, she won’t come for you]

Casey: [and play with her necklace for good measure]

Archie: [‘you’re such a good friend’]

Casey: [‘best mate you’ve ever had, I know’]

Archie: 💛💛💛💛💛

Casey: [nod in the direction of the window like we really are nearly there now look cos are excited actually]

Archie: [just looking out and taking it in like what you’re actually doing rn]

Casey: [a lil hand hold just because]

Archie: [squeeze it but we’re not looking back for a hot sec]

Casey: [we can let her have her moment]

Archie: [we can finally get you off this plane and out and about as if either of you has a single clue about the area lolllll]

Casey: [at least you can finally have your hardcore makeout when you’re out of the airport because yes lord knows where you’re going so that’ll be awkward]

Archie: [like you’ll have been here in your life I’m sure but you’re a child so it’s not like you know directions or where’s a good spot or anything useful, it’ll be alright for a sec because you can explore but clearly why we leave]

Casey: [and I doubt v much your mum is from newquay anyway with her posh vibes so you might never have been here, it’s probably like the tiny village I’m sending Toni to for uni]

Archie: [we won’t be going to wherever the hell that is lol]

Casey: [this is way more y’all’s vibe hence I think they should stay for a while and he should get a job and they like try and make it work, I’m just debating how long realistically for]

Archie: [she’d have to talk to her fam so they don’t call the police and realistically after too long it’d be like if you don’t come back we will regardless hun so it can’t be that long really]

Casey: [yeah that is true, do you think we should cross Manchester off maybe and let y’all stay here since they don’t have long and have been to Ian’s for those vibes or still go?]

Archie: [you probably don’t need to go there, maybe it’s a plan we discuss, even if it’s visiting energy but it doesn’t need to materialise] 

Casey: [I could definitely believe you going there for lowkey ages after you dump her anyway boy, because what have you got to go back for, everyone’s gonna be livid, so let’s just say that instead]

Archie: [that makes sense I think, let’s go with that]

Casey: [at least his friends will be more inclined to let him stay without an underaged girl in tow even if it’s still wtf because haven’t seen you in forever, so you’re welcome for that]

Archie: [you can attempt to live your best life like there’s not drama awaiting you in Dublin, it’s the energy, just let JJ calm everyone down, thanks so much]

Casey: [have the uni experience you didn’t have essentially]

Archie: [you’ll probably have to message your mum not your sister sadly, she’s not gonna wanna be messenger as you left her for dead lmao, just trying to be like I’m all good like she’ll leave you to it because you’re a child]

Casey: [tbf to you I can see your logic because she does leave you to it way more than she should]

Archie: [still, don’t even have your juniors cert babe]

Casey: [how do we wanna do this bit, like do you just wanna skip to the breakup so we know how that plays out cos we know the general vibe is bleak but trying to make the best of it and have your fun for as long as poss or is there anything specific we wanna note before getting to that?]

Archie: [hmm, we probably have broke down the vibe quite well, just more of how it has been, having these little arguments because it’s not all fun and games but trying to make up until the big one]

Casey: [trying to be a ‘proper’ couple, oh it’s sad, I vote that during this time we do the thing we mentioned on club night but haven’t done where she gets hurt accidentally in the middle of a fight in contrast to when he saved from that fate before because it fits the vibe well]

Archie: [agreed, that fits well here, also if we do wanna do any convos during this time we can ‘cos clearly the vibe is we’re trying to keep the fam on side and in the loop so they don’t shop y’all because child logic but we don’t have to do them now, just if we wanted]

Casey: [I definitely think we should do all the convos possible and milk this as much as we can once we’ve finished with planning y’all’s end because it’s such a fun dramatic situation that we’ve never really done before, they’re really taking JJ’s teen running away up a notch here, Winnie absolutely wants another Casey and Janis convo at some point because he stans]

Archie: [we could do Bobby and Archie imagine how awkward, poor boy; but yeah Casey and Janis is too much fun lmao soz it’s all the drama mick, they’d for sure be messaging you but I’m sure you won’t reply until Archie is gone lol]

Casey: [yeah I can imagine him finally messaging after he’s smacked her and forced to go home because I likewise imagine he went to Janis after he did whatever he did to the ex that went to uni it’s clearly an established vibe]

Archie: [I see it, v much, shall we try and post this one now or finish up more than this]

Casey: [potentially we should bracket out the break up so we know what was said and done if it’s gonna play a role in the Janis convo and Archie’s drama when she’s back]

Archie: [right, true, okay, let’s go lol]

Casey: [okay maybe what triggers him is something to do with her having to leave, whether she actually wants to or is just being forced by the fam and threat of the police because clearly what did it with his other ex was her leaving him to go to uni, like she wants/has to go back but he has a job here and thinks they’re doing alright, that kind of energy]

Archie: [she could think that the fam will legit be alright with this and suggest going back because clearly not living our best life here are we because that would be annoying and an easy start lol]

Casey: [it tracks, especially if she’s been talking to her mum cos her mum is probably saying whatever it takes to get her to come back, she’s not gonna be like no sod your paedo bf actually, he’s a wrong’un]

Archie: [literally, you probably were already meh about her speaking to them so it’s a reason to escalate like I told you]

Casey: [literally starting this row by him taking her phone off her and being like what are you messaging her again for, probably deleting her mum as a contact because v mature]

Archie: [trying to grab it back like ‘it keeps her calm, and we’ve talked more in this time than we have in ages’ because obviously this is a wake up call for your mother]

Casey: [‘it keeps her in your head, more like’ as if your mother is brainwashing you, because genuinely hate that you are getting in any way closer to her obvs]

Archie: [‘I’m doing it to protect you’ ‘cos was our intention]

Casey: [‘you were for a bit’ because we see that you no longer only care about that gal]

Archie: [‘she’s my mum, Casey’ like come on ‘and she actually listens to what I have to say about it, she don’t even think of you how she did at first’]

Casey: [‘and what a top one she’s been before now’ true but rude ‘she’s telling you what you wanna hear, don’t be this thick, for fuck’s sake’ again rude]

Archie: [‘she’s trying’ in reply to both parts]

Casey: [‘to get you back there, nowt else’ again you’re not wrong sir, but you’re also not totally right ‘that what you fucking want?’ said so angrily because we know it kinda is]

Archie: [‘we can’t stay here forever’ in a you know/want to go back too tone, trying to reason, oof]

Casey: [‘I can’t just head off home’ because could literally get arrested, emphasis on the I because you could and they’d have you back with open arms which we’re so mad and sad about]

Archie: [we do feel bad, very guilty, as the child in this situation, ugh lol ‘they aren’t going to call the police, it hasn’t been brought up in ages as a possibility, I know them’]

  Casey: [‘you heard, they’re not gonna say shit that’ll stop you from wanting to go back to ‘em’ because just getting annoyed ‘be a different story when you’re in the door’]

Archie: [‘what’s stopping them doing it to get me back?’ ‘cos equally as valid]

Casey: [‘how pissed off you’d be, only run again first chance you had’ tell me he’s not thinking of Janis and when she used to run away, you can’t]

Archie: [‘it’s not like we have to stay forever, we can’t stay hiding forever though either’]

Casey: [‘I can’t pop back like nowt’s happened, get your head round what I done and how fuming everyone’s gonna be’ actually like can you please realise everyone’s gonna hate me, thank you]

Archie: [‘you haven’t done anything, it’s consensual’ we’re trying to be comforting but easier said than done in this particular context hun ‘I’ve told everyone I started it, went after you, I swear’]

Casey: [‘weren’t when I knocked out your bitch sister’ because again true]

Archie: [‘okay, that was a bit shit, but from her too, you was protecting me’]

Casey: [‘nobody else is gonna see it that way, or the rest’ they won’t and they don’t, we all know it]

Archie: [‘what then?’ ‘cos we’re at an impasse we all know it]

Casey: [‘piss off if you want but there’s nowt waiting for me but trouble’]

Archie: [‘what about your family?’]

Casey: [‘they’ll not have me, wouldn’t of before with having the kid, borrowed time as it was, and definitely ain’t gonna stretch to owt that gives me a hand with all this bollocks coming out’]

Archie: [‘that’s not fair, you can’t just say I’ve ruined your life’]

Casey: [‘my life ain’t fair, princess’ we’ve never said that pet name with more scorn than rn ‘but I don’t expect you to get that’]

Archie: [just shaking our head]

Casey: [‘course you’ve got nowt to say about that’ throwing her phone at her with such force it upsets me ‘go on then, have a nice little chat with your mum’]

Archie: [obviously flinching hardcore and just taking it like okay, I will thanks]

Casey: [as obviously knocking it out of her hand again like a sec later because we’re petty and don’t want you to do that, hopefully it isn’t broken because you’re gonna need it to get home probably]

Archie: [‘stop it!’ in frustration but also because we know what you’re like]

Casey: [saying ‘or what?’ in a way that has never sounded so threatening, how dare you corrupt a JJ phrase like that, sir ‘you’re leaving me anyway’]

Archie: [‘don’t do this’]

Casey: [‘it’s you doing it’ genuinely does believe that in his heart and soul]

Archie: [‘I’m trying to fix everything, you’re saying it’s all fucked and nothing can’]

Casey: [‘now you wanna act like a fucking kid’]

Archie: [‘how are you being mature?’ an actual question but not gonna be appreciated]

Casey: [‘you wanna see me be a man, yeah?’ so aggressively pinning her against a wall or somewhere like, I cannot, you in danger gurl]

Archie: [‘Stop it now’ like okay, let me go and trying to move away]

Casey: [very much not letting her go ‘you’ like stop trying to leave, has corrupted ‘you’ as well now, hate him]

Archie: [‘let go’ like this isn’t funny now, no one thinks it is honestly]

Casey: [do but only so you can chuck her about to further trap her in this room like you’re not going, because that wall was probably too near a door for your liking]

Archie: [‘you said you’d never do this and you do it all the time’]

Casey: [‘you’re not hurt’ exactly how he dismissed his ex in that convo they had, bye]

Archie: [‘you said scare’]

Casey: [‘you ain’t scared either, your mouth’s still going’ never gonna let you forget being mute in Ian’s gaff]

Archie: [eyeing this door like I am leaving this room and convo]

Casey: [forcibly and probs v painfully grip wise grabbing her face and making her look at him instead like no]

Archie: [‘Casey’ and pushing against this grip, shutting our eyes]

Casey: [‘I said look at me’ oh the sinister tone and vibes ‘I love you it’s the least you can fucking do’]

Archie: [‘look, just let me go get some fresh air, you can calm down and we’ll start again’ ‘cos we’re bargaining]

Casey: [‘how thick do you reckon I am?’ cos we know that’s what you’re doing gal]

Archie: [‘I told you you’re scaring me so just stop it please, I can’t talk to you when you’re like this]

Casey: [‘What about what you’re trying to do to me?’ the audacity of this girl to want to go home, honestly, how could she possibly want to do that, idk boy]

Archie: [‘I’m not, I’m not trying to do anything to you’]

Casey: [‘and now you’re lying to my face an’ all’]

Archie: [shakes head like no ‘I’m not trying to hurt you, I would never’]

Casey: [can and will corrupt y’all’s fun and saucy hair pulling antics to say he uses it to stop your head mid shake, ouch, like yeah you are actually, are we even listening to your words, unlikely]

Archie: [‘you need to stop now’ with more finality than the pleading energy we have like seriously now because it is escalating here]

Casey: [‘you do’ blaming you entirely for this, a bold move]

Archie: [just laying there and not saying or doing anything like okay you have to get off me then]

Casey: [do for the second that’s bound to last]

Archie: [we’re not moving, but trying to see where our phone etc is in this room]

Casey: [obvs bring it to her but in a not at all helpful manner because not gonna let you have it, just being a dick]

Archie: [just doing the most to not react in any way]

Casey: [just looking through her phone like hey remember this and this because how could you possibly wanna leave energy]

Archie: [just nodding where appropriate but not giving any more]

Casey: [being like ‘want a drink?’ and forcing her to have one before she can even say yes or no because yes I can also corrupt pouring a drink into the bae’s mouth, nothing is sacred rn, what o clock even is it, who knows]

Archie: [swallow that mouthful for the sake of not giving him anything to work with as is our approach but we are clearly disgusted]

Casey: [having one himself as well obvs as if that’ll help remotely ‘there, you’ve calmed down now’ I wish you would sir]

Archie: [the silence lmao]

Casey: [actually do break her phone to try and get a reaction and also with the energy of you won’t need this since you’ve got nothing to say]

Archie: [just looking at it, thank god for social media and being able to contact people without memorising their numbers truly]

Casey: [looking at her ‘what do you make me do this shit for?’]

Archie: [biting our lip but not at all in a sexy way]

Casey: [‘Oi, I asked you a question’]

Archie: [‘I didn’t make you do anything’ at a quiet to normal speaking tone and volume]

Casey: [‘you said you weren’t gonna do my head in and you do all the time’ because have your earlier words back at you, sort of]

Archie: [‘what doesn’t?’]

Casey: [a horrible and not at all cute lol]

Archie: [‘funny’ again in the most monotone voice]

Casey: [‘yeah, all this is a right laugh’]

Archie: [a look at him like my point exactly]

Casey: [a look like you’ve only got yourself to blame, clearly taking no responsibility here ever]

Archie: [just picking up the bits of our phone as if it’s salvageable because any distraction rn]

Casey: [cannot even let you have that so we’re taking them off you and chucking them as far away as is possible, just in your grill like we’re not done here thank you]

Archie: [putting our head in our hands because we’re losing it]

Casey: [‘you gonna cry’ not a question because it’s like oh here she goes, here’s this bit, because you’ve had enough fights even if they don’t usually escalate this hard]

Archie: [‘nope’ in an attempt at nonchalance ‘cos really not this time but not ‘cos we’re so chill, obviously]

Casey: [‘what then?’ as if it’s casual]

Archie: [one of those not at all amused laughs]

Casey: [shifting however we’re positioned rn so it’s like we’re getting more comfortable cos we’re settling in to wait]

Archie: [‘I didn’t actually wanna leave without you, but now I do and that’s all your doing’]

Casey: [‘it’ll be all my doing when you can’t’ so omnious]

Archie: [‘you can’t stop me’]

Casey: [‘can I not?’ and picking her up by her throat, which is a horrific visual I do not care for at all]

Archie: [‘no’ and then you gotta start kicking and doing what you must]

Casey: [that’ll be when he hits you however he is gonna, probably multiple times honestly to really emphasise this escalation because he isn’t usually going in on a girl like that, it’s usually the one shocking hit like your sister got and we’re done]

Archie: [at least as you’re expecting it you can struggle harder so they don’t get you square like that one did, also screaming so anyone who’s about will hear ‘cos we’re serious, just getting out this door however we must]

Casey: [he’ll likely shove you out of the door when you start screaming before anyone else can show up and get involved like okay fuck off then]

Archie: [gotta get out of here, not at all terrifying lol]

Casey: [lord knows where you even are and what shithole you were in, soz you poor child]

Archie: [gonna have to say your bag/thus passport is thrown out with you, can’t be having to call the police after all this ourselves lol]

Casey: [that’s plausible cos v much giving the dramatic leave and don’t come back vibe, in direct contrast to the entire mood of the rest of this convo, which is so you, boy]

[calif0rnia-lovers]

Dating Bishop Losa Would Include...

A/N: what’s wild is thinking I posted this only to realize it was sitting in my drafts. Showing my all time favorite love some love 😍

Rating: 💙

Check out the others I’ve done so far?: Dating Angel Reyes + Dating Ezekiel Reyes

✦ Bishop is entirely too old -- both physically and mentally --for playing games.

✧��So, if you’re looking for some quick, undefined and slightly messy, drama filled hookups please spare him the headache, and consult with a younger member of the MC

✦ The man’s got a lot of shit on his plate -- so stable, supportive relationships are his favorite cup of tea

✧ Doesn’t believe in beating around the bush, so expect an A class Old School Gentleman, wine and dine — treat you like a queen — from the beginning

✦ When you first get together, it takes Bish a minute to actually get with the program

✧ It’s been a while since he’s had an Old Lady — one who can actually handle sharing him with the MC — so cut him some slack.

✦ He’s not used to sending someone updates about his plans and whereabouts

✧ Hank might of nudged Bishop a few times — “you might wanna let the Old Lady know....”

✦ He’s also not used to someone waiting for him to come home.

✧ Seriously — cut the man some slack — he feels like shit when he finds you half-awake at 2 am that first time

✦ He’s apologetic AF if he misses a date, or has to cancel on you 

✧ You not riding him about it because you know he’s already stretched thin enough

✦ But once he gets with the program, Bishop keeps you in the loop

✧ Not with just his movements, but with the status of the MC as well

✦ Obispo BLEEDS LOYALTY AND TRUST — so as his Old Lady you’re expected to help him bear the weigh

✧ He’s not the type to unload each and every detail — in fact, he’s pretty bad at trying to carry the weight by himself

✦ There are just some aspects of the club he doesn’t think you should be involved in,  so he filters out some things when relaying it to you

✧ It’s not that he thinks you can’t handle it, he just doesn’t want you to worry — because man do you worry. And when you worry, Bishop worries so....

✦ Some nights it weighs on him. Those nights he’s different. His kisses are needy, hands rough

✧ He’ll ask for your opinion. It takes a while for you to feel comfortable enough to offer it, but he quickly learns sometimes you’ll give it without his asking

✦ Regardless, he respects your opinion even if it doesn’t always align with his

✧ Arguments are truly unavoidable — he carries around a lot of pressure and stress -- but Bish is really good at letting you vent 

✦ Sometimes he can’t catch himself, and he yells in the heat of the moment — the quickest to apologize

✧ Let a single tear fall, he’s next to you in a heartbeat

✦ Once your relationship becomes serious the most important question is -- Are you dating? OR Are you married?

✧ YOU’RE BASICALLY MARRIED

✦ You’re literally the only person who can knock him down a couple of notches

✧ And the only one bold enough to try it 

✦ Remember how Bishop doesn’t have time to play games? 

✧ When he introduces you to the MC it’s basically an unspoken promotion ceremony -- get ready to become the live-in mother to his children MC

✦ Bishop knows you do it for him, but also because the boys love you, and you love them.

✧ Tries his best to show how much he appreciates you taking on the responsibility. There are moments when he catches you, a deep kiss following. 

✦ “What’s that for?” You smile. 

✧ His lips soft against your forehead. “I love you.”

✦ Bish worries about the MC way more than he lets on -- WAY FREAKING MORE

✧ He’s pretty sure each day they knock a year off his life -- so he smokes way too much

✦ You tease him about it all the time -- “You smoke too much.”

✧ “Would you rather me strangle one of them?”

✦ Seeing you with the MC, and how easily they gravitate to you and how you help them relax, he’s hooked but let him see you around kids --

✧ All of a sudden, the idea of having kids doesn’t seem impossible

✦ Bishop listens to input from others, but sometimes he’s all about that tough love 

✧ The boys play you two like true freaking parents  

✦ They know when Bish is one of his tough love trips, all they have to do is mention something, and you’ll get Bishop to loosen up

✧ Angel is usually the one sent to butter you up —primarily because he’s the one getting that tough love --  Bishop falls victim to this 99% of the time 

✦ Loves to relax against you after a long day -- head against your chest with your fingers in his hair

✧ He always protests -- because it’s not necessary -- but he’ll  hand his phone over to you so that he can relax.  Even if it is for just an hour.

✦ He might or might not have one of the boys stay behind when he goes on a long club run. You learn to deal with the random check ins during his absence. 

✧ If you’re pregnant, and he’s gone for more than a couple of days, expect one of the guys to stay in the guest room. 

✦ He will literally not budge on this one

✧ You’re literally a goddess on earth -- Bishop worships the ground you walk on 

✦ Protective AF -- bleeds into him being overprotective at times. Primarily because he worries you might get affected by blowback from a club decision

✧ He knows you’re more than capable of handling yourself, but he still worries 

✦ License to carry -- Bish teaches you how to shoot. It gives him peace of mind so you indulge him  

✧ King of whispered compliments as he stops to steal a passing kiss

✦ He thinks it funny when guys try and flirt with you -- primarily because they don’t realize you’ll probably eat them alive. 

✧ As long as you’re smiling he’s cool, but let someone get handsy or not shut down their advances and Bishop’s stepping in

✦ Would literally kill someone with his bare hands if they hurt you 

✧ Don’t think that “harmless” flirting will be forgotten. Bishop’s got patience for days. You can’t tease him into cracking first so his payback is torture

✦ Bish is a natural born flirt -- homeboy is dripping in that natural born charisma that can diffuse most situations -- and the flirting does not stop once you start dating

✧ Pretty sure your permanent seat is his lap. He’ll drag you onto his lap, arm around your waist no matter what he’s doing

✦ This man is made of kisses for days. Whether it be a quick kiss to your cheek, forehead, or fingers. Or a stolen moment away from the club, kisses improve his mood 100000% 

✧ Typically seen with his arm draped around your shoulder, lips pressed against your temple or cheek

✦ When he feels guilty, for being too busy, he’s extra romantic. He’ll make dinner, pop up unannounced at your job when he’s got time to spare 

✧ "What do you want, Obispo?”

✦ “Just making sure you don’t run off on me,” he chuckles.

✧ You know those stories you read about where someone’s husband gave his wife flowers religiously every single week -- that’s some Obispo Losa type of shit

✦ May be a gentleman, but definitely rough in the bedroom -- 

✧ And in Templo -- you’ve lost count the number of times he’s taken you over that table or had you down on your knees

✦ Quickies. He’s a busy man, if he’s got time he’s not going to object to you pulling him away

✧ If you’re going to “accidentally” send a needy text while he’s working or you woke up thinking you’re gonna be sassy -- please know he’ll call you on your shit

✦ He has no problem having the room cleared & one of the guys relaying that “....he wants to see you.”

✧ His patience will outlast yours any day -- so get mouthy and try and cause a scene if you want --

✦ Most def leaves a kiss against the back of your hand every time he leaves you

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letters | j.b

pairings: jacob bae x reader, a few elements of younghoon x reader but only a bit genre: college au, strangers to lovers summary: in which jacob accidentally gives you a love letter meant for someone else word count: 3.9k requested: nope! i saw the picture i used for my header on the boyz’s twitter and it just screamed college au so here we are 𝚖𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝

“Are you sure a love letter is the right way to go?” Kevin asked Jacob, a brow raised in concern. “You don’t want to, I don’t know, get their number and just text them?” he suggested. Jacob shot him a pointed look, causing Kevin to raise both his hands in defence. “Just an idea,” the younger boy mumbled, stepping aside so Jacob could face the door.

It had been approximately two months since Jacob first saw his crush in his history class. After endless pining and staring, Kevin and Hyunjae encouraged him to confess to his crush, or at the very least speak to them. Jacob had been far too shy to do so, and instead decided to pour out his feelings into a lovely letter.

Said letter, written with the neatest handwriting Jacob could muster on sky blue paper, was now clasped in Jacob’s hands as he and Kevin stood outside his crush’s dorm. “Is this too much?” Jacob wondered. Kevin smiled, shaking his head. “Okay,” Jacob whispered, bending over and slipping the note under the door.

On the other side of the door, you were sitting at your desk and studying your vocabulary for your upcoming French midterm. Once the letter was completely out of Jacob’s sight, he stood back up again and let out a sigh of relief.

“Great,” Kevin patted his friend on the shoulder. “Now let’s get something to eat, I’m literally starving,” he exaggerated as the door next to yours opened.

Jacob’s mouth dropped open in shock as his crush exited the room next to yours, chatting with their roommate as the two trudged down the hallway past them. “That-“ Jacob stammered, pointing at his crush’s back. “That’s-“ The colour drained from Jacob’s face as he turned paler by the second.

Kevin seemed to have enough sense to realise what was happening as his hand came to cover his mouth, eyes widening in surprise behind his glasses. “You mean-“ he pointed at the door Jacob had slipped his letter under, then back at his crush walking away from them. “That isn’t-“ Jacob frantically shook his head, indicating that he had indeed put his letter under the wrong person’s door. “Oh gosh.”

After an hour of studying, you finally had enough as you closed your laptop and took ahold of your phone, texting Younghoon to see if he wanted to get some coffee with you. Your best friend had replied with a pleased affirmative, telling you that he would swing by your dorm so you could go to the campus coffee shop together before it closed.

As you did a visual sweep of your room to try and find your wallet, something blue caught your eye: a little blue envelope at the foot of your door. Someone must have slipped it under the crack at the bottom of your door while you were studying, since you hadn’t noticed it when you came back to your dorm. Curious, you got up to collect the little envelope and read what was on it.

To the one who makes my heart soar

You blinked. That was unexpected. Your brows furrowed together as you opened the envelope and read the letter that had carefully been placed inside.

You probably don’t know who I am, so let me introduce myself. My name is Jacob Bae. I’ve seen you in class for the past two months and I think you’re incredibly beautiful. I never considered myself to be somebody shallow who focuses only on looks, but something about you makes me want to gaze at you all day long. I’m sorry if that sounds weird. Your smile gives me butterflies when I see it. Sometimes I get jealous of whoever made it appear because I wish I was the cause for it. I want to get to know you better. I want to know what else makes you smile. You’re very extroverted and confident. I’m more on the shy side most of the time. I like when classes meet late at night because it means that I get to see you when I end my day. My heart beats faster when I’m near you. Sometimes you walk past me to get to your seat and I feel like I might stop breathing. I hope this didn’t make you uncomfortable.

You felt a little embarrassed once you had finished reading. It wasn’t just a note, it was a love letter. Dedicated to you. You had never received a love letter from anybody before, nonetheless somebody you weren’t even familiar with.

“Y/n!” Younghoon called, knocking eagerly on your door. You easily opened it, revealing your smiley best friend. “Ready to go?” he asked, holding out his hand for you to take.

“Almost,” you said. Instead of taking his hand, you held up the blue paper with a raised eyebrow. “How do you reject someone?”

Taking a sip of coffee at the table in the campus coffee shop, Younghoon was thrilled to listen to your recap. “Wait a second,” he interrupted your explanation. “Did you say his name was Jacob Bae?” he inquired. You nodded, showing him the letter as evidence. “I know him! He’s friends with Hyunjae and Juyeon,” Younghoon recalled, taking out his phone to show you a picture of him.

You observed the brunet in the Instagram post on Younghoon’s screen. At first glance you could tell that he was attractive. He had big eyes and a kind smile, and after a few moments of scrutinisation you discerned that you recognised Jacob Bae. The two of you shared a Sociology class together. The longer you studied the image, the longer Younghoon studied your expression. “You think he’s cute,” Younghoon stated.

Clearing your throat, you handed the phone back to him and avoided his eyes. You and Younghoon had been friends for so long that you could easily read each other’s expressions with eye contact alone. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” you denied. “You said he’s friends with Hyunjae and Juyeon?” Younghoon nodded, pocketing his phone. “I guess I know where to go to give him my response, then.”

Younghoon pouted, eyes rounded and lower lip pushed out. “Go easy on him, okay? He’s really nice. Like, really nice. I’m sure he just thought you were really pretty.”

You sighed. “I guess so. And as rare of an occasion as that is, I still can’t accept the confession of someone who I barely know,” you retorted.

“Hey,” Younghoon dropped the puppy face and frowned. “Don’t say that. You’re gorgeous,” he assured you, and by the tone of his voice and the look in his eyes you knew that he was being honest.

Locating Hyunjae and Juyeon in the dining hall was easy enough. The two of them sat with their friends at the same table for almost every single meal, and that evening was no exception. “They’re over there,” you pointed them out to Younghoon. Hyunjae was laughing so hard he was clutching the table in front of him for support at something a black-haired, glasses-wearing boy said to him.

“Hi guys,” Younghoon greeted when the two of you reached the table.

“Younghoon!” Hyunjae exclaimed happily. His eyes always shimmered when he was happy. “Y/n, take a seat you two,” he offered graciously, shuffling up the bench and making room for you both. “This is Kevin,” he introduced the black-haired boy opposite him. Kevin waved at you with a bright smile before giving his attention back to his lunch.

Younghoon and Hyunjae engaged in conversation about their math class, and your eyes flitted across the dining hall to see if you could catch sight of Jacob anywhere. Soon enough, he was making his way over to the table, eyes focused on his phone rather than the path his feet were leading him on. “Hey Jacob,” Kevin greeted his friend brightly.

Jacob looked up from his phone. “Hey Kevin,” he replied before meeting eyes with you.

It was the first time you had been face-to-face, and Jacob was momentarily startled by the new person that sat at his regular table. He stopped in his place, taking his time to take in your features, and could only come to one conclusion: you were absolutely stunning. Jacob was about to introduce himself when he caught sight of the blue envelope on your tray. His entire body froze, eyes wide and lips pursed slightly. Not only were you beautiful, you were the person he accidentally confessed to in a love letter meant for someone else. Confused, Kevin followed Jacob’s line of vision before finding the envelope.

You gave Jacob your best smile despite the fact that you felt like cringing. “Do you have a minute?” you wondered, gently picking the letter up. Wordlessly, Jacob nodded and followed you out of the dining hall, shooting Kevin a worried look behind you. Kevin only shrugged and mirrored his concerned expression. “So…” you trailed off once the two of you were alone.

“Um, you found my letter,” Jacob observed, clasping his hands together to keep him from fidgeting.

“Well, you did put it in my dorm,” you replied with a small laugh. “Um… I don’t really know you very well. And I’m really sorry but I can’t say that I reciprocate your feelings.”

The way you rejected him was so formal that Jacob almost laughed, but then he realised that he was being rejected and he felt his heart hurt a little. The confession wasn’t even for you, and yet you were still rejecting him. The thought made his stomach feel uneasy. “Oh,” was all Jacob could say, nodding his head. “Do you think I could have that back?” he wondered, pointing at the blue envelope. It would be the only thing that could lessen his embarrassment. You easily passed the letter over to him, not heavily attached to it despite the fact that it was the first love letter you ever received. “Thanks.”

“I guess having lunch together might be weird, so I can go somewhere else if you want,” you offered him. Jacob was touched by your thoughtfulness, and it was enough to make a small smile appear on his lips. Jacob was handsome, but you thought he was spectacular when he smiled.

“That’s okay,” Jacob refused your offer. “It’s just a letter.”

When the two of you returned to the table, Jacob realised why you were so gracious while rejecting his offer. The way your eyes lit up when you caught sight of Younghoon, how you easily slipped your hand into his after he opened your drink for you and procured a metal straw from his jacket pocket for you. How you admired Younghoon when he laughed, eyes shaped like crescent moons.

You liked Younghoon; you wouldn’t be waiting for any confession from Jacob or anybody else any time soon.

Not that Jacob could blame you. Younghoon was handsome in a way that made other guys jealous, and he was also goofy and kind. Plus, the two of you seemed to know each other like the back of your hands. The letter wasn’t even for you, it was meant for somebody else. So why couldn’t Jacob look away from you?

“How did that go?” Kevin asked as he and Jacob got up to put their trays away at the end of their meal.

Jacob shrugged, leading the way back to the dorms. “She said she didn’t feel the same. I asked for the letter back. She gave it to me.”

“That’s good, then,” Kevin concluded with a smile. “Sounds like it could have been a lot worse.”

Jacob hummed, a vague sound that didn’t indicate how he felt. “Do you know that guy she was with?”

“Younghoon?” Kevin asked. “Yeah, he’s close with Hyunjae and Juyeon so he’s around sometimes. Why do you ask?”

“Just curious,” Jacob hums. “He’s really handsome.”

Kevin chuckles. “Right? When he walks around campus with Hyunjae and Juyeon, everyone just stares at them as they pass. Lucky guys.”

“Yeah,” Jacob agreed. Younghoon was lucky. And not just because he was blessed with good looks. The image of you playfully feeding Younghoon a forkful of your lunch came to Jacob’s mind. “Really lucky.”

Kevin was hilarious. And he got along with you really well. This prompted you and Younghoon to start eating with Jacob and his group of friends at every chance you got. During one of the many dinners you had been spending with them, Younghoon hadn’t shown up at first. Jacob thought this might be his chance to speak to you more, but he decided against it out of embarrassment with the love letter situation.

“Where’s Younghoon?” Kevin asked, voicing Jacob’s thoughts.

You smiled. “I see him right over there,” you said, pulling a funny face by sticking your tongue out when your eyes met Younghoon’s across the room. Kevin giggled at your expression, and Jacob couldn’t help but think that you looked gorgeous when you were this carefree. Your hair had been styled away from your face, further exposing your features to Jacob’s affectionate eyes.

Kevin was saw the look on his friend’s face. Jacob had been observing you in a way that Kevin could only imagine him observing his crush. Hiding a smirk, Kevin decided against disturbing Jacob’s gaze and struck up a conversation with Juyeon.

“Hey, you,” Younghoon greeted you as he slid into the seat next to you. “Sorry I’m late. I brought you a gift,” he teased, placing a tiny green tea swiss roll slice from the convenience store.

Your eyes lit up and you took the packaged pastry. “You’re an angel, Kim Younghoon,” you told him. Younghoon giggled, rolling his eyes at your excitement before greeting the others. He seemed to take notice of Jacob persistently peering at you the same way Kevin had.

“Jacob, right?” Younghoon snapped Jacob out of his stare. The two met eyes and Younghoon offered him a friendly smile. “We’re the same age!” Younghoon told him. “We should be friends,” he added.

Jacob nodded, reminding himself to smile. Younghoon was friendly and considerate; it wasn’t his fault that he was blind to the fact that Y/n liked him as more than a friend. “Definitely,” Jacob accorded with a nod. Then, his eyes went back to you. “You like the green tea flavour?” he asked you.

You had already abandoned your dinner in favour of unpacking the swiss role slice, pausing to acknowledge Jacob. “It’s my favourite,” you said with a smile so pure it made Jacob blush.

“I like the green tea flavour too. But chocolate is my favourite,” Jacob replied.

“Younghoonie likes strawberry,” you informed. “With all three of us, we’re a perfect set,” you added happily, referring to how swiss roles came in single slices or in a set of three flavours. Then, recalling how Jacob said he liked it, you broke off some of your swiss role and handed it over to him. Blush intensifying, Jacob accepted the treat with a whisper of a thanks.

You and Jacob never spoke of the letter. It was something you had silently agreed upon, and it just made things easier for you both. Jacob had started sitting with you during your Sociology lecture. Jacob found that you were a little more shy in class, preferring to only participate when it came to clarifying questions that you needed help with rather than answering. The way your brows pulled together and lips pursed when you concentrated was adorable, and Jacob found himself paying more attention to you than your professor.

“Thank god it’s Friday and this mess is over,” you sighed happily. “You ready to go?” Jacob nodded, reaching for his bag before the two of you made your way to the dining hall. You had been giggling at Jacob’s impression of your boring professor when you noticed Younghoon waiting for you outside the dining hall. “Hey Younghoonie,” you greeted him.

Jacob frowned. Younghoon had been dressed in a pair of dark pants with a button up shirt and a nice tan-coloured coat. He looked like a runway model standing by the footsteps leading to the dining hall, and Jacob felt jealous. Not just about the way Younghoon looked, but the way he commanded attention with his height and posture as well. And he certainly had your attention.

Younghoon smiled. “Do you feel like eating out?” he offered with a slight tilt of his head. “My treat. I’m really in the mood for convenience store cup noodles,” he added.

It was impossible for you to not smile back at him. “Sounds good,” you agreed. “As long as it’s your treat.”

Suddenly, Jacob felt like he was intruding. “I’ll see you guys later,” he excused himself with a wave, walking up the steps towards the dining hall to leave you and Younghoon alone.

At the convenience store, you were picking out what noodles you wanted to eat when the colourful treats in the refrigerated section caught your eye. Scanning the shelves, you found what you were looking for and took a pack, happily making your way to the cashier where Younghoon was waiting for you.

His eyes surveyed the colourful packet and he rose an eyebrow. “I thought you only like the green tea flavour?” he asked, motioning to the trio packet of swiss rolls in your hand.

You nodded. “You like strawberry and Jacob likes chocolate,” you told him with a smile. Younghoon paused in place, surprised by your words. He knew that you and Jacob were becoming acquaintances due to your shared Sociology class, but he hadn’t expected you to go out of your way to buy him something. Shrugging, Younghoon passed your food to the cashier and paid for your food.

“Hey,” Kevin greeted you once you and Younghoon sat down at the table in the dining hall with your food. You had both decided it was too cold to sit outside the convenience store and eat, so you made your way back to the University instead. “Nice haul,” he added.

You smiled, greeting him back before taking out the swiss rolls in your pocket. “Here,” you said, taking out the small chocolate roll and offering the packaged treat to Jacob. Jacob simply stared at it. “You said you like chocolate,” you added when Jacob didn’t take it. Kevin raised his arm to cough, using it as an excuse to elbow Jacob on the way back down.

“Oh,” Jacob said, reaching out for the roll. “Thank you,” you didn’t miss the way his fingers brushed against your palm, and the way it tickled slightly. You didn’t mind, though. The slight brush of your hands made you bite your lower lip to suppress a smile, Jacob doing the same with flushed cheeks.

“You like Jacob. Don’t you?” Younghoon asked. During one of your study sessions, Younghoon had gone crazy trying to figure out your feelings. Usually, you were an open book to him. On this matter, you seemed to be closed off.

Startled at the abrupt question, you glanced up from your review packet. Younghoon’s eyes were always soft and comforting. This time, it had been too much for you. You sighed. “Why do you ask?” you inquired.

“Y/n,” Younghoon replied in a kind tone. “He already confessed to you. Why don’t you just tell him?” he wondered.

You bit your lip. “I didn’t like him when he confessed,” you retorted. “I liked someone else.”

And there it was.

Younghoon sighed, closing his eyes. His eyes were warm and comforting and felt like home. When he closed them, you feared for the worst. “Y/n,” he said slowly. “We can’t. You know we can’t.”

You knew what he was referring to.

The elephant in the room.

The mutual, romantic feelings you and Younghoon had for each other. Neither of you were blind to it. And yet, you had never addressed it. Partly because you were afraid of ruining your friendship, but mostly because you knew it would never work out. It simply wasn’t meant to. “I know,” you admitted. “But you’re right. I do like Jacob.”

Younghoon’s eyes opened. They were still warm and still felt like home, but filled with pain. When he smiled, it was genuine. “You should tell him,” he said quietly. “I can’t do this with you and you can’t do this with me. But you like Jacob and Jacob can barely speak when you’re around,” you smiled at his comment, having experienced rendering Jacob speechless a few times. Younghoon laughed. “And you have that look on your face whenever you think about him. So you should tell him.”

Your best friend’s encouragement was genuine.

So you took out a piece of binder paper and started writing.

Dear Jacob. By now, you know who I am because I’ve gotten to know you now. And I know who you are too. I also figured out that letter you sent wasn’t for me. That’s one of the reasons it was so easy to tell you I didn’t feel the same. Your letter described someone confident who you saw during night classes. You and I always sit together in our morning classes, and I don’t like to speak up in class. But you know that by now. And I don’t think it matters that your letter wasn’t for me. You still make me smile when I see you, and I love the way I make you blush. I love that you eat the leftover swiss roll because Younghoon and I don’t like the chocolate flavour. I like that you can say more with a single look than you can with an entire conversation. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I like you. And I hope I didn’t read this wrong because that would be really embarrassing. I hope you like me too.

Jacob couldn’t stop the smile from growing on his face as he read the letter that you had slipped into his bag during your Sociology lecture. Kevin was growing impatient. “What does it say?” he pleaded, desperately wanting to know what was making Jacob smile larger than Kevin had ever seen.

“It’s a love letter,” Jacob said, warmth spreading through his chest. “And I need to go,” he handed the letter over to Kevin – since his younger friend seemed to be dying of curiosity – and made his way to the dorms he knew you were staying in.

When he arrived at your dorm and knocked on the door, you looked happy to see him. You smiled. “Are you sure you have the right room?” you asked him. It was a little joke, but Jacob knew what you were really asking. Are you sure you like me back?

“I’m sure,” Jacob promised, stepping through the threshold of the door and tenderly placing one hand on your cheek and the other behind your neck. Grinning, you allowed him to pull you towards him, lips meeting in a gentle kiss. You brushed your lips against his, slowly at first, and then with a passion and zeal you didn’t know you possessed.

You pulled away for a moment, lips throbbing slightly. “Don’t think I’m not expecting a letter actually addressed to me because-“ Jacob laughed, connecting your lips to cut you off.

“I will write you as many letters and poems and songs as you want,” Jacob mumbled, lips grazing yours as he spoke. His eyes looked so much more bewitching up close, and you easily wound your arms around his waist in a hug.

“I’m holding you to that,” you insisted, leaning in for another kiss.

[nct-lian]

relationships outside of sm

JENNIE + LIAN: JENLI

so iconic omg like how they do it, i have no idea

they hang out all the time and lian is literally ALWAYS on jennie’s instagram

the two of them once had an instagram story conversation over pigtails

like,, jennie posted a picture of lian’s pigtails for that one bicycle performance on her story and captioned it “pigtail baby” and then lian reposted it on her own story with a picture of jennie’s pigtails, captioning it “pigtail eomma”

speaking of eomma, jennie is genuinely her mother

jennie takes her shopping all the time

and in return, lian buys her food

the interactions these two used to have at award shows were SO CUTE

everyone remembers when jennie pretty much yelled out lian’s name and she just came running over to the members of blackpink after taeyong let her leave :(

i’m crying just thinking about it help

jennie also posted a full on instagram post for lian on her birthday and had such a sweet caption with it

it was something like “my daughter is finally 21 today! i hope she has an amazing day and i can’t wait to see her later tonight to give her a gift :) haneullie, lots of love from jennie eomma”

SPEAKING OF THE GIFT,, jennie bought her a whole ass $9000 necklace from chanel because she knew that lian was looking for more

IM IN TEARS AND SO ARE YOU ADMIT IT RN

jenli kpop bestest duo

dispatch once thought jennie was on a date with a girl but it turned out to just be her walking lian home after going shopping with her so they never posted anything about it

they were embarrassed they got something wrong so i get it

omfg when news came out that lian and jinwoo broke up mama jennie was threatening to punch the shit out of him

KEVIN + LIAN: LIMOON

what i’ve been waiting to write for so long okay here we go

so mf chaotic like there are compilations made of these two that scream “go crazy go stupid”

their time as guest mc’s for inkigayo was probably some of the best kpop content we’d gotten in a long ass time

KEVIN IS CAUTIOUS WHEN LETTING HER MEET HIS MEMBERS

cause she’s such a good friend to him and wtf why would he wanna share

“mine mine mine mine” constant dory vibes 24/7

lian thrives off of calling him by his korean name because she knows it annoys him

he’s constantly teasing her for having bagged milk in toronto so he deserves it

the one time lian and jacob talked to each other they seemed to be getting along too much for kevin’s liking so he really went:

“okay lian isn’t it time for you to go” because he WAS GETTING JEALOUSJCLSJX

their styles are pretty much complete opposites and everytime they take pictures together kevin never forgets to mention how off it all looks

“tf is that why are your clothes so boring”

“okay sNaKe pAnTs” because of that one eric moment on kpop daebak show where he said kevin had pants with snakes on them

ALSO BTW LIANS CLOTHES ARENT FUCKING BORING SHES JUST FANCY LIKE THAT

i’m getting heated let me calm down.

they normally speak in english to each other but since lian seems to be stuttering over her words when she isn’t speaking korean, he mixes in a few korean phrases every now and then to help her out

kevin is arguably the most hype every single time lian performs, like he really thinks there isn’t anything better

LIAN MAKES SURE TO UPDATE HER INSTAGRAM STORY WHENEVER TBZ HAVE A COMEBACK SO NCTZENS GO SUPPORT THEM

LIA + LIAN: LILIA

more lian x the canadian line WOOHOO

lia spent her trainee days really looking up to lian and she’s even mentioned before that she’d love for itzy to get the chance to collab with her for a song

she really has her fingers crossed for that btw

they actually met during an award show when ryujin, chaeryeong and yuna all had to leave because it was past curfew

lian decided to sit next to them and during all the intermissions between performances she, lia and yeji conversed to pass time

they ended up growing a friendship together but lian has a stronger bond with lia

she loves all the girls either way but yk

lia and lian love going to cafes together and taking adorable pictures :(

like whenever lia posts on itzy’s instagram midzeys don’t exactly know whether or not lian would be on it too :0

like lian normally posts all the scenery pictures she gets to keep her instagram pleasing whereas lia posts the pictures the two of them take together

my heart </3

lian treats lia like a whole daughter because it isn’t often she finds girls that are younger than her

*screams in the fact that majority of sm’s female artists are all from 2015 and under*

like when i say lian SPOILS her i’m not joking

she will randomly call lia up like:

“hey i’m gonna get you out of that dungeon, come get some chicken with me”

and then they’ll just hang out together

but only if lian is out of the dungeon herself because wbk she ain’t treated very well </3

EUNWOO + LIAN: WOOLI

their chemistry is fucking insane holy shit

like their acting for past to present was seriously so praised, netizens found it hard to believe it was all just for the show

dating rumours follow these two everywhere,, like everywhere

it’s one of the most popular ships inside ncity when it comes to lian and other idols

i kid you not one tweet said “chanhyeok treated jihye so well in past to present, i’m only wondering how well eunwoo would treat lian 👀”

LIKE STOP PUTTING IDEAS INTO PEOPLES HEADS YOURE KILING ME HERE ISTG

but yeah they do look really good together

and they’re an amazing pair for acting

when eunwoo started working with inyeop for true beauty, he said:

“hyung’s dating my girlfriend” because of the fact that both of them have acted with lian and BOTH of them dated her in the dramas

what a coincidence though

we all cried when we saw chanhyeok and jihye kiss for the first time DONT LIE

EUNWOO FOLLOWS HER ON INSTAGRAM

and they wished each other happy birthday on their instagram stories

there’s actually people who like to think that they dated while filming for past to present andddd they radiate big delulu vibes

like you know liskook shippers? wooli shipped are kinda the same, but not as intense (thank god)

BUT CAN WE BLAME THEM LIKE THEIR CHEMISTRY? THE WAY THEY TALKED TO EACH OTHER? PLEASE

they took a lot of cute pictures together behind the scenes (ノ﹏ヽ)

MOMO + LIAN: LIMO

DANCER DUO DANCER DUO

this ship isn’t actually as popular as we would like it to be, but nonetheless people love limo

a lot of interactions during award shows !!

like for example momo’s fancams always captured her dancing perfectly to lian’s choreo

and lian smiling in momo’s direction

i love them

when lian found out about heechul and momo’s relationship, she asked momo if she was her mom now because of how much of a father figure she considers heechul to be JDFJK

“i mean sure”

they’ve actually done a vlive together before (ᗒᗨᗕ)

it was when lian visited her at the twice dorms and they ended up getting bored so they decided to do a vlive in the living room

THEY PLAYED DARE OR DARE AND LIAN HAD TO DO THE TEARS CHALLENGE (so chan whee) ON MOMOS KARAOKE MACHINE

her throat was dry for the rest of the night

after seeing momo’s hair for the i can’t stop me era, lian actually wanted to cut it like that

but she decided against it because she loves her long hair too much

the two of them met on hit the stage where they competed against each other in a freestyle dance battle

after that they just started casually talking over the phone and became great friends

with the way momo talks about lian, you’d think they’re dating-

“oh, lian- she’s so pretty! i love her a lot!”

and the same goes for lian, she loves talking about momo’s dancing skills

JACKSON + LIAN: JACKLIAN

her dad :/

adopted her with amber liu like a year ago so now she’s just his daughter

supports each other like crazy not even joking

jackson promotes her on instagram and twitter 24/7

THEY HAVE SO MANY INTERACTIONS THANK GOD

lian was once given a ridiculously short dress while attending an award show and jackson gave her his jacket to wear over her legs because she wasn’t provided a blanket :(

(keep in mind, she went there without the members!)

lian added all his music to her playlist :)

once got drunk together and spent like three hours doing karaoke but it’s okay cause it was fun

speaking of getting drunk, jackson’s the cool dad that lets her do whatever she wants

he has his protective moments where he’s like “ma’am where are you going on that short of a dress” but he’s also like “hey wanna go get chicken and soju”

they both appeared on a radio show together as guests and they ruined the whole broadcast because they were too loud

like they kept getting out of their seats to go wave at all the fans outside the window and they were just fighting back and forth about whether or not lian’s extensions look real

according to jackson, they’re “NOT AUTHENTIC ENOUGH- LOVE YOUR HAIR FOR WHAT IT IS, LIANNA HANEUL BAE.” lian’s hair lives matter :/

PLSSS WHEN HYOSEOP AND LIAN STARTED DATING- no

jackson was so proud that his good friend was smooching his other good friend but the protective dad instincts really kicked in

“break her heart and you die no cap”

was surprisingly chill when they broke up though, he was just glad lian didn’t cry

SUNMI + LIAN: SUNLI

SUNMI IS HER MOM OHMYGOD

so many interactions

honestly took lian under wing once she debuted as a soloist

female kpop soloists gotta have each other’s backs in this industry man :(

sunmi calls lian her princess SOBS

lian always hugs sunmi at award shows, like if they’re sitting close together

or if they’re standing next to each other on stage

you bet your ass lian is gripping onto sunmi for dear life

did a photoshoot together for marie claire korea

they’re so hot bro

BUT THEY FIRST MET ON WEEKLY IDOL NOT LONG AFTER LIAN DEBUTED AS A SOLOIST

they were kinda awkward ngl uh

but by the end of it they were besties :DD

and they’ve been besties ever since

lian is the ceo of doing dance covers for sunmi’s songs

cmon lian we’re waiting for tail 👀

sunmi has actually met lian’s grandma </3

like her and lian were hanging out at the dorms while the boys were out on a schedule and her grandma just randomly showed up with homemade food so that was definitely a win

BANG CHAN + LIAN: LICHAN

they’ve been friends for a LOOONGGG time

and chain’s known her since dating back to like, smrookies era when lian was still a red velvet member

like at that time she had no idea he existed, but he was keeping up with her daily :(

chan plays her music on vlives all the time and he always knows the dance moves

like he just dances along in his chair and mumbles the lyrics

we love to see it

a lot of fans ship them together

SURPRISE SURPRSIE AH

only because chan gives off big pining energy

lian only looks at him like “:D” whereas he looks at her like “♡•♡”

kinda sad but

lian promotes him on live so often HVKSVU

“my friend chan is coming back with his group soon, you should check it out! :)”

and the way she just says “my friend chan” LIKE ITS SO OBVIOUSLY A FRIENDZONE BUT HE THINKS ITS ADORABLE

he once got a comment on a vlive to react to lian moments, obviously complying because who wouldn’t

there was this one clip of her saying “my friend chan from stay kids!” and whoever edited the compilation added in squishy noises right after while zooming in on her face

AND CHAN BLUSHED SO HARD NOO

“oh- hahaha, uhh, she’s so cute aw hahahah”

ASHLEY + LIAN: ASHLI

oh god not another lian x mom ship

ASHLEY LOVES LIAN WOAH

like she’s submitted lian’s resume to bm so many times so they could be part of the big tiddie committee together

ashley is constantly, and i mean constantly, reposting all of lian’s posts on her story with captions like “LOOK AT HER GO”

and lian has even discovered all the cool instagram filters because of ashley, and now we get the quality content from her that WE DESERVEEEEE

back when lian’s album came out, all ashley’s story really was was just screenshots of her streaming all the songs and calling them bops

when they first met in person after texting back in forth, ashley spammed her instagram story with pictures of lian that she took without her looking

these two radiate a lot of “YES GIRL WORKKK ITTT TURN THIS WAY OKAYYY POSE POSE POSE” energy

lian’s been featured in one of ashley’s youtube videos and it was when they met for the first time :)

they exchange a lot of gifts through the mail

like lian once found a mug when shopping with doyoung and she thought that it would fit ashley’s taste so she sent it to her apartment

and ever since then they just send random little gifts to each other’s houses

it’s so cute

MATCHING BUCKET HATS THEY HAVE MATCHING BUCKET HATS !!!!!!

ashley talks about lian all the time

she always says that for someone so young, she’s accomplished a lot and she’s really proud of her

they wanna do tiktoks with each other but they never have the time </3

lian spam comments on ashley’s instagram like “WOAH” “OKAYYYY” “YESYESYES”

[tetsustation]

APPRECIATION POST !!

in another words, lina loves her friends a little too much & doesn’t necessarily know the right means of expressing it </3

cass [ @misutv ] — uh im in a sappy mood so if you’re not rockin with the sap please scroll! epic, okay. hi... lol hey. thanks for pushing me to do this. now i know you know that i love you, with my chest! from when we first started talking to all these months later, that feeling hasn’t changed (even though you took two months ALLEGEDLY to warm up). i think our friendship is unique in the sense that i really never expect anything from you, when we’re on the phone or texting it feels natural and when i think of you my first thought is that i want whats best for you. isn’t that crazy? i don’t think i say it enough, but i care a lot about you—about all of you, whatever your feeling at any given moment or whatever project you chose to pursue at the time just know i’m there to back it and never expect anything from you, besides just that—you. i hope this is making some sense, knowing me this might be a bit of a mess, a ramble even. still, i think your exceptional—inside out, i’m really glad to be your best friend even if its just through some silly little app. i appreciate everything you do for me, even if i’m shit at saying so, because its baffling that you feel so inclined to dedicate some time in your day to me—i could melt i think. fair warning, i’m gonna crush your lungs at the airport. all my love loser >:)

hesther [ @hesthermay ] — how many months has it been now? hesther, you are such a solid constant in my life and i literally cannot thank you enough. from our strangely comparative music taste to the oldest sister bonding, i really feel like your the one person i can really resonate with that i haven’t met in person (yet). even if it’s weird to say, i love reading your marvel drabbles and personal pieces because it’s oddly intimate in personal in a way that implies a lot of trust. i know i can rely on you if i need anything, and vice versa. every week i pull you into my world, and the next week you pull me into yours—it’s an entertaining constant that remains me i’m not alone in my silly little struggles. i’m really glad i met you, and i’m so grateful i get to call you my friends (and i get butterflies when you call me butterfly). not to be gross but please don’t stop being you, it makes me smile, thanks hes <3 love you. 

selene [ @hajigumi ] — hey whore (lovingly). we’re coming onto two months now and it doesn’t really feel like it but i guess i’ll take it. honestly, it feels like we’ve known each other for a really long time—maybe its the same timezone thing but you just feel so familiar. i get a little skippy when you tell me that i’m stuck with you because i really love being your friend, its such a comforting experience and i’ve grown such a fondness for you i don’t think will fade. you suck, frankly, for being so welcoming. i love hearing about your day, boring or not—and i’m grateful your always willing to be about mine. despite what anyone says, your a great cat mom and an even better friend... giggles... love you mwah.  

ly [ @kyotarou ] — i almost typed out the govt name help... babe i love you so much. it’s impressive how you put your heart into everything you do, and it’s really shocking to me when you yourself don’t realize just how much of yourself you put into the things you do. just today when you were making those little polaroids, the dedication that you had to finish them and package them all pretty was truly heartwarming. that, among many other things—including your work which is always quality despite the seemingly mass production of it. i know your younger than me, but i aspire to be like you in that respect. your wit never ceases to amaze me and i think you were one of the first people i felt comfortable thirsting with because our taste is so similar (daishou fucker solidarity i think). i have such a strong appreciation for you as a friend and i hope it stays like that for a long time. 

angela [ @oikirstein ] — i think i’m gonna take a step in the right direction and try to be civil (kidding) but bestie when you’re sending audio messages of you scream sobbing about manhwa i can’t help but giggle. something that drew me into you was your humor, because honestly, i couldn’t help but feel really comfortable with you? even one on one, its just easy to talk with you because theres always so much on your mind—so much so that it’d be impossible to be bored. NO YOU KNOW WHAT SIDETRACKING BECAUSE YOU JUST CALLED ME THE EVIL TWIN UM. angela please never change, i don’t think i could bare it. i tolerate (love) you... ig....stay swag. 

violetta [ @hikariakaashi ] — once again i am tempted to pull out the govt name HELP. that’s just how comfortable we are with each other, i think. you were one of the first people to interact with me on hq tumblr, so far back that you probably remember my red/black alyssa layout lol—but thats really shocking to me because our friendship has grown so much sense then. it makes me giggle to think that i can just text you about stupid stuff and you’d tolerate it. you’re another person i feel as though i know in real life, its just so easy talking to each other, and my only hope is that we get even closer. mwah mwah!

rissie [ @levbug ] —rissie rissie rissie! i don’t care how much we slander and tease you, i love you to bits. please because you’re so funny and easy to talk to i feel like we’re besties. i could listen to you ramble for like an hour i just wanna hug you bae, thank you for being the only armin lover in the room—it makes me feel very seen. we gotta stick together >:)

rheya [ @diorpieck ] — hey rheya twirls hair...i really have a lot to thank you for because without hq radio i wouldn’t have met over half the people on this list and it baffles me how close we’ve become since. you are such a natural leader and i feel so honored i get to talk to you (the fact that you handle me is just as surprising). thanks for looking out for me and everyone else, because i don’t think we’d be where we are without you. thank you :>

jade [ @iwaizoom ] — jade i honestly do not know how to say this but apparently i’ve followed you since like last july (this is news to me too) and i’ll spare you the speech—but in short there was some fan behavior. i truly love talking to you, its so smooth and your energy is beyond welcoming. laughing at stupid shit with you makes me giggle like crazy and i’m so glad i get to call you a friend. stay in school mwah!

issy [ @cafemiya ] — hey pissie <3 i don’t know what it is but your presence is so comforting i love just talking to you, being around you, interacting—it feels like spring if that makes sense. you’ve written a lot of my comfort fics on this hellsite and for that i am permanently indebted to you. please consider this the start of my reparations and just know your existence in and of itself makes me all bubbly (lovingly) KISS! 

nayru [ @luvoratomi ] — i feel like we’ve known each other forever even though it’s only been a few months. still, you’re so consistent which is something i really admire about you, your messages to ask me about my day or hanging out in the discord is so grounding because i know i can count on you—which sounds silly but just know despite the teasing i love you a lot <3

cal [ @lovekags ] — don’t tell anyone but you’re my favorite epic gamer cal, i know we just started getting close but you’re so incredibly cool and talking to you feels so natural! your raw skill in so many different areas is baffling to me and makes me all blushy lol, thanks for rockin with me and i can’t wait to see how that powerpoint turns out >:)!!  

[electronictimetravelmoose]

Five-maggedon

Warnings: angst, mention of suicide, lost of love one, apocalypse, mention of killing, gaslighting

Word Count: ~5.5k

Summary: What should have been a normal trip to the store ends with landing in an apocalyptic wasteland with a boy you never saw before.

Pairing: Five Hargreeves x Reader

Requested by my lovely Honey aka my wife @satans-bae-and-queen 

A/N: Okay so my wife and I were at this for a while, if it looks shit I am very sorry. Fuck this.

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This wasn’t exactly how you thought your day would pan out.

Everything was ordinary when you stood up that morning. Your mom woke you and your younger brother at seven o’clock for breakfast, which went quietly and uneventful. Your father left for work at exactly 7:45 am as he always does, your brother was sitting in his room playing with the many toys he had and you started to study for school. But that got cut short when your mother asked you to get something from the store for her. It was the norm to send you when she was busy. Absolutely normal.

You changed out of your pyjamas into a pair of jeans and a sweater and soon you were out in the cold with additional boots and a coat. You were wandering down the snowy streets skipping a few steps once in a while on your trip to the store when it happened.

A boy the same age as you was wandering down that exact same street as well but not in the same time as you. Well not in that moment. 

Five was making his second jump from a sunny summer day to a snowy winter day. He was ecstatic from his own powers to jump through time so easily which only fueled his ego more. Five wanted to make another jump, a much bigger jump to prove to himself and his family that he could. He wanted to see how far he can get and rub it under his father's nose to show him that he didn’t need more time or training to do so. Five knew and saw that he was ready and capable of challenging this new ability. So Five started to concentrate when...

You swore that this boy dressed in a weirdly looking school uniform wasn’t there a second before but it didn’t make much of a difference now because when you collided with him everything around you started to turn and get blurry before you landed on the floor. 

“Shit.” , you groaned out in pain before you opened your eyes.

Shock washed over you as you took in your surroundings, your pain instantly subsided at your new view and panic kicked in. This wasn’t the street you were on a second ago, or that’s at least what you thought, because everything around you was in ruins. Everywhere you looked there was nothing left but the last remains of the buildings that once stood at their places. Things were burning and nobody seemed to be there besides you and that boy. Who was, by the look on his face, just as scared and full of panic as you were. 

The boy's name, who you can thank for landing in this mess with, was Five. He was part of The Umbrella Academy which you had heard of in the news. Kids, all born on the same day, with different superpowers who fight crime and save the day. Almost sounded like a bliss. His powers, as he told you, were jumping through space and now time as well and oh boy how he has proven that. He apologized for bringing you accidently with him and promised he would get you back home as soon as his powers would work again. You couldn’t do anything else but believe him for the time being and hope that he kept his promise in the end.

Time went on and you started telling him about you as well, only finding it fair as he told you quite a lot about himself and explaining how exactly his powers work. To the surprise of both of you there was a lot in common between you. You were both thirteen years old with only a few weeks in between, always learning and seeking to be the smartest in the room, the competitiveness you held and the both of you always having to adapt to new situations. 

Five in his training and struggling to be on his father’s good side at all times and you for attempting to fit in with your adoptive family, in school and overall life in general. And that was also something you had in common, being adopted.

A few days turned into a few weeks, then into a few months and suddenly a year has gone by.

You and Five were still stuck in the apocalyptic future with no sign in the progress of bringing you two back home. You still haven’t given up hope that maybe one day he would bring you back, but that hope was minimizing itself by the day. 

Were you angry about it? No. Maybe slightly disappointed but you thought that this all might have been faith bringing you here with Five.

It started a while ago that you noticed how close you and your companion had gotten and how deeply you felt about that boy. It made it hard for you to be around him which was only worsened by the questions and thoughts in your head. 

Was it because we two were the only ones alive, trapped together with no way to escape and no one else to talk to? Or did I really started to fall for that boy who always tried to keep me safe and us both alive? Who cheers me up when I am sad and helps me when everything gets too much…

Five was going through the same dilemma as you but with much more denial involved.

He couldn’t be in love with you! His mind was just playing weird and sickening tricks on him and his body was just starting to hit puberty. Yes that was probably it, puberty and his hormones playing crazy and his mind playing into it all with the idea of feelings but still… Everytime Five would look at you his heart would skip a beat and his stomach would start to perform the most ridiculous gymnastic moves known to mankind. It was baffling. 

To sum it up, Five went through all five stages of grief in that year with denial taking the most of his time. But when it started to subside anger took over. That anger was not directed at you but at himself and he started to bargain with himself. How could I be so careless and trap her with me in this hell on earth?! I was naive and stupid for thinking I could do this without proper practise and calculating the dangers of it and now she is stuck here with me and it is all my fault. I can’t let her live through this hell with me. I need to get her back even if it meant that I might lose her.

Then it seemed that the depressive aspects of the whole situation hit him and it hit him like a fucking train. I'm stuck here with a girl that probably hates me and is rightfully to do so. She had no choice but to get dragged into this mess with me and the only thing I can do to make it up is to keep her safe and bring her back someday. But she will also never feel the same for me will she? She will never reciprocate my feelings for her because of what I did. I want her to feel loved and keep her safe without it having to be a way to make it up. I want to show her all the time how much I care about her even when this is over.

...and finally the acceptance kicked in. Acceptance that he wouldn’t be able to bring them back in the near future, that she probably hated him but still stuck around to not be alone and that he was in love with his companion. Five knew he could live with that but the question was for how long until he would break.

But it wasn’t really the question when he would break but rather who of you two would break first… And it was you.

You and Five had found a house that was still intact enough to stay in for a while as it was that time of the year when it grew colder again. You had set your camp in the house a few days ago and it was now the fourth night there. In the living room was a chimney which allowed you to lit a fire and give some much needed warmth to the two of you. Both of you were sitting in front of it in a rather comfortable silence when those thoughts started to creep back into your mind and you couldn’t hold yourself back anymore.

“Five?” , his name bursted out of your mouth. Oh this will get weird.

Five looked over to you with a concerned and questioning look on his face. “What’s wrong (Y/N)?”

“Nothing really, I just… I need to tell you something and it will probably get really awkward between us afterwards…”

Both you and Five were afraid in that moment. You because you were about to tell him what your true emotion towards him were and Five because he was afraid what your next words might be. 

It was silent for a moment before Five swallowed the lump in his throat, that has seemingly formed itself out of nowhere, and spoke again.

“Well, go on then.” 

A sigh, a deep breath, you can do this. 

“Fives I have been thinking about everything that happened over the past year quite a lot lately and not only that but also what has happened between us…” 

All the color was simply drained from Five’s face in that moment. Where you finally going to tell him that you hated him and that you just wanted this ordeal with him to be over? Five didn’t knew what or if he could even respond to your next words. 

“...I think that this has all been one hell of a rollercoaster of events but I want you to know that I am not mad at you and that I don’t hate you in any way. It’s somewhat of the opposite actually, I ehm… I really like you Five. Probably more than just liking you.”

Silence. 

That’s all what came next, pain-staking and excruciating silence. Five just looked utterly and completely shocked at you which made anxiety creep up into your system and fill your body with uneasiness. Was it the wrong thing to say? Does he even feel the same? God did you make it awkward between the two of you now? 

If you weren’t so anxious, you could literally hear the wheels in Five’s head rattling at lightning speed, processing what you just said to him. It was like a miracle... After all what happened you didn’t hated him! You liked him! And according to your words more than just liking. So when you heard his next words you were just as shocked as he was before.

“I am in love with you, (Y/N).” Wait what?

Your mouth fell open in shock with a loss of words following it. That was not what you expected, god not at all! How could this be real? But then again everything that happened in the last year was absolutely surreal in your eyes so you didn’t questioned it. 

You attempted to answer him but your responds just wouldn’t come out of your damn mouth.

Five, who noticed the attempts and your upbuilding frustration, began to speak again with slightly tinted cheeks. “Can… Can I kiss you?”

Did Five anticipated to bring it out as confident as possible? Yes. Did he succeed? Absolutely not. It sounded more like a scared schoolboy trying to talk to his crush, which it kinda was if we are being honest here, but nonetheless it was out now.

You were baffled by his request and suddenly your voice was fully cut off. The only respond you could give was a small nod and a slight lean towards him. Getting your drift Five slowly leaned in towards you as well. It felt like an eternity before your lips finally collided.

None of you had kissed anyone before so ideas on what might come next were flooding your thoughts. 

Five was the first to start moving a bit into the kiss and when he felt that you were doing the same, the movements of the both of you became natural and grew stronger. The kiss turned sloppy and wet in a span of only half a minute before you both needed to part to take in some needed air.

You gazed into each other's eyes for mere seconds before laughter erupted from both of you.

“God that was so gross, but kind of awesome.” You laughed out.

“I know.” , Five said while grinning at you, “Want to do it again?” 

“Hell yes!”

Years pass by and you and Five change. You both not only grow older and more maturer but you also grow closer together. The time you spend together also came with a lot of obstacles. Of course it’s hard only having the other to really talk to and confined in so the arguments and fights didn’t take long to come.

Both of you were screaming at the top of your lungs again, no one really knowing how it even started anymore but sure to let out all your frustration that bottled up inside with it. These disputes were happening quite often lately, coming right out of the blue with no real reason behind it. Was it maddening that you didn’t seem to be able to talk normally with each other anymore? Yes, but that wasn’t a reason for a screaming match and you weren’t in the mood for dealing with it.

“I need a break!” , you exclaimed. You finally reached your breaking point after almost two hours of screaming in the face of your significant other. Again.

On your way away form Five you grabbed your field flask to take with you. Your throat was literally murdering you for what you put it through, again. Sometimes it seemed hopeless to try and talk reasonable with him.

Five didn’t even try to stop you from leaving because he himself knew that you both had to let off some steam so you were able to talk to each other again and apologize. It still hurted him tho, seeing you leave like that but he knew you would come back. You always came back. Which Five was thankful for even when he questioned why you would come back to him. He was cynical, an egomaniac and he always wanted to be right... But that was just how love worked for you. You fight, you talk, you forgive, you make it work because he was the love of your life and you were his.

But when you didn’t came back that night he knew he fucked up. 

God if that would have been the worst part to come...

It’s been a week since the fight Five had with you and you weren’t back yet. He had started searched through the nearby area the day after you went missing and after another two days he wandered further out but he found absolutely nothing. No trace of where you went besides the field flask you had taken with you from which only a few sips had been drunk. 

Five thought he was going insane not knowing where you were and if something had happened to you. Suddenly everything he cared about for the last 45 years, give or take some, was gone. Vanished from the face of the earth. He knew now the he shouldn’t have let you leave his sight but nothing happened the times before so who would have thought anything would turn out different this time.

Five had been talking with himself, trying to figure out a way to find you which only ended in despair but he would never give up on finding you. You were the most important thing to him in life and without you by his side there wasn’t much life in him left. But everything got worse when she showed up.

Five was contemplating his next steps when he heard rubbles that were being shuffled around, most likely made by someone walking on them. Since you had ended up there he was always on guard for the worst to come get you two, much to your dismay sometimes, so as of now his first instinct was to draw his rifle and point it in the direction of the disturbance. 

There a tall woman stood with bright blond hair, dressed in a black leather coat, sunglasses and a small weird looking hat. In her right hand she held a briefcase and with the left she waved at him. Who the hell was this woman?

“Who the hell are you?!” , Five screamed at the lady.

“I’m here to help.” , she answered him and climbed down the rubble to be on his level. 

“Tell me or I shot a bullet through your head right now!”

She ignored his outburst and continued talking. “Because” , she put the briefcase down and took her sunglasses off, “if you wouldn’t hear the offer I’m about to make you and you wouldn’t know what happened to your precious wife, which would be rather tragic giving your current circumstances.” She sat down on an high enough piece of debris and crossed her legs.

Five slightly lowered his weapon but still kept it pointed towards his opponent. He was shocked but stayed quiet as he wanted to know what happened to his (Y/N) and what this woman’s sudden appearance was really about. 

“As I have your full attention now… I am the Handler, I work for an organisation called The Commision. We are tasked with the preservation of the time continuum through manipulation and removals.”

“I don’t understand…” Five truly didn’t understand the meaning of this and the point behind her suddenly being here and telling him this. 

“You see, sometimes people… make choices that alter time. Free will don’t get me started. When that happens we dispatch one of our agents to eliminate the threat.”

Five raisedhis rifle fully at her again which made her chuckle. 

“No, no, no, no. You misunderstand me. You are not a target. You are a recruit. I’ve come to offer you a job, Number Five. We had our eye on you for quite some time… But only on you. But it was worth the time and we think you have a lot of potential. Your survival skills made you quite a celebrity back at headquarters. That and your ability to jump through time.” 

The lady in black took a drag from her cigarette while looking at him, waiting for a reaction.

Five’s mind couldn’t continue functioning and was stuck on four particular words the Handler had said. But only on you… 

“What did you do to her?! What did you do to (Y/N)?!”

She chuckled again and Five swore if one more chuckle or wrong word would come out of her mouth he’d put that bullet right between her eyes. He gritted his teeth while waiting for an answer.

“We did absolutely nothing, Number Five, it was all you.” All him? “You see after the little fight the two of you had she wandered around and lost track of her surroundings. She wanted to climb on top of a ruin to use the view from on top for directions but then it collapsed and buried her right underneath.” 

Could it really be? Five remembered that the night you didn’t came back something collapsed near your base. Was it a building perhaps? Wouldn’t have been the first time he would see or hear it. From the volume of the crash he presumed it was a few miles away but could you really have walked that far? Would you have walked that far when being mad at him? It was possible, after all you never really were the most careful one when it came to the danger of your surroundings. 

“You are saying that I… That I caused it?” 

The usual confident and mature tone of Five’s voice sounded like that of a child again, seeing and feeling the consequences of what he does for the first time. 

The woman nodded and took another drag from her cigarette. “I am giving you the opportunity to leave this place. Actually leave it. Even if it’s without your precious (Y/N). I’m sure she would want you to take this chance after being stuck for so long.”

She knew that her manipulation had worked. There was something you could see in his eyes. The desperation, the longing for his wife, the pain of losing her. You could see how he broke on the inside and that is exactly what she wanted. 

“I could actually leave here? Go… Go back?” But without you? 

Five stuttered out, too overwhelmed with the whole situation.

“In return for five years of service. Once your contract is done, you can retire to the time and place of your choosing with a pension plan to boot.”

But was that what Five really wanted? Being an assassin for some shady time agency and living without his wife?

“If you can alter time why not stop all of this from ever happening? If you can really do that then bring my (Y/N) back.”

“That’s quite impossible, I’m afraid. You see, all of this, it was supposed to happen. The apocalypse was supposed to happen. Your wife was supposed to die. It’s the order of things. I needed to wait until now to make you this offer because of her.”

“That’s insane. The end of everything? The death of my wife?” Five couldn’t believe what this woman was telling him and he sure as hell didn’t wanted to just take the death of (Y/N).

“Not the end of everything. Just the end of… some things. So...” , she made a small pause and sticks her hand out in Five’s direction, “...do we have an agreement?”

Five scoffs but thinks about it for a moment. His gun was already lowered and he looked around. He had spend so much time here but there was nothing left here he could hold onto with the love of his life dead under some ruins of old things that once were. Could he really just leave this place that easily, without you by his side? Would it be worth it? He knew you would have wanted him to take this chance.

He turned towards the woman again with his decision in mind…

You didn’t know what had happened or how you landed in this situation but it was maniacal and excruciating. You had woken up on a bed in a completely white room with no recollection of what had happened besides the fight with Five and that you had stormed off, mad at your partner and done with the whole situation regarding his ego. 

That was a long while ago in your eyes, probably have been two years at this point. Even if this time wasn’t as long as the time you had spent stuck in the apocalypse with Five was, it felt like an even longer time when the love of your life was missing from it.

They never told you what happened to him or why they had gotten you, only making you the offer that if you worked for them you would be allowed to leave to a place and time of your choosing. You hadn’t had much of a choice and took it as an opportunity to maybe one day be able to see life again. See Five again.

But the hole that Five left in you could never be filled again. He made an imprint on your soul and losing him without knowing what had happened drove you insane. Why wouldn’t they tell you? Why would they keep it to themselves?

 Sometimes at night you could still hear his voice ringing in your ears and see his face right before your inner eye. He was so close but you could never grasp onto him, it was torture. In those moments you couldn’t hold your emotions in anymore. Your whole body would start to tremble and the tears would flow like the niagara falls down your cheeks. You would scream your lungs out in agony and would always repeat the same thing. Why?! Why him?! 

All of this pain, sadness and absolute rage that was building up in you made you into a ticking time bomb, and the Commission knew that. Having you in this state of mind, in this state of despair and willingness to do anything could come in handy for special missions… And they didn’t have to wait long for that special occasion to come…

Five spent the last two years assassinating people and putting the time continuum back on track when it was disturbed. Letting this new found work consume him was the only way for him to even deal in the slightest with your death. It still felt like yesterday that he lost you and had to hear it was his fault. 

In moments were he doubted himself and what he was doing was morally correct he heard your voice in his head. Sometimes it were the fights that would start re-playing, when you both were screaming at the top of your lungs, voices filled with annoyance, anger and frustration directed at one another. Those were the hardest memories to re-live because the last time he spoke to you was after one of those god awful fights. He still remembered how your face was distorted by anger and sadness and oh how he wished he had the chance to apologize to you and make it right again…

Other times, rarer times, Five remembered the soft and tender moments with you. The once were you both were happy and would smile, laugh and were everything seemed to be alright. Oh how he loved your smile and your beautiful laugh. It was like art in his eyes and music to his ears. What a beautiful symphony... Nothing he had every experienced could compare to this. To you...

And he missed it, more than he could have ever imagined. The only thing he would feel was pain, neverending pain, and he let it out with anger and resentment towards the people who had saved him. According to Five’s opinion he shouldn’t have been given this opportunity, shouldn’t have been saved. You were the one supposed to be saved! You were the casualty of his wrong-doings! He should have died there in solitude for being the cause of your death.

But Five knew that there was a way to prevent this, to prevent everything that is going to happen and that already happened. To prevent you from seeing your untimely death… He needed to get back to the time before the apocalypse even happened and stop it from ever starting. Five was well aware of the fact that the possibility of you two never getting together was in the room when he went through with stopping it. The time continuum was a very complex thing and would get distorted very easily, you two would probably never be stuck together or even meet, but Five didn’t care. As long as you were alive and well he was ok with everything… You were his world and if it meant giving you up so you would be alright, he would do it in a heartbeat… 

There stood an old man at a fence with a rifle in his hand. This man had a mission and this mission was to kill the current president John F. Kennedy on the 22nd of November 1963 at exact 12:30pm. The target would ride in a presidential motorcade through Dealey Plaza in Dallas, Texas. 

This mission was an easy one for the trained man, or it should have been. The man knew that this would be the right time to start his plan, his plan in getting to the time before the apocalypse would begin and avert it. His employers never realized that he was just biding his time since the beginning and try to figure out the right equation for his jump… And finally he did.

So at last he broke his contract with them and started to concentrate in challenging his powers to travel through time once again. God when was the last time he used them? 

Loud whooshing noises appeared and his hands started to glow blue and produce an electric bluefield. A portal started to build up in front of him and he knew if he was able to get through it he could save all of them, save her.

The man made his first step and tried with all his power to force himself through…

Saint Petersburg, 25th of July 1904. 

This was supposed to be the last mission for the woman, she had never done anything like this before and she knew very well that they took her to do this mission because of her inexperience. But she didn’t care.

The target was the director of Imperial Russia’s police and later Minister of the Interior. His name was Vyacheslav Konstantinovich von Plehve and the reason for the Commission to kill him was that he seemed to always find a way to survive. He already managed to dodge three attacks and for the Commission it just was two too many times. It needed to be done for the sake of the future so here she was.

Everything was staged so it would look like the Socialist-Revolutionary Combat Organization finally succeeded in their assassination attempts, the only thing to do now was wait until Plehve ’s horse drawn carriage would come by and throw the bomb into it. An easy job with the possibility of dying. What else would you do on a monday?

It was hard for the woman to just stand there and wait, knowing that she was about to murder someone in the next five minutes, but was there really anything she could do? It was part of the deal, part of the contract she signed to do whatever they wanted. She closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths, trying to calm her nerves as best as she can, but still her body shook and her breaths turned shaky. Was this really going to happen?

The sound of hooves clicking on stone and the rattling of wheels being drawn over the uneven ground indicated that the carriage and therefore the target was nearing her position. The woman opened her eyes and gazed in the direction of the oncoming noises. This was it. This was the final moment. Her mind wandered and her long lived life started to flash right before her inner eyes. Most of those memories were of him and she knew that she would be seeing him soon.

With a last deep breath taken she reached back and threw the bomb. When suddenly everything began to spin…

Two figures hit the grassy ground at the same time. These two figures looked like two teenager who could not be older than 13 years old. They were a boy and a girl, both not being seen in ages but now back in a time where they should have belonged a long while ago. When both looked up and saw each other you could see a lot of emotions on their faces but the one that stood out the most in this moment was shock.

“(Y-Y/N)?”

“Five? Is that really you?”

Five had to explain to his family what exactly happened to him in the last few years, how he ended up in the apocalyptic future, that he tried for all those years how to come back and who she was. He never thought he would see her again after everything that happened within the last few years.

When everything was said that had been needed to said he took you up with him to his old room to have some privacy and apologize.

As soon as the door fell shut behind you, you two embraced each other in a tight and long awaited hug. Neither of you wanted or planned on letting go in fear of the other disappearing again. Tears were rolling down your cheeks and you couldn’t prevent a sob from escaping your lips.

“They told me… They told me you died and that it was my fault, (Y/N). I am so sorry for everything.” Five spoke out his thoughts first with a slight shakiness to his voice. 

“I-I thought you were dead too… The Commission never told me what happened… I’ve missed you so much.” You tried to hold back your sobs while speaking which you didn’t succeed in quite that well.

You both didn’t exactly know what to do next but for the time being, being in each other’s arms was enough.

[anidealiveson]

Thanksvember Master Post

Day 1 - Like Coming Home - It has a super rare “wholesome plot twist”! Without spoiling anything too huge, I really like that @julesherondalex took the time to talk about how important it is to take care of yourself first. You can’t love someone else properly, the way they deserve, if you don’t have that same love for yourself. I wasn’t expecting the heartbreaking scene, but the beautiful way in which that topic was was approached neither took away from the story or the joy.

Day 2 - Must Love Dogs - An incredibly fluffy (literally) fic that I loved reading. @rosehallshadowsinger did a really great job weaving Azriel and Elain’s canon personalities into this adorable AU scenario. It is obvious @rosehallshadowsinger took care to create believable personalities for two characters that didn’t get POVs in the books.

Day 3 - Striking Matches -  I have to say that I wasn’t at all attracted to an AU fic about firefighters. I was also not a big Rowaelin fan before that, but I was work procrastinating so I gave it a try. Wellll, 30 parts later, I found myself delighted at the writing and sad it was over. I couldn’t believe how well @shyvioletcat cat was able to entirely re-characterize these two into such a different setting, yet still retaining what made them popular in the books. Aelin was perfect in her role as a snarky schoolteacher irritating the stoic firefighter Rowan. And the descriptions of the kids lining up at the firehouse demonstration and Jake’s adorable prodding was icing on the cake.

Day 4 - Close Quarters -  I really loved the way @lady-therion wrote Nesta in this modern AU. I particularly like how she equates Nesta’s sometimes standoffish attitude as a very relatable personality trait. She has trouble reading people and gauging situations. It’s well written and the dialogue is unique for a plot that is common in ff!

Day 5 - Like A Lonely House - It’s got a colossal I love Lucy level misunderstanding mixed in with a lot of tension and angst. This Nesta that is full of sacrifice and duty and fire is how I imagine the Nesta who feels that she has a stake in the Fae world would be like. @featherymalignancy wove such a captivating new world in Macar, that it felt a lot like being introduced to the 8th court in the ACOTAR world.

Day 6 - Death Dance - There are several takes out there that touch on Nesta in the Ilyrian camps, but I love how @thewayshedreamed interpreted Nesta’s skills on the battlefield as a calculated dance. Nesta has always been a raging storm, but I love how @thewayshedreamed took care to show us a Nesta that channeled that storm into discipline. If SJM never intended to release a Nessian focused book, I would have considered this a satisfying end to their story.

Day 7 - One Night Standards - I love the way @sassyhobbits writes Aelin with her typical extremely sassy exterior, but also made sure to saddle her with a vulnerable side that runs deep. I normally don’t care for slow burns, but I like the pace of her relationship with Rowan here, and that they had to work hard at it. I also like the plot lines that involved their PR stunts and how the public grew to love them as well.

Day 8 - Goose Chasing - Its the most absurd plot of any fanfic I’ve read! The title is not figurative. Its really does involve chasing a goose. @rhysismydaddy did a fantastic job encapsulating the spirit of silly Cassian and grumpy Nesta in a situation they’d likely never find themselves in, yet making it entirely believable. 

Day 9 - Manon Chooses The Worst Babysitter Possible - It’s such a casual and fluffy and hilarious read. It was fun to read about a softer and more delicate Manon. Through this absurd mistake, @sarah-bae-maas did an excellent job really humanizing Manon and postulating a fun in-world domestic scenario. 

Day 10 - My Hunger Knows No Bounds -  @perseusannabeth manages to take a simple concept and weave a sweet narrative. I particularly love how @perseusannabeth incorporated her personal details into it and took the time to share her lovely culture with us.

Day 11 - Knowing me, Knowing you - We never got to actually see Aelin rule Terrasen (well we got a tinyyy bit) in the books. Though this was modern day, @nalgenewhore tells a fun story of what that could have been like.

Day 12 -  Forever (is a long time) - @noodlecatposts takes Elide and Lorcan’s completely polar opposite personalities and spins an interesting (and frankly quite adorable) story. All the rules crack me up. My favorite Lorcan is the one that reminds me of Luke Danes from Gilmore Girls. Currently, he is in the middle of grumpily fixing up her flooded room, so I am sure that my favorite parts are yet to come.

Day 13 - Go Your Own Way - I appreciate @tomtenadia for putting to words a scene that I desperately wanted in ACOWAR or even ACOFAS. A lovely parallel to an equally lovely Fleetwood mac song.

Day 14 - In Which She Makes A Friend - It is no surprise that the fandom wants Nesta to find her place in the Illyrian mountains and even bring about some social change with the female warriors. But the way @bookstantrash got there was such a wonderful and endearing journey. Big fan of the callbacks to how Kaelin was treated and the similarities to a certain Illyrian warrior was when he was younger. We got to see a sweet Nesta, who I’d like to think was attempting to make up for some of her regrets through taking care of Kaelin.

Day 15 - The Ranch - As a huge fan of Sweet Home Alabama, its should be no surprise that I loved this fic by @tacmc . I enjoyed the slow change that we saw in a stubborn Nesta as she opened up to this new way of life and reconnected with her sisters and found a home with Cassian.

Day 16 - Felons - Such a unique interpretation of Nesta and Cassian. I really like the self-sacrificing Nesta angle and @rhysismydaddy did a great job weaving intrigue into the unraveling of what we knew to be a her innocence. I never read The Witness, but this really made me want to.

Day 17 - Of Books and Timber - Cassian offers to build a shelf for Nesta. The way @duskandstarlight goes through the entire range of emotions through Nesta is brilliant. She starts out with cold indifference, but by the end, we get from her a sweet and tender gesture of gratitude. Showing that meeting each other halfway with small gestures is all they ever needed.

Day 18 - You Should Sleep In My Bed More Often - I absolutely loved this quick exchange between Nesta and Cassian after she accidentally injures him. I can’t believe how much I laughed out loud when Cassian said “I need you to protect me closer”. @charincharge​ perfectly captured the teasing childish essence of Cassian and Nesta’s hilarious victim-blaming was so on the nose that I might have thought this was taken right out of ACOSAF.

Day 19 - The Right Swipe - I really enjoyed this take on the inner circle mixed with the super modern online dating plot. I especially love that @redisriding created genuinely realistic characters (body issues, social anxiety etc). Great read!

Day 20 - Goldfish Prompt - What a fun read. I love how frantic and much personality Feyre had here. I love how dedicated to her fish she was, and how that made her super endearing. Cute read from @azrielsiphons

Day 21 - The One With The Snowstorm -  What I really like is that Cassian actually says that he is sorry for his part in Nesta’s exile. I am not bitter about it, but it was an interesting turn. They need to meet halfway here and I rarely see it so well written as @joysbell has done here!

Day 22 - Prompt - A lovely and cute and sweet prompt written by @crowsvalentine​! I love the ramp up of suspense just to get to the hilarious payoff. Its adorable and worth the quick read.

Day 23 - Fix It -  is one by @thewayshedreamed​ that I love in its simplicity. It’s a small little argument Cassian and Nesta get into, but its still compelling. It’s sweet and super endearing the way the two of them are written and the subtle way they work through it. Great read!

Day 24 - I Do Bad Things To You - The mob angle may have been done before, but I don’t think with as much care and regard that @tswaney17​ has been giving it. I how the canon personalities of the characters translate so well into this modern AU. Its very obvious that @tswaney17​ has done her research. I especially love all the details around Elain as a surgeon. The story is compelling and well written and every chapter has me wanting more.

Day 25 - Love Her Like She should Be Loved - This is an excellent fic that I really loved. @julemmaes did such a great job translating some of the canon tension from ACOFAS into a modern world. It’s ripe with emotion, drama and quite a bit of heart. I love how earnestly Cassian comes to Nesta’s defense even in the face of going against his entire family. I like the reference to some very real psychological struggles. I think a lot of people can relate to it.

Day 26 - Literally In Love - I really enjoy the subtle mystery that follows this entire journey. I enjoy that @julesherondalex keeps us guessing, while simultaneously weaving a sweet and tender story about two shy teachers and just a slew of mishaps worthy of a Shakespearian drama.

Day 27 - The Shadow Bond - I love Azriel, and this is such a wonderful fic by @radientwings​ focusing on how his shadows might work. His shadows are the one thing that I am most curious about him in the series, so it was lovely to read such a well written interpretation of them.

Day 28 - Exes and Oh’s - Just a shout out to @highqueenofelfhame​ for this lovely story about rekindling past love. I like that even though the plot was uncomplicated, the emotions were not. I love that Aelin didn’t have a perfect reason for what she did, but sometimes that is just how things are. This is a story about taking a second chance, whether it’s deserved or not.

Day 29 - Fever - I really love this fic called Fever. I enjoyed how @lady-therion​ portrayed Nesta. She hit the entire gammut of characteristics (snarky, worried, vulnerable, caring, short-tempered, flirty, you name it!) but it really worked here. I found this nurse Nesta to be endearing and relatable and the dynamic between her and Cassian was very sweet. Just go read the damned thing.

Day 30 - Baby Steps - I really really love this fic. @runesandfaes did such a great job in just so few words to show a really sweet moment between Chaol, Yrene and their daughter learning to walk. I love the parallel back to when Chaol was learning to walk and the cameo of the golden couch. So sweet.

[jumin-deserves-better]

My thoughts on all the Mystic messenger characters and their routes :

Ok, last week I finished playing the mystic messenger game. I completed all the routes, DLCs etc. And, OMG, WHAT A RIDE WAS THAT ! . It doesn't have any appealing plot like other otome games, but this game sure did capture my heart,which most of the otome games fail to do so. The fact I could relate to some of the characters, I felt bad for them, concerned, weirded out at times , and so happy when they changed into a happy person because of me. The game deserves all the praise it gets, 10/10 👍

In this post, I will give my rating based on my playthrough for each character, and I will also say who is my true route as well, i.e, the route I fell in love the most, And please remember, these are based on MY opinions alone, please don't come at me, if it doesn't match yours 👀, Feel free to share your opinions about the characters as well & this post is way long beware ~☆

My playthrough order : I followed the recommended playthrough to get a clear picture of the storyline.

Zen 》Yoosung》 Jaehee》 Jumin 》 Seven》 V 》 Ray.

And for your kind information, I never played this game to get a bad ending, i didn't want to hurt those precious fictional characters just for getting one CG 🤐, but I do know what happens

SPOILER FREE!, I will be just giving MY OWN ratings , except for the rika part lol don't worry, ladies.!

Anyways, let's just jump into it ;),

Zen 🤍:

THAT SMIRK THOUGH 😏

His route : 9/10 ( not the best route, but I liked it anyways, as he is my 1st route)

His character: 8/10 ( I don't like narcissism or narcissistic people, I know it was his coping mechanism, but I kind of dislike those type of men, his attitude in Jumin's route, kinda pissed me off apart from that , he is great ! )

Is he my true route ? : NO, I don't like guys who are narcissistic, I understand that that its was his coping mechanism, to make him believe in himself, but still being narcissistic all the time is not ok, I have a bad memory because of those type of guys, moreover, I am not that confident irl 😂 , I mean the MC in Zen's route,will have to say lots of weird ass choices, and the fact that will impress him⁉️, i wouldn't even say those choices irl to anyone . I wouldn't mind being friends with him though. He is definitely the ideal BF material, but he is just isn't for me..Sorry, Zen.😅

Yoosung 💚 :

AWW CUTIE 🥺💕

His route : 9/10 ( apart from the "You are just like Rika", I personally enjoyed his route, the character development was the best at the end 👌)

His character : 9/10 (OMG! He is just so cute, I am not the one to get attracted to the 'younger guy' type, but this guy just changed everything for me, but he needs lots of attention , beware, yandere yoosungs will pop out if u don't care about him enough, and the fact this guy was the only one who was supportive for Jumin's relationship with MC in Jumin's route , showed how much of a cutie he is!, unlike others 😒, he was a bit annoying in V's route, but it is understandable, he deserves to knw the truth about the person who he admires )

Is he my true route ? : Kind of a YES & a NO. Eventhough I enjoyed his route more than Zen, like I said earlier I am not into those 'younger guy' type, he is a guy who loves to be babied and protected by a mature MC , and well...I am not that mature either 😛,in reality, I am a independent person, but when it comes to relationships, i liked to be babied 😏. I personally think he deserves someone better than me, I don't want to ruin his happiness 🥺

Jaehee 🤎 :

A friend in need is a friend indeed, my bae,Jaehee! 😄

Her route : 7/10 ( ok, I am gonna be honest here, I did not enjoy her route, I was happy that she realized her dreams and goes for it, but do we have to ruin a character just for making this route dramatic? Yes, I am talking about Jumin, Do u guys even know, how much I struggled to even start Jumin's route, I was literally scared of him because of his potrayal in this route as that jerk which he was btw,this route actually made me avoid Jumin for sometime.I expected the relationship between Jumin and Jaehee to become a healthy one, but oh well, whatever, & the after ending was just frustrating,all the RFA members just isolated Jumin, seriously, eventhough he did wrong things ,I felt so bad for him, imagine his thoughts at that moment , ugh...Jaehee deserves a better route, I am just not a fan of 'downgrading one character to give more importance to the main one', it's just bad writing)

Her character : 8/10 ( she is an amazing friend, a bit mature one at that. But personally i felt , if she really wanted to pursue her dreams ,she could have resigned, if she is not liking it . She was behaving a bit ignorant at times, especially in Zen's route. She could have communicated with Jumin beforehand about her difficulty in handling the job? I knw it's very difficult to suddenly quit the job, but she has every right to resign,she does have the money to open a coffee shop, thn why?. Don't come at me, and tell me that I hate her just because she is a female character,HELL NO, I like her but still her route made me have mixed feelings. She was being rude at times , I really understood why CHERTIZ did this, to show women can liberate themselves to work for their dreams, but in a professional point of view, I still think the route could have been handled better. Small businesses success isn't as easy to get, and in my point of view it would have been nice to show how MC and Jaehee make it through in her route rather than making Jumin a jerk, because it ruined Jumin at first for not only me but also a number of players ,but oh well,🏃‍♀️, I do like her, she could be a great friend, nothing more that that )

Is she my true route? : NO, I am straight. I see Jaehee as a friend. Some ask a romantic route for her, but I don't mind about that , I was just glad that I could help her to realize her dreams as a FRIEND.

Jumin 💜 :

I don't see a selfish jerk here, I see a soft boi , in a gigantic body, who is just lonely

His route : 10/10 ( Seriously, I did not expect to like his route one bit, I thought I would hate him more, but turns out, I freaking fell in love with the flawed "him" , HECK YEAH! this was the only route where i was being TRUE TO MYSELF, did not refer any guides, understood his loneliness, I could relate to him so bad, I was happy to help him during his vulnerable times 🤧.Zen was annoying ,but I didn't care much about it, because I knw why he was like this. I prefer the good ending, and yes he does propose for marriage to whom he have talked for only 11 days, but I was very sure he will listen to you, if u don't want the marriage immediately )

His character : 9/10 ( He is so cute in his own way,mature, intelligent,awkward and even gets insecure,because he thinks he does not deserve you?! , you deserve better than me ,Jumin 😫, he does get possessive and irrational and that could make others uncomfortable, but for me, I understood that as well, being an empath myself ,as this dude never had a relationship with anyone,he is new into this, I don't mind teaching him new things about the world, about love. His characterization in Jaehee's route was god awful and cheritz did a bad job in it , I think they decided to make him like this, just for DRAMA,Jumin might have a bad way of showing emotions but he is not a soul less demon. I have seen people calling Jumin an abuser, but I didn't see that at all, he was being an idiot and he acknowledges it, every damn time, an abuser doesn't do this at all, and no..I don't think Jumin is dominant daddy material one bit like how the fandom perceives him. This is his first relationship with a woman, I feel he would be sweet, embarrassed loving and a loyal husband material, and I love his "opposed to living together before marriage" thing as well, as my religion follows that too as well )

Is he my true route? : A. BIG. FAT. YES. HE IS JUST MY TYPE, dear lord. I have never seen someone so perfect and also with flaws just like me , this guy made me realize that all along, I just never showed empathy towards others and that's why no one wanted to talk to me irl, I didn't care what people told about me. He seriously made me understand my own flaws and I corrected it, he made me into a better person, big thx , Mr.Jumin . Morever , I was being myself in his route only, I loved all of his calls , he brings up the strangest things just to talk to you, that's just so cute WTH , this man will be so loyal I am sure of it !.I don't really care about his riches, I am just in love with his true self 😫🥺

707 ❤ :

The main man of this game, hmmm....

His route : 7/10 ( ok, I was so hyped to play his route , cuz even before I started to play this game, 707 was so popular, I expected a lot, but it was a meh for me...he did have a VERY HEARTBREAKING PAST , he was suffering from a lot of things, I understand. But the whole route wasn't that gud though...and his secret endings are just painfully depressing and angsty, V's death just broke my heart, I felt so frickin bad for Jumin, how would he even handle those things?.It just destroyed me completely. Moreover I don't find 707's jokes funny at times, his route had good plot, but 707 failed to impress me in his own route)

His character : 7/ 10 ( oh boi,I am scared that I would be slaughtered with hatred for telling this, the fact that he was faking his own personality was very shocking to me, I did not expect that. I despise tsunderes ,and 707 is the literal definition of it, so yeah, It ended up being annoying for me. Even though I was hella depressed like 707 before, I couldn't find him #relatable at all. I don't knw why , but I couldn't see him more than a friend 🚶‍♀️)

Is he my true route? : NOPE. I was not impressed by him at all, don't knw why lol, I tried to like him as he is THE REAL TRUE ROUTE,but it is still not getting into my heart, maybe because I already started to love Jumin, idk. I felt bad for 707, I wouldn't mind helping him as a friend, but as a significant other...NAH....,I am not into these type of guys 🥴,sorry seven...

V 💙 :

I can understand why Jumin and V were best friends...they be looking like DADDY 👀

His route : 8 /10 ( for me, I was happy that V finally understood that he was basically a obsessive simp for Rika, I hated that he blamed himself more, which somehow I agree, I feel like he could have said something to the RFA , yoosung was hella annoying in this route, he spoke as if Rika is an angel or something, which she is not btw, yoosung, she brainwashed saeran and freakin created a cult, and this is not something an angel would do 🥴, V is not just flawed or anything,he doesn't even love himself,and so clings to rika because she was so wonderful in her eyes as an idea .He kept the freakin truth hidden,just because Rika doesn't want to, of course, my baby,yoosung will ask about . V is too emotional,and he was a victim of rika's abuse and manipulation just like Saeran,I liked the plot and though I didn't fall in love with him , I did have a tinsy bit of crush on him, mainly because of his looks, more like a puppy love, the voice acting was on point 👌)

His character : 7/ 10 ( boi could have handled the situation with his crazy GF much better, he actually let Saeran get brainwashed by Rika, he could have done something, and the fact that he liked Rika only as an idea, showed that this guy was in a very toxic relationship, Rika and V are the perfect example of what happens when two people who doesn't love themselves date, and he was clearly the victim of Rika's abuse and manipulation. I also don't think he is an angel either, he has done some wrong things definitely, and the fandom should acknowledge his wrong doings)

Is he my true route? : NO. Though Jumin and V are very similar , I did not like the fact that he simped for his crazy GF out of his obsession alone and though, she was clearly showing red flags earlier, he thinks that the power of love can change her lol . He was so confusing for me to understand. 😂

Ray 💖 :

His route : 10/10 ( The drama , the music, the plot & the voice acting was just fantastic, I was blown away by this route, but that doesn't mean I liked Saeran as a character, the boi needs therapy, not romance lol, sry,and the recovery from his brainwashed state was unrealistic )

His character : 7/10 ( seriously, the voice acting for both the personalities was just mind blowing, he is such a well written character, but his abandonment issues isn't something u should romanticize about, he loved the affection that the MC was giving , but one wrong move, he will change just like that , he confused affection with love. Some are telling that Jumin was abusive, which he is not btw , for me, suit Saeran was super abusive, WTH)

Is he my true route ? : HELL NO. Eventhough he was practically innocent because he was under the influence of that elixir or some kind of a drug and brainwashed by Rika , I would never in my life try to have a romantic relationship with those kind of people. I may like him after he receives proper therapy ,but NO, just No, I can help him as a person, but I wouldn't go for a kiss or something with him. 🙄

Rika 💔:

This scene still gives me goosebumps 🙄

Her character : -infinity / 20 ( she deserves this uwu)

SPOILERS AHEAD!

Ok, hear me out, I hate Rika so much , i know she has been through a lot, i really do.. but it doesn't mean you can emotionally abuse and brainwash Saeran, he would have been a better person,she turned a person who loves ice cream and cloud watching into a self destructive psycho, another story showed how much she is capable of by her words , She manipulated V to not tell RFA that she is gonna start a cult, WHAT THE HELL, V, do you not knw what she is trying to do here 😳 ? But whatever,V was being manipulated by her "playing as a victim" tactics, she also played with Jumin's feelings for her, I was about to throw my hands on her, how dare u do that to my man ??, made yoosung to obsess over her to make him think that she is absolutely a gud person, and left him to ponder over her so called 'passing' , making him unable to move on from her.

And oh god,the backstory did not make me feel bad for her one bit, it only made me understand why she has become like this. Like dude, I understood she had a shitty past, but so did the other members of RFA, but did they all become like a manipulative victim player? Hell no.. they learned from their mistakes and they change, but even when all the members were trying to help her, she denies that she doesn't need a therapy. She deserves a proper mental therapy and a proper jail time. NO EXCUSE FOR THAT, she did the same manipulation and brainwashing for all of her disciples to get them into Mint eye.

But as a character , Rika just rocked it for me , she was so successful in making me and a lot of the fans hate her as an antagonist. Her voice actor was so gud,she had such a good way of speaking manipulative, like God, I understood why all the RFA members were all kind of whipped for her, she is such a master piece as an antagonist. 🚶‍♀️🤫

Vanderwood 💞👀 :

I NEED A VANDERWOOD ROUTE 😫

His character: 10/10 idk, why am I giving a rating for him though? I just love him 😂

Ok, I know he is a side character, but for some reason, I liked him more than 707 lol 👀, I just spoke with him only in one chatroom , but boi , was I whipped for him 😜

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My favourite to least MM main characters and routes :

JUMIN - 19/20 ( 1st)

YOOSUNG - 18/20 (2nd)

ZEN & RAY - 17/ 20 ( 3rd)

V & JAEHEE - 15 / 20 ( 4th )

707 - 14 / 20 ( 5th, it's not that I hate him or something, it's just that I was neither IMPRESSED by his character nor the route, I don't mind him one bit! )

Rika -Though she doesn't have a route or a gud character she deserves a -infinity/20 ( and no place in my heart 🚶‍♀️)

Overall, this game is the best otome game ! , I actually paid for getting the hourglasses, I mean, I suck at patience, I was so intrigued by the story, but it was seriously worth it !. There are a number of otome games which charge more than this.

Anyways,

Thank you, Cheritz for creating Mystic messenger. This game totally changed how I perceived life, love ❤ and Romance 💕

[kulaykape]

Ina Kingsley x MC: Words of Affirmation

A lil mini series idea that I came up with, concerning of the 'five love languages'. Bae doesn't have any fic on here, so imma fix that.

I'm tired of my problematic and bitchy MC, so she's been canceled in favor of my OC, Aliyah Diaz. For the sake of the story, Ali is actually a decent person.

Hope you enjoy!

•••

When Aliyah came around the corner, she could start to hear the murmurs of someone's rage coming from Ina's office. And at first, she considered anyone but the Professor herself. Because why would she? There were maybe two people Ali knew more mellow than Ina, and Ali had only spoken to them while they were on weed.

But as she got closer, Aliyah realized that those murmurs were awfully reminiscent of Ina's low timbre.

"…of factuality?!" Ina practically bellowed. Aliyah stopped in her tracks, and she had a 'sorry, Professor' halfway up her throat before remembering she wasn't the one being yelled at. "…are you- no, I'm not raising my voice," Ina continued, raising her voice.

Aliyah paused outside the door, resting her hand on the surface. She chewed the inside of her cheek pensively and looked down at the takeout bag in her hand. Would the food be considered thoughtful or a nuisance in this very moment?

She decided on trying to her luck. With a quick silent prayer to the big man, Aliyah rapped on the door twice before coming in.

"-for months. Forgive me if this isn't something that I'm willing to sweep under the rug!" Ina exclaimed. Her back was turned to Aliyah as she stared vengefully at her bookcase, fist resting firmly against her hip.

"Uh, Professor?" Aliyah called softly.

Ina turned profile as she paced- or stomped- around. Her lip pouted out in extreme agitation, and her brow furrowed with a vengeance. Aliyah likened her to an angry pitbull puppy. Still, she didn't notice her TA. "I don't see your point at all, practically to the extent that I don't think you so much as read my article," Ina continued to rant.

"Professor," Aliyah called nervously. Maybe she should leave the food on the floor and run…?

Ina's heels clicked on the floor as she stopped, and whirled around on Aliyah. In spite of the good ten feet between them, Aliyah still flinched back because holy shit, she had never seen Ina Kingsley look so livid.

And yet in spite of the horror movie type of fear she'd just inflicted, Ina's eyes still didn't seem to register Aliyah's presence.

"I'm not- would it not be a fair assumption?" Ina demanded, squeezing her hands into fists. She walked around her desk, breezing by Aliyah, and flopped down into an armchair by the coffee table.

"Professor Kingsley," Aliyah called more firmly this time. She didn't know if Ina was shaking her head at her or the poor sap on the other end of the line when she did. Aliyah let out a sigh when she figured it was the latter.

"I- fine then! Call me tomorrow, when you've had time to come to a more intelligent conclusion!" Ina exclaimed, throwing her hands up before ending the call and nearly yeeting her phone across the room.

The Professor let out a sigh as she laid back in the armchair, pinching the bridge of her nose. She started when she heard some shifting behind her and whipped her head over her shoulder.

"Aliyah!" A blush crept up the back of her neck. Judging by the look on the younger woman's face, there was no way she didn't just hear her tirade. "How… how long have you been here?"

Aliyah shot Ina a grin as she moved to sit adjacent to her. "Long enough to catch the end of your reality tv episode," she replied. Ina let out a groan, pushing her palms up against her face. Aliyah dropped the bag on the table and made her way over to Ina with a laugh. "Hey, don't do that," she coaxed, "Lame joke, I'm sorry. Is everything alright?"

"Everything couldn't be further from alright," Ina replied, running her hands through her hair.

Was this a breakdown? Had she had a breakdown since grad school? Should she ask Aliyah what a breakdown should feel like? (I mean, she is a college student)

"I still have several dozen essays to grade, there's a faculty meeting at 6 in the morning tomorrow, and my publisher is being an absolute ass," Ina grumbled.

"Alright, alright, slow down," Aliyah patted Ina's shoulder hesitantly. Was this professional enough? Judging by how Professor Professionalism not so subtly leaned into her hand, it didn't matter. "You've got the best TA on campus, I'll get those essays done," Aliyah said with a grin.

Ina dared look up from the little prison she'd made for her eyes with her hands. "It's not your bur-"

"Not my burden? Yeah, I think I'm getting compensated for it to be my burden, teach," Aliyah retorted swiftly, "And it's only 6:30. If we finish early enough, you won't have to drag your ass tired as hell into that meeting."

The tiniest smile poked at Ina's lips. "You shouldn't use that language around the Professor you're TA'ing for, Miss Diaz," she said.

"I've yet to have been struck down by lightning," Aliyah replied, arms splayed out like Jesus or something . Ina let out a small chuckle before turning her gaze back to the floor. "So what's up with your publisher?" Aliyah asked as she sat back down.

A growl made its way up Ina's throat. She picked up a thin stack of papers from the coffee table, and stared unappreciatively at them. "We were arguing about publishing my next article," she replied as she flipped through the pages.

Aliyah took it gently from her hands and adjusted her glasses before starting to skim through it. "Wait, this is your 'Egoism of the Collegiate Bourgeoise' article!" Aliyah exclaimed. Ina nodded. "But… this is the most solid one you've written this year!" Aliyah threw Ina a confused pout, and Ina couldn't help but find it absolutely adorable.

In spite of her prevailing annoyance, Ina's lips perked up. "I'm glad that you think so. Unfortunately, my publisher doesn't agree," she said, leaning back in her seat as she frowned, "He says it's too biased. What the hell does he mean by bias? It's purely based off of meticulous research!"

Aliyah hummed as she continued to flip through the article. She looked up at Ina, an off handed word of encouragement on the tip of her tongue. It faded when she saw the weight with which Ina's shoulders were sagging.

With a sigh, Aliyah took off her glasses and scooted her chair closer to Ina. Ina shot her an odd side-eye as the chair scraped rather obnoxiously across the floor. Aliyah stared right back, lips pursed and eyes unblinking.

For a long moment the two just stared at each other, until Aliyah suddenly crossed her eyes and Ina burst into laughter. "You're ridiculous," she managed to say, clutching her stomach.

"You're even more ridiculous," Aliyah replied, "Why are you so down? Just because your stupid publisher doesn't approve of the article? We both know you're an awesome writer."

Sobering back up, Ina breathed out a sigh. "I need to have this article published. I've put too many months of work in to just scrap it," Ina said with a groan, "But I feel like I've been slipping. Ever since…" Ina cut herself off.

But Aliyah wasn't an idiot. Ever since you came around, she finished in her head.

Ina cleared her throat, rubbing her hands together. "Not that you need to worry about it. This isn't among the numerous burdens that I throw on top of you," she said, shooting Aliyah a hint of that charming smile.

"I'm not worrying because you're asking me to, I'm worrying because I care," Aliyah replied, "You just don't look confident right now."

Ina's shoulders sagged as her smile weakened. "Wow. Thank you for that, Aliyah."

"You're welcome," Aliyah said simply, "Look, forget what your publisher thinks, you're brilliant. And mind you, I don't compliment people often, because I hate everyone here." Ina shook with silent laughter, and Aliyah did a mental self-high five.

"Current company excluded?" Ina asked.

"Of course," Aliyah said with a nod, "Look, if push comes to shove, we'll just find a new publisher."

"I don't think you understand how difficult that could be," Ina lamented.

"Uh, hello? Are you forgetting that I run an entire blog with my own crap on it?" Aliyah asked, pointing at her head, "I've got connections. And I've already gushed enough about you to my people to be able to convince them to get you a slot in some high-end website."

Ina arched a brow slowly. "'Gushed'?" Beet red creeped up Aliyah's face even as she smiled sheepishly. Ina laughed richly. "I'm flattered."

"You should be. There's a stigma around Belvoire professors that I had to work around to convince them you were great," Aliyah replied.

"I… you never told me any of this," Ina said. Was that why Aliyah was always asking for copies of her latest work? And her incite on every single one of them?

…huh.

"Well think about how it'd sound if I just brought it up out of the blue," Aliyah said with a grin. Hey, teach! Guess what? I've officially kissed your ass both literally and metaphorically! Which Aliyah couldn't say she wasn't proud of, but Ina didn't need to hear that vocalized.

"Fine, point taken," Ina said with a grin, "I appreciate it, Aliyah. Really, I do." Both of their hands twitched, a similar instinct in mind. Alas, Professor Kingsley and her undying loyalty to professionalism always prevailed.

"Remember, you're Professor Ina Kingsley, Belvoire's residential badass educator," Aliyah said, gesticulating in a jazz hands motion.

"I don't think anyone calls me that," Ina replied, trying not to laugh.

"Yeah, you're right. They call you other things," Aliyah averted her eyes to the side as Ina groaned inwardly. She was all too aware of her reputation as 'Professor Dreamy'. "But my point still stands. A bunch of people on the internet are always looking forward to reading your work, so what if your publisher disapproves?"

"I suppose you're right," Ina said, nodding. I mean, she wasn't about to brag about those five thousand reads her last article got, but… her publisher could kiss her ass (metaphorically).

"Of course I'm right. So. Confidence boost effectiveness confirmed?" Aliyah asked, leaning forward with a grin.

"Confidence boost effectiveness confirmed," Ina said with a nod. The two of them burst into laughter, like two nerds with extremely poor senses of humor- which they precisely were. "I… thank you for your words of encouragement, Aliyah," Ina said after a short moment.

"Hey, even you need a reminder of how awesome you are every now and then," Aliyah replied, "Don't worry though, I take my TA position very seriously, so I've got you covered."

"I really do need to get you a mug or something," Ina said with a laugh.

"Yeah, I'll hold you to that," Aliyah chuckled, and reached over to squeeze Ina's shoulder.

Ina smiled softly at her, and reached up to squeeze her hand. Slowly, their fingers entwined and the two of them sat in a peaceful quiet.

"I know I might not be able to help you out as much as I want to, but… I'll always have your back," Aliyah smiled sheepishly at her.

She was sure she wasn't the first to make a claim to Ina's side. The Professor probably had loads of much more capable peers that could help her in a pinch…

Ina felt her throat tighten, and she nodded vigorously in replacement of a vocal thank you. She squeezed Aliyah's hand a little tighter, before replying, "I know."

~end~

[blacksunscorpio]

Scorp you're a genius! So relatable and I love how you don't judge others or anyone who comes to you for help. Keep it up! I just had to ask since I see that you make pop culture references to make analogies with astrology. You've mentioned GoT a few times and im a huge fan! Can you do a quick post on Game of Thrones characters and their potential zodiac signs? I'd love to hear your input! Thank you so much!!

Game of Thrones Characters & Their Zodiac Signs

Aries

Khal Drogo- Impulsive. Warlike. Bloodthirsty. Alpha. Conqueror. Hardcore athlete [did you see him on that horse?] Extremely sexual. Forceful. When he first meets Daenerys, he forces himself on her. Afterward, however, he is the first to go to war if he feels the people around him have been disrespected.

Aerys Targaryen- Impulsive, sadistic. Boastful. imperial. He would be the Emperor [reversed] in Tarot, lol. Not as good with being a tactician as he ought to have been. Cruel. Rage problems. The need to be the first and the best. Fire and blood, anyone?

Taurus

Maergery Tyrell - Classy, wealthy, sexy, laid-back, frank but with an air of elegance. Highgardeners have a love for the finer things in life. A love of fine wines and foods. Beautiful clothing and aesthetics. RICH RICH. Get on their bad side and they will take their time finding a way to subvert your authority.

Robert Baratheon- Love of luxury, bullheaded, strong, takes no shit. Fixed in his opinions of others, highkey jealous. In his youth, he enjoyed the gifts of Venus: Charm, wealth coming from the noble house of Baratheon, widely considered handsome by almost all in the 7 kingdoms. 

Gemini

Tyrion Lannister- Silver-tongued. HIGHKEY intelligent. Social. Charming. Great sense of humor. A freak [in the sheets]. Chatty. Always finds his way out of a sticky situation. Finds a way to use his intel to bolster diplomacy between his family and the families who hate them.

Little Finger- Cunning, quick-witted, works behind the scenes, manipulative, a  snake, jack of all trades. Top dog in the social circles of the 7 Kingdoms. There wasn’t a person who didn’t know of him and his... reputation. He singlehandedly, through his Machiavellian tactics, caused the events of Game of Thrones to unfold. 

Cancer  

Cersei Lannister- Protective, moody, caring [to her kids], motherly, cantankerous, jealous. A savage. People don’t give Cancer’s the credit they deserve in terms of what they’re capable of. Cersei is a prime example of the type of person who can show unrivaled levels of devotion to the one’s they love. “No one matters but us.” She can be cruel because she lets her emotions rule her actions. When her safety is threatened, she makes sure no one else feels safe either. She loves with a ferocity only rivaled by...

Catelyn Stark- Another mother who would die [quite literally] for her children. Fierce, Protective. Doting. JEALOUS. Let’s not forget how she treated Jon all because she believed Ned’s lie about him being a bastard. Followed her son into battle. Damn near lost her hands fighting off Bran’s would-be assassin. 

Leo

Jaime Lannister- Proud. Handsome. Princely. Funny. We seem him go from underdeveloped Leo [arrogant, selfish, bully, prideful, snob, loyal to no one but himself] to developed [Kind, helpful, warm, honest]. Fought bears for his friends. Skilled and proud fighter even without the use of both his hands. Unfortunately, his loyalty caused him to stay loyal to his twin towards the end, but such is the nature of a Leo. They’re hard-pressed to abandon those they truly care for.

Brienne of Tarth- LOYAL. Proud. Devoted. A bit of a flare for drama especially brandishing her sword. Brienne is the definition of Leonine traits. Hard to miss. Devoted to those who show her kindness, i.e Renly, Catelyn, Jaime, Sansa, etc. Always at the front lines in war screaming “STAND YOUR GROUND”. Unrivaled levels of bravery and courage. Not to be fucked with. A true Queen.

Virgo

Samwell Tarley- Intelligent. Scholarly. Methodical. Always with his nose in a book. Unproblematic king. Caught the things everyone else missed, especially when he was an apprentice in Old Towne. Figured out how to cure Jorah Mormont’s affliction on his OWN without any formal training. Genius.

Lord Varys- Remember, Virgo is also ruled by Mercury who is the most cunning of the planetary rulers. Varys always had a spy to collect intel on everyone. A tactician. Never lost his temper. Always had the scoop but didn’t partake in gossip for gossip's sake. Not afraid to be critical or tell those “in charge” his opinion. We can see this specifically when he critiques Aerys, Daenerys, and Robert. 

Libra

Davos Seaworth- a skilled diplomat. Davos is always seen seeking balance and fairness in the situations he finds himself in. The minute you see this man in a scene you know he’s going to give a moving speech and get someone out fo a sticky situation. He convinced the Iron Bank to support Stannis. Convinced Daenerys to entertain Jon Snow when they traveled to Dragonstone. Always breaking up a fight. He is in full support of law and order, especially when he called for Melisandre’s head after discovering her part in Shireen’s death [RIP.]

Rhaegar Targaryen- Had a love of music. Harmony. Balance. He brought two families together [Stark and Targaryen]. He was also blessed by Venus in my opinion because he was said to be extremely handsome. A fabulous singer. A fighter yes, but a lover first. Very good with diplomacy but not the best with defending himself against his cousin sign, Taurus [Robert Baratheon].

Scorpio

Daenerys Targaryen- Many see her as an Aries but I have to respectfully disagree. Daenerys is a Scorpio in my opinion. Remember, Scorpio is honorary fire. She was literally “reborn from the ashes”. A Phoenix, Scorpio’s final form. She went from a silent and meek girl to a skilled and commanding Empress. Unlike Arians, she did not jump headfirst into battle. It took many arrows in her dragons, many slights to her ego, copious council from her advisors, dozens of her loved ones lost for her to go nuclear. Like her father, she hungered for power, a very Scorpionic trait. However she, unlike her father, listened to reason [Jorah, Tyrion, and Barristan Selmy]. She had a long fuse until she didn’t, and then that’s when she rained fire and blood on everyone in King’s Landing. She was skilled at retribution and was unapologetic with it *cough* the Tarleys *cough*.. Unlike Arians who pop off at the drop of a hat, she gave her enemies fair warning if/when they crossed her.

Arya Stark- You already know what it is with this one. Arya is pretty much death [Pluto], personified. Stealthy. A tactician. VENGEFUL. I think we all fist-pumped when she served Filch Walder Frey his sons in that pie. Never forgets a slight. Keeps a list of people who’ve wronged her [All Scorpios can probably relate]. You never see her coming. She is “no-one”. She is the assassin that slips through the back. She may seem calm at first but trust that she has been planning your downfall for a while. LOYAL. The definition of a Scorpio.

Melisandre- Dark. Mysterious. Unafraid of the occult. So much of her life is unknown and I’m sure that’s how she preferred it. Even her Lord of light was mysterious. Strong supernatural abilities and highkey psychic. Knew immediately how many “eyes” Arya would “close.” Had ties to the underworld which is demonstrated with her ability to resurrect the dead. Came through at the clutch in the last battle wielding fire [Mars] with her witchcraft. It’s no secret that Scorpios are some of the most skilled in sorcery.

Sagittarius

Missandei- Exotic. From Naath which is an island just above the mysterious continent of Sothoryos. A world traveler. Lucky enough to escape slavery [until the end]. Jupiter's influence is here in my opinion because she is so kind and friendly. Also a polyglot and gifted with the ability to speak 19 languages. Her fire is seen at the end of the series when she tells her best friend “Dracarys”-- meaning “fire” in High Valyrian. She isn’t afraid to call wrath down on others.

Olenna Tyrell- Loud, unapologetically blunt, zero-filter, feisty. Olenna to me is the definition of Sagittarius. Always speaks her mind. Clap back queen. Will call you out. Was also quite promiscuous in her younger years. Very charismatic and extremely likable despite her penchant for saying whatever was on her mind.

Capricorn

Tywin Lannister- I can’t see the patriarch of the most notorious family in Westeros being anything other than a Capricorn. Methodical. Structured. Business-minded. Karmic [A "Lannister always repays his debts"] Cold. Cruel. Unfeeling. Like Saturn, he is the father figure. Basically ran the 7 Kingdoms for Aerys, [which was probably why the latter was so salty towards him.] Always has a plan. The man you want in charge if we’re strictly talking about law and order. Vindictive [had the mountain kill Elia because Rhaegar rejected Cersei.] He’s the ultimate son-of-a-bitch.

Jon Snow- Brooding hero that he is, Bae Jon Snow is without a doubt a Capricorn in my eyes. Duty-bound. Serious. A leader in his own right. Could also be cold and unfeeling in terms of distributing karmic justice. Lest we forget the “fetch-me-a-block” situation with Janos Slynt. In addition, the moment he was resurrected he took vengeance against the black brothers who betrayed him. Saturn, Like Pluto, is all about karmic justice. The beating he put on Ramsey after The Battle of the Bastards was one thousand percent a karmic beating. A proper lover as well, according to Ygritte, Jon also knew how to handle himself in the bedroom, a trait very akin to Capricorns.

Aquarius

Bran Stark- I thought about making Bran a Pisces, but then I changed my mind. Remember Uranus rules sudden insights and hardcore psychic receptivity. It also rules sudden and unexpected catastrophes or surprises/ sudden breaks. Bran suffered a literal “tower” moment at the beginning of the series which resulted in his psychic powers developing. Once he became the three-eyed raven, he became very detached from the world.

Grey Worm- Aquarius is also androgynous. Grey Worm is a eunuch. He is always down to fight for a cause though, specifically his queen’s. Cares about others, specifically Missandei, and was seen towards the latter season speaking up for the Unsullied against the slavers. Fierce combatant but also very detached. His job is his job.

Pisces

Jaqen H’ghar- Much like Neptune, Pisces’ ruler Jaqen has a mysterious and illusive personality. He wears “many faces”. Skilled at illusion and very very intuitive. Has a soft side though which is clearly seen with how he treats Arya. Hardly ever flies off the handle. Calm. Cool. Collected.

Hodor- Sweet and gentle giant, Hodor is a Pisces to me. Affected by psychic trauma, it’s revealed why “Hodor” is the only thing he can say. Calm. A bit of a baby. Caring. Easily adaptable [think of all the terrain he carried Bran through]

Eddard Stark- I don't care what anyone says, Ned stark to me represents the most developed form of a Pisces. Like the Hanged-Man in Tarot that represents sacrifice and which Neptune Rules, he willingly sacrificed his reputation as honorable for his sister, Lyanna. He later sacrifices himself for his children when he died at Joffrey’s [little bitch] command. He is wise. Though appears cold, he is actually a well of feeling and caring. Unfortunately, he also suffered from the naivety of Neptunian influence which is why he wasn’t very skilled at the Game of Thrones, which calls for more tactical ruthlessness. Pisceans however also have the rage of Poseidon flowing through their veins [which people like to forget]. This was displayed when he pinned Petyr Baelish to the Wall in King’s Landing for daring to dishonor Cat by inviting her into a Brothel. RIP, King Stark.

[silwenworld]

Until The Last Petal Falls (Part 2 in the War Roses Series)

Summary: He could see the flowers floating before his eyes. A Bouquet. A single flower. Every time in different configuration but one thing was constant - the petals were falling away. Each time there were fewer and fewer petals attached to the stalk. And each time that happened, he could feel himself slipping further and further away.

Or: Captain Gold has a son to find and woman to come back to, and nothing short of dying will keep him from doing just that.

A continuation of the Rumbelle Showdown 2020 fic “The Dried Rose”

Category: M

CHAPTER 7 [AO3] [First Chapter]

Storybrooke was a small town with most of its residents being born and raised there as their parents and grandparents had been before them. Although it hadn't changed much throughout the years, the town itself wasn't spared from the dreads of wars that overtook Europe in the span of the last thirty years. Shortage in supplies had been one of the many consequences, but it wasn't so cumbersome as it could have been considering the close community of the townsfolk. Nevertheless, when the soldiers had come to town, everybody looked at them in distrust.  It wouldn't have been as much of a problem if not for the fact that they had drafted some of the younger men, thus leaving the people even more biased towards the newcomers.

Leroy hadn't been the only one who had remembered all too well the horrors of the first War, so when the soldiers came to stay, he had been the first to be all overly cautious of them. He had never talked about any of his worries, preferring a bottle of cheap alcohol to any nagging Martha Lucas could cause him - Wilfred's wife had always been good at that, he would give her that. Still, he had never felt comfortable around that woman. Wolf would probably slap him for even thinking badly about his wife and call him an idiot, but Leroy had never particularly cared about his friend's antics. He had been one weird man, albeit a good friend and every week since his death Leroy was drinking one glass of Scotch at the man's grave in honour of that friendship.

Well, the point was, Leroy hadn't trusted the soldiers that had came with the second War with the pretext of training exercises. Within two weeks, he had been quite confident most of those lads wouldn't be seeing the next day when sent to the battlefield. But they had improved, at least most of them. Those training exercises had been how he had met captain Gold or more accurately seen him. The man had been different from the others. It had been clear to anyone looking that he had preferred to spend most of his time alone. Leroy could respect that, but it had been weird, seeing some other officers scoff at the man, and him doing almost nothing. It hadn't seemed to bother him at all as he had carried out his duties. Leroy was quite sure that there had been no malice behind Gold's clipped answers and the way he had been interacting with others, but his almost cold demeanour had been the reason that almost no one had been missing him when the boys had been called to arms. At least that's how it would have been if then the kiss between the Captain and Belle French hadn't happened and the whole town hadn't been turned around on its axis.

And then when Gold had come back, even though he had been supposed to be dead, Leroy hadn't been surprised - men like Gold were determined to say the least, and the whole story that Gaston had presented had been scrappy at best, Leroy hadn't spent his time around Wolf to not to recognize those things. The man who had come back, though, had been different from the one who had set off.

Even now it was down to the details, but when looked close enough, one could see the contrast. The Captain was good at hiding it in public, a skill that spoke of an experience in the matter, and almost everyone could be fooled into believing that the War had left no mark on Gold. Leroy often wondered if it had something to do with the way the other officers had been looking down at the Scot or had he mastered that skill even earlier on.  

Well, it wasn't any of his business, and frankly, Leroy didn't want to know. But watched on he did. And through those months after the Captain's return, he had spotted another curious thing - Gary Gaston had been avoiding the man like the plague. He had never approached nor spoken to him, but Leroy could swear there had been something chilling in the young man's eyes when he was looking, no - glaring at the older man.

Curious.

And Unsettling.

*

The phrase nervous as a schoolboy was very accurate to his current state. One could have thought that he was 43 years old, for God's sake, not a sweating teenager, but that's how Gold felt right now. Not like a soldier - or at least an ex one - who had killed, lost men under his command and dragged himself almost literally from hell, but like a kid so apprehensive that tying the knot of his only tie was nearly an impossible task.

What on Earth had persuaded him that it was a good idea?

Gold sighed frustrated and let his hands fell to his sides in resignation, leaving the tie unmade. The answer was quite simple, really - it was Belle.

"I don't think, that's such a good idea, sweetheart."

"He won't bite you or anything you know? He's my dad, not a hound from hell."

"Sometimes I have doubts..." he murmured under his nose.

"What was that?"

"That I don't like crowds?" He answered lamely, which earned him a playful hit to the shoulder. Gold chuckled, rubbing the spot. "Sorry."

“Remind my, why do I keep spending my time with you?"

"You insist that it's love, but why is beyond me."

Belle bent down and kissed the end of his nose, smiling. "Yes, if it's not love I don't know what else it could have been."

So yeah, he had agreed to come to dinner at Belle's house, thus meeting her father properly for the first time. Come to think of it, it was quite an achievement, considering he had been back for months. Not that he had been talkative in the first place - Gold had traded maybe three sentences with the man before being shipped to the front, and now he was about to seat at the same table and manage a proper conversation. He had never been good at that, despised it even, and had wanted so badly to refuse, but the look on Belle's face had stopped him.

This dinner, for whatever reason, was important to her, she wanted him in her house and meeting her father. It was a step forward in their relationship that he was so afraid to take because, after that, there was only one step left. One he was dreading the most and couldn't push himself to make, at least not yet.

Grimacing, Gold grabbed his cane and limped towards the bed to sit heavily on the unmade bedding, his head dropping to his chest. Resigned, he pulled at the end of the tie, not looking as it hung limply in his hand, almost touching the ground. How easier it would have been to just stay in his room, but right after thinking it, he knew he couldn't do it. He had already missed the Chrismas dinner as a nasty case of pneumonia had decided it had been the best time to make him cough out his lungs. He still felt guilty about it as Belle had decided to spent almost all her free time with him then, putting cooling compresses on his fevered forehead when she should have been with her father instead.

To add to that, Gold wasn't blind nor stupid. Belle might have been smiling and telling him he just needed time and would be standing next to him through all of this, but he watched her when she thought he wasn't. She looked tired, to say the least, and he had caught her whipping her eyes more than once. Gold had tried to bring the subject subtly with Ruby Lucas but still couldn't find the right words how to do it. He was sure Belle was speaking with her friend, he really hoped she did, but Roy also knew that he was the reason behind her worries and confronting that fact was scaring him. He didn't want to be a burden, despised the fact that he was, but she kept on insisting on being there for him with every step, and no matter how much Gold hated it, he was glad that she did. Roy didn't want to think where he would have been if not for her.

But it was taking the toll on Belle and the least he could do was to go for a dinner with her father present at the table.

When younger, he had wanted to be a part of a bigger family as his own was lacking in every aspect, but had never gotten the opportunity to meet Millah's parents. It had never occurred to him at that time that maybe Millah's reluctance had been one of the early warning signs. She hadn't invited them to the wedding nor Bae's christening. His ex-wife it seemed hadn't been good at maintaining emotional bonds, and he, on the other hand, had been young and too eager to form them. It had been a miracle they had lasted together for as long as they had. Baylen had probably been the only thing keeping them together, but even that hadn't been enough in the end.

Baylen. 

Was he even alive at this point? He would have been eighteen by now, or more accurately, almost nineteen with his birthday coming in March, and the military could have been all too eager and drafted him by the end of the War... Gold hated the fact of how young the boys under his command had been, how young they had died... Could he even hope...?

Roy ran his hand through his hair, letting out a shaky breath. He needed to pull himself together. He had to. For Belle.  And his boy.

 Please, be alive. 

*

"I have a bad feeling about this."

"You'll do fine, papa."

"You know, I can maybe go to the shop? And you can spend some time toge- "

"We're spending most of our free time together. You know it's not about that."

"Right."

Moe had spent the week before Christmas almost going bald from the nervousness about sitting at the same table with Gold. He had scolded himself all that time and had almost been ready to face the Captain when the message about the man's sickness had come. Maurice had known he should have felt bad about the other man, but it hadn't been easy to hide the relief that had washed over him. Before he had known it, he had been nodding all too vigorously as Belle had told him the news, saying she would be checking on Gold. He had known the meeting sooner or later had to take place, but to say he didn't look forward to this was underestimate. In the months after the Captain's return, Moe had learned to accept the fact that his daughter did love the man and that it hadn't been some fleeting feeling. He didn't have to like him, though. Moe had one opinion about the soldiers, and it wasn't a nice one.

"You'll do fine, papa. You'll see that you'll find something to talk about."

Well, it was inevitable. Moe sighed and cut the stems of the red roses that he freshly arranged into a bouquet then glanced at his daughter leaning against the counter.

"Alright. You can invite the Captain over to the dinner if he's willing."

"He has a name, you know."

Moe just muttered approvingly, focusing more on putting the roses into a vase. They would do nicely for the new years event; the mayor would be peased.

He didn't see Gary Gaston slipping to the back of the shop with a grave expression.

*

Deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

Easy.

Yet not so in the slightest.

Wrapped in the thick woollen coat - a Christmas present from Belle which cost he really didn't want to spend to much time focusing on - Gold watched the mist that left his mouth. Despite the cold, the hand that held the cane was sticky with sweat. He had been standing like that for what felt like hours, but probably were mere minutes wondering if he should knock or not.

He had almost done so when an unwanted realization had stopped him. He had never been to Belle's house before. Yes, he had stood on the next side of the road many times, but had never set a foot over the porch.

It was a lovely house, painted a soft yellow, with an entrance through the flower shop overgrown with vines that had once been Belle's mother's pride and joy. Now, preserved and ran by Moe, it was one of the best-known places in Storybrooke.

Gold corrected the satchel on his left shoulder and took a step forward. It would not do to stand there like a scarecrow. He was almost touching the doorbell when the doors had opened, and someone would have almost barreled into him if Roy's reflexes weren't quicker.

"Sorry, I di -. Captain. "

The sentence was cut short as it seemed the owner of the terse, low voice had realized into whom he had almost walked in. Gold had bearly managed to avoid the collision only thanks to his instincts that had him twisting his shoulder just enough to only brush against the other man. He didn't need to look up to know who had been now blocking his path. It was easy to guess, and quite an achievement on itself that the encounter had happened just now and not a long time beforehand.

Gold drew himself up to his full height, trying to lean on his cane as little as possible. It didn't help much as he was still a lot shorter than the other man, but it had never stopped him from intimidating him.

"Sargent. Haven't seen you for a while - how have you been?"

Gold's tone was light as if he was conversating about the weather, but his eyes were slightly narrowed, betraying that the encounter hadn't been a nice one in the slightest. There was an edge to his voice too, but he doubted that Gary Gaston had noticed it. Neither this nor the fact that Gold's fingers curled tighter around the cane's handle as his ankle screamed at him to elevate the weight that he was now putting on it.

"A lot of work, sir. Glad to have you back."

I bet it is.

"Yes. I've been told I've been declared dead in action. What a relief that I wasn't, won't you say?"

"Yes, sir. A huge relief."

Lair.

He could see it in the other man's posture - the want to say and do a complete opposite of the words that were leaving his mouth. Gold had spent enough time around Sargent Gaston to be able to read him like an open book, and it wasn't hard really. Besides, the younger man had already tried to get rid of him once, so Roy wondered what was stopping him from acting. But Gaston kept on standing as he had been - back straight like during the drills. The thing that betrayed him had been the muscle in his cheek that kept on spasming now and again.

"Well, I must be going. I have a dinner to attend to, you see."

Gold watched for a reaction and Gaston didn't disappoint. His right eyelid twitched, his jaw clenched and it seemed that he tried really hard not to ball his hands into fists.

"Of course, sir. I won't keep you waiting."

Oh, you already did.

Gold could feel the man's eyes on his back as he turned around, his every instinct screaming at him not to expose himself - the last time his back was turned Gaston had put a bullet through his shoulder. And it had been Gaston - now Roy was more sure of that than ever.

But he did turn around and limped through the flower shop's door and even when they closed behind him, he could swear, Gaston's gaze was still drilling holes in his back even through the wood.

He purposefully didn't turn around and tried to ignore the itching between his shoulder blades. Gold wasn't an amateur. He knew how to mask his emotions most of the time - he wouldn't have gotten to where he was now if he didn't - so he limped further into the shop without a glance back.

The place itself wasn't big - cluttered with flowers at every possible surface and all, but it gave away a homely feel. It was easy to spot Belle's hand in some areas. There - a careful arrangement of blue hyacinths with golden ribbons on the far right and then the bouquet of roses arranged in a heart in the middle of the display. She had mentioned once that putting flowers into shapes calmed her mind. It was something she had inherited from her mother it had seemed.

Gold looked around, unsure of where to go next, feeling like a fish out of water. Noone seemed to be at the front, and there was no move at the back indicating either Belle or her father hiding there, so not wanting to snoop around, he made his way towards the counter. The curiosity got better of him when he spotted a small photo frame, sitting on the edge. Gold picked it up without thinking, the corner of his mouth curling slightly when fully seeing the photograph.

A young woman was sitting on a rocking chair and smiling while holding a wee baby girl. Even without the colour, it was quite obvious who the woman was - her eyes and mouth were the same shape as Belle's not to mention the wavy hair. If the woman was who he thought she was then the child... Gold's smile winded.

"I'm sorry, we're closed! Oh." Gold bearly stopped himself from jumping in surprise and letting go of the frame upon hearing the low voice. He turned around and found himself looking at Belle's very uncomfortably looking father.

"Mr French. I apologize for barging in. The door was unlocked."

"Yes, yes. Not your fault, Captian."

By the look of it, it seemed that Gold wasn't the only one nervous about the oncoming dinner. Moe rubbed his hands on his trousers, then made a gesture towards the door. "Just a moment."

Gold watched him turning the lock, only realizing that he was still holding on to the frame when French's gaze fell back on it after turning around. The silence that followed couldn't be more awkward.

"Belle resembles her mother a lot,"  remarked Gold while putting the frame back on its previous place, trying for a casual tone.

"Oh, she does. And not only in looks."

Not knowing what more there was to say they stood watching one another for good two minutes before French remembered that it would be better for both of them to head upstairs.

Yes, the dinner had already started to look like quite a disaster.

*

How a simple dinner could become an awkward affair was quite beyond her. Belle fisted her hand under the table, trying really hard not to bang her head on any of the china. It wasn't like she didn't notice and appreciated the effort that both men were putting into this assemble, no. The problem was, they were trying too hard it seemed - both of them.

Her father looked like he wanted to bolt away any minute from the start, but he had politely inclined about the weather and Roy, looking like he had been facing a fairing squad would answer even more politely to his enquiries.

They were dancing around each other, shooting her sideways glances from time to time, and it was making Belle want to bang their heads together. She really didn't know what to do.

Roy had been back for months, and even if he looked and acted better than he had at first, she knew that a considerable part of it was just an act or more likely an act that slowly was becoming a reality. She made her peace that he would probably never tell her about what had happened during the War, but she wished he would trust her enough to know it didn't matter to her. She just wished he would understand and believe that he wasn't as worthless with his disabilities as he thought himself to be.

She had thought she had lost him once.

That belief, that feeling - it had almost destroyed her. She didn't want to feel it again. It didn't change the fact that the helplessness was slowly getting to her.

"43."

"Oh? And you say you fought in the First War?"

Belle was pulled back from her thoughts by the sudden change of topic. It looked like her father had stopped bitting around the bush and judging by the look on Roy's face, it would have been better if he hadn't.

"But that would make you - "

"16. Now lads had only gotten younger."

The silence that fell over the table felt heavy. Nobody liked to talk about the losses that the War had caused, most of all, Roy. A shadow fell over his face every time the topic was breached, and now it seemed, those scars laid far deeper in his past than she had thought.

"I didn't know you have fought then," Belle whispered, looking down on the plate. She wasn't even born then, and Roy had already... She glanced up, and he sent her a small yet sad smile.

"That last year hadn't been one of the fondest memories."

16...

"Hey," she glanced up when she felt his hand on hers under the table, squeezing reassuringly. Roy was still smiling, even if it didn't reach his eyes. "It's in the past. Not important."

She rotated her hand, threading her fingers through his and squeezed back.

"Nothing that's part of you is unimportant."

His smile winded, not enough to show his teeth, but enough to finally to reach his eyes and he was just about to answer when a clutter of cutlery made both of them jump in their sits. Belle turned her head towards her father, bearly resisting from grinning at how he tried not to look affected, busing his hands with cleaning the splatters of soup on the table with a napkin.

"How silly of me. Clumsy and all, can't reach for a cigarette without a mess," Moe muttered, not looking at them but the flush on his cheeks betraying him.

Belle chuckled then and stood up, taking the napkin from her father and kissing him on the cheek.

"I'll leave the two of you to your smoking and be back in a minute, all right?"

She needed some fresh air.

"You sure?" Moe looked up, his eyes running over her face, searchingly. "I can clean up - "

"It's fine, papa. Relax. You both behave yourselves."

The remark made both Gold and her father almost choke on their drinks, and she shook her head while taking the dishes away.

"Men," she muttered.

Gold watched her go with a lump forming in his throat, briefly wondering if she was doing it on purpose. He knew she needed time to breathe, the small remark that he had been a part of the First War seemed to shake her, and he chid himself for not speaking about it sooner. Maybe then the air between them would have been cleaner? But he had seen no reason to add to the already heavy baggage of guilt. Besides the topic had just simply never come up.

"Well, it seemed we had been left once again alone," Belle's father muttered which made Gold glance in his direction. "Care for a smoke, Captain?"

The corner of Gold's mouth twitched.

"I never say no to that."

They smoked in silence; both of them focused on the smoke rising and dancing in the air. When younger, Gold liked to look for shapes and make rings that rose high towards the ceiling, he had a brief memory of his son clapping at the display those rare times Roy had been smoking indoors.   He didn't know when he had ceased doing those silly things.

"Colette wanted me to stop," remarked Moe as he shook ashes from the cigarette. "Couldn't bring myself to do it, honestly. A nasty habit."

Gold grimaced. "Belle doesn't like it either."

"She's stubborn, I warn you. She got it after her mother."

Gold didn't answer. Instead, he flexed his fingers over the handle of his cane that rested against his leg. Stubborn was one way to put it.

"You got any children, Captain?"

He closed his eyes briefly, inhaling the smoke. That question was one of the reasons he hated small talks. Gold knew he could lie, or brush it aside, but something in him didn't want to. A little honesty wouldn't hurt, would it?

"A son," he answered, managing not to react to the surprise written all over French's face and resisting from riching towards the absent pendant. He took a long drag instead. "He's away." More or less.

"Well then," Moe cleared his throat. "As a parent speaking to a parent, you must understand why I'm worried."

"Mr. French - "

"No, Captain, Let me finish." - He raised his hand, looking at the ex-soldier through the smoke. "I can't say I like any of it. I can't say I understand. But what I can say is that I want my daughter happy. So, are we on the same page here?"

Gold looked to the side, through the doorway that Belle had disappeared earlier. Yes, he had remembered how she had told him how her father had been insistent about her relationship with Gaston, but could he blame him? If he was in Maurice's shoes, wouldn't he act the same? On one side, a young man and a friend of the family while on the other, there had been an old soldier, new to the town and unfamiliar - Moe's choice and opinion weren't as surprising when faced with the facts.

He turned his gaze back towards the other man. "Yes. I think we are."

"Good." They lit another cigarette. "Have you thought about proposing?"

Gold choked on the smoke. How could that be that it was the man, who had looked like he had wanted to escape earlier was the same one as asking those questions?

"I think that this matter is more between Belle and me," he remarked, not wanting to dwell on the subject.

Moe shrugged his shoulders. "I would have given you her mother's ring, but I had pawned it years ago. I was quite - "

"Would you excuse me for a moment?" Gold stood up, putting out the cigarette and gripping his cane tightly. A polite talk he could do, but this conversation was starting to enter areas that he really didn't want to poke.

"Yes, yes, of course."

Judging by how relieved Belle's father looked at the announcement, he was more than happy to let it go.

Gold limped through the doorway, but not finding Belle anywhere near the kitchen he made his way towards the open balcony door. The air was chilly, as adequate for early January, and Gold shivered as a gush of wind blew some of the snowflakes against his face. He cautiously stepped over the threshold, instantly spotting Belle by the railing. She was leaning on her elbows, her cheeks red from the cold, although dressed in a heavy coat - his coat.

"You'll catch a cold if you keep standing there, you know?"

She didn't jump when hearing his voice only slightly turned in his direction, a smile dancing across her lips.

"Care to warm me up, then?"

His eyes softened, and without hesitation, he draped his arm over her shoulder, enjoying the warmth that spread inside of him as Belle snuggled closer, bringing her arms around his middle.

She didn't speak for a while, face buried in Roy's coat, listening to his heartbeat as her cheek rested on his chest. He smelled of tobacco that weirdly didn't match him as her father smoked a different brand, but beneath it, there was that other smell that was so undoubtedly his that it made her feel safe and calm.

"Did my father scared you off?" she mumbled.

"Hmm? No, I don't think so. He... um, he spoke of proposing, though," he added after a moment, hesitant. She could feel his shoulders tensing.

She glanced up, searching his eyes, but he avoided looking at her. She didn't know what to feel. Hope? Fear?

"Roy - "

"Would you like me to?" He interrupted, meeting her gaze. There was something in his eyes that she didn't know how to read. Uncertainty? "To propose, I mean."

"And would you?"

A question for a question. Only fair, considering they both seemed to know the answer.

Roy sighed, looking into the distance.

"Of course, I would. But is it bad that not yet? I- Well, yeah."

Belle couldn't help but smile softly and only after a moment she climbed on her toes and kissed him on the cheek.

"No. How about we both wait a little bit longer, then?"

"I'm sorry, I keep worrying you. You don't deserve that."

"Roy - "

"No. Let me finish," Roy interrupted her for a second time, twisting so he could look her in the eye. "You can't keep doing this to yourself, Belle. When was the last time you went out with Ms Lucas or anyone else?"

Her silence was enough of an answer, so Gold took her chilly hands in his. "I can't love you enough for what you're doing for me, but you need to take care of yourself too. It's enough that one of us is, well, not enough."

By the end, he wasn't looking at her anymore, and Belle rubbed her hand over his cheek to comfort him as best as she could. They were quite a pair.

"You're enough for me."

He turned his face and kissed her palm.

"I love you."

"I love you too, and you're right, but you can't stop me from worrying."

"I worry too, you know?"

She giggled lightly. Yes, quite a pair they were.

"How about a deal?" She asked, taking a step away from him.

"You want to make a deal with me?" He asked, frowning.

"Yep. I will try not to over-worry, and you'll try not to think about yourself as inadequate."

He raised his brow.

"Hard terms, but it seems fair, I admit."

"Then deal it is, captain Gold."

"All right, miss French. A deal is struck." They shock their hands just as a chill went down both of their bodies, making them shiver. "Now, how about we head inside, or your father may wonder what we have gotten into."

Belle giggled then hugged him one last time before taking his hand into hers and tugging him towards the flat. "God forbid, he came looking."

The rest of the dinner went more smoothly, but as Gold returned to his small room, the remark that Belle's father made about his wife's wedding band kept playing over in his head. There was only one pawn shop in Storybrooke. Maybe it was time to make a short visit there.

*

Gary Gaston stood outside the flower shop door for a long time after they had closed after captain Gold.

He didn't know what to do. After he had heard about the accident involving Nottingham, he had hoped the man would be in bad enough shape to do Gary a little favour and die, but it seemed to be a futile hope. Getting his own hands on Gold was continuing to be a problem considering he was hardly ever alone...

Some would think that Gary had forgotten, that he had gotten over the humiliation that was loosing to an older man, but no, he hadn't. Nor had he forgiven.

A lone snowflake fell on the tip of his nose, making him look up to the sky.

Well, he had been inpatient and too sure of himself once. He wouldn't make the same mistake again.

Gary Gaston turned on his heel and marched towards his home.

It didn't matter if Gold suspected him or not - a good hunter could wait as long as needed, and if anything, Gary was a good hunter.

[shiro-0197]

Hii love. KSJDJSDJSJ !!! 😭😭😭 Thank you for those cute pics of Tae and Kook, aah my heart melted, ㅠㅠ I love you.

honestly? I'd be that roommate. I set 20 alarms for myself and I literally only wake up after the 15th one. Fear me 😝 you're right!! I find that we do great stuff when we don't have the phone to distract us, and I'm really so glad you think so too. Hey, fantasizing is cool! Kinda like brainstorming, yk? It'd be so cool if you wrote down the ideas you came up with :> the lyrics, oh god, please don't judge me but that song is amazing.

🥺🥺I love you, and I'm so glad you're resting and getting enough sleep. You deserve it, especially after all the exam pressure you've been under. Please take care 🥺🥺

that one year when everyone played "happy" was literally a golden era. Sometimes, I listen to classical music when I wake up :D

oh that's good!! History book? Like a yearbook? That's so cool tho >.< Good luck, Cookie! Leave your mark ;D

the art is beautiful indeed. The book really depicts them better than history does.

They were obviously in love but historians were like "wow, homies!! Bros!! Friends!!" grr.

ahhh I totally get it!! I can't resist taking a thousand screenshots either. I hope the WiFi improves :D

:( Yeah I've been super bummed because of that, but I asked my dad earlier and he said it's okay to watch it as long as I get up early and do it when my younger brothers aren't awake. (I guess my mom's not okay with the LGBT+ elements. most Asian parents here are very boomer-ish) but I'm gonna wake up early tomorrow and watch it by myself :')

you really are one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I love you, and I hope you're staying safe. *Sends a ton of virtual hugs* FEEL HUGGED, BAE 💖💖✨

—Ari

Hi Shortcake!! So sorry for taking so long ;д; I was very tired lately. I hope you got to have at least a little bit of a rest😔 dont forget. Also, I love you too<33

No worries, I'd wake you up after the 3rd alarm😋 I'm no traitor. Yeah, exactly, and I wish I didnt have my phone in my free time :// maybe then I'd study Japanese properly. For now I only know like 15 kanjis -,- which might seem like a lot for a beginner but 15 out of 1500 isnt much, including the fact that I had the book for like 5 months? 私, 君, 僕, 猫, 水, 人, 犬, 家, 日, 白, 黒, 色, 女, 天気, 月 these are all I know😔

True, true, you're right. I guess I should have a notebook for my ideas, because playing them out in my head isn't gonna be helpful xD dont worry, I'm not here to judge. I'm the one listening to Cult of Dionysus over here

I guess you cant really call it a yearbook? Because that's just my grade writing down all the events that happened in our five years, because we were bored. We're gonna get it printed and give out to each student and their class teachers and mentors:)

Yeahh, historians reaaaally didn't like these relationships 😔💔 at least we know the truth, that's all that matters😝

Yeah, and honestly I cleaned my gallery and it's been so much better somehow. I really had to be absolutely dead inside to heartlessly delete EVERY screenshot without even looking if its important or not. Cuz, like, what's a few thousand pictures gonna do ? I really hope so as well, cuz honestly I can't stand just sitting here trying to save up my data:/

I'm glad you're allowed to watch it now !!! Your dad rules. Also yeah, so many older people are like that. It's scary. I've been afraid to ask my mom what she thinks about that. I'll ask when I know I'm safe 😗

Oh god, you too!! I love you, I missed talking to you :(( i hope you're doing great! AND YEAH I FEEL YOUR HUGS ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

[inspitecomfortingsounds]

cinnamon boy

I don’t feel alright, in spite of these comforting sounds you make.

To say I’m devastated would be an understatement. 

When we were messaging and you said that you were you know what I was talking about when I mentioned a bigger issue, I was disappointed when you just mentioned our relationship and our sex life. How could you not see it was something else?

See, when I went through your phone a while back and saw all that stuff and we had a “good talk” that one night, I feel like you thought it was all gonna be put behind us. And at first I did too. But did you really think an apology and you reassuring me you loved me so much and that it would never happen again was going to solve everything?

Like I’ve said before, I forgive easily. And I really do. Almost to a fault. And while I kinda feel like I’ve always been this way, I’m starting to think it is a fault. After being hurt so many times in the past, I was subconsciously assuring myself that I deserved all of this pain, this abuse, this mistreatment that people were causing me. 

And while I did forgive you, it really didn’t fix everything. You see, something changed. Someone was lost. I felt like my love for you changing. Like it was dying. And I’ve been trying so hard to pretend like it hasn’t but meanwhile I feel like while I’ve been experiencing resentment. While I thought this emotion was reserved for Nico, I’ve been realizing that it’s not. And as much as I try and forget and move on from this notion, part of me feels like it’s growing stronger. 

It was one thing to find that you tried to fuck someone (whom you previously expressed a distaste for) at our own party. Someone I’ve known longer than you have. Someone I’ve known longer than you. At least one person in this fucked up community had the decency to be considerate and actually turn you down to a degree. But after seeing your convo, especially the part talking about how you wanted to fuck him but couldn’t because I was still awake? That made me sick to my stomach. Still does.

No only this but seeing that you’ve been swapping photos and videos w/people and texting them vile things about you want to taste them and eat their hole and fuck them etc while you’re with me, the fact that you’ve been doing this consistently since we’ve been together? What the fuck.

On top of this, the VERY first night I don’t stay w/you while I’m at this cabin, you hop on grindr and decide to go for the person just barely more pathetic than you. Bryan? That sad excuse of a human being trying to hang and prey on younger, cuter gays that walking STD, someone you also loved to talk shit about (am I sensing a theme), an old pathetic loser that we’ve all expressed how much of a creep he his. Can I not leave you alone for one night? On top of that, you lied about what happened. Do you think I’m fucking stupid? Saying that not much happened at all and that y’all just made out? I knew that wasn’t true because I’m not a dumbass but I had to fish out of you that y’all gave each other head. And if more happened and you’re not telling me, you’re  fucking coward. I better not find out first before you admit it. 

This has all made me so much more depressed. I can’t blame anyone for my actions or addictions, but I’ve been detoxing these past couple weeks because I’ve been using more and more. To escape my depression, my hurt, my pain. You. 

If I hadn’t found all that shit on my own, were you ever going to tell me on your own? How long were you going to keep this from me? Forever. When I cheated on my first ex, I told him about right away. Because it was fucked up for me to do, because I hurt someone who loved me, and because they deserved to know the truth. Because I’m at least somewhat of a decent human being. 

You know after we talked about all this and I admitted to you that I didn’t mind if you were sexting people or what have you, you told me you didn’t want to or have a desire to because you said that it was trashy. But more importantly because you said it was disrespectful. And that gave me some glimpse of assurance, of hope. Until you changed the password on your phone not long after because you didn’t want me going through your phone anymore. Which I understand to a degree, but after all that had transpired, what were you thinking? Planning on doing what you’ve been doing to me what you’ve been doing all along?

I was planning on writing so much more about all this and how I felt about it. I came home tonight in a good mood. I had so much motivation. I was going to garden, do laundry, clean up around the house. That changed completely.

You didn’t lose your phone. I took it. I hadn’t even wanted to go through your phone out of fear of what I would see. What I didn’t know couldn’t hurt me, right? I guess not. You assured me you stopped talking to jake and that you had no desire to yet you’ve been doing it this whole time. For the record, I didn’t say anything to him about us fucking, I just asked him why he seemed so surprised that you and I were fucking after he asked me. And he seemed pretty fucking surprised. I don’t know why you’d ever believe anything he says over me. I also don’t know why you’re still not over him after assuring me you wanted nothing to do with him whatsoever.

And after you changed your password on your phone, I discovered that all my suspicions were accurate. But what I found was so much fucking worse. 

You know I wasn’t so upset that you didn’t water my flowers as I was w/the fact that you told me so many times you would do it and then admitted to me you purposefully didn’t because it was too hot outside and wanted me to do it instead. More importantly, if you asked me to do anything at all for you, I would drop anything to do it. Because I love you. You know how much my flowers mean to me, but the real issue with this whole thing, is that you only help people when it conveniences you. Which sickens me. I became a nurse because I wanted to care and love for people. People that I didn’t even know. No matter how much I didn’t feel like it or how much it inconvenienced me. But that’s not the case with you. 

You’re selfish. Besides driving me to work and back and letting me use your car, how do you show that you love me? Apart from us calling each other bae, pecking each other goodbye and cuddling at night, what even makes us a couple? 

What sucks is that you were cheating on Ty the whole time and every time you tell me about a story, you express no remorse. Almost sound proud of it. I feel like bad for him that he had to endure so much pain you caused him. I honestly wish I had known more about it sooner. 

You’ve been hitting up guys, sexting them, telling them nasty shit. You know I’ve felt insecure about feeling that you’re not attracted to me. In fact, when have you ever  told me I was handsome or beautiful or sexy w/out me having to drag it out of you? And when you do and say that I’m the only one you wanna be with and how attracted you are to me, why do you hit up all these other nasty ugly guys begging to taste them and hook up w/him?

Why do you all your stories involve you hooking up w/someone? And ugly ratchet people at that? To make yourself feel better about yourself because you’re more attractive than them? You know, it seems like all you care about it your appearance and hooking up w/disgusting pigs to validate yourself. 

And why’d you have to make  me feel so stupid about showing up at Bryans unannounced when I hung out w/him before you when he was so into me? And how did you have the audacity to come so fucking hard at me about Tommy when I’ve literally done nothing with him and only said I thought he was kinda cute and you lost your shit about when you’ve been w/Bryan and have been cheating on me this whole time? Like fuck, serioulsy the audacity blows me mind. 

You make me feel ugly and disgusting and pathetic and gross and hurt and depressed. Sometimes all I feel like you ever do is make me cry. 

I hope you’re satisfied. I hope you feel validated. I hope you’re getting what you want in life. Because you’re tearing me down in this process.

[lgcdanbi]

lexicon

                                  it was always this way: the more people talked, the                                   more they obscured.                                                                                                        m. barry

legacy project: future dreams, trainee entrance. mentioned @lgcjolie, @lgcxhana, @lgcjaein, @lgcharu, @lgcjueun, @lgcsoyoun, @lgcsarang, @lgcxjieun. she could smell the privilege from a mile away—from the later filming date, to the separate portion of the episode set aside specifically for the returning contestants. the ‘veteran’ treatment, or so they call it, and as the lot of them are herded into the studio, she finds herself instinctually counting the dozen or so returning trainees’ heads before taking the last seat for herself.

they’re suddenly greeted with a glowing television screen, paired with an edited compilation of footage from the previous week that highlights the new contestants’ interviews and the like before them. she almost-perfectly displays the broadcast-ready expressions she’s practiced countless times in front of the bathroom mirror with each new trainee shown on screen; though, she keeps her reactions to the male trainees at a decent minimum, in fear of any potential scandals and whatnot (of course, she can’t help the subconscious murmuring of “my son” under her breath as haru introduces himself to the audience—a mom-like smile tugging at the corner of her lips as she mentally notes how he needs a haircut).

she melodramatically cringes at jolie’s introduction, exclaiming out of secondhand embarrassment from the phrase ‘cutie-sexy-lovely’ (and internally applauding the other for actually saying those words with her own mouth). danbi’s eyes widen at hana’s brightly-colored hair, before turning into a half-moon shape as a wide grin faded onto her features at jane’s appearance—though, she sets a reminder in her head to scold her friend later over not choosing a higher (and well-deserved) ranking. she then giggles at jueun’s sudden, surprised, yet cute bow to bae siwoo, and even lets out a drawn-out ‘ooh’ (parallel to that of the last syllable of soyoun’s greeting) when the other brunette speaks into the microphone. danbi even instinctually lets a frown materialize at sarang’s rapping, as irrational thoughts of rivalry immediately invade her brain—it takes her a second to realize that she’s also being closely recorded, and quickly readjusts her gaze in response. the scowl doesn’t last for long, though, as she widely smiles at jieun’s arrival, even allowing an excited ‘yes!’ in reaction to the younger’s perfectly-hit high notes.

at this point, hours have passed of them (quite literally) watching television, and it’s only when they’re finally met with a black screen and formed into a line for their own interviews does danbi remember that she, too, is a contestant on the very same survival show she had just been observing.

how are you feeling about being here for a second time?

“i’m excited! and nervous—but mostly excited! we got such a good response from the first season, and once we finished filming, i already missed being in front of our fans. so i’m grateful for the opportunity to quickly greet everyone who showed us so much love from the beginning.”

what worries you the most about being a returning contestant? do you think you have any rivals among the new contestants?

“there’s definitely an added sense of pressure from being a returning trainee. since we were introduced to the public much earlier, there’s higher expectations for us, and i’m just worried that i may not live up to those expectations. but i came here to work hard and to show my best, so i hope my efforts will be properly conveyed to the audience.

i don’t think i have any exact ‘rival’---we’re all so different, and everyone here is so talented. if i had to choose one person, though ... maybe jolie? since we’re in the same training group and since i see her more often than the others, she might be my biggest competition among the new contestants? we’ll just have to see, of course.”

[littlealiengrl09]

TROS Review

Things I liked, things I didn’t like...and all the things in between. 

- Kylo’s interest piqued when Palpatine said he could give him “everything”. if that hadn’t included rey, he would’ve been like “peace” but instead was all “aight ima head out and find rey.” lol

-Knights of Ren walking together like if they’re about to drop a “Backstreet’s back, alright!” cover :P

- “Knight of Ren. Goals.” XD Loved that stormtrooper. 

- Kylo was hawt in that board meeting. Kylo/Adam is just hawt in general.

- My boy practically daring Hux to say shit about his helmet. XD

- Ren throwing that FO officer up to the ceiling. 

- Rey’s training was cool 

- Kylo and Rey were meditating right around the same time. Couple’s goals!

- The shared vision of the past/future! How does Rey not know they’re soulmates by this point?

- Very nice to see Leia again as well as how her relationship with Rey has progressed. 

- Some...almost all of the humor in this movie was lackluster, including Poe and Rey’s frustrated banter with each other over the flaming falcon/BB-8 which I think was meant to be funny, but they talked over each other so much that sometimes you hardly understand them and just end up frustrated with both of them.

- So it seems like Finn might still have feelings for Rey. Not really sure how I feel about that. At one point, he says he wants to tell her something but wants to tell her alone. He never gets to. I assume it was to confess his feelings. 

- XD Liiittle bit of Stormpilot. Haha Poe was so jealous. “What? You want to tell her when Poe isn’t around?” 

- Reylo’s first force bond vision in over a year! Kylo just sounds so hawt speaking to her through his voice modulator.

- “I offered you my hand once before.” SOUNDS STRAIGHT FROM A VICTORIAN DRAMA PPL.

- “You wanted to take my hand back then so why didn’t you?” “You didn’t kill me back then? Why didn’t YOU?”

“You can’t keep running from me, Rey. I will turn you to the dark side and we’ll rule together. The next time I offer my hand, you’ll take it. ” “We’ll see.” -snatches Rey’s necklace off her neck- Kylo’s UST was showing in this scene. 

- Sorry, I’m dumb but I found that scene hawt lol reminded me of that one scene from Phantom of the Opera (2004 movie).

- Rey force healing the desert serpent. I love her...but that was a very Mary Sue moment. 

- Kylo walking unscathed like a boss out of the wreckage of his Silencer. 

- The power struggle they both had over the FO ship.

- The longing on Kylo’s face as he watches Rey walk away. He sees the anguish on her face at the thought of losing Chewy and he just LETS HER GO. They’re enemies and he just lets her walk away. This man is so in love with her. 

- Their force fight in Ren’s quarters/Kijimi.

- “I know where she’s at now. She was in my quarters.” :D Why do I feel like it made him a little happy to know she was in his private area/bedroom? 

- Kylo takes off his helmet AGAIN just for Rey. Offers his hand to her again and asks her to join him.

- The Lando/Zorii/Jannah/Pryde cameos were alright but brought little to the story honestly. 

- Ok...everyone kept saying that Finn was mad horny/flirting with everyone in this movie. LMAO Were we watching the same movie? Cuz he literally never flirts with anyone in this movie. Not once. Not even Jannah. They have a brief “moment” when they realize they’re both stormtroopers who deserted but I wasn’t getting romantic vibes or anything. They were just kindred spirits. 

- Darth Rey was cool. Not sure why she had fangs briefly lol. Althought brief, the fight Rey had against Darth Rey was cool. 

- Rey realizing that Kylo has arrived when he picks up the wayfinder she accidentally dropped. 

- “The only way you’re going to Exogol is if it’s with me.” Baes stay together <3

- Proceeds to crush the wayfinder with his bare hand and brute strength. Why is everything about this man so hawt? XD I know I’m crazy! The thirst is real loool

- Kylo does some mad dodging in this scene 

- Water fight was good 

- Didn’t like that she stabbed him but made up for it by force healing him.

- “I did want to take your hand back then. Ben’s hand.”

- His face upon realization that she really does want him

- So he could’ve turned sooner if she had admitted she’s in love with Ben? 

- That shot of Ben on the Death Star by himself with his knee bent looking like a lonely prince.

- Kylo’s talk with Han and how it mirrored their last talk.

- He calls him dad!

- The audience cheered when Kylo threw his lightsaber into the sea! XD 

- Ppl weren’t lying when they said some stuff didn’t make sense in this movie. Maybe Rey’s mom had been a nobody but her dad certainly wasn’t. And why did they skip over the part we all clearly heard in the last movie about Rey being “sold for drinking money.” 

- Jodie Comer as Rey’s mom! Love it! Great resemblance!

- Ben Solo gunning it with a blaster on his way to save his space bae! 

- When I say Adam looks so good in this movie, I’m not kidding! He somehow looks even younger in this movie, including his scenes as Ben Solo!

- Loved the part of course the lightsaber trick Reylo did through the force dyad.

- Rey laying on the ground, weakly calling out to the force “be with me...” over and over again 

- The audience cheered when Ben’s hand appeared at the edge of the ravine! 

- The way he limps/drags himself over to Rey’s dead body. ;( I could hear him breathe Rey’s name quickly. And how he gently cradles her body. His hand so soft on her neck. Him glancing around for help before holding her tightly against his body. I teared up so much watching Adam in this scene. He’s such a phenomenal actor!

- The Reylo kiss! I always knew Rey would kiss him first. The way he throws his arm around her instantly. A group of Reylo girls cheered at this part! His beautiful grin and chuckle! 

- The way the audience just gasped as they watch him lie back and fade away. :/ 

- He did finish what Darth Vader started. He gave his life for the woman he loved and could not live without. That kiss was probably the happiest moment of his life. 

- Lame how we get little of Rey’s reaction and how instantly switches to party mode. -___-

- Not even one last force ghost moment between Kylo and Rey. They couldn’t even give us THAT.

Rating: 7/10

Was not a super amazing film. The pacing was off, so was some of the dialogue and that ending was atrocious. Bring Ben Solo back, Disney! #BenSoloDeservedBetter

BONUS: XD On a side note, I went to watch CATS with my friend to try to cheer up after TROS. There’s something wrong with my crazy ass cuz I see Reylo in everything including this movie. :P You guessed it. The black and white cat (named Victoria and Mistoffeles). There’s one scene where they nuzzle and my friend (who is an anti-reylo btw) out of now where says “I would like Kylo and Rey together if they nuzzled like that.” Lmao I was like wut XD

I thought about Ben Solo a lot on the way home. I’m thinking someday if I have a son I’ll name him Ben as a way to honor him. When I got home, I just felt so numb. I couldn’t even cross the threshold. I just stayed outside for a few moments. I just felt so hopeless, especially when I saw I couldn’t see any stars out at all tonight. I teared up again. That’s all I’ve been doing lately, evening during Ben’s death scene. I feel like I’ll start bawling any day now once more time passes. 

Disney, do us all a favor. If you’re gonna upload TROS onto Disney + then at least upload it with an alternate ending. Give it to the fans. They deserve  it after this torture train you’ve put them through with lie and empty promises. Ugh, I feel so empty. I feel like in losing Ben Solo I lost a part of myself/a family member. If anyone wants to talk about TROS/Reylo with me, message me so we can cry/hug/rant together about it.