#I HOPE SHE'S TEACHING IT SHE'S AO FUCKING GOOD

[spaciebabie]

i rlly was freaked out abt this school year n i got ta my first two classes n everything was fine lmao.

we started integrating in calc 2 taday n all of the sudden the numbers n math flew back into my brain omg i forgot how much i love doing this

[alexshakestheworld]

Fics Rec

Below are some of my favorite fanfics of all times. Most of them would probably be from AO3 (Archive of Our Own ) but sometimes I scout for fics outside of AO3 as well, if I find something worth reading I would put it here too.

I do read fanfics from multiple fandoms but I would make sure to include a tag so that you can know if there is any fic about your OTP in my list.

❤️Spirk (Star Trek: Spock x Jim Kirk): my favorite pairing of all times, though I prefer the AOS version to the TOS. I have read these fanfics so long ago that I can’t remember the content (so I apologize for the lack of my own comment/review) but if I bookmarked them they must have been good enough lol

Once Upon a Time (A Fairy-Tale Love Story) (by littlebirdtold): 47,461 words/6 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: In a universe with no Federation, where First COntact never happened, Jim Kirk is your average popular guy. On Christmas Eve, thanks to a series of strange events, Jim finds himself in a parallel universe where the Milky Way is under the control of an alien race and ends up as a servant in the residence of the Royal House of Vulcan. As he starts adapting to his new life, Jim’s curiosity fucks everything up - but hey, Vulcans shouldn’t have told him that he isn’t allowed to enter this wing of the palace; Jim has never been good at following rules. Or, this is the story of how Jim Kirk became a Princess (“Prince Consort, Bones!”) of the United Planets of Vulcan Kingdom.

Honestly, go read every single one of littlebirdtold’s fanfics. He/she/they are incredible and I’m still waiting for his/her/their comeback.

In the Shadows (by scifishipper): 25,202 words/4 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Accused of treason and stranded on Vulcan, Cadet Jim Kirk is offered a solution to his problems: bond with Ambassador Sarek’s son, someone he has never met. When he finally meets his betrothed at the ceremony, the Vulcan’s face is disfigured by cruel scars. Now, penniless and trapped, Jim finds himself committed to a reclusive stranger with a dark past. Has he sealed his fate forever or is there hope for the two of them to find love?

A sequence that you never learned (by annataylor): 64,624 words/14 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: When Jim gets it in his head to adopt an eight year old Vulcan, Spock presents a logical solution to the issue of Jim’s humanity: marriage to a Vulcan citizen

Logical Erotics (by EntreNous): 63,458 words/12 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Just returned from a difficult space mission and about to begin teaching at Starfleet Academy, Spock chooses a logical way to relieve stress: a sexual encounter with someone he’ll never meet again. But when Spock discovers his partner of one night is Jim Kirk, a promising new cadet at Starfleet he’s torn between his rational decision to avoid intimate relationships and his increasing fascination with Jim. As Spcok’s normally orderly life starts to spin out of control, will his obsession with Jim prove his salvation or his undoing?

The Vulcan Heart (by obsidienne): 110,110 words/15 chapter  

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Where two halves make a whole...eventually. (Post-STID

I remembered that my friend recommended this fic to me and I was a bit hesitant at that time because I have never read anything this long. But it turned out to be such a great fic that I appreciated his recommendation every day.

Unexpected (by foreverandeveralone): 10,339 words/8 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Cadet Jim Kirk doesn’t understand why everyone who is not nice to him always has bad consequences. Basically, Jim doesn’t know he is dating the Vulcan version of Sylar, who never forgives anyone who does bad things to his human.

Interesting fic if you love both Star Trek and Heroes.

The Door (by Pouxin): 77,118 words/6 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Spock and Jim both have their doors. Jim wants his to be open. Spock wants his to be closed. An alternative STID things. With more literature. And esoteric faffing. And sex.

Kicked From Inside (by Stella_Notecor): 32,246 words/18 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Drugged by aliens with an aphrodisiac that impregnates males is NOT how Jim Kirk imagined falling into bed with his first mate. That’s exactly how it happens though, and dealing with the consequences - including an angry girlfriend, a pointy-eared baby, and a chief-medical-officer who’s against the whole thing - will force Jim and Spock together, whether they like it or not.

My Golden Sun/Kin-Kur Las’hark T’nash-Veh (by giddytf2): 123,262 words/30 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Mpreg

Summary: When Jim feels thet first gush of slick soaking down the inner seam of his pants, he shuts his eyes and turns his face away from Spock towards the mottled-stone wall of their solitary cell. Spock is staring at him. Spock has no idea what’s just happened, what’s just begun. Spock has no idea that their situation is about to get so much worse. Fuck, Jim thinks, curling up into a ball of bruises and ragged gold, his arms quivering and clutching his bent legs. Fuck my life for being a goddamn Omega.

(Or, a Star Trek: AOS story post-Into Darkness in a universe where both Alpha/Beta/Omega gender dynamics and pon farr exist, with Jim being an Omega going into heat and Spock experiencing his first pon farr while trapped in a cell with Jim. Oh my.

Time of Need (by sunshine (sunshinepiveh)): 33, 669 words/25 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Spock’s pon farr comes early due to the destruction of Vulcan. Nyota is unable to cope with the stark brutality she finds as reality hits home. The captain will have to take necessary actions.  

Weekend Lover (by ValiantBarnes (Cimila)): 30,017 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: The one night stand Jim Kirk has with the Vulcan passing through Riverside is a welcome break from the monotony. It’s good, very good, but so fucking weird Jim’s sure he’s never gonna forget it. He’s not quite expecting to run into Spock again in san Francisco. A second one night stand turns into a weekend, turns into a lot of weekends, turns into Bones joking that he’s living half his week at Spock’s apartment. But! But, and this is very important: they’re not dating. What also turns out to be important is Spock’s job, which Jim never bothered getting the details of. Starfleet Academy Instructor and cadet?... Less fine.

❤️HotchReid (Criminal Minds: Aaron Hotchner x Spencer Reid): unpopular pairing but they are definitely in my top 5 pairings for sure

Don’t Ever Look Back (by kadeeleigh): 15,848 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: While on a case in California, Hotch and Reid’s secret angers Morgan

This fic features a nice amount of case investigation content, an extremely protective and slightly irrational Morgan, and a remarkably sexy and confident Dr. Spencer Reid.

Arranged Marriage (by VincentMeoblinn): 18,196 words/6 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: When Reid decides to leave the BAU due to his painful crush on Hotchner, the man proposes an extreme way to avoid him leaving or them breaking the fraternization rules - by proposing

A marriage-before-romance fic. Slightly unconventional plot and relationship development (but it is fiction after all so no big deal) but generally cute.

Convergence (by Chestnut_NOLA): 33,232 words/10 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Dr. Spencer Reid, newest addition to the BAU has been dreaming of art and murder. In denial that his telepathy has returned, Spencer must work with his team and his boss Sentinel Aaron Hotchner to find the Unsub. Will love help Spencer control his gift or will the darkness in his mind destroy not only himself, but Aaron as well?

It is the second and my favorite fic in the Transference series. If you are into the fantasy genre, Sentinel/Guide bond to be specific, I highly recommend this one.  

Healing Touch (by Rivermoon 1970): 21,981 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Sexual Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Mpreg

Summary: Spencer has been watching his Alpha for a while and knows something is wrong. When Aaron collapses during a case the whole team worries. What they find out about his marriage to Haley will shock all of them and when Spencer is asked to help Aaron with his recovery how will their friendship change?

The abuse part is rather brief mentioned than thoroughly described, so do not worry too much (I can’t stand extreme angst). Nice relationship development. If you like Omegaverse, give this fic a try.

Take Me Home, Country Road (by wednesdays___child): 8,698 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Aaron gets a call that his mother is not well. She wants her eldest son to bring home the pretty young doctor he’s been dating. The problem is that Aaron has failed to tell his family that the pretty young doctor is a colleague...and male

A fluff fic at its core. Cute happy ending. My to-go fic when I want to read something short and light before bed.

Lightning Only Strikes Once...Maybe Twice (by Dazeventura6): 16,433 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: While on a custodial interview Aaron and Spencer are stuck in a time loop. Can they break it? Or will they be stuck forever?

Set after the Hardwick incident. The content is something that I wish it happened in the series. A much needed fix-it fic.

Mine (by non_andare): 6,115 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Hotch has never noticed Reid before; he’s an inconspicuous Omega who naturally submits and Hotch likes his Omegas to have fire. Then Spencer starts dating another Alpha and all Hotch can think is one word. Mine.

Reid/OC is briefly mentioned but the fic is mainly about Hotch/Reid. Fluff with a bit of angst but eventually happy ending. Jealous Hotch and shy Reid is a nice combo tbh.

Criminal Bonds (by VincentMeoblinn): 26,107 words/13 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Implied/Referenced Character Death, Child Death

Summary: Reid was framed for embezzlement a year ago. Hotchner pleaded guilty to several murders. They meet in prison where reid is regularly abused by the stronger inmates until Hotch takes him under his wing

Alternate Universe where Reid is not a part of the BAU. Prison romance. Slight twist at the end but ultimately a happy ending (in my opinion)

Wolf Moon (by Ahmose_Inarus): 117,736 words/34 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Alpha Werewolf Aaron Hotchner is far from pleased when Spencer Reid joins the team...The presence of the young werewolf is not welcome...but when Hotch learns that Spencer Reid was raised by a human mother after being abandoned by his werewolf father, he takes him under his wing. And perhaps he has found more than a friend in the younger wolf...But there’s an Alpha Female in the territory who is far from please...she’s had her eyes on Aaron Hotchner for a long time, and won’t let anyone stand in her way

An Omegaverse story. A bit long but worth every minute. The relationship between Hotch and Reid is so cute that it can take my frustration (and anger) against the antagonist away.

The Librarian and the Dad (by DarkJediQueen): 9,039 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating; Explicit

Summary: It started out as a little crush. Then it became so much more.

Cute. Cute. Super cute. Part 12 of the A Universe of Meetings series, which include multiple Alternate Universe stories. Check out the whole series if you are into Alternate Universe.

Solace (by Lady Angel (dameange)): 4,701 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: A Hotchner/Reid rewrite of The Angel Maker episode

Again, a fix-it fic I would like to actually happen.

Dr. Reid and Agent Hotchner (by E_Ng714): 21,013 words/14 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: The BAU has hit a rocky patch, and appears to be falling apart. There is something going on with Hotch, but no one can figure it out. Cruz orders all of them to undergo psychiatric evaluation. Dr. Reid’s presence isn’t welcome by Aaron, at least not at first.

Alternate Universe story. They are both slightly out-of-character but not too annoying. Hate to love. A bit of angst but eventually happy ending.

Forgive Me For All I Could Not Become (by DegrassiFanatic): 105,975 words/20 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences (there’s sex scenes though lol)

Summary: In which Reid has always been good at hiding things. He hid his father’s departure and his mother’s illness from social services. He hid his addiction from his team. He hid his sexuality from the world. He hid his inappropriate feelings from his boss. That is until he’s bleeding out in Hotch’s arms, in an abandoned church, in Oklahoma. From there on out, Hotch and Reid learn to make a complete mess out of each other.

Definitely in my top 10 HotchReid fanfics. I didn’t expect much when I started because I usually don’t read over-100k-word-Teen and Up Audiences-fics but this one turned out to be perfect and it literally saved me from a rough week.

A Different Kind of Solitude (by kyrdwyn): 15 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: NC-17/FRAO (For Adults Only)

Summary: When Aaron and Spencer are trapped together by an unsub, things change between them while the team searches for their lost friends.

It is said “trapped by an unsub” but honestly the situation is not that bad. I tend to think in a positive way that this is a chance for HotchReid to get together. Pretty cute and domestic fic actually.

Home you know (by jetplane): 14,030 words/11 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: When Reid is diagnosed with cancer, he finds himself relying on Hotch for care and support. But spending so much time together forces each man to confront the feelings he has for the other, and it’s only a matter of time before their friendship evolves into something more.  

Go Home, Omega (by goobzoop)

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, mean Hotch

Summary: Pretty much Hotch is bigoted about Omegas and Reid is let on the team cause he’s a genius, which Hotch hates, but then Reid learns to stand up for himself cause he’s super kickass and sweet and deserves the world

Oneiroi and Hephaestus (by Lady Angel (dameange)): 31,231 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: What if Reid was one of the Yellow-eyed demon’s special children?

If you like both Supernatural and Criminal Minds, this crossover fic is one to go for.

Come Undone (by EloquentDossier): 77,180 words/22 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: When Spencer Reid forgot to take his suppressants two mornings in a row, it really shouldn’t have been a big deal. He had them in his bag at the hotel, and as long as he took one that evening, he’d be fine. What he couldn;t have prepared for, however, was the lab the latest victim worked at going into an at least twenty-four-hour-lockdown while he was in it. When Aaron Hotchner was asked to aid his subordinate through what would otherwise be an agonizing heat, he’d had several reservations, one of which had been the consent issue: Omegas couldn’t legally consent to sex during heat unless it was twenty-four hours in advance. With every concern rebutted logically (because of course the Bureau had an Agent Consent form in case of emergencies), he finally agreed. Of all the possible repercussions, however, neither man expected the one they received.

Or that time no one expected the Alpha to accidentally bond to the Omega while the Omega remained unaffected.

Cursed (by Black_Lotus): 60,254 words/20 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Centuries ago Vasile Stolojan, the bastard son of Vlad the impaler, was cursed to be a Vampire. Many years later he has a new name, Aaron Hotchner, and a curator job at a prestigious museum in America but the pain he feels for his lost love remains, until he meets the new Docent, Spencer Reid, who looks exactly like his lover. Is it possible that after six hundred years the man he loves has been reincarnated?

I LOVE this fic.

Yours (by NimueOfTheNorth): 17,232 words/6 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Spencer knew what he wanted in a relationship, and after years it looked like he found everything he dreamed of in Aaron. Now; if only Aaron’s past experiences and guilt complex wouldn’t get in the way.

❤️Niam (One Direction: Liam Payne x Niall Horan): while everybody is going crazy for Stylinson and Ziam, here I am rooting for Niam lol

Break my fall (by niamcuddles): 147,428 words/15 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Being a police officer was never an easy job, Liam wouldn’t have imagined that it’d bring someone like Niall into his life and that they could ever grow so close under these circumstances. If they only would’ve known who the guy was that giving them so many sleepless nights.

With Your Love (by brainstorm): 57,448 words/8 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: Liam’s life was nothing like a normal twenty-two year old guy. Raising a kid on his own was probably the hardest thing he’s ever had to face but he wouldn't change his little boy for the world. He never thought he’d find someone that was good for both him and his son, but that changed fast the day he met his son’s new teacher.

Closer (by niamcuddles): 209,765 words/20 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Niall’s pretty sure he doesn’t actually have a real crush on the rick and arrogant guy he’s been attempting to teach how to golf, but there’s something about him that just won’t allow Niall to say no. Not even when he gets made a very unexpected offer.

From the day that I met you (by niamcuddles): 272,394 words/25 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Partying and having a good time are probably two of Niall’s favorite things, he just wouldn’t have thought that a night out would end with him getting to know Liam, or that their paths would cross a lot more often than just this once. But somehow they happen to be more helpful to one another than expected.

Like the angel you are (by niamcuddles): 164,367 words/13 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: To be honest, Niall has already given up on his life ever getting any better, he’s used to being on his own and not being looked after, so maybe not even a way too caring stranger can help change that.

Too Much Too Soon (by brainstorm): 47,353 words/3 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Niall stands up for himself for the first time ever but things don’t turn out the way he wanted them to and he finds himself struggling between the way he’s always been or the way he wants to be. It’s a matter of time to know who’ll win, his mind or his heart. (sequel to “For You, My Love”)

Like the air I’m breathing (by niamcuddles): 81,307 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: Niall is four years younger than Liam and he is sick of being the little brother, that is until Liam suddenly finds a girlfriend and cuts Niall out of his life completely.

Now we are (by niamcuddles): 143,082 words/15 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Liam’s kind of keeping a busy schedule right now, his whole life seems to basically only consist of work and studying, so what he really can’t need at this time are friends who constantly want to hang out, but above that, 19 year ole uni students who can’t take no as an answer.

For what it’s worth (by niamcuddles): 120,800 words/10 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Liam has trouble figuring out his life and what he really can’t stand are loud, talkative and clingy people, but he would’ve never thought that getting rid of Niall could be this hard.

Something I need (by niamcuddles): 87,735 words/5 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: 16 years is a very long time, but Niall still remembers all the things he and Liam have gone through together

❤️Gramander (Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them: Original Percival Graves x Newt Scamander): I honestly don’t remember how I stumbled into this couple fandom but they do have several great fics. For some reason I only bookmark this one though.

Here We Are (by Miss_Lv): 22,177 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Mpreg

Summary: Percival had long given up on the idea that he would find an omega mate, he ver seemed to fit what they were seeking in a husband, always too rough, not gentle enough. But then he meets Newt Scamander and the omega is utterly perfect to him, with his shy smiles and tendency to run headlong into danger. Catching vipers in his hands and keeping nifflers for company, Newt is nothing like the typical demure omega and Percival is lost before he can even think to resist.

❤️Jack O’Neill x Daniel Jackson (Stargate SG-1): Like I don’t even know their ship name for real…

I Walk Alone...No More (by Joy): 17,955 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Daniel finds love in another universe. Quantum Mirror Story.

Even though it was not original Daniel and original Jack ending up together, but in the end it was still Jack and Daniel, and I was happy with the ending.

Pulling Threads (by Joy): 13,241 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Daniel’s place in the world seems to be going nowhere. After what happened with The Others, sending him back, he’s got some thinking to do about what happens next. Does he go to Atlantis, forget about Earth? Or stay at the SGC in a role he’s not entirely sure is his. Then Jack invites him to dinner and his future is changed forever.

Civilians (by LadyRa): 46,557 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: AU ending to Point of View. What if the AU Samantha hadn’t been willing to let go of Jack?

Instinct (by AuroraNova): 27,783 words/10 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Daniel Jackson is an unconventional, career-focused omega. It’s going to take one special alpha to win him over. Jack O’Neill is determined to be that alpha.

Strange Interlude (by ELG): 228,960 words/4 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Daniel discovers that in other universes not only the uniforms are different… Jack and Daniel’s friendship has been under strain for some time but when Daniel is kidnapped by an AU Teal’c very different from our own, it’s up to Jack to save him. An AU Jack, however, complicates the situation considerably. 

❤️Chris Evans x Sebastian Stan (I ship Stucky so as a matter of fact, I ship the actors as well)

Sugar Daddy (by orphan_account): 91,139 words/17 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Sebastian is a broke and abandoned college kid trying to scrape up enough money to pay for rent and tuition. When he meets Chris, an accomplished architect who takes him under his wing, he doesn’t understand what his friends keep calling him until he looks it up for himself.

❤️Harringrove (Stranger Things: Billy Hargrove x Steve Harrington)

Bite Your Tongue And Choke Yourself To Sleep (by trashcangimmick): 21,173 words/5 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Steve is going to grad school in Chicago. Life is comfortable. Life is stable. Steve is doing great and he really wishes everyone would stop asking.

Set the Record Straight (by MischiefManaged97): 35,054 words/14 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Steve was a little nervous about making things right with Billy after their fight. Steve just wants to apologize and relax, but Billy may have other ideas.

You’re the best I’ve ever had; you’re the worst I’ve ever had (and thet keeps fuckin’ with my head) (by determinedlove): 52,697 words/14 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Mpreg, Intersex

Summary: Steve Harrington loved his status in the world and his life. He had great friends and babysat two amazing kids (but don’t tell them he said that). So what if he couldn’t sleep in his room sometimes because the house was just too damn big and the quiet didn’t help keep the nightmares at bay. So what if the new guy at school was everything he had been warned away from? He could play the game just as well as he could. But then Will goes missing. And the new guy proves to be everything people warned him about and so much more when no one else is around.

❤️Namjin (BTS: Kim Namjoon (RM) x Kim Seokjin (Jin)): These two are just so adorable together.

Pack Mentality (by resonae): 9,452 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Namjoon is possessive.

The Professor’s Wife (by EquinoxSolstice): 12,163 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Summary: Everybody knew Professor Kim was already married. It was actually the first thing they asked the man during the first day of classes, with one brave student asking the question out loud for everyone to hear. The older man responded with deep dimples and a raised left hand, letting everyone see the plain, silver band glittering on his ring finger. But, as one Jeon Kungkook found out, they were all completely, terribly wrong. What? The Professor didn’t say he had a wife.

Why Three is Better Than Two (by lulublue1234): 35,298 words/23 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Seokjin is a bit of a stalker. Smitten with a Father-son duo. Where Yoongi is the most adorable child ever created.  

The Shaman and the Exorcist (by metastacia): 145,258 words/20 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Seokjin doesn’t believe in ghosts. Which would cause a huge uproar if everyone knew since he’s kind of a big deal at his university; he’s a shaman who protects people from evil spirits. He doesn’t remember where he got the idea to do this from, all he knows is that superstitious people pay good money. Namjoon does believe in ghosts. Better yet, he can see them and he can expel them. But there’s a certain honey shaman at his university who’s stealing all his clients in his exorcism business, and he’s not happy about it because haunted people pay good money. So, what do they do? Figure out whose closet is holding all the skeletons, of course.

Fate Led Me To You (Now Let me Love You) (by MinMinnieMin): 58,382 words/15 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Mature

Summary: Seokjin did not believe he’d ever have a happy ending. How many happy endings did you ever hear an unmated Omega with a child have? But fate is a funny thing. What’s meant to be will always find its way. And Kim Namjoon tries his best to get Seokjin to see that. Because of fate, they found each other.

❤️Broyo (Prodigal Son: Gil Arroyo x Malcolm Bright): I seem to have a soft spot for couples with noticeable age difference

To be Normal (by holyfudgemonkeys (erraticallyinspired)): 70,399 words/26 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Mpreg

Summary: Malcolm has a terrible encounter while out trying to be ‘normal’ and get roofied. He doesn’t report it and tries to move on but winds up pregnant. He turns to Gil for support who is there with open arms. As they work through the choices Malcolm has to make and Gil is just there more and more their relationship evolves into something more intimate and romantic than either of them could ever have planned for.

❤️Hannor (Detroit: Become Human: Hank Anderson x Connor): Again, another couple with considerable age difference

Arrival (by coffee666): 83,075 words/7 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Hank just wanted help around the house for Cole. He never expected such a goofy thing that laughed and hummed and protected Cole with all of his being. Connor is not like other androids - but neither of them truly know how deep those differences go.

The Opposite Life (by Speckeh): 38,612 words so far

Status: Incompleted (9/10 chapters)

Rating: Explicit

Summary: 17 years and 9 months ago, Connor decided to start his own family, alone. He falls in love with the voice sample of Donor 55719, as the mysterious man talks about a mundane life. It’s everything he wished for. After 17 years of loving the two minute voice sample that fathered his children, what will Connor do when that voice suddenly appears in his life?

By Default//By Design (by Make_It_Worse): 9,211 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Connor, an overworked clothing designer, who is also a huge brat. Hank, an HK800 android model, who isn’t having any of it.

❤️Hannigram (Hannibal: Hannibal Lecter x Will Graham)

With a Crown of Stars (by thehoyden): 33,536 words/7 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: When the call connects, Will says, “I know what kind of crazy I am, but I’m not this kind of crazy.”

“Will?” Dr. Lecter says.

“Yes, hi, sorry,” Will says. “It’s me. There’s a baby on my porch.”

Taken for Rubies (by emungere): 76,842 words/20 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Crossdressing, Feminization

Summary: Will invites Hannibal over for dinner. Hannibal brings him wine and flowers. A dissection of their pasts and the slow convergence of their domestic lives.

❤️Rinch (Person of Interest: John Reese x Harold Finch)

Pallas’s Rosefinch (by elbowsinsidethedoor): 55,536 words/25 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics

Summary: Harold needs John. John needs Harold. And that’s the way I like it!

Difficult To Name aka Titles Are Difficult (by elbowsinsidethedoor): 51,710 words/17 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: John is a retired pro who comes back for a special client. For those who fear a BDSM themed story, please note that this is a tender love story.

Milk and Cream (by hallulawy): 33,388 words/6 chapters

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Warning: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Out-of-character

Summary: Story between John (Alpha, 35, general practitioner) and Harold (Omega, 27-ish, entrepreneur, five-month-pregnant). They are not married (yet).

❤️Noah Reid x Dan Levy (They play Patrick and David in Schitt’s Creek if you don’t know)

Fries Before Guys (by wildxwired): 29,065 words/1 chapter

Status: Completed

Rating: Explicit

Summary: Six weeks ago, Home (on a) Plate showed up in front of the MTV building in West Hollywood and started providing the locals with quite possibly the most amazing and inventive variations of grilled cheese sandwiches and cheese fries every Monday and Thursday, between the hours of 12 and 2. It wasn’t just the melt -in-the-mouth gooey goodness that had people clambering around the truck, or the insanely fair prices that were usually nowhere to be found on the rest of the street food in LA, but the fact that this was all served up by some hazel eyed specimen with the forearms of a god probably didn’t hurt either.

[mystery-star]

The Romulan Incident (Part 4 / Final)

Pairing: Spock (AOS) x reader (female)

Warnings: swearing, mentions of death, heavily implied smut  (beware the end it’s nothing graphic but deals with a lot concerning smut :))

Words: 2748

Series Navigation:  Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

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“And?” your sister asked and you managed to tell her your latest thoughts. “Oh shit, I didn’t even consider that. You’ve gotta contact him and let him know you’re okay”

“I don’t know how… I can only contact his private PADD and he certainly hasn’t this one with him. I’ve got the contact data from his work PADD at home, for emergencies but that isn’t of much use now”

“Then contact Starfleet itself. Tell them to find Spock for you”

“Don’t you think they’ll get enough calls already from all over the world? People will want to know what happened”

“Shit, right. Do you know anyone else working for Starfleet who you could contact directly?”

“No. Maybe I should go there in person”

“Not working. I just read they cut off Starfleet Head Quarters for the public and also public transport is more or less incapacitated”

“Ah fuck.”

“Maybe Spock’s injured and at the hospital…”

“Yeah but I think they too got heaps of work to do”

“That’s not good. What about telepathy? I mean, maybe you can reach him mentally”

“I’m not able to initiate contact with him. And he’ll most likely won’t try to reach me because that would be illogical, given the fact he must believe I’m dead”

“What about Vanya? Can she contact him mentally?”

“She’s never done that. All she can do is touch telepathy. But I bet she thinks that’s normal for everyone”

“What if you mentally told her what she has to do?”

“Look, I don’t know how telepathy works so I can’t teach her how to do it”

“Then you should really try to contact Starfleet. It’s the best option we got. Use my PADD, in case Spock will try to contact you anyway”

“I think I’ll just forward all calls to my PADD to yours. That makes more sense”

“Yeah sure, whatever you want” she placed a hand on your back “I’ll watch Vanya in the meantime, okay?”

“Thanks” you muttered as you disconnected your PADD from the screen and forwarded all calls to your sister’s PADD before you tried to contact Starfleet. As you had imagined they seemed to be pretty occupied right now. Only about twenty minutes later someone finally answered your call and the woman instantly informed you that they could not give you any information and that you should watch the news “That’s not it. It’s my husband, he must think I’m dead and I need him to know that I’m okay”

“Then I suggest you contact him directly”

“That’s it I can’t because I don’t know how to reach him. Maybe you can give me his contact information?”

“I’m sorry, I’m not authorized to do that”

“Then at least let him know I’m okay. You must tell Commander Spock that I called. (Y/N) (Y/L/N)”

“Alright we will let Commander (Y/L/N) know. Goodbye” before you could say anything or better said correct her, the call was ended.

“And?” your sister called. Sighing, you told her of the conversation you just had

“I just hope there is no Commander (Y/L/N) so that they’ll know there must be a mistake”

“Don’t worry sweetie, he’ll find out soon enough. Tomorrow everything will be better”

“I hope you’re right”

Since there wasn’t much you could do, you decided to just watch the news at every given time so that you were always updated about the situation. At some point a group of journalists seemed to have been able to get to your husband and had asked him for an interview but to your dismay he sent them away. Of course you understood why he did it but you had hoped to see more of him. Also Vanya seemed upset when the scene changed and demanded you brought her father back. But you weren’t listening and recalled how Spock had looked. One thing was for sure. He had been crying at some point. This made you feel even worse and you wondered if maybe someone had already found out that it was not a Commander (Y/L/N) they should contact but you doubted it. To distract yourself you offered to cook and your sister decided to help. Soon you were distracted enough to forget about the incidents for a while. Now you started wondering where you’d live for now that your house was gone. If they’d provide some temporary homes for you? Or should you stay in a hotel? Or with friends? Although you wanted to know what your sister thought you didn’t want to voice your thoughts. There was time for that later. Suddenly, your sisters PADD announced an incoming call and although you hoped it might be Spock it turned out to be your parents. She sat down on the couch and answered the call. You couldn’t help but eavesdropping on the conversation.

“You might want to sit down” your mother told her

“I am sitting. What’s this about?”

“I suppose you’ve already watched the news, right?  The starship in San Francisco”

“Yes, why are you asking?” there was a muffled sob from your mother

“(Y/N)’s husband has just contacted us” at this you dropped the spoon you were holding and went to the living room

“Really? What did he say?” your sister too sounded relieved but what your parents told her next shocked you again

“She didn’t make it. (Y/N)… she-she was home at the time it happened and…”

“No” you shouted, joining your sister “I’m fine. Nothing happened. I came here because Spock had to work. Vanya and I are fine” you assured your parents, who couldn’t quite believe it

“But how is that possible?”

“I wasn’t in San Francisco when the ship crashed. I’m fine. Okay? Besides, I need the contact data Spock’s contacted you with. I need to tell him I’m fine”

“Oh that makes sense” your father said, then asked if you really were fine

“Yes, Dad, of course. Vanya, come here. Say hi to Grandmommy and Granddaddy”

“I say hi” she shouted back

“Yes, sweetie, I know you talked to them this morning. Please come and say them hi again”

“I must?”

“Yes” she let a groan and crawled to the couch

“Hi” she said and tried to dart away again

“Little dickhead” you muttered but couldn’t help but chuckle, then asked them again to give you what you needed to assure Spock that you were fine. Your mother promised to send it to your PADD, making you breathe out in relief. You only hoped he had used his work PADD or a communicator he still had with him. Unfortunately, your parents still talked to your sister for another couple of minutes while you went back to the kitchen, sitting down and almost pouting while staring at your PADD because you wanted nothing more than to call Spock. Then finally your PADD gave forth a pling, indicating you got a new message. You didn’t waste a second and instantly contacted Spock, suddenly feeling nervous. Only a couple of seconds later did you hear that your call was answered. And to your delight it actually was Spock. You breathed out his name “It’s me, (Y/N)! Vanya and I are fine!”

“(Y/N)?” he asked incredulously

“Yes, Spock. My sister contacted me not much after you left and I decided to go and visit her. I was at her place when the ship crashed down. Vanya and I are not even hurt. We’re fine” your husband was silent “Spock?” you asked “Are you still there?”

“Yes, (Y/N), I am” from the living room you heard a shriek and soon enough your daughter toddled into the kitchen

“Daddy?” she asked

“Yes it’s him. Come here” you said and she sped up, coming to a stop beside you so that you could lift her into your lap

“Hi Daddy” she shouted at the PADD

“Oh not so loud, honey”

“Sorry Daddy” she whispered, making you smile.

“I am relieved to hear that the both of you are unharmed”

“Daddy clash. I see”

“No, I told you it wasn’t his ship that crashed. But you’re right, we’ve seen him on the news, didn’t we?”

“Yes” again she leaned over the PADD “You come?”

“Yes, I will be with you as soon as possible” you rolled your eyes and didn’t even want to know what this meant. It probably meant he had to finish something and would then take the train. With some luck he’d be here before Vanya had to go to bed.

“Okay” you said “See you later then. Or tomorrow” he ended the call and you pushed your PADD into the middle of the table letting out a deep sigh. At least one of your sorrows was taken care of. Your sister wanted to know how it went “He’s coming here… I hope you don’t mind?”

“Of course not. You can sleep in the guestroom if you want. I know you didn’t pack to stay overnight but you can borrow something of mine. And Spock can have something from my boyfriend”

“That’s nice. Thank you”

“Of course. It’s the least I can do. I’m really sorry you lost everything”

“At least both Vanya and I are safe”

“Yeah” you realized that if Spock hadn’t gone to work you wouldn’t have visited your sister. Meaning this had probably saved your lives. You gulped and planned to apologize for the way you had reacted in the morning. But first he had to arrive. Something told you that he’d probably only arrive tomorrow morning. “So, what else can I do to help you cook, chef?”

-

There was someone at the door half an hour later. Your sister frowned

“I thought Jeff said he’d work until late today” she muttered and went to answer the door. “Oh” was all she said before calling your name. Placing the lid of the pan on the table, you stepped over Drops, who was lying outstretched on the kitchen floor and snoring oddly, to get to the door. You didn’t even have time to wonder how he got here so quickly, before Spock was in front of you and had pulled you into a tight embrace.

“Oh Spock” you breathed, leaning your head against his and pulled him closer. “I’m fine” you said running a hand through his hair. “How did you get here so quickly?”

“I have used the transporter of Starfleet Academy to be with you as soon as possible” well that made sense.

“So you just broke into the Academy on a Saturday to use their transporter?” you teased

“It is hardly my fault if they have neglected to disable my entry and authorization codes”

“I see” you muttered, chuckling slightly.

“Daddyyyyyy” your daughter was rushing to the door as well and hugged your husband’s leg. After a couple of seconds, Spock sank to the ground with you so that he could wrap one arm around Vanya as well and buried his nose in her hair. Then she must have had enough of the hug and tried to wiggle away from you “Daddy look” she insisted and was trying to pull him with her by the fingers.

“It’s okay” you muttered “Go with her and have a look. Knowing her, she’ll probably won’t shut up until she earned your approval for whatever she did…” he seemed reluctant but then gave a small nod. Before he let go of you, he leant closer

“Tonight shall solely about the two of us, ashayam” you hummed in response before pecking his cheek and following him and your daughter.

“I build” she proclaimed, pointing at the three building bricks she had piled up

“Did you do this yourself?”

“Yes” Spock sat down beside her and glanced at the little tower, asking if she wanted to make it higher. Vanya gave a nod and eagerly picked up another brick and placed it on top of the others. But she wasn’t careful enough and knocked over her creation “Oh” she eyed her father as if it was his fault “Again” she demanded and started stacking the toys again

“Vanya” her father said softly “If you want to build a tall tower, it is wiser to place the biggest piece at the bottom” she looked at him and lowered the brick, eyeing it critically

“Big?” she asked

“Do you want me to help you determine which one is the largest piece?”

“Uhh” she picked up another one “Biggy”

“Exactly” she gave a nod and placed it on the floor, then grabbed two others to determine which one was bigger and when she found it she showed it to Spock. With a huge grin she then placed it on the other one with the narrow side facing down because it was higher like that. Your husband picked it up and explained why she should turn it so the wide side faced down, even if it was smaller then. Although you doubted she understood everything he told her, Vanya still hanged on his every word, making you chuckle. Then he placed the piece on the other

“Wow” your sister said “I’ve never thought I’d ever understand something he’s trying to explain… besides I never believed I’d see a Vulcan playing with toy bricks in my living room”

-

Much to your surprise, your sister announced that she’d sleep at her boyfriend’s place and even offered to take Vanya with her so that you and Spock had the house to yourself. You were almost inclined to take her up on her offer but you didn’t want to be away from Vanya. After all she had never spent a night without you around. This even was one of her first nights that she didn’t spend at home and then you should be around to calm her in case anything happened. Besides, this was your sister’s house and you’d feel bad if she had to leave. Instead you found a better solution, your sister would take Vanya outside or just away from the house for a couple of hours and you should call her when you were done. Needless to say that it was extremely embarrassing but you knew it probably was the best chance you’d get for an evening alone with your husband. And to your surprise Spock immediately agreed to the proposition and you knew that he definitely was serious about this. It made you chuckle because he usually wasn’t the one to start anything. But you could understand why he needed this. And you did too.

-

Of course Spock hadn’t been the first man you had slept with. However, you had to admit he was much, much better than your previous two partners. And that wasn’t just because Vulcan stamina was a lot higher than humans, which meant that you rarely left the bed before under three rounds. (Unless of course you found another place you could use) But it mostly was because of his nature. Whenever you told people that you were married to a Vulcan, they were concerned about your sexlife. You too had not expected too much of it at first, so it was a pleasant surprise. Once you were done for the moment (not the night, as you knew from experience - you both just needed a short break), you snuggled up against him, looking into his face.

“I know the time is probably not the best but… how would you feel about a second child?” he raised an eyebrow.

“You are correct that the time might not be favorable, however, I would not have suggested sexual activities had I been completely unwilling to conceive a child. Mating is about reproduction, after all” you chuckled, running a hand over his chest

“Yeah sure because reproduction was what you had in your head when you wanted this” you sighed “But you’re right… there’s so much else we have to do. The whole restaurant’s gone. It’s been in our family for generation and now it’s gone. I mean not gone forever because I definitely will rebuild it. I have thought that a few places and things could use a little upgrade. But I still would have preferred if a madman hadn’t crashed his ship into the city. Speaking of the madman… ” you flipped over so that you were straddling his abdomen “You owe me a story of what happened”

“I will tell you whatever you wish to know” promised, flipping you over again so that he was on top of you “It can wait, however”

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1. When The Wolves Come Out by [ rosemarianthyme ] (1k)

It didn’t matter that Louis would never once pop a knot or that Harry’s slick was always artificial. When Harry was whining desperately against his neck and Louis was growling low in his chest he could only grab Harry’s hips and pant out 'Omega.'

2. Drape Me In Your Warmth by [ fookinglousers ] (2k)

TMH era fic where Harry is an omega whose heat comes a little earlier than expected and really, who is Louis to deny him his knot?

3. The Nearness of You by [ theweightofmywords ] (2k)

Harry and Louis' baby is due any moment. Harry just wants pretty toenails, and Louis just wants to help.

4. freaks from the internet by [ jaerie ] (2k)

Harry sells his breast milk to freaks on the internet. Louis turns out to be one of those freaks. He also happens to be Harry's ex.

5. 'Cause Your Embrace Keeps Me Warmer by [ scribblewrite ] (3k)

Louis and Harry meet for the first time and, being soulmates, Louis's rut and Harry's heat are triggered. 

6. 5 Golden Rules by [ @iflovewereall ] (4k)

Harry thinks surely he hasn't got a chance with Louis, after all he's a gorgeous Alpha and royalty to boot. His salvation comes in the form of an antiquated guide to courtship.

7. taste on my tongue (just can't get enough of you) by [ messyjessy08 ] (4k)

Harry and Louis just had a baby and it's been a while since they've had sex.

8. Willow City by [ blahthelarry ] (4k)

Harry's got a secret. A secret so big that it could end his career before it even starts.

(Or the fic where Harry is an Omega, Louis isn't an Alpha, and Niall just wants someone to fuck.)

9. The World will Open its Arms by [ @lululawrence ] (4k)

Harry scrubbed at the countertop. It wasn’t even dirty, but it was three in the morning and the girl who was supposed to relieve him over an hour ago never showed. He was now on hour ten of his shift and his feet hurt and his back ached and he was trying not to cry, thanks to more fucking judgmental alpha truckers who could smell it on him.

Of course they could. He practically lived at the diner. The entire place reeked of it.

Unbonded pregnant omega.

10. I'd Go Out of My Way To Make Sure That You're Okay by [ littlepinkbow ] (4k)

Harry's embarrassed about going into heat, but Louis decides it's up to him to teach Harry to be more open about what he wants.

11. turn the sky black into a sky blue by [ thispieceofmind ] (5k)

Harry forgets that noses exist. Louis is a badass motherfucker. They bang.

12. Give Me What I'm Begging For by [ @sugarbabyomega ] (5k)

Omega Harry is a professor at a uni. Louis is his alpha mate, whose rut is coming up soon, so Harry has to take a week off from school to be with Louis. He tells his students it's a vacation but they all can tell the truth and tease him about it. Then Louis' rut comes and they both spend a week at home to fuck it out.

13.  Baby, Sweat is Guaranteed by [  sailingships ]  (5k)

Alternatively the one where Harry forgets a few doses of his suppressants and, consequently, goes into an unexpected heat at the Eagles concert whilst fulfilling publicity duties with Kendall Jenner. An entire afternoon of sex ensues and Harry just wants Louis to stay.

14. Too Hot (Hot Damn) by [ louissass ] (5k)

“I’m what?”

“You’re in heat, baby,” He repeats, frowning when he catches the look on Harry’s face. “I thought you realised?”

Or, the one where Harry goes into heat in the middle of a concert but doesn't realise because of the heatwave.

15. From Homeless To Being Loved by [ leonietjeeeee ](5k)

Harry is put on the streets after his parents found out he was an Omega. After years of being on the streets, so broken he wishes that death would come sooner, he meets boyband One Direction. And one member may turn out to be a little more than just a hero to Harry...

16. All these Lights, They can't Blind me by [ harlequinnharry ] (5k)

Harry's a singer song writer omega who doesn't want to mate. It's not until his new Manager Louis Tomlinson, that he reconsiders.

17. A Tentative Peace by [ colourexplosion ] (5k)

“I dunno.” Harry’s not whining, he’s not. He pulls himself free, finally, turns away and busies himself again with the dishes. “I didn’t want it to be weird.”

“It’s not weird,” Louis says, appearing in Harry’s periphery when he leans against the sink. “Biology, innit? You know I’m always here for you.”

It stings. Louis won’t sit and have a conversation with Harry, but sure, he’ll fuck him through a heat like it’s nothing. “It’s a little more than biology,” he mumbles, but Louis either doesn’t hear him (not likely) or flat out ignores him (very likely).

18. Peace So Sweet by [ @shyshyserious ] (5k)

Louis is visiting another pack. On his quest to find the guest room he finds a nesting omega instead.

19. Just Wanna Taste It by [ rosemarianthyme ] (5k)

“It gets you hot, doesn’t it Darling?” Louis asked and Harry whimpered softly. “You like imagining that I’m your alpha?” “Yeah,” Harry nodded, feeling as if he could cry. “You wanna be my omega, Baby?” Harry nodded again. His eyes were prickling with overwhelmed tears. “Want it,” he said, voice thick.

Harry loved being Louis’ baby, his good boy, but sometimes he wanted more. He wanted to be his omega.

A prequel to When The Wolves Come Out

20. your body's telling me don't let go  by [ @thepriestthinksitsthedevil ] (5k)

Louis gets off early from work on his birthday and surprises Harry with dinner and wine. Harry is pleasantly surprised, and even happier with it when he and Louis get up to some amorous activities.

21. How Much My Heart Depends by [ @lululawrence ] (6k)

Louis is an alpha working as a fraud analyst who keeps having Bad Days. Harry is an omega working in Quality Support who shares a cubicle wall with Louis and only wants to help. Maybe this is the perfect chance for them to finally meet face to face.

22. Zero Means Nothing When I'm With You by [ WhiteClifford ] (6k)

Louis doesn't know what he's looking for until he finds it.

Harry just knows he may defy his gender norms, with his height and clumsiness, but that doesn't mean he doesn't want litters of pups running around while he does domestic things all day long.

In other words, boy meets boy and no one can stop pining.

23. Boys Fall Like Dominoes (6k)

Harry slips into an early heat while riding the tube. Naturally, that's when he meets Louis. 

24. to wrap me in paper by [ @juliusschmidt ] (6k)

Louis hasn't been keeping track of his ruts, but, it turns out, Harry has.

25. Between the Shadow and the Soul (6k)

Harry and Louis spend a month apart.

26. I heard this life is overrated, But I hope that it gets better as we go by [ louisnuggets ] (7k) 

"Harry this is not something we're going to argue about. I decided to do it. It's a sure thing." Harry remembered his words. The sure look in Louis eyes, the way he balled his fists, the way he talked. His Alpha voice coming through. Everything. How could he ever forget? It was one of the worst days of his life. After Harry's heat, which included five days of a lot of orgasms and even more cum, Louis and Harry had been laying in bed. Louis' knot slowly loosening in Harry. Harry's back against Louis' chest. Harry was sated and happy until Louis threw the bomb. "Baby I have to leave again. Longer this time. I know you don't like this but this is really important for my career." Some may think, what's so horrible about that? But Harry knew what that meant. It meant Louis would leave. 

27. Put It Into Words (7k)

“It’s a good storm though, our families,” Louis says, flopping down on to the bed and cuddling close to Harry. He tucks his arm around Harry’s waist, kissing his temple. “The Cheshire house is perfect to raise the baby; your mum’s close, and my mum can stay in the guest bedroom when she visits.”

“And until then we have the long weekend to ourselves.”

Or, Harry and Louis go on a babymoon.

28. Looking In The Dark (7k)

This carries on from the same verse of Boys Fall Like Dominoes.

29. This Thing Upon Me (howls like a beast) by [ @sadaveniren ] (8k)

Harry and Louis weren’t meant to be together. They’d met when they were put together through their university’s AO MatchUp, a program that set up alphas and omegas based on the schedules of their ruts and heats so they had someone to help them through it. It was pure luck that they were put together.

30. drunk on rose water by [ brainwaves ] (9k)

It’s the first time in a few years that Harry has a strong desire to risk everything for something he loves.

The last time, it was being a fashion model. This time, it’s Louis.

31. Even Your Honey Dew by [ @horsegirlharry ] (9k)

It probably says something about Harry that he’s so obsessed with another omega’s arse.

32. And I Will Steady Your Hand by [ kiwikero ](9k)

All first year university students who had not yet presented were strongly advised to join the Fire Away meetings, a support group for so-called 'late bloomers.'

They were not, however, advised to fall in love with someone else at the meetings without knowing what they might eventually present as.

33. You Know I'll Be by [ JustAnotherShadow503 ](9k)

Louis Tomlinson, 27, is the personal photographer for well-known model Harry Styles, 21. Louis, an Alpha, has been in love with Harry for years, though the younger man has seemingly not presented yet.

Or, the one where Louis is in love with Harry, tries to be a martyr at his own expense, and is a hopeless romantic.

34. Just Jump by [ jaerie ] (9k)

Finally, after years of suffering alone, the insurance plan at Harry's new job covered omega heat services. As a grown omega adult, it finally felt like the right time to try it out. And, since taking an entire week of heat leave would really put him behind at work, using a service to shorten it seemed like a responsible decision. At least that’s how he rationalized it. He was nervous about his decision but it was too late. The doorbell rang.

“Hi!” The alpha said again and Harry took the hand he offered and shook it firmly. “I’m Louis from Omega Services. It’s nice to meet you.”

35. with his educated eyes (and his head between my thighs) (9k)

"We're...we're not the same," Harry says softly, looking at his hands. "I don't care," Louis replies back, fire and fury in his eyes.

or where Harry is just a little boy in a world full of arseholes, Louis is in way over his head, and destiny is a bunch of shit.

36. All I Needed by [  FallingLikeThis ] (9k)

Harry is the omega captain of the Slytherin quidditch team with a team that won't listen to him. Louis is the alpha captain of the Gryffindor team who doesn't know how to offer help without seeming like a knothead, pushing his opinions on Harry. When he comes up with a rather questionable plan to try and get Harry to ask him for help, they may just both get what they need.

37. you took your toll on me (you got a hold on me) by [ messyjessy08 ] (9k)

Harry and Louis have the weekend to themselves, they make the most of it.

38. I Just Want You to Stay by [ SadaVeniren ] (34k)

“Remember the vet job up in Edinburgh I interviewed for right before your rut?” Louis nodded. “She just called me back. I got the job. I start next year.” Harry let out a shriek as he said the word year and he clapped his hands in delight. “Isn’t that great! Full time vet job! New animals to meet! A new environment!” He settled his eyes back on Louis, who was still standing there in front of him with wide eyes. “Isn’t it great, Lou?”

That seemed to jolt Louis out of his thoughts and he nodded immediately, opening his arms up for Harry to dive into. “Holy shit, yes. Congratulations. Come here,” he wrapped his arms around Harry and cuddled him close, pressing his nose into Harry’s neck. “Holy shit,” he whispered.

aka Louis and Harry have been roommates for four years, comfortable in their routine and their relationship. But all of that is about to change.

39. I Can't Hear You by [ @flamboyantommo ] (9k)

"I’m not supposed to be built this way!" Harry said. "I’m supposed to be shorter than you, and you’re supposed to be stronger than me and-“ “Harry!” Louis tried to interrupt. “And what if I’m not supposed to be an omega? What if my body screwed up somewhere or something? What if I’m not supposed to be your omega?” --- Or, the one where Harry is self-conscious about his body because it's not the 'typical omega body' and Louis shows him why he loves that.

40. Dear Blue by [ TheIfInLife ] (9k)

Harry wasn’t sure what he was expecting to be on the living room table but a stack of papers definitely wasn’t it.

The paper on top was a plain piece of notebook paper, Louis’ scrawl all over it.

41. A Firm Believer and a Warm Receiver by [ @horsegirlharry ] (10k)

a few months ago, Louis had his first heat. It was no big deal, aside from it being awkward and weird and all the other things it was supposed to be. He figured he would present as an omega, so he wasn’t exactly surprised or anything.

But then, last week, Harry had his first heat, too.

42. resolutions and lovers in the kitchen (10k)

harry teaches little kids and louis writes sports articles. they're trying for a baby.

43. Everything I Do (I Do It For You) by [ @harrysspookyshorts ] (10k)

"It's gonna be perfect," Harry whispers, taking Louis' face in both of his hands, nosing close but not yet kissing him. "Always is. You always make everything perfect."

"Good. Whenever your heat finally kicks in, I'll make sure to treat you perfectly too... I'm gonna bond you so hard."

or, Harry's heat is coming up and they've planned to finally bond, so Louis decides to plan a very eventful and loving week leading to said bonding.

44. through the wire by [ @a-writerwrites ] (10k)

“Mate. He’s like. I don’t know how to describe it.” Liam’s voice was on edge, a tremble in it that indicated he was either very nervous or extremely excited; unsure of what to do next. It was probably both.

All Harry could think about was LouisLouisLouis. He needed him so badly his body ached with it. His skin was crawling and his entire body felt explosive, ready to ignite at the slightest touch.

“Ok. Li? This is what you are going to do…” Louis took a deep breath, the intake of air audible through the wire, as he prepared to guide Liam through what was probably going to be the strangest most erotic, and possibly most awkward experience of his life.

45. Make It Work by [ fanshae ] (10k)

Arranged marriage AU. Harry is an omega who has reached the age where he must be married due to his family's income status. Only the aristocratic omegas are exempt. His parents try to hide him but eventually the government gets word and in punishment, gives the omega to a spoiled aristocrat son of a lord, Louis. Louis is more than thrilled to have his own omega and once Harry goes into heat, he explores the boy with fascination and unintentionally impregnates him. This leads to a boy used to living carefree and drinking the day away with other nobles to having to face fatherhood.

46. Our Lips Are Made Of Candy by [ Waking_dreams ] (10k)

“Your knot, please, Louis,” he managed to whine. He needed it, that extra stretch and burn that made him Louis’.

“Fuck,” Louis moaned, and his thrusts became unsteady. “Can’t do it here, baby, Hazza, can’t—“

Or, Harry accidentally missed a few doses of his medicine that controls his heat and starts his heat in the middle of Biology. Oops

47. The Bond That Can't Be Broken by [ louisgrindsonharry ] (10k)

Louis’ an alpha and Harry’s an omega. They never really stood a chance.

48. i'll be hurt from the heat (running from the heat) by [ itiswhatitisbutterfly ] (11k)

It's engrained into him, nothing else matters, protecting Harry at all costs is what pumps his heart and floods his veins. It’s just, he didn't count on the one thing Harry would need protecting from would be himself.

(Harry and Louis are in love, and they are probably soul mates. They just can’t be bond mates because despite the undeniable pull, it's them against the world.)

49. Fill My Heart With Sweetness by [ harryisquirkeh ] (11k)

Harry's a late bloomer, but since his luck is shit, it's no surprise that he'd be the last to get a heat, but the first to get pregnant. In high school.

50. I’ve Always Liked the Fireworks by [ @becomeawendybird ] (12k)

When alphas and omegas reach the age of twenty-one they are required to attend a Proving Day ceremony. Omegas watch as alphas do their best to compete in events, show off their skills, and prove how good a mate they can really be. The whole thing is a bit ridiculous, but Louis Tomlinson has always dreamed of finding his mate. He's got two unsuccessful Sheffield Proving Days under his belt and decides to go for the much more competitive one in Manchester. His goal is to play his best, leave it all out on the pitch, and hope that one of the omegas watching just happens to be his mate.

51. Come In and Change My Life by [ lightswoodmagic (sarah_writes) ] (12k)

He’d had the same neighbours since he’d moved into the building, a lovely, wealthy couple in their late sixties who had always invited him around for tea on Sundays. Martha had dropped off homemade biscuits the day he’d moved in, so Harry figured he may as well repeat the sentiment. He could hear someone getting closer to the door just as a flush ran through his body; oh fuck. His heat was close, too close to be knocking on a potentially unknown alpha’s door, but it was too late. The door swung open, and Harry’s mouth dropped. He’d never been overly interested in football, couldn’t find the fascination in watching men run around after a ball for hours aside from their uniforms, but he knew who this was. Louis Tomlinson, alpha, captain of Manchester United, star in a number of Harry’s heat addled fantasies, was his new next-door neighbour.

Or, Harry and Louis become friends when Harry looks after Louis' cat during away games, until one night at a party changes everything between them. It's just a shame Louis' going to be away for the FIFA World Cup for three months.

52. come on over, we've got something to share by [ jaerie ] (12k)

Even as an unbonded omega with a four year old, Harry had everything he needed. His beautiful son, a nice apartment, money to pay the bills -- oh, and an alpha next door always willing to knot his brains out.

53. Bentley Station, Now Arriving by @londonfoginacup (13k)

Harry Styles, omega. Owns a bakery on a train station in the middle of nowhere.

Niall Horan, meddling friend who wont leave him or his love life alone.

(lack of love life).

There's a ball coming up, and Harry is going to attend. Niall will make certain of that.

54. Christmas, Baby by [ nikogda ] (13k)

His life was going exactly how he’d wanted it. Exactly how he’d planned it. According to his life plan, he would be adopting a puppy in the next year.

Except one little detail. Harry was holding a positive pregnancy test. He was going to have a baby. He blinked a few times He, Harry Styles - husband and omega to Louis Tomlinson - would be carrying a human inside of him.

“How?” Harry asked himself as he shook the plastic stick a few times as if the results would magically turn negative. Or, The one where the exact thing that Harry thinks is derailing his life plan might be exactly what he needs.

55. Next To You by [ @homeofsavannahblue ] (14k)

When Harry Styles won the X-Factor he quickly became the latest pop sensation. When Louis runs into him at a party, he quickly realizes that Harry Styles is nothing like his reputation of womanizing alpha. Turns out, Harry Styles is an omega. And Louis' mate.

A story about love, support and being proud of who you are.

56. Restless Lane by [ lululawrence ] (14k)

Louis had grown used to his boring life back in Mississippi as a stand-in father figure to his siblings. He never expected his childhood friend to show up on his lawn with the heat of summer or that he would remind Louis how much of himself he'd tucked away and neglected. He also never expected to find himself caught up in a tangled web of feelings or secrets that just might break him. Maybe he had never known Harry at all.

57. Prince Harry and the Expert in Motorcycle Maintenance by [ @juliusschmidt ] (16k)

Louis puts the truck back into drive. “I’m going to ask you one more time. Where do you want me to take you?”

“To the Royal Palace.”

“The hospital psych ward, it is, then,” Louis says, though that’s a forty-five minute trip and a lecture on tardiness from his stepfather that, in the end, will definitely not be worth the trouble.

an abo cinderella au in which prince harry rides a motorcycle and louis, a simple mechanic, fixes it.

58. Stars Will Align For Us by [ @2tiedships2 ] (16k)

"The serial monogamist is single," Niall said by way of introduction when he sat down across from Harry in the canteen.

Harry sipped his chocolate milk. "What are you going on about?"

"Your alpha dream boat," Niall said. "That tiny little footie player? I heard from Hannah that he's broken it off with his boyfriend so he’s single and ready to flamingle. Now's the time to make your move."

Harry sipped his chocolate milk harder to keep himself from replying.

Or the one where Harry is an omega at a loss of how to get past his pining and gain the attention of Louis...especially considering the alpha is always in a relationship.

59. and the truth shall set you free (...maybe) by [  jaerie ] (17k)

Betism: A religion based on the belief that the beta gender has been chosen by God to protect and defend the purity and dignity of the human race by resisting and condemning the lustful ways and flawed biology of the alpha and omega

Harry is a Betist and Louis is an alpha who runs with a bad crowd. This is what happens when two worlds collide.

60. I Want You S'more by [ 2tiedships2 ] (17k)

“I think Harry’s like a wanna-be alpha,” Louis stated as he handed over Niall’s nachos.

“What the fuck does that mean?”

“I mean, as the alpha in this, um, possible platonic friendship, I’m supposed to be the one initiating any flirting. In a platonic way. I’m supposed to be the one taking care of the omega and sending off calming pheromones.”

“For argument’s sake, are you living in the eighteenth century? Maybe even nineteenth century?”

“What the fuck are you talking about?”

“Mate, it’s the twenty-first century. Sure, most alphas insist on taking the lead and taking full control over their omega. Like, they’re always wanting to be the one to comfort and take care of the omega. Which is cool and all. But can’t it be the other way around? Or at least compromise?”

Louis shoved a couple nachos in his mouth to avoid responding.

Or the one where the least alpha-y alpha and the least omega-y omega show that secondary genders aren’t set in stone and sometimes it works when you kinda share that.

61. Love will tear us apart by [ notasawrap ] (20k)

"Look, alpha," the green-eyed man starts contemptuously. "I know you're upset and that this sucks, I fucking know.” Harry breathes deeply. "I'm trying to do my best because she hasn’t stopped asking about you since yesterday, but I cannot do much if with everything I say, you're gonna react like a psychopath or whatever. I don't know what you want, Louis!" He alleges frustrated. "And if you just stop acting impulsively -contain your instincts or whatever, we could solve this in a way that benefits all of us, but if you're not willing to do that, the best thing is going to be to forget you even know about this." Harry ends up, turning to leave, but is again stopped by the alpha, his grip much softer this time.

"I want to meet her." Louis recognizes, more calmly. His scent slightly softer than before. It momentarily catches Harry in a spiral, but he drives away the sensation and concentrates on looking at the alpha.

"I know." He says sincere. He had expected it. "So does she."

or Louis and Harry have a past and now it's time to face it.

62. solid as a stone (when everything is gone) by [ louisnights ] (20k)

“Why’d you take me with you?”

Louis startles at the question, the car almost swerving off the road in the process. He holds his breath as he waits for the twins to wake up and start wailing, but they don’t. They keep sleeping on peacefully, covered in the family blanket.

Harry’s looking at him with an unreadable expression.

Louis takes a minute, mulling it over. He answers quietly. “I hate to say it, but as much as we hate each other, I can’t bear to leave you alone to deal with this whole thing all by yourself.” and I wouldn’t be able to bear it if you died, he adds in his mind.

or, it's the zombie apocalypse and Louis is stuck with Harry, with whom he shares a complicated relationship with.

63. hard to confess by [ @hereforlou ] (24k)

One, they only did it without a condom once (and a half) and not during his heat. Never during his heat. Two, he never once forgot to take his birth control (he’s almost sure). Three, his plan is to be married for a year before he even starts trying for a baby, and not only is he very, very single, him and Louis aren’t even sleeping together anymore. Which brings him to reason number four why this can’t be happening: Louis. Louis doesn’t want a baby with Harry.

(Or, the one where Harry knows he messed up and Louis knows nothing.)

64. Stay Close, Hold Steady by [  jaerie ] (26k)

Found on the banks of the Mississippi as an toddler, Harry goes on a quest to find his biological family. Louis tries to be supportive, but maybe he just doesn't want to be left behind.

65. Let’s Embrace The Point Of No Return by [ sweaterpawstyles ] (33k)

Louis was a whole new scale of beautiful, he was richer than Harry could've ever imagined, and he was the most powerful, dominant alpha that Harry had ever come in contact with. The only problem now is that Louis is also Harry's boss.

Louis believed Harry was an alpha, and had no idea about how he had lied about his status just to get an interview with Louis. He was in too deep now and he couldn't look back.

Or

Harry is an omega intern at an all alpha company. Louis is his boss. There's some complications.

66. All These Lights by [  MediaWhore ] (34k)

“People vote for alphas because they’re strong and they’re not only beautiful but also mesmerizing. They make you want to give them all of your attention, make you want to beg for some of theirs back. They’re shiny, oozing sex appeal and a commanding presence, and people always want more and more. Omegas are enticing too for sure, but it’s not the same. It makes people uncomfortable. It doesn’t make them want to root for you.”

the canon fic where Harry is an omega and dreams come with a price.

67. I Sail With You by [ @afangirlfantasy ] (35k)

Against his wishes, Omega Prince Harry Styles is arranged to mate with someone he doesn’t love, much less knows. Though he pleaded to his parents incessantly, they not only refuse to comply but force him to depart on a ship days later. Harry prays for fate to step in, to change what’s to come, however, the answer he is given is not exactly in the form he had hoped.

Enter Will Tommo – deadliest pirate captain of all seven seas.

68. Watch the Sun Coming Up by [ @sadaveniren ] (36k)

As Louis approaches his thirtieth birthday his pack is desperate for him to find a mate.

Harry has always expected one day he may settle down with a nice alpha and they would continue to live in his small hometown.

Together they somehow will make this work.

69. I Think You're Already Home by [ jaerie ] (38k)

Seeing Louis Tomlinson today, it would be hard to guess that he was ever once a member of the world's most famous boyband. These days he doesn't even the leave his own house. The truth is he can't leave his own house. He can't even remember the last time just standing at an open door didn't send him into a debilitating panic attack. But, against his friend's advice, Louis is ready to add meaning to his life again. He's ready to start a family. So what if he doesn't have an omega? There are plenty of surrogacy services just waiting to help the rich and famous become parents. He just has to find the right one for the job.

70. We Got The World Shaking by [ FutureMrsHaroldStyles ] (39k)

Suddenly Louis is taking Harry’s hand in his own and turns to his sister. “I’m taking him to my room. Don’t worry I’m going to take care of him. Now go and enjoy your party, little sis!” And with that Louis leads Harry to the elevator. The thoughts in Harry’s head are going wild but they all come down to Fuck am I really gonna spend my heat with Louis Tomlinson?

Or the one where Harry goes into heat at his best friend Lottie's birthday party and her big brother helps him out.

71. Seeing Blind by [ @sugarbabyomega ] (46k)

Louis finally turns his head in Liam’s direction, knows his face is showing the longing he’s been aching with ever since it took root in his chest. “What the fuck do I do, Liam? He wouldn’t want me like that, but I want-” his voice cracks, and he turns his face back downwards. “What do you do when you’re not perfect for the person who’s perfect for you?”

OR the one where Harry’s an independent omega who likes to have his fun and Louis is the blind alpha that changes Harry’s priorities.

72. I'll Be Here Waiting on Forever by [ sweaterpawstyles ] (46k)

A Romeo and Juliet AU where Louis is an alpha prince who falls in love with Harry, an omega prince from the neighboring kingdom

73. Si Pudiera Volar by [ messofgorgeouschaos ] (68k)

When Harry���s fiancé leaves him for his cousin, he looks the other way for the sake of his happiness. He’ll do anything to forget about him, including joining a monastery. It isn’t until his cousin’s former lover, a pirate, appears that he realizes everything is not as it appears, and an honest pirate might be the only person worthy of his heart.

Or, a fic loosely based on Corazon Salvaje.

74.  A Distant Hazy Light by [ green_feelings ] (76k)

Life’s pretty ordinary for Harry. He lives with his best friend, got into university just like he’s planned, and manages to support himself just fine for an unbonded omega. If he sustains that lifestyle by getting paid to help alphas through their rut every now and then, that’s nothing to be hung up on. Until he’s hired by an alpha that turns everything upside down.

Or, Harry’s working on taking Louis’ walls down, until he builds his own up.

75. Face Your Fears by [ SadaVeniren ] (92k)

Harry is a single father, pretending to be a beta after his alpha mated him and left him. He’s getting by just fine raising the twins when Louis walks into his bakery. Too bad him and Louis will never be a thing.

76. Pretty Please (With Sugar On Top) by [ angelichl ] (113k)

Harry is a sugar baby omega who cons rich alphas for a living. Louis is a rich alpha with too much self-control.

77. Take Me As I Am by [ lovelarry10 ] (117k)

“Suppressant? But… why would I need a suppressant? Alphas don’t take suppressants.”

“You’re right, they don’t.”

****

Secrets. Lies. Deception. Betrayal. Self-discovery.

Alpha. Omega. How far will they go to hide the truth?

78. But Please, Don't Bite by [ @shyshyserious ] (122k)

"Melodic little jingle sounded from a bell hanging over the doorframe and warm indoor air curled heavily around his shivering body for the first time in months. Harry suddenly felt a sting in the corners of his eyes and had to force down a broken sob. Fuck, he was a mess. Such a mess. He had to focus." 

79. sometimes green and sometimes blue by [ itsmiz ] (511k)

Harry's an omega, and Louis is an Alpha. They're best friends growing up together on the outskirts of Washington, D.C., but they've always been a bit more than friends.

[meanderings0ul]

Option 3-Philinda Fic Preview#2

I am officially over 22k for this Tahiti fic and still hoping to post in late April before we get the show back May 10th. This will be an all in one go posting, not a chapter fic. I just feel like it’ll read better that way. It’ll definitely be my longest one-shot ever. >_>

This bit is from close to the middle of the fic. General levels of disturbing themes typical for aos. -M

*

They walked around that bend of the island on a whim, far enough to get the frozen kind of cocktails again. As long as they stayed in the surf they didn’t seem to be intruding on anyone. And the frilly, frozen drinks made it feel more like a vacation somehow.

Melinda’s dress tugged around her knees, wet along the hem on one side.

Phil got them margaritas then mai-tais and they shared a few tapas in a shady corner. It made it feel less like a dream, to see other people around, the bartender and someone who came in for a tray of pina coladas, to hear a radio playing from the next building over.

She had a couple more, had just enough to drink to let him swing their hands between them walking back, to let Phil ramble mostly to himself.

He went quiet eventually, stroking her scarred wrist with his thumb. “I feel like I should remember when this changed, when we changed. Like there was a moment somewhere and I didn’t recognize it.”

“I remember.”

“You do? Really?” He sounded startled.

“Wasn’t anything dramatic.”

“Tell me?”

A larger wave tugged at their legs again and he moved to walk closer to her, sunlight heavy and gold, starting to dim.

“I missed you. We lost… Then Shield went legitimate for a while. You were gone so much, and I missed you. I wanted you with me, like we used to be. And then I kept wanting.”

She could feel him looking at her, but he didn’t say anything. She finally shrugged. They walked slow.

“I still remember it, in the Framework, what I was doing in there when I should have met you,” he said.

“Me too.”

“It doesn’t weigh on you,” Phil said. It wasn’t a question.

“Only Mace weighs on me.” She could remember her Framework life clearly, but it wasn’t real. But, there were too many very real what-ifs to carry with the way that Mace had died.

“Hydra in there was…”

“Phil, I had nothing left in there. I had nothing but work. You weren’t there. All our friends were either dead in the takeover or never recruited. I was high ranking, but I wasn’t inner circle. There was plenty I didn’t know about. I didn’t have you, Fury and Maria to hand me extra details. Mom died in the Takeover. Assassinated for knowing too much, just like she’s always worried about. And Katya… everyone knew what I was, what I’d done.”

“What was different?” Phil asked.

He might as well. They were already talking about it and she’d had enough drinks to keep her heart from racing. Melinda was still silent a long time, trying to find the words.

“You don’t have to tell me,” he said gently.

She heard herself laugh, brief and harsh and empty. “Nothing. Nothing changed.”

His breathing changed when he understood. “…oh. May, I…”

“First they had me in some like, ritzy spa place I knew was fake. Then AIDA or Radcliffe built a maze of some building around that house, made it feel like something I could escape. I must have run that simulation hundreds of times. Then I guess the actual Framework was ready.” Melinda swallowed, but didn’t stop, because if she stopped she wouldn’t tell him and if she didn’t she’d never tell him.

��I don’t know how long I ran the Bahrain rescue mission for, but it finally just let her hear me. She heard me and let them go, sat down. We were able to get her to an ambulance, give her something to make her drowsy. We were going to be able to get her help. Then it let me do it again.

But the last time… you already weren’t there. I already had no idea who you even were. I threatened someone else until they agreed to try and stall for me. Katya heard me, understood me. We got her back to the states. Andrew was working with her.”

“You still met him.”

“Yeah.” They hadn’t met through Phil or anyone he’d recruited so it hadn’t changed. They’d hit it off at a damn bus stop because of a friend of a friend, that kind of thing. It’d been so normal once.

“Good.”

“He wasn’t real. And she made him tell me how happy he was when she killed…” She still couldn’t say it. Two lifetimes and both of them he’d have been safer, been better off without her.

Phil squeezed her hand tight. Their feet shushed through the water slow.

“You told Fury no, in college. You must have. If you’d quit the Academy I’d have still met you.”

“I did. But Simmons was right. It didn’t quite take for me. I remembered too many details from the real world, knew things before they happened sometimes, said things I shouldn’t. I think it messed with whatever passed for my brain chemistry in there eventually. But I turned Fury down. Rewrote my project about something else. Graduated late, got my teaching certification instead of going to graduate school. Tried to live simply. Married someone I never loved and had nothing in common with because it seemed like I should. Was committed twice, both brief thankfully. I never met…”

Melinda knew the two other women he’d loved and the few fuck-buddies he’d been fond of, all people he’d met through Shield. He’d never met anyone he’d been in love with, or any of his closest friends. Their friends.

It sounded so empty. Even in that hellscape, she’d been happy long enough to know what she’d lost.

Melinda reach out to wrap her arm around his waist. Hands weren’t enough. His arm settled around her shoulders easily, rubbed fingers along her triceps.

They ended up making out on the couch until Phil was ready to sleep.

[thefitzs-blog]

Hello I recently began reading historical fiction (both mystery and romance) and I remember you commenting some time ago that you like to read historical romance. Do you have any recommendations? I’m still new to the genre and am finding what I like and don’t like. Thank you. Ps I like your header , Julia Quinn is grate

Hi Anon,

I’m quite fussy myself when it comes to historical romance, but hopefully I can be of some help - I’m really not into ham joints for hands, musclar men and a lot of authors across romance genre tend to base their hero’s around this image. It’s always important to read reviews especially when you’re testing the waters, they sometimes give more detailed descriptions or offer trigger warnings or just warnings of distress (which are much needed, my heart has been broken many a time and a spoiler would have been appreciated). However, don’t base all your judgment on others views, if you think it sounds good but top reviews don’t, just go for it - but if it’s got mostly 2 star reviews then maybe not.

Amanda Quick might be your cup of tea as she combines mystery and romance in a 19th century setting. If you’re just into period mystery then Agatha Christie is always a reccomendation. She’s actually how I got into hr, well Christie and a really good fic writer who wrote an amazing historic au years ago.

A few of my favourites:

Fool for love by Eloisa James. Some heartbreaking moments in this book, for context the heroine has had an injured hip since birth, “They said you would never marry, Henrietta. You are married. They said you would never dance. We are dancing. And they said you would never give birth. But I know you. I know you want this baby. We’ll go to every doctor in England if we have to. We can find someone who will save the baby. And you.”

A week to be wicked by tessa dare - this book is wild - fake betrothals, sharing a bed, science fairs, scientific dirty talk, impromptu weddings, sword swallowing, pretending to have an affair to hide in plain sight, misunderstandings, highwaymen chasing them and lets not forget being robbed at gun point with our hero left for dead before our heroine knocks the lights out of the unsuspecting bandit. This book seems like fanfiction, more specifically fitzsimmons fanfiction. Once I read it I was tempted to write it but I’m a bad writer. Worth noting this book is one of the few books I enjoy both by the author and in the ‘spindle cove’ series, the book prior to this is a good read, the rest are mixed.)

Seven Years to Sin by Sylvia Day is great, I like-love it but I don’t love-love it. The hero coveted heroine for several years however she married during this time, she becomes widowed and the two meet by chance and explore the sparks that have been between them since the moment they laid eyes on one another.

Scandal of the Year by Laura Lee Ghurke - fyi only a pretence of adultery none actually committed- Hero and heroine are discovered in bed together by heroines husband which results in divorce, yes the scandal! Hero has no idea how he ended up in bed with the heroine, he remembers nothing other than her kiss before all fades to black. One later, they meet again, we learn their lives have intersected since they were 16, each coveting the other at one point or another yet too afraid to say something. Basically, Hero wants a future with heroine, heroine is scared and wants to enjoy her freedom after her horrid first marriage.

Her Ladyships Companion by Evangeline Collins - fyi, adultery is committed but your heart aches for the heroine, she was so young when she married and he is so horrid you just want her to be happy ahh spoilers anyway - Hero is a male prostitute (I blame fanfic for my love of this rare trope), he is hired by our heroines close friend who believes heroine deserves some attention in her life. She has every intention of sending him away until she meets him and everything changes. Their relationship is great until Hero realises he wants more than she can give him. He leaves and asks she not to contact for him again, yet he is summoned once more. Does he go back? Will they ever be able to have a real relationship? 🤷🏻‍♀️

When beauty tamed the beast by Eloisa James - the Hero honestly reminds me of Fitz from aos, he’s such a grump. Our hero is a doctor - an upfront and emotionless one at that. He was injured as a child resulting in a permanent limp and the use of a cane. Our heroine is beautiful, the talk of the town and allegedly pregnant having been spotted kissing a prince then throwing up after eating less than fresh prawns at a season event. The hero’s father thinks that his son will never marry or beget an heir (he believes his son impotent) and so arranges a marriage between he and the hero, believing that she is already pregnant which would provide him his heir. The hero is no fool, as a doctor he knows a stuffed pillow when he sees one. This book is packed with affairs by the beach, a spreading disease, a race against time and thunder storms. This book also includes the heroine coming to terms with what she perceives as her loss of looks, as someone who prided herself on looks alone it is such an amazing journey to see her inner thoughts. This book is great, and I really recommend it.

The Earl takes All by Lorraine Heath - I cannot put this book into words. It’s heartbreaking but it’s worth the pain.

Less angsty books include the Westcott series by Mary Balogh (all save the last, Someone to Care, I didn’t care much for the protagonists as I had grew to dislike the heroine in prior books). I’m currently re-reading this series.

Someone to Love - Anna Snow has lived at the orphanage for as long as she can remember, whilst others left once of age, she stayed on to become a teacher (alongside her best friend Joel). One day she receives a letter from a solicitor to meet him in London. She discovers she is the only legitimate heir to an aristocrat after it is revealed he committed bigotry. She is thrust into a life she could never have imagined, with the help of Avery, a handsome lord, to guide her.

Someone to Hold - Camille Westcott begins teaching in the very orphanage Anna grew up in so she can find herself - if her half sibling can live so lowly, so can she. She meets Joel, an artist who teaches art once a week - they immediately dislike each other, due to his loyalty to Anna who is his best friend and the woman he once proposed to. He admires the way she engages the children and sees something in her that Camille doesn’t see herself. There’s sparks, heartbreak and a new discovery that could change Joel’s world forever.

Someone to wed - upon inheriting the Westcott title as the closest male relative to the late Earl of Riverdale, Alexander, the penniless Earl also inherits a mansion which is in desperate need of repairing. Thankfully for him, Wren, his neighbour, has just the solution to his financial problems. Marriage. Having only met Wren, a woman who hides herself behind a dark vail, ten minutes prior, Alex is taken aback by her offer. It’s the perfect solution but why would she marry a total stranger? And what is she hiding behind the vail?

I would also recommend Anna Bradley, her writings are quite light hearted and The Firstborn by Quenby Olson (latter is a clean romance).

I hope you enjoy these recommendations anon, I have tons more if not. I must warn a majority of these are angsty and so Julia Quinn may be a good read in between books. I hope you’re able to find the trope that you like 💕🦔

[clarenecessities]

spooky homeroom

Word Count: 1540 Summary: i’ve never had a ‘homeroom’ and it probably shows Chapter Warnings: n/a? [First] [Previous] [Next]

“So that was weird,” said Nino, after a moment.

“This whole thing is weird,” Alya agreed.

“They were really nice though,” said Marinette.

Adrien hummed, nodding absently. He knew Bridgette was nice; Bridgette was his friend. She’d always be nice. It was a little more surprising to be accepted so readily by someone whose whole life had been dictated and destroyed by the aos sídhe.

“Do you think they’re all like that?” he asked. Alya started moving towards the stairs, and they trailed faithfully in her wake.

“Who knows?” she said, shrugging. “I hope they haven’t all had their families murdered—that was kind of an awkward turn in the conversation.”

“Bridgette would’ve said something if her family’d been murdered,” said Adrien. “I mean, I guess Refrigerator is kind of… dead, but…”

“How long has it been since you’ve seen her, man? Of course the dog is dead,” said Nino, not unkindly. “I’m sure she didn’t mind. It probably wasn’t as big a deal as you think it was.”

“We should just try to be patient with them for now,” decided Marinette. “We don’t know what most of them have been through, and if those two are any indication, we’re pretty liable to make things uncomfortable by making assumptions.”

“Sure,” said Alya, sighing a little as she pulled open the door of the classroom. “Though they seem liable to make us uncomfortable by oversharing.”

“As if we don’t all do that anyway,” said Nino, rolling his eyes. “So many people have commented on the way I smell since I started going here, dude. Nobody understands boundaries.”

“Well—”

“Oh don’t you start, phone snatcher,” he interrupted, sticking his tongue out at an appropriately abashed Marinette. “And don’t even get me started on the emotion reading.”

“It’s not like I can help that,” muttered Marinette, sliding into her seat. “Oh, and Bridgette wasn’t upset with you, Adrien.”

“Thank goodness,” he sighed. “What about Luka?”

“Luka wasn’t upset with you either,” said Marinette. “What did the kid with the bird say?”

“Just that class was gonna start,” said Adrien, smiling. This was nice, these little exchanges of information. Their contract was going so well.

“Wh—you can sign?” asked Nino, somewhere between impressed and envious. “Since when?”

“Since I was a kid! I learned it before I could read. A lot of the aos sídhe can’t or don’t hear or speak, so it’s important to know at least one sign language.”

“I mean, that’s true of a lot of humans, too, but I never learned,” said Nino ruefully.

“Me neither,” said Marinette, grimacing. “I feel like kind of a jerk now.”

“Well, Adrien or I can interpret for you,” said Alya, “but you shouldn’t feel bad about it. At least no worse than you feel for not knowing any other language.”

“Aw man, you too?” groaned Nino. “At least Marinette is with me.”

“Well, Adrien says I may start to learn it through our contract,” she admitted sheepishly, “so…”

“You too, Brutus?” he asked, the picture of betrayal.

“I can’t help that either!”

“Alya, sign a contract with me,” whined Nino, stretching up to rest his hands on her desk. “Share with me your forbidden knowledge.”

“It’s not forbidden, you just don’t want to learn it,” she said flatly. “I’ll share it alright, but it’s going to be a lot of flashcards and tutorial videos.”

“Can’t I just trade half my soul?” he groaned.

“No you may not,” said Mlle. Bustier from the front of the room. “I can and will give you detention.”

“Aw, c’mon, Teach! What good would that do? We’d still be signed!”

“Can you annul a contract if like, you don’t have your parents’ permission?” asked Alya. “Because I super don’t have my parents’ permission.”

“No, which is why you’re also not allowed,” said Mlle. Bustier with a stern frown. “Now if you don’t mind, class is about to begin.”

“Yes ma’am,” sighed Nino, turning to fully face the front. Adrien bumped his shoulder sympathetically. There never seemed to be enough time for antics; it was the only drawback of school so far.

“Classes are going to continue normally,” she announced, as the students quieted down. “The Aesc students will have their own homeroom, but otherwise be sitting in on our regular school days. Any questions?”

“Yes, are we allowed to heckle the Aesc students?” asked Alix, not waiting to be called on. At least she put her hand up, Adrien thought to himself.

“No you are not,” said Mlle. Bustier.

“Are we allowed to heckle the Dupont students?”

“No, Alix.”

“Not even Chloé?”

“Especially not Chloé!” snapped Chloé, turning in her seat to glower at Alix, who looked down at her with an easy grin. “Need I remind you, my father is the one who orchestrated this whole affair! If it weren’t for me you little gremlins wouldn’t be having this enriching experience at all!”

“Oh fuck, are gremlins real?” asked Nino, glancing around as if he expected them to come crawling through the windows. “I draw the line at gremlins man, those things scared the shit out of me as a kid.”

“Language, Nino,” sighed Mlle. Bustier. “Chloé, don’t call people gremlins. Alix, don’t antagonize Chloé. Does anyone have any actual questions?”

Adrien raised his hand. Mlle. Bustier stared at him for a moment, as if she couldn’t believe he was actually waiting to be called on, then nodded.

“Are they all gonna be in our magic-users class? ‘Cause I know it isn’t full but that’s still a lot of students if they are.”

“No,” said Mlle. Bustier. “That class is still separated by grade level, so you should only have students your age sitting in. And I don’t know that all of them are capable of casting magic at all—there are a few scheduled to join our magical beast class.”

“What kind of beasts?” asked Chloé, sitting up a little straighter. She was the picture of indignity. “I won’t have another stray sniffing around my territory so soon after you admitted that one.”

“I’m right here,” said Adrien, more amused than wounded. “If it’s your territory, you should be prepared to defend it. Don’t be a spoiled housecat.”

Chloé gasped so loudly it sounded more like a shout.

“Adrien,” said Mlle. Bustier.

He nodded apologetically, shooting a furtive glance over his shoulder to make sure Marinette wasn’t too disappointed with him.

She actually looked fairly smug, smirking at him when their eyes met.

“The school isn’t anyone’s territory,” said Mlle. Bustier, with a world-weary sigh. “It’s neutral ground for members of all species, and I’ll thank you to remember to keep the peace, no matter how difficult someone is being.”

She very pointedly didn’t look at Chloé.

“Yes Mademoiselle,” said Adrien, dipping his head respectfully. “I’m sorry.”

“You should be!” said Chloé, still fuming across the aisle.

“Chloé.”

“I’m not going to apologize,” she said, turning her nose in the air. “I did nothing wrong.”

“Then stop interrupting class time,” said Mlle. Bustier. “Please.”

“Do you know what kind of beasts they are?” asked Alya, also without waiting to be called on.

“Yes, but I won’t be disclosing that information,” said Mlle. Bustier. “It’s up to them when or if they’d like to share.”

“Boo,” said Alya, pouting. “Are there any kitsune? I don’t think I could put up with another Lila.”

“What did I just say about tolerance?” asked Mlle. Bustier, sighing again. “No, there aren’t any other kitsune. Are you happy now? Can we go over the lesson plan?”

“Yes, mademoiselle. Sorry, mademoiselle.”

“Wait, one more, one more,” said Alix, “if an Aesc kid tries to start shit, may we finish it?”

“The next person to swear is getting detention,” said Mlle. Bustier. “And that depends more on what they’re trying to start. Are you asking if you can hit them? You are not allowed to hit them.”

“What if they’re possessed or whatever, though?” asked a student behind her, gesticulating wildly.

“Kim,” said Max, frowning up at him. Ah, so that was his name. “If they’re possessed, you should run away and get help.”

“Thank you, Max,” said Mlle. Bustier. “Did everyone hear that? If you’re attacked by a possessed anything, what do you do?”

“Run away and get help,” they answered in a dull chorus.

“What if we can’t though?” asked Nino.

“Or what if someone will get hurt if we do?” asked Marinette.

“I am not legally allowed to tell you that that’s okay,” said Mlle. Bustier. She shook her head. “At any rate, you’d have to explain yourself to authority figures. Don’t think you kids are off the hook just because the principal hasn’t called you in. If this ever happens again, I’m going to start locking you in closets to keep you out of trouble.”

“Even Juleka? She can just float right out,” said Alya.

Mlle. Bustier’s response was cut off by the ringing of the bell.

“Everyone but Max is now failing,” she huffed as they gathered their things. “Max, you get a 20 for being responsible.”

“Is now a bad time to ask if I can enroll my latest experiment as a student?”

“Out,” said Mlle. Bustier, falling heavily into her chair. “All of you, out.”

[reflectionsof99]

What do I want?

Im on this journey of awakening & now im at a point to reflect on what do I really want? specifically... so i decided to make a list ..  - I want to be so deeply, madly in love with myself.. in a healthy way that  allows me to thrive, appreciate more, tolerate less and truly improve my quality of life. I deserve it, after so long of looking to make a love out of someone I want to realize that my truest  oldest friend & most legitimate soul mate it myself. & I dont have to feel lonely anymore if im simply focusing on the things I enjoy. being in a better space to give & recieve .  - I want to stop resisting, & instead trust, life & my intuition. In these past few days im so greatful for all the information im finally understanding one thing being how alot of the stress in my life is from resistance & from trying to control things around me. Also resisting my intuituion id like to stop doing that. When I hear about the things im letting go it feels as a loss & I havent really been understanding what im gaining. But im so tired of carrying fear or waiting for changes to occur, there are some things that i really dont want to let go off, but i am go greatful for the paitence & perspective througout this entire process.  - I want to slow down & truly be present for each moment & being aware of the energy i bring to a situation. Ive been treating life like a checklist & feeling as tho once I accomplish a,b,c then iĺl be able to fully engage or finally feel the bliss, freedom & happiness. But i choose to bring those things instead & then allow the rest to come. - I want to be creative! I have so many ideas & instead i want to align with the creating & manifesting. When ive been so shut down emotionally I realized how this has affected my sacral chakra, keeping me away from my creativety & sexuality as well. I wanna rebuild that as well as rebuilding my confidence. In high school my senior year I did alot of art classes because I liked the freedom of expression. Art teaches me alot about myself & about my level of paitence. I really would like to specialize in painting (photorealism), freelance photography & even some video recording & editing. These things make me feel alive !! & I´d like to give myself a genuine space to explore it. - I want to have fucking fun!! These past few years ive allowed my depression & adverse feelings to push me to far away from everything i loved including myself. my blog has been one of my closest means of self expression & a creative outlet. but now i miss having friends & fun!! I am being able to just take it easy, I enjoy feeling comfortable in my own skin & vibing out with new people. I miss being with people i feel relatable with , or having girl friends that hype me up & just having lots of normal girly fun with. I call it sisterhood because its so iportant to a young womens development to have a group of sisters to encourage her & also let her know when she needs to check her self.  - I want my tribe to inspire me! When i look at my tribe i wanna feel as tho they accept me & vice versa. Like its alot to learn from them in some aspect & as tho we can all love eachother unconditionally. -I want to validate myself!! With my lack of self love its had been around looking for validation I didnt even realize. Being vulnerable in the wrong ways & putting myself in uncomfortable situations simply for the validation that I matter and for all the self love that was missing. Well now I want to validate myself & go after what I want. Because I cant expect people to want my dreams more than I do. I cante xpect people to do things with me. & when i want people to keep reassuring me things are okay that from a place of fear & im releasing that fear now.  - I want to be confident!  I mean.. I feel pretty confident. But it goes deeper than that. I wanna feel confident in my appearance & in every single choice I make. Confident in my different & confident in my ability to be alone or handle responsibilities. I am ready to embrace confidence fully.  -I want discipline in the means of meditation & exercise. like responsibilities ive been avoiding i intend to truly see the benifits & prioritize them rather than resist or belittle. I feel these things will go a long way in my life & id like to see! - I want my car, my phone & my eyebrows & toes done!!! I group these together because when I think of them they make me feel like an independent adult women. sometimes the fact that I dont have these things makes me feel like im not where i want to be so i want this to motivate me. Like I feel like iv been so dependent on others & the car & phone is truly a means of freedom & indpendence. & when i get my eyebrows & feet done it makes me feel confident & feminine & I could use alot more of that. - Hitting the thousands doing what i love. this past year ive been thinking of & trying to do so much of something that I havnt compleated much of anything. I want to do what my soul really calls me to do & be able to provide myself the lifestyle where I have freedom to the highest degree. Id like to be able to afford the healthy foods or even land to start my own garden & the car & insurance to visit my family at my own accord & to go out when i want & to travel & even just take a personal day when needed. its truly my dream to be my own boss & i know its possible! Im just interesed in seeing how these thousands & millions will manifest for me. I ask for help from the universe in doing so as i release my limiting financial beliefs & embrance my abundance.  - I want to eat more vegan food, I want to feel good more often, I want to have alot of fun new experiences & be around people who enjoy doing simmilar things as me, I want to create & be the next big thing rather than wait for it & I wanna be paitent without getting my feelings involved when nessecary, I wanna embrace the wonders of life & self love to make up for all the years that was no where to be found. & deep deep down I want to be so inlove... but now with myself. - I want to go to the beach, feel the sand i my toes, people watch, charge up in the beautiful water. admire the metaphor for existance that a beach is  - i want to write poetry that flows, is genuine & vibes like i need it to & that others can relate to & enjoy that intruiges the deepest parts of people everywhere  - i want to visit & potentially build an earthship & bus to home coversion - i want to travel america with a lover in my bus conversion - i want to experience the epitomy of freedom & compassion - i want to do psychedelics when im ready  - i want my sex drive back. I litterally dont have one right now but im sure once I do it could make things a whole lot more interesting & fun. i feel shame & guilt clouding my sexuality & I wanna purify that out of me. & have truly spiritual next level sexual experiences when the time comes. - i wanna release guilt in general. about things I cant change or about my truth. - i wanna honor & understand my connection to nature & do everything I can to protect her.  - i want to travel to all these awesome places to experience other cultures, learn different languages , eat ao many amazing food & ulitmatley respect this entire creation in its entirety & ultimatley meet alot of people & have alot of experiences that make this whole thing worthwhile! & really appreciate all the different fascests of nature. I wanna go to costa rica, & egypt & the vadican to witness some of the wonders theyve stolen & france & africa & south america & just all over really. I wanna have something to offer & something to learn as I go. - I wanna go home to my heaven inside. Its calling me. & I know when I return things will be made right. - more means of experssion like enaging in my cosplay instagram ! & hopefully getting lots of followers maybe even money & also starting my youtube channel I am not always sure the details & im trying to be as specific as possible to these things can manifest but imma just be paitent & I hope this helps me & the universe & all my spirit guides & higher self in the long run. / I am sooo greatful!!!   I intend to have a relaxing day full for minfulness & self assurance & just doing whatever I want to do... / Love & light 

[randomlittleimp]

The night the lights went out

Fandom: Star Trek AOS

Word Count:2078

Rating: Teen

Warnings: Talk of death, talk of murder,talk of  infidelity

Beta’d by the lovely @yourtropegirl (thanks so much)

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We had grown up together, my twin brother, his best friend and me. All the same age and all too bright for the small backwoods town we were raised in. We were inseparable from a young age, it was no surprise when romance bloomed between Daniel and me. My brother was put off by the idea at first but soon realized that there was no one he would rather be with his sister than his best friend. It was a beautiful time for our little trio,we were indestructible.  Nothing bad could ever happen, we were going to rule the world one day.

The boys went off to med school, destined for medical greatness. I was always more of a technological genius, so I was MIT bound. We were all a little shell shocked by how much harder it was outside the little bubble of our small town. We struggled, we doubted, but even apart we helped each other through the tough times till we came out on top. Eventually finding our groove and excelling just as we had planned.

Daniel and I were just as in love as always, nothing seemed to be able to break us, not even the distance. He and my brother were off to their residency years as I began taking the programming world by storm. Just as they were finishing up there years of torturous training our worlds came crumbling down around us in one night.

It was raining and dark as my brother made his way home from a two day shift in the pediatric ward. He was tired and not as quick behind the wheel as you would hope all other drivers would be, but he was still better than the guy coming home from a three day bender that drifted into oncoming traffic. My brother died on some empty highway, a life snubbed out so fast and so carelessly it threw me and Daniel for quite a loop. Nothing would be the same, we were not indestructible and now we knew it.

I went back home, hiding from the world in my room. Daniel tried to get me out, to help me mourn and move forward, but he was my brother and he was gone. I hated the world right then for taking him away from me and pushed Daniel away from me in the process. I broke his heart, destroying the only positive thing he had left.

Meanwhile I delved into the dark side of the internet, mingling with people more than willing to exploit my talents for their own needs, pushing me into things a little more dark and illegal. Teaching me the ins and outs of hacking, which I took to like a fish to water. Eventually I came back to myself, and realized that two years had passed and Daniel had moved on without me. He was married and I was truly alone.

He had met her while working at a hospital in Atlanta, making a name for himself, working himself half to death as if he was trying to make my brothers dreams come true as well as his own. The trollop had made enough of an impact that he was able to slow down and enjoy life again, and I thought I could appreciate her for that. It didn’t last though, Daniel convinced her to move back to our small town with him, and get married. He would take over the small clinic in town as a true country doctor and they could settle down and start a family. Jocelyn was not the settling type though and while she put on a good facade for Daniel, everyone else in town knew what she was getting up to when he wasn’t home. She made time with many of the men in town, including the police chief and the local sitting judge.  So when Daniel was called out of town for a couple of weeks for a convention she barely spent a night at their home.

Of course he came home a day early to surprise her, but the surprises were all his.

When she wasn’t at their house he went into town to look for her. He stopped in at the local bar seeing as it was one of the only places open that late on a Friday night. Had I known where he was I would have tried to stop him. No she wasn’t there, but enough of her ‘friends’ were, and they were swapping stories. Andy was talking the most, as he was one of her favorite conquests. It was loud enough with their laughter no one heard him come up behind them. Daniel heard enough to know exactly who they were talking about and the fight that followed would go down in history. They threw him out on his ass after he nearly took out half a dozen guys, but he was still fuming.

He went home and grabbed his daddy’s hunting rifle and waited till after closing time and then headed out to Andy’s house. It had rained heavily that week and the ground was soft and muddy. As Daniel made his way through the woods behind the houses he could see that he had not been the first person through there. He was blinded by anger to think much on it at the time though. As he approached the house he could see the lights on in the kitchen and Daniel made his way slowly to the back door, trying to keep his steps as quiet as possible. The door was open and as he entered the smell of gunpowder and blood overwhelmed his senses, shaking his resolve. He turned the corner to the kitchen door and found Andy’s still warm body lying in a slowly expanding pool of blood. The sight of the dead man cleared the red from Daniel’s eyes and he took off running back the way he came.

That’s when I saw him. I had no idea he was back in town but when he came barreling through the trees beside where I was crouched I knew my plan was finished. He had had an air tight alibi while he was out of town, but now he would be suspect number one. That wasn’t going to work at all. I chased after him and caught up easily as he stumbled through the woods in shock and fear. Once I had him calm enough the two of us went back to my house to get cleaned up and make a new plan.

“Where is my wife? I need to talk to my wife.” Daniel was pacing in my cellar office, looking more shell shocked than anything.

“That harlot? I wouldn’t worry about her. God damn it Daniel! What are you doing back? You were supposed to be at that medical conference till tomorrow night!” I was practically shouting in my frustration.

“Don’t call her that, she is my wife damn it! I came back early to surprise her! Where is she?” He was staring me down now, his arms crossed in front of his chest, one eyebrow raised as he glared at me. It would have been sexy as hell in any other circumstance.

“I’ll call her that because that is what she is! She has been sleeping around on you since you came back home, maybe before. She is not the one you need to worry about right now.” I poked him in the chest with my finger to emphasize my point. I was not going to let him make me feel bad about what I did for him. I had done it all for him.

Daniel stepped back, a shocked look fell upon his features, “What did you do?” It was almost a whisper, but I heard it clearly all the same. The fear and shame in his voice was unmistakable.

“I did what had to be done, for you.” I turned away from him, I couldn’t bear the look in his eyes. “You weren’t meant to be here, the perfect alibi, but now they know you’re here and they know you know. You’ll be brought up on murder charges and convicted before I could even have time to confess. Not that they would believe me if I did.”

I heard him slumped down onto the couch. I turned to see him sitting with his head in his hands, I could hear his silent sobs as the realization of everything finally sunk in. “Did you kill her?”

“Does it matter?”

“Of course it matters!” He looked at me like I was crazy to ask that, and maybe I was.

“I don’t miss when I aim my gun.” It was all of an answer I was willing to give.

He looked at me, finally seeing me for what I was, what I did. He had a range of emotions that shot across his face, fear, anger, disgust, desire, until he finally settled on the truth that there was nothing to be done about my actions except acceptance.

My mind was running through so many possibilities, ideas to get him safely away from here and the problems I caused him until the obvious showed itself to me. “You need to go. You need to get as far from this as you can.” I ran to my computer and began typing furiously.

“But how? Where am I gonna go where they won’t be able to find me?” He was standing again, walking towards my desk, trying to see what I was doing, but he was never any good with computers and I knew everything on the screen would look like gibberish to him.

“You need to get off planet.” I said simply.

“And just how do you suggest I do that?” I could hear the skepticism in his voice, it nearly made me giggle.

“You’ll join starfleet. They always need good doctors.” It was simple. It would take him to the other side of the country and then hopefully a whole new planet or space station where no one knew his face.

“They’ll check my records. They’ll see that I’m wanted by the cops, I’ll never get on the shuttle.”

“Daniel Tipton would never make it onto the shuttle, true, but my brother would.” I said it with a satisfied grin on my face. It was the most incredible bit of hacking I had ever done, and I could practically feel my brother’s spirit cheering me on.

“Your brother is dead.” Daniel didn’t get it.

“Not anymore, not by any digital record that matters. You can use his name, his degrees, his experience and get into Starfleet, and get the hell away from here.” I pulled a print out from the printer dock and handed him the enlistment forms with my brothers name on them, but Daniel’s physical stats. “They won’t know the difference.”

“I’ll never see you again.” He almost sounded sad, but with as much as I had screwed up his life in one night it was better this way. “I’ll miss you, Emma.”

“I’ll miss you to Daniel, but you should go. You need to be in Iowa in six days to get on a shuttle.”

“Fuck! Iowa, really? How do I get there?”

“You take my car, I never use it anyways. You can pack a bag of my brothers clothes, you were always about the same size anyhow. I’ve got some cash stashed around here somewhere too.” i frantically started looking around for things Daniel might need when his hands were suddenly on my shoulders holding me in place in front of him.

“Why are you doing this for me?” He was looking me in the eyes and I could tell he really didn’t get it.

“Because I love you, you idiot.” I could help but lean up and give him a quick kiss on the lips before running upstairs to where my brothers things were still stored away as if awaiting his return.

As we packed the last of his things into the car I turned and wrapped my arms around Daniel.”I’m gonna miss you.”

“I’ll miss you too, Emma McCoy.” I smiled up at him.

“You should start getting used to your new name before you get to far Leonard.”

“Yes ma’am.” He said with a smile before giving me some half assed salute and climbing in the car and pulling out of the garage and into the darkness.

[sutare-chan]

Ao Jumonji’s Roman, pt.2

Upon a closer look, apparently that first post hasn’t REALLY been noticed... Oh well! At least the text will be available for everyone to see, I guess x) Let’s go on, then!

A piece of Noël nr.3 It starts off in a school (that junior school, you know, the lowest stage out of the three), where Noël is all neglected by other children, and not only because of his eyes and hair (that too, though), but also because his clothes stink. He goes home, although he isn't sure that place can be called "home" for him. He doesn't have a room of his own, so he has to sleep in the living room by the family altar. The owner of the house is a middle-aged fat ("seal-like") woman named Nuiko. As Noël tries to sneak by, she grumbles at him, because she’s received a call from the school and she has absolutely no intention to give a shit about that (which she eventually might have to, if the teaching stuff is insisting). She also asks Noël to go to the hospital and say his grand-mother to get discharged from the hospital already. Noël's glad he wasn't yelled at and decides to go for a walk, but at the exit there stands the elder son of the family, Ryuetsu, who wants to try a new hold (like in fights) on Noël. He does. Noël gets pissed and thinks that he isn't all that small, while Ryuetsu isn't all that big (even though he's several years older), so they really could just fight almost equally, but he's still too scared and misses the opportunity to answer the attack. He's irritated and wants to cry at the same time, but he holds his tears and runs away, away to the north from the town. There, among bushes there are tires, piled up together. Behind those there stands an organ that Noël hid here a year ago. The thing is all corrupted because of winds and rains, but Noël still plays it. He plays it and sings, even when it gets dark. 4. HOSHIKUZU NO KAWAHIMO Heeey, have you been missing Serge? You probably haven't, but he's back =D He's back to his wife and they have a baby. Beau is also there, conducting Serge so that he wouldn't just stand there all amazed. Natalie seems feeble and weak, because the birthgiving was very exhausting, yet she smiles and even gets their daughter a name, Étoile (because Serge is too amazed to think of such a trifle as a name himself x3). Unfortunately, soon Natalie feels worse, her temperature gets even higher and she loses consciousness never to get back to herself again. Oops. The next scene is Étoile waking up and seeing her papa right next to her, and also something dim and black next to him. Is that a guest? It moves so weirdly. Her papa says it's more like a family member, like a sister, and Étoile is all "wow, I've got a sister...". She actually wanted one forever, but she knew her parents weren't quite complete to get her one, so she was super-happy. The sister climbs up her bed and Étoile learns the sister has an extra leg (which is, according to what papa said, a tail). And so Étoile thinks of a name for the sister, which is Pleut (as her papa's forgotten about name-giving again). After this warm scene we get to know how exactly the two have lived so far. So, screw Rouen, the big city! The family got to a... um... more a village-like place, Monpain. Fortunately enough, the neighbour family consisting of a smith Édmond, his wife Ninon and their son Loic, has just lost their second baby, so Ninon was able (and willing) to feed the new-born orphan Étoile. Serge is a completely new man now. He does whatever job he's asked to do, and he suddenly discovered a talent to handle animals. He's even called an "animal magician", because he's so good. He's grieving very much about his loss, but he understands that if he dies now, he would never be able to see his daughter again, and that'd be unbearable, because he loves her oh so much. Unfortunately, it soon becomes obvious that her eyes can't really see. "Étoile had had a poor eyesight ever since she was born. What is good eyesight? That question is easy to answer: to see the shape and colour of distant objects as clearly as if they had been near. Having come really close she could distinguish something, too. On the other hand, if she couldn't come close to something, she couldn't see that at all. Say, what's "sky"? Or "clouds" that are told to float up there? Or the birds that are said to fly across it? What's Sun and Moon? Or... they say that when it gets dark, the night sky gets covered with blinking stars". Étoile used to feel quite lonely and afraid of everything, because she had to spend a lot of time alone after madame Ninon died, but now she has a sister by her side. Before that she would only rarely go outside the house, but Pleut now seems to want to have walks. Finally, after a talk with her dad, they decide Étoile will be trying to get out. But when she tried that for the first time, she just froze by the doors and only got a few meters away from it. It seemed like it was even darker than usual, so Étoile got scared that she was losing her eyesight even further and so she just came home. Serge decided he'd help her a bit, so one day they try again, now all three of them. Unfortunately, the sisters have different pace, and after some time Étoile stumbles upon a hole in the ground and falls quite badly, hurting her chin and breast. She also panics because it goes all black before her eyes. ouch. She says she hates her eyes, and Serge hugs her and tells that he personally loves every bit of her. Étoile knows he would never lie to her, and she doesn't want to lie either, but she understands her true feelings would hurt him ='C Later that night she confesses to Pleut that she hates her name, too. She sort of wants to meet her mom, though, although she doesn't miss her and doubts they would recognize each other if they met in Heaven. Pleut seems sad, and then... brings her the leash, as if wanting to go outside. Étoile snaps and throws it away and pretends to be asleep. Beau comes to visit the family! After Étoile falls asleep, he speaks with Serge and we learn that Serge found Pleut when he was driving wild dogs away from the village (without killing or hurting them!!). She was walking alone and came straight to Serge, waving her tail. He said her to go away, and she did, but she just sat down in the distance and looked at him. The next day she was still at the same place and Serge decided to take her home. They speak a bit more about Beau's business and about Étoile's eyes. Beau suggests that they go to a doctor in a university, but Serge tells that she's afraid even of going out of home, spare travelling to another town. And he doesn't want to give her false hopes either. Étoile decided she'd become more independent, never get irritated at Pleut and that she would never cry again. Her walking practice gets better with time, as she learns the ways that Pleut is telling her about all rocks and holes on the way. Unfortunately, one day she walked so far away that she actually got lost. Fortunately, the smith's son Loic helped her out, and that's where she decided to be polite with everyone, not just Pleut. She’s also become the apprentice of the smith's second wife, Carol. Now she's making stuff from clay, and the worse she sees, the better she gets at that. One day Étoile goes for a walk to the village's outskirts. She wants to visit the fruit garden that was there. The weather seems nice, but unfortunately a great windstorm flies by, tearing the leash away from Étoile's hands, but she isn't afraid, it seems like she doesn't need it anymore. And she sees, how everything dazzles around... No, she doesn't see it, she feels it. Later that night she actually comes out again to stare at the sky. She doesn't have the least idea if there are clouds or not, but she can somehow see stars. Unfortunately, soon enough there comes winter, and Pleut falls ill. She never cured fully, and was slowly becoming weaker and weaker, and nothing would help. One day she disappears for the whole day, and Étoile discovers she’s unable to keep her promise not to cry ='C Soon after that there comes a super poetic description of Pleut's dream. I'm not even trying to retell that, and it's pretty close to the song anyway. The next morning Serge wakes up in his chair (he was sitting by Pleut and Étoile, who were sleeping together on the floor) to discover that apparently Pleut is gone .__. He wakes up his daughter, she cries, and then Serge discovers that apparently Pleut was pregnant. Was that after that one day when Pleut ran away? Most probably. Anyway, Serge explains Étoile what he sees and says he'd need to cut Pleut open. He asks Étoile to leave, but she says she'll stay anyway and Serge wonders whenever Étoile became so strong. There was only one puppy, but it was still alive. Étoile says she can see a light inside him. She also asks if she can think of a name for him. Serge hasn't thought about that (yet again), yet since it does have life, even if it will end soon, the puppy deresves to have a name. And so Étoile names the poor doggy... Gilles. A piece of Noël nr. 4 Noël's sitting in his class in the middle school (or was it called junior high in English? that second stage, you know). People still get to discuss his unusual looks, but he just gives them a stare and they shut up. He listens to the noise of the school and sort of makes it a musical composition in his head, when suddenly a tall boy with dyed orange hair (he looks like an orangutan because of that) starts to speak to him. "Hey <...> I'm talking to you. Don't you want to answer?" "To answer?" "Yes. Be so kind. <...>" "Um. Well, who're you?" "What kind of an answer is that? You could say Hello or something. Or is it that you don't understand our language? You're not Japanese, are you? You don't look like one." "Fuck off" "Wha? What did you say? I couldn’t quite hear that! What language are you speaking? Is that even Japanese?" "Get lost" "What?" "Don't you understand Japanese yourself? Let me repeat that at a slower pace. 'Get lost' stands for 'silence you brat'". "You!.. <...> Your name's Noël, right?" "So what?" "Noël means Christmas, you know! Frankly, you're Chris Masuo! Huh! Go get your name changed, Noël! <...>" "What's yours?" "Huh?" "What's your name?" "Kurikigawa Kakehiro!" "What a name" "Not worse than yours!" <end of the quote> After that Noël finally snaps and they start a fight. Or rather Noël starts to punch the poor guy 8D He was very pissed by the noise already and Kurikigawa just really got in his way. Kurikigawa tries to apologize, but in vain - he gets beaten up and cries, covered with nose-blood. Finally Noël stops and says: "My hand hurts now. How did I deserve that, Kurikigawa?" 5. NOROWARESHI HOUSEKI It's Hiver and F!Noel time! So, we start at a goldsmith's workshop, where Hiver is arguing with the goldsmith (his master) that he wants to give up the apprenticeship. The situation is quite difficult. Because of certain reasons Hiver only started at this workshop when he was 16. The thing is, his father [a gloomy man with a round lense upon his eye... wait, was that a Savant reference? O.o yes, it was, the guy's name is Christoph] the doll-maker disappeared without a trace, leaving his two children all alone [their mom went away from home when they were small, she was an almost blind lady that still could somewhat se-... ..... Jumonji-san, are you really making Hiver and Noël Étoile and Christoph's children? 8D]. Hiver was helping him all along the way, but wasn't able to inherit his business, so at the age of 16 he discovered himself a grown up young man without a job or education. The goldsmith, Frêmon, agreed to take him as an apprentice, but Hiver has also become the oldest in the workshop and doesn't feel very confident or skillfull. To make matters worse, his little sister is now 17 (Hiver being 20 years old), which is quite an age. There's a young man, Alban Touchard, wanting to marry her, but the guy originates from a rather well-off family of merchants. Hiver just can't let his sister get married without a dowry. What if the rich father-in-law wants a more suiting wife for his son and insists on divorce one day? Hiver also must make all the relatives-to-be accept the bride, so he needs a lot of money. Being an apprentice can't bring him that, and even if he becomes a goldsmith soon, the chance of getting rich is rather low. After some argument the goldsmith agrees and lets Hiver go. When Hiver's home, he checks the room where their father used to work. It's all just like when it used to be when the father was still around (except that his favorite tools disappeared with him). But there's also a mechanical doll. That's not their father's. Must be Noël's. Noël herself comes shortly after with her groom, Alban. Apparently, Hiver only told her about his plans this morning, so she brought Alban to talk him out of it. Unfortunately, it's all too late already x3 Here we learn that Hiver’s planned to go to work to mines. Alban says it doesn't suit him, but Hiver argues that he knows best and "there are things that only I can do, or it becomes meaningless" (he isn't talking about digging out Michele, not at all....). Noël's also trying to insist she can work, so Hiver doesn't need to go, but both Alban and Hiver disagree. The thing is, there aren't many options for a girl to work in a town. Oh, and Noël is shown very naive here ='D Apparently she doesn't even know what is, um, working at nights ("to sell spring" is the Japanese euphemism for being a prostitute, but she doesn't get it). Soon after that Hiver leaves. Noël sleeps very soundly when there's no sunlight, and Hiver uses that to secretly sneak away without partings. Before leaving, though, he still visits his father's workshop just to throw a final look at it. He suddenly notices a box under the table and feels the urge to look inside. There he finds twin-dolls. As the father was a master of mechanic dolls Hiver was expecting to find some mechanisms on them, but he sees none, even though their members move really well. Hiver is about to put the dolls back into the box, when he felt they didn't want it, so he sets them by the window instead and asks them to help Noël out. After that he leaves and goes away from the town. It takes him 7 days to arrive to the miners' town. The town is very young and noisy. No habitant, be it men or women, is above 30 years old. That's because the town was formed around the mine and serves its purposes only. Soon enough Hiver starts working too. He pretends to be not a complete rookie to get a better loan, and he learns quickly anyway. The job isn't that complicated, although hard as hell. He is trying to spare as much as possible. He works hard and only leaves at evenings to breathe some fresh air and have some sleep at the cheapest inn. The mine-keeper, monsieur Mayard, is giving some food to miners. Like, a bit of soup, bread and cheese mostly, sometimes ham, and that's not nearly enough for a hard-working grown-up man, but oh well, one can bear up with it without spending money on extra food. Co-workers don't really like Hiver. Like, they're all rude miners, so it's natural they're bullying the newcomer a bit, but Hiver ignores them completely. Because of that and since he does't drink wine or, um, hire women for special services, they think he's a weirdo workaholic. It's not like Hiver doesn't want warmth, but he doesn't want to sleep with a woman he doesn't love. He is also trying to spend as little money as possible, thus he needs to keep his life here ascetic. For a while the action shifts back to Noël. She's alone in the workshop, remembering her father. How he used to work there all day long and how concentrated he was. And how she used to admire his work. All of a sudden she notices twin dolls sitting by the window. How weird: she thought they were packed in the box under the table. Was that Hiver? Or was that a hidden mechanism?.. Comparing to the dolls she is trying to make herself these are... ok, they are simply not to compare. Her father was truly an artist. She remembers when one time she was all alone home. Suddenly there came a guest, who named himself W. That was a pale man with folds on his forehead. He asked whether her father was home, but the father had suddenly gone away just before that. The pale (and a bit frightning) man seemed to believe her and left, saying: "I'll come again, Noël". She has no idea, who that was, and she never told anyone about that man. She's missing Hiver a lot ='( In the meanwhile Hiver's given a very nice proposal. Since he's such a hard-worker, Mayard is thinking about raising his loan. After that Hiver gets a bit crazy. He's become a complete outcast by now, he works alone and he doesn't even spend money on inns anymore, because there are free dormitories inside the mines. He also gives up on bathing and cutting his hair (Hiver?..). He doesn't really get paid better yet, but his hopes are high. One day, when the winter has come he falls a bit ill. He wakes up just to discover he can hardly move. Ok, this needs to be quoted."He frightened, but, moaning, he managed to reach the place where they were given food. The breakfast warmed him up a bit, and now he could stand on his feet. Hence he could work. When a man doesn't move his blood stagnates. To the work, then. That will make him feel better. Who said it's better to have a rest and sleep? Sleep only draws powers from the body. Isn't that a waste of time?" Hiver had also arranged that he is allowed to stay in the mines at night. He works and works like a madman, he even laughs occasionally of his triumph and superiority over others. But at one point he stands still, suddenly aware of his own condition. What is he doing all this for? For what has he become a living skeleton? Is that in order to give his beloved precious sister to some other man? Isn't that ridiculous? But he doesn't have any other choice, really. He needs money to make her happy. Because their father, their genius skillful father, didn't care about money nor his children, and left them but a small fortune. And even as small fortune as it was, it was actually Hiver's accomplishment. He was the one to spare money, he was the one decreasing all costs. Their father never gave a damn and because Hiver had to help him he ended up without a profession after their father disappeared. "Hiver hated him with all his heart. There was no other person that he had hated as much. But his sister loved him. And admired, she admired him a lot. He abandonned them, but she still believed in him. Hiver could hardly tolerate that. But in her presence he couldn't even dare to scorn their father. It's not like she started to object, but he could see his words injure her. She was becoming sad, as if about to cry. "Noël, why can't you see it? It's all that man's fault! <...> All, all his fault! Had he been normal, he wouldn't have let this happen! If only he hadn't abandonned us!.."" After that he feels dizzy and is about to fall. Everything blurs before his eyes. When suddenly he notices his feet are surrounded by mysterious white fog. It's supposed to be dark around, but the fog somehow looks white anyway. Half-unconscious, Hiver follows its track and discovers a narrow hole. He manages to squeeze in and there...There he sees an amazing gem, glittering in the darkness. He can't remember digging it, but after some time he wakes up on the floor, embracing the stone. It has become warm of his body's warmth by now. Hiver realizes he needs to get out. He has no idea whether it's night or day - there's no one in the mines. Alas, when he gets out he stumbles upon Mayard, the mine-keeper. The man looks frightening, and if Hiver tries to escape, he'll kill him for sure. So the only choice left is to show him the gem. Mayard seems happy like a child and promises to give Hiver as much gold as he wants. Oh the joy! But ouch! Suddenly Hiver does fall. He sees Mayard licking Hiver's blood from the stone, all while saying that since he, Mayard, is but the keeper, this gem actually belongs to the owner of the mine, that being some count. But if no one ever learns about the gem, Mayard can have if for his own! Right before losing consciousness Hiver recalls something about his mother. She didn't just go away. She fell ill and died all of a sudden and was buried far away. It seemed so unreal, that in the end he made himself and his sister believe she was just gone... Noël is sitting in the workshop again. It feels so cold.She's still waiting for Hiver. She hasn't seen Alban in a while. Last time they saw each other he said she was only talking about her brother and that's just unbearable. She wonders if he's mad at her. Not that it mattered, anyway, as she's noticed that she feels lonely with Alban, and they probably aren't really meant to be. A chain of short excerpts begins. Meet a new character. A jeweller named Buisson. He's had quite a dark past. He had a... um... friend and they were making a lot of illegal business, including rapes (of prostitutes apparently). Those times are long since gone, he has a jewelry shop of his own now, but that friend of his wasn't as successful and in times of need he comes to blackmail Buisson a bit. That friend being none other than Mayard. This time he wants Buisson to shape and polish the gem, as he is the only one he can trust such an important mission. Buisson was a bit skeptical at first, but as soon as he saw it, he agreed to pay any money to have the thing. The money will come back anyway. Because Mayard isn't going home 8) No one's going home after he gets poisoned, huh Then we come to meet our old friend master Frêmon. He has a certain problem. There's a jeweller who always comes when their workshop is in a terrible need for gems and no one except that bastard sells those. The bastard sells them for an unbelievable price, obviously. That bastard being none other than Buisson, of course. He comes again, acting a bit strange this time. Buisson doesn't owe him anything at the moment, so he agrees to hear the guy out. Buisson wants him to make a dressing for a certain magnificent gem. You know which one. And as soon as Frêmon sees it, he's completely insane. He can hear the voice of the gem, as if it's lamenting or something. So after some time, Frêmon says: "I only need one thing before I start" - "Yes, of course, anything you'd..." - "It's YOU" and he breaks Mayard's neck and kisses the precious gem, laughing 8D Some person comes to a museum in Bareland town. It's apparently somewhere in England. There they’re walking around and finally see the infamous necklace, Reine Michele. Right next to it there stands a weird man with folds on his forehead and names himself W (or if that's inconvenient, one can call him Walter, Warren, or even White or Winter). This W has a very strange voice and tells a bit about the gem and the necklace. Later that (?) evening W is standing in the shadow of a building not far from the museum. It's raining, but he's waiting for someone or something. Suddenly he raises a finger to his lips and says Shhhh. Two young robbers dash by. Without spending too many words, they rob the museum and run away with the necklace, although the alarm is set off and it might all end very nasty for them. W has seen everything and says: "Ah... so "she" got released into the world again." Then he looks up to the rooftop of the museum and grins: "What, have you seen it all too, doll?" A piece of Noël nr 5 Noël (who's still in the middle school) has an electric guitar now! It's old and the strings are rusted, but he changes them and tries to play. Oh gosh, what a delight! It's just like he imagined it, but now it actually has a sound!!! That boy from the previous piece, Kurikigawa, is also there. He's asking all sort of questions, among them - where'd Noël learn to play guitar like that. To that Noël answers that it's the first time he's holding an actual guitar. Kurikigawa's shocked, but believes him. After that he's about to throw away a cigarette he was smoking, but Noël stops him and tells to go and throw it out properly, in a trash can. After a short timeskip we see Noël playing in a school band along with Kurikigawa and other boys. They're in a club room, ‘cause one of the boys managed to get a permission to have rehearsals there. It's a metal band. And Noël just can't bear how bad they are, so he kicks a chair and everyone stops. Their vocalist says the band is shit and leaves. Boys are annoyed, but Noël takes the microphone and takes his place. After the rehearsal all boys except for Noël are sitting near a convenience store, drinking coffee, or yogurt, or cola and discussing why the heck is Noël so self-confident and tells them around how to play. Except for Kurikigawa. Kurikigawa just says that the guy is obsessed with music, and it's been but a couple of months since he first tried to play guitar. The other two guys get even more annoyed (just two months!!!), and one of them throws his can away, but Kurikigawa tells to cut that and to find a proper trash can for that. Another rehearsal. Noël is really trying his best not to snap, but at some point it’s just beyond him. He yells at the drummer, so that he yells back at Noël and hits cymbals in rage. Quote: "So you actually can play good, when you want to! Why aren't you playing like that?" "Cut off! Because you piss me!" "So what? There're lot of things that piss me, too." "Don't you understand human language?!" Toyokado rushed to punch him, so Noël immediately hid the guitar behind himself, but he didn't even bother to move to dodge the punch. He clenched his teeth instead and let his cheek get hit, but then he pulled the drummer by his hair and, having stopped him, punched him with his knee. Toyokado bent. "Don't use your fists, dumbass! How're you going to play if you hurt your fingers?!" (end of the quote) After that the drummer abandons the room immediately, and soon after that the boy that had arranged the room tells Noël to leave. And so he does, without saying much. Soon after that Noël and Kurikigawa are sitting on a slope. Noël is playing his guitar, while Kurikigawa's humming along. He has quite a nice voice, actually. They talk a bit, then Kurikigawa smokes another cigarette. Noël asks if Kurikigawa wouldn’t give up smoking, but Kurikigawa doesn't really think he should. He tells Noël that Noël isn't going to get a band if he acts like that and that he does need a band, because people can't do much on their own. Noël doesn't really listen and just plays on. Kurikigawa's cigarette burns out and he’s about to throw it down the slope, but he stops at the last second. 6. HONOO (beware of the shock x3) A graveyard. There's some kind of a big funeral processing. At the same time there's a small cart, accompanied by a single woman, who's holding a baby. When this cart reaches a grave, the woman asks the old man drawing the cart to leave her alone. The old man loads off a small coffin, makes sure she doesn't want any help and leaves her be. She opens the lid, but there's no body. Instead there are twin dolls. Finally she lays the baby into the coffin and grieves that the coffin isn't big enough to hold her. How could some dolls replace her? She takes the baby back, because she just can't say goodbye, but suddenly a very pale man in a black cloak speaks to her in an odd voice. They talk a bit, and in the end she asks him to help her put the coffin into the grave etc. She hammers nails herself, but he helps her fill the grave up with clay. Along the way she confesses that her husband is at war right now and he's probably never going to learn about all this. She doesn't really understand why'd he marry her in the first place. Neither does she understand why'd she marry him either. Then they talk in quotes from the song a bit. The woman is left all, all alone. She was afraid. Afraid of love, of loss, of getting burnt, of wants, of needs, of the life itself. Finally she starts to cry and the man calms her a bit. She asks whether they have met before. They probably have, although a long time ago. "You resemble my father a bit. He disappeared without a trace, you know" "No, Noël, I'm not your father". "I guess not". "That person isn't here I suppose..." Having said that, the mysterious W goes away. YANEURA NO ROMAN (yes, it's here!!) This one starts off as a reflection of Asa to Yoru. The same you-prospective, but this time you wake up beneath a window, lit by the moon.You don't walk, you just lie there, pretty unable to move. A man comes to you. A man with a stick, a weird voice, mustache and something round and transparent upon his left eye. He has two girls with him. Not girls, but dolls, actually. There's an actual girl around there too, though. She's drawing, using three colors, throwing away brushes, with her fingers. Everything around here is filled with her drawings. Or rather overfilled. The paintings themselves are overfilled, too, some images just splash outside the canvas and move. She draws all possible things. Suddenly a dark man appears and starts to strangle her. She sort of says to him, though: "You look so sad... Papa, what's wrong? That's right, I'll draw your happiness". She touches his face with her tainted fingers, and the man's getting stroked by red paint, then he gets all screwed, he bends, he folds - and becomes a new canvas (...). The set suddenly changes. It's a corridor, and you see a girl with lips as scarlet as the canvas in which that man from before had turned. That corridor ends in a dead end, and that's where the girl stops. Suddenly another dark man appears and starts to struggle her, too. Then he starts to pull her dead body somewhere... But then you notice that he's actually pulling himself, while the girl's watching you both. Now you're buried. When you somehow manage to get to see some light, you notice you're on a stage, where a young woman with scarlet lips and a violet dress is singing. You were buried under 12 corpses. You're the 13th. There are so many people sitting in the hall. Some of them seem familiar. The woman sings and they all applause. She bows, then she bows to you and utters that another 11-letter message (be so kind to die). You're back to that window from the beginning of the chapter. The lady now wants you to be born. It turns all black, you're falling, swirling in your fall. Suddenly the mustache man catches your hand and lifts you to some cave edge. He's talking in riddles and basically asks whether he should let you fall or get from out of there. Because that's the roman that leads to your birth. You're about as confused as the reader is, and then the man just gets you lifted from the abyss without asking anything else. Then the first part of Asa to Yoru repeats, almost word-to-word. The one about you walking under the torn sky. Except that you also ask who's the liar and there follows an answer: "I am". END OF VOLUME 1!