#I am also 100% certain that i'll be drawing her again for this ask game so dw. there will be ziska. in the mean time here's an old man

[cryptidwithacopiccollection]

idk what the numbers mean, but 24 franziska von karma

The numbers correlate to surprise aa characters, so if you can't think of a character but still wanna send an ask, you can just send a number!

Anyways here's #24, Winston Payne

Send me an ask and I'll draw a Mer-attorney!

[kalpasio]

HELLO???

masterlist masterlist 2 request list

Requests: Kalpas

if you would be ok with me writing your ideas for Kalpas, I'm open to asks!

update: I'm still fine with taking asks! but!! at this point I have a couple and it will take me more than a month to get to any new ones so please just be aware it'll take me some time!

I will always take asks about your headcannons or my own, but any longer works are written on a whim. I do not control the writing, I merely write until my wrist falls off and hope that the words make a complete sentence.

Genuinely my interests in a character will change overnight, you would not believe the wip pile I have because my brain suddenly decides it hates the character it was obsessed with 2 hours ago

A lot of my works are just a bunch of small hcs or scenarios I have thought of or seen smashed together so if you send me hcs or I post some in response to an ask I will always try to link those to the work. I want to make sure people get credit for their ideas, even if they're on anon.

Feel free to call me Zaria or Zari (or Tamale if you're coming from ao3)

Or whatever really, so long as I can tell you're referring to me

she/her/they doesn't bother me either way

I'm a college student who enjoys writing in my free time (I know this is like code for "I'm a bad writer with 2 stories and then I drop off the grid" but I promise I genuinely write for stress relief, and I am very stressed at school so we'll be good!)

I mostly write fluff and angst x reader

As of now, I don't think I'll be writing nsfw mostly because my ace ass hasn't even been in a relationship and I want to become more comfortable with writing in general first.

That being said! I'm 100% here for short nsfw headcannons or asks so please minors DNI. If I do end up writing any smut it'll probably end up on ao3, though I will post a link here.

Speaking of asks

Asks/not-requests

If you just wanna post something, that's chill

If you want my thoughts on something, that's chill

If you wanna ask questions or talk about something I've written, that's chill

I'm not comfortable writing for or talking about minors, though there are a few characters I am ok with writing for if they're aged up (Damian Wayne or certain Persona characters off the top of my head)

Non-con is a hard no. Yandere is almost always a no. Dub-con is on thin fucking ice and usually depends on a whole lot of things.

Sometimes Tumblr eats asks!! If you think you sent something that was totally reasonable and I don't respond to it in like a couple weeks, try sending it again!

(at the end of the day, if you send something I'm not comfortable with, I'll let you know, or in extreme cases I just won't respond, so don't stress about it too much!)

Honestly I'm going to be writing either way, and I really just want to get my stories out on the odd chance someone has the same interest. Some of these stories are kinda niche or the reader has traits that I personally have or want for them. If someone enjoys them, great! If it's not your cup of tea, that's fine too! They'll be here until Tumblr gets sold off for the 57th time and loses so much money the shoestring holding it together falls apart.

Sorry for the super long post, List of games I've played below, it's even longer don't even look at it.

Fire Emblem:

Sacred Stones (ask me about Boston Grandma)

Awakening (If Camilla is dragon mommy, Cherche is dragon mom and I love her more)

Fates (Oh please don't start a fight)

Three Houses (oh please don't start a fight)

Like half of Radiant Dawn (Thank you Vimm's lair)

Heroes (You can always tell when Cuboon draws the art)

Overwatch (I have yet to play 2 and I'm not sure I want to)

Honkai Impact (HoS has modified my mind and now she and the flame chasers own me)

I am also fine with writing for APHO! I actually have a story in the works for the MC (man's got like 20 names)

Genshin Impact (Ohhh I could make a bonfire from this wip pile)

Legend of Zelda Breath of the Wild (I have like four other loz games and just haven't played them. Thank you Vimm's lair)

Kid Icarus (I used to have the biggest crush on Dark Pit when I was younger hhhh)

Borderlands 3 (2 makes me so motion sick)

Persona 4 Golden (now with graphics!)

Persona 5 (Not Royal, I'll play it when it comes to pc)

Hollow Knight (I'm not sure how comfortable I am writing this, but I love the game to bits)

Tekken 7 (I have-no joke-17 hours on this game but I am more than willing to read the wiki for some of these characters)

Valkyria Chronicles 4 (I might have to replay it)

Transistor (bought it for the ost, stayed for the gameplay)

Bastion (bought it because of Transistor, stayed for the gameplay and ost)

I love supergiant Darren Korb, I own Hades but have not played it because I know I'll be obsessed for like a month

Devil May Cry 5 (I haven't played the previous games, do with that what you will)

Anime:

In advance, I watched these like almost a decade ago so I might be a bit rusty. Most of them I really care for though, and I'll take recommendations!

Ouran High School Host Club (I'm so sorry)

Soul Eater (I can't remember if I ever finished this...uhhhh)

Fruits Basket (the like 90's version, not the more recent one. Hatsuharu ruined my life tho)

Sailor Moon (Sailor Jupiter my beloved)

Fullmetal Alchemist (Fu Hua killed Meas Hughes)

Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood (I get these two mixed up, I should rewatch them both, right?)

One Piece (I don't think I got past episode 200, I will be so inaccurate)

RWBY (If you count this, I think I'm behind by a season)

I am so terribly sorry if you read through all of that. If I have something that's not listed, feel free to ask anyway! I really like making horrible guesses about characters and then actually seeing them in their game or show and finding out how inaccurate I was (half the time my guess is just "oough ladie")

[alo-piss-trancy]

Ok hi, I didn't wanna say anything, but please don't write knifeplay/bloodplay for Yuri. I def don't wanna spoil anything, but it's learned on a certain route that Yuri has a s*lf h*rm problem (I'll leave it at that).

You honestly seem like you're not trying to be a jerk with this ask, so I'm going to do my best to answer this as politely as possible without compromising my personal beliefs on the matter. This is going to be long and a little serious, but please note I'm not attacking you or trying to start a debate. I'm just laying all my thoughts on this down at once so I make myself clear, because a short answer would leave a lot of nuance out.

I understand what you're trying to do here. For the record though, I also considered that a pretty massive spoiler and I did not appreciate that at all. Even if you all think you're 'helping', don't do that again. Y/uri was pretty much the only character I'd managed to avoid most spoilers on and you killed the surprise for me. This game is already so full of fluffy 'filler' in the beginning that I don't have a ton of big plot points to look forward to in each route.

Now, I realise this is a very delicate topic and incredibly triggering to some people, especially with those two things combined. I am 100% willing to tag it with just about any variation needed to ensure you or others affected can blacklist/block it and never have to see a word of it in the future. I'd also be happy to go back and tag that original text post I made if needed. I mean that. You all are welcome to ask me to tag things anytime, and so long as you're polite about it I'm perfectly willing to oblige to the best of my ability in future posts! If I occasionally forget, just toss me a light reminder and I'll jump into editing and add it in.

That said, I want to make it clear that I am very firmly against censorship. I'm willing to take all necessary precautions to ensure people can curate their experiences on this blog and AO3, but at the end of the day I can still post whatever fictional stuff I choose to. As can anyone else. Same goes for more formally published media.

Now, it's entirely possible I would have gotten to that part of the game and decided 'oh dang, I'm not so enthused about that fic idea anymore...'. My whims and ideas change frequently, and what you mentioned is a heavy topic with a lot to unpack and process. It's also entirely possible that future plot would only provide more fuel.

Fyi, when I originally mentioned the knifeplay I was actually thinking a lot more along the lines of her doing it to the protagonist, not the reverse. But for the record, if I did choose to write it with focus on Y/uri, I would still be well within my rights to.

This next part of my answer is going to address some heavy topics, this is your warning!!!

Sometimes people's kinks are a way to take a thing that is personally scary or upsetting to them and find a way to reverse it. To find pleasure or power or get used to the idea of the awful thing in a safe, controlled fashion. I'm not going to go into the full details on this because there's plenty of explanation and research elsewhere already written up, as well as an excellent book on the subject, and I'm not turning this blog into a discourse debate. But I needed to mention it for my point.

There are plenty of stories that could be explored with Y/uri in this context. Did she have this kink before the self harm events started and it was completely unrelated, or did she develop it afterwards? How did she discover it beforehand? If developed afterwards, did it start out as another way of harming mixed with pleasure in a self-destructive way, often done sloppily and without proper technique? Or was it strictly used as almost exposure therapy to deal with those urges and thoughts in a safer, more contained scenario, maybe even allowing the partner she trusted to wield the knife to prove their bond/reinforce that she can be loved without being hurt deeply, that she is worthy of affection and trust and loyalty. Maybe this finally helps give Y/uri a tool to embrace her 'weirdness' without harming herself and others. Or, what if she thinks it can be a useful tool and is sure she's ready, but partway through the scene she gets triggered or has flashbacks... how does she deal with it? How does her partner? Can it be overcome with effort, research, and taking things slowly, or does she realize this kink is actually completely off the table for her?

What if she has this kink and is excited to try it, but her partner isn't? How does she take that rejection? Or do her poor social skills mean she skipped negotiation to begin with and attempted it in the middle of a vanilla session? Would her partner freak out or even get mad, or try to swallow their fear and let her do it so they don't hurt/offend her, even at the cost of their own comfort?

This topic also opens a ton of potential plots for darkfic, but I'll refrain from discussing that out of respect for you and others.

So as you can see, there's much more to explore than 'Knife=Hot'. I believe those discussions and ideas are necessary and provide important fuel for thought when explored fictionally, especially since mainstream media doesn't cover a lot of them.

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I feel I should take a second to clarify knifeplay for those who may be unaware. It doesn't always equate to actual cutting/drawing blood. That can be an aspect, but usually only by those far more experienced and, you know, actually into that. A lot of participants don't actually go that far. Mostly, it's either about the physical sensation of the knife touching you at all, or the adrenaline/controlled fear and intimate trust of a partner bringing an object like that so close/teasing you with it.

In fact, it's frequently advised in those circles (especially to newcomers) to use a dull butterknife instead, because it simulates the same feelings of metal on skin/can dig in a little without any real risk of cutting/drawing blood. Even if one chooses to use a different knife, it's still pretty common to dull the blade, or some people even substitute with a closed pair of scissors (combined with the partner blindfolded, you can't really tell it apart from the real thing).

These versions of knifeplay are well controlled and ultimately pretty harmless, so long as both parties know what they're doing and stay alert. And more experienced players with sharper knives are even more cautious/have studied extensively to know where/how deep to go without risking scarring/serious injury.

Remember the golden rules of kink: Safe. Sane. Consensual.

With those in place, it is not nearly the same as self harm. Just as controlled, consensual, well-negotiated BDSM with safewords, respected boundaries and a trusted partner is never in the same league as abuse.

~~~

Now that that's out of the way, back to my point:

There's no perfect representation or narrative for everyone, in any group (be that gender/sexuality/triggered by certain things, etc). Every human being is different, everyone interprets media differently, and everyone takes away different elements from stories.

What one person in a particular group may find cathartic, relateable, or painful but necessary food for thought, another may find completely repulsive, personally hurtful, offensive, something they can't stand to hear. And guess what? Both of those can be true at the same time. One side is not immediately right over the other.

There are queer characters or interpretations of them in fics that I vehemently despise, might even find hurtful or sickening and think 'how can anyone create this, it's insufferable! People in 'my group' aren't like that, it's a horrible representation. I can't relate to it at all!' But you know what? Other people can and do, may find comfort in those exact narratives and experiences, may heal their pain instead of inflicting more. And that's great. It's what they needed or wanted and if I don't like it, I click away and do my best to avoid it.

There are specific tropes and narrative themes I personally cannot get through without being triggered into anxiety attacks or dragged back to bad times and places in my life. Sometimes I see them tackled in ways that are hurtful or seem insensitive to me. But I recognise that for someone else, it's exactly what they needed to see to get through that or come to terms with it, or see a way they wish that thing could play out. I would never dream of telling those people they aren't allowed to enjoy it, OR telling the creator of that piece of media or a tv show 'Hey ummm please don't use this plot because it turns me into a human wreck for a week'. Because it's not remotely my place to do so. They can create whatever they want, they have no responsibility towards me or my well being. A few might be kind enough to include a warning at the beginning of that episode or in the description, but they are in no way required to. It's up to me to curate my experience and try to keep my guard up/research what might have those tropes, and in the rare occasions I get blindsided, yeah, it hurts like hell. I struggle, I might even backslide a bit. But I just have to try my best to deal with it and make a note to be more careful next time. Because you can't control the world around you, not even the online world, and you have absolutely no right to. The only right you have is to protect yourself without infringing on other people's boundaries/rights.

And there's also another important point. There doesn't have to be a big important point or explanation for why a creator creates something, or why consumers can enjoy that creation! If someone wants to create a plotline with all of my triggers used in the most 'insensitive', 'wrong', pointless ways possible, strictly for Entertainment or pure kink material instead of some deep dissection of the issues involved? They can go hog wild!!! They are 100% allowed to do so on this earth, and I can't (and wouldn't want to) do a thing to stop them.

One person can read a kink fic and it hits a very emotional theme for them/they think it explores a deep topic well. Another person can read that same fic and get nothing out of it except their rocks off. Both of those readers are completely equal and 'allowed' to enjoy that fic. Both reasons are completely valid reasons for why the creator was 'allowed' to post/create that fic in the first place. Nobody needs permission, nobody has to answer to anybody except themselves. Period. This extends to any topic, any type of fic.

Yes, even for things I find absolutely abhorrent and insensitive and don't understand/want to read ever. I may resent everything about its existence, but I will defend to death the creator's right to make it exist in the first place.

It only affects me if I let it affect me. If someone's making content I despise or am upset by and can't handle, I can choose to ignore or avoid them, blacklist those tags, I can block them and move on with my day. I can do anything within my own bubble, but the second I consider going into their bubble and saying they can't make that thing, I am in the wrong. Because I'm not respecting their space and rights.

If someone makes cookies with ingredients I'm highly allergic to, pastes the ingredient warnings all over the box where I read them, and I still eat one, would anyone cheer me on for blaming them when I have a reaction? Would anyone think it was remotely okay of me to start calling up every bakery in town and saying they weren't allowed to bake those cookies EVER, because some people somewhere might be allergic?

No. They'd tell me I was crossing the line, because I'm infringing on other people's boundaries and lives. I'm expecting everybody else to take responsibility for something that, while horrible and painful, was my fault for touching.

Now, if someone sets out unlabelled cookies not realizing I'm allergic to something in them, and I eat it and have a reaction, that sucks. It's an awful experience. But is it the baker's fault? As long as they didn't do it maliciously, not really. They can be advised politely to label it in the future, and I can do my best to remember to ask/be more cautious next time I come across something I'm unsure of, but they're still allowed to bake those cookies for themselves and others.

Now, if I deliberately baked cookies with an ingredient that people are very frequently allergic to (ex. peanuts) and set it out in a crowded buffet without a warning label, that's a jerk move. That's intentionally trying to cause harm to others. But simply baking that flavour of cookies still isn't a crime or harmful by itself.

~~~

I'll be honest, I'm running out of steam and I think I've said most of what I have to say, so I'll wrap it up. I want to reiterate that I'm not ripping into you with this long answer, anon! I understand why you sent me what you did and I'm trying not to come off as harsh. I'm happy to go back and tag things and will tag anything else similar in the future!!! But at the end of the day, regardless of whether I personally end up writing that fic or not, or even want to after I get to that plot, I don't agree with telling anyone they can't/shouldn't write it at all. I wanted to try and explain my viewpoint thoroughly, and I hope you can respect that, just as I'll respect and try to accommodate you and other followers. This is the only time I'll really get up on a soapbox like this, and I have no interest in debating these things on my blog further, but it is a topic I've been passionate about all my life so I'm afraid I'm not budging on it.

[wakraya]

No, there is! I mean, The Sufferer and Alpha Rose both seemed to have visions, and The Sufferer seemed to have visions of Beforus specifically, so it's not unprecedented. A Page remembering to defaulting to stuff is a little unexpected but, well--untapped potential, right? I'm not sure if there's a concious rememberance, but check out the rooms--the colors are Cyan, Pink and Orange, and the Distinguished Houseguests sort the Alphas by Derse & Prospit, too. Calliope also.

I have additional evidence but most of it involves Jake and Dirk in the Alpha timeline, so it’s a little bit of a deviation. Given that Hiveswap’s trailer also has Grandpa gathering the exact same kind of stuff, I think it’s pretty intentional (and telling about Grandpa’s state of mind.)

Okay, let me get down into this and tell you my opinion on the matter! There are a few little oversights I’ve seen in some references but not much, first of all a big thing to match Roxy’s room with her, aside from the Mommy-Mummy pun, is the fact that Roxy’s Land is PYRAMIDS and Neon, which fits with the whole sarcophagus + mummy theme of the room. I also NEVER realized the foreshadowed 8-player session, that’s kind of mindblowing to be honest.

Now, however, this is why I don’t think Jake has ANY memory of the Alpha Timeline:

Let’s start with the first point, saying that Guardians can remember things from the other Timeline. The thing is, as you pointed out, they can indeed draw from the power of the Classpects, as it’s implied it’s something inherent of themselves to a certain capacity. Rose is a Seer, and she can see things about Condy, about Roxy, and prepares herself. However, and I could be wrong, but Dave doesn’t seem to exhibit these traits. I always say him preparing Dirk’s place a result of him and Rose being a duo. Rose told him what to do, he set stuff up. Still, as a Knight of Time, I could see some Timeline fuckery going on.

If John and Jade are to go by, though, they don’t seem too aware of the other timelines. Sure, Jade knows about Condy, but because she was raised by her, learnt about LE and dedicated her life to make the Empress’ empire HELL. John, instead, just seemed to live a totally harmless life as a comedian with absolutely no issues anywhere, memories or anything or. You know. Concern that he was raised by an evil alien that killed his dog and saw his sister go away.

We can talk about the nuances of John’s psyche another time though.

Now I am not saying that Grandpa couldn’t get flashbacks. Page of Hope is a very strange Classpect, and I wouldn’t doubt Hussie pulling a twist here, but there are two other main factors that make me believe this isn’t the case.

The items themselves. Jake likes blue ladies, that’s just confirmed in canon. Sure, it’s a reference of Jane being the Cyan gal, but, that’s the one thing he enjoys. Then, Mummies and Armors? They’re ancient things. We have to remember, Jake is an eccentric multimillionaire hunter/adventurer that does God Knows What away from his family most of the time. Raiding tombs and ancient castles and collecting all those shitty souvenirs wouldn’t be out of the ordinary. What I’m trying to say is that, while I put my faith in a lot of Hussie’s foreshadowing and his ability to create incredibly complex things, I also know there was a LOT of stuff that wasn’t decided up to a certain point in the story, and rather than having the Alphas be referenced in the house, it’d seem more likely that he took the items on the house and based something of the Alphas on it. And on top of that-

The entire reasoning about why he has to remember. You ask the question of “How did the Guardians know about the coming apocalypse, and just how much did they know about their alternate lives as Sburb players?” and answer it putting Alpha Rose’s predictions as the example of how it could happen, however, the thing is that we actually know how they know about SBURB.

And it all ties back to Grandpa, in fact. Bro is the wildest card of the bunch, and even then there’s a good chance we’ll get to know more about why he knows, but the others? Well, let’s back to SBURB. SBURB is a game made from compiled code from the Frog Temple that falls to the planet the game has to start on. It doesn’t matter what dimension or what planet, if there’s going to be a SBURB session, the Frog Temple is retroactively sent there to make it happen. And the first thing we know about Grandpa is that he built his tower laboratory house thing RIGHT on the island where that Temple is, and also that he’s, if not the CEO because I don’t remember if it was actually canonically stated, at least a big part of Skaianet Industries, and 100% certain the one who actually found the code for SBURB.

Then we have Mom, who actually WORKS for Skaianet. Dad seems a bit more oblivious, but he interacts with Mom several times prior to the events of the game, and being a businessman I wouldn’t be surprised if his company IS Skaianet or linked to Skaianet. And while Bro is, as I said, the Wildcard, he’s likely involved there in some capacity too.

They know the Apocalypse is coming.

Because they are causing it.

On Jade’s Robot there’s a Crockercorp logo. This also somewhat implies Condy is affiliated or, if Jake isn’t the CEO of Skaianet, she is. Whether she’s pulling the strings to make it happen, or Jake and the others just deem it inevitable for the Game to be played for some reason, the thing is that they are very aware of what the game is going to do. They manage to extract Ectobiology machinery, teleporting technology, and monitors to preview the meteor impacts with a COUNTDOWN BEFORE THE GAME IS ACTIVATED.

I think my favorite theory in this case is that, SBURB acts retroactively as if it was already played. The fact the Frog Temple arrived there in the first place is because a Session actually played the game and had the Veil’s meteors send it back. So regardless of whether they made the game or not, it was going to be played eventually, and they decided to mass-produce the server and client disks so that as many people as possible could survive the apocalypse, which is really a sweet thought.

Whichever the actual REASON behind the manufacturing of SBURB, the fact that they know of the Medium and what is going to happen beforehand entirely comes from the Frog Temple and the fact they’re all (mostly) involved in actually making it happen in the first place.

I’m not saying that Grandpa couldn’t actually see what happened in the Alpha Timeline, and given the scope of all the Time Shenanigans that go on with the Lilly Time Capsule, I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s actually /actively/ in contact with someone from the Alpha TImeline. I also am not saying the many horses and knights aren’t a reference to Bro, or that there isn’t anything going on between them, because again, Bro is a wildcard, and there’s a lot that could be revealed about their past and if he and Jake did anything together.

But when it comes down to the reasoning of why they have to be able to remember the Alpha Timeline, it cannot be just to explain their knowledge of SBURB.

The game’s already there. Waiting to be discovered.

And who better than the eccentric adventurer going all over the globe to find it and bring it to light?