#I get back next Thursday so I'll be gone awhile

[insane-twilight-fan]

Just a heads up for people I will be gone for the next week because I am going on a trip.

If you don't see me online that is why.

[invisibleraven]

"There is this event, I got invited to. And it says I could bring a plus one." and writers choice

"Okay, let's go over your calendar," Naomi said to Carrie, pulling up her tablet and drinking her insanely large espresso that made Carrie wince at the thought of that much caffeine. "You have the Dior shoot Wednesday, the Rolling Stone interview Thursday, the red carpet for Kayla's film Friday, and the party for Vanity Fair Saturday."

"Oof, sounds like a busy week," Carrie replied, sipping her own matcha latte.

Naomi shrugged. "Means you're a superstar and still trending. I know it's hectic, but next week is all clear for you to chill, meditate, do some songwriting..."

"Nomi, I told you, I don't have any plans for the next album right now," Carrie sighed. "Dirty Candi is on hiatus while Kayla does her director thing. Plus the other girls are going between travel, school, and motherhood."

"You could always do a solo album."

Carrie shook her head. "No. I might be the lead of Dirty Candi, but the spotlight is meant for all of us. Until they're ready to get back to the studio, I'm fine staying out of it. It's not like I don't have enough to keep me busy."

Naomi threw up her hands. "Fine, but don't expect me to let this go."

"You wouldn't be my agent if you did," Carrie replied with a smile. "Anything else?"

"Do you have a plus one for the Vanity Fair thing? They'll want to know before the end of the week."

Carrie paused at that. She usually went to events with her girls, or with a rotating group of guys who were arm candy and nothing more. But she had given them up ages ago, preferring to go solo rather than play at being interested in whatever male model she had on her arm. However, that proved a little lonely. She knew she could bring one of the girls, or her other friends, but most of them had even busier schedules than she did.

Well maybe not all of them...

She assured Naomi she'd let her know, and once the meeting was over, took her sensible car over to Los Feliz. Julie and Luke were still on their honeymoon, but they weren't who she was here to see. Reggie had volunteered to housesit while they were away; watering their plants, feeding their cat Dauphine, and raiding their fridge. it worked out since his own place was undergoing renovations, and well, he and Julie were all but siblings, so he didn't mind.

"Hey Care Bare, what brings you to my neck of the woods?" he asked as he let her in, offering her a glass of water and a plate of fruit that he had been nibbling from.

"Are you busy Saturday?"

"Free as a bird baby doll, why?" Reggie asked as he popped a grape into his mouth.

"There is this event, I got invited to. And it says I could bring a plus one," Carrie replied. "Trays of tiny food, celebrities, all the elbow rubbing bullshit."

"You love those kind of events," Reggie said. "Wait, you want me to go with?"

"If you wouldn't mind?" Carrie asked. "I do like these kind of things, but I hate going alone. I know you're good at them, we've gone to enough together."

"That's true," Reggie said with a chuckle. Back when the Phantoms first got big Reggie had her and Flynn on his arm off and on to keep eyes off Julie (who was dating Luke in secret at the time) and Alex (who hated the paps being all up in his face). She always had a grand old time with Reggie at thoise events. Then she and the Candis got big and their schedules never really meshed up. So they hadn't done the party thing in awhile.

"So, what do you say? How about it?" Carrie asked.

"I'll get my tux out of mothballs, and shine up my dress shoes," he said. "You want me to play good friend or mooney eyed sap?"

Carrie tittered. That was the other thing, Reggie was good at playing boyfriend, leading to a lot of questions about who he was seeing, who Carrie herself was seeing. They always said no comment, but there had been more than one blind items linking them together.

And well, they had skirted around making them true a time or two, but never made the move to solidify it. "How about we make it a date and see where it goes?" she said, hopeful.

"Sounds perfect baby doll," Reggie grinned.

Saturday night was lovely, if all a bit fake. The food was tiny and bland, the people all placating but false, the music more suited for an elevator than dancing. But Carrie made a few connections, and with Reggie on her arm, at least she had someone real to talk to. Plus he looked really good in his black shirt and pants with an arresting tan blazer on top that made him look golden and suave.

"Can we blow this popsicle stand yet?" Reggie whispered in her ear as the hour grew later. "We've made an appearance, put on a good place, and I want to take you on a real date."

"Oh yeah?" Carrie replied. "What's your idea of a real date then?"

"Well real food for once. Even if it's just like McDonalds. Maybe a drive in movie, or a stroll down the boardwalk," Reggie said. "Something simple, low pressure. Do something a bit bigger for date number two; like Venice Beach and end up on the Ferris wheel."

"Let's go," Carrie said, pulling him towards the exit. "You owe me nuggets and a milkshake."

Reggie beamed and giggled as they left, uncaring that they ended up on the hood of his car in their formal wear eating greasy food and watching the waves. It was an amazing date, and Carrie asked eagerly at the end of the night about his plans for their third.

And neither had to worry about getting a plus one for events after that ever again.

[kelmcdonald]

Failure to Launch Crowdfund is Launching!

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Hi everyone. Hope you all had a good January. Lots of things coming up this month!

Firstly, as the title says Failure to Launch's crowdfunding has gone live. Failure to Launch is a light-hearted, educational tour of (so far!) unrealized technological and societal advances promised in years past, but which never came to be. What could have been, but wasn't. It tells the tales of planned utopias in space, wild inventions, attempts to improve society, robot pets, and predictions of armageddon! History is often written by the winners, but this time join us in spotlighting those who didn't let failure stop their dreams. I edited it and drew a story. My story is titled Paradise Within the Reach of All Men. It's written by Ryan North and io9 posted a sample!

Later toward the end of the month, I'm doing a live reading of Fame and Misfortune. It will be Saturday February 25th at noon PST on my twitch. Some friends will be playing different roles. Then I'll answer some reader questions after the reading. Post any questions you got to this public patreon post. 

Also while not in February, it's early enough in March that I wanted to mention it now. March 2nd-5th I'll be at Emerald City Comic Con. They haven't sent a map yet, but I'll try to post it in March's newsletter. 

The full moon was yesterday, so I didn't get this out in time. But we watched Wolf Children. The next few moon is March 6/7. I'll probably do the movie on March 7th since I'll be driving back from ECCC on the 6th. Either way please join the discord so you don't miss the next full moon movie night.

As always I'll be streaming art on Twitch. My schedule is currently the following:

Tuesday 8pm-10pm PST

Wednesday 8pm-10pm PST

Thursday 6pm-9pm PST (during the Iron Circus Geekshow)

As for last month, what you might have missed is You are the Chosen One is back to updating on Patreon. I posted a PDF catch up for folks, because I know Patreon isn't great for catching up on reading comics.  Also, The City Between has a new storyline starting. It's up early on my Patreon, but will start posting on my website this month.

This past month I did my best to work on Meredith McClarren and I's graphic novel Blue Moon. I'm behind on writing it because I've been a little buried with editorial work for Iron Circus and Seven Seas. A lot of my free time this month will go to trying to finish that one up. 

On the editorial front, I'm putting the finishing touches on Failure to Launch. I'm also getting the ball rolling on a new anthology about committing crimes. It's called Perfect Crime Party. That will be fun to get the ball rolling on. At Seven Seas I'm editing the manga for one of my favorite recent animes, Life of an Ordinary Guy reincarnated as a Fantasy Knockout. It's a very funny parody of fantasy books and romantic comedies. I recommend checking it out the anime or the manga once it's out. 

Staying on top of all that and exercising every morning has been pretty rough. But it's getting easier. I had trouble sticking with it after SDCC and ECCC being so close together last year. So doing Emerald City Comic Con will be the test on if I can stick with it. I've mostly been watching stuff while on the treadmill.  Here's stuff I watched and read this month

My Love Mix Up vol 6 by Wataru Hinekure and Aruko - I mentioned this in my newsletter a year ago. But My Love Mix Up is one of my favorite regular reads. It's very cute. The bisexual main character starts the series with trying to figure out his feelings for two crushes (one guy and one girl). Now that it's been going on awhile the series has moved on to the main character navigating dating another guy. I like it because the character conflicts are mostly about them figuring out their own feelings rather than miscommunication. I find people needing that time and space to sort out their feelings and thoughts really appealing. Like the love interest is dating the main character and hasn't had a crush or feelings for anyone before. He sometimes comes off as detached or disinterested in they relationship. So compared to the heart on his sleeve main character, the conflict doesn't need miscommunication. Because if someone needs time and space, that's a conflict that can only be resolved with said space and time.

The Night Eaters by Marjorie Liu and Sana Takeda -  I picked this up because I like Monstress by the same creative team. The art is beautiful just like Monstress. Currently, I think I prefer Monstress because that hit the ground running. But The Night Eaters was mostly setting things up for the series. The main characters are twins that don't understand their immigrant mother. They have a good dynamic and I like their back and forth as they learn their family's supernatural secrets. I'm gonna grab volume 2 and maybe now that groundwork is laid it will really knock volume 2 out of the park.

Lost in the Moment and Found by Seanan McGuire - This is the newest volume of The Wayward Children Series. If you don't know it, the series follows kids that had a portal fantasy adventure and came back. Mostly the kids are called to their respective fantasy worlds because those worlds fix the kid better. I always like this series and end up grabbing the book the day it comes out. This one follows a girl who ends up in an in-between world which is where lost things magically end up. It is better for her because her home life has gone to hell and it's a sanctuary for her. She doesn't realize what she is giving up to stay though. It has some good thoughts and observations about how people treat children. All the Wayward Children protagonists have rough home life, but this one starts especially rough.

Guillermo del Toro's Pinocchio - I loved this version of Pinocchio. I always like Del Toro's designs and the stop motion animation was lovely. I especially liked the design for Death.

Watership Down Mini Series - I also watched the Watership Down Mini Series that came out a few years ago. While the acting was good, I think it feel for the trap that happens a lot with cg animation. They rabbits look too realistic and that kinda robs them of personality. The visuals didn't really sell the horror of the book or the old 2nd movie.

First Kill - This and the next thing on this list made me think about how quickly netflix cancels stuff extremely quickly. If you aren't familiar with it, First Kill is the teen lesbain vampire romance series they put out last summer and quickly canceled. It follows a vampire and a vampire hunter who fall for each other while their families are fighting one another. It is EXTREMELY bad and not in a fun way. The whole show is very poorly thought out and seems slapped together. While it wants you to think Romeo and Juliet with the two leads, it is established that after being bit a human becomes devoted to a vampire. So one member of those pair has their freewill compromised. It is then brushed aside. And the vampire girl doesn't want to kill, but is told she has to. Why? Well, she just has to. We see other vampires feed from willing donors and not kill them, but it's never established why she can't just do that. The vampire also has to keep keep the fact that she is a vampire secret but then it turns out the whole world already knows about vampires. I could go on, but all the examples of what's wrong can be summed up as a lack of thought being put in to anything. And at the end of the day it's also boring. I can only imagine how frustrating it would be to think you were getting gay version of Buffy or True Blood and instead getting this.

That 90s Show - I watched a lot of That 70s Show as a teen. And I've been watching a youtuber named Jose do retrospectives of different sitcoms. After watching the That 70s Show one, I decided to check out That 90s Show. Overall, That 90s Show is just okay. I think the new teen actors have a decent chemistry, are unique, and their jokes are funny. But they don't really have time to explore/find their feet. Way too much time is spent on cameos for the cast of That 70s Show. The set up for the show is that Donna and Eric's daughter Leia is spending the summer with her grandparents Red and Kitty. So Donna and Eric being in the first episode as well as Red and Kitty all fit in the show fine. But the problem comes up when it turns out the single mom next door is dating Fez and her landlord is the guy Fez had a rivalry with. So now instead of sticking with the teen main characters, we are spending all this time rehashing Fez's joke from That 70s Show. And when Leia likes a boy with the last name Kelso, both Jackie and Micheal invade Kitty and Red's kitchen to repeat their usual fight. Something like this happens once per episode. And it's a shame because I think the teen characters holding their own would have better served the show. It left me wondering what season 2 would be like, but since it's on Netflix it will most likely never get that chance.

Watching all those sitcom retrospectives and listening to the Always Sunny Podcast (the crew of always sunny are rewatching their old episodes). It made me think about how sitcoms usually don't find their feet until season 2. Nearly all the shows we think of as changing the landscape of television had poor ratings the first season. Sitcoms rarely have complicated premises and live or die on the chemistry of their cast. And you don't know what does and doesn't work until you actually make a couple of episodes. While dramas/dramadies are also in a rough place in a landscape where things either take off immediately or get canceled, seems like sitcoms are getting get the worst of this cancel happy time period we are currently in.  That's just something that's been on my mind lately, especially when shows I really like such as Inside Job have ended up on the chopping block.  Thanks everyone! Have a good month and thanks again for your support. I'm gonna start doing an art round up after each newsletter. So enjoy and have a good one.

[michaelmyersofficial]

26/02/2024 Monday Night

Honestly I haven't posted much because I've been very busy but in a way that left it really difficult to post about. I had to go back to the dentist twice, because something went wrong the first time. Honestly I'm not entirely sure this will have fixed it, either. This is so much my worst nightmare, and has kind of put me in a really depressed position I don't know how to crawl out of. My family has gone on vacation now without me. This was a known event and I really don't mind it especially as it means they will allow me to go and visit my brother overseas. I am surprisingly nervous though, I've never flown across an ocean before. At the same time it will be wonderful to hang out with him and the d&d guys. I'm a bit nervous because I haven't finished any of the reading I told him I'd do (he bought me the books), but I have until the end of April, so I think it will be fine, probably. I also haven't finished writing out all the letters I meant to send everyone, but I have time yet for that as well. I also have to fill out a new character sheet for the next game, and that hast to be done for Thursday, so I might work on that tomorrow. I haven't really been eating well lately and Ena has been upset with me for it, but it's kind of been hard to. I don't know exactly what's been wrong but I have not felt hungry in awhile. Before they left my family had also considered signing me up for a course at the local community college and / or signing me up to the local YMCA. However, I don't have a swim outfit, and mother's suggestions just triggered dysphoria. I would like to try school, since I look up and do maths school work for fun anyway, but it's so expensive that I'm not sure the cost is worth it. Especially since I'm not really able to strive towards a degree of any kind, or actually work in a job because of my health. The government finally made a decision to deny me fully for disability, despite their own doctor arguing on my behalf. It feels kind of hopeless honestly. I know I can appeal both denials, and I will, it's just so disheartening because it's my only shot at getting the help I need and the people who care can't help, and the people who can help don't care. I have to call the advocate, likely tomorrow morning, and then I'll discuss in therapy on Wednesday. I can't really move forward on this until I call the advocate and talk in therapy, though. They also didn't tell me why they decided, ultimately, to deny me, and said that information will be in the letter they send. It's mostly just waiting games on waiting games on waiting games with them. I've also been having issues with a friend of mine. I love them very much but they've said time and time again that they're going to do something and then don't even try to do it and don't discuss with me what's going on. They said they wanted to come and stay with me, but we've planned twice now for that to happen, only they need to finish their school work first since they dropped out years ago and wanted to complete it. I agree that this is a reasonable goal, but they just. . . Don't actually go to their classes yet act as if plans have never changed even though they can only come here after the classes are finished. In addition, all the money that is needed to make that trip could be saved in a month or so from their job- but they keep spending everything to the last cent on gacha games. It almost feels like they don't really want to come and they're sabotaging but then they act possessive of me and talk about being here like it's a dream of theirs. The whole thing doesn't feel right to me now though, since they've started acting this way (just a few months ago). I guess the dentist and tooth thing has really been getting to me because I don't really know if I've been as busy as I think I am but it's sure felt like it, and I've missed out on a lot of fun things because of that stress.

I do have some plans for the upcoming week, so hopefully I can get back into a regular schedule and things work out for me.

[threenorth]

From last night but didn't get to it.

Dates,

Yes it might be boring, but it's something but today is Thursday tonight I gotta do some studying... I haven't done it in awhile just had alot on my plate being exhausted from work isn't helpful on the wear out of dex, made me quite mood swinging.

Well as best I can guess with no word for the emotions I felt just unbalance.

I know Saturday night mom wants to go to the new haunted house movie with her girl freind (not dating like woman freind) and her daughter to come along too, it's a free movie so eh she said 5pm I'll get back to you on this after my walk in 15mins (from now being 5pm)

This one sounds nothing like you at all... But I'll go over it again.

Elyjah,

I haven't gone anywhere, you know how to message me.. There's phone apps insta, snap, Facebook, Skype and then there's good old phone.

Summer,

You are my only favourite love.

Truth,

So you know what to do if you want me, you know how to find me.

R, hide far away with me, how far is far, how close is near, anywhere with you.

Andy,

I can only see the number go up.

And you can see any most of my socials expect maybe some of the insta private moments but you got the blog it's a little more personal then my insta private moments.

Angel, darker pink.(because I saw the papen pink)

You and me in a tree, sitting in a tree house? K I S S I N G.

Aaron (purple because I saw the pink one)

It was fate, luck or just sheer coincide I'll never know, but it will always be you in my universe, but in one of them you came this way, I wonder if you liked it here or if you don't like it as much as I... Well we might see soon enough.

Kenni, yes I agree also hoodies very comfortable lounge wear 😂

Ryan(Pink the brighter one)

You told me, a few times and I appreciate it. But it's you who should see the surprises in store for you.

Reyhaan,

Anytime you want.

(refer to my Instagram post where I tried to write it on my neck 😂 like g)

Benjamin (dark purple)

Like, Likey Likey, well I like like like you.

Wonbin,

Maybe I'll smile eventually but at least I can laugh that's good news I'm just in a constant neutral mode currently.

Khush,

Hey you.

Dawang,

I have plenty more just some aren't tumblr tos approved.

Black no name,

I know you are, your much stronger than before, I can feel a bit more comfortable I won't break you bringing up the wrong topic or something and I'll use it if I need it but for now I'm only thinking about you.

Redd, purple

It's a constant for me as well...

Dawn, green.

You are fine how you are and any change I'll take it on the jaw like that shitty punch that guy threw 😂 so don't worry I'm looking forward to jiving, I just wonder what our next change will be for both of us.

Someone, orange (because I saw the pink one)

I don't have many... Do I?

Maybe you mean all my eh freckles 😂

You wait till you see the mole on my back, I think I'm going to name him Larry or Garry.

[tricksforclicks]

Tiny Bitey Hellbeast News - 3.5 months edition

Tug skills are amazing.

Has the take on cue and no lunging for it even if worked up.

Has a release on verbal cue or hand position.

Instantly settles and backs off if she accidentally makes contact with the human.

Has a wait to hit the tug with a proper neck position instead of wildly jumping at it.

Disc skills are ahead of schedule.

Has a very reliable give to hand to tug - the release to hand still needs a bit of work since it needs both hands and occasionally a verbal (note to self: premack that shit).

She does have a reliable spit at a distance on hand signal and I can start trying to get it on verbal only soon.

Her bring/go get it is a work in progress - a bit behind where I'd like her to be but honestly she so far ahead elsewhere I'm fine with that.

Her around is dependable but slow and is on verbal with hand signal.

Her flat takes are good and she is making good collection adjustments.

SHE HAS A DISTANCE LEFT SWITCH ON HAND SIGNAL. WTF YOU LITTLE GENIUS. I LOVE YOU. Briefly tried a right switch but that needs training.

On the list to introduce soon: yachi method pose for directional throws (once I tune in rolling the small paraflites). Working with the timer. Note to self: start prioritizing non-jumpy setups for freestyle.

Flyball skills.

We still don't know what way she turns. When I was gone she was apparently always going right but she is back to both ways for me. Her left switch is more comfortable and I'll need a left rebound, so I'll start reinforcing left turns until given a reason to do otherwise.

She is starting to drop the ball early when trading for tug so I'm going to have to refine criteria for that.

I also want to start whiplash turn training this week.

Shaping skills

need to be formally introduced because bad human. Hopefully this week once I get a plan.

Life skills are good.

She has decided she wants to go outside with all the dogs and ex with them and broke into the kitchen yesterday to go to ask to go outside. Now the human just needs to figure out her schedule.

Though apparently this is only at my house and needs more work at my parents'. We're hoping her seeing my dogs go outside there helps.

There was a setback with nail trims while I was gone so we've got to put some extra work into that for the next little bit.

Her leash skills are good and she'll come back to bounce in front of me when she feels pressure unless there is a distraction so just need to add distractions.

She has good interdog social skills and listens to them/stops for checkins. Except for Mojo so there is still intervention there.

Face biting and earring chewing is under control. Occasional slip ups when she is super excited to see someone but stops when you ask her to settle.

She's really good at settling herself when she starts to get worked up and will ask up to cuddle.

That being said, dismissal cues are bullshit.

Other stuff

Barnhunt training starts next Thursday before we hopefully switch to mondays. We're going to try quick intros after Streak's class so she can hopefully skip the actual introduction class.

The livestreaming setup in the training room is functional. There probably won't be a set schedule for awhile since my training schedule is pretty packed until July for Canadian Nationals. 

[whosaskingwrites]

The Sound Of Love (Tsukishima x Reader)

A/N: Um I don't like this one as much as the others but I did my best. It honestly took forever cause I didn't want to write it and I had no idea what song to use but I eventually decided so here we are.

WARNINGS: angst

Date: Saturday November 7th, 2020

Details: 5.3 pages 2,000 words

Theme: Musicalia- The victim will hear a song constantly playing in their head until it drives them insane. The person of affection will only hear the music when they are around the victim.

Angst Masterlist

Clair De Lune

A simple, beautiful piano melody that had been repeating in my head for weeks. There was never a reprieve from the beautifully haunting melody. My mind followed the sound like a moth to a flame and deteriorated the closer it got to the music.

No amount of holding my hands over my ears stopped it. It had become a part of me like the backround music in a video game or movie. However this wasn't a video game or a movie this was real. Every day was the same never a rest I couldn't even sleep some nights.

This was my last week at Karasuno before I was put in the hospital. My mind was too far gone to stay out I couldn't really hear anything anymore to distracted by the music and of course I hummed it on occasion. Everyone in my classes knew I had it...Musicalia but they didn't know who caused it.

Monday

I walked to class with a sigh Yamaguchi was following and as we walked I heard a gentle piano melody that got louder. I spotted a familiar H/c haired girl fast walking past me like she'd done since I pushed her away. Yamaguchi followed my eyesight and the music faded the further away she got "you should apologize you know. This week is her last at Karasuno," I blinked 'her last week?' I thought "Shut up Yamaguchi," I said keeping my emotions off my face "Sorry Tsukki," I continued watching the S/c skinned female rush off down the hall.

Tuesday

I was walking up to the roof ready to reject another girl. Why they felt the need to confess to me of all people id never understand. As I rounded the corner someone ran into me and with a short shriek they fell. I was about to say something when I noticed who it was...Y/n she looked paler than I remembered and eye bags were prevalent on her face. I heard the piano again it was louder than ever.

"Do you need to listen to music that loud?" I asked though it was harsher than intended. Her eyes widened and I held back a frown as I saw she was afraid. "S-sorry," she stood up quickly and ran off down the hall the music fading the further she got and I watched 'why was she afraid of me?' My eyes caught something on the floor which I turned to. Picking it up I realized it was a simple gold bracelet with a dinosaur charm on it.

"This is...," It was the bracelet id given her three years ago on her birthday. It was still in perfect condition looking like it did on the day I'd given it to her and it caused a small smile to pull at my lips as I pocketed the familiar bracelet.

Wednesday

Everytime I spotted the e/c eyed female in the hallway and approached her she would turn and run the music following her. Nobody ever seemed bothered by the piano it was almost like they didn't hear it and Y/n was never wearing headphones when it was playing. "Does she ever stop listening to that song?" I mumbled to myself as she ran away yet again.

"What song?" Yamaguchi asked next to me I furrowed my eyebrows as I looked at him. "What do you mean what song? That damn piano music she's always listening to it's annoying," I said and Yamaguchi’s eyes widened "Tsukki...She's not listening to any music...," He stated.

I blinked as I processed what that meant "No ive heard it-," Yamaguchi cut me off before I could continue he had a sad look in his eyes and as he spoke I realized why. "She's got Musicalia Tsukki...," He whispered as he looked at me. "She...She what?" I asked. "She's got Musicalia and if you can hear it that means...," my own eyes widened as I realized what he was implying. "Oh...,"

Thursday

Cornering someone who was avoiding you was much more difficult than you'd think. Everytime I ended up even in the same room as her she ran before I could even get near her. "Yamaguchi," I stated causing him to jump. "Yeah?" He nervously asked. "Can you convince Y/n to meet you on the roof?" I asked. He didn't ask any questions he just nodded mumbling a quiet yeah as the teacher walked in the room.

I stood on the roof looking out towards the gym. I heard footsteps come around the corner and stop before they slowly started backing away. "Can you stop running? I need to talk to you," I said. The footsteps stopped and I turned around. Y/n stood a few feet away nervously shuffling on her feet.

"When were you gonna tell me?" I asked and she sighed "Preferably never," She answered and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Never? This could kill you!" I took a step toward her while she took one back "So what?" She spit bitterly rasing her head up to glare. "So what? So everything!" I shouted.

"So everything? You dont even fucking like me! You made that pretty clear last year!" She yelled back. She was referencing an argument that I barely remembered and that she hadn't forgotten. "Do you even know what its like to have your heart crushed in seconds!?" She screamed. "You still should have told me you have Musicalia!" I glared back. 

She just gave me a bitter smile "I suppose my dear this was how it was meant to be," she stretched her arms out as she spoke and tears dripped down her face at a slow pace. "You dying isn't how it's supposed to be!" She only shook her head in response. I stuck my hand in my pocket and pulled out the bracelet. "Here...just take this back," I said holding it out. She walked forward and I heard that gentle and haunting music get louder.

She stopped closing my hand around the bracelet and leaning up to press a kiss against my cheek. "Keep it I won't have a use for it much longer," she mumbled before turning and walking off. "Y/n!" She stopped but didn't turn around and I continued speaking. "I love you," she sighed and turned her head. The sunset cast her in an ethereal glow and sparkled off the remaining tears on her face.

She gave a sad, watery smile in response. "No you don't Tsukki. If you did...You would have come back to me a lot sooner," she turned and left I knew she was right but god it hurt to hear her say that. My hand was still tightly closed around the bracelet the metal uncomfortably warm against my skin as she walked away from me.

Friday

She avoided me even more. I never saw her but I heard the music following around on occasion. After yesterday I had looked for the melody finally hearing it long enough to search for it. The results had told me the song was Clair De Lune I should have known. It was Y/n's favorite song though I doubted she liked it now.

I had tried to find her when I heard the music but even if I followed it I never found her. I was walking toward my locker keeping an ear out for that melody. As I opened the locker a f/c envelope fell out as I picked it up I noticed it was sealed with a gold wax stamp. Flipping it over my name was written on the front in flowing cursive. I put it away in my bag before heading to practice.

I flipped the envelope around in my hand staring at it before sighing. I pulled open the envelope and slipped the contents out. The first was a photo of me, Y/n, and Yamaguchi we were standing in the park in the photo. Y/n and Yamaguchi had their arms over eachothers shoulders while I stood in the background glaring towards the camera.

The other thing was a letter that I was hesitant to flip open. I knew the letter was from Y/n but I for the first time felt afraid on what she had to say. Sighing I opened the letter ready to read it.

Dear Kei,

It's been awhile hasn't it? Though That's what happens after fights. You give each other time to calm down and then you come back. Only this time...There is no coming back. You already know I have Musicalia and I'm sure you know I love you. It's weird to write that to someone you know doesn't love you.

Don't lie either. You don't love me the way I love you. You may think you do but if you had we would have been friends again by now. But you were perfectly content with not having me in your life so I know you'll be fine when I'm actually gone.

That's the issue isn't it? I'll be gone soon really, truly...gone. I'm not afraid knowing my death is approaching im...content and at peace with it. My death won't be glorious. I'm not going out with a bang. Or any final inspirational words. I'll go quietly in my sleep hopefully. Sleep however is hard when there's music constantly playing on loop in your head.

When I'm gone Kei...Will you visit me? Tell me about your day or the volleyball team! Yamaguchi told me about the team you should go easier on them. You should also learn from them you know? Anyways if you ever can't make it to me...Play Clair De Lune and I'll go to you! I'll listen to you talk at your place instead of you coming to mine!

I'm sure you know by now that this is my goodbye letter. Don't act so suprised of course I want to say goodbye to you. You're important to me you should know that. I've written this for awhile but I wanted it to be a good final goodbye since its immortalized forever in a letter. If you share this with anyone I'll kill you by the way. Even in death I still have a reputation. Anyway...

Goodbye Kei

I love you

—Y/n L/n

A month had passed since she said goodbye I moved forward even though it hurt to not see her around school. It almost felt like she moved but that imagine was ruined whenever I visited her grave. "Hey Tsukki I didn't know you liked dinosaurs!" I sighed in irritation my eyes flicking towards Kuroo who was pointing at my wrist.

"Wow that's cool!" Bokuto joined in and my eyes drifted to the golden bracelet around my wrist. "It's not mine," I stated drinking my water. "Whos is it?" Akaashi asked and I sighed again. "My friend Y/n’s...She's gone now and I'd rather not talk about it," I said standing up and heading back to the net. None of them said anything more about it and I was grateful for that.

Later that night I closed my eyes and played the song that I had grown very familiar with. It was quiet except for the soft melody playing through my headphones. While my eyes were closed I felt the familiar pressure on my body like someone was laying on my chest. If I listened through my headphones close enough I could almost hear her soft voice humming the song. 

I knew in my brain it was impossible but for now I let my heart believe that it was her. I talked quietly about anything and everything that came to mind. The team was sleeping so I knew I could talk freely most of them slept like they were in a coma. I sighed as I reached the end of my story before I spoke once more.

"I miss you Y/n,"

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TAGLIST: @wonhomarshmallow

[sweetchup]

Red Roses & Holly

Type: Feitan x reader (Spiders’ Way)

Prompt: Chokorēto Ngày lễ — A modern day Holiday celebrated by those who don’t celebrate Snow Goddess Day. These people will instead make Chocolates with flowers that express what they love and cherish about friends or family members. Ex: Chocolate bar with Sunflower petals says they love how happy or loyal that person is.

Author Note: This is a holiday special on the already written story called Spiders’ Way. Which you can check out in the normal masterlist Under “Spider family”. Also don’t use some of these flowers in real life to add to chocolate. I didn’t check if some of these were edible or not.

(Prompts & Rules) (Holiday Masterlist)

The chatter and joys of glee from children fill the school as the first bell rings. Even Kai himself is laughing along with his friends as they walk into their first class of today. Afterall, it was the last one until Winter break and Kai was actually excited.

Giving one last word to his friends, Kai sits down at his assigned seat. As he sits down, Kai chooses to fix his uncomfortable uniform as the teacher clears his throat to speak. “Children, Children, please quiet down now.”

Slowly, the chatter of the other kids in Kai’s class quieted down and the teacher continued speaking. “As everyone knows today, Thursday December 10, is our last day of school before we return back in the new year.”

A couple of cheers and high fives from the other students are heard before the teacher shushes them.

“Due to most students already finished with their studies and teachers just needing to enter grades, we have created a kind of school wide fun zone to keep everyone entertained.”

Kai and his friends look at each other grinning as the teacher goes row by row to pass out a map of the school. Looking at the map drawn, Kai sees different festive activities taking place in certain classrooms.

“Now please remember to be respectful, children. We don’t—“ The bell suddenly goes off. Usually it was to signal the change for classes but this time it was to allow children to start exploring their activities. “Well you can go but be safe!”

Kai opens the door for some of the girls in his class, some giggling as they pass, before leaving himself. As Kai walks in the hall he is suddenly hit lightly on the back.

“Hey Kai! Man, what are you thinking of doing?” Rye questions, swinging an arm on his friend’s shoulder.

“I bet we should go to the gym, there should be some sort of fun thing to be done.” Calvin shouts, catching up to the two. Kai only shakes his head at his friends suggestions. He already had decided on what he was going to do.

“Well, you guys can go enjoy that but I’m going to do Mrs. Minsieur class.” His friends turned to look at him confused.

“You sure about that? You want to do an activity with the foods’ teacher?”

“Yep, but I’ll try to catch up later to play a round of dodgeball in the gym with you guys.”

His friends shrug at Kai’s strange behavior, though they choose not to question him. Afterall, Kai could act strangely at times. Kai’s friends give him a brofist as they part ways at the central hallway. “Okay dude, see you later then.”

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“🎶Last Snow Goddess I gave you my heart but the very next day, you gave it away 🎶” You sang softly along with the radio as you put the plate of toast on the table. It was December 11th, Snow Goddess Day and Chokorēto Ngày lễ. It was 10 o’clock in the morning yet you were still the only one awake at this time. Mostly since you wanted to allow Kai and Feitan to both sleep in more. After all, both of them seemed to deserve it. “🎶This year, to save me from tears. I'll give it to someone— Oh good morning sweetheart.”

Stopping your singing, you turn down the radio as you spot Kai making his way down the stairs. When you turn back around, you giggle as Kai gives you a hug still only half awake. Softly you smooth out his bed head as he leans into you.

“ ‘morning mom.” Kai finally responds back as you place a kiss on his forehead. Bringing him back from a sleepy daze to what’s going on around him.

“I hope you are hungry sweetheart because I already made breakfast.” You murmur into his forehead. “I’m going to wake up Feitan so he can eat with us as well.”

“ ‘Kay” Kai mumbles letting go of you to grab a glass of almond milk to drink. Suddenly, however he stops when he realizes something. “Wait mom!”

You humm and turn around quickly. Once you see what Kai was holding out towards you, you couldn’t help but let out a small aww. Taking it carefully from him, you look at the nicely packaged chocolate.

“I made you your favorite chocolate and added Daisies and Hydrangeas. Daisy because I’m glad you are my mother and Hydrangea because I’m grateful for you always being there for me.”

Quickly, you capture your son in a hug so he doesn’t see you wipe a couple of tears of joy from your face. As you do that, you can somewhat blurrily see Feitan at the bottom of the stairs raising an eyebrow at you. You mouth a “I’m okay” to him as you wipe the last one. “Well, I’m glad you are my son Kai. I love you so much, you know that right?”

“Of course mom!” Kai shouts back happy as he doesn’t let go of you. Even as Feitan approaches, who only rolls his eyes at the boy while grabbing a cup of coffee. For a kid that could burn the world around him at any moment, he sure loved his mom to death.

“I was going to give your’s and Feitan’s chocolate at dinner but I think it will be okay if I give it now.” Reaching behind you into the drawer, you grab two bars of chocolate. “This one is what I made for you Kai. It’s a dairy free chocolate with Yarrow and White Clover. I chose Yarrow and White Clover to express the fact I will always love you and be thinking of you.”

Kai smiles happily at you, before quickly unwrapping his chocolate and taking a bite. You giggle as he hums in delightment, “Mmm. Mom it’s so good!”

“I’m glad you like it sweetheart. Oh! And Feitan here is yours.” You embarrassingly say as Kai let’s go of you to go eat. Shakily, you hand the man you love a bar of chocolate. “I know you don’t exactly have a sweet tooth but I made you one. I chose Red Roses and Sunflowers. Of course red rose to say I love you, but I also chose Sunflowers because I’m glad how loyal you are to me.”

You nervously fumble with your fingers as you watch Feitan take a bite, “I-is it good?”

“No,” He states, causing Kai to whip around, a piece of pancake in his mouth. Already plotting Feitan’s death.

“O-oh you don’t have to eat it then. I understand sin—“ Before you can finish what you are saying Feitan shuts you up with a kiss. You hear Kai gag slightly as you two pull away.

“Me just messing with you. It very good.” Feitan chuckles out, reaching into his pocket to hand you a chocolate himself. Based on the package it seemed like he bought his instead of making it. But to you it didn’t make it any less special. You were happy just to get a chocolate from Feitan. Afterall, you thought he didn’t like the Holidays. Giggling out of happiness, you place a kiss on Feitan’s cheek.

“Yuck. I’m out of here. I’m going to go play with my friends at the soccer fields for a while.” Kai shouts out as he puts on his shoes. Clearly not wanting to see Feitan kissing his mom anymore.

“Okay sweetheart be safe!”

Once you hear the door close you continue what you were doing.

“What flower did you choose, Feitan?” You ask excitedly. The package was a blank white and didn’t seem to specify.

“Open it to see.” Feitan mumbles, taking a sip from his coffee as you huff at him.

For some strange reason it took you awhile to open the wrapper since the plastic was weirdly thick. Either that or you were too excited to see. Though once you were able to open it up and peer in you can’t help but gasp. Due to how surprised you are, you nearly drop the chocolate bar which Feitan thankfully helps you catch.

“F-fei. You— are you telling me what I think you are telling me?,” You mumble out as you take another look at the flowers in the white bar of chocolate. Even though only one flower was used, you wouldn’t have it any other way. That flower was the red salvia. The flower that means Forever mine.

As you finally take your eyes away from the bar of chocolate to look at feitan, you can’t help but cover your mouth to stop yourself from crying. Even though Feitan hadn’t done anything extravagant. Even though he hadn’t given you a big speech about how much he loved you. Even though he hadn’t gone down on one knee to you. You could tell how much this man loved you by the fact his usual dull eyes lit up love as he held out an engagement ring to you.

Nodding your head because you couldn’t trust yourself with words, you allow Feitan to put a ring on your finger. Your perfect dream ring in fact.

Once on, you give the man soon to be your husband a kiss.

“I love you Fei.” You mumble against his lips before he kisses you again to tell you he loves you back. You let out a small giggle at the fact that even in a moment like this Feitan is still a man of few words. “Is this why Kai was acting strange all week? Because I’m going to be marrying you?”

You hear Feitan let out a light chuckle, but not for the reason you think.

“Actually, Me didn’t tell boy.”

“Wait— wHAT?!”

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Meanwhile, on the other side of town, Kai let out a loud sneeze.

“Damn. I know it’s been cold out recently but It’s not that cold enough to be getting sick.” Kai mumbles to himself as he rubs his nose.

“Hey Kai~!”

Kai turns his head and sees a group of girls from school that were in his year. All of which giggled and whispered to each other. Kai gives the group a charming smile and waves at them, causing some of the girls to blush while others let out a strange noise.

Though he was acting polite to the girls, all he wanted to do was get out of there. Even though they all looked pretty and wore nice clothing, Kai honestly felt they were complete garbage. All they cared about was looks and popularity, choosing to bully those who didn’t act like them.

As Kai begins to walk away to get out of there, suddenly an odd color of brown is seen in the mix of the girls. Looking closely he sees a girl on the ground attempting to pick up her knocked over stuff. Ah, another victim. This girl doesn’t even look to go to our school. How shameless.

For some reason, without a second thought, Kai goes over to help the girl. He doesn’t know why he wants to help but for some reason his feet force him forward.

“What are you—“ Kai sends a glare to one of the girls who tries to say something to him. Scaring the whole group off. What was he thinking? He’s breaking his normal everyday boy act by doing that—

“T-thanks but you didn’t have to do that…” The girl mumbles out shyly as she continues to put things back in her bag. Kai doesn’t answer right away as he continues to pick up the dropped cards.

“It’s not a problem—“ Kai cuts himself off as he finally looks up and gets a good look at the girl he helped. And, oh wow, she took his breath away.

As he looked at her, he for some reason couldn’t pick what he liked best about her. Was it perhaps the silk blonde hair half tied up with a ribbon or was it her doe like sapphire blue eyes? Maybe it was those. Though, he can’t help but also notice that the sight of her cute button nose that struggled to hold up her big glasses is what catches his attention the most.

Quickly, however, he corrects himself. It wasn’t any of those. As the girl before him flashes a small smile as she grabs the cards from his hand, her cheeks slightly puff out just like small chipmunks do. Man, it was decided from that point on that he absolutely adored those chubby cheeks of hers.

“Holly? Holly!”

At the call of her name, the girl before him suddenly turns around and looks over to a man exiting a store. Who for some reason oddly looked similar to a Sheep.

The girl now known as Holly looks back at Kai, “T-Thanks a lot! I have to go now but I hope we see each other again.”

Kai stands up with the girl but when he attempts to walk away, or perhaps with her, he feels as if his feet are cemented to the ground. So he instead just chooses to watch the girl walk away.

“Oh there you are! Holly Hill, where did you run off to?” The big sheep man asks, grabbing the girl’s hand and walking away with her

“Sorry Ginta. I was looking at something!” Holly lies lightly. Quietly, Kai watches as they disappear off into the crowd and are no longer seen nor heard.

After a couple of moments of calming his heart, Kai lets out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding. Still with a dreamy look on his face, he begins to walk away to go to the soccer fields. Pleasantly under his breath, he murmurs,

“Holly Hill huh?..... what a nice name…”