#I guess I will see how it goes tomorrow bc iv bupe doesn’t last super long in terms of antidiaerheal effect

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dosed b 0.275mg (iv) @ 7:40pm,, after 4mg kpin (sl) at 7:15pm

also LMAO I forgot that I didnt realize there was some ketamine in the syringe too when I dosed, completely unintentional result of switching syringes cuz the first one I used the needle was bent & I didn’t realize until after I filled it. I didn’t even know I still had ket. anyway idk the dose amount but it was enough for a quick k-hole(altho it doesn’t take much to k-hole thru that ROA)

anyway i was worried shooting b would make things worse if i had c diff so I wasn’t sure if I should do it so I dosed it smaller than usual (like not enough to nod/get high or anything) but it gave me complete relief from everything immediately. if itd been c diff I’d had have tons of abdominal pain afterward/continuously but i didn’t, so it ruled that out thannnk god

so it probably was the mag citrate yesterday + the linzess today + the food i ate the other day (im starting to wonder if i have IBS on top of crohns, irdk tho bc it could’ve just been crohns by itself in response to the food and the mag cit/linzess, bc ive been having acute oral/gum inflammation). think i rly needed just smth to slow my guts down and give me pain relief for the intestinal spasms and the throat ache and the facial skin pain/sensitivity bc all of it at once was too much for my body to bear and causing a positive feedback loop of pain in every aspect

not totally ruling out mild wd but i am not as worried about that being the cause bc i didn’t have any runny nose or malaise or sweating which are usually the first indicators of that, or body aches or nausea or fever of any kind, plus I space my doses out pretty well to avoid wd altogether

the rly bad noise-related pain went away immediately too and Im 99% certain I was only experiencing that bc the amount pain/physical stress I was having.. too much of that will cause external stimuli to be unbearable and audio stimuli is the always the worst/first to hurt in those circumstances. i think the kpin definitely helped w that aspect as well (even tho it made me cry a lot for like 5 mins b4 dosing the b shot, but that was rly just like the emotional stress being released kind of thing if that makes sense)