me: Man, I wanna run away to California and be a cool kick ass killjoy living in the desert and running away from the corrupt company in place of the government.
also me: *jumps over one thing* MY ANKLES MY HIP OW MY BACK- MY FUCKIN LUNG HURTS-
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My therapist telling me to get involved in the online disability community for support VS all the other powerchair users hating people with eds VS all the people with eds not being nearly as disabled by it as I am
Wow good advice I feel so at home 👍
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me writing headcanons for obscure media that's already been dead for years? its more likely than you think
Avengers Academy Loki primarily identifies as female, and even when she is presenting male, she is pretty feminine. Shes always been secure in her identity, but the first time she ever felt truly accepted and loved as who she is was when Jan offered to make her feminine clothes without a seconds hesitation.
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I want their fuckin freedom they have no chores no responsibility they can go out with their friends when ever they want for however long they want they can sleep in there bed all day they eat drink drive vehicles use the phone have a home with no bills no expenses they can spend their money on stupid things that bring them joy with no worry of the gas they burned in someone else's vehicle or if there's dinner at home they have no worries about laundry no worries about dishes no worries about the messes they make because they know I'll clean it up always I want to be viewed by my family and by my friends as someone who is an actual person with limits and boundaries and who has goals and dreams they'd like to accomplish in the day besides laundry for 16 people and not a tireless cleaning machine. I want to be able to rest and have hobbies I want to be able to do things with my partner and my friends again I want to be able to fuckin daydream and make up stories again for Christ sake I want to feel like a person and not a corpse forced into playing "tradwife" I want the freedom they all have while I'm in the background doin they're dishes.
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//Still not feeling well. As evidenced by my being awake at nearly 3 am. My body is still throwing a tantrum. I've even been using a cane the last few days - something I've stubbornly not done since my early 20s, even when I probably really should have been. But I go to the doctor in the morning. (Or, later in the morning, I guess.) So hopefully I can at least start getting some answers. Hopefully. I've been through too many rounds of labs and too many parades of specialists and too many years-long diagnosis processes to think I'll definitely get answers. But if we can at least deal with the headaches, I'll take that.
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i wish id climbed more trees. wish id gone on more hikes. wish id climbed the stupid rock walls on that trip with my friends. wish id dragged myself back onto the ice rink after the panic attack. wish id lived a little more, a little better, when i was able to do it. i wish i hadn't taken it all for granted
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Will she at least let you sit down instead of standing??? Idk what you're doing but if you don't have to be walking around then maybe you can convince her to let you sit? If you have to be moving around I'd recommend looking into a mobility aid to take some of the strain off but idk if she'll let you do that either :(
She doesn't think my heel issues are that important. Also im working what they call "on floor" ! I hsve to be standing/walking
Even if there's nothing left for me to do I have to continue walking and act like I'm doing something so the customers think we're busier than we are
And no I would not be allowed the use of a mobility aid :( I work in the same store as her so even if in wanted to use one while I worked she'd throw a fit hhgh oof
Sorry if im coming across as super upset btw im not really?? That upset im just tired. Its always a gamble with my mom lmao. She switches like a lightswitch. ALSO they didn't give me my paycheck last week and im salty about ittttt
On some good news im opening a PayPal soon!! For commissions to be fully open!
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ben helped me bring up the topic of Maybe getting me a wheelchair to our mom yesterday and she was like "um no. our goal is to have gus to Stop using stuff like that" and . damn ok....
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Forget to bring headphones to the doctor's office and it happens to be the day the news channel of of the TV's is set to plays trump's speech in full and just endless yank politics, and the other plays paw patrol
I am in hell and suffering and dying
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Kinda wish I had cashed this $475 check from a surgical institute 13 years ago. y’know instead of having adhd and losing it in a stack of papers for 13 years. would have been nice but noooo I had to have adhd instead
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