#IM JUSTTTT upsetti spaghetti

[doofwrites]

thinking about annabeth seeing herself as the commander to the boys (her troops) and how she can’t have a man down, ever. ever.

how she’ll take the responsibility for their actions if that means they get out alive

how she was going to fight a chimera and try to hit three birds with one stone (earn back her mother’s respect and save her friends and keep the quest on track) even if it meant, y’know, fighting a chimera

how she thinks she’s failed as a leader because her (new) friend is going to be dead soon if she can’t open the door—dead, like her last best friend who was also a child of the big three, who saved them on a hill, whose last stand was what annabeth knew she had to do in that observatory room

how she thinks everything is correlated to what you offer the gods

and what does that mean, if all she’s earned so far are dead friends?