#IS EXHAUSTING

[anonymocha]

finally coming out as a dyke in 2023 is realizing i dont need to pretend to simp that Guy just because everyone else in my friend group does

[eternalgirlscout]

you guys know you can share important information about what's going on in the world without pretending that the major news outlet you word-for-word got that information from is Hiding The Truth right

[d-andilion]

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[daughter-of-the-clayr]

i would like to live in a world where my future doesn't hinge on the choice of people half the world away

[mumms-the-word]

the constant vacillation between “god i’m fucking annoying” and “wait I have something to say!!!”

[ryuutchi]

Twitter discourse on DIY testosterone-based HRT is killing me.

There's the refusal to acknowledge that estrogen-based HRT is honestly easier to get and take-- non-scheduled pills are different from a schedule III injected drug, even if you're buying both on the grey market.

That just because no trans masc has been arrested for taking DIY testosterone yet, doesn't mean there's no risk of possession being used as a weapon against trans mascs or used to track us.

That being forced off a doctor/pharmacy regimen and onto an unregulated grey market due to your existence being criminalized is intimidating, fraught, and unsafe, especially for younger and isolated guys.

That DIY for a scheduled substance means your supply is even more precarious than it might otherwise be and going on and off, and that precarity is chilling in itself.

And finally that making these statements doesn't mean I think people supporting DIY or doing DIY hormones are bad and should stop. If you want to find a way to help trans mascs with their medical needs, you have to have to be aware of how testosterone regimens are different medically and legally from estrogen regimens, and the multiple risks involved and how to mediate them.

And if you think I'm walking on the wrong side of the "safety vs needs" tightrope, that's fine. But it's killing me how much of the arguments just dismiss outright trans masc concerns about testosterone-specific worries.

[cowboycostume]

one thing about being a partnered & sex favorable asexual is that like. you're kind of always in a closet. because the thing is I genuinely do not get it ever when my friend gets obsessed with some actor because they're hot or know what to say when someone turns their phone to show you a pic of the person they're talking to. in both cases I look and it's like yeah that's just some guy. with women it's a little less remote to me but. it's still 95% of the time just some lady. like is she kind? does he have a good laugh? do they smile & it lights up their face? if any of these options is a no I'm unclear on why you're talking to them.

ANYWAY the thing here is that unless it's someone who asks I don't disclose that I'm ace. because I love sex and physical intimacy, I just don't get where that's connected to attraction in any real way. what I'm saying is. I guess. that it can feel so lonely being quietly ace because as much as you blend in, in your own head you only ever stick out.

[lesbiansanemi]

The kny fandom never really irritated me THAT much about anything until their reaction to the stupid Hantengu clones

[knownbyanothername]

expecting someone to be poetic 24/7 is exhausting

[tirsynni]

This week will be the one-year anniversary of my dad's stem cell transplant. Cue one hell of a busy week for me so I can go and visit him. Wish me luck. Oof.

[blckasf]

One of my colleagues keep drunk texting me and I’m tired of going to work & acting like nothing happened

[cistematicchaos]

🫤 Mh. Not sure what to think of the fact I know my therapist has read all the notes my psyciatrist made about me, including the fact I’m trans and what my pronouns are(we’ve even discussed it) and then today she misgendered me to my face. Huh. 

I had to play it back to actually convince myself I wasn’t mishearing and then I spent a bit trying to convince myself maybe she just didn’t know until I remembered we’ve LITERALLY TALKED ABOUT MY GENDER AND PRONOUNS. I know this is one of those situations where I’m going to have to walk her through the fact my pronouns are not optional little extras she can pick or choose whether to use but sjasflesahse I guess I was just hoping I wouldn’t HAVE to do that. But nope. I guess not. 😮‍💨

[lux-scriptum]

I am. Tired today.

[datshitrandom]

every time i go to the doctor they discover a new health problem

[enchantedsunflowerkat]

my last period lasted sixteen days and i now get cramps every single day so safe to say my uterus is my best friend !!! love her so much !!! she brings me such joy every single day… what a gift !!! you might think this is sarcasm but i’m actually never sarcastic so that would be incorrect. my uterus and i are on very good terms actually. we love each other so much. she doesn’t abuse me at all. and no i do not have stockholm syndrome. she is so kind and loving and only wants the best for me. she wants me to carry a cacophony of children!!! which is of course one of my greatest desires!!! to be impregnated and then inhabited by another human being!!! thank you uterus for helping my dreams come true and dutifully reminding me of your perfect presence every single day, often multiple times a day!!! love you!!!

[sarasa-cat]

New skill slowly unlocking: making animated gifsets from Media(R)

[x] Stills successfully captured from flickscorp

[x] Vid-clips successfully captured flickscorp

[x] Filters applied to vid in photoshop (not being hardcore with editing here, just making sure I understand how it is done based on my knowledge of working with stills/images/photos/paintings in photoshop)

Still to do:

[ ] Actual edits that have aesthetic value (or are useful for illustrating points in upcoming written media-meta)

[ ] Creating sets that can be uploaded to tunglehell

[ ] Creating that witcher side blog I have been threatening to make and posting n00b goodness plus actual media meta.

...

Looks at clock: yeeeeeesh, that was a waaaaayyyyy too long "lunch break" for an obscenely generous definition of lunchtime. Time for me to do something I am supposed to be doing. It is Thursday after all.

(leans forward to see where I put that brand new portable USB-C drive)