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surpriserose · 11 months
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Fish are so weird who allowed this
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rantingnbanting · 5 years
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It’s finally time
Spider-Man: Far From Home Movie Review
Hee hee i had a shit ton of this done already and then my dumbass accidentally closed the tab so yeah :’)
For some reason, this took me so long to want to write. I saw the movie this afternoon, and it’s almost midnight as I’m writing this. Granted, I am on vacation and was a little busy, but I just needed time to process this movie. The movie seemed really dense to me, and I just had to scroll through tumblr looking at other posts to finally get the nerve to write this.
So, the moment you’ve all been waiting for...
***SPOILER WARNING. MAJOR PLOT POINTS AND THE ENDING OF THIS WILL BE DISCUSSED SO IF YOU DO NOT WANT SPOILERS DO NOT CONTINUE***
Just as an FYI, I saw this with my sister, a fan of the MCU, and my dad, a diehard DC fan but just saw this for shits and giggles. And I will be referencing endgame a lot during this too.
- Did I like it?
Yeah!!!! I loved the humor in it, and the plot was well written. Mysterio is an awesome character in this, though he is a villain.
- What didn’t I like?
(I’ll go into more detail later) The cgi in this, the lack of some of the topics introduced in endgame, the casts’ age, and some of the Peter X MJ scenes (I said some! I do love Peter and MJ together!)
- Pacing?
Honestly? Pretty good for a marvel movie. Marvel usually has some issues with pacing *cough cough endgame cough cough*, but I was thoroughly impressed with this one. Everything seemed well drawn out, and I was never left feeling that a certain scene was too long/short. Kudos because that I am very picky with pacing lol
- Humor
This movie is probably one the funniest movies in the MCU, and it was one of the most memorable aspects of the movie. The morning announcements made my sister and myself wheeze and I had tears rolling down my face as I cackled. Ned and Betty were the truest presentation of Highschool romance I have ever seen. Starting on a whim, being attached to the hip for a few weeks (maybe even a few months), and then breaking up. I honestly loved them together. I’m happy they didn’t go down the “sad and neglected best friend” route with Ned because he deserves so much better. “I’m strong and sticky” made my stomach hurt because I was laughing so hard. PETER BITCH-SLAPPING FLASH WHEN HE WOULDNT GIVE BACK THE GLASSES. AHDHDBDJDHDJ
- plot?
I thought the plot was really clever. Like I said earlier, anyone could see mysterio’s real side from a mile away, but the way they went about the conflict and the climax of the story was very interesting as well. The only thing is that when they were first explaining the secret plan and thinking everyone, I got a little lost. I did finally realize how the bots produce an illusion, but I kind of had to figure that on my own. I was confused how things were being broken and destroyed by the creatures, but the team said that nothing was actually getting broken because it’s all just an illusion. Idk there were some plot holes, but they got mostly filled, so I’m not worried about it lmao.
- Favorite character?
While I do love Ned with every fiber of my being, he just didn’t have the same spark that he did in homecoming. Maybe that’ll change as I see the movie again, but my favorite character in this movie was definitely Mysterio. Jake Gyllenhaal is a phenomenal actor, and I don’t think anyone could have pulled off Mysterio like he did. As I assume most of the internet knows, Mysterio is an actual villain in the Spider-Man comics, and he has powers that create illusions, and I thought that this was a really cool way to portray Mysterio with making him a person. Even without knowing that Mysterio is a villain in the comics, it wasn’t that difficult to predict that he would reveal that he’s a villain. Thinking back, there was a part during the the fight with the fire monster in Prague when something broke off of the Ferris wheel, and I thought to myself “damn, it was almost like the Ferris wasn’t really there” And the illusion scene was by far the coolest scene in the entire movie. It gave me strong Doctor Strange vibes (I wonder why I like I so much lmao) and it showed how vulnerable Peter is. But Mysterio has the aura that just made you love to hate him, and I love characters like that.
- Soundtrack?
It was awesome. Mysterio’s theme is definitely the best. I actually listened to the soundtrack before I saw the movie, and it was cool to hear some of the familiar tunes. It would fucking awesome to hear an ensemble perform the Far From home suite live.
- Peter and MJ
Okay, I understand what they were trying to do with their relationship: display a typical, awkward high school relationship. Ngl, they kind of overdid the awkwardness. Not every relationship is both people constantly stuttering and muttering when they’re next to each other. And that fuckin kiss. It made me so uncomfortable. Me and my sister literally looked at each other and said, “That was the most awkward thing I have ever seen in my entire life” after the kiss. I like that the writers were trying to break from the stereotypical high school relationship, but I do think they overdid the awkwardness a bit.
- WHERE THE HELL WAS MORGAN STARK
HOW DARE YOU RIP A FATHER FROM A BOY AND GIRL AND NOT HAVE THEM INTERACT AT ALL. This is probably one of my biggest critiques because this movie makes it look like they introduced Morgan just to take her away. Same with Harley! Imagine how awesome peter and Harley could be together.
- CGI
Okay, I blame my dad for this. He was the one who introduced me to CGI (Computer-generated imagery) and how to spot it. In marvel movies, CGI is not uncommon, especially in the fight scenes. And I honestly did not give endgame enough credit when it came to CGI hulk. He looked absolutely phenomenal, but I have to say that a good amount of the CGI in this movie was rough. I always say, if you can tell it’s CGI, then it’s bad CGI. It’s really hard to explain, but if something looks like it belongs in a video game rather than in a live action movie, then the CGI is pretty rough. It takes experience to learn how to point it out. Mysterio didn’t look bad the entire time, but some shots of him floating (like the rooftop scene) just looked so fake. And the swinging scene at the end was absolutely horrendous. It looked like MJ was swinging with the peter from the ps4 videogame. The background imagery and the elemental monsters looked real for the most part, and they looked great and real. Just some character mods were really wonky.
- Cast
Okay, I’m going to just say it. What the fuck was that cast? To me, everyone looked so much older than the first one. Like I get it that some of them were “blipped” and aged, but holy shit Ned and peter looked so much older than in the first movie. And, holy shit, Peter is ripped in this movie. I know Tom mentioned in an interview that he was more buff in this movie compared to homecoming, but he was so much more, for lack of better phrasing, wide.
I mean, come on
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If the next movie is set in high school again, I honestly have no idea what they will do because, right now, Tom is 23 and Zendaya is 22. And yes I get it that it’s not that old, but if the next one is going to wait 2 years at least for the next Spider-Man movie, they’ll be less like high school students and more like adults.
And while I would have been extremely pissed if they changed the cast, I’m just kind of peeved on how mature the cast looked.
- Ending?
The first ending was what everyone wanted. I could have left the theater then and would have been perfectly fine. But I had to watch the end credits scenes. And then my world crumpled. Hearing Mysterio reveal Peter was so surreal. Almost too surreal... but that’s for another post ;). It provides for a great cliffhanger, but it makes me wonder how they’re going to continue the MCU from here. Obviously, they’re going to do the Black Widow Movie and Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3 (hopefully) but what next? Is there going to be another “avengers” movie? If so, what about Peter? Bc he’s in quite the pickle rn. And the pair credits scene just confused me ngl. So, Fury and Hill were never actually there? It does make sense why fury didn’t catch onto some things, but it does allow for some interesting conversations. This plus BARF equals who knows what for the future because this stuff is practically the reality stone. No one knows what’s real or not. And that’s scary. Also, does the multiverse exist? I know Beck and his crew made some stuff up for the purpose of tricking Fury and Peter, but the avengers still used the quantum realm to time travel, and who knows what types of alternate universes that created.
What does the future hold? No one knows
But it does allow for interesting theories ;)
Side note: I really noticed the resemblance in these in ffh
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Hey marvel please introduce Deadpool played by Ryan Reynolds into the MCU thansk ily
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pokefanbri · 4 years
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1st I have to say this b4 I repeat the post from fb. This is a place where I can speak my mind freely without judgement, speak my peace even. Which is exactly what im gonna do so prepare for a read. So think what u want idc, but the last thing I wanna do is tick some1 I know off cause on some level there's a mutual appreciation & respect regardless of my impression. And anyone that reads this isn't obligated to understand my opinion & I dont expect u to. With my brain its my thought process to let information out of my head so I can put things aside, observe & absorb more lol. Writing is another tool or coping mechanism for my anxieties & other psych ailments, treatment for my mental health depends on it & other hobbies in other words, especially during shutdown, something to focus on. Heck even youtube is recommended by my doctor if it keeps me happy lol. But because ill be working again, I may not have time to do alot of things I like sadly..idk i just wouldnt want to be burnt out & focus on more important things. I have a high respect for anyone working around people during this time & it must worrisome for u too, means I have to keep on my toes as well soon..its a scary world out there for an introvert but I was killin it in NY too. It was just a slow steady process with all the limitations & moving my life up there wasn't easy to begin with but I pulled through & did it all...only for it to be taken away.
So, I'm an Irish, German, Canadian,British Mut from tucson. Maternal & paternal immidiate families lineage mixed made me, including my NY blood from my bio dad. The rest is all over Europe but u get the idea. Tucson may be where i was born & my 1st home without a father & raised not knowing (were mardi gras babies btw 😒)
But NY is & will forever be my 2nd home i dont care what any1 says, I felt I belonged there. Its the other half of me quite literally.Theres a memory that's really been bugging me. Last day b4 i left it, a bald eagle flew across my path in the sky no joke going NE & I was departing back to the SW. I chose the eagle years ago cause I identify with it. including the background symbolism in different phases of my life that included them lol, but to actually see one was just amazing.
They symbolize strength+freedom in general despite it standing for the country from sea to shining sea lol. Also Braviary was always in my pokemon team besides pikachu since its gen came out lol. I've always been strong, whether some believe it to be true or not is their problem, only I know the things I've gone through. Point is different ends of the spectrum its always been with me throughout in some way & im glad i got to share it with someone that gave me the freedom I needed.
But yea I experienced what its like to be there & got to know that part of me even if I didn't find him & maybe didnt care...I feel I was meant to be there. I was in touch with my roots, lower Temps & above sea level rather than high temps & below sea level 🤣 I loved everything about my time up there. It'll always be a part of me, & I hope to see it again. But I digress.
But in regards to the relationship itself, emphasizing on what i said b4. Just as it i got "settled" in it was gone & I had no clue what was happening without my knowledge, the whole plan to bring me back, all of it, the whole chain of events that unfolded the way it did starting with leaving a marriage in the 1st place to be with him i mean come on lol. Chasing a dream that didn't play out the way we had hoped. I took leap of faith & I ended up starting over twice in 1 year with no benefit of the doubt. I still have my ny health insurance for the rest of the yr, I have to add it to my list to apply again in az. Ive been wearing the wrong prescription glasses for 6 months under quarantine & they're just now getting to stage 4 of opening lol. Just understand how frustrating that actually is for someone like me & u totally get it 😅 U want to take care of business but sometimes you're limited & gotta work around it. had all that covered there & then was told I settled, wrong thing to say & its no wonder I didn't blow up in his face right there & then 😒. But I have retraint & can control myself. Though it was out of my hands the new relationship didn't have to go sour, been just as long if not more, could've actually thrived given the proper balance with room to grow. Idk, Sometimes I honestly don't think anyone believed in me. I mean I have no debt, no record, no kids, im a clean slate type of girl lol. Yes I did end up feeling unappreciated, underestimated, a bit neglected, insecure about my body, ashamed for being myself, & I shouldn't have to feel that way at all & if that happens there obviously something off. I just didnt know what it is he wanted & needed, i wanted to help & be a good partner to this dude but why is it bad to ask the same in return? I shouldn't have to drastically change myself to fit someones standard i know, but...i needed the old him back, I missed the old us & wanted to get back to that.. Was always so closed off & probably ended up in his own head who knows, maybe there was guilt for some of the things he did & didnt want to hurt me anymore, spare my feelings any more than it did b4 it was too late.idk whatever the excuse i still don't know what triggered it all to fail so easily & i don't think i ever will. But ending up with the conclusion that I was the problem, its narcissistic to even believe that & i won't accept it. Not when he can't confront his own issuse & put blame onto himself too.. it was a low blow & literally felt like my heart was pierced at the sound of it. If im to blame its the other way around as well. My point of view wasn't acknowledged so this is my take & experiences of happened so plz dont hate me for speaking my truth.
But yea I can tell when somethings not right & feel strong empathy for others emotions. I knew something was different, there were signs everywhere since the mistrust started & during the last half of that time with him I questioned everything but sat in my own headspace as well as he did just thinking about it. If anything we failed eachother, the blame is on us both but idk what else i could've done to get through to him. That's the stubbornness, he wouldn't budge. Despite how things went down..Leaves me to think, what was the point of having me there in the 1st place, to not follow through with our shared hopes & dreams but instead spiral into such resentment for me that the interest faded. But at the at the same time...even if it ended early for him, I didn't give up & I fought to keep us okay which it was for the most part. Hindsight is 20/20, it definitely wasn't negative all the time. In fact things were great between us & acted like goofballs together, that right there is a friend despite if the stronger feelings weren't mutual. Nobody with hate in their heart acts like that, he was good, the best, cheered me up when I was down, shared interests & did things for eachother. But that alone makes me question what was truth & what was fiction sometimes ever since the trust between us started to fade. Am I in the right to feel what im feeling right now? Im angry & upset yes very, but the kindness he had throughout..he did care in his own way...which makes things so much harder.
Tripadoodle if some way you're listening, I hope u know now where im coming from. For your own benefit & quest to be a better man like you always wanted...actually try. Head my advice. Making yourself better shouldn't be put on a womans shoulders to do for u without her getting lifted in return...its alot of weight to handle for 1 person to carry lol. Get off your ass & build on yourself, learn from everything that happened & become better for yourself & the sake of others, Because it starts with u. Go to church if possible or watch them, it really does help. Even from across the country I still want u to do just as good & help u as a friend. You promised we could remain friends & im holding my end of the bargain whether u like it or not lol it was your idea during the ride here. All I wanted in the end was to not lose u in my life completely...but i should be patient i know.. Theres more space, im not contacting u directly & respecting that, eventually ill stfu lol but I feel I need this rn. I should hate u,but I cant hate u, I do still care, u had that affect on me so much that I can't really listen to others when they say ur a douchbag lol, u were still my rock the whole time even if u didn't feel the same after a while & u did help me alot as well. I see the good in people & u are good, with well balanced snarkiness & humorous sass to boot. light a fire under ur own ass & ull be okay lol. Never stopped believing in u. Ive seen what you can do, you're very smart & know your sh*t, u will go far lol. And as a friend I'd lend u my strength if I could but the most I can do is pray for things like safety/protection, healing, forgiveness, guidance, etc. Leave it to God if u feel compelled to. Give zanabell a hug for me.
God i talk way too much 😅 No im not doing any of this for attention, I want my voice to be heard as well as a possible learning experience if it had that effect on anyone. The things we learn build character & help us understand a little more about ourselves. Probably shouldn't share cuz its nobody's business, yea ive thought of that too.. But its a blog lol, Tumblr allowed it to be that space, opinions and rants are allowed & encouraged. Nothing wrong with that 🤷‍♀️ so who gives a crap.
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These are pictures of the NY sunrise & AZ sunset. Clouds always get me cuz of the shapes, used to to take pics of them all the time. once saw mario holding a hammer when I was a kid 😂 3rd & 4th pic is a split rainbow, never seen that b4...either someone found the gold or its deciding whether or not to connect. Probably was connected but I missed it lol. But then I looked behind me after the split 1 disappeared & a double rainbow was forming. Nature can be scary but also beautiful
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10071991 · 5 years
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Lynn:
23:17
The counselor has joined the conversation.
Lynn:
23:17
Hi, welcome to Lifeline
Lynn:
23:19
Are you there?
Anonymous9806:
23:22
oh sorry
Lynn:
23:23
Hi there
Anonymous9806:
23:23
hi
Lynn:
23:23
Sorry about the wait
Anonymous9806:
23:23
im sorry the thing doesnt make a noise so i was trying to get some stuff sorted out and i didnt realize anyone was ready
Anonymous9806:
23:23
it ok
Lynn:
23:24
So what brings you here tonight?
Anonymous9806:
23:25
i dont feel well
Lynn:
23:26
How so?
Anonymous9806:
23:27
im very sad
Lynn:
23:27
Over what?
Anonymous9806:
23:27
everyone around me hates me
Lynn:
23:28
Can you tell me more about what's making you feel that way?
Anonymous9806:
23:28
but i cant be who they want me to be to make it stop
Lynn:
23:28
Who do you think they want you to be?
Anonymous9806:
23:29
my family yells at me and doesnt listen to me when i try to explain
Anonymous9806:
23:29
not me at least, but they dont listen to me when i try to explain why im me
Anonymous9806:
23:30
they tell me to kill myself and that im not a person
Anonymous9806:
23:30
theyll scream in public and disturb the neighbors
Lynn:
23:30
Your family says that??
Anonymous9806:
23:30
yes
Lynn:
23:30
Wow. It doesn't sound like you're the problem there.
Anonymous9806:
23:31
and im a dumb cunt, the stupidest, how could i be one of them, im a drain on society, i deserve to have my things destroyed
Anonymous9806:
23:32
but i have to be because why would everyone else treat me this way? i dont know anybody who doesnt act like ive done something awful to them but i dont understand why im so awful for needing help and i dont know how to help myself understand
Lynn:
23:33
That's awful and no one deserves to be treated that way
Anonymous9806:
23:33
dad says my cats should be killed too and the kitten i was fostering from the humane societys head should be ripped off
Anonymous9806:
23:33
he says i do
Lynn:
23:34
Do you live with them?
Anonymous9806:
23:34
he says hes tired, i quote, of me "treating him like a n*****"
Lynn:
23:34
Wow...
Anonymous9806:
23:34
i live with dad and ive lived with my uncle before
Anonymous9806:
23:35
so when he destroys my stuff dad says "the n* is pissed" as his justification
Anonymous9806:
23:35
we are white
Anonymous9806:
23:36
and if i try to calmly say "lets talk about your concerns" or something like they taught me in therapy, he just goes even more ballistic, and screams at me to shut up, and says its my fault hes mad and gets more mad
Lynn:
23:36
That sounds terrifying
Lynn:
23:36
How long has he been like this towards you?
Anonymous9806:
23:36
then hell say stuff like theres something wrong with me, i cant follow instructions, i cant do this or that, im stupid and stuff..... but then says theres nothing wrong with me so i should be capable of stuff
Anonymous9806:
23:37
yeah its scary his gf says she thinks its scary too so when he starts shell leave after a while
Anonymous9806:
23:37
uhhhh a few months? mom died in march so 4 months?
Lynn:
23:37
This started right after your mom died?
Anonymous9806:
23:37
it happens 1-3 times a week
Anonymous9806:
23:38
yeah when i moved in with him
Anonymous9806:
23:38
he says terrible things about her too
Lynn:
23:38
Do you think it could be grief that he's mishandling?
Anonymous9806:
23:38
no
Lynn:
23:38
Ok
Anonymous9806:
23:38
he treated her like this too
Lynn:
23:38
Is there anywhere else you an go?
Anonymous9806:
23:38
when she was alive
Anonymous9806:
23:38
no
Lynn:
23:39
*Can* sorry
Anonymous9806:
23:39
no one believes me but im disabled
Anonymous9806:
23:39
so they blame me bc i deserve it all bc i havent been working since mom died
Anonymous9806:
23:40
im supposed to go to school i think in a couple weeks if they help me figure out a dumb hangup thats happened with it
Anonymous9806:
23:40
im hoping i can do it bc i dropped out of high school bc it was hard
Lynn:
23:41
I get that, but it could help you get a job in the longrun that will allow you to get away from him.
Lynn:
23:42
In what way are you disabled?
Anonymous9806:
23:42
im autistic and mentally ill, i have really bad legs too
Anonymous9806:
23:43
ive been institutionalized numerous times and ppl threaten me with it
Anonymous9806:
23:43
i hate it a lot so i hope i dont say anything so you dont have to put me somewhere
Anonymous9806:
23:44
this is my first time using a support chat and thats scared me from using it before
Lynn:
23:44
I don't have the authority to put you anywhere, so no worries about that.
Anonymous9806:
23:45
oh im sorry i should have clarified im "high functioning" aspergers so my strength is linguistic
Anonymous9806:
23:45
im relieved
Anonymous9806:
23:46
if i flap or rock or pace i get in trouble
Anonymous9806:
23:46
so i try to stim swinging at the park so nobody realizes im doing it as much
Anonymous9806:
23:46
its not as obvious i mean
Lynn:
23:47
Right
Anonymous9806:
23:47
so it gets hard if im in public otherwise bc i want to but i dont want to bc i dont want people to treat me weird like family does
Lynn:
23:48
I can understand that.
Lynn:
23:48
Do you feel like you're in physical danger there?
Anonymous9806:
23:49
i dont know
Anonymous9806:
23:49
i worry about my computer and my cats but i dont care if im threatened
Anonymous9806:
23:51
i guess maybe he threatened me the other night? he put his fist close in my face and was like "now im threatening you" after i told him he was getting violent
Anonymous9806:
23:51
throwing things and destroying property is violent to me but maybe im wrong
Lynn:
23:51
That sounds violent to me.
Lynn:
23:52
Have you considered calling the police when he gets like that? I'm afraid of you getting hurt.
Anonymous9806:
23:52
yeah like way across the room and stuff
Anonymous9806:
23:52
ive told HIM to call the police when hes screaming at me to get out of his house and stuff
Anonymous9806:
23:53
otherwise if they try and have me press charges or something i have nowhere else to go or anything
Lynn:
23:54
Ok, I just want to make sure you're physically safe
Lynn:
23:54
I am so sorry about how he treats you, though, that's horrible.
Anonymous9806:
23:55
its my fault but i dont know how to change and be more quiet
Lynn:
23:55
It's not your fault. He needs to be more understanding of your condition.
Anonymous9806:
23:56
nobody is
Lynn:
23:56
That's such a horrible position to be in.
Anonymous9806:
23:56
i tried to bring a chair upstairs the other day, and it was so heavy? but i didnt have help and if i didnt do it hed punish me. i got so exhausted i passed out at the top of the stairs
Anonymous9806:
23:57
so tonight i was being mimicked with like..... you know that whimpering "hng hng hng" people do to make fun of people? that about it
Anonymous9806:
23:57
ive also fallen down the stairs because he ripped the bar off at the landing
Anonymous9806:
23:58
and i was screamed at for being lazy and not doing my volunteer work at the humane society bc i sprained my ankle and knee
Anonymous9806:
23:58
its been uhhhh a week and it still hurts a lot
Anonymous9806:
23:58
but im told i have to go through pain and im weak
Lynn:
23:58
Yeah, that sounds really painful
Anonymous9806:
23:59
i have to do things that cause me physical agony
Anonymous9806:
23:59
im sorry if that sounds extreme im not just uhh. i cant remember the word for making something sound worse? im not just trying to make it sound worse it hurts so bad i just want my legs amputated a lot
Anonymous9806:
23:59
if they were gone they wouldnt hurt
Lynn:
00:00
You might try calling 211 to see if they have any resources to help someone with special needs find employment, find housing etc. to try to help you be more independent and get out of there.
Anonymous9806:
00:00
but then im scolded and called a dumbass and im trying to "become a drug addict" trying to find a solution to my pain
Lynn:
00:00
You should not have to put up with being treated that way.
Anonymous9806:
00:01
ive tried to work with vocational rehab before but they kind of get to a point where they get to buck up too
Anonymous9806:
00:02
it was through them i became a debt collector because we thought it wouldnt hurt my legs and idk, they figured i could handle talking to people constantly but
Anonymous9806:
00:02
i coudlnt
Anonymous9806:
00:02
people would call me fat and an asshole and im ruining their life and stuff in that job, and people would do it in tech support jobs ive tried before
Anonymous9806:
00:03
but debt collecting was the worst and im sorry i feel weird saying this but in that job it.... kinda turned into something similar to what you do here? i talked a guy out of suicide on the phone and it was really triggering
Anonymous9806:
00:03
i dont want to be around people and thats why i volunteer at the humane society because the animals dont yell at me
Anonymous9806:
00:04
or trigger me really
Anonymous9806:
00:05
and then it also gets hard bc ive been struggling a lot more with stuff. applying for college and trying to get financial aid and sign up for classes and stuff has been a nightmare because i haavent figured out howto navigate their websites and stuff, my friend.... um. shes also named lyn. but shes helped me every step of the way. every step has felt like a hurdle
Lynn:
00:07
If you want help I can let social services know what's going on, but I would need your information so I can tell them who you are and where to go.
Anonymous9806:
00:08
what kind of social services? like someone that would help me figure out how to sign up for college classes and stuff or help me make doctor appointments and stuff like that?
Anonymous9806:
00:08
that would help me
Anonymous9806:
00:09
i feel bad for lyn helping me figure stuff out all the time but i need help understanding it
Lynn:
00:09
211 might be able to help with that, but no, I mean DHR to help make your dad stop hurting you like this.
Anonymous9806:
00:09
when i get frustrated i cry and have meltdowns and stuff and then that doesnt make situations better
Anonymous9806:
00:10
oohhh ok. i dont know what dhr means?
Anonymous9806:
00:10
but if im living at his place hes allowed to treat me how he wants to or ill be homeless
Lynn:
00:10
What he's doing is verbal and mental abuse and DHR would get the state involved to investigate and monitor the situation. No, he is not allowed to do that.
Anonymous9806:
00:11
i dont care much about me, been there done that, but my cats i love and i dont want them to not be cared for
Anonymous9806:
00:11
even if i dont pay rent...?
Anonymous9806:
00:11
if i.... have recordings.... does that help...?
Lynn:
00:11
It could, yes.
Anonymous9806:
00:12
he got mad and threw my phone at me the other night because "im so stupid bc im always on it" but uh. its hyper vigilance i guess that if he starts screaming i start recording
Lynn:
00:13
Your autism is documented right?
Anonymous9806:
00:13
um... would they be able to talk to me.... and not involve him yet...? its a situation where i dont know if it would do more harm than good? but maybe they could help me like. i dont know....
Anonymous9806:
00:13
yeah it should be on file at uhhh
Lynn:
00:13
I don't need to know where
Lynn:
00:13
It's ok, just so long as it's somewhere.
Anonymous9806:
00:13
when you say documented you mean my doctors and therapists ive had are aware of it?
Lynn:
00:14
Yes
Lynn:
00:14
Do you still have a therapist?
Anonymous9806:
00:14
i moved from a different state but they could probably send papers and stuff? i had dbt therapy there
Anonymous9806:
00:14
i miss it
Anonymous9806:
00:14
no, i havent been able to find one that accepts my insurance but also accepts new patients
Anonymous9806:
00:14
i tried to find grief counseling too for my mom
Anonymous9806:
00:14
i miss my mom
Anonymous9806:
00:15
she understood me
Lynn:
00:15
I'm so sorry you lost her.
Anonymous9806:
00:15
thank you for your condolences
Lynn:
00:16
Of course
Anonymous9806:
00:16
i cry because i miss her every day but i dont know how to stop missing her
Anonymous9806:
00:17
dd sys he gave me three weeks before cutting into me so i could grieve but i dont think even after three years ill be done with it
Anonymous9806:
00:17
or 30 or 300
Lynn:
00:17
Before cutting into you?
Anonymous9806:
00:17
yelling at me and stuff
Anonymous9806:
00:18
im sorry i didnt mean literally
Anonymous9806:
00:18
im scared of knives so im glad not literally lol
Lynn:
00:19
So that means he can control it.
Anonymous9806:
00:20
when he gets drunk theres no controlling anything i dont think? even if i try there doesnt seem to be rationalizing but my idea of rational and other peoples i guess is different
Anonymous9806:
00:21
his girlfriend says hes an asshole when hes drinking tequila
Lynn:
00:23
I don't know what DHR will do, if anything, but do you want me to call them for you?
Anonymous9806:
00:23
um
Anonymous9806:
00:24
would they let you ask them questions?
Anonymous9806:
00:24
or would we get in trouble for wasting their time?
Anonymous9806:
00:24
i say we because youd be asking for me but i dont want to get you in trouble
Lynn:
00:25
No, not at all. Because of your autism what he's doing is illegal, it's verbal and mental abuse.
Anonymous9806:
00:26
even if im 'high functioning"?
Anonymous9806:
00:26
even if im 'high functioning"?
Anonymous9806:
00:26
dont like those terms but that helps ppl understand what i mean i think
Anonymous9806:
00:26
like i was a "gifted student" but.... i dropped out of school and stuff
Lynn:
00:26
Does he have legal rights over you, like guardianship?
Anonymous9806:
00:26
oh im sorry i didnt mean to send the one thing twice
Anonymous9806:
00:27
i dont think so, i was an adult when we found out? because im "high" im kind of left to me but it doesnt mean its not..... really hard...
Anonymous9806:
00:28
i didnt have anywhere to go when our room mates bailed on us (im blamed for this too but it wasnt my faul my room mate lost her job) so i had to come here when mom died a week after i left the state
Anonymous9806:
00:29
i was her caregiver because im more able bodied than her with final stage copd, and otherwise myuncle wanted her to be put in a nursing home but i didnt want that, so i tried to take care of her as best as i could but its hard bc i cant take very good care of me i guess
Anonymous9806:
00:29
she probably wouldnt have died if id been better
Anonymous9806:
00:31
if we didnt go to colorado with our room mates i mean
Lynn:
00:31
No, that wasn't your fault. I'm sure she was grateful and you did a great job with her.
Anonymous9806:
00:31
but i made the bad decision to go with them so we could afford rent
Anonymous9806:
00:32
well.... she didnt want me to leave? i think she liked being with me
Anonymous9806:
00:33
when she broke ribs falling out of her bed once she had to stay in a nursing home for a month and the food was so so bad so she liked if i baked some stuff if i felt well enough to
Anonymous9806:
00:33
like liver in a gelatin served with broccoli bad
Lynn:
00:33
Oh wow, yeah. That does not sound good
Anonymous9806:
00:34
i guess im biased but id take my shake and bake over that too lol
Lynn:
00:34
Lol, for sure!
Anonymous9806:
00:34
so id smuggle her in some food when id visitor
Anonymous9806:
00:34
*visit her
Lynn:
00:34
That was nice of you
Anonymous9806:
00:34
she liked little debbie nutty bars a lot, and coca cola
Anonymous9806:
00:36
and she didnt like usual "old people" stuff i guess? she liked watching shows on her amazon fire stick, so shed make the trip from the bed to the stuffed armchair she had, turn that on, and then i was on call when she needed me for stuff, and the cats would come and go but they liked to sleep on her bed a lot lol
Anonymous9806:
00:36
i hope it wasnt a bad life for her
Lynn:
00:37
So what do you think about getting some help with your dad?
Anonymous9806:
00:38
it would be nice, but i dont know if it would be beneficial or waste everyones time. if i cant stay here then i have nowhere to go, and my cats dont, so im worried
Anonymous9806:
00:39
would someone be able to talk to me first so we could figure out if its worthwhile? im so worried they wont believe me either and then ill be in more trouble and everyone just wasted time and resources
Lynn:
00:39
Ok, if you don't want to give me your information I understand that, but look up adult protective services in your area or call 211 so you can ask what you need to and decide what you want to do. You don't have to let him treat you like this.
Anonymous9806:
00:40
im sorry im not trying to cause problems for you or um. make it seem like im turning my nose up at your health i appreciate you
Lynn:
00:40
Just explain to whoever you talk to why you're so scared and ask for them to help you make sure he doesn't make things worse for you.
Anonymous9806:
00:41
okay, thanks so much! i will do this when hes not around to hear me
Lynn:
00:41
You're not at all. Your concerns are valid, I'm just trying to give you ways to find help.
Anonymous9806:
00:41
thank you
Lynn:
00:41
Ok, good. Please do call them. You don't deserve this.
Anonymous9806:
00:41
ive just been so sad
Lynn:
00:41
You're welcome!
Lynn:
00:42
I know and I get why.
Anonymous9806:
00:42
ive been overwhelmed and it doesnt help to be screamed at
Lynn:
00:42
No, it doesn't.
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