#It's 1:31 AM I am so tired 😭

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He's finished :D

[skitskatdacat63]

Hiii CATIE!!!!! HIII

Im pretty pretty sure people have already asked BUT HOW WAS ATTENDING THE US GP LIVE!!!! WAS???? TELL ME!! DO YOU HAVE PICS??? I know I know im late.

I ALSO HOPE YOU GOT HOME SAFE AND SOUND AND THAT YOU ARE RESTING NOW+!!!(I saw the chaos you went through im deeply sorry for you :( )

ANYWAYS HOW WAS THE RACE? HOW WAS EXPERIENCING STROLLONSO LIVE?????? AND omg did you get pics of drivers??? :00

You must must share pleaseeeeee.wax.poet

OH MY GOD ELLE SORRY THIS IS SO LATE!!! IT WAS VERY COOL!!!!! VERY SURREAL!!!!!! I've taken a week to answer this but uhhhh yes I am in fact home now 🥰 I got home at like 1 am which was cool....

First of all I have to mention this! I was fighting for my life walking thru the Austin airport(from sleep deprivation), and I had my Fernando hat on my backpack, right? Some girl comes up to me and asks if I'm going to the GP, I say yes. SHE GAVE ME A FRIENDSHIP BRACELET, I COULD'VE SOBBED 🥹 It says on it "wtf is a km", I'm still so happy

COTA was the first race I ever watched, so to be actually at that track and watch a race live there was extremely surreal! Very hot though my god 😵‍💫 I think last year it was pretty hot, right? And my brother kept sending me the temp and it was pretty okay, and then of fucking course the temp leaps up to 89-97°(31-36° Celsius btw) right in time for the gp....so that was nice(I say as I burn in the sun like a vampire. But don't worry I didn't even really tan at all 😭 I always wore a hat and a lot of sunscreen. And meanwhile my brother was literally a lobster)

(This is a long post):

So unfortunately I missed the drivers parade because my brother and I were dying on Saturday night and his friends wanted to go first thing in the morning, and we're like "we will go later actually 😊" and missed it entirely 😭😭😭 but his friends took pics of Mclaren and Aston for me!!!!! But unfortunately I havent gotten them still, so I'll have to reblog this later with those! I took a lot of pictures of the cars I took from behind the fence, which I think I've posted some of? Lmk if anyone wants those!! They're very random, I just thought it was very surreal to see the cars flying past, so I took a million.

The coolest part was definitely running on track after the race was over!!! Soooooo surreal, and so I'm only gonna post pics rn from Sunday(bcs pic limit on phone) and also I think everything else kinda pales in comparison(but of course lmk if there's anything you're interested in seeing 🤭)

Okay and did I see any drivers...? ONLY ONE BUT AAAAHHHH I DID SEE LANDO!!! Not even one of my favs but it was soooooo surreal to see him, even from afar. As you can see above, everyone standing on the fences was blocking the view 🙄, but during the podium, I was focusing my camera btwn their legs and got literally one second of Lando 😭 I think its a pretty aesthetic clip, so I gifed it!!

It was so funny, I went to the gp with my brother and friends, so all these older guys yeah. And I was showing this off to them on the ride home, and his one friend was praising me so much for it 😭😭 like: "oh my god!!!! You could put this in an edit !!! This is so sick!!!!"

Oh one other thing!!! I think I've mentioned it before but my god, my favorite f1 podiums are always the ones with confetti, right?? AND THERE WAS CONFETTI AT THIS RACE!!!

LOOK AT HOW PRETTYYYYY!!!! And so anyways, I picked up so much confetti off the ground and now it lives forever in my phone case 🥰🥰🥰 I have no other room for pics on this post(for now) but oh my godddddddddd most of the confetti were just rectangles BUT THERE WAS ALSO ONES SHAPED LIKE TEXAS!!! SO COOL!!!!! And I also picked up a bunch of tire marbles off the ground!!! And a piece of plastic that probably came off some car. It was so funny when all of us were just scrounging off the ground. My bro's one friend somehow found a piece of carbon fiber, and we're all like "how can I kill him in his sleep and steal this from him..." But no the highlight actually of that process was watching my brother sprint to the podium, but stopping and grabbing a bunch of gravel first to shove in his pocket 😭😭😭

The other two days were fun as well, but also a lot of just dying in the heat and drinking a fuckton of red bull, so there's not too much specifically to say! I really liked hearing the cars. I think if you wanna know what's actually going on in a race, watching from home is better, but hearing the cars go by and seeing them is just so fucking sick. It was so funny to see grown men be like "I think I'm going to cry hearing these cars." I was really flexing on them with "uhhh yeah I've already been to a gp already 🙄🙄"

Anyways I ended the day by breaking bank by buying my dad and myself Fernando shirts because he is of course Fernando's biggest fan 🥰🥰 and I bought the most delicious overpriced lemonade, which I only drank half of bcs my brother proceeded to accidentally elbow it out of my hand....

OH WAIT ONE MORE DETAIL LOL. On Friday, my brother and his friend were waiting in line for smth and I was talking to them outside of the barrier. I look down, hmm theres a red cap abandoned on the ground, I pick it up, it is in fact a Ferrari hat. And that is how my brother acquired a $40+ dollar hat for free. Lucky bastard....I was the who found it!

[lubelzoldyck-artworks]

📍LOVE ME DEAD [REDRAW]🃏

Full artworks and the usual rambles under the cut 🌸

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN Y'ALL 🎃

I am posting this during the night between October 31 and November 1, I finished these two pieces a few hours ago ✨️

These two illustrations were intended to be done for Hisoillu Week 2023, specifically for the Lover / Killer prompt. I was unable to do the whole week and had to stop before I could finish these because I was getting tired, so I decided to finish them for Halloween!

For the record, here are the OG fanarts:

I am so happy with the result! The original pieces are some of the first HxH fanarts I drew in 2022 and two of my faves from then. It was before the accident and I was also still very new at digital art, and I cannot look at the OGs without cringing a bit at how ugly they actually are 😭 I think I did a great job with the redraws!

I hope y'all folks had a fun Halloween this year! Currently I just finished watching Saw with my GF, and now we will rewatch Reanimator, a movie I have already seen and know I loved but I cannot recall a single thing from it 🙃 I will try to keep up drawing regularly!

Oh also if you are reading this, please know that I am in a precarious financial situation, and getting commissions or even just tips would really help me a whole lot! If you appreciate me, my art or both, you'd be a dear if you reblog and share this post around! Also please consider commenting, or even a like 🌸

[mossmurdock]

Omg I’m really curious about “O moon, thou climb’st the skies — suguru/reader” and also about “sugu horror”!!

ahh hello hello!1!! so sorry this took me so long to get to, but thank u so much for the ask! these r two favs of mine and ironically theyre both also giving me the most trouble LMAO

for "O moon, thou climb'st the skies" the title comes from sonnet 31 by sir phillip sidney! i was studying sonnets because of one of my courses at the time and felt like the first few lines matched the beginnings of my draft

this fic, like most of my other ones, is very mundane. its a no curse au and the majority of it happens in one setting so far..catching little moments and that thing of the sort

i actually posted a wip of this a WHILE back that has since changed slightly but here's a newer snippet:

You sit at the edge of his bed, tired, sweaty, and half wrapped in his white duvet. The view is nice: Suguru’s back is flexed because his forearms are resting on the rails and his hair falls beautifully, swimming in the night breeze like shining, coiled eels.

moving on to sugu horror now :D my god im SO very ill about this one anon u have no clue how happy i am that u were interested :))

i have very little written for this one that im proud enough of to post yet, but so far im very set on the idea of him being violently haunted by the reader. i want to include so much about a lack of autonomy here guys..it's driving me insane (which very much has to do with him having to constantly eat curses in canon)

lots of grief in here, u could kill with it honestly and god im going to make him miserable (lovingly) and there's desire and regret and hunger and shame (we saw those coming) and just UGH im planning to make the reader's ghost sort of cruel to him. like there are enough traces of you in there for suguru to hold onto, but how long can he ignore the way you're making him bleed?

there will be a good amount of warnings for this one but im so extremely excited for it because it's similar to the genre of my personal writing :) im still not sure if it should be multichap or just a huge oneshot,,,yall lmk which u would prefer if u want to!

thank u so much for the ask again anon<33 and ofc thank u to @softgirlgonehaywire @twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat @maeby-cursed<333!! who also asked about the same wips! pls dw i saw ur asks im just horribly slow 😭

[whim-prone-pirate]

WATCHING AND DREAMING LIVEBLOG ??????? UPDATING AS I WATCH☹️☹️☹️☹️

8:23 who up watching the end of phineas and ferb the mvoie rn

8:25 WHY ARE WE WATCHING AN EDIT OF THE SHOW BEFOFE THE EPISODE WHATS HAPPENING😭😭

8:26 ........archives WOAH SCARY FACE

8:27 oh my god color pallets i'm gonna be sick

8:28 LUMITY ANGST ???? IN HER DREAM ?????? WHAT THE FUCK ?1??1???1?

8:29 oh em gee not lilith's died hair again

8:29 FATHER CLAWTHORNE NO

8:29 EWWWEWEWEWEW☹️☹️☹️

8:30 please do not the luz

8:31 luz blames herself for flapjack💔💔💔💔

8:32 hehe face hold

8:34 REUNION !!!!!!!!

8:34 ray ray im going to kill myself

8:37 GET IT RAINE

8:39 not precariously stacked jenga!!! no !!!!!

8:40 I SAID THEY WOULD NEVER USE THEY/THEM FOR THE COLLECTOR IN CANON AND THEY DID IM SORRH I DOUBTED YOU DANA AND CREW IM SOREY

8:44 ok i got distracted with a different fandom thing where are they

8:46 collector playing grudgby is real

8:46 NOW THATS A SPIN-OFF I'D WATCH

8:47 oh no!!!!!!!!!!

8:48 bros participating in eugenics

8:48 "how'd he get here without a body" most normal toh problem

8:49 oh collector my bug😭😭😭

8:49 FUCKING HELL OH MY FUCKING GOD OH MY GOD HER HAT LUZ STOP IT !!!!!!!!!

8:50 kmskmskmskmskmskms

8:50 jaw on the floor she's dissipating

8:51 he csnt fix her😭😭😭😭😭😭

8:52 NO SHE ISNT !!!!! SHE IS NOT !!!!!!!!!!

8:52 oh😭😭😭😭😭 my😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 god😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

8:52 I SHOULD HAVE THANKED THEM

8:53 TITAN ????? HAII

8:53 I AM BOTH KING AND QUEEN BEST OF BOTH THINGS :o)

8:54 watching. and dreaming. watching ..

8:54 where did he get a bad girl coven shirt

8:54 this is what modern leftist political conversations sound like

8:55 it's giving lich

8:56 big fan !!!

8:56 what'd he say what's he SAY WE ONLY HAVE SO MUCH TIME HERE

8:56 CAMILAAAA !!!!

8:58 "please stop run away" * i am feeling burdened and i taste milk i mumble please please run away but it lives where i live

8:59 WHAAAAAAAT

8:59 SHE HAS FANGS SHE'S TOO COOL

9:00 did i miss something why are they mossydiseased like luz

9:01 i'm too tired for fight scenes rn

9:03 oh my god the titan's hand looks so cool

9:03 RAINE NOT BEINT ABLE TO SEE LMFAOOO

9:04 oh my god she put their glasses on for them

9:04 their hair looks so good🤭🤭

9:05 that fight was not as drawn out as it deserved to be but that is not dana + co's fault💔💔💔💔

9:06 collector💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

9:06 here's how gustholomule can still win

9:07 we have thirteen minutes for canon raeda and huntlow and gustholomule AND another lumity kiss. no pressure tho

9:07 oh god her look is so dark she's. wow

9:07 she doesn't have to be naive to the people who want to hurt her anymore. a win.

9:08 BYE TITAN ILYY

9:09 I LOAF YOU :)))))))))

9:09 so the next eleven minutes are domestic bliss????? yeah??????

9:10 steve moment!!

9:10 GUS AND DAD REUNITE !!!!

9:10 WILLOW AND DADS REUNITE !!!!!!!!!!

9:10 DARIUS ASKING ABOUT HIS SHIRT OH MY GOD😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

9:11 bump cut your hair ..🙁

9:11 cute boscha moment sobs

9:11 darius protects the isles from absolute bitches and whores (real)

9:12 the guards!!

9:12 RAEDA CUDDLES

9:12 LUMITY KISS I TOLD YOU

9:12 NOCEDACLAWTHORNE HUG😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

9:13 see you in the stars bug😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

9:13 sorry i'm ruining my own like

9:13 SHE CANT USE HER GLYPHS ??????????????????????

9:14 oh my god what's happening

9:15 I KNEW HER NARRATION SOUNDED OLDER HER FIT IS SO GOOD

9:15 oh my god THEY LIVE IN THE HOUSE

9:15 willow short hair<3

9:16 flapjack.

9:16 lilith looks so good and matt's stache hasn't grown at all

9:16 AMITY ????????????? LOSES MY MIND

9:17 bump gardener era

9:17 coven removal so real

9:17 ok what was THAT little moment with aladarius

9:18 raeda is def married right like for sure i need to make sure i didn't miss a ring or anything

9:18 GUS LOOKS SO GOOOOOD

9:18 HEADMASTER EDALYN CLAWTHORNE

9:19 oh my god does she have a tattoo

9:19 SHE GETS A QUINCE OH MY FUCKING GODBOH MY FOD OH KY FOD

9:20 LIGHT. LIGHT GLYPH !!!!

9:20 SHE TOKD THEM THANK YOU☹️☹️☹️☹️

9:21 by.3😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

9:21 do you think she's gonna play one more song. she's. she's gonna come back— NO SHES GONNA COME BACK😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 /ref

[moongirlcleo]

ahah can you just answer them all? 😂

Good lord anon 😂 lmao okay

1.

2. Cheese

3. I do but they’re my legal name derivatives so mainly levy, levs, Cleo, cb, mama bear, banana lol

4. Idk but whatever song is playing in the Uber rn

5. Nope not a chance never have not even once 🥹

6. moongirl#0237 😉

7. Nose ears and cartilage

8. How they handle stressors or rejection

9. Uhhh.. choccy chip?

10. Dog dog dog dog dog I’m so allergic to cats

11. Noise canceling headphones

12. “Let’s get a table”

13. that mantis shrimp see 12 primary colors where humans see 3.

14. I work overnights so 🙃

15. My bed lol

16. Am not

17. I. Am. Tired.

18. Leggings my guys!

19. Dunkin’s! And cold brew w/ oatmilk and caramel

20. My puppy girls ashes

21. Coffee

22. Dragon

23. On and off since 2011

24. A bottle of rum ;)

25. Cozy

26. Full time writer

27. Taken but also taken by countless blond hot anime dudes

28. Leggings hoodie uggs

29. Many many songs

30. Brunette but currently blonde

31. Only the best people do

32. I do!

33. That my writing gives them life 😭❤️

34. @laneamation @meancetosociety @snowcrystaltodoroki ❤️

[slytherinshua]

100 Followers Ask Game!! [closed]

a/n: guys i actually can't believe this 😭 thank you so much for 100 followers, i know it might not seem like that much to some people but it seems like SO MUCH to me 🫶 i love all of you so much!! i've been planning this for a little while and i'm so excited to finally be able to do it!!

the rules:

choose 1-3 prompts from any of the lists! i have 5 lists which include: fluff, angst & hurt/comfort, injury/sickness, enemies/rivals to lovers, & action.

choose your preferred idol! i write for: txt, svt, skz, enhypen, bts, victon, astro, AND verivery!! please request any idol you would like, i'm comfortable writing for all of them!!

please specify from what list each numbered prompt is, cause if you just say "prompt 5" i won't know what list you want it from :(

i never write nsfw, and i am a minor so please don't be weird.

if i don't get to your request right away, please be understanding! writing takes a long time, and i am a student, so i have to balance school as well as writing. but, i'll always try to complete every request that is sent it.

example of properly structured request (you could copy this format if you need to): "hi! could I please request #31 from fluff, #9 from sickness, and #33 from action for yeonjun?"

requests will close by February 21st so get your requests in before then!!

lists below the cut!!

the lists:

fluff

“You’re so pretty”

“You look so kissable right now.”

“Your heart is beating so fast.”

“Do I really affect you that much?”

“I love you so much.”

“That’s so cheesy.”

“I want to stay here forever. With you.”

“I’m not going anywhere. Don’t worry.”

“I know I’ve kissed you like, 10 times… But just another 10, please?”

“Let’s just stay in bed.”

“Was that your first kiss?”

“I think I might be in love with you.”

“I love you. Every single part of you. Even the parts you don’t like.”

“You’re enough. You’re more than enough, in fact.”

“Did you get a new lip gloss? You taste good.”

“Sorry for waking you, baby. Go back to sleep.” 

“You’re adorable, you know that?”

 “Don’t leave! You’re warm…”

 “Wait, don’t pull away… not yet.”

 “No, it’s fine- it’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

“I don’t know if it’s your hair, or your outfit, or if it’s just you. But you look stunning.”

 “You wearing my clothes should be illegal. You look too cute in them.”

 “Why haven’t you kissed me yet?”

 “Don’t look at me like that… it makes me want to kiss you.”

 “I love you. It’s not up for debate.”

 “Stop! You’re making me blush…”

 “Are you jealous over me?”

 “Guess what?” “What?” “I love you.”

 “Your hands are warm…”

 “You have a little ice cream on your nose.”

“I’m sad and I demand cuddles.”

“I love you more than I did yesterday.”

“Stop pouting, I’m coming-”

“You got me flowers?”

“Good morning, sleeping beauty.”

angst & hurt/comfort

“Please, just hold me”

“Stay. Please.”

“Don’t leave me.”

“Do you even care about me?”

“How long has it been since you’ve slept?”

“Hey, just look at me. Breathe.”

“Stop telling me you’re okay.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Don’t touch me.”

“I could really use a hug right now.”

“Don’t cry. I hate it when you cry.”

“Shh… it’s okay. I’m here.”

“Stop crying, you’re scaring me.”

“Whatever it is… I’m sorry, okay?”

“I didn’t realise I was such an inconvenience… I’ll leave.”

“It was just a nightmare. I’m still here.”

“I’m sorry I made you worried about me.”

“Please look at me.”

“I never feel like I’m good enough to deserve you.”

“I’m sorry, I don’t know why I’m crying I just-“ *hiccup*

“Are.. are those good tears? Or bad tears?”

“You’ve got a little mascara stain… you wanna talk about it?”

“I’m sorry… I’m getting your sweater all wet.”

“It’s okay. You can tell me about it, I won’t judge you.”

“Let me stay. You need someone to hug, and I can make breakfast in the morning.”

injury/sickness

“If even half of that blood is yours you need to sit down right now.”

“I’m tired of lying here in this stupid bed.”

“Tell me where it hurts.”

“Let me kiss it better.”

“Shit- you’re burning up!”

“‘Blood?’ Are you bleeding?!”

“Where did all those bruises come from?”

“You ‘didn’t think it was that bad’? Are you looking at it?!”

“You ate this-? No wonder you got sick.”

“Hold on- I need to navigate through the ocean of tissues before I can hug you.”

“I feel dizzy.”

“I can’t kiss you or you’ll get sick too.”

“I didn’t know what medication to buy, so I just got everything.”

“I made you soup! I hope you don’t get more sick from eating it…”

“You scared me half to death. I’m so relieved that you’re okay now.”

“I’m fine, it’s just a cold.”

“I’m no doctor, but I think you need to get medical attention."

“Stop being stubborn and drink some damn water.”

“When you say your pain’s ‘4 out of 10’, that’s a normal person’s ‘8 out of 10’. We’re going to the hospital.”

“This might sting a little, just squeeze my hand if it hurts.”

enemies/rivals to lovers

“Do I get bonus points if I act like I care?”

“I think you got brain damage from that.”

“I’m gonna need therapy after this.”

“You’re annoying. You know that, right?”

“I’m fully convinced you never graduated kindergarten.”

“Hello. This number is currently unavailable-“ “That doesn’t work with me.” “You just won’t leave me alone, will you?”

“Who did this to you? […] Tell me right now.”

“Please cancel my subscriptions to your issues.” “The only issue I have is you.”

“Oh I’m sorry, is the sound of my winning too loud for you?”

“Touch her/him and you’re dead.”

“For once, I’m not the bad guy here.”

“To think that I was ever capable of looking at you with disgust. You are the most beautiful thing this world has to offer.”

“I thought you hated me.” “Hate is a strong word.”

“It’s hard to remember we aren’t in a competition anymore.”

“I love you. I’m sorry it took me so damn long to realise that.”

“They didn’t tell me I’d be working with an idiot.”

“Wait- you love me?” 

“It was never part of the plan to fall in love with you.”

“You crash landed into my life. You made everything miserable, and awful, and beautiful, and lovely, and exciting at the same time.”

“What are you doing here?! It’s against the rules we set.” “Well shit. Rules are meant to be broken, now can I get the kiss I came for?”

“I love you - you enormously stubborn pain in the ass.”

“You’re not a bad person, you’re actually kinda nice to have around.”

“You know, you’re really hot when you’re angry.”

“I used to want to kill you. Now I just want to kiss you.”

“I’m tired of having to pretend like we hate each other.” 

action

Forehead kisses

Holding hands

Back-hugs 

Kisses on the lips

Laying a head on the others shoulder

Playing with the others hair

Tracing designs onto the others skin

Dancing together

Blushing 

Giggling between kisses

Smiling between kisses

Saying “I love you” between kisses

Finding you wearing their clothes

Falling asleep on the others lap

Cuddling with the same blanket

Accidentally falling asleep together

Kissing their cheek/dimples

Giving the other their jacket

Hugging the other to themselves to warm them up

Rubbing small circles with their thumb while holding hands

Patching the other up

 Sleeping in

 Midnight talks

 Staying up

 Watching the other sleep

 Drawing each other

 Cupping your/their cheeks

 One getting drunk 

 Flirting with the other while drunk

 Neck kisses

Butterfly kisses

Surprising you with gifts

 Buying their favourite flavours of lip balm/gloss so they can kiss you more

 Singing you to sleep

 Buying couple’s items (rings, bracelets, clothes, etc.)

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ taglist: @kangtaehyunzzz,, @yeonjuns-bluehair,, @syrxiee2,, @90steele,, @hannahsophie0103

[thel0v3hashira143]

I posted 1,248 times in 2022

That's 680 more posts than 2021!

164 posts created (13%)

1,084 posts reblogged (87%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@naoseven

@sukibenders

@canis-licro1ce

I tagged 922 of my posts in 2022

Only 26% of my posts had no tags

#words of the love hashira 💗 - 228 posts

#sage..txt♥ - 108 posts

#demon slayer x reader - 43 posts

#this!!! - 41 posts

#100 follower special ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ - 40 posts

#appearance matchups - 38 posts

#jjk x reader - 33 posts

#aot x reader - 31 posts

#haikyuu x reader - 28 posts

#tokyo revengers x reader - 23 posts

Longest Tag: 113 characters

#lowkey ymir since we have the same sense of humor and i dress how i feel like how modern au! historia would dress

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

First Heartbreak

ℙ𝕒𝕚𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘: 𝕄𝕒𝕕𝕒𝕣𝕒 𝕌𝕔𝕙𝕚𝕙𝕒 𝕩 𝕊𝕖𝕟𝕛𝕦!ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣

𝕎𝕠𝕣𝕕 ℂ𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕥: 𝟝𝟚𝟟 𝕎𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤

𝕊𝕪𝕟𝕠𝕡𝕤𝕚𝕤: 𝕌𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕡𝕒𝕝𝕖 𝕞𝕠𝕠𝕟𝕝𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕄𝕒𝕕𝕒𝕣𝕒 𝕒𝕟𝕕 [ℕ𝕒𝕞𝕖] 𝕖𝕩𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕚𝕣 𝕗𝕚𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕓𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕜.

𝔸/𝕟: 𝔸𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕠𝕗 @sleepysnk​ #𝕊𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕊𝕠𝕝𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕔𝕖𝔼𝕧𝕖𝕟𝕥! 𝕀 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕟'𝕥 𝕤𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕟𝕒𝕣𝕦𝕥𝕠 𝕚𝕟 𝕒 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕨𝕙𝕚𝕝𝕖, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕀 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕞𝕒𝕕𝕒𝕣𝕒 <𝟛 𝕀 𝕒𝕝𝕤𝕠 𝕡𝕦𝕝𝕝𝕖𝕕 𝕙𝕒𝕝𝕗 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕞𝕪 𝕒𝕤𝕤 😀. 𝕀𝕗 𝕒𝕟𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕟𝕒𝕔𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕒𝕥𝕖 𝕀'𝕞 𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 😭💀 𝕊𝕖𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕄𝕒𝕕𝕒𝕣𝕒 𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕧𝕖𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕧𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕒𝕘𝕖.

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#4

i am 🤏🏽🤏🏽🤏🏽🤏🏽 this fucking close to making my own insta blurbs w/ a black faceclaim because i’m tired of not seeing people who look like me 

lemme know if y’all want something like this for harry styles or any other celebs 

121 notes - Posted August 17, 2022

#3

Hashira as things me and my friends have said: Part 2!!!

Read Part 1 Here!: https://thel0v3hashira143.tumblr.com/post/679102928297050112/hashira-as-things-me-and-my-friends-have-said

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Tengen: *Standing in front of Iguro*

Iguro: Why does it look like he has a butt tumor?

Sanemi: For real- why does it look lumpy?

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Mitsuri: Me, delusional? How am I delusional?

Shinobu: You're delusional because you think you can actually believe that Iguro will like you back.

Mitsuri: I- *cries*

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Sanemi: *Walks up behind Gyomei* Sup

Gyomei: Don't scare me like that.

Sanemi: Why'd you clench up?

Gyomei: I wasn't tryna get stolen from. Always stay alert.

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Mitsuri: *tying giyuu's hair into pigtails*

Rengoku: Bitches can't even spell inches. It's givin bOooOOoody ✨✨

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Obanai: Mitsuri is so hot omfg

Ubuyashiki: *standing behind him* ...

Obanai: *fucking dies*

Tengen: Personally if that were me, I'd never let my teacher catch me lacking like that

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Gyomei: Look how many snacks I had to bag for the kids

Muchiro: SNAK 👹

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Giyuu: Does anybody know when the history homework is due?

Shinobu: Shut the fuck up you abortion

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#2

Hashira as things me and my friends have said

Mitsuri: Why are you wearing that chain? Is it for the aesthetic?

Sanemi: My dog died. That was his leash

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Muchiro: *draws a picture of him and giyuu*

Giyuu: Why am I sad?

Muchiro: You're always sad, I was just trying to capture that

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Mitsuri: Obanai tho 👀

Shinobu: His head is literally lopsided

Mitsuri: wtf

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Kyojuro: You've got a dead people fetish

Tengen: It's not a fetish. They're just so hot they had to die

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Sanemi: I got a piece of gum for valentines day, what'd you get?

Kyojuro: I got a cake and balloons!

Sanemi: How fun

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Giyuu: *Shakes his head*

Mitsuri: The bob is bobbin 💁🏽‍♀️

Shinobu: What's your name B.o.B so they callin you Bob, bob, bob 💁🏽‍♀️

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Gyomei: My moustache is bigger than yours, Sanemi

Muchiro: Yeah, it is- Wait. You have a moustache?

Gyomei: I've had it for years

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Kyojuro: Hey Obanai!

Obanai: Hey!

Obanai: I fucking hate that bitch

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356 notes - Posted March 18, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

to all the black writers that have been writing eddie munson/steve harrington x black!reader (and feeding my obsession for the past week) y'all are doing the lord's work thank y'all 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐

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#people in the comments thinking it’s cute that they can’t tell if a screenplay is good or not and can’t pick up on obvious metaphors 😭

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

omg i am in love with your writing ab ghost... would you ever do a fluff ab clingy drunk ghost where he starts off insisting that he can't get drunk and then he just escalates to being all over you ghejirb

alright so honestly i don't see ghost as being the kind of guy to drink enough to get him drunk when he's by himself, but when he's with soap? yeah, completely different story. it's not that he's more comfortable around soap or anything, it's just that he gets a rise out of beating soap in competitions.

here's how i see it. you guys have just completed a long ass mission, weeks of stress and labor are finally over so of course, you guys get drinks to celebrate. now i see soap as the kind of drunk who only wants to get more drunk, so once he's had a few drinks he starts going around trying to challenge everyone else to drinking competitions. pretty much everyone says no because the thing about soap is that he's so competitive he'll drink until he drops dead. you say no bc u don't feel like blacking out and because it's ur turn to be designated driver (lord knows that even sober ghost drives like he's drunk), so soap goes to the only person who 1. is more competitive than him and 2. has a shot at out drinking him: ghost.

now, years of working with soap have enlightened ghost to his usual idiocy, so ghost is quick to shut him down, telling him that he "would be fighting a losing battle."

but tipsy soap is persistent as hell, so he keeps bugging and bugging and bugging him. and at this point, ghost is pretty tired and is just waiting to go home, so to get soap to shut up he agrees. and of course, drinking ensues.

the first few rounds are easy, ghost doesn't even flinch as he downs the drinks like they're water. at this point, soap is starting to get intimidated, so he demands that ghost have a few extra drinks to get them on even ground, considering soap was already tipsy when they started. you and the rest of the team watch with awe (and horror) as ghost swallows down the drinks like they're nothing, and if you're being honest, you're really excited to see how this turns out. i mean, for one, when ghost drinks he flips up the bottom of his balaclava, exposing his chin and his lips. it's always exciting to watch ghost take off his mask, even if it's just part of his face, and secondly, the way he shoots you a glance as he drinks, his eyes dark and enticing, his adam's apple bobbing with each swallow, the smallest drop of lost alcohol that drips down his chin -- which he's quick to wipe away -- it sends a swarm of butterflies into your stomach. plus, you've never actually seen ghost drink this much, usually the most he'll have is a couple of beers or a few glasses of bourbon, so you're curious to see just how much of a tolerance he has.

the answer? a crazy high one. the two are at it for what feels like hours, and there's no clear effect on ghost. meanwhile, soap can barely walk straight and is on the verge of puking at any given moment. at this point everyone is trying to get soap to give up. price tried telling soap that there was no shame in tapping out, and when that failed, he tried threatening soap with extra chores. of course this does nothing, and soap only tells price to "fuck off" because he's not his dad. at one point, gaz tried physically pulling soap away, to which soap promptly tried (and failed) to hit him in the face. even you tried to get soap to stop, although you'll admit you didn't try very hard, like i said, you're very excited to see how this plays out.

after a certain point, soap's pretty much blackout drunk. he's barely hanging on but his pride won't let him let go, much to the annoyance of ghost and the others. and so, in a final finishing move, ghost asks the bartender for a bottle of whiskey, which -- to soap's despair and the rest of the team's horror -- he finishes in seconds.

for a while, everyone is silent, and then soap just busts into tears. he knows it's over, ghost knows it's over, everyone else knows it's over. i mean, you guys just watched ghost down the equivalent of sixteen shots of whiskey like it was nothing. by now, you're starting to wonder if you need to get 911 on speed dial because there's no way ghost doesn't die from alcohol poisoning.

but to your disbelief, ghost's fine. or so you thought. after his defeat of soap, ghost made his way over to your seat for a chat. not that you were complaining, you were curious to see just how incomprehensible ghost's speech would be, but to your surprise he's speaking great. his speech is clear and you suspect the alcohol's loosened him up a little, because he's talking and cracking jokes a lot more. if you're being honest, you really like this new, laid-back ghost who's not so worried about maintaining his stony exterior; this new ghost that's wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you into him, even though he never would have showed that kind of public affection to you in front of the team when he was sober. and it's not that he doesn't like you or he isn't proud of you, it's the complete opposite. he's absolutely bursting with pride that you decided to date him, but he's just always been wary about displaying his love for you in public. after all, you never know what kind of shady people are lurking around in bars, looking for ways to hurt him, or even worse, you.

but when his brain is muddled with alcohol, all that paranoia goes away and ghost is more than happy to be all over you. first it's just one hand around your waist, but then when you get up to order another iced water for soap he's tugging at your shirt and holding your wrists so you can't leave him, and when you tell him that you'll be back in less than a minute, he's standing up and chasing after you and wrapping his arms around you in a hug as you talk to the bartender. he's burying his face in the crook of your neck and telling you it's because all the alcohol is giving him a headache when really he just wants to smell you; he's running his hands up and down your legs when the rest of the team is looking the other direction; he's trying to mouth at your neck through his balaclava and whining when it doesn't work, causing you to grin and roll your eyes at him as you lift his mask just above his lips to help him. he's trying to whisper sweet nothings against your ear but they don't make sense because the way you smell is so intoxicating he feels like he's getting drunk all over again, but this time he's drunk on you.

and after a while, ghost finally passes out. he's essentially laying on top of you, his head resting on your chest as his back rises and falls with every breath. his arms are wrapped around you, essentially caging you into your seat and he's so heavy you need to call price over to help you pull him off so you can drive everyone home. and when you all arrive back at the base, you slowly nudge ghost awake, taking special note at the way his eyes flutter open slowly. and then he immediately closes his eyes again, digging his head into your chest because this time he actually does have a headache, and so it's up to you to bring him to his room. and the entire time he never ever lets go of his bear hug on you, leaving you to have to awkwardly waddle all the way to his room with him essentially draped over you. and then when he falls onto the bed he drags you down with him, and you try to pull away just for a second so you can change and wash your face, but ghost's got an iron grip on you and so you're stuck in his arms, not that you mind.

626 notes - Posted November 29, 2022

#4

Hii! Could U maybe write something with Fez X Reader! Like maybe they were Childhood Best Friends but got together at like 15 or something and they live together and stuff. The reader is a mother figure to ash and stuff- yeah idk but yk what I mean… I loved Romeo and Juliet btw. Thank u sm <33

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Pairing: Fezco (Euphoria) x Reader

Type: Fluff

Summary: Fezco reminisces about his history with her, and everything their relationship means to him.

Word Count: 3.9k

Warnings: feminine pronouns used (she/her), brief angst (it gets resolved)

A/N: hii, honestly i'm lowkey proud of this piece, i'm a bit worried it goes on too many tangents but i'm hoping it cleaned up ok, also i have no idea how it got to be almost 4k words that is beyond me. anyways, thanks for reading, i hope you enjoy, and likes/reblogs and constructive criticism are always appreciated :)

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766 notes - Posted March 2, 2022

#3

the right thing to do

Pairing: Simon “Ghost” Riley (Call of Duty) x Reader

Type: Fluff

Summary: You’ve become a distraction to Ghost, and so he’s started keeping his distance for the sake of the team. But when a mission goes awry, he finds himself stuck with you.

Word Count: 7.3k

Warnings: explicit language, mentions of/allusions to sex, brief mention of dacryphilia, brief mention of blowjobs, canon-typical violence, mentions of injury, forced proximity, pining

A/N: hiii, ngl i’m actually really proud of this fic, like deadass this shit had me giggling and kicking my feet in the middle of starbucks. anyways i was thinking of including smut in this but changed my mind bc that shit’s hard to write so it’s pretty pg-13. i plan on making this a bit of a series (with smut hopefully) so while this chapter is gender neutral now (i think, don’t quote me tho) in the future the reader will be written as a girl. as always, likes/reblogs and constructive criticism are always appreciated, enjoy :)

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1,331 notes - Posted November 22, 2022

#2

something to be grateful for

Pairing: Simon “Ghost” Riley (Call of Duty) x Reader

Type: Smut (minors dni), fluff

Summary: Ghost’s never celebrated Thanksgiving before. For one, he’s not even American, and two, he never had anything to be thankful for. But this year? This year he’s thankful for you.

Word Count: 3.9k

Warnings: use of feminine body parts, explicit language, fingering, choking, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it), guided masturbation (?)

A/N: welp. idek what to say. this started out as a fluffy thanksgiving drabble and now it’s this. is it good? idk. is it bad? idk. is it accurate? idk. my experience is in the negatives so this is just an amalgamation of all the knowledge i have gained from reading/reddit threads. happy thanksgiving to all who celebrate, and as always, likes/reblogs and constructive criticism as always appreciated, enjoy :)

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1,517 notes - Posted November 24, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

complex simplicity

Pairing: Adrian Chase (Peacemaker) x Reader

Type: Fluff

Summary: Adrian has to share a room with her, and he’s not sure how he feels about that.

Word Count: 5.6k

Warnings: feminine pronouns used (she/her), mild spoilers, brief mention of violence, brief suggestiveness, forced proximity (no smut), closed off/emotionally distant reader

A/N: hiii, lordy i can’t believe i’m finally done with this fic. this is my first adrian chase fic so forgive me if it’s not the best. i’m pretty proud of it and I'm open to making a part 2 if y'all want me to. thanks for reading, i hope you enjoy, and likes/reblogs and constructive criticism are always appreciated :)

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1:52 1:53 am pdt 7 April 2023 Friday

I guess everyone who is trying to kill me thinks they are righteous. I guess no one wants to help me. All those commercials that say they care a lot, makes me think it’s a lie. Even this hotel 🏨 says it. It’s hypocritical. But a few hours ago I came to the realization that I understand why they think 💭 they are righteous. Righteous to kill in a backhanded way. 1:56 am pdt I don’t have any arguments left. Until I forget and then get torn down again as I write ✍️ that argument. Why should I expect to be treated differently than other people b4 me who lost their body parts? He keeps on attacking me with acid. Not much left of me. Going to lose something for sure/certain. 1:58 am pdt I’ve been lied 🤥 to. And I cannot argue why it’s wrong. And I cannot defend people like dugard and Shannon Ruth. 1:59 am pdt

3:43 am pdt if all rapists are righteous then does that mean all people who work at the hospital 🏥 who neglected me are righteous and rapists? 🤔😖😭😤🥵😤🥵😤🥵😤🥵 3:44 am pdt bcz why do people use the word f*ck in other cases when they aren’t referring to intercourse? 3:45 am pdt the only way to mildly amuse myself in the face of people who don’t care 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m losing my bottom half. 3:46 am pdt

It’s all ransom and witch 🧙 craft I guess? 3:47 am pdt even though it did seem like something did work.... 3:48 am pdt I get confused 🤷🏻‍♀️

12:11 pmpdt incubus captioned there are no Wednesdays. Only Fridays and Saturdays. In previous posts I put for Wednesday: 👰‍♀️ Friday sounds like fry. Saturday is close to satan. If you can’t walk, you’re close to dying. All those who are close to dying are sitting 🪑 . Sat Anne. Isu. I ,Susanna. Daniel and Susanna. Round and round. Grew up thinking 💭 one idea 💡 is better than the other only to find out god is opposed to it. I guess rapists are better than non rapists. I guess rapists care about women’s feelings? I didn’t know. I guess it’s righteous to only care for your feelings when you’re a man 👨. I didn’t know this. Thanks 🙏 for setting me straight. 12:26 pmpdt can’t really be happy being a people pleaser only. 12:27 pmpdt I wonder 💭 if there are more bombs 💣 hidden in ice 🧊 and will push the earth 🌍 closer to the sun 🌞 . 12:28 pmpdt was it the Arctic 🐻‍❄️ or Alaska? I forgot. 12:28 pmpdt I feel like I am going to regret writing this. But I’m tired of living in agony. I’m looking forward to the day the I am dead ☠️. 12:30 🕧 pmpdt I am not god. I am not alll knowing. I know very little. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ the future. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ how things should or can or would be done ✅. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️. 12:31 pmpdt I don’t have much figured out. And I lived most of my life probably being restricted 🚫 . 12:32 pmpdt I don’t do drugs, don’t drink 🚱 alcohol 🍷- although I have tried it a few times, I don’t smoke 🚭, I haven’t tried weed but I think 💭 I smelled it b4. I know that some guys don’t want me telling family that I had s*x with them. They will say “it is none of their business.” 12:35 pmpdt

12:41 pmpdt my tongue 👅 is partially black now. Nausea. 12:42 pmpdt. So, if Disney romantic fantasy love 💕 is not possible, what does that say about humans? We are all fantastic liars 🤥? Obligation? To stay with one human married for the rest of your life? It’s not possible for everyone to have a best friend? Mariah Carey song 🎶 . I guess it’s a sign Bcz Jordan/jordi died. Left hip 12:44 pmpdt 12:45 pmpdt. I am missing some parts of me. Not going to be optimistic or feeling like there is real brotherhood on earth 🌍. I don’t now. I have been left to rot (1207 12 almost looks like R) die. 12:46 pmpdt am I really that unacceptable of a person? Truely naturally and I’ve been crazily in denial? I guess so. That’s part of people pleasing I guess. Even though I have failed 😞 at everything involving relationships that no one wants to talk to me, even after only talking for a minute. I do the slightest littlest things wrong and people get turned off and reject me on first impressions. 12:50 pmpdt didn’t realize Q was worse than me if all my predictions are true, at least in my opinion. The rest of the world 🌎 probably won’t share my opinion. I probably have distorted thinking 💭. I’m sometimes not even honest with myself: like I used to eat random stuff and pretend I like it and eat it Bcz it’s convenient. 12:52 pmpdt 12:53 pmpdt I should have been more honest earlier. But I was probably setup to fail Bcz if my Saint Lucia curse. So if everyone is cursed the same way? But they’re not??? Not the same way... then there is no choice. ? It is what it is. I look in the mirror 🪞 and feel the pain. It don’t look 👀 pretty. I will take the (autocorrect: devil pictures kids) I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ incubus is probably referring to my pictures at home 🏠. ) threats to my life more seriously now Bcz that looks like it’s truth. Friday, Saturday. No Wednesdays. Autocorrect:weans. 12:58 pmpdt no comment. Heart ♥️ of glass. 12:59 pmpdt karma for kissing and having s*x with people I couldn’t commit to. Self full filled prophecy? Or meant to be? I thought 💭 a lot of stuff felt out of my control. 1:01 pmpdt

2:36 pmpdt even if so, I’m still dying. Can’t breathe + heart ♥️ pain = dying! 2:38 pmpdt

5:02 pmpdt (left hip bone 🦴 pain) idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ if the bombs 💣 net the North Pole pushed the earth 🌍 closer to the sun ☀️ or away. If the earth 🌍 was slowly wobbling towards migrating closer to the sun ☀️ in its revolution around the sun 🌞 I would probably put bombs 💣 to push it away from the sun 🌞. Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ what’s going on what god’s purpose was to put those bombs 💣 there. 5:05 pmpdt wild imagination 💭 hope for the best prepare for the worst. 5:06 pmpdt

5:07 pmpdt or maybe 🤔 it’s to accelerate changing of the poles? To change poles probably means to change positions in orbit around the sun 🌞 changing the path? I didn’t get that far in school 🏫. 5:08 pmpdt

8:46 pmpdt 8:48 pmpdt incubus stabbed a part of my upper right brain a bunch of times and it hurt. And then he applied more acid with a rough sandpaper-like feel. 8:50 pmpdt it scares me whenever I feel anything painful in my brain. For some reason at this moment my emotions are weird. Right lower leg bone 🦴pain 8:53 pmpdt oddly. pain back right skull? Pain 8:54 pmpdt I m moving a little slower.

9:01 pmpdt I suddenly remembered Buddha. He knew it was his time to die. 9:02 pmpdt

9:40 pmpdt a light and then a boom that echoes in the sky. A long white car with tinted windows drive off a minute after. 9:41 pmpdt I think they’re trying to cause a fire at the hotel. Drove off to the left hand side when they exited. 9:42 pmpdt

10:17 pmpdt I’m on edge. I thought I saw a light reflection from the corner of my eye travel upward from below. My mom is telling me it’s not what I think it is. 10:18 pmpdt

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#i love this video a lot bc of the above and also the fact that it’s cementing to me the importance of having physical copies of movies/shows

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

THEY CANCELED FIRST KILL??? AFTER ALL THE FUCKING NUMBERS IT DID??? I DONT WANNA BRING UP A CERTAIN SHOW BY NAME BC THEY DONT NEED ANYMORE ATTENTION BUT FIRST KILL DID MORE THAN THAT AND GOT CANCELED??

ABSOLUTELY FUCKING DISGUSTING. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF LESBIANS NEVER HAVING THE CHANCE TO HAVE PROPER FLESHED OUT MEDIA. WHAT DO WHITE MEN HAVE THAT SOMEHOW CHARMS ALL OF YOU EVEN WITH THE MUSTIEST DUSTIEST PLOT.

AND THEYRE STILL GONNA CROSS FK OFF THEIR DIVERSITY CHECKLIST LIKE THE CUNTS THEY ARE.

Imani and SC I am so sorry these greedy little shits did this to you and to all my fellow lesbians I am so genuinely sorry we have to go through this again and again.

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#4

https://archiveofourown.org/works/39820929

AkiAngel 1.6k Canon divergent and very self-indulgent go nuts folks <333

9 notes - Posted June 22, 2022

#3

No because genuinely who does this bitch think she is. I’m so pissed because there’s so many layers of wrong to this literally fuck you.

9 notes - Posted December 8, 2022

#2

Naur cause Physics and Stat literally saving me during psats lmao 😭

15 notes - Posted October 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Girl where tf is My Engineer s2

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October 31, 2022 [Monday]

🍳 FOOD

Lunch: White Rice, Nilagang Baka, Tofu, Cake | Snacks: Pizza Hut Haiwaiian Pizza, Coffee | Dinner: White Rice, Fried Chicken, Fish Fillet | Late Dinner Snack: Spaghetti 😭

📺 TV SHOW

House of the Dragon S1:E2 to S1:E4

November 1, 2022 [Tuesday]

🍳 FOOD

Lunch: White Rice, Daing na Bangus, Chicken Teriyaki, Caramia Pistachio Cake | Snacks: Pizza, Spaghetti, Toast | Dinner: White Rice, Chicken, Tofu, Popcorn, Cake

📺 TV SHOW

Better Call Saul S3:E9 | House of the Dragon S1:E5 to S1:E10

November 2, 2022 [Wednesday]

Better Call Saul S3:E10 | The End of the F***ing World S1:E1 to S1:E3

I don’t want to log my food intake in my weekly recaps anymore because it’s a redundant part of my day. I’ve had fitnesspal for ages and I can just look back from there.

November 3, 2022 [Thursday]

Cooked Truffle Pasta and Garlic Bread.

Finished The End of the F***ing World Season 1, wth this is actually good!

I want to be able to write my thoughts again, even in private.

November 4, 2022 [Friday]

We finished The End of the F***ing World Season 2 today. I’m so glad that it didn’t end on a cliffhanger.

It was my 2nd day of drinking tea. This time I added sugar and milk. It doesn’t make me sleep faster (only on the first day - maybe because I was tired), but it sure helps with my anxiety. If this is not a miracle, idk what is.

November 5, 2022 [Saturday]

Mom made mechado for my nephew’s birthday. It’s so good and I am so full. *chef’s kiss*

November 6, 2022 [Sunday]

Red dayzze

Woke up early and did everything on my to-do list; I should be resting because it’s a Sunday. Finished watching I Am Not Okay With This and I don’t know what to say.

I didn’t realize that it’s already Sunday today and that means I have to post it. Wait, do I HAVE to? Idk. Idk what I want to do. 🥲

[ctrlemis]

art my love!!! 😭💗 i am back w some sunoo edits hehe <333 akjddksldks i literally had the best time compiling these… he’s the world i’m sobbing ☹️💖

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20

21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30

31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40

41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50

hope u like these <3333 MWAH

MAI YOURE LITERALKY PERFECT OMG SUNOO WOOF WIIF BARK ARF SUNGHOON HEESEUNG STAY BACK HE US MINE THATS MY BOYFRIEND NOT YOURS GET BACK

^ me @ heehoon

BUT THANK YOU MAI I HAD SUCH A LONG DAY TODAY I WAS SO TIRED THIS IS SO NICE OMG TY BESTIE- sunoo best boy period

[waitingformyfavoritesongs]

1:32 am pdt 28 Jan u ary 2023 Saturday 🪐

The neighbor is playing music 🎼 loud again it’s got a booming loud bass speaker 🔊 it’s providing very dramatic 🎭 background sound as if I were in a thriller movie 🎥 like Jurassic park. 1:36 am pdt I had very strong painful cramps when I woke up after midnight 🕛. More diarrhea. Mom gave me medicine from the hospital 🏥 but it feels a little painful to drink. I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if it’s the medicine or the incubus. 1:38 am pdt I drank it b4 midnight 🕛 b4 falling asleep 😴 I think 🤔 getting difficult 😞 2 remember. Need to write ✍️ it down next time. But I probably won’t take it again. 1:39 am pdt

tired. And hot flash. Exhaling hot 🥵 air. Nothing feels hot 🥵 on the surface. It might be inside closer to the lungs 🫁. 😞😖😭😫 ow my left ear 👂. Incubus wants me paranoid about the music. It’s more distant sounding this time than all the previous times. 1:42 am pdt maybe 🤔 the guy has a car 🚗 now and took it to his car 🚗???? 1:43 am pdt idk 🤷🏻‍♀️.

1:45 am pdt when I went to toilet 🚽 several minutes ago I saw 👀 something that looked like a vitamin I took b4 falling asleep 😴. 1:47 am pdt

1:47 am pdt I I saw 👀 in auto correct devil seven . Did not notice what was in the first square. Feels like he’s calling me those. 1:50 am pdt

29 Jan u ary 2023 Sunday ☀️ 12:12 pm pdt

HOT 🥵. My family doesn’t want me around. I have been too much trouble 4 them I guess all these years. From being too afraid 2 get a job when I was 16 years old and chatting online... and when I was 9 years old? I wasn’t understanding of my mom using my birthday 🎂 money from my grandparents to buy a microwave which I complained 2 my dad and it seemed 2 open a can of worms 🪱 I guess with my dad. I think 🤔 he might have used it as a reason 2 take my mom 2 court. I don’t know how that makes any sense to him 2 do that in retrospect. Maybe 🤔 my mom made more money 💰 than she let on and did not need 2 spend my birthday money 💰 (butt cheeks flesh PAIN 😖😭😖😭😤🥵😤🥵) I felt guilty about that for years. When my sister was in middle school 🏫 and I was in high school 🏫 my mom told her 2 ask me 4 money 💰 2 buy yearbooks. I think I took it from my own money 💰 I saved from dad. Usually dad gave equally to both of us? I think? So she could have easily bought it herself if she saved it. She went out with friends a lot and I usually stayed home 🏠. 12:21 pm pdt so she probably spent it then. From 2011- almost end of 2012 I didn’t go out often 4 fun. I had little time outside. 12:27 pm pdt my aunt is acting crazy to me for barricading the door 🚪 to make it more difficult for incubus to come in. She’s telling me I’m powerful and stubborn and telling me to pay the rent. I couldn’t breathe 🧘🏻‍♀️ since 2019 but everyone ignored me. I was crawling on the floor when I had difficulty breathing in 2019/2020. She’s behaving like this after I confided in her about Scott. Same thing happened when I confided in my cousin. They both turned against me. 12:31 pm pdt

12:34 pm pdt my friend double checked her messages to Jane page Herman. It looks like Jane didn’t feel comfortable answering any questions and blocked her. It looks like incubus tormented Jane, too. 12:35 pm pdt

12:41 pm pdt incubus tore down my bones 🦴 a lot. My body looks very unattractive and absurd. I once thought 💭 I was falling in love with a former classmate who found me on MySpace. We hung out with out becoming physically intimate. He allowed me to take photos of him for a class project on Halloween 🎃. We went out a few times to eat. There was a moment I was ridiculously? Happy. I question now if it was natural. But he is a really nice guy. He feels like a safe person. And sometimes I wonder 💭 if I had committed to him if I would be happy now. When I decided to stop 🛑 seeing him I felt love 💕 sick in bed 🛌. 12:48 pm pdt oh I felt pain and difficulty breathing my thoughts 💭 lost the train 🚂. I asked once both mom and sister if I should marry him when he was in his way to pick me up 🆙 to go out to eat. I don’t remember him saying if it was a date and I didn’t say it was a date, but after I asked that, he arrived wearing a tie. 12:51 pm pdt shamefully, I didn’t think I could commit bcz I wasn’t attracted to him the way he was, but it didn’t stop 🛑 me from hanging out with him. I like having platonic? Friendships with guys - nice, fun guys; and if I wasn’t very attracted to them it made it easier to hang out with them for clean fun bcz of my curses. I once played drums 🪘 with drummers and I got a good beat going and we played together. When I was 11 years old and got kicked out of a bedroom for the way I played with Barbie dolls (I took something I should not have) I was kindly told to play video games with the stepbrother, and I think that was probably more fun than the Barbie dolls, and I don’t know 🤷🏻‍♀️ if he was pretending to have fun with me, but he begged me to play video games more. 12:58 pm pdt my ex and I watched anime together in his bedroom a lot, bcz it was what he wanted to do 😅 and then 2015 I was hooked on inuyasha, and after the breakup I marathon watched sailor moon 🌙 he gave me while I waited out my bleeding 🩸 nose 👃 that easily broke open every day that summer. 1 pm I have a lot of cramps diarrhea pain ever since she unbarricaded that door and I haven’t rebarricaded it. 1:01 pm pdt the incubus makes me hotter 🥵 than I ever been in my life. I don’t think it’s necessary to make me this hot 🥵 I feel like I’m going to die from the heat. I’ve been living in hot apartments all my life. Rarely I use air conditioning yet my mom gave my sister money 💰 to buy an air conditioner but she won’t buy one for us. 1:03 pm pdt

1:04 pm pdt 1:07 pm pdt heart pain incubus has intentions to kill me. I noticed yesterday my right eye looks a little dark as if it’s been bruised. What it is though is he’s been scratching the inside, the white part. 1:10 pm pdt I think he’s giving me the run around and the ring of fire. It burns burns burns the ring of fire the ring of fire 🎶🎼🎵🎤 1:11 pm pdt

Bcz I was shy and probably bcz of chronic eczema and a lot of head trauma, it was difficult for me 2 interact with a lot of people. Usually i got a little more comfortable with specific types of people but I won’t say what types here. From ≈2010 I relied more and more on my mom. She didn’t like me relying on her. When we visited my sister in New York after she had the baby, my mom told me to go out by myself to find more food. And when we were out together sometimes she was stingy even though it was my money. At the airport I wanted more than 1 slice of pizza, but she wouldn’t ask 4 me for more than 1 slice. And then I let her have the chair at the table and then people ran to me to give me chairs. I typed this in (chest getting hot exhaling HOT air 1:19 pm pdt). I don’t know why everyone was being mean to me including incubus. 1:20 pm pdt my eczema (and probably my head trauma ) made living in my body feel like a torture chamber I could never escape. 1:21 pm pdt 1:22 pm pdt. I remember once we shared a large? Pizza with my cousin when she was 9 years old. She wanted 2 eat half of it by herself. I told her she had to share and that I wanted a slice of the other toppings and she could have a slice of the other topping combination. She didn’t want it bcz it was vegetarian? And claimed she got diarrhea from eating vegetables. I think bcz of this I suggested that her dad take her to dinner b4 bringing her to our place. After that happened she bragged she ate a whole big pizza by herself. It probably wasn’t long after this? That she punched me very strongly in the head and my performance capabilities started 2 decline at work. 1:27 pm pdt

1:30 pm pdt when I was about 4 years old I borrowed a girl’s (neighbor) Barbie doll clothing without asking. But always had the intentions of returning all the clothing and I did. She noticed probably but didn’t like it probably bcz I didn’t ask and stopped playing with me. 1:32 pm pdt

1:37 pm pdt I started watching sailor moon when I was in middle school grade 7. I try to learn how to use the vcr to record it so I don’t miss it. 1:38 pm pdt heart pains 1:39 pm pdt

1:40 pm pdt on the phone after we were home from our trip to New York I told my sis I lost a l lot of weight during our visitation there. She tells me maybe I wasn’t a walking enough b4, and when she’s telling this to me she sounds like she hates me. I probably wasn’t friendly enough to her during the trip but it was bcz probably mostly that I had a lot of shame and guilt about past stufff and was trying to distance myself from her to keep myself out of trouble, so I don’t accidentally do something or so people cannot blame me for future bad stuff. But b4 she got married? (Brain/skull pain 1:44) they visited us at my apartment and she’s extremely distant to me and avoids talking to me and being alone with me and I don’t know why. 1:46 pm pdt(she came for a friend’s dads funeral 1:51 pm pdt) incubus makes every one distant and mean to me? 1:46 pm pdt she had her kids after she got married. It’s ironic she told me I don’t walk enough, when I wore myself extremely thin that trip and did 3 seasons of running sports. Diarrhea cramps. 1:48 pm pdt

1:52 pm pdt I guess I’m too selfish and I suck. No one likes me. Incubus hates me. I feel it on the inside that I’m wicked and selfish. I feel I emit bad vibes like Elsa in frozen. mom’s best friend for Christmas 2002? I think she gave an Elsa photo frame with pink roses painted on. Rise rising risen rose 🌹🥀🏵 I’m probably going to lose my hips and pelvis bone now. Incubus is giving me a lot of diarrhea cramps painful for the past 2 hours that’s been going fast. 1:57 pm pdt

2:01 pm pdt one evening I stayed at work extra hours in the evening to get work done, and everyone else was going out for dinner. She decided to come into the office and meets my boss. She acts as if she’s disappointed that I’m not going out to dinner with them even though she seems 2 disrespect me and avoided me beforehand. 2:03 pm pdt there are times we talked on the phone and she would say she will talk to me more next time. Next time she’s on the phone she doesn’t seem to ask to talk to me. I don’t know if it’s my blunder. (Sometimes we have a nice time talking. I don’t remember if I was trying too hard like I usually do 2:08 pm pdt) 2:05 pm pdt there’s something I was. Going to type but cannot remember again. This happens all the time. 2:06 pm pdt I don’t think they are going to let me remember it this time. 2:06 pm pdt oh I remember now. 2:09 pm pdt about adnan. I think I didn’t learn until after my wrist was broken that my sister actually had a crush on him. I met adnan first I think bcz he was in my class. They combined 2nd and third grades into one class. He was 2nd grade and I was third. I remember he was in my group after I came back to school from having the chicken pox. 2:11 pm pdt they let me name our group when I returned. 2:12 pmpdt incubus is trying to trick me again. Too much is going on with my body to believe anything he promises is anything good for me. Bcz he keeps saying marriage, wedding, rings, but all I get is flamed until I feel like I’m dying. No thanks incubus, no false promises necessary 2:14 pm pdt my sister had said one thing to adnan that made him angry that I never said. And she innocently told me later that she was like “ I like playing with you, too” to adnan, and even though I no longer had a class with adnan after that year and completely forgot about him the following year, she blamed me that they couldn’t be together. I guess she didn’t care that he broke my wrist and likes someone who might become a future wife beater. 2:18 pm pdt she was able to see him while I was stuck inside with chickenpox. She gave him my drawing. I did make her promise though to not date anyone my age or older than me at that time. But we were too young to be dating? I don’t really remember keeping her from him, or him from her. She dated a guy 11 years older than her that she met days b4 turning 18 years old. She has a lot of power. My mom empowered her probably for along time. 2:22 pm pdt there were times she locked me out of the bedroom and my mom allowed it. When we moved to blossom hill I remember allowing her decorate the bedroom however she wanted to. She did sleep on the top bunk. Maybe she didn’t like that... it’s hard being in a weird divorced family. It’s weird bcz I think when we were kids we maybe used to argue about who would get the top bunk (2:57 pm pdt b4 we ever got a bunk bed ? Hypothetically? we talked in case we would get one?? 2:58 pm pdt) but I got the bottom bunk with the fold out futon. It actually wasn’t good for my back it was all bumpy. 2:27 pm pdt but I used that bed for many years. From 2000? To end of 2014? No it was ≈ 2012/2013. I think I easily forgot about that. 2:29 pm pdt my sister almost caught up to me in height when she was 6th grade. 2:30 pm pdt I gave my nice twin mattress to my friend. 2:31 pm pdt

3:02 pm pdt still cannot breathe. Coughed. Pain skull right front bone skull😖😭😖😭 I never punched anyone that I can recall but god incubus likes to get me punched in the head and ram my head into dense hard objects that are stainless steel? And dense wood? And it makes me pass out or almost pass out, and for years I feel like putting my head on people’s shoulders. I remember when my parents were still together once, when I’m probably 6 years old, my sister says she’s done with eating dinner and she said it sweetly. Yet she didn’t eat vegetables. I don’t want to eat vegetables either. She then says she wants ice cream and my dad gives it to her. I say I want ice cream, too, but he tells me to eat the vegetables. 3:08 pm pdt I screamed for the ice cream. 3:08 pm pdt

3:11 pm pdt I remember finding drawings my sister did that illustrated our mom was dying of debt. I’m trying to recall if I added to that grief. Shortly after those drawings she transferred to New York to go to an expensive art college on loans, and maybe a partial scholarship? I don’t recall it covering everything bcz I remember the loan payments were complained about and I think I remember a big number for the loans. I would have stayed at the coummunity college longer to figure out what I wanted to do but the grants were coming to an end. I did federal work study and was still very shy. When I applied to transfer to a 4 year I remember one of the teachers thought I would not be accepted at one of the colleges. Maybe bcz it’s really hard to get in, but I don’t recall. For some reason I felt probably a little pain? From the comment? Maybe he didn’t mean it that way. Maybe he didn’t intend for it to hurt. 3:20 pm pdt

============= going back to thinking about the twin who I felt unwelcomed by, I dont know if (heart pain) he intended to make me feel that way, or if he has an anxiety introversion problem. 3:22 pm pdt

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maybe the incubus did not like that I ate a lot of cookies or pizza when I was in middle school and high school. But my sister caught up to me and surpassed me in height anyway. I thought I remember not eating much 4 breakfast and lunch for years and so I sometimes was a little greedy around cookies and pizza. I don’t know if it was pure greed at this point bcz it was long time ago or if it was an addiction problem. There were a few times I didn’t pay someone in middle school back 4 ice cream. She was smaller than me and I don’t know what her financial situation was back then. In 8th grade ? I tried to help her on a drawing. She won the school’s mascot drawing competition and she took oil painting classes for her 8th grade project. I remember I made a lot of social mistakes. A lot of bad choices like that that probably made people not like me. 3:30 pm pdt in 2010 I thought about sending her a gift card but procrastinated on it. 3:31 pm pdt I remember I earned a lot of credit card rewards but it 99% expired b4 I thought about redeeming on one card. 3:33 pm pdt I still don’t know if I deserved all those head traumas though. In second grade I shared colored pencils and markers with the whole class. I don’t know if that’s who I really am. And even though I was jealous Of my sister I don’t really recall being very mean to her. We played Barbie dolls and video games and watched cartoons together? And we had to be well behaved while our mom slept b4 her work at the grocery store. I wasn’t perfect but I didn’t kill my sister. And I don’t remember hurting her? We shared a bedroom for @ least 18 years and she seemed to be idk maybe thriving? 3:39 pm pdt 3:41 pm pdt

9:42 pm pdt woke up to very bad acid burning feeling pain cramps in pelvis area. I don’t think me hitting her with a very thin Barbie cardboard box counts especially since she started crying b4 the box made impact. The box was about a foot above her head when she started crying. 9:45 pm pdt I am as probably still 8 years old. Wrote about it in an earlier post. 9:45 pm pdt

the incubus gas lights a lot = faking out. If you’re a real avid maroon 5/Adam Levine fan you will know what I’m talking about and why I say this. 9:47 pm pdt I’m so afraid of him wiping the memories of everyone of the things he’s lying of now. He already covered up his dove tattoo (9:48 urge toilet) which I read he got 6 days after 9/11/2001 bcz he was in New York when it happened. He was supposed to be going to classes in five towns college. I think he enrolled bcz it would be easy for him to earn credits. Why? Idk. 9:50 pm pdt

10:10 pm pdt I watched an interview that he took a cross country trip to get to Long Island New York. It might be true but I think he’s omitted something very important that I read probably 5+ years ago that he went with Jane Herman originally to New York because she was going to go to school there. Whether the oberlin stop over was true or not, prior to that I believe he probably went with her and chose to omit it? 10:13 pm pdt my friend tried asking questions to re-confirm what we read 5* years ago bcz we didn’t save the article and cannot find it anymore. If Jane page Herman is reading this, please know it appears you blocked my friend and left her questions unanswered. 10:16 pm pdt

10:24 pm pdt (pain right thigh bone? Flesh? 😖😭🥵😤🥵😤 near joint. Bleeding 🩸) 10:26 pm pdt on Friendster Brendan had girl friends I think I remember a Carly, collette, and a petite red head Katie who I think he wrote to saying she had moved like mj (probably Michael Jordan?) I think 🤔 I remember Carly put Brendan is a PIMP. Collete seemed to have a past affection (affectionate 11:08 pm pdt ) relationship? With him but they are still friends? Katie looks like she’s unrequited love 💕. 10:29 pm pdt a pimp, huh 🤔? 10:30 pm pdt on spokeo it showed that he lived at least once with a heather. And there might have been a Ryan?? I am trying to recall heather’s astrological sign 🪧. 10:32 pm pdt

11:08 pm pdt when I was 8/9 years old I thought 💭 I got diarrhea from Raisin Bran cereal 🥣 after I tried it again at my dad’s. It took a few days for me to think 🤔 this, but I also observed my dad ate the same cereal 🥣 straight out of the box 📦 with his hands 🙌 in the box 📦 but I didn’t make that connection until years later I think 🤔 about the hands 🙌 to the foods. And now it (brain stabbing pain 😖😭😤🥵😤🥵) it doesn’t matter anymore. 11:13 pm pdt