#LEB

[vampiricnature]

The rabbit hole goes deeper

[slowtraincomingsoon]

248 055 solo in Ludwigsfelde-Birkengrund am 08.05.2025

[i-m-nobody-who-are-you]

I hope it’s cold where you go

Far far away where you can’t hear me cry

I hope you sit in your cold, lonely ice palace and think of the sun you forcibly shut out

In exchange for a place that provides you no warmth, no comfort

And when you spend another night shivering in the room you built

The song of tiny frogs and the sway of the palm trees a distant memory you long for

You remember that you packed your bags, convincing yourself you were alright with the cold

You bit frozen fruit because you decided that even paradise wasn’t good enough

But the only thorns that grow are the ones you planted yourself

You’ll tell everyone you were shut out

You had no choice but to build your ice castle

The thorns that grew were impossible to pass through

And you couldn’t possibly begin to cut them

But I know the truth

You made your uncomfortable, bone-chilling bed

Now lie in it

“I hope it’s cold”

10.5.2024

[gargalezthesia]

Lesbiav?

[chelsea-heller-tattoo]

Both color and a version that's just black. Like to give options. I am looking to do some Ancient Egypt themed tattoos. :)

[ciaospiriti]

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

begging for attention is the only thing I’ve been taught how to do at my core

to love people completely and with behavior regulations, under the assumption that it would mean they’ll have to love me back

for one of first time, in the grueling completion of development my prefrontal cortex if trudging through, I messed up

I loved too loud, and with too many thorny walls disguised as lush padding to rest on

like a venus fly luring lovers to their doom

I had finally found one I really liked

and maybe if I had been more patient

played the little games you’re supposed to play in love

maybe I could have won for once

but instead I made us both losers and blamed the other party, apologizing for it too little too late

now I await the final blow, the knight pinned to slay his unrelenting dragon in the shape of a 24 year old girl who clearly needs therapy

and I handed him the dagger meant to be plunged through my heart

I can’t help that little hope he won’t, laying at the bottom of Pandora’s box, tired yet restless, achy, a pain to even exist

but I must apologize to the little one inside me who still thinks everyone will forgive her for her angry tears, she lies under the heel of my shoe, begging me to trust her, but I can’t, I can’t hope a childish apology is all it takes this time

because he’s just a boy who owes her nothing

who would be better off finding love that doesn’t have old live wiring sticking out each direction he turns

and in the long run, maybe I’m better off if people stop forgiving me too

thanks for your ear tonight, my sobs I’m sure bother the neighbors and writing helps lock them away for the moment,

yours,

leb

[9:20 PM 20230916]

[carpedeb]

@carpehemsworth

[lesbianlen]

Guh I rlly need to be more active on here huh

Plus I need to retheme but I don't have one n can't be assed lol

Have a Leb pic

[givemegifs]

[neuro-detergent]

MOLLY!! MY BELOVED!! MWAH!

The bunny

The bunny

Woah I love the bunny

[mybeautifulchristianjourney]

David inquired of the LORD

So David inquired of Yahweh, but he said, “You shall not go up. Rather, go around to their rear and come to them from opposite the balsam trees. — 2 Samuel 5:23 | Lexham English Bible (LEB) Lexham English Bible 2012 by Logos Bible Software. Cross References: 1 Samuel 22:15; 1 Samuel 23:2; 2 Samuel 5:19; 1 Chronicles 14:14

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2 Samuel 5:23 Commentaries

[logiies]

Backtrack 'til we're dancing on the kill switch (what's the point of praying for the wicked?)

Clean version below :)

[illichii]

i think leb could have been angrier with elise

[luvyoujelly]

caleb-coded songs🍎🤍���ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ

it’s him!!! 😓😓🍎 some songs that remind me of caleb!! 🍏🤍 (if u wanna unlock more u gotta get to my friendship lvl 5 ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )

(just a small post to get used to posting on tumblr! i’ve never posted regularly here so i’ll do my best ദ്ദി( ;´ - `;) )

dreaming cat png by ruuixl, border by konatasoup !

i love you, i’m sorry - gracie abrams

this song completely decimated me btw and launched me into calebmc doom!! very much totally and completely started by ucyobie’s edit on tiktok!! i think it encapsulates calebmc’s dynamics very well, especially for a character and relationship as mischaracterised as theirs. honestly, the standout lines i have could go both ways to be honest (#switch #bisexual):

> “now you go alone, charm all the people you train for, you aim low. and i’ll make it known, like i’m getting paid.”

> "two summers from now, we'll have been talking but not all that often.. i'll be on a boat, you're on a plane, going somewhere, same."

> “you were the best, but you were the worst. as sick as it sounds i loved you first.”

> “trust me i know it’s always about me. i love you, i’m sorry.”

back to me - the marías

the vibes are similar to the previous song, but i think more on the nose and even grittier i feel. it’s like i love you, i’m sorry’s eventual breakdown. specifically it suits the homecoming wings chapters (ruined me fr). standout lines:

> “i could build us a house.. i’d be there in a hurry, baby, come back to me.”

> “picture my face (yeah, i want you). waitin’ by the altar. sayin' your name (can i have you?)."

> "promise to be near you, promise i'll stay. if i get the chance to, remember this day."

> "i'll be all that you want. i'll be all that you need. i'm outside your apartment. baby, come back to me."

i'm your man - mitski

i love this song but never equated it to caleb (for some reason) until my lovely mutual bluebellies wrote a beautiful, haunting, life-changing work that actually flipped my whole view of calebmc by good 90 degrees.. like it's so poignant as i literally posted my first ao3 fic back in 2021 with an exploration on grief via maya fey from ace attorney!! (full circle moment!!) absolutely love this song.. mitski does the soggy, losing, desperately hungry dog analogy so well (caleb😭😭) the calebmc codependency goes crazyyy. anyways, standout lines:

> "you're an angel, i'm a dog. or you're a dog and i'm your man."

> "i'm sorry i'm the one you love. no one will ever love you like me again. so when you leave me, i should die. i deserve it, don't i?"

> "i can feel it gettin' near. like flashlights comin' down the way. one day you'll figure me out. i'll meet judgement by the hounds."

summer rain - irene

i love, love, love this song so much, like it's probably my most streamed song this year. and honestly, i associate basically any summer themed song with caleb because that's how he is to me: boldly bright like the heat could ever hide away the happiness of our memories or the reminder of how awful it can be to be stuck under such a blazing glare.. but then the rain squanders, it casts a sheen on whether any of that was ever real at all. this is endless summer coded (aka my favourite card)!! standout lines (translation by me! i'm the least confident in my korean skills but hopefully it's all legible as i tried hard to add context to the nuance!):

> "눈을 감으면 잠시 세상은 without you, without you. i know, 꿈처럼 다가와 날 한눈에 알아본. / i closed my eyes for a second and the world is without you, without you. i know, you came to me like a dream that i knew with just a glance."

> "그 여름의 널 기억해? 내 맘을 채워 준 summer rain. i know, 가만히 젖어들어, 서로를 안았던. / do you remember the you from that summer? my heart's filled with that summer rain. i know, we were slowly getting drenched as we hugged."

> "조그맣고 연약한 아이. 마음 꺾이지 않게 늘. 버텨냈던 밤, 모두 지켜줄게. / a small and fragile child. without it ever breaking my heart, through that long night, i will always protect you.

> "이 여름의 끝이 와도 난. you know, 불안한 예보 끝에 쉼 없이 내게 온. 너의 긴 밤에 머물게, 따스히 내리는 summer rain. 너의 이름을 부를게, a daisy caught in the summer rain. / even when this summer ends. you know, who came to me through the torrent without rest. i'll stay in your long night, that warm summer rain. i'll call your name, like a daisy caught in the summer rain."

> (bonus!!) "끝이 없는 미로 같던 표정 없는 기억. 깨워주는 소리 (온기), bringing back the old days. 깊은 새벽, 짙어진 그림자는 don't know how to (know how to). / that hazy memory like an endless maze. the sound that wakes me up (that warmth), bringing back the old days."

like him - tyler, the creator (ft. lola young)

i wonder how many times, caught in caleb's shadow, did mc ever think they'll catch up to him. orbiting someone who crumbles in front of you when there's no one watching. "he's not my brother!' "oh but you look just like him!" "no we don't!" "well, he must be basically he's looked after you well." how many times did they follow him around, copying how he enunciates his words, how he carries himself-- a shadow that will never move past its object-- will he finally look at them?

> “she said that i make expressions like him... my waist and posture like him."

> "mama, i'm chasing a ghost, i don't know who he is. mama, i'm chasing a ghost, i don't know where he is. mama, i'm chasing a ghost, do i look like him?"

> "you gave me love, and affection, attention, protection; how could i ever miss something that i've never had?"

> "let it go, i've decided to, anything that lives inside of you. i would never lie to you, you ain't ever have to lie to me. i'm everything that i've strived to be, so do i look like him? do i look like him?"

moves - suki waterhouse

lucky last! a recent add to my caleb playlist! suki waterhouse is one of my favourite artists, and the mood, the feel, the gritty dreaminess of her voice and her songs suit him well! this is that culmination of that will they, won't they, that absolutely delicious yearning throughout their lives, throughout everything. they're intertwined like strings, like unyielding stars, like a shoelace that's been knotted beyond failure. all those unspoken glances, those stolen and buried kisses. one like and i'll write a calebmc birthday fic with this song. (also no spoilers even tho i got the card heheh! i need that building realism. i gotta yearn as well.) standout lines:

> "in the morning light, faded to oblivion. and i said, "that's alright, at least we feel alive.""

> "there's nothing you can do. i know that i want this. no one likes to lose, know that i got this."

> "i'ma put some goddamn moves on you, babe, i know you need it. die a double death for you, death for your secrets. i'll find another way for you, wait 'til you need it."

> "i know you're in the city; should be spending all my time with you. i can't forget that feeling even if i wanted to... don't make it complicated, don't tell me what you're going through; there's nothing you can do, i know that i want this."

thank u for coming to my yap fest!! (◡ �� ◡ .) i don't talk a lot irl so this is my form of yapping and i'm happy!!!! (づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡ fem! caleb version is coming next and perhaps a part 2 to this because i like analysing songs ( ¯ ³¯)

+ some memes because i can’t take myself seriously and i think i’m funny (=`ω´=) 🍎