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#Min away from Sunday
carlos-tk · 8 months
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thank you for the tags @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @carlos-in-glasses @sznofthesticks @strandnreyes @chicgeekgirl89 @freneticfloetry @alrightbuckaroo @lemonlyman-dotcom @lightningboltreader @bonheur-cafe @liminalmemories21 @theghostofashton @rmd-writes @redshirt2 @heartstringsduet 💖
flirty boys as usual for this weeks sunday sentences
“[redacted]” TK remarks, stretching the word out obnoxiously.
Carlos’ expression is unimpressed, as he shakes his head, dark curls bouncing lightly, a soft tendril falling across his forehead.
TK gingerly steps forward, trapping himself between Carlos and the bench. One of his hands takes ahold of the familiar jut of Carlos’ hip bone, his other hand reaching up as he gently flicks the wayward hair away. He giggles as it falls right back in in place atop his head, Carlos flinching from the intrusion.
“Baby,” he implores, poking his pointer finger into Carlos’ chest, flashing him the well practised sweet, flirty smile that can usually get him anything he wants.
“Are you on the menu?” he asks gleefully, his hand trailing across Carlos’ left pec, thumbing the soft flesh of his nipple as it hardens, following in with a sharp pinch that causes Carlos to yelp.
Carlos let’s out an exasperated groan, “Nice try baby, but we actually need to eat something with sustenance, counter all that energy we burnt off last night hmm?” he smirks, stepping even closer into TK’s space, moulding their bodies together as one.
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quasieli · 2 months
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I'm gonna be seeing my best friend for the first time in a year in about 7 hours and I'm so happy I could cryyyyy
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electoons · 4 months
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god I wish I was in a union so I could tell my boss to go fuck herself after I specifically gave her my available hours and she just blatantly ignored me and scheduled me outside of the hours I explicitly gave her
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1ovestay · 5 months
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have had a very disappointing and stressful morning but at least i am sitting by the ocean with the sun shining on my face
#appreciating the ocean while i can before i move to canada in a week#i’m like . very upset and feeling dramatic and i think im within right to cuz it meant a lot to me#was meant to be going to the a15 action in my city and i had it all planned out#but i don’t have a car cuz my friends car broke down so i let them have mine early#and i planned to wake up at 5:30 and drop my mum off at work so i could have her car for the day#but then yesterday at the rally my friend was like oh i’ll come with u!#so after we drove back from melbourne i left my sign in their car (my car…)#and then this morning 5 mins before they were meant to pick me up they were like oh i’ve been called into work#which like understandable that they need the work but telling me 5 mins before u were supposed to pick me up…. 25 mins before the event…#anyway the next bus was so much later but i got on anyway after stressing a bunch#and i was like well even if im an hour late i still wanna show up#but it ended literally right as i got there im so upsetttt#i think the main reasons i’m upset is cuz this would be my last action in australia#cuz i’m moving in a week and i can’t go to this sundays rally in melb#and i was gonna give away my sign cuz i don’t want to throw it out but i can’t take it with me when i move#and i planned to participate in this for weeks n had it all sorted out i should have just gone with my own plans :(#anyway it is what it is i’m disappointed but i’m sitting in the sun by the ocean listening to day6 so it’s all fine really#p
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i swear to god i do more work in three hours in this job than i did in ten months at the other job lolllll. but i can’t even be too resentful towards old job because 1) i’m out of it and never have to think of it again YIPPEE and 2) the timing of that job (specifically my lead escalating shit to Unbearable Misery Levels) enabled me to be in exactly the right place & right time to apply for this job.
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lambency404 · 1 year
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Sundays are my unluckiest days it seems
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caffeled · 2 years
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i can tell my legs will be absolutely dead by friday but god. im gonna Thrive when the weekend comes.
#💖#my bodys gone out of habit of the kinda physical labor i gotta do at work plus i havent exactly been Active over winter#so itll take a min to get back into that groove but i'll prolly be just fine by the time we get actual on-site work#& anyhow monday's my bday so i'll be treating myself the second i get off work friday#tomorrow's already wednesday which is like a mini friday so im practically there already#theres a joke here abt how i Just got a job & am already looking forward to the weekend but i do like the work so far#not much to judge since it's only been two days but i've got a routine once again & the to-from journey is leisurely#& the coworkers ive met thus far have been really cool#n they appreciate that im sb that Wants to do labor#i mean cmon it's like practically being paid to exercise#& all that outdoors active work will be Excellent for my health; my appetite has already returned#im a terrible judge of my own hunger levels at the Best of times but doing labor work w/ a scheduled lunch break like#helps my brain remember that food is Essential so even if i dont eat breakfast i still do lunch + my mom preps me dinner omw home#so now im eating at least two meals a day + snacks during the coffee break & that's only gnna Benefit my health#im actually slowly getting to a place where i Am very much the bitch that raises their hand when sb jokingly asks Who IS Okay#& once the 20+ weather hits im only getting more okay. (threat). :).#now i just gotta rack up enough expendable cash to afford weekly tennis#on sundays most likely bc saturdays are designated friend-&-or-Me days & i prolly wont ever wanna play after work#the tags got away from me. this is my journal/diary
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oysterie · 2 years
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look at this shit. i also forgot i get off so early on monday wednesday so like. techinically i could work full time those days. i will not though.
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kentopedia · 8 months
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౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ REASSURANCE — nanami kento
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kento comforts you when you're feeling down
contents: gn!reader, insecurities, pet names, this was written in like 30 mins so idk, 700 words, sfw
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“kento?” you asked, resting your hands on your lap. from the other side of the couch, he turned, smiling softly, placing his thumbs between the pages of the book to save his spot. your head was buried in the cushion, and you stared at him, blinking slowly. “you still love me, right?”
at first, he laughed, a small little sound that left his throat. then, when your face fell further, he cut himself off immediately, eyebrows drawing together tightly. “of course, i love you, sweetheart. i love you so much. why are you asking me?”
you shrugged, embarrassed, and looked away from him, at your hands locked together. “sometimes i just don’t know why. it makes more sense that you wouldn’t love me than that you do.”
a heavy frown drew on kento’s face, and inched closer, reaching out. “what do you mean? did i do something that made you feel unloved? if i did, honey, i’m sorry—”
which only served to make you feel worse, because, most things weren’t ever kento’s fault. he was so patient and caring, the sweetest man you’d ever known. and you weren’t sure that you deserved that kind of love at all.
“of course not, kento, you’re perfect.”
he smiled a bit, then, but that didn’t erase the concern in his eyes. “i’m certainly anything but perfect.” his fingertips ran along the back of your own, softly. “tell me what’s wrong, my love. i don’t like seeing you upset.”
you sniffed, willing the tears away as you looked past him once more, unable to meet his gentle eyes. “it’s stupid.”
“don’t say that. nothing you feel is ever stupid.”
and when a tear fell down your cheek at the kind words, you wiped it away before kento could see it, scrubbing violently at your skin.
“i’m fine, kento.”
“you’re not.” he paused, softened his voice. “it’s okay if you don’t want to talk about it. i won’t make you. but don’t keep it all bottled up just because you think you’re being silly. okay?”
you glanced over, blinked, stared at the way his smile was slightly tilted. the plumpness of his lips, the gentleness of his eyes. his soft, blond hair falling over his forehead, because it was sunday night, and he hadn’t bothered to style it.
how dearly you loved him. you’d rather die than live a life without him.
a sob broke loose from you, and you covered your face with your hands, sniffling. “i’m sorry. i’m sorry.”
kento said nothing, but drew you closer, pulling you onto his lap. tears fell down your cheeks, and though you didn’t want to look at him, he drew your lips to his own, the touch barely there, before he kissed across your cheeks, your forehead.
“why are you sorry?”
“i didn’t mean to cry. i’m being so dumb. and sensitive.”
“honey,” he sighed, stroking your cheeks, eyes almost pained from the sight of you so upset. “it’s okay. don’t apologize for crying. i love you. i love you, i love you.”
you breathed deeply, trying not to cry harder, hating how difficult it was for you to accept him irrevocable affections, sometimes. “but why? why would you choose me, kento? i don’t think i’m an easy person to love. i’m so… boring, and average, and you are amazing in every way.” you squeezed his hand, still resting on your cheeks, and leaned into it.
kento stared, forehead wrinkling, before he pushed you down to his chest, holding you close. a long inhale breathed deep into his body. “you aren’t any of those things, you know? you’re so lovable. you’re beautiful, caring, intelligent. anything but boring. anything but average.” he ran his fingers up the knots of your spine. “perhaps, i was put on this earth to prove you otherwise.”
you gave him a sad little smile. “you might be working on that for a while, ken.”
"that's okay." he laughed, soft, gently, enough to shake you against his chest before he kissed the top of your head. “that’s what love is, isn’t it? i'm not going to leave when things get tough.”
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ittoscumdump · 29 days
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Bathroom encounter
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Pairing: Logan Howlett x fem!Reader
Warnings: MDNI, 18+, Lowkey somewhat a plot, smut.
Summary: After a mission, you just wanna take a shower and relax, your luck is so bad that your bathroom suddenly decided to ruin your plans. But that isn’t gonna stop you from getting what you want even if it means using someone else’s bathroom. Well, not only did you get a nice shower, you even got to have fun.
Word count: 4k+
A/N: I personally don’t know what i just cooked, this is my first ever fanfic. I’m personally more of a reader than writer. I thought about this in Sunday morning and decided why not write it, and after years of reading, I believe my writing is acceptable and readable. I apologise in advance if my writing makes you cringe.
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After a long, tiring mission, you finally arrive at the X Mansion. All you wanna do is lock yourself in your room and take a nice hot shower to make the fatigue go away and take a long nap. Surely, things are gonna go your way, right?
You quickly run to your room and ignore everyone on sight. Few even greet you but the last thing you wanna do is stand and chat with a person. You lock your door and leave a long sigh out of exhaustion. You start to undress yourself and your mood lightens when you enter your bathroom “Finally..” just as you started to feel better your hopes were immediately crushed. You turn the lever left and right, you even pull it multiple times but not a single droplet of water comes out of the shower head. Great. “FUCK!” you cursed angrily.
You come out of your bathroom and sit on your bed ‘why does this always happen to me?’ you press your fingers on your temples thinking about which of your past sins led to this situation. You felt like crying, then you let out a sigh out of frustration until you remembered something. Logan was sent out on a mission too and he wouldn’t be back for a while.. so using his bathroom won’t cause any problem, right? Yes, you could ask someone to fix your problem but you seriously don’t wanna talk to someone right now and Logan’s room was right across the hallway so, why not.
You quickly wear whatever you find, not caring if it’s literally the dirty clothes you just got out of. You pick up a towel and grab your bathroom products and open your door. You look around and sneakily make your way to Logan’s room not wanting to be spotted by anyone. You’re in front of his door, you reach your hand to the door knob praying it’s not locked and you feel relieved as the door unlocks.
You do a final look around before entering the room and quickly close it behind. You lean your back on the door as you look around, and actually thinking back, you’ve never been inside his room. The room is somewhat organised to your surprise, your nose is filled with the faint smell of his cigar which he always smokes and also a hint of whiskey. You don’t know why but you like the smell.
You walk towards the bathroom and toss your clothes in a corner and enter. You hang the towel and turn on the water. You become happy that you can finally relax and take a nice shower. As you wash all your fatigue away, letting the warm droplets make contact with your skin. You hum a melody as you continue showering.
After spending about more than 30 mins, you finally finish. You feel like a brand new person. Your mood has lightened and so has your body. You move to the sink with a mirror to wash your face.
Meanwhile, Logan's door opens, Logan groans as he enters his room "tch, what a day.." he mumbles to himself in a low voice. His attention is immediately drawn and walks towards the bathroom when he hears the water running and realises someone is in his bathroom, his eyebrows furrows. He waits until there is silence before he swings the door open.
You are unaware of what is happening outside the bathroom and casually splash water on your face. You turn off the sink and turn to take your towel and suddenly- the door swings open.
You quickly turn your head to the door and you are met with Logan's eyes. Your eyes widen as your breathing stops. He stares at you in awe and takes in your wet naked figure before looking down and says "Sorry." as he quickly closes the door behind him.
It takes a few seconds for you to comprehend what had happened, your face turns into a tomato and embarrassment takes over you. You quickly wrap the towel around you and stay in the bathroom for a while recalling what had just happened and how are you gonna get out of here without having to meet Logan.
You bite your lip in frustration and embarrassment, you suddenly think back about the way he looked at you ‘did he just check me out before lea-’ you shake your head ‘this isn't what you should thinking about, y/n.. ugh i wanna disappear.. I don’t wanna go out like this.’
Finally, you inhale and exhale and calm yourself ‘okay, it's okay.. i can do this. It's not like he's gonna kill me for using his bathroom, right?’ You think as you reach for the door and open it. You see Logan sitting on his bed, looking like he was waiting, obviously.
He stands up and looks at you, you chuckle awkwardly and say “Hey, aren't you supposed to come back a few days later?- okay, thats not even the point- so like- the water in my room wasn't working so l decided to use your bathroom, haha-” you laugh nervously to not make things awkward.
He walks towards you slowly as his eyes narrow, you walk backwards and gulp when your back hits the bathroom door. He left a small gap between you two, he was literally towering over you and looks down at you. Was he always this tall? Fuck.
Your mind turns into a mess seeing him like this ‘is he mad at me?’ ‘Is he gonna kill me?’ ‘Fuck, why does he look so hot?’ ‘Wait wha?-’
Logan starts speaking cutting off your thoughts “Yeah, i was but i was able to finish my work quickly than i imagined so i came back-”
You cut him off before he says anything more “Look please don’t kill me, i’m sorry. I swear i didn’t mess with your stuff and i even bought my own stuff to use, please spare this poor soul who just wanted a nice shower” you almost say this in one breath.
Logan chuckles softly at your innocent plea, “I’m not mad, bub.” in a low, deep tone and smirks.
You sigh out in relief and put your hand on your chest “oh, thank god..”
You spot your clothes which you had tucked in the corner and go to pick it up. Logan moves a little and watches your every move.
You have your clothes in your arms now. You clear your throat “So um, thank you i guess?- for the bathroom?-” you say awkwardly. God you just wanna leave this room and let the void swallow you whole.
You head to the door and just as you slightly open the door it’s shut again. You see Logan’s hand on the door, he was behind you. So close.
“You’re gonna go out like that, doll?” He says in a low voice, almost a whisper.
You can feel him behind you, you can feel his heat on you. “Yeah..?” You say in a low voice, slowly turning to him.
He moves back and goes to his wardrobe getting something. You watch him with curiosity and raise your eyebrow. He takes out two pieces of clothing which looks like a t-shirt? And what? Your eyebrows furrow and you look at him and then the clothes he has in his hold and back to his eyes as he walk towards you again.
“Huh?” You whisper out, turning your head in confusion.
“Wear these, don’t want anyone else to see you like this.” He says in a low voice, his smirk still plastered on his face.
You chuckle softly in confusion “Logan, it’s all good. I seriously don’t need it and my room is just across” you give him a smile, trying to politely decline. Who would’ve thought the cold lone wolf can be a little protective. Cute.
Logan leans in this time, he tucks a wet strand behind your ear “Not taking any risks, princess.”
“What will they think when they see a girl with only a small piece of cloth covering her, coming out of my room, hm?” He whispers in your ear. “Unless, you want that.”
His voice makes a shiver run down your spine, your cheeks slightly heat up when you realise what he means. You nod obediently, your breath uneven as you drop your clothes from your grasp and take Logan’s offering. “You’re right…”
Logan smirks as he sits on his bed, watching you.
You unfold the grey t-shirt “You wanna see me change or something? Turn around” you blush and hide your body with your arms.
“I have already seen it, darling. Don’t gotta be shy.” He says playfully, leaning back.
Your ears and face heat up and you immediately throw the trousers he gave you at him. “S-shut up!” You pout.
Logan lets the piece hits his face and grabs it “Kidding, princess. I’ll turn around.” He turns around, his back facing you now. “I did see everything though” he says and grins.
You ignore him and immediately wear the t-shirt and remove the towel. The t-shirt is really big on you. It falls above your knees, maybe you wouldn’t even need to wear bottoms. You can smell his scent, it’s nice.
“P-pass me the trousers now.” You say, looking away with your arms crossed.
Logan turns around and looks at you. God you look so fucking beautiful. Seeing you in his t-shirt makes him feel proud, like you’re his girl. Well, he wants you to be his girl. He stands up and walks towards you, he thinks your pouty embarrassed expression makes you look even more cuter.
You reach your hand out still pouting and flustered. Why do you have to be so adorable. He takes your hand and is towering over you again but this time he makes sure to leave a little to no gap between.
Your eyes never leaving his, you feel your words are stuck in your throat. Your heart flutters because of how close he is.
You’ve always had a school girl crush on Logan, the way he sometimes flirted with you, the way he would tease you, the way he would make eye contact with you during training. It makes you go head over heels for him. But you never had hope that this one sided crush could turn into something. Logan was always known to be smooth with the ladies and you were also very younger than him. You hated when he called you kid. ‘He probably acts the same way with others’ you would always tell yourself that and shrug your feelings off.
But right now, your heart is pumping is crazy. It might even come out. You are unable to predict Logan’s next moves.
Logan notices how stiff you are. He leaves your hand and caresses your cheek. “Relax, princess.” He slurs in a deep, low and gentle tone.
If you could scream right now, you definitely would. Not because of fear or anything but because of how crazy he is making you feel inside.
You close your eyes as you breathe in and out “Logan, i-” Logan cuts you off and crashes his lips on yours. You muffle something but he doesn’t care. His hands grips your thighs and start to wander under your shirt. His hands were everywhere-tracing the curve of your waist, skimming up your ribs, his touch igniting a fire in you that you hadn't realised was there. He was careful, almost reverent, despite the rough edge to his movements, as if he was holding himself back from completely losing control.
He pulls away, chest heaving. “You okay with this, princess?” You nod, trying to catch your breath. He proceeds to leave wet kisses on your neck “Wanted you so bad, baby. Always wanted to do this.” He attacks your neck with aggressive bites, leaving hickeys. You whimper his name as you grabbed his fluffy hair and tugged them whenever he found that sensitive spot. You could feel his smile forming on his face, while sucking and licking your, now red neck. He leaves your neck and kisses you again.
You bring your hands up to his neck, giving in. Logan palms one of your breasts, his thumb brushing over your nipple before giving your breast a little squeeze making you gasp. He takes this chance to shove his tongue in and taste you even more. You moan into the kiss and your hand grips the collar of his shirt.
He pulls away just enough to look into your eyes, his breathing ragged. You can see the neediness–you are just as desperate as him. “Need you now, pretty girl,” he growls. He pulls your t-shirt over your head, throwing it wherever.
“Need you too, Lo,” you whisper desperately. His gaze darkens as he picks you up effortlessly. You wrap your thighs around his waist and gently caress his face, smiling softly.
Logan takes you to the bed and puts you down. He felt your wetness, your arousal. How he was grateful for those urgent instincts right now. Your needy eyes not leaving his as you watched him creeping down. His devilish smile not leaving his face for a second. The image of Logan's face between your legs drives you crazy and you couldn't wait to finally feel him. “You smell s’fucking good, baby.” he said before his lips leaned against your folds.
Logan starts to spear his tongue inside of you, making swirls around your clit when he looks up at you. “Ohh my god- Logan- Mmh~” you mumble, you try to protest at first, but your hips grinding against his face told him enough. He grabs your legs and forces them down onto the bed as he buries his face even deeper into your heat, making you squirm even more under his grasp.
You throw your head back onto your pillow, gripping onto the sheets when he pulls away to nip at your inner thigh, pressing kisses on them before he continues to fuck your cunt with his tongue. His tongue laves through your folds, savoring you, exploring you. “Tastes so good, beautiful,” Logan mumbles against you. “Always s’sweet, s’perfect.”
You can only curse under your breath, biting your lip and let out a stifled moan in response. You feel him chuckle against you between the licking and sucking of your wetness.
“S’good, s’fucking good.” he moans into your cunt, the vibrations making you fuck yourself deeper into his unrelenting tongue. Nose rubbing purposefully in small circles on your clit. Fucking you with his tongue the way he wants to with his cock and he didn’t give a fuck if he suffocated in-between your thighs - he fucking loved it.
“Hngh- shit shit shit yes!” your nails are digging into Logan’s scalp at this point. And you really can’t help but angle his head just right so that his tongue curls against that one spot inside your plushy walls. He fucking loves the way you use him.
Logan’s letting out a strangled little grunt at being so used by you as you drag your cunt across his pretty mouth. Body jerking into his as he hits that spot over and over-
“Lo- hah!” thighs quivering, Logan’s grip bruising as he holds you down. “M’m gonna-” Your plushy walls sucking him up, thighs squeezing around his face.
“Mhm?”
“Cum! M’gonna cum- ah- fuck fuck fuck-”
He groans huskily into your cunt. Throwing his head back ever-so-slightly to let your slick slide down his throat - greedily waiting for more that was to come. “Then show me how you cum, baby. Cum all over my tongue.”
And then you are - all over Logan’s pretty face. And fuck he doesn’t think you’ve ever looked prettier. Holding his head in place as you rock your hips into his waiting mouth, letting him drink you in so greedily. Clamping down on his tongue like you were trying to milk him. Your cunt firm on his face and swollen lips letting out such pretty whines of his name like a prayer as you fucking use him for your high.
He’s pulling away, your slick decorating his lips so prettily. You watch him so intensely, mouth parted, eyes glossy as he runs a thumb along his mouth, pooling your juices on his fingers and popping them into his mouth. One by one.
Your jaw drops a little in disbelief as Logan licks his fingers clean, eyes rolling to the back of his head at your addictive taste. Oh he was ruining you without even touching you. He now pulls his shirt off him, revealing his hot body and delicious abs. You admire the sight, nearly drooling.
“Not enough, princess.” he chuckles. “C’mon, gimme a kiss.”
And, really, how could you ever say no to that face? Because you’re pulling him to you, capturing his lips in such a sloppy, filthy kiss - forcing you to taste yourself.
You pull away and slur desperately “Want you s’bad, Lo, please-” you don’t even have the patience to finish the sentence before you’re fumbling with his belt.
“Greedy, are we?” Logan teases, helping you.
Logan’s pulling his boxers off - so tight with his swollen cock, a dark patch right where his weeping head was. You looked down to see his cock and holy, your pupils widened at the sight. Logan chuckles a bit, catching your attention. “Too big for you, princess?” he asked provocatively. But this question sent more vibrations into your eager, soaking cunt, than any provocation or fear that it won't fit.
Logan was massive - so long and flushed your favourite shade of pretty pink. He was achingly hard and throbbing, springing up to smear precum all over his abs.
He kisses you as his hand makes their way to grip your ass, the tip of his cock nudging against your entrance. "Please," you beg, trying to sink down onto him, but he holds you back, holding your hips in place.
Logan chuckles softly “Please what, baby? Use your words,” All your respect was long gone and you cared about nothing more than screwing this man. “Please, fuck me, Lo,” you put your forehead to his, while moving your hips back and forth, desperately trying to feel him. “Wan’ your cock in me s’bad, please”
What kind of man would deny you when you’re begging like this? He certainly can't.
“So fucking desperate and impatient,” Logan teases, suddenly thrusting into you, bottoming out, splitting you open.
“S’too big- Hngh!” You moaned as he was stretching your walls, those wet squishy sounds were music to your ears. “Look at me” he cupped your cheek and made you look into his lustful eyes. “That's it, good girl,” he clenched his teeth as he was almost balls deep into you. Your fingernails drag down his back, leaving bright red trails that heal almost immediately.
He presses his forehead to yours. He's deep inside you, unmoving. “Lo,” you whine. “P-please, m-move.”
“Wanna feel you first,” he grunts, pressing a chaste kiss to your lips. You're shuddering against him almost instantly, walls clenching around his cock. “S’fucking tight,” he murmurs, his lips meeting yours again. “S’ warm, fuck.” He finally pulls out and thrusts all the way back in, somehow deeper this time.
You both savor the feeling of him inside you, two halves of a whole forming into one, your bodies completely intertwined.
“Doing so good f’me,” Logan praises, the vibrations of his delicious voice going straight to your core. “Such a good girl,” He slides out, his cock dragging along your walls, and slams back in. “Like that?” He grunts, filling you up. You nod immediately and hum a soft yes, and Logan rams into you, his hips snapping roughly.
“It feels so good, Lo,” you whimper, the sound of his skin slapping against yours making your walls clench. “O-only want you.”
“I know, pretty girl,” Logan groans as he thrusts deeper, harder. “Always knew,” His pace is insatiable, unrelenting, frantic. “Think, i never notice? The way you look at me? The way you try not to rub your thighs when i tease you?” His thumb strokes your clit, adding more pressure with every swipe. “Think i don’t notice your lil’crush on me, hm?”
Your walls flutter around him as he flicks your overstimulated clit. You can’t even form words let alone comprehend what he’s saying by the way he’s fucking you right now. “L-logan, i-” you close your watery eyes and furrow your eyebrows at the overstimulation. “M’close- ah-” you whine as Logan plunges into you, his hips snapping against yours.
He coos “Shh, it’s okay, princess,” placing a kiss on your forehead. He pulls his hips back, far enough that his angry, red tip is just kissing your sloppy entrance, surging forward, forward, forward- “Y’don’t know how fucking long I’ve wanted this, princess. Shit.”
“Needed this ever since I saw you,” he whispers into your lips, ragged and so fucked-out. “And you just had to be here today, fuck,” Each word punctuated by a harsh, heavy thrust. He’s drilling into you faster. Harder. Hips burning now as he fucks you like some animal.
“You know how fucking crazy you made feel when i saw you like that, hm? Wanted to bend you over that sink and fuck you right there.” he slurs, fingers almost a blur on your clit as he matches his place. Cock hot, and throbbing inside you.
You see stars behind your eyes at both the pleasure and sheer overstimulation as Logan starts fucking your cunt as best he could without fucking breaking you - but, honestly, he didn’t give a shit if you cried. He just wanted to stuff you full and have you cum harder than you ever have in your life.
“Fuck- fuck yes m’gonna cum Lo- hngh.” You pull him closer to you, allowing him to bury his face in the crook of your neck. Logan bites your pulse point, licking soothingly once he's finished. “Cum f’me, princess,” His thumb is still on your clit, drawing those tight little circles. “C’mon baby, cum on my cock,”
“Lo!” your eyes fly open, “Yes yes yes-” you whimper as you finally reach your high. Your walls flutter again, your eyes roll back, eyebrows furrowing as you moan a string of curses and Logan's name.
“That’s it, baby. Good girl” Logan says softly, pressing a kiss on your temple. Hips sloppy and absolutely soaked with precum and slick. Logan isn't finished with you yet. You know there's more to come. “Think you can give me one more, baby? I know you can.”
“S’too m-much, Lo,” you choke, the tension already building back up at the bottom of your belly. “I-...” You trail off, fucked out beyond belief. He's still splitting you open with every thrust, filling you to the brim. “Fuck, princess. Squeezing m’so tight, want m’to come inside, hm?”
“Yes yes- please,” you whimper. Logan pinches your clit, circling roughly, and the current drags you under. It's more intense this time, stars flooding your vision as you let go.
He feels you shatter around him, your pussy squeezing him so tightly. He thrusts into you few more times and then with a low groan, and one, harsh little thrust spilling inside you, painting your walls. Fingers digging into your skin as he holds your hips to his, letting your cunt be filled up so sloppily. Pumping thick, hot ropes of seed that dribbled out of you each time he pumped his hips into yours. Fucking it deeper and deeper inside you.
You share one breath, your chests heaving together as Logan's cock stalls inside you. He strokes your clit, riding out your orgasm, easing you down from your high. His fingertips slip away from your bud and trail up your body, his arm wrapping around your back. He pulls you into his chest, holding you close, his cock still half-hard inside you.
He presses kisses to any skin he can get his mouth on until you pull him back up to your lips.
“L-logan?” You say in a low voice.
“Hm?” He hums in response.
“I-I..” you trail off “l-love you..” you blush, looking away.
“I love you too, doll.” He smirks at you and drops a kiss to your forehead.
You snuggle into him, giggling.
“Shower?” He asks and looks at you. But something about his smirk tells you that he still wants to continue but in the bathroom.
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˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ Tornado Warnings | Jonathan Crane
hi im back! sorry for being so inactive. i'm trying to write whenever i have like a min to breathe from uni...anyways i wanted to write something that feels like fall? does that make sense? probably not LOL
summary — the best thing to do to pass time in a power outage is sex, obviously.
warnings — smut, p in v, unprotected sex, creampie, oral (f!receiving), super soft lover boy jonathan, fluff
word count — 1.8k
masterlist
MDNI 18+ ONLY
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“Oh.”
Your voice cut through the silence in Jonathan and yours’ shared, cozy bedroom as the previously dimly lit room was now consumed in total darkness. “I don’t like this,” you said to your boyfriend who was beside you in bed as you tossed your book down, “I was trying to read.” 
A tornado warning for Gotham was issued earlier, but they said that’s all it was — just a warning. However, the turbulent wind clearly had some effect on your home, as the power was now out. Like you said to Jonathan; you were just trying to read, but it seemed like Mother Nature had other plans. 
Plus, you weren’t a big fan of the dark. Couldn’t the power have gone off at any other time besides nearly midnight? 
“You’re funny, you know that?” Jonathan said with a chuckle, and if you could’ve seen him right now, you knew you’d see him smiling. You heard some shuffling as Jonathan reached over, presumably to grab his phone, and turning on the flashlight. “Stay here, I’m going to grab some candles to light.” 
“I’m scared,” you whined. “I hate the dark.”
“You’ll live,” he teased, getting up before leaving the room for a few minutes until he returned, candles in hand. “Good thing you insisted we go to Target and get all these candles for fall.” 
For someone as malicious and unhinged as he was, his tough exterior would crack (more like completely shatter) when he was around you. Since Jonathan is constantly consumed by his work, he likes to spend time with you as much as he can when he isn’t at Arkham (and poisoning Gotham) working late. So, that means if you want to get Starbucks and go shopping for fall candles at Target — he’s there. 
No questions asked.
Sure, he may have been a corrupt psychiatrist as well as a hardened criminal and one of Gotham’s many rogues, but that didn’t mean he didn’t want to do domestic things with his girlfriend. On Saturday nights, he would be working till the early hours of the morning with his patients and his toxin — only to spend the following Sunday wrapped up in bed with you watching silly Netflix shows.
The best of both worlds is how Jonathan would put it. 
“You always say I have too many,” you huffed, to which he laughed softly, lighting the 3-wick candles.
“That’s because you have like, what, fifty? Our entire house smells like maple pecan waffles all the time, twenty-four-seven — but you get so excited over them. It’s cute. I love watching you get all excited over this kind of stuff.” 
You blushed at his words, looking over at his handsome face, now illuminated by the dim light of multiple lit candles placed throughout your bedroom. “Shut up,” you mumble, watching him get back into bed with you. “Just come here and love me.”
He looked at you with those heart-stopping blue eyes of his, pulling you in for a soft kiss. Instinctively, you wrapped your around his shoulders, deepening the kiss. “I’ve missed you,” he said between kisses, dragging them down your neck and nipping gently at the delicate skin. “Hate when work keeps me away from you, my dear.”
“I know,” you said quietly, eyes fluttering shut from the feeling of his lips against your skin. “I hate it, too. I…” You felt yourself losing your train of thought as his hands roamed your body, settling on your waist as you two lay cozied up in the bed. 
“Let me show you how much I’ve missed you, my darling,” he whispered, squeezing your waist gently as you rested your head comfortably against the pillows, lying back. “All I could think about at work was you. All alone at home…waitin’ for me.” 
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
He left a trail of kisses all down your body, slowly building up to where you wanted him to go. Luckily for Jonathan, tonight — even amid a tornado warning — you decided to wear your favourite lace slip to bed with nothing underneath, making it all the more easy for him to access every part of you. 
Within minutes, he had you slipping out of your lace as you tossed the delicate garment somewhere onto the bedroom floor with only one thing on your mind right now. The rather intimate and romantic lighting from the collection of candles dimly lighting up the room wasn’t helping your case either. 
Jonathan’s intoxicating touch brought you back to reality, and you weren’t sure how it happened (not that you care how it came to be), but his hands were gently resting on your thighs as he lay between your legs, his crystalline blue eyes filled with hunger. 
At this very moment, you sent a silent thank you to Mother Nature for causing this to happen during ovulation week because yes, you were so horny that your glistening cunt was dripping onto the bedsheets underneath you and he hadn’t even touched you there yet. All you knew was that you needed to be touched, to be fucked, to be loved right now and thank god Jonathan was here to satisfy that primal need in you. 
“Please, Jon — we haven’t had sex in like two days,” you whined, causing him to let out a breathless laugh as he smiled sweetly at you. He may have found it funny that you were this desperate (after only 48 hours…) but you didn’t find a thing about this situation humorous. With your hormones clouding your judgment, you started to beg your loving boyfriend. “Come on Jonathan, I–”
Before you could muster up any more whines and pleas, he licked a fat stripe up your already soaking cunt, swiping his tongue through your folds as you arched your back and let out a guttural moan.
“O-oh—“ 
He lapped up your cunt skillfully as his hands kept a firm grip on your thighs, making sure that he was eating you out until you couldn’t take it anymore. “Delicious,” he mumbled against your cunt, continuing to lick, nip, and eat your pussy out as if it was the last thing he’d ever get to do in this lifetime. 
Mere minutes in and you were already arching your back, breathlessly saying his name over and over again — he could never get tired of hearing you like this. The way you’d feverishly moan “Oh, Jonathan,” and occasionally if you were exceptionally into it, you’d sometimes call him “baby,” and that always wound him up. Jonathan could spend ages with his face buried between your thighs, but it seemed that you were already close to coming pretty quickly. 
“Yes! Please–” you frantically moaned, feeling the waves of your release starting to wash over you with his tongue deep inside your soaking hole, lapping up all your juices. “Jon, baby, I’m gonna…”
Jonathan continued to eat you out as if he were a starved man through your orgasm, letting you ride it out and rut against his face until you were pushing his head away softly from the slight overstimulation. After getting up from between your legs, he wiped your arousal off of his chin, looking at you as if you were the answer to his every prayer. 
“God, you’re like a dream,” he said softly, causing your cheeks to heat up. 
Before any more romantic words could roll off the tip of his tongue, you were helping him out of his black pyjama shirt and his checkered pyjama pants (and yes, you found his love of checkered pyjama pants adorable). As soon as you tugged his pyjama pants down, his cock sprung out, slapping his stomach lightly.
“Fuck, look how hard you get me, darling,” he praised, stroking himself a few times before lining himself up with your drooling hole. He smirked as he teased the tip of his cock against your folds, watching you make a mess of the sheets underneath you just from how wet you were alone once again. “Looks like you’ve been missing me too, hm darling?” 
“So bad,” you agreed with a whimper, which turned straight into a moan as he started to push the head of his cock in. He let you get adjusted to him as you slowly took him inch by inch until you were full with his thick cock, walls stretching to accommodate his size.
“F-fuck, so f..full,” you choked out as he started to move slowly, warm hands coming to hold your hips as he gently started fucking you in the candlelight. 
“But you take it so well, darling,” he cooed softly, fucking you with a bit more force now. “Such a good girl, fuck. Look at you, taking my cock so deep.” 
“Mmm,” you mindlessly babbled, his fat cock causing you to lose all inhibitions as he (literally) fucked you stupid. “Oh, b-big–” 
As you squeaked out whatever words you could form, he let out a low groan himself, starting to really pound your warm, tight hole. You could feel his tip brushing up against that spongy spot inside of you, which in return caused you to start moaning almost helplessly.
“Right there?” He teased, watching your face contort in pure bliss and pleasure. “That feel good, darling? Jesus, you’re so pretty…”
He choked out a few incohesive curses as he felt you tighten up around him while he talked you through it, clearly already close from him plowing your cunt for just a few minutes. This was usually the best type of sex between you and Jonathan — whenever you two would just ravish each other in bed all…lovingly. Extra points if it was romantic like this; under the candlelight in a power outage. 
“Yes! Fuck, keep going, Jon,” you hoarsely screamed out as he fucked you raw, slamming his cock into your tight little cunt as you got close to your second orgasm and he was following right behind you.
“So tight,” he mumbled. “Perfect fucking pussy, so fucking good—” 
“Gon’ cum..I’m gonna–!” You whined before your vision went white, cunt clenching down around his length as you drenched him and the sheets. 
Jonathan looked down in awe as a clear liquid poured out of you, spilling all over him, his cock, and the sheets. The sight of you squirting that much sent his brain into overdrive as he gave a few more sloppy thrusts before spurting his warm, sticky cum onto your plush walls. As he filled your cunt, he let out a rather loud groan, gripping your hips so tight it almost hurt. 
For a moment, all was still and silent as the two of you caught your breaths in the now slightly stuffy bedroom that smelt like a mix of sex and whatever pumpkin-spiced and cinnamon-scented candles you had going. Jonathan was the first to speak as he finally pulled out of you, careful not to hurt you, and pulled you close into his arms the second he laid back down beside you. 
“I’m never going to stop you from getting your candles ever again,” he decided jokingly, kissing the top of your head. 
“See,” you said proudly, “they set the mood and they smell good.” 
“True,” he said, pausing for a moment before looking down at the soaked bedding then back at you with a smile. “So, we should probably clean the sheets…”
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cats and soup.
note: i have a newfound obsession and it's cats and soup so this might be a little niche but it's meant for me and i just wanted to word vomit lmfao
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cats and soup, that's your latest obsession. all it took was five minutes of your friend introducing you to the game before you were completely captivated by the world of cute little animated cats making soup on your phone.
so much so that you had to show your boyfriend.
obviously. it's a game about cats. who else would you rather squeal about it with?
though, much to your disappointment, minho doesn't seem very impressed as you try to get him to look at your phone screen for more than ten seconds.
okay. little meanie.
"why would you need to play a game like this when you have our actual babies right over there?"
"i have them in here too!" you'd argue. "look! i named them soonie, doongie and dori. aren't they so cute? soonie is on soup duty, doongie is chopping carrots, and dori is grating cabbages. i even got them cute little hats!"
the mention of his cats featured in the game gets minho to spare you a glance, intrigued for a fleeting moment before he's turning away again.
you'd scowl at his refusal to entertain you but then you'd admit defeat pretty quickly in favor of immersing in your phone once more. it's cats !! making soups !!
it's not unusual for you two to be in separate bubbles while sitting side by side. you're not one of those couples who has to do everything with each other, but you did kinda hope that this would be something for you to have fun with together.
but oh well, if minho isn't interested, then you can't force him. the game is still fun though. even though you go to bed that night a little bummed out, you still fall asleep thinking about getting a black kitten and naming it mimo. it'd be cute, maybe you'd even put him on lemon squeezing duty.
fast forward to the next morning, when he literally shakes you awake at the ass crack of dawn, calling your name frantically.
your first thought is the house must be burning down, because lee minho never acts like this.
"i finally got you!"
"you got me what?"
"i got your cat!"
"what?"
actually, on second thought, the only time that you've seen him this hyped up was when you'd gotten you two matching pjs with soonie, doongie and dori printed on them.
"see?!" then the guy is full on shoving his phone in your face, the sudden brightness of his screen almost taking your eyes out that you have to push his hand away.
"min!"
"sorry. here."
he'd lower the brightness and hold the device a safe distance from your face, impatiently waiting for your eyes to adjust to whatever it is that he's trying to show you.
it's a cat.
an animated cat.
specifically, a cats and soup animated cat, named after you.
"you named a cat after me?"
"yeah i was waiting for ages to get another black cat. i got one first and named it after me. now we can be a black cat couple. look at the cat tower i got us-"
"minho, what the fuck? when did you even start playing?"
"i downloaded it after you fell asleep."
"have you been playing all night? did you even sleep?"
"no, but that's beside the point. look, i'm trying to show you!"
you love him, you do. truly. completely. most ardently. you recognize that this is one of the cutest things that he's done. but jesus christ...
"it's sunday. it's 6 in the morning."
"yeah i know, but-"
"i'll look at it later."
"you're up, you can look now. i got you a potted plant that grows from your head and-"
"lee minho, let me fucking go back to sleep!"
you may have unintentionally created a monster.
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just her color
cw: 2.7 wc, female reader, violence, gore, it gets pretty descriptive, slightly nsfw (y'all have sex lol), dark academia(ish) setting
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“A girl has been found dead on campus” Jean’s brows are furrowed as he skims through his twitter timeline “shit, I think I know who she is?”
“What?” Sasha straightens up in her seat, iced latte promptly put down. The table grows silent, you’ve grabbed Jean’s wrist to peek at his screen in disbelief. Someone dying at your college, the most boring place on earth, is difficult to believe.
“Holy shit” you let go of your friend’s wrist and meet Sasha’s gaze “it’s Yuki. Remember? She used to be in our history class”
She opens her mouth in a small “o”, realization freezing her surprised features.
“Nakamura Yuki?” Eren’s breath catches in his throat “that’s impossible, I literally saw her last week. Didn’t she tutor students with you, ‘Min?”
“Yeah but that was last year” Armin shakes his head “what the hell happened? From what I remember she didn’t care for parties or weird companies”
“Not sure, they’re jut saying she’s been found outside her dorm” Jean puts away his phone with a grim look on his face, cappuccino long forgotten. Connie used to have a crush on that girl, he hopes to find him before he has the chance to get the news from social media.
“Do you guys think it was an accident?” all pigment seems to have been sucked out of Eren’s face and you instinctively push back some of the hair from his forehead.
“An accident? What d’you mean?” you tilt your head to the side, pose the question carefully weighing each word.
“I don’t know. Alcohol poisoning? Maybe someone spiked her drink?”
A shudder teases your spine, almost makes you retract your hand. “So you’re saying… someone did it?”
“Not on purpose. I’m just speculating”
“Why?” Sasha chimes in “stop it, it’s weird. If something’s off, the school is gonna tell us”
“Yeah, right, they definitely will” you scoff.
“Maybe it was like a heart attack” Armin seems unconvinced himself as he finishes his tea, surely gone cold by now.
“Sure, that sounds likely” you push back the mug containing your black coffee, suddenly nauseous “next time my parents ask how things are going up here, I’ll finally have the perfect answer. Oh, you’ll never guess the novelty: girls are being murdered on campus now!”
“No one’s been murdered” Eren is annoyed and eager to change the subject. Everyone else is too. You kinda get it: it’s weird that a girl you all somehow knew is suddenly dead, it’s even weirder that something so dreadful had to happen on your campus of all places.
On the slopes of mount Rokko, in Kobe, nothing really ever happens. You attend a private university that counts a few thousand students and an international exchange program that no one really ever applies to. Your professors like to call the insistution “Kobe’s best kept secret” but to you that’s just a pretentious way to present an old school with an even older set of rules that simply make your lives excruciatingly harder. No visits allowed except for graduations or special ceremonies, everyone is supposed to be in their rooms by 9:30 pm (as security keeps a record of students who are caught roaming in the corridors at night), no one is allowed to leave the building except for Sundays and even then if you don’t have your identity card with you, the chances that you’ll spend the night in the woods are pretty high because security doesn’t really give a shit.
But if they don’t mind leaving students locked outside for the night (it has happed), the appreciation for bribes runs equally high: it’s not uncommon among students to offer as much as ¥308,230 to buy their silence for a plethora of activities. Money is power even on top of mount Rokko and it can be used to secure sex, parties, drugs, alcohol, just like it does anywhere else.
Which is why everyone seems to be asking themselves the same question: who the hell used money to secure an assassination?
Soon after the finding and despite the rector’s efforts, Yuki’s picture was passed around in group chats and social media posts like a collectible card. Most senders had the decency to forward the blurred version of the photo but pretty much everyone saw the first, original variant, and the school couldn’t keep it a secret for a minute longer: a murder it was.
You spent the following days unable to get proper sleep, eyes wide open scanning the ceiling for the majority of the night, the image of that girl’s empty, horrified stare chasing you until dawn, pulse rapidly tapping against your skin at the thought. Sasha doesn’t speak of her nightmares but you’re sure they resemble your own dreams: one hand pointlessly closed around a pale throat slashed open, the dark halo of thin hair framing a face gone cold, liquid red lipstick smeared across lips like a macabre tribute to joker.
If few can get out of the school, basically no stranger can step foot inside. Which means, and every single female student is painfully aware of it, that they are sharing their campus with a killer.
You’ve all been moving in packs lately, no girl has been seen wandering around the school without her friends or boyfriend and you’re no exception: if Sasha is almost always escorted by Jean and Connie, Eren basically refuses to leave your side and has been staying the night more and more often.
“I know cops freak you out” he tries to keep the spirits high, indulges in some humor to ease part of the tension in your shoulders as the investigation unfolds and strangers search your dorm a million times.
“Pigs” you utter under your breath shortly before flashing a smile to one of the officers you pass by on your way to class “how dumb d’you have to be to be still groping in the dark? They’re clueless”
He shrugs, trying hard to suppress a smirk because what the hell, they’re only there because a girl has been murdered and it wouldn’t be appropriate to smile “they’ll never figure it out anyway”
You look up at him, confusion evident by the crease between your brows. Eren clears his throat.
“Everyone knows the school wants to handle this shit internally” he lowers his voice in a murmur “I wouldn’t be surprised if the rector was actually trying to get rid of them”
“What the fuck? Why would he do that? Parents are already freaking out, threatening to pick up their kids and cancel their enrollments, does the rector want to reign over an abandoned bulk of shitty old bricks?”
“How much did you look into those articles about our school that Armin sent us last year?” Eren tilts his head a little, an amused twitch of the lips indicating that he’s about to do the thing you hate the most: be a smartass.
“Not much” you stand defeated and your boyfriend grins.
“It’s not the first time someone’s died here, Gako has a pretty long history of secret societies that are believed to have performed some fucked up initiations. It’s mainly why we don’t have them anymore, at least officially. The degree of independence from the rectorate was pretty high, they essentially had an agreement: vivit et vivet”.
“What?” your brows furrow, skeptical. Eren basks in your confusion.
“Live and let live. Keep your nose out of our business and we’ll do our best to stay discreet”
You refrain from asking where the fuck he even learned latin as a more urgent question arises. “But why would the rectorate even agree?”
“Those students came from some of the richest, most influential families of the Taisho era. Gako cares a lot about history and tradition and…”
“Prestige”
Eren nods.
“They kept the money flowing and the name shining. Those societies were Gako, I bet our current rector himself is an ex member of the Cauda Venenum or whatever the fuck it was”
There’s a pause as the story sinks in, all the implications that single revelation could hold. “Wow. You seem to have really enjoyed those articles, Armin must’ve been thrilled”
He laughs a bit at that and shrugs, pulls you closer to his body, pretends not to notice the inkling shadow of suspicion quivering beneath the surface of your words.
You don’t point out that what happened to Yuki is far from resembling an initiation, nor you dwell on the main undertone of the entire conversation: if what Eren said is true, the case could very well remain unsolved and the murderer would be allowed to roam free through the halls, perhaps for evermore. The mere thought sends a chill down your spine. Vivit et vivet.
The Yuki topic is banned from being discussed with Sasha, she gets nervous really easily and is already painfully on edge every single day. Despite Jean and Connie basically never leaving her side, you know part of her wishes she had a boyfriend to rely on or keep close at night, one that would pull her into him as she wakes up from those hellish nightmares, chest heaving painfully. That’s precisely why you don’t bring up Eren to her: not his weirdly cemented assumptions, not the fact that you want to keep your distance for at least a day or two. And so, as it often happens, Armin becomes the designated listener to all your bitching and moaning.
“He’s just being weird, I guess” you grumble over breakfast, a portion of blueberry pancakes covered in dense syrup “and I don’t know how to make it clear to him”
“How to make what clear to him?”
“That he’s giving me the creeps”
Your friend chuckles at that.
“I’m sure Eren’s simply as freaked out as everyone else, he’s just trying to make sense out of the whole thing. I do appreciate that at least someone went through the material I shared, though”
“I was plannin’ to” you protest “eventually”
“Sure you were” Armin rolls his eyes but there’s fondness in his resigned gaze.
A comfortable silence drapes over the two of you as you keep eating, the chatter floating around the mess hall reaches you like the rolling of heavy, long sea waves. There’s a storm raging outside, although not much can be seen from the stained glass windows that are closer to the vaulted ceilings than the long, wooden tables filled with students. The only real indicators are the distant rumbling of the thunder and a group of pupils who barged through the doors soaked from head to toe.
“I know you’re just as scared, y’know” Armin calmly cuts through the silence, eyes on his now empty plate “even if you always wanna act all tough”
“Yes, I’ll admit I’m slightly nervous at the idea that a murderer is currently wandering around our school and that our rector may very well be doing nothing to actually find said homicidal maniac” the words come out harsher than intended so you try to soften them around the edges “sorry, I just… it’s shitty. And I feel like I don’t get to complain because I have a boyfriend who is always making sure I’m not lonely or scared while…”
“Sasha doesn’t?”
Ugh, Armin. Ever the receptive empath.
You hang your head lower, shoulders hunched. He offers another one of his gentle smiles.
“A student has been found with her throat split open, on campus. I think you get a pass for being nervous about it, even if you have a boyfriend”
“Thank you, ‘Min” the smile you offer in exchange is probably not as sweet nor fully persuaded but you do truly appreciate his courtesy.
When you get back to your room at the end of a very long, tiring and unfortunately wet day (you 100% forgot to bring your just-in-case umbrella and thought running would be a safe, dry enough strategy to bolt from one class to the other), all you want is to kick off your muddy shoes, add some logs to the fireplace, take a piping hot shower and melt into the comfort of your bed. However, it’s not often you have the room all to yourself: Sasha is going to spend the night in Connie’s room, the only place in the entire school where she feels safe enough to get a good night sleep.
You decide to text Eren and ask him to come over. Although you never directly addressed your concerns or discomfort, he must’ve sensed the desire to keep to yourself for a few days and he’s been gracious enough to step back and grant some space. You don’t necessarily feel guilty about it but you’d lie if you said you didn’t miss him and his stupid, sometimes awfully inappropriate jokes. You’re in love with him after all, insufferably in love one could say (and Jean has before).
Eren is the one person you’d do everything for, the only man you could dedicate your entire life to. And it’s not just because he’s attractive, emotionally intelligent, a good friend and just generally a kind, good-hearted person. It’s because he loves you just as much, knows that you were made for each other, like a perfect match determined by a superior force, some higher power, a deity that held a flame to both your hearts and sealed your fate for all eternity. That’s how being in love with Eren feels.
That’s what you always think about when he fucks you into the mattress, as you moan as loud as he likes it, as you beg for him to go faster, harder, whenever he teases you with a painfully slow roll of the hips. He knows you belong to him just as much as he belongs to you and, god, what never fails to send you over the edge each time is the thought that he adores belonging to you more than he enjoys owning you. You have him, all of him, and by god you’ll make sure that never changes.
Tonight, the thought of Yuki infiltrates your brain once more, no matter how much you work to keep it at bay. What did she feel while being slashed open? Did she die from damage to the trachea or the carotid arteries? The latter seems to be more likely, the blood vessels the run up each side of the neck will bleed profusely if severed and she did bleed a lot, probably ended up chocking on her own blood, right as the blood flow to the brain was compromised. Still, you hope her heart didn’t stop too quickly.
Most people believe that cutting a human’s throat is the same as slahing open an animal’s. But you’re not supposed to place the knife at right angle only to press and draw it across the skin: the best way is actually to find the soft spot below the junction of the jaw and the neck, position the point of the knife right there and thrust it in, gently guiding the blade along the bundle of neck cords until you reach the same soft spot on the opposite side. The correct location is not hard to find: tracing a finger back from the lower jawbone to the place where the bone turns upwards and then lowering it slightly is just enough.
You wonder if forensic pathologists have been allowed to take a look at the body, if the autopsy reported that a right handed person has firmly restrained the victim from behind despite no weapon having been recovered from the crime scene.
What a loss, ever the tragedy, a young and pretty life being severed so early on. She was lovely, especially with that little cherry lipstick she’d always carry around, the one that complimented her fair skin perfectly. You didn’t want her to bid farewell to this world with an ugly face, not when red looked so good on her. Burgundy was just her color.
Eren is showering when his phone, left on your nightstand, lights up.
(Aiko, 10:07 pm) hey!
(Aiko, 10:07 pm) working on that paper today was really fun :) wanna meet up again tomorrow?
(Aiko, 10:08 pm) this time I promise coffee is on me
Good grief.
There’s never really an end to the ladies you have to deal with, is there?
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cybsoo2 · 5 months
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my obsessive fan (pt.2)
╰┈➤ synopsis — After weeks of watching from afar, they finally have a chance to meet you for the first time.
╰┈➤ pairing — yandere!bts x idol!reader
╰┈➤ word count — 3.9k
╰┈➤ content warning — yandere behavior, stalker behavior, mention of manipulation, talk of religion, violent thoughts
ੈ♡₊˚。 back to ⇢ pt.1
ੈ✩‧₊˚ note ; hi!! i'm on vacation and don't have a lot of free time, so i'm sorry this took so long to write a 2nd part.
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—Kim Seokjin
Ever since Jin set his sights on you, he knew he had to have you
No matter what anyone says, he knew deep in his heart that you were his and he was yours
It’s because of this reason that Jin started to build a certain type of entitlement towards you
His jealousy only grows every time he has to suffer through your interactions with anyone that isn’t him
Dark desires carve themselves deep into his chest
He takes control of your life from afar
Chasing away the cheap bitches and bastards that get too close
Spreading his sweet lies with easy eyes and a silver tongue
However, watching you from afar soon starts to summon a certain type of sadness
He weeps while watching his darling hold undesirables so dear to her heart
He grows tired of talking with your mutual friend, keeping up a facade that threatens to fall
And he takes out his torment on anyone around him until it almost tears his life apart
After all this waiting, he takes fate into his own hands and forces himself into your life
He sweet talks a friend who just happens to be your fellow member
Conversations too close for comfort, a few flirtatious remarks, and looking up at her through heavy-lidded eyes
Jin has always found it amusing how flattery and corrupt kisses have given him everything he’s always wanted
So when he mentions meeting you in passing, of course your member says yes
When the end of the week arises, he suddenly feels himself growing sick
Sweaty palms, cold shivers, and a set of nerves that burn deep into his brain
Despite his aching anxieties that ricochet in his head, he hides his fears behind black jeans and a dainty dress shirt
He walks the way to your dorm while drowning in sick thoughts
Desperate to disguise his sick self and make a memorable impression
This moment truly determines which direction your relationship will run
When he reaches the door to your dorm, he holds his breath before knocking two times
It only takes three seconds before you’re answering the door and dawning a soft smile on your face
Your excitement is contagious and he can’t help himself from letting a subtle grin slip
You two connect almost immediately
He lets you take the lead, only chiming in to agree with everything you say or complement you kindly
His quick wit and easy-going attitude keep the talk going for hours on end
He coats the conversation in his charms
Sweet talking until you settle into silence
Even when the conversation is cut quiet, your bodies talk calm and comfort
The clock strikes 12 and your day together has come to an end
Jin feels himself drifting into depression with every step towards the door he takes
His bones grow hard and heavy, falling into the floor right when he arrives home
30 minutes pass by and his pulse still skyrockets at the thought of your smile
He doesn’t need hope, he knows that you’ll never forget him
Your souls syncing into one almost instantly
It’s safe to say this isn’t the last time you’ll be seeing him
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—Min Yoongi
These days, Yoongi has found himself drowning in the depths of a dull and depressing lifestyle
Unmotivated and uninspired, his lyrics hold no passion and his raps feel lost without rhythm
His weeks are blue and begin to blur together
Lost along his way, without purpose or passion to guide him
That is, until he met you
When you walked into his studio one Sunday morning, he felt something shift 
Rendered speechless, he stumbled over his sentences when coming to a deal with your manager
You were a new and unknown artist looking for a new lyricist
You had heard word of an underground rapper who wrote songs for those worth the time and effort
You chose him, you wanted him, and you needed him
A rushed agreement left his lips and a contract was signed with a scarlet signature
You passed the pen over to him, hand skimming across his
A shiver of affection ran rampant in his heart
After he signs, he pockets the pen for what he calls ‘sentimental value’
His eyes watched as you wandered the studio
Fingertips touching the keys of his piano, the papers plastered across his desk, and the hoodie he left hanging over his chair
A lovesick sensation shakes him to his core
He’s feeling feverish from you way you walk around his office as if it’s your own
You make yourself comfortable as your staff talks money and meetings
You sit in his seat, curious eyes wandering his way
When you gave him a simple smile he swore he’d been burned by the sun
His moment is ruined when your manager opened his mouth
Yoongi had begun to tune out most of his talking, but when he suggested you sing one of his songs to test out this team up, he jumped at the opportunity
You shut yourself in the sound booth and wait while Yoongi searches through his songs
He rummages for the lost lyrics
A love song is what he looks for, the perfect portrayal of what you mean to him
He finds the lyrics scattered across the floor
Dusting them off, he hands them over
You sing a hypnotic harmony, bringing justice to the lyrics that once looked so dull
Your meet eyes every minute, almost as if you want to say thank you
Trying to tell him with quick glances how much he means to you (how much this chance means to you) 
And in that moment, no one else mattered but you
That very day, you lit a fire inside him
Fueling his inspiration and feeding his inner romantic
From then on all his attention is on you
He dropped all his other degenerate clients
Closed the door in their faces and threatened to set fire to their careers if they ever disturbed him again
His lyrics became lovelorn
The characters in his songs so eerily alike to you and him
You’re his pure purpose in life; his passion and pleasure
His life does a full 180º, now rotating with you as the center
He needs you
And he’s happy that you need him just as much
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—Jung Hoseok
Hoseok first met you through a rushed conversation in a crowd
Every since then his reality has been rapidly warped
It’s a fairytale still fresh in his mind
He can recount his raw emotions, your subtle smell of fragile flowers, and how the light hit you just perfectly, giving you a heavenly halo
You knelt down near the edge of the stage, out of breathe and taking a small break
Your eyes fluttered over the fans, a proud smile plastered on your face
Your breathe came out in short gasps, heart beating through your shirt, and sweat sliding off your body
Red rises to his cheeks just remembering the memory
He had his eyes locked on you, as they always are
The only new exception being the camera screen that captured the sight
Recently he had taken up the hobby as a way to earn a wage while not sacrificing the time spent on you
His fan page flourished all the mass of fans could feel his passion through the screen
One night, as he almost fell asleep to the sound of your soothing voice, you said his name!
You said his name, spoke it like a silver string tumbled off your tongue
Whispered the word like lyrics leaving your lips
His hands started to shake and his heart suddenly stopped
You then went on to talk about his fan page and how much attention you where getting because of the viral videos
That memory is a distant sense of deja vu as now you beckon him closer with a wave of your hand
You draw him in through the dense crowd, an invisible string tied around your finger
“Hey! It’s Hobi right?”
Hoseok nods his head hesitantly, almost unsure whether this is a dream or not
“I thought I recognized you, you run one of my fan pages don’t you? I’m flattered really, that you take all the time just to support me. Here,”
You pull out a red rose from the bouquet 
It’s a pretty present from your first win with a new song
You take the rose and hold it out to him, tilting it up so he can smell
He inhales the fragrant flower, but all he can smell is the surviving scent of your perfume
It’s something sweet, just like you, with notes of floral and fruit
He takes the flower between two fingers, running the tips of his touch over the stem, trying to tell if it’s real
You let out a laugh at his awe-struck appearance and tell him, “Be careful or you’ll cut yourself on the thorns.”
You show care by caution, a subtle sign the you feel something for him
And this red rose is a perfect representation of your relationship
You hide off to the side, away from the rest of your group that sings the encore
Sitting under the shadows you give him a show of your affection, then leave before anyone else can catch on
Hoseok understands your intentions, but he also knows that because of your job he can’t be with you
So he’ll continue to support you from the sidelines, only surviving on a sliver of your love and the hope to one day have you as his own
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—Kim Namjoon
The fall day is fleeting
Snow threatens to suffocate the dying daffodils
It tumbles down from the tips of the mountain top, casting it’s cold nights and dreadful days over anything that still clings to color
The summer solstice is long since passed, and along with it goes his hopes and happiness
Namjoon finds himself still hanging on to the hot embers and raw embrace of his last relationship
He’s lost along the path, pleading with the gods and guardians to give him one last chance
He’s taken to a temple, high up in the mountains where sorrow cannot escape his sight
Namjoon cannot help but feel as if his god has lead him astray
Taken through twisting turmoil and tortured relationships
The dawn of a new December draws near
It’s cruel and cold, leaving Namjoon to linger on what his life used to be
His grasp on his guide is slipping
Religion runs rampant along the trail
Faith falling out of his hands if this last resort doesn’t give him some sort of sign
The temple is now near
Faceless people peer into the wishing well
He’s focused on only one thing, pushing through the crowd to meet his final moment
The do or die, a deciding factor on which way his life will lead him
He crawls up closer, hand held out with an offering
He’s just about to say his prayer and send off his present, when he collides into someone and the coin is falling through the cracks in the concrete
For a second, everything is silent
His heart hammers in his chest, heartbroken over the harrowing result of the test
He comes to the conclusion that his faith has failed him
Dragging him down deep through the mud and making his life a living hell
His god has gone and abandoned him… but a velvety voice breaks through his disbelief
He looks up and shining down on him is your sweet smile
Perhaps he hasn’t been abandoned, just lead to a new beginning
Yes, this is a sign, he’s so sure of it
You apologize for bumping into him like the angel you are
You take his two hands and help him up from where he’s fallen
Namjoon nods along to whatever you say, watching as you ramble off in embarrassment
He’s too shocked to be graced by a goddess to form a fragment of a thought
And just when his tongue is untied and thoughts untangled, you leave just as quickly as you came
The word ‘wait’ tumbles off his tongue, falling flat at his feet and off into oblivion
He sees your shadow walking off into the woods
You creep into the crowd, your figure floating further away from him
A fraying string of fate attaches you two
He feels compelled to to find you, to follow you, and never let you go
You’re a gracious god, guiding the way and giving him hope
He’ll worship you until ticking time wastes him away
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—Park Jimin
He can’t contain his fiery fury
Jimin is a slave to sin and submits so easily to anger
He’s wrapped up in wrath
Biting down on his tongue, the pressure too much that blood begins to pool
Yet the pain serves as a desperate distraction
Such a pathetic thought to think that a single soul can cause this much distress
But that’s the truth, because just the sight of the bitch sets his heart ablaze
She sits in front of you, leaning forward to show off her scorpion smile
Licking her lips and teasing the thought of a killer kiss
She flirts shamelessly, as if she actually has a chance
Jimin knows you like sweet things, unlike the toxic slut that slides her high heels up your thigh
You’ve said it before, 3 months ago in a live, you like someone with innocent intentions
Jimin is torn into two people
On one hand, he wants to beat the bitch bloody until she can’t breathe
On the other, he knows he’ll make a scene and scare away any chance of your affection
He’s knows his best bet, so he swallows down his disgust and puts on a paper smile
Jimin’s turn is coming up next and he collects his items
His bank account now bare as he spend everything he had on albums, merchandise, and fan-meets
Photocards and poster papers are delicate in his hold
Sweat staining the edges as a wave of anxiety rushes over him
He counts down the seconds, wishing for time to turn faster
He traces the tips of his fingers over the image of you, imagining what it would be like if it were reality
Your fair features and the pain pulsing in his jaw are all to divert his attention from the scene going on at his side
The girl is finally getting up to go, but not before writing down her number in a pitiful attempt to be your plaything
His angry eyes are set on her silhouette
Finding her flaws and trying to shot through her head with his stare
His jealousy is a dangerous thing, a driving force that’ll ruin his life if he isn’t careful
So distracted from his fury, he surprised to hear your voice force itself into the silence
“Are you okay?”
Blood drips down his lips
He tore them up with his teeth, trying to bite back his spite and keep some self-control
He immediately apologizes, as if it’s something to be sorry about
Next thing you know he’s thrusting his papers in your hands and hoping you don’t hate him
The day is barely past 12 but already it’s ruined been by red
You try to sneak subtle glances his way and give him looks of concern, confusion, disgust, despair?
Your many masks are blurred together till’ he can’t decide if you’re upset or unaffected
These frowning faces fight against him
Tearing up his insides and taunting him with voices that say, “You messed everything up. She can’t stand the sight of you. You can’t keep it together.”
Imitate insecurities are transformed into truth
Jimin sees your face and that upside down smile, and he’s running away from the invisible issue
He gets up so fast, the chair falling to the floor with a metal clank
He doesn’t bother grabbing any of his albums
Rushing out the door with his eyes running red and tears trailing off behind him
Jimin is growing weary and worn down by the second person in his skin
Sunk deep into the dawn and smothered in sin
He’s tired of his twin always ruining his chances and wrecking his relationship with you
But Jimin is so stubborn and would do anything it takes to make you smile, even if it ends up killing him
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—Kim Taehyung
Taehyung’s first time meeting you was anything but an accident
He knows wherever you are, from the time when the sun meets the mountains, to when the sky is suffocated in darkness
Lately, he’s been growing rather restless and irrational
An ache sets fire to his soul
Suffocating on the smell of your smoke he can’t seem to catch
His passion pains him, and he’s plagued with dreams of your distant touch
You’re so close yet so far
He makes up his mind on a moonlit morning
Months of walking in your faded footprints, he’s your silent shadow
Your schedule is now imprinted in his mind
He plans out the perfect day
He’ll come into the cafe you frequent, cause some chaos, and when he has your attention, he’ll cherish the moment
The autumn day arrives and he hides away
Standing up against the wall at the back of the cafe, he has a perfect view of anyone that dares walk through the door
He’s hasty and impatient
Constantly checking his watch and looking back up at the door
His hold tightens on his hot tea, heat transferring and burning into his blood
He checks his watch once more, but this time when he looks up, he hears bells ringing
He makes a double-take and his feet are flying before he can think twice
Taehyung comes crashing into you, spilling his tea and staining your shirt
He rushes apologies already rehearsed
He takes your hands in his and wipes off the mess with a rag already prepared in his pocket
Once your skin is no longer stained, only stinging with the past pain, he passes you the rag so you can clean off your shirt
Taehyung offers to order you another coffee, his treat because of the mess he made
Clueless and lovelorn, Taehyung takes your order without asking you what you wanted
Your order is taken down to a tee
When you ask how he knew what you liked, he said it was an impossible accident
The unlikely lie slipped out before he had time to think
Tripping up over your accusatory eyes and confused question
Perhaps Taehyung isn’t meant to stick to your side
Better off stalking in your shadow and reminiscing on the remains 
He’s too naive and boyishly bold
Although he may know this truth deep down in his heart, he’s unable to act within reason
He has an ideal image of love
An image that lingering in his head ever since he was a child
You’re his only dear darling and he’ll just have to persuade you with his passion
No matter how much time it takes, no matter how often he fails
He’s a restless romantic and he can’t help it
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—Jeon Jungkook
A rush of adrenaline and affection runs red like blood in his body
Your performance was perfect!
And he can’t believe he saw your sweet smile from just behind the barricade
He watched you glide with grace across the stage, grabbing the audience’s attention with just one look
But when your eyes locked, he felt as if you two were only ones in the room
You’ve enchanted him, intertwining your souls into two
He feels himself following your every move, reaching out to run his hand over yours when you handed out high-fives
His skin burns red with a blush
Blistering blood pumping hot to his head
His whole face is on fire and he feels as if he might faint
If this is the state just your skim of skin has struck upon him, he doesn’t know how he’ll handle meeting you in person
He’d spent all last night restless and rummaging around in his head for anything else forgotten
He planned and prepared for months in advance, after all, the first meeting is when memories are made
He spoke his script into the mirror, stumbling over words and stressing over sentences
He ripped up and rewrote his conscripted confession three thousand times over
It needed to be perfect
Now, as the crowd creeps off into the night, he mumbles over his love letter
The minutes melt away while waiting for those in line to leave
Now he’s the next one to meet his muse
He stumbles to sit in the silver chair and looks up to lock eyes
All his words are washed away when your attention is on him
The page concluding pure passion and perfectly written words is now crumpled in his hands
His knuckles whitening, attempting to get a grasp and spit out the words he wants to speak
You ask him how he is, how far he traveled for the concert, is he okay?... Why isn’t he talking?
He sits in silence, brain burning up and and a blush coating his cheeks
The hole in his head keeps him from forming a thought
It’s only when you’re signing his album and the meeting has almost met its end, when his heartfelt words begin flowing from his mouth
“I love you.”
The confession is quiet at first, hesitant as he waits for your response
“I love you too! I appreciate all of my fans so much. Thanks for coming to the concert.”
You say a simple response, rehearsed a thousand times but for a different reason
Forced to respond to any request and comply with the compliments
You look at him like a fan, like one of the thousands of faceless people that came before him
Don’t you understand? This isn’t some type of friendship or fleeting crush
He can’t sleep when you’re sick, can’t function when you’re frowning, and can’t live if he can’t love you
He’s bound by your side till time takes his heart
He’s a slave to your sweet smile and the whispered words that make his knees weak
Jungkook is more than just a lovesick man, he’s pierced by passion and won’t let you leave
A simple saying isn’t enough, he needs to show you how his heart beats and breaks only for you
“You’re not understanding. I love you.”
He leans over the table and takes your hand in his
You tense under his towering figure, yet Jungkook is too immersed in his speech to tell
“You’re everything to me. The reason worth living. I love you, I love you so much-”
His words become warped as he grows erratic
His rehearsed confession is now corrupted, growing messy and mushed together
He’s eager to get out the words before anyone else can interrupt
“I’d do anything for you. I don’t care if you hate me or hurt me, just let me love you.”
The security guards are scrambling to send him away, but it takes the strength of ten men to pry his hands from yours and pull him off the table
As they drag him away and the steel doors shut, you still hear his voice ringing out with all the reasons he love you
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cottonlemonade · 6 months
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Hi there! could i get a medium to large mango with boba for tsukishima! i really love your work
Just A Dream
word count: 806 || avg. reading time: 3 mins.
pairing: post-time skip husband Tsukishima x chubby!Reader
genre: this has it all - for some reason, fluff, a pinch of angst and a dash of spice
warnings: mdni, nsfw
request: fluffy-spicy, clingy husband Tsukishima
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Kei woke with a start. Fumbling fingers reached for the glasses on his nightstand. It was absurd, of course you‘d lay next to him when he turned around. Right? He swallowed and looked over to the other side of the bed. Sure enough, in the dark he could just make out your soft curves under the blanket, gently rising and falling in a deep peaceful sleep. He let out a sigh. It was just a dream. You hadn‘t really fought, he hadn‘t made you cry, you hadn‘t been disappointed in him. You hadn‘t left. But nevertheless, the panic in his chest felt real. He should make sure to prevent his nightmare from ever becoming reality. What an absurd thought. Or was it?
He leaned over and, his eyes now accustomed to the night, admired your features. The cute chubby cheeks all smooshed together, making you look impossibly adorable. How he ever got you to fall in love with him he‘d never know. He felt like going down that road of thought was not exactly safe for him. Your husband brushed a strand of your hair behind your ear and with a touch light as a feather kissed your temple before getting out of bed.
First things first.
He headed to the kitchen to grab some water, emptying the cup in deep gulps, feeling his pulse settling down.
Quietly, he reached into the cupboards to set the table for breakfast the next morning and once he was satisfied with his work, grabbed his phone. He had used this service many times before but it had probably been months since the last time he even got you flowers. He bit his lips, scolding himself, as he selected a bouquet of your favorites to be sent to your office some time next week as a surprise. Then he stood in the dimly lit living room, looking around for inspiration. What else could he do? What would Tadashi or Akiteru do?
Didn‘t his friend just tell him last weekend that he always included a little love note in his wife‘s lunch box?
Now, Kei, as gifted of a man as he was, didn‘t cook that well. He was decent with ramen and could fry a mean egg but his skills were definitely not enough for a bento. Plus, technically it was Sunday tomorrow and it wouldn‘t make sense for the lunch box to sit around a whole day. But… he could do the love note. How cheesy. Would you even like it if he did? He sighed again. Only one way to find out. He rummaged around in his desk and found a little note pad you had gifted him as a joke last Valentine‘s day - two brachiosauruses forming a heart with their long necks. He cringed when he reached for a pen. But it had to be done. No stone should remain unturned in his endeavor to prove his love for you. With gritted teeth he wrote one note after another, but they all sounded too out there, too much, insincere.
So in the end after several crumpled dino post-its he wrote I love you, x K and, before he could change his mind, quickly stuck it into your day planner for you to find on Monday.
After another thorough check on the kitchen table to make sure he didn‘t forget any dishes, he made his way back to the bedroom. His feet, cold from the wooden floor, slipped underneath the blanket and he pulled you close to wipe away the very last remnants of panic clinging to his heart. You were right here in his arms, still asleep, still unbearably gorgeous. Kei buried his face in your hair and took a deep calming breath.
He supposed there was one more way he could show you his love tonight…
Kisses pressed to your shoulder and neck made you stir against him.
“Kei?“
You turned around, sleepily rubbing your eyes. He brought his hand from your hips up to your breasts and squeezed them gently, just the way you liked, ghosting his fingertips over your hardening nipples.
“Mmh… Kei… what?“
“I need you, sweetheart.“, he muttered. You couldn‘t know that he meant it in more ways than one.
You let out a tiny sleepy giggle. “Is that so? Well, no complaints here.“
He kissed you, elated when you immediately opened your mouth for him to deepen his affection.
“Can I … ah, y/n… can I be inside you?“
“As if I could ever say no to you…“
He raised your nightgown above your head, relishing in the sight before him - his beautiful naked wife smiling up at him.
When he entered you slowly a few moments later he felt beyond relieved. It had all just been a dream and yet, he still couldn‘t believe his luck.
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a/n: this one got away from me - I’m so sorry for the added angst! I hope it’s still fine. Thank you so much for your request and your kind words and I love your writing, too!! 🌱
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peterparkersnose · 2 years
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Give In
pairing: Joel Miller x reader
word count: 2.3k
warnings: suicidal thoughts, pining possibly one sided, ANGST (just a large angst piece, i wanted some joel angst so I made it), description of depression, emotional dependency on a person, arguing, fluff sprinkled in, implied age gap not specified, reference to pregnancy, mentions of substance and alcohol abuse, joel is lowkey toxic and uses reader
a/n hi loves I wrote this after the first episode aired, so if anything contradicts anything in the future in this story that is why. also, i didnt know how to end it so im sorry if the ending is a bit choppy. happy last of us sunday!
summary Y/N has feelings for Joel that she can’t control anymore
Part 2 here
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read time: 8 min 33 seconds
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The harsh chill of the autumn afternoon swept your hair off your shoulders. The ration line was as long as ever, but seemed to be moving quickly. A stray dog barked as others murmured on the street. Staring down at your boots, you bit at your chapped lips.
“You’ve been avoiding me,”
His voice sent chills up your spine. He was behind you, must have slipped in line without the other person noticing. Of course now was the time he decided to confront you. And he wasn’t wrong.
Straightening your back, you turn towards him.
“Have I?” you asked, raising your eyebrows slightly. The line moved forward and so did you.
“Tess said you weren’t feeling well.”
She was partially right. It was the blatant lie you were telling the very few who were close to you. You were physically fine.
“I’m fine, Joel.” you said promptly, turning a cold shoulder to the older man.
“If you need any meds or anything…” he began. You knew Joel had anything you needed. Quite literally.
“Next!” The FEDRA soldier called, motioning for you to get in the final line. You gave Joel a tight lipped smile before disappearing in the crowd.
Back at your sad excuse for an apartment, you poked your fork at your stale meal. You tried to think about todays’s job but the thought of Joel Miller consumed you.
How his hands felt on your skin, how soft his hair could be, how much he respected you in private. Flashbacks of previous nights where he had snuck over and stayed with you burned in your brain.
You never thought the hookup would turn in to feelings. Especially in this world. Feelings you were sure he wouldn’t reciprocate. Joel wasn’t a very emotionally available man. And he had Tess- rumors of them being together had been going on for years. Sure, they deny it. But you see the way he looks at her sometimes. His eyes burn with the lust you want from him, but there staring at her.
Tess was friendly and all, you got along quite well with her in fact. Jobs worked with Tess usually went better than others. But the knowledge that she goes home to him every night almost ate you alive. You felt used every time you would watch her turn the alleyway to their apartment.
Roommates my ass.
It had been over a month since the last time you saw Joel.
He was right, you were avoiding him. Taking the jobs you knew he wouldn’t dare go by such as childcare. Taking a different route home to avoid any run ins. Leaving your lights off and sitting in the dark to possibly deter him away from your place. All your little queues worked.
And the pain grew day by day.
You layed in your mattress with your face buried in your pillow. It stopped smelling like him weeks ago, but you liked to pretend it still did.
You couldn’t live like this anymore.
Pills weren’t numbing enough. Alcohol wasn’t as fun as it used to be. The constant state of depression in this damned district was enough to make you want to end it.
But seeing him across the alleyway talking to a group of people or in the line for rations was enough to keep that tiny spark lit inside of you.
There wasn’t much else to look forward to in this world besides others. Living the same day your whole life is miserable without your spark of joy in it.
Sleep was close, you could feel it. Your thin blankets were just cutting it for the night. As the dreams began to dance in your head, you were awoken by a quiet knock on your door.
“For fucks sake,” you groaned, flipping over in bed. You ignored the knocks. They became more persistent.
The old doorknob then dropped to the floor, startling you awake. You didn’t even have to guess who it was. The door slowly creaked open as you heard him curse to himself.
“I’ll fix it later,” he sighed, picking it off your floor and placing it on your countertop. He pushed one of your folding chairs next to your table up against the door to keep it sturdy.
“So your just breaking into apartments now?” you snapped, sitting up right in bed. “I needed to see you.” he protested.
“I never knew Joel Miller to need anything.”
He sighed and rested against your countertop. “I need to know,”
“Know what?” you asked, wrapping a blanket around your exposed shoulders. A tank top wasn’t ideal to sleep in, in these conditions.
“What’s wrong.” he said bluntly. “I said there’s nothing wrong. What the hell are you doing walking around freely at night?” you yelled, realizing the time was way past midnight. The sounds of soldiers a few floors down outside your apartment began to yell. How did he move past them?
“You sick?” he asked in a more hushed tone, walking towards you. “Respiratory? Head pain? Joints? You pregnant?” he somewhat joked, looking over you in bed.
“Shut up.” you said coldly. “Can you please just go?”
You knew Joel wasn’t a good listener. “What is it?” he said sternly, sitting down next to your body in bed. He grabbed your wrist ever so slightly. Your pulse was shaking in his grasp.
“I don’t have to explain myself to you.”
You looked at the other side of your apartment, out the window. Rain had began to slowly plague the window. Ignoring Joel’s touch, you watched as the few drops raced to the bottom of the window.
“After everything I’ve done for you?” Joel sighed, not letting go of you.
“Stop, please. J-just stop talking to me.” you said, lying through your teeth. He could sense the pain hiding behind those eyes. “I’m not leaving.” he protested.
“Look at me.”
You turned to face him. His eyes were locked on yours. A genuine worried look was on his face. He looked softer, nothing like you had ever seen before.
It was almost as if someone asked you if you were okay when you were very obviously not. Silent tears rolled down your face as you tried to catch your breathe.
The man who you couldn’t love was staring in to your soul. There was no way you ever could love him. He was too mean, too stern, too old, too angry for you. The two of you were polar opposites. But as the saying goes, ‘opposites attract’.
Joel was unsure on what to do. Tess never cried. Hell, you never cried. He racked his brain for something, just something to soothe you.
He offered out a hand. Against your better judgement you took it. Connecting his other hand to your cheek, he tried to wipe away the streak of tears silently leaving your eyes. He held you tightly in your bed, stroking your hair as your head quickly made contact with the crook of his neck.
“I wish I didn’t have these feelings,” you cried into his embrace. Joel was confused on what you were getting at, but he ignored it. He tried to shush you in a soothing way.
“No, please. I wish I didn’t have these feelings… but I do.”
Joel froze. “What?” he asked, holding you in place.
You pulled back and looked at him. It felt like the first time over again. “Look at me and tell me you don’t feel a thing.” you hiccupped.
“I…” Joel sighed, closing his eyes for a moment and letting a breathe of air go.
“Say it.” you demanded.
The silence in the room was deafening.
“I can’t.” Joel said quickly. He looked down at his knees on your mattress.
“I think you should go.” you sighed, laying back on your side and facing the opposite wall.
He listened. Finally, Joel caught a hint. The sound of him walking away made you long for him more than ever. But it was good. The feeling of him leaving, knowing you were right. Joel Miller wasn’t a man who could love. At least not anymore.
Your sudden pride stopped when you heard his boots thud against the floor. Then the all familiar zip of his jeans followed by the hit of him placing them on your wooden chair next to your bed.
He rested a hand on your thigh as he peeled up the blanket that was stuck to your legs. Slowly, he moved down next to you in the tiny space you were leaving him.
“You don’t listen.” you huffed, still not giving him enough space on the bed.
“When do I ever?” he chuckled, wrapping his arm around your waist.
Fuck it. You gave in.
You allowed his arm to move closer to the underside of your breasts. Scooting over in bed, you gave him more space for his legs to entwine with you. His boxer’s material rubbed against the back of your thigh. It smelt like him; Wet grass and expired generic soap scent had never smelt better.
Sleep kindly greeted you once you felt his breathing slow. Trying to match his, you fell into the deep sleep you had been yearning for, for what seemed like weeks.
-
The absence in the morning was startling.
You struggled to move, hoping that the previous night was just a horrifying dream. A sigh escaped from your lips when you saw his boots sitting against the wall where he placed them last night.
The clanking sound of tools made you turn. On the other side of your small studio apartment, there he sat at your doorframe attempting to fix your door handle.
The overcast sky stayed, but you could tell it was early morning by the chatter outside.
“Shit!” Joel hissed, grabbing his finger in pain. “Damn fucking…”
He looked up and noticed you watching him.
“You alright?” you asked, watching him in amusement as he attempted to fix your door.
“Yeah,” he mumbled, sucking the tip of his finger. “Haven’t fixed a door in a good twenty years.” he muttered, wiping off the excess blood on his already dirtied jeans.
“Go back to bed, It’s still early.” he suggested, going through the tiny tool kit he had given you as a previous gift.
“This is more entertaining than sleep,” you chuckled, placing your feet on the cold ground and getting out of bed. “You want any breakfast? I don’t know if I have anything good here but…”
“Nah. Tess’l be expecting me.”
The sheer thought of Tess waiting at their home for him was enough to ruin the whole night you had before.
Joel looked up to you after your lack of a response. He noticed the demeanor change in your face. “Everything okay?” he asked, turning back to the doorknob he was almost finished fixing.
“You seem to go sour every time I mention Tess.”
“I wonder why,” you muttered under your breathe, attempting to open a tuna can for breakfast. You tried not to dry heave as the scent of the old fish met your nose. Tuna was never a favorite meal, especially for breakfast. But, it’s all you had.
Joel pretended like he didn’t hear you, but he heard you loud and clear. “We have a run to do today. You understand that, right?”
A bitter ‘mhm’ came from your lips as you shook the prepackaged coffee in your hand before ripping off the seal.
Joel sighed and placed the screw driver down dramatically. Joel’s knees cracked as he got up from his position. “You always gotta fucking act jealous. Don’t you? Ruinin’ a nice morning.”
“Jealous?” you said, raising your voice.
“What the hell do you even want from me?” you scorned, on the brink of tears. He could see through you like glass. You hated to admit it, but he knew you like the back of his hand.
Joel wished he could shout out the answer, but his ego kept it in.
You froze with your back turned to him and set down the brittle coffee mug. “Your always leaving me to go to her…”
“Because we’re business partners, Y/N. Don’t you get it? Don’t you hate livin’ the same damn day over and over again? It’s why I come to see you.”
“Stop,” you whispered, now face to face with him. “Stop yelling. Please, it’s too fucking early to get into that shit.”
“Really? Tell me you don’t loose your mind living the same day, same drama for years!” he yelled. “Always you being jealous. Don’t you ever get sick of it?”
Anger consumed you. Proof that the two of you would never work. He’s just a bitter old man.
“You know I would give anything to leave this damn QZ! To live a normal life, not fucking be here.” you yelled, with a finger now pointed at his face. You were avoiding the original accusation. Jealousy.
“Tell me.” you said, with a quieter but angrier tone. “Am I really just your fuck toy?”
Joel stepped back for a moment, stunned at what you just said. Guilt seemed to wrack his nerves as the realization hit him.
You were in love with him.
“Is that what you think?” he asked, approaching you with a sorrowful more soft look. “What else am I supposed to think? You come here, use me, and leave and go back to her.”
The feeling of letting go of all that emotion felt healing. The sudden aftermath of realizing what you just had accused him of made you feel somewhat guilty.
“No,” he sighed, grabbing your hand. “That- no. Absolutely not Y/N.”
His other hand reached for your chin, and brought your face up to his gaze. You could feel his heat on your skin.
“Understand…” he began to say. “Understand what?” you whispered back. A sly smile came to his lips.
“Give in,” he whispered, dropping your hand and wrapping his around your waist.
You melted into his grasp as he kissed you. Joel hadn’t kissed anyone in years. The hesitation from him only brought out the dominance in you.
As the two of you mutually pulled away, you wanted nothing more as to be back where you were just seconds ago.
“Understand that it’s hard.” he said, still holding you close. “I…”
“I know.” you said, cutting off his words.
You were an anxious, sorrowful over-thinker and he was the bitter, closed off introvert.
“I’ll be back,” he said, with a slighter more chipper tone. “Tonight. We have to get this damn car battery and…”
“Stay safe,”
“I promise.” Joel said. He really did not want to leave you. The thought of the two of you spending today lazily in bed was very tempting.
“But please believe me Y/N when I say, you are and never have been just a ‘fuck toy’.”
He squeezed your hand once more and then dropped it. Silence filled the apartment after he left.
The thought of how you tasted haunted Joel Miller’s mind the whole day.
Part 2
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