#PoemsForTheGays

[casualcloudchaos]

Spiritual enoughness

I can only control myself

I can only do what I can

What I can do feels impossibly small

Feels objectively ineffectual

Feels like I’m the only one who will ever know

That I did what I did at all

And everyone says

-whatever you do or do not do is enough-

And I’m like yeah, I hear you,

But also, is it?

Like, from a spiritual perspective, sure, I’m enough, it’s enough,

but,

from a practical, logistical perspective,

is what I do,

is what I’m able to do

is it enough?

And the natural question to that, of course

-enough for what? for who? for whom?(?)

And I’m like, for me! to survive! To keep living! To thrive!(?)

There must be something I’m missing

I want there to be something I’m missing,

so I can find it and I can do it

I want there to be more things that I can do because

I can only control myself and

I can only do what I can