On this weeks episode of tumblr setting me up for failure
Just followed someone on accident had to block them 🕊️
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why is there so much war and hatred in the dunmeshi fandom.. I’m newgen I’m newgen have mercy 😞
yes I ship labru ..I don’t wanna draw farcille ALL the time..Laois is my favorite NOT because I hate black people not my fault he’s white….
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Everyday god finds new ways to test me because why now of all times do I get art block, I GOT SHIT TO DO GRAHHHHHH‼️‼️ I never get art block what is up with that
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fighting the sands of sleep. it’s not even nine yet
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"how does that make sense, that our ancestors would give me gifts and skills to help me save my [brother], and i couldn't? why?"
thinking about how this was definitely a question young k'uk'ulkan asked his advisors (perhaps the shaman, if he was still alive) after fen's death. and their answer was most likely "only the most broken people can be great leaders" — which, if you think about it, is an awful thing to say to a child, but well! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ then he ended up internalizing it and repeating it to shuri centuries later, foreshadowing that he would be the one to inevitably break her.
i'm almost positive that the reason he's more drawn to shuri than he is to ramonda — despite the latter being on more equal ground with him as ruler and thus in a better position to engage in negotiations — is bc he sees something of his younger, freshly grieving, more innocent self in shuri. whereas with ramonda, maybe she reminds him too much of what he lost, perhaps sparking in him an irrational jealousy that shuri — to him a version of himself — still has what he can no longer have. someone who truly knows him, knows his heart as a person and not as a god. (this is separate, but adds to, his resentment towards wakanda for having taken actions that indirectly led to the endangerment of talokan, and his jealousy that wakanda was "saved" in a way that his people were not.)
while it may seem that fen simply died of old age, the way k'uk'ulkan spoke of her implies that a broken heart, her futile longing for her old home, sped up the process. and then she makes him promise to bury her on the surface, a place he had never been to and whose dangers he had been warned of his whole life. when he goes up there, sees for himself the bloodshed and the slavery and the hate, a burning rage is born in his heart. how could this be the land that his mother so dearly loved, so much so that she wasted away for want of it, when he still needed her, needed his mother, needed her love? el niño sin amor — the child with no love. no love for the surface, for it was his mother's love for the surface world that took away her love from him.
i'm not sure if he realized what exactly would happen when he threw the water grenades into the throne room, but nonetheless, once the glass floor broke and ramonda and riri fell through — that was him challenging ramonda, making her choose: save the scientist or herself. ramonda makes the same choice he thinks fen made — the surface world (in this case, riri) over her child. shuri breaks, and right then, he thinks he has finally made her in his image — as a god, as a child without love.
but in the last moments of their battle on the beach, both their mothers appear to them. ramonda to shuri, to remind her that this blind vengeance is not who she is, that she has not been abandoned, that she was raised with love and is still capable of extending that love to others. fen to k'uk'ulkan, as an apology and a reminder to him that she never stopped loving him, that he is still capable of loving and being loved in a way that doesn't hurt.
so while we see the bigger themes of two marginalized peoples initially at odds coming together to realize that the real enemy is not each other, we also see on a more personal level two broken people coming to terms with their experiences of grief and loss, understanding where the other is coming from. (shuri doesn't have to forgive him though! as intriguing as i find k'uk'ulkan's character, a line crossed is still a line crossed.)
p.s. i'm personally of the opinion that inframundo is about fen, from k'uk'ulkan's perspective
p.p.s i want to ignore that last scene with k'uk'ulkan and namora bc whatever tf was going on there (except for the mural) makes it seem like he has not learned his lesson 🥲 (i know it's to set up future movies but i hate it!)
p.p.p.s. this was not written through a shipping lens; imo this dude needs friends, a found family, and a therapist more than he needs a love interest atm but it's whatever lol
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