#UGH she soooooo sad if she went off and got married and had a family and a quiet life she’d finallt find happiness

[whiskeyswifty]

"the only kind of girl they see is a one night or a wife" and "i gave my blood sweat and tears for this" and "like i'd be saved by a perfect kiss" and "something different bloomed, writing in my room" and "he wanted a bride, i was making my own name, chasing my fame" like what’s not clickinggggg she’s saying hey soooo once again can you guys stop acting like me getting married would be the pinnacle of my life and the most fulfilling thing to happen to me instead of, oh idk, how fulfilling the complete realization of my dreams was and then how fulfilling all that I’ve achieved beyond what I could have ever dreamed was after that? I mean it’s just a massive empire I built myself purely off my own talent and a few corny jokes and is the culmination of my life’s work and everything I’ve ever wanted and although it has its ups and downs I have and will choose it every time, whether i'm 15 or 35, over any romance cuz this career and fame and recognition for my talent is my one true love in life and not being some guys wife, or whatever.

[magic-number-3]

okay so i actually did watch a few episodes of 911 this week without liveblogging them but i did take notes as if i was liveblogging and then just,,, didnt lmao so in case anyone cares about my thoughts im going to share them anyway asdlfkjsdl mostly i think they’ll just be fun to look at later

2x02

CHRISTOPHER CAN BE ON SCREEN FOR 2 SECONDS AND I LITERALLY LOVE HIM SO MUCH

Eddie Diaz is soooooo fuckin dreamy i stgggggg

“I cant order you guys to go inside that building and im not gonna judge you if you decide not to” “Hen, you got a kid, so...” “Yeah. And I’d hope if someone whose job it was to save him they’d do it. No matter what.” QUEEN SHIT 😤😤😤

Marvin you on thin ice but you right; you a king

IM GOOD COACH HEART OF A CHAMPION WHY AM I CRYING

HEART OF CHAMP I AM CRYING AND THEY ALL KEEP SAYING IT BACK TO HIM IM- IM FRAGILE RN. LITERALLY WHY DID EVERYTHING ABOUT HIS ARC MAKE ME SO EMO

NOT HENRIETTA. FUCK

2x03

MADDIE I BELIEVE IN YOU YOU GOT THIS QUEEN

“They could really use a miracle today” “I might just have a few  of those left. I see them.” ALSKFKGKS crying why is the dialogue so good in this show???

FUCK. RUSS ITS YOUR DAY OFF

Russ gonna die im calling it. They saved the athlete and they’ll probably save the little girl?? So hes not gonna make it. At least hen is okay

“Even i couldnt save me. You dont know me, but im good.” “Oh yeah? Well maybe im better”

FUCK. I called it but it still hurts

CLOSE CALL WITH THAT ELEVATOR OMGGG

ALL OF THAT ENDING??? WE CAN BE HEROES SLAPS AND IK WE BEEN KNEW BUT ALDJFKFKSKJ everything about the end to that episode is so 👌👌👌 i wanna cry

EDDIE RUNNING TO HIS BOYYYYYYYY IM

ATHENA AND BOBBY HELL YEAHHHHH the husband is a straight g pullin thru for him like that

2x04

OMG CHRISTOPHER AND EDDIE IM 🥺🥺🥺

Also Christopher is such. Lil cutie

THEIR LITTLE FAMILY!! THE ABUELA?

“These fire guys are totally hot” LAKJDFKAL I MEAN YOURE RIGHT

AKJDKLASDJ YOU LIVE IN YOUR INVISIBLE GIRLFRIENDS HOUSE AND YOURE TELLING ME ABOUT WEAK EXCUSES. THAT SMUG LOOK ON EDDIES FACE IM ASLKFJSAL

Oh sheet Eddies abuela 😞

Every interaction between Eddie and Christopher got me like 🥺🥺🥺

Okay how are you not supposed to ship Buddie they’re talking about being single together and then his aunt telling buck about how ‘he’s a saint’ and all that??? THATS SUCH ROMANTIC INTEREST SHIT. WHEN DO YOU HAVE A FAMILY MEMBER GUSHING TO A MAIN CHARACTER AND THAT CHARACTER ISNT THE LOVE INTEREST????

HE BROUGHT CHRISTOPHER TO WORK AWWWWW!! THEYRE GOING ON A MISSION TOGETHER

Oooh I love this song STUCK IN THE MIDDLE WITH YOU

“Now I feel kind of lame” “BECAUSE YOU ARE” LMAO HEN

Ooooh yeah why do you call him chim???

BOBBY AND CHRISTOPHER. CHIM AND CHRISTOPHER. THIS IS SO CUTE

AWE EDDIE AND CAP

BOY CRUSH ON EDDIE ADLSJFLDKS

Awe good for Maddie omg 🥺🥺🥺

CHIMNEY IS A MODERN MEDICAL MIRACLE???? I mean good for him bro figured lol but for it to be said out loud shittttttt

AKSFJALSDK TATIANA SHES FUCKING MARRIED YOURE KIDDING ME HOW QUICKLY DID YOU GET MARRIED AFTER BREAKING UP WITH CHIM

alkjsdskla im losing it over Tatiana

Awww now this is sad :( chim’s got noboddddddy

Sdkljfas Buck you have GOT to move out of Abby’s place dude

‘I had a life-altering trauma and her life got altered. All I got was the trauma.’ THATS SUCH A GOOD LINE SPEAK YOUR TRUTH CHIM

YOURE MY FRIEND SHES YOUR EX. YOU GET TO FORGIVE AND MOVE ON I GET TO HOLD A GRUDGE UNTIL THE DAY I DIE ALSKFDSDA

Chim 🥺 awe. “Wakes me up in the middle of the night”. Buddy :( CAPS GOT YA

CARLAAAAAAAAAA HELL YEA

“BESIDES THAT PERFECT BONE STRUCTURE” SDKAFSJA

like. Fuck Tatiana. But also good for her. And Chim gets to start to move on!! That was a really sweet scene

Aw Bobby gets Athena ^-^

This was such a good fucking episode yo. Like the way the idea of being stuck had to do with the 911s lives while also all of the calls they went one were being physically stuck and the way the proposal instigated Chim’s breakdown to allow him to finally move on…. just. Excellent television!!!!

So proud of Maddie!!!! So proud of everybody this episode :)

Buck yeah you gotta move out buddy

2x05

ASKFJHASJLAD this has gotta be fake im sdlfkjsaldk

LMAOOOO THIS BITCH she’s gonna end up actually getting hurt

OMFGGGGGGGG this bitch had it coming

DONT WE KNOW YOUUUUUUUUU THE PORCH PIRATE?? ASLDKJFALKSS

What is this girls fucking problem with Maddie lmaaooooooo fuck off

Awe this lady with the muffin or whatever is so sweet. This places Celine dion 😂😂😂 queen

Lmao wait why is she actually horrible 😂😭😭

BUCKETTE LMAOOOOO

Omg Maddie and Athena are so fun

THEYRE PROTESTING HOMOSEXUALITY??? WHAT THE FUCK

HES A FUCKING RACIST TOO???

I CAN HELP YOU WITH THE SWEDISH HALF BUT I DONT KNOW WHICH HALF THAT IS SLKDFJASLK EDDIE

I love Maddie and Athena so much alsdkfj

WHATS HER FACE? EVA? STRAIGHT UP BITCH JFC

Gloria im sorry but you’re getting what you deserve.

LKAJSDALKS. “People who yell and scream and cry and expect you to do something for them” GIRL YOU ARE LITERALLY A 911 RESPONDER THAT IS YOUR GOT DAMN JOB???

“Do they ever think of anything but themselves and what they need?” THEY ARE USUALLY DYING GLORIA

“SNITCHES GET STITCHES” JEEZ WOMAN

I feel so bad for Hen and Karen :( Eva can fuck off dude. Can’t they get sharing rights with the dad? I mean yeah it sucks that Eva is just doing this to fuck em over but like.. the dad still deserves to get to know his son if he wants to. Though Eva would probably try to stay with him just to turn Denny against Hen and Karen… UGHHHHHH

Lil denny :( aw Hen. I love her sm

Hen what u doing girl…. Cant it make the case more difficult if you keep interacting with Eva?

I love Karen and Hen sm 🥺

WHAT YOU DOING HEN. ARE YOU JUST GONNA LEAVE HER???

YOURE FINGERPRINTS ARE ON HER NOW DUDE. GO BACK

Ugh I hate that she lived but it was the right thing to do….

“I save awful people every day its my job” Hell yeah girl

SHES GOING BACK TO JAIL HELL YEAH

Dont love cheering for her going back tho jail can be terrible…. But at least she’ll be out of Karen and hens lives. we’re not meant to think too deeply about this is.

LOVE MADDIE AND ATHENA

GLORIA IS THE FUCKING WORST

oh…. gloria… damn.

Cant you just share custody?? :( I mean it sucks but like… just talk to him.

“Yeah people can be awful… but not everyone is awful… but you’ll never know what kind of person someone is unless you give them the chance to show you” :(

WOW THE DAD IS THE FUCKING BEST?? HELL YEAH

ATHENA AND BOOBBY ARE SO FUCKING CUTE

Wow the last shot of the episode thats like the long shot at the dinner table with the narration was real fucking good :( im emo.

2x06

ADSLFJLK;ALSD. BUCK THOUGHT SHE WAS CALLING EDDIE CUTE BUT SHE MEANT CHIMNEY

listen. I do know what happens between those two and I am very excited.

Oh no maddies so anxiousssss

Buck fangirling over this reporter lady im asldkjflksad

“But the way they cared for me, thats what kept me alive” :( Hen :(

Omg are Athenas kids like the same age as Bobbys :(

SOMEONE SENT THEM EDIBLES????? OMFGGGGGG

OH NO CHIM IS THE ONLY ONE THATS SOBER

THIS WOMAN HAS A HIGH HEEL STICKING OUT OF HER FACE EWWWW ITS SO GROSS

DID THESE BEAUTY QUEENS SHRINK OR ARE WE SUDDENLY GIANTS ALKDSJFLKAKL

TEEN TINY THE WAY HIS VOICE FUCKING CRACKED

SDKFJSKDA THEYRE ALL FUCKING HIGH IM

HIGH BOBBY IS SO FUCKIN FUNNY

Oh no eddies upsetttttt 😂

This is fucking HILARIOUS

Oh no bobbyyyyyyyy :((((((

Awe the news piece was so nice

CHIMNEY AND MADDIEEEEEEE

Oh shes got a fucking POPCORN MAKER IM SO JEALOUS

Wow Taylor was really going to use the footage :/

“Just get a room already” BUCK NOOOO DUDE

The way bobby always fist bumps Athenas son whenever they say hello/goodbye. So fun 🥺good content right there

DONT TELL ME THEYRE GONNA ASK HIM TO BE IN THE PIC????

OMGGGGG BOBBYYYYYYY IM CRYINGGGGGG

AWE AND THE FUCKING SONG; WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE YOU MAKE ROOM YOU PROBABLY NEVER LOVED SOMEONE LIKE I DO

[mariscles]

𝒽𝓊𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝒶𝓅𝓅 ( barbara de regil. female, she/her, vivir mi vida + marc anthony. ) well, would ya’ look at MARÍSOL LÉON this year? i believe they come from a family of hunters, and have been training for TWENTY-SIX YEARS out of their THIRTY-ONE of life. this makes them the HIGHLY SKILLED hunter of their family. during the night, you can always find them going home to QUEENS by CAR. 

okay, so this little baby has been through some stuff. so let’s get started!!

also, psa, Marisol means sunflower in spanish..... just an fyi.

marisol leon was born into a most...interesting family in madrid, spain. being the little sister to jasper leon, and the only woman from the infamous leon couple, she had much to live up. this was easy, at first. she was an entertainer, always providing such lively conversations even when she was exhausted beyond compare. she always somehow made her suffering so endearing with little actions. always made sure her food for love was present even when she looked like an absolute mess in the morning. she was  intelligent beyond most of the families members, which her grandparents simply adored. she had an interesting life when it came to her friends, who were always invited to the house.

marisol was overall someone who seemed to endlessly entertain her family and make them so proud with her work and dedication to the family legacy. so when marcia came along, it worried the girl. she didn’t want to be replaced, to be forgotten and abandoned for something younger. marisol came to really love her half-sister, and though they had their ups and downs, marisol would have done anything for her when it came to it. 

however, a time when jasper and marcia both had to leave for new york. matters she didn’t quite understand or cared to understand. instead, she wore a smile as bright as any other and told them that new york would be quite an adventure. they left soon after, marisol at the airport as she saw them disappear to head to their gate.

that was when life got difficult for the woman. suddenly, she was part of the Guild in her family, and she was elevating in the ranks of the Guild quickly. Marisol was a skilled fighter as it was, though her strategist within began to bloom. marisol made plans, did her research, and could execute a murder either as quickly before anyone could say anything, or as painful and vengeful that would cause anyone to tremble at the thought of marisol being the mastermind behind it. 

 all of this work and dedication, she had forced herself to occupy herself with the work as a hunter merely for the sake of feeling a connection to her brother and sister. she was far too emotionally tied to her siblings, and she had wanted nothing but to be near them. yet, she didn’t want to leave behind her mama and papa to be in spain alone. she didn’t want to leave her abuelos and abuelas alone without at least one granddaughter to enjoy the holidays and go to mass and cook some good food for birthdays. 

while marisol began to fill this void her doctor called depression, she ended up making some questionable life decisions. the night-life seemed to be where she was often, she can be found at random man’s beds at 4am in the morning before leaving 30 minutes later in an uber to rid herself of the shame of walking. any actual relationship she had didn’t last long, and often left her learning to not do the very thing she did. not let any man do what they did. her work seemed to get the grunt of her depression, all of it going into cleaning Spain from the monsters that lurked at night. Casualty after casualty, another target marked off, the more she seemed to spiral. smoking became a habit, and drinking was something fun. it was her happy juice, a juice to make her smile despite this sadness within. to be an entertainer at night, just as she was during the day to her parents. 

everyone in Spain could see something was wrong, that she needed to stop this life of hers. but by the time anything was said, it was too late. she made a judgement call at work and she ended up being far more in danger than she could handle. she had killed a vampire, normal. this vampire, however, was part of a gang that heavily advocated for supernatural rights. not only that, but they were pissed off as it was with the leons killing so many supernaturals as it was. to have one of their own men killed now, it was a stab to the heart and they were going to pay it back.

marisol was suddenly found in the corner of her apartment as she killed yet another member who came for a hit on her, yet was caught off guard to find her at home and not at work. marisol’s parents came to her apartment and saw the mess, only to tell her to call jasper. “Llamalo, or we will.” 

Marisol called Jasper that morning, and told him everything that was going on. Jasper had always had a soft spot for Marisol, and to hear him say “Come to New York.” was one of the most relieving things in her life. 

Marisol moved to New York four years ago, the first thing she saw was the faces of Jasper and Marcia and you could tell she was simply relieved to see them again. They had always come to visit during the summer, but now she would never be so far away from them. She could finally feel herself breath, and just leaned on her siblings to fill the void they left her with. She was there right when her niece Judith had run away, and was always there for Jasper through it. 

Marisol was always a confidant to Jasper, so to be there for him when struggle came, it was the least she could do after he offered his home to her. It only seemed that more struggle would come afterwards, and Marisol was there right by his side, ready to catch him, hold him, and talk to him. 

Marisol has since cleaned up her act, wanting to be the best Aunt she could be to the kids and a better sister for Marcia and Jasper. she quit smoking, she drank less, even her hunting activity went down tremendously. she just had no desire to orchestrate and execute any supernaturals. not only is the gang of vampires still seeking her out, but she has come to question her own actions and the legacy her family has lived for.

she just can’t seem to muster it within her to indulge in such thoughts, since she can’t kill these instincts of hers like a light switch. marisol is still anti-supernatural, but not as much as her brother. she considers family far more important. Noel is an exception  because what he did was shitty and she approves of his murder.

She is currently being an excellent TIA and is also realizing she is getting older. her mission on the downlow is to find someone who is TIO material like how she has been TIA material. She cares so much for her family, and would do anything for them. so don’t mess with them, seriously. she isn’t afraid to go back to hunting if the occasion calls for it.

Marisol is very much proud of her culture, her home, and everything that comes with it. so you can find her home being like a mini Spain in New York, while she has a tendency to speak spanish first before she speaks english. She is a fantastic cook, and specializes in the dishes that you can only recall finding through all the older ladies, tias and abuelas in the neighbourhood. She is a great salsa dance, and is very skilled in ballroom dance. She loves dresses, and she loves off the shoulder stuff. she has a fantastic collarbone to show off, and just ugh. She knows she is beautiful, but she also wishes for a partner to notice it. 

Marisol is a bisexual, but hasn’t experimented too often with women since she knows what to do with men more than she knows what to do with women and is lowkey scared to fuck up. Though, this in itself is also limiting because she needs a nice hunter boy / lady and WHERE CAN SHE FIND ONE IN A PLACE FILLED WITH SUPERNATURALS!? just ugh, she aint ready.

not only that, but she is a devoted catholic who keeps it under wraps since she isn’t exactly sure how to explain it to people. she has committed murder, yes. so like she already broke the commandements. i think she seeks forgiveness, and just wants to believe in a God above who is watching over her and protecting her and her family. Primarily her family more so than her, but you know. Gotta love guardian angels. 

yeah, marisol already makes it hard to date, even less to actually get married.

though she is trying, and wants to have at least one kid, and be an abuela.

marisol wants a normal life now, basically. she isn’t scared to do shit like she did before but she wants to settle down. 

soooooo

HMU PLEASE! MARISOL IS DESPERATE FOR FRIENDS, PHILOSOPHICAL BUDDIES TO DISCUSS HER QUESTIONING THOUGHTS ABOUT HER FAMILY, DATES SHE HAS GONE ON, EXS SHE MAY HAVE HAD, RELIGION FRIENDS, PEOPLE SHE FLIRTS WITH, PEOPLE WHO PAY HER FOR HER BOMB ASS TAMALES AND POZOLE AND JUST FOOD OVERALL, AND JUST UGH

[ofazaleas-blog]

 ・ ˖  ✦ ⋄ . what’s good, i’m raquel and i like sleeping more than anything in the universe. meet my lil baby azalea (lea for short) and, yeah she’s really cute, kinda been through alot but look at her now! flourishing. you’re gonna come to realize i’m really extra lmaoo but promise you’ll love me. i already love you guys! plot with me or just message me any time. aLSO THIS IS VERY LONG SO THERE’S A TLDR right under the basics list lol sorry about that i have an uber amount of muse for lea ・ ˖  ✦ ⋄ .

tw; death mentions, drug overdose mention, depression mention 

・ ˖  ✦ ⋄ .❝ basics❞

full name: azalea lynn morgan (maiden name was harris )  date of birth/zodiac: june 25th, cancer personality traits: sentimental, emotional, insecure, sensitive, overbearing, loyal, imaginative,  moody, loving, optimistic, fickle, empathetic, inflexible, clingy

[tl;dr] azelea grew up daughter to a mayor and a proffessor in sacramento. was the popular girl. lost her brother in college, had a bit of a breakdown because of it. now her life is slowly getting back on track.  

・ ˖  ✦ ⋄ . ❝  past life❞

born in Orlando, flordia to dwight and opal harris. dwayne harris politician and dahlia was a professor at sacromento city college. they had a two year old son, malcolm before azalea was born.

so that pretty much means she grew up pretty well off

azalea went through school kind of as a teacher’s pet. other kids picked on her a little about it, but she didn’t let it get to her. she was a well-mannered young child and actually really loved learning and being at school. 

sUCH a daddy’s girl. would ask him for anything and she’d always would get it. 

early middle school, everyone wanted to be friends with the mayor’s kids. 

 lea still stayed focused in school, but was still pretty well liked. though, she spent a large part of her time just  time with malcolm. he was two yrs older than her, so he was a bit more established in the school and well liked. played baseball, track, and soccer. kind of was a superstar at it. really talented. 

naturally, lea looked up to him . the two were inseparable they’d spend a lot of time in his room playing video games. her brother had the biggest video game collection she’s ever seen. he taught her everything she knows about superheros and video games. basically, the two were attached at the hip.

it wasn’t until freshman year of highschool lea and malcolm sort of parted social groups. he hung out with the jocks way more and she hung out with popular/student government sort of crowd. (you know the kids who put together prom and are also voted prom queen? that’s azalea.)

she had her first boyfriend freshman year 

also met the love of her life freshman year (though she didn’t know it them)

lea was assigned a romeo and juliet class project with elliot morgan the two of them had obvious chemistry, but she was in a relationship and pretty much never thought elliot would’ve been interested in her.  she still saw him around bc their parents work together

the following year azalea was no longer with that boyfriend, and was on the drill team (which is kinda like cheer? but they just do dances. here.)

cute alert! she gets asked to the spring ball by none other than elliot! came as a bit of a surprise  but she literally couldn’t have been happier that he’s who she’d go with, this would turn into a three year relationship and the two of them becoming top couple at the school.

her life is pretty perfect. 

until her and elliot break up! she is super inflexible and hates change, so the idea of elliot going away to college upset her. they’d planned to go to school together and the change of plans was enough for her to say alot of stuff she shouldn’t have.

she moves on, never willing to see elliot again despite her brother’s efforts. dated other people in college but was never truly happy after elliot. 

about to get super sad bare w/ me

so her brother was dealing with alot  once he got to college but he never told anyone.  he went to a local school, and really got caught up in the worse parts of being a college athlete. malcolm was always the happy go lucky guy in the family, he didn’t want to worry his family. he took Xanax at a party he very well shouldn’t have been at and ever since that day, he hadn’t stopped. it got to a point where he’d forgotten how many pills he’d taken-- so he just took more.

Malcolm died of an overdose at age twenty-three during his first year of grad school. 

lea had just turned twenty-one. this completely turned lea’s world upside down. loosing her brother was the worse thing imaginable. there were weeks of sleepless nights and waking up in tears. she’d lost her best friend. and she kept looking for why he never told her. they were so close, and she had no idea that was what he was dealing with. she’s still haunted by this thought-- if only she’d known she could’ve helped him.

she sees elliot for the first time in years at  malcolm’s funeral. it was like her brother was reminding her once more just how foolish it was to push away her first love. malcolm always wanted the two of them together again.

and from that moment on... they were.

lea and malcolm get married on november 4th and move out of Sacramento and to riverside on just a few weeks later. everything about that town made her think of her brother. she just wanted a fresh start. (video games, certain smells, superhero movies-- remind her of malcolm.)

has her first son in riverside hospital. wyatt malcolm morgan. and her life is only looking brighter. 

・ ˖  ✦ ⋄ .  ❝  current life & headcannons  ❞

very very married atm. hopelessly, and happily in love. she’s the type of hopelessly in love to where she’ll mention elliot in every conversation possible, have scheduled daily calls with him just to talk about how her day is going

“yeah, lea so then i went to this grocery store..” “did you go to the one of 4th ave, el loves that one.. ugh, i love him so much.” 

she’s SUCH a teacher. decorates her classroom excessively.  like looks like this during the fall and equally as extra during christmas. ya’ girl loves decorations and keeping things organized and perfect.

the type of teacher you remember from your childhood. super sweet and excitable. hugs each kid as they walk in the door every morning and once they leave, always brings candy and snacks, makes a big deal when it’s someone’s birthday can get silly and dresses up for halloween and just-- like a great time? her kids listen to her because they love her so much.

picture miss frizzal from magic school bus lol

loves her son soooooo much so much. feel like he looks something like this

really wants all the local moms to like her?? she’s THAT mom that’s not totally apart of the group bc she’s only lived in riverside for a few years

has always been that mom friend who brings an organized purse of anything you might ever need. from lip balm to bandaids to stickers. 

・ ˖  ✦ ⋄ .❝  extras ❞  

outfits.    tattoo in honor of her brother.   house bc why not?    wedding aesthetic

favorite food: mac and cheese. 

favorite color: pink!

favorite ice cream flavor: strawberry

[alongwalktoforever]

I just want to talk about my long long relationship with Grey’s Anatomy. 

I remember watching the pilot with my family on March 27, 2005. I was 12 and scandalized by the first scene with naked Derek, but we all loved it anyway. 

The second season was THE SHIT! I think it was the one of the first shows that I HAD to watch week to week. The bomb episode! Denny! Meredith and Derek! I remember feeling full on conflicted because I really really liked Finn and Addison. 

Then the third season happened, I waited and waited for it to come back on the air and feel like it did before, but it was just baaaad. I remember watching the ferry episode being like what the fuckkkk are they doing. 

Then George and Izzie happened. And I straight up wrote a LETTER to Shonda Rhimes. There was no social media or anything to get out your grievances. I said something like, ‘they are best friends, they aren’t supposed to have feelings with each other. it just isn’t how they are with each other. also do more patient stories not just drama’ 

The fourth season also sucked. Every character was just super unlikeable, so I didn’t watch live religiously like I had before. (I downloaded episodes on iTunes onto my iPod and watched it through that little screen! what a time). But they pulled it together in the finale and Meredith made a candle house and Lexie and George were cute and I had hope again. 

But then 5th season happened and Denny!Ghost came back and I quit. I mean i looooved Denny when he was first on, but come on.I left that shit and did not turn back. I remember someone at school telling me Izzie and Karev got married and I didn’t care at all. 

But then I randomly caught a rerun with the “teach me” Sloan and Lexie scene and I was like ‘oh shit.’ So that summer, I bought all five seasons on DVD (which I still have) and rewatched all five seasons. Sloan x Lexie were my new obsession. Everyone else was ‘mehhh’

So I watched season 6 every Thursday and enjoyed it. I remember watching 6x14 Invest in Love and that made me love Calzona as a couple. Izzie left and I was sad and Invasion happened and Mercy West peeps came and I was like who are these mo’fos. I kinda hated how were were supposed to hate them right off the bat. I thought it was lazy writing. Charles was charming until he fucked over Izzie. The rest were whatever, except Reed she fucking suckedddd. 

Then Sloan and Lexie broke up in a stupid way and they both acted stupid the rest of the season. And I was upset and disappointed with all the episodes. Then the shooter. People love this episode but I hated it. 

I just thought like “this ONE OLD GUY is taking down an entire hospital. And like shooting randomly but not consistently. Like he didn’t shoot Bailey but he shot that nurse?” Also those SWAT guys were like the worst ever. They took soooooo long. But it was intense and it made for a great next season. 

The beginning of season 7 is one of my favorite few episodes. It was about rebirth and starting over and it was interesting and heartwarming. Cristina’s PTSD was really powerful. Lexie and Mark got back together just to break up like two episodes later. Lame. But everyone was really on there game. 

But I fell in love with April Kepner during her “we all have things we don’t talk about” speak. Yasss she slayed. Then her during the trauma simulation was hilarious. I even started liking the idea of her and Alex.

But then 7x08 happened and Alex was a dick and Jackson punched him. And THAT was when I fell in love with Jackson and the beginning seeds of Japril began to grow. 

The rest of the season wasn’t that memorable. Teddy and Henry were adorable. Jackson and Lexie got together but there were some good Slexie scenes to keep me interested. 

Season 8, I remember getting kinda uninterested half way through after Henry died. I did love Jackson choosing Sloan over Lexie, I thought that was hilarious twist to the love triangle. Then San Francisco happened and boy was I hooked. I had been subconsciously waiting for this for two seasons. Jackson and April were hilarious and hot during that bathroom scene. 

And the plane crash happened. And I was soooooooooo upset they killed Lexie. Like, she was my all-time favorite character at the time. I had invested four seasons of her and Sloan. I was pissed. So I said that I wasn’t going to watch anymore. (Sidenote: rewatched the episode, holy shit it is amazing. such a great episode) 

But then a lot of the stuff online was talking about April and Jackson and I was like shit... I like them. Maybe, I’ll just watch a few episodes and see if I still like the show. 

Season 9 is where i became OBSESSED. April and Jackson were amazing, I liked Jo and Alex, and Cristina and Meredith’s friendship was full-on cray cray in a good way. I thought it was insane to have Jackson propose in one scene and then break up with her in the next. Rewatching that scene and it still doesn’t make sense how he acted. Or how they were idiots in love for next full season. 

I loved the perfect storm episode, except the Arizona cheating which I thought again was lazy writing. 

The beginning of season 10 was rough for Japril shippers, like there wasn’t much to go on. I thought Jackson was such an idiot for so long. Like he denies denies denies until her fucking wedding day. I kinda wanted April to punch him and them have it out not just have her run away. Even though 10x13 was some of the purest most beautiful japril scenes ever. 

Season 11 was heartbreaking for literally everybody. Calzona got divorced. Japril baby died. Derek dies. I did like Amelia and Owen, but they were a mess like five minutes into it and never got it together. 

But those Jackson and april scenes are some of the best acted and written episodes that Grey’s has ever produced. That scene where April says, “its a boy” or when Jackson prays. Insane. So good. 

But then they did the time jump, again lazy writing. And April definitely seemed out of character to not even ask how her husband is for A YEAR. None of the story lines made sense for a year to go by. It was stupid. 

But April was super badass in the finale if it wasn’t heartbreaking for Japril fans. 

Season 12. Lowkey, I think that this is one of the best seasons of Greys. It was dramatic and funny and interesting. Japril was devastating but there was also so much hope left over. And they were both so scared about their kid. I mean 12x15 is Amazing for both jesse and sarah. I loved Arizona and April friendship, I even liked Nathan and Meredith and that finale was so good. April was a badass, Jackson was still obviously in love with her. Amelia and Owen were actually tolerable. 

Then season 13. This shit was terrible. LIke the writing was god awful. The maggie x nathan x meredith was so dumb. Minnick was the worst. The civil war thing was just dumb. Alex and Jo being miserable was terrible. Anything with Deluca (god he is just a useless useless character). 

But there was a beam of light of Japril, where they spent most of the season trying to coparent and coexist as not together while still obviously being in love with each other. Ugh where she sings “Faith” and then he asks her to move in. when he knows that she is “bored as hell” or when he says he doesn’t want them to move out or when he tries to be supportive as she dates. 

Then they fought for no reason and then Japril the sequel happened and we died and went to heaven. Just to be pulled right back down with eight terrible episodes and not just because japril doesn’t interact. but just because they are terrible. 

Then maggie and jackson in the finale and now season 14, which has already had its ups and downs. I loved the first two episodes and the 300th. 

BUT ANYWAY/ 

What i mean to say about this rambling rambling rambling text is that Greys goes in waves of being excellent and not so excellent. It does stupid storylines like George and Izzie and ghost denny and minnick, but it also does amazing storylines like japril and the plane crash and everything in between. So i am not giving up yet even as the shove jaggie down our throats. Because greys always has the ability to surprise me.