#When it comes to love I ain't got a clue / what this heart of mine is supposed to do

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📻 annnnnd Mulligan

Rowan! you lucky duck!! This is THEE Mulligan song (to me) given that he grew up in a mining colony and his number one talent is digging himself into (metaphorical) holes and also that he's terrible at relationships in general plus, just, this whole verse

Well I ought to be working for the railroads Sweat pouring off my back Hauling away a heavy load It's a far cry from heaven down a cold steel track And I can't take her with me She's better off without Yeah I ought to be working for the railroads Lord knows I'm good at leaving town

Given that he is a space long-haul trucker and therefore very good at leaving town, and that he fully believes all of his lovers (& children) are better off without him in their life <3

[munchmemes]

taylor swift lyrics, the tortured poets department edition, part one

fortnight

▸ i was supposed to be sent away but they forgot to come and get me. ▸ i was a functioning alcoholic till nobody noticed my new aesthetic. ▸ no one here's to blame but what about your quiet treason? ▸ for a fortnight there, we were forever. ▸ i took the miracle move-on drug, the effects were temporary. ▸ i love you, it's ruining my life. ▸ thought of calling you but you won't pick up.

the tortured poets department

▸ who uses typewriters anyway? ▸ you're in self-sabotage mode. ▸ we're modern idiots. ▸ you smoked then ate seven bars of chocolate. ▸ i chose this cyclone with you. ▸ sometimes i wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me. ▸ so tell me, who else is gonna know me? ▸ that's the closest i've come to my heart exploding.

my boy only breaks his favorite toys

▸ you should've seen them when they first got me. ▸ i only break my favourite toys. ▸ i should've known it was a matter of time. ▸ we could've played for keeps this time. ▸ i know i'm just repeating myself. put me back on my shelf. ▸ i'll tell you that [you/they] run because [you/they] love me. ▸ i knew too much. ▸ you saw forever so you smashed it up. ▸ once i fix me, you're gonna miss me. ▸ you took me out of my box, stole my tortured heart, left all these broken parts and told me i'm better off but i'm not.

down bad

▸ for a moment, i knew cosmic love. ▸ now i'm down bad, crying at the gym. ▸ everything comes out of teenage petulance. ▸ fuck it if i can't have [you/them]. ▸ i might just die, it would make no difference. ▸ i might just not get up, i might just stay down bad. ▸ fuck it, i was in love.

so long, london

▸ my spine split from carrying us up the hill. ▸ i stopped trying to make you laugh. ▸ how much sad did you think i had in me? ▸ i didn't opt in to be your odd man out. ▸ i'm pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free. ▸ you say i abandoned the ship but i was going down with it. ▸ my friends said it isn't right to be scared every day of a love affair. ▸ just how low did you think i'd go before i'd self-implode? ▸ you swore that you loved me but where were the clues? ▸ i'm just mad as hell 'cause i loved this place.

but daddy i love him

▸ i just learned these people only raise you to cage you. ▸ i just learned these people try and save you 'cause they hate you. ▸ they slammed the door on my whole world. the one thing i wanted. ▸ you should see your face. ▸ no i'm not coming to my senses. ▸ i know [you/they]'re crazy but [you/they]'re the one i want. ▸ all my plans were laid. ▸ growing up precocious sometimes means not growing up at all. ▸ i'll tell you something right now, i'd rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning. ▸ i'll tell you something about my good name, it's mine alone to disgrace. ▸ i don't cater to all these vipers dressed in empath's clothing. ▸ god save the most judgmental creeps who say they want what's best for me. ▸ you ain't gotta pray for me if all you want is gray for me. then it's just white noise and it's just my choice. ▸ scandal does funny things to pride but brings lovers closer. ▸ fuck 'em, it's over. ▸ time, doesn't it give some perspective?

fresh out the slammer

▸ fresh out the slammer, i know who my first call will be to. ▸ handcuffed to the spell i was under, for just one hour of sunshine. ▸ years of labor, locks and ceilings, in the shade of how [they were] feeling. ▸ it's gonna be alright, i did my time. ▸ as i said in my letters, now that i know better, i will never lose my baby again. ▸ my friends tried but i wouldn't hear it, watched me daily disappearing. ▸ ain't no way i'm gonna screw up, now that i know what's at stake here.

florida!!!

▸ you can beat the heat if you beat the charges too. ▸ they said i was a cheat, i guess it must be true. ▸ this city reeks of driving myself crazy. ▸ little did you know, your home's really only a town you're just a guest in. ▸ i'm barricaded in the bathroom with a bottle of wine. ▸ well, me and my ghosts, we had a hell of a time. ▸ yes, i'm haunted but i'm feeling just fine. ▸ all my girls got their lace and their crimes. ▸ i did my best to lay to rest all of the bodies that have ever been on my body. ▸ i've got some regrets, i'll bury them in florida. ▸ tell me i'm despicable, say it's unforgivable. ▸ love left me like this and i don't want to exist.

[fullstcp]

"Get Weird" by Little Mix Sentence Starters

BLACK MAGIC

"Is your lover playing on your side?"

"Says he/she/they love(s) you, but he/she/they ain't got time."

"Come and get it while you've still got time."

"I'll make you fall in love."

"For a spell that can't be broken, one drop should be enough."

"You belong to me."

"One taste and you'll be mine."

"It's a spell that can't be broken, it'll keep you up all night."

LOVE ME LIKE YOU

"He/she/they can't buy my love."

"It's you I'm dreaming of."

"Come and save me."

"Don't need those other numbers when I got my number one."

"They can't love me like you."

"I tried to find somebody new."

"They ain't got a clue, they can't love me like you."

"You were pouring out your love, I could never get enough."

WEIRD PEOPLE

"Ain't no uptight sucker gonna tell me how to live my life."

"We're just doing what we came to do."

"Don't let them other suckers hate on you."

"It don't matter who you are, you can be who you wanna be."

SECRET LOVE SONG

"I wish that it could be like that."

"Why can't it be like that?"

"I'm yours."

"We keep behind closed doors."

"Every time I see you, I die a little more."

"It'll never be enough."

"It's obvious you're meant for me."

"Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly."

"I'm in so deep."

"We got a love that is hopeless."

"Why can't you hold me in the street?"

"Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?"

"Does it feel the same?"

"Would you play it safe and stay?"

"I don't wanna hide us away."

"I'm living for that day, someday."

"Why can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftops."

"Wish we could be like that."

HAIR

"I've had enough, can't take it no longer."

"I'm over him/her/them, I swear."

"He was just a dick, and I knew it."

"I tried everything, but it's useless."

"Make him/her/them disappear."

"Now I feel brand new."

"We're going out, ain't got no worries."

"Now it just seems so funny."

GROWN

"Why now you tryna get a hold of me?"

"We never even spoke, so what makes you think you know me?"

"It's funny how the tables turn."

"What you think ain't my concern."

"You blew it, baby, years ago."

"Don't you know that I can hold my own?"

"You played me, but now you're tryna holla me."

"You're washed up and now I'm in a different league."

"You're trying way too hard and I don't need your flattery."

"You didn't want me."

I LOVE YOU

"You've still got that power hanging over me."

"It's always over, but still happening."

"I just wanna scream out 'til my voice breaks."

"Don't know how I'm still breathing."

"Even though it's broken, I love you anyway."

"I just wanna know how I can save me."

"This life don't feel like you."

"There's nothing left but these 'I love you's'."

OMG

"I don't even know how I did that."

"I don't even know why they fall like dominoes."

"I broke his/her/their heart, it keeps happening."

"I don't know why they always fall for me."

"Maybe I'm superstitious."

"I wanna break this curse."

"I think I did it again."

"Don't come crying when I say it's the end."

"I'm ringing the alarm, you better run."

LIGHTNING

"I'd cross a desert and an ocean to get away from the pain of your storm."

"I've been running from your shadow."

"This love's tearing me apart."

"I've been running like the light from the dark."

"I wish I didn't love you again."

"I wish I didn't love you, but I do."

"Those eyes, one look and I'm enchanted."

"Your voice, a serenade, and it sings to my heart."

"One kiss turned the skies grey."

"I'll never get away, no shelter from the rain."

A.D.I.D.A.S.

"They say that it's overrated, well, they ain't doing it right."

"All day I dream about you."

"You're gonna get it tonight."

LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME

"You used to tell me that you loved me once. What happened?"

"Where is all of this coming from?"

"You're lying and you know I know."

"What have we become?"

"We used to never go to bed angry, but it's all we ever do lately."

"Do you hate me?"

"You can take this heart, heal it or break it all apart."

"This isn't fair."

"Love me or leave me here."

"Do you remember when you loved me once?"

"I could still be the only one you need."

"I could still be that place where you run instead of the one that you're running from."

THE END

"I can't keep breaking up with you."

"You messed with my heart, now it's black and blue."

"Love isn't fair."

"I swear that this time, this is the end."

"I can't keep lying to myself."

"I keep thinking you'll love me right, but you never will."

"Now I know that I really don't need you."

"You had your fun, now the party's done."

"You can say what you want, but love isn't here anymore."

"I won't be missing you."

"No one can love you the way I used to."

I WON'T

"I got my pride, my self-respect."

"All that I want is to love and just be loved."

"We can do this on our own."

"We have too much to let it fall."

"I won't let anybody tell me no."

"I know that nothing good comes easy."

"I will be strong, I will survive."

"All of the hurt will wash away with the rain."

SECRET LOVE SONG, PT. II

"You and I both have to hide on the outside, where I can't be yours and you can't be mine."

"I don't wanna live love this way."

"I don't wanna hide us away."

"I wonder if it ever will change."

CLUED UP

"It don't stop affecting me, the world keeps testing me."

"I'm getting on track with every knock back."

"Just make the best of what you have."

"Sometimes it's sunshine and sometimes it's rain."

"Do you even notice me?"

"How I feel isn't what you see."

"I need control, don't know how to let it go."

"Gotta remember, nothing lasts forever."

THE BEGINNING

"Was all so different once upon a time."

"I know we've come so far, but it's just the beginning."

[bullet-prooflove]

Donna’s Wednesday Radio Show Prompt List #21

It’s that time again! The Wednesday Radio prompt list!

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And there's no one in here living Gonna make it out alive

How can I trust you after what I've been through?

Toying somewhere between love and abuse

Show me all your tatt's, not just the ones that's on your hands

I want this more than life

And the moon is out and the stars are bright

Why I can't move on

And so I came to see him, and listen for a while

The sun on your face

Can we take this off and get naked?

show up at your door

she sets the world on fire Just to watch the sucker burn

I could tell when you locked the door just what was going on

There must be a good reason that you're gone

he'd found my letters and read each one out loud

I don't need your sympathy

She's the angel of small death and the codeine scene

She said she never envisioned him the type of person capable of such deceit

I just like it when you grab my hips

Well, why, why did you mess it up?

I just heard you found the one you've been looking for

Baby, you're so anxious, you can't take it

We could take it to the kitchen I'll be on the island, come and eat,

You've had your chance, and now you want more

Touch me, baby

Boy, can we take off all our clothes?

Boy, you deserve a show

After we fuck, I'ma wanna cuddle

And I've been a fool and I've been blind 

Come on, baby, I can call your bluff

I love you, but I love me more

I don't wanna play no more, leave everything on the floor

Here to relive your darkest moments

Now it's safe to finish what we started

It's bloody and raw, but I swear it is sweet

Regrets collect like old friends

You can leave open windows, don't care who see me out my clothes,

Singing my life with his words

Heels on, waiting at your door

Would you stay if she promised you heaven?

Didn't have a dime but I always had a vision

And every demon wants his pound of flesh

Clue number one was when you knocked on my door

I like to keep my issues drawn

Light up your wildest dreams

I can never leave the past behind

Be something greater Go make a legacy

Now he hurt you and you hurt me

But I like to keep some things to myself

And I am done with my graceless heart

Kind of dress you're wearing tonight

Well, she moves like lightning

I really don't think you're strong enough

I heard he sang a good song, I heard he had a style

don't give up, it's a little complicated

Say my name

First impression of you is you really like to party

Rewrite your history

So save your breath and Walk away

Everybody got a breakin' point kid

You try to tell me that we're so deep in love, Well, if we were, then why did we fuck it up?

Don't come back knockin' at my door

I am not the one To sit around, and be played

Do you expect me to believe that you've changed?

Told you before that love isn't enough

Strumming my pain with his fingers 

There's nothing you can say or do for me

You'll never see me cry

I overdosed

And that's when I knew, it was a pretty good sign That something was wrong 

I wish I would have known that wasn't me

Well it may be wrong but baby it sure feels right

Where did you sleep last night?

Cause I've had time to think it through And maybe I'm too good for you

Was she worth it?

Cause tonight you will be mine,

There's no talking to you

You'll never change for no one

he's holding onto you so tight The way I did before

And there ain't no place that I'd rather be

We don't talk anymore

Now put your hands up, this is a heist

Getaway car for two young lovers

It's so sad that you're leaving

Me and the girl straight out of town

You better throw a party on the day that I die

And we can't go back but you're here with me

Yeah, she's a genius (genius), watch and learn

[apocalypseornaw]

Love you too late

Inspired by the song "love you too late"

"I wish this whisky

Would make her miss me

Like I wish she did"

When you turned down going on a hunt that should’ve been his first clue. He believed you when you said you weren’t feeling good. Coming home he realized just how true that statement had been when he walked down the stairs into the bunker and was met with silence. Sam was the one to find the note you left on the table in the library.

"Pouring up another one

Won't change what I should've done

Before she left, now all that's left is"

You told him how you couldn’t face loving someone who couldn’t open their heart to you no matter how much you proved that you were in it for the long haul.

He knew you well enough to know your bags had already been packed and the decision had been made long before you sat out this particular hunt. Looking back now and reading it in your own words he could clearly see everywhere he had went wrong.

"Mile by mile and city by city

She's getting over me and man

It ain't pretty, no"

He could clearly remember the first time you told him you loved him. He had gotten seperated from you and Sam on a hunt. When he found the two of you he was covered head to toe in blood and the fear had been plain on both yours and Sam’s face until he smirked and said “It aint mine sweetheart” You’d pratically threw yourself into his outstretched arms and the words had tumbled out before you could stop them “God dammit I love you” He’d been surprised to say the least and saw the way your face fell when he didn’t say it back.

A few weeks passed and you would let it slip. Whether after a close call or after sex. Every time he could tell it was in earnest and every time your face fell when he didn’t say it back. “Man why don’t you just tell her how the hell you actually feel?”  had been Sam’s argument every time you weren’t around. He had of course gave his brother multiple reasons as to why he couldn’t say those words no matter how he felt.

"Probably cranking up some new freedom song

Wide open, wide open, won't pick up the phone

While I'm dying here tonight

Staring goodbye in the face"

After so many times of saying it only to have it go unanswered you’d grown a bit detached. You’d work the hunts. You’d smile in his and Sam’s face all the while tearing yourself apart inside. Maybe he really didn’t feel the same way about you?

The deciding factor for you had been after a particularly rough hunt. You’d gotten hurt and while Dean stitched you up he hadn’t spoke a word but Sam had been the one to admit the fear that had come along with seeing you hurt and the relief of seeing you get back to your feet.

That night you tried one final time  “Dean I love you but I need some clue that you maybe feel the same way or else I’m just complicating both our lives for nothing”

Once again your words had gone unanswered.

"I can't take back what

I never said but

If I could, man I would

Try and make her see"

If there was one thing you knew about this life was that you could die the next day. No matter how much you loved Dean and no matter how close you’d gotten with Sam it was time to move on.

You waited until him and Sam had found a case on the east coast. Something that would be a few days drive and give you a head start. You’d smiled and assured them both you just didn’t feel like a hunt and watched as they left before going to the room you once shared with Dean and grabbing the duffle bag out the closet.

You paused long enough to leave a letter on the table knowing Sam would find and hoping he would understand why you’d had to do this. Hoping he would be there for Dean if he even cared you were gone.

With a final look back at the bunker that had been your home you shut the door and headed for your car. You would decide where you were headed once you got on the interstate.

"If I had half a clue

Where she was heading now

I'd do what I had to do

To make her turn her car around"

He looked at the time on the wall and realized it was after one in the morning. He’d called you too many times to count and he was certain by this point you’d turned off your phone.

Sam had given him space going to bed hours before. He was alone in the kitchen with nothing but your letter and a bottle for company.

He read the last line for the hundredth time before throwing it down and saying to the empty space “I love you…son of a bitch sweetheart I should’ve told you how much I love you”

"I can't take back what

I never said but

If I could, damn I would"

[punkscowardschampions]

Ava & Grace

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Ava: time is getting away from us Ava: summer holiday standard Ava: it lowkey has not been organized so god knows now, I wouldn't be mad if it didn't but I wouldn't not go, I guess Grace: depends how they take your homewrecker status Ava: Yep, cheers 👍 Grace: people are shady Ava: Sure Ava: but my actual friend friends will know what's up Ava: everyone else chats about us anyway Grace: true Grace: shoutout to the fam for that one Ava: at least this one is something I actually did so Ava: oh well Grace: anyone who has a clue about his ex will know it's not even you Grace: like sorry hun you killed that 💍 yourself Ava: I'm not too fussed, it's my last year 💁 Grace: #priorities Ava: Exactly Grace: still so triggered by the idea of going back though thanks Grace: school is the WORST Ava: tell me about it Ava: won't miss that place Ava: Chelsea in general moreso but it isn't like I'll be a million miles away Grace: unlike me always a ✈ away Ava: Do you reckon you'll stay in Dublin? Grace: I guess Grace: where else would I go? Ava: You aren't going to make like Billie and Nancy and bounce then? Grace: being a or sleeping with models isn't very likely for me, babes Ava: Models are usually weird looking anyways Ava: oops accidental shade at your sister 🙊 Ava: don't tell Grace: thanks? I think Grace: shade her all you want, I'm about it Ava: How many times have you seen her kid? Grace: Like none Grace: we might get christmas but Ava: this family is messy Ava: watch me get lectured like it ain't Grace: preach Grace: maybe I shouldn't stay here Ava: you could stay or go wherever Ava: everywhere needs beauticians Grace: not Chelsea though, I'd run into your boyfriend's wife Grace: obvs can't escape anyone there Ava: 😂 truly Ava: I don't wanna be far away from the fam Ava: cracked as they are Ava: but that's just me Ava: I guess it isn't automatically selfish to move yourself halfway 'cross the globe hmm Grace: same though, I even miss Junie & like ?? why Grace: never saw him when we lived in the same house Ava: yeah Ava: that whole situation still fucks me off I Ava: idk Ava: I know it's not the kid's fault but I can barely even look at pictures of her Grace: Ri never should've done it Grace: like he didn't need a kid that bad Grace: obvs he didn't actually need one at all but nobody NEEDS one Ava: If they'd been together any amount of time Ava: Junior wasn't 20 fucking years old Ava: it was really stupid Ava: Buster said but oh well Grace: Demi is so Grace: I can't Ava: This family can't seem to help but add more fucked up people into its sphere Ava: like Ro hadn't just brought Drew back, AGAIN Grace: Getting pregnant by accident is one thing, like it's stupid but okay Grace: they planned that Ava: This family has way too many baby hangups dating back to nan Ava: can't blame her for all of this but break the cycle, someone, damn Grace: literally had my contraception on 🔒 since I was 13 thank you Ava: 'Accident' is some bullshit 9/10 times tbh Ava: you knew it was a matter of time, even if you don't know you knew it Grace: @ my mum & dad so hard Ava: and mine, they say the twins were an accident but they probably would've broke up if they hadn't have had them at that time so Grace: mhmmm Ava: ugh Ava: I'm just heated knowing how hard I'm gonna have to defend this Ava: like I've got myself pregnant Grace: don't even joke, she trapped that poor boy so hard like Ava: seriously, he probably never wants kids again Ava: not that I've asked because it's been like a month or so and I'm not psychotic, thanks Grace: do you? not now obvs Ava: I don't know Ava: like, don't tell my mother but I don't actually meticulously plan every aspect of my life Ava: if I ended up at a place and time in my life where it felt right, I could see it Ava: but if I ended up living a different life where they wouldn't fit, I wouldn't and I wouldn't be 💔 about that Grace: 😂🤐 Ava: Do you? Grace: girl, I'm too freaked out to let a boy date me, I don't think it's gonna happen Ava: you won't be 16 forever Ava: and if Ro can manage it Ava: your mum and Drew are probably the only people to see her vaguely undressed in her life Grace: idk sometimes it's all I want & sometimes it's the WORST thing I could think of Ava: I get that Ava: I don't think its a thing you can overthink, 'cos it's not usually right or wrong Ava: so people just do it and have to deal, better or worse Grace: Yeah Grace: maybe I'll get like that with dating Grace: or you know, get so lonely that I won't care that people always leave Ava: 😔 Ava: You'll get there, whether there is living your best life with or without Ava: I'm defs getting left after this fiasco so I'll come 😭 to you in a few no doubt Ava: we're walking Frank rn, so gonna enjoy this whilst it lasts 👌🥰 Grace: UM no! He LOVES you remember, you'll come at me with your 😍 more like Ava: 🤞🤞 Grace: 🙏💜

[crazycrackersworld]

So I've been back here in Arizona for about a month now had a lot of time to process things I'm going to try to start putting stuff up here again and just getting things out of my head.

So the first one of course I guess Sue. I still don't quite understand her mode of thinking and I don't think I ever will. When we first started seeing each other she talked about all these things that she always wanted someone to do for her or do to her you know and I listened and I tried to do all of those things and ultimately maybe it's not what she wanted?

I don't understand the hold that this Mark guy has over her how he's basically treated her like nothing but a fuck buddy for over a year and now all of a sudden they have a talk and she gives him an ultimatum and you know she decides he's her future I just don't understand how she's okay with the way he's treated her but there's nothing I can do about it so it doesn't matter if I understand it or not.

One of the last voicemails she left me said that a part of her will always love me. And I just don't believe it cuz I don't think she ever did love me I honestly believe in my heart that I was pretty much just someone she was with while she waited for his girlfriend to die of cancer. And hey you know maybe the two of them waiting for her to die of cancer before they hooked up maybe that's classy, maybe I'm wrong to think that it makes both of them horrible human beings.

I mean I have her blocked on everything the only way she can reach me is by leaving me a voicemail I guess if she sent me a letter or postcard but she ain't going to take time out of her day to do that. She's not going to love me forever she doesn't love me now when she told me she loved me 2 months ago she was lying when she had me fly back in February it was just to make him jealous I'm fully convinced of all of that.

I know many secrets dark secrets about her and I'll take them to my grave because it doesn't pay for me to throw that dirty laundry out there and you know there's enough people in the part of the world that she lives and it really don't have any respect for her and don't like her and I don't need to add to that list.

I'm doing my best to move on doing my best to move forward things have been good since I got back in Arizona trying to see where things with Jackie will go but I'm absolutely terrified of letting anybody in again. So things with anybody else will only go so far cuz I don't see myself fully trusting anybody completely again ever.

I do know that eventually I probably will move back to Wisconsin and when that day comes I mean I'd love to say that I'm going to move on completely over my feelings but I'm not I'm going to hit him in his face people can use these Tumblr posts as proof that it's premeditated I don't care I'm going to beat the shit out of him, and there's nothing he or anyone in his family or any of his friends or God Almighty can do to stop it. When I get my hands on him he's going to get hurt he's going to get hurt bad and he's going to get humiliated and I'll sleep fine that night. And she should probably just hope that my daughter never gets pissed off enough to go looking for her cuz that would probably be bad I myself want to punch her in her stupid redheaded face but I won't.

This is the longest I've gone in almost 5 years without having a conversation with her I'm not going to say it's been easy cuz it hasn't it's hard as s*** it's hard to think that somebody who wants told me that they were going to convince me to marry them could turn around and care so little about me that they just erase Me from their life but yet I'm supposed to think she ever had feelings for me.

So going to focus on my job this week I should be getting my third license I'm going to focus on spending time with this friend of mine and see where things go or maybe I'll meet somebody closer to here or I really have no clue I'm going to train for that 5K that I'm kind of run in January and I'm just going to try to move forward with my life. And I'm going to really try to start throwing my thoughts and my feelings and all of that back up here again and taking a month off and processing things really helped.

So just I guess stay tuned cuz I'm not done yet not by a long shot and for those of you who do read the crazy crap that comes out of my word hole thank you.

[mama-ghostie-61542]

A Thousand Lifetimes

Rating applies--M++ for language and esoteric themes.

Also....If you recognize it, IT AIN'T MINE!

Some things may seem a little OOC, but I tried.

Chapter 1.

Security and the legal division had gone over both the kiosk recording and the box, the story, and had found nothing in it but papers. The legal department passed the written work off to the writing department.

The writers went over the work with a fine toothed comb and found it odd, but not bad. However, those pages were quickly repacked for delivery to the intended recipient, the box retied with care, and placed into the bin with all of the other packages to be delivered to the dorms.

It wasn't long before security added the video to a small drive and taped it to said box.

When it arrived, someone had taken the time to place it in another box. The weekly care packages from fans were separated and placed in the boxes for final delivery to the dorms.

Most of the other mail was letters, but Minhyuk noticed a non-descript box with Yoo Kihyun written on the side.

"Hey, Kik, did you order anything?"

"No," He replied shaking his head, confusion covering his face.

"Hmm. You have a package. Feels like a book."

"Why would a Monbebe send me a book?"

"Don't know. Guess you will have to open it. Maybe it's a cook book."

Kihyun PoV

It was still early, so I fixed some coffee and settled in on the couch, placing my box and mug on the coffee table. Last night had been a rough night. I had dreamed of her again; of those eyes I would know in the dark. The ones I had searched every fan for. It's why I like to hold their hands. My Ghost is good at cloaking her eyes, but the electric shock of recognition in the hands is impossible to hide or to fake. Honestly, it is a small part of why I decided to pursue music as a career, rather than a hobby. It was one of the few professions that I could meet a lot of people and maybe, if all the stars aligned, I'd find her. As I was already proficient in it, it made sense.

After that dream, which consisted of chasing her around a car with a water hose, the universe had left distinct impressions of her everywhere. From the ghost of her energy in the shower to the smell of her on my sheets. I swear, this morning, I felt like, if I turned fast enough, I would still see her watching my back. Good Mother, Please, this is going to drive me crazy today. But, as that thought crosses my mind, the Elders whisper back that it is something she herself is experiencing as well.

I scrubbed my face with my hands again, trying to rid myself of the lingering pressure of her fingertips, before I picked up my coffee and sipped at it for a minute. It helps, but fuck it hurts. The simple act of sipping this brew is almost enough to make me tear up, and I know, some how, it is just as bad for her. That the color keeps her thinking of me.

"What did you get," came a voice over my shoulder.

I looked to see HyunWoo with his own mail and coffee, sitting down across from me.

"Not sure yet," I answered as I shook my head, mostly to dispel the images that have suddenly popped into it; and set my mug down.

I was kind of afraid to open the box, because I sometimes get weird stuff sent to me from strangers. Not a single one of the million faces I have seen has been the one I see in my dreams. I know she is out there somewhere, but I am still not quite sure as to where. I wish I had a clue, just one, that would put me on the right track. I have almost begged the Ancestors, and I have asked her through whatever this connection is, but each time she answers, it's garbled. A part of me is certain she has wished for a clue, as well.

Sighing deeply to steady myself, I opened the box, only to find tissue paper and another box with post-it and a thumb drive attached to it. I tore off the thumb drive and read the post-it.

--Watch this. Do you know who she is?--

I was taken aback. That was an odd thing for security to say.

I went to grab my laptop and, after it finished booting up, slid the drive into the usb. The only file was a copy of the camera at the kiosk outside the main office. There, on that camera, was a woman. The slight breeze last night had made her ankle length cloak flutter around her, showing her clothes; faded jeans that lovingly hugged her hips and thighs, and a faded t-shirt. I tried to see her face but only the curve of her cheek and the cleft of her chin could be seen in the street lights. Oddly, they seemed very familiar.

As she came closer, the lights flipped on, and the hood further obscured her face. It wasn't until she got closer that I realized, she had a box with her. She gently placed it in the compartment that had been put there for the legal department's night deliveries.

I could hear her softly sigh and whisper, "No, I am enough. And this is enough. All I want is a twitch, just enough to know he is still there."

And then she stood and pulled herself up to her full height, maybe 165 cm, and turned those eyes to the camera.

My world stopped right there. For a minute, I forgot how to breathe. There were memories pulling in from every corner of the ether.

There she was. That face, those eyes that I would know in the dark and mostly dead. I know her, better than anyone else. Better, sometimes, than I felt I had a right to. She was there last night while I slept. But what she said next would shake me to my core.

"It is done. The ball is your court, now, my love."

I didn't even bother to turn off the computer as I reached across the table for that box. Whatever was in it was precious because it was from her, from my queen.

That name was one I had given her long ago. It's the only one I shared with the guys, but I had never told them why. It's the way she carries herself, confidant and regal like a queen. In truth, she is more like a queen than she knows. She is like a warrior queen of old; confidant in her abilities, humble before Spirit, and more than willing to take the hurt to defend those whom she cares for. I knew that first hand, as she had sacrificed for me, once.

That was one of the worst nightmares I have ever had. I knew it was an old memory coming up, but it still hurt. It always starts the same way, the feeling of being shoved out of the way. Next, comes seeing the light in her eyes dim as she fell to one knee. Then, I was holding her, rocking her and begging her not to go where I could not follow, to stay with me; as her life blood flowed from a place on her side. From that place where the bolt had sliced her as it went past. I whispered to her that I would find her, as her breath on my cheek stopped, and then screaming as she crossed the veil. The overwhelming sorrow suddenly gave way to rage. I laid her down and kissed her forehead, before racing off into the thick of battle; the loss tempering my resolve to let those troops feel how I felt. It was my own recklessness that had me charging into the thick of battle, blinded with tears and the sudden loss of our connection. I couldn't feel her anymore, and it felt like she had taken the better part of me with her. We had been trained to never fall into bloodlust on the field, but I readily gave myself over to it. I had gone no more than 30 feet from her before it all went black. In that berserker rage, that overwhelming grief, I left a path of death and destruction in my wake. I did not care what colors the men wore, as my broken heart lashed out with my blade.

That is one of the reasons I am glad to have my own room, here. At least this way, I won't wake the others with my nightmares anymore. Or the bittersweet dreams where I wake up crying for her all over again. In all honesty, she has always been my Ghost. Her eyes have been in all of those bittersweet dreams for years. You know the ones; the sweetest dreams that you don't want to wake up from, you just want to soak it all up because you know that the reality hurts. I am starting to think I will never find her.

I reopened the box, wondering who had closed it, as I glanced up to see Minhyuk wink.

Silently, I thanked the Elders for Min as I pulled the tissue away from the inner box and pulled it out.

My hands were shaking as I untied the black and red ribbon from the box, realizing its significance, and gently pulled off the lid. My heart sank as I realized the papers inside had been handled many times. It was truly a metaphor for our lives, our hearts and souls. Both had been handled many times before they finally came to rest where they were supposed to have been all along.

Sighing, I pulled the letter off of the top.

'Hey, Haka.'

I could not help the smile, then. Sheer relief coursed through me as I realized that she remembered. That name was a play on words that we both knew, an inside joke, if you will. See, it started out with her calling me Hawkie; the Crazy Hawk Flying Off On Every Wind. But it changed to Heyhaka; mostly because her ex-asshole claimed to be me. That pissed me off to no end. But I digress, in her culture, Heyhaka, the Elk, was quite the ladies man. She always said it was fitting, as he was the siren of the forest. Thus, when he sang, he could draw the ladies from far and wide to his lodge, having his pick of them whenever he chose to. However, even though she has called me her "Siren of Seoul," and sirens traditionally sang sailors to their deaths; I could never hurt her.

'I hope this finds you well and in good spirits. Please, for your own sake, do not run to me, my king. You and I both know you are bound by contract and we both know that the others would be at your heels.

Some may mistake your gentleness for something else; but make no mistake, my dear, I do not. You, my love, are more the pathfinder; determined to find the way to do what must be done, to find each and every loophole and exploit them to your fullest advantage. All the makings of a cherished, shrewd, and benevolent king; in my humble, yet honest, opinion.

Please, do not think me forward if I say that I dreamed of your eyes for many, many years before I ever saw them. I drew them from memory many times; but alas, the fire in them, the love, the passion, remains something ink and graphite cannot capture. Imagine my shock at seeing them, in this life, halfway around the world. I can almost see the soft smile in those endless pools now.'

She was right, I was smiling softly. The deep and abiding dedication to a souls love in those words, nearly brought tears to my eyes. I kept reading as I sat back, chewing on my thumb.

'And now you are on the verge of tears, chewing on your thumb and trying to hold it all in. Curled up somewhere soft and cozy, trying your hardest to not allow a single thing to be seen. However, my king, the knights have already seen the look on your face. It will not be long now and you will find either another cup of coffee or a mug of tea next to you. Please, tell my soul brothers I said Hello.'

About that time, Min and Honey brought me a mug of herbal tea and a blanket. I smiled. "The Queen says to tell her brothers 'Hello'."

Honey smiled and patted my shoulder, before dropping a kiss on my head and walking away, the shine of tears in his own eyes.

Min, on the other hand, sat next to me on the couch and tucked the blanket in around me. Then he hugged me. "If you talk to her," he whispered, "Tell her I am sorry."

"What for," I asked.

"She'll know," was his answer. After that, he quietly got up and left the room, taking my now cold coffee with him.

I went back to reading the letter.

'It is fitting that I should be nine hours ahead of you. I remember, you would always tell me, "Sleep now, my love. I'll keep watch." I always found comfort in that phrase, found peace in it; contentment. I generally have an awful time sleeping without remembering that simple phrase. My mind comes up with a thousand things I should be doing, to ward off the nightmares. But, somehow, the sound of your voice silences that one and that phrase is the sweetest lullaby in the world.

Sometimes, I can feel you here; feel you watching me, studying me. I'm not sure if you are asleep or meditating. It's never more than a whisper in my ear or the pressure of your fingertips on my chin. It's like knowing, somehow, that you are close, but you aren't really here. Some days, when I feel like giving up, I can feel you. Feel your gentle hands and hear softly spoken words of comfort. I draw strength from those moments.'

People have said that I seem to zone out sometimes, with a far away look on my face. The guys have called them my "Queen moments". I can never predict when they are going to happen. Once it was in the middle of a meeting. I sat there, that look on my face, and I could vaguely hear Hyun in the background, "Don't worry about it. He's having a moment with his queen. He'll snap out of it soon." About that time, I did come out of it. I have been doing it, unconciously, since childhood.

My Queen, however, doesn't know that I take comfort in those times, too. The simple, "Easy, Killer" when I am mad or the "I'm here" during those bittersweet dreams. The way her spirit steps up behind me when I am working on something and getting frustrated; the way she holds me, with her hand over my heart, and her snout pressed into the back of my neck. My spirit can do no more than calm down. I don't think she realizes that she does the same for me. But that is the way we work, neither of us have to say much, we just do and it fits.

I go back to the letter again.

'Please, my love, wait to decide your next step until you have read all of the story. You and I both know how impulsive you are, and this will be tough going. There are clues scattered in the reading as to where I am. Hopefully, you are still as amazing at the art of reading between the lines as you used to be.

Heyhaka, I want you to hear this now. I will never interrupt your flight. EVER. Because I want you to fly, as far and as high as you possibly can. Because I want you to be happy. And I don’t mean, just a little happy; I mean inordinately, passionately, incandescently happy. That is the kind of happy that you deserve. So, if I don't hear from you, I understand. I can't say it won't hurt, but as long as you are happy, I'll be ok.

That said, I will end with this; I hope you remember the words we always said when parting, for any reason...

Where you go, my heart goes.

All my love, heart and soul.

Your Wolf Queen.'

I smiled softly as I refolded the letter and gently smoothed said missive. As I leaned forwards to the box on the coffee table, I heard a whistle from the easy chair across from me.

I look up to see HyunWoo handing back my closed laptop and the drive.

"I closed that so little brother didn't see. Didn't think you wanted him to see her. She's beautiful, by the way," he said as he handed over the drive. As he strode back to his chair, he stopped to pick up the ribbon that had been around the box. "Wonder why she picked black and red. 'S a little morbid."

I smiled, glad that I had been open with them about that part of me. Taking the ribbon from him, I said, "At one time, black was the color of life, as good, fertile dirt is black. Back then, red was for more than luck. It was fire that transforms, passion, rebirth, and drive; as well as a persons life-blood. But this way, with the black on either edge of the red, and the red very thin, it's a symbol of distress; akin to blood on a ravens wing. It would have been good to see the way she had originally tied it. The Elders taught us seven sacred knots. All of our tied messages held a certain meaning. Tied one way, with this ribbon means, 'Send Help. I'm stuck', and another way, it signifies an impending union. If the colors were flipped and it were tied a third way, this ribbon would signify a new birth."

HyunWoo nodded, taking it in. "Seems like you could carry on a whole conversation by the knots."

"You can. We had to communicate via birds during wars. Most had a special meaning. If it had come on a raven, it meant that the sender was a captive or had been enslaved. On a mourning dove, it means "I am stuck here missing you," Then, I softly smiled, "Thank you for this, by the way. She's more than beautiful, She's perfect."

He chuckled, "You sound like you are already starting to fall for her."

Gently touching the drive in my left hand, I laughed, "Starting? No. I have loved this woman since I was 15. Since I was old enough to remember what that feeling was."

"You are a very lucky man."

"I am extremely lucky," I said as I sat down the drive and ribbon, and again, reached for the box. Opening it, I found each chapter stapled together, but independent of each other. I sat the first one on top of the box; then tucked both the ribbon and drive in my pocket before stacking the box on my laptop, and stood to leave when I heard Changkyun behind me.

"What's in the box?"

HyunWoo answered before I could, "Leave it be. It's from his queen."

He smiled as he looked at me. "She finally found you?"

I nodded, clutching the box to my chest, eager to get to my room and start reading.

"Wow. I'm so happy for you," he smiled, but his smile held pain.

I set off into the kitchen to drop off the mug of now cold tea but before I got there, I heard someone ask

"What's for lunch?"

"Get it yourself. Your hands aren't broke," I replied as I set off down the hall, chuckling to myself that I had been channeling her for a moment.

I was almost to my door when a hand closed around my arm. I turned to see Honey, his eyes slightly puffy and red rimmed, obvious signs of tears.

"If you need to talk about all this," he said pointing at the box I had clasped to my chest, "I am willing to listen." Then, he headed in the direction I had just came from.

I made it to my bed and sat back. Next, I pulled the ribbon from my pocket and tied it to my left wrist in an elaborate knot that meant "On my way'. Then, I sighed to steady my heart, and started to read.

Chapter 1

2019--Chicago, Illinois; USA

Kihyun PoV

We were on the North American leg of our tour. Chicago is a beautiful city, but there was a strange, tug in my chest. Over our three days there, I got a little used to it. At first, though, the sharp yank hurt like hell. It made me feel like I was about to throw up that first time. My already vivid dreams of my Ghost somehow got sharper and the longest they had ever been.

Our last day, had been a very busy day, and I was asleep before my head hit the pillow. I am not generally that tired after a show, but between that and that weird pull, I must have been more exhausted than I thought. I know I slept deeply for a bit, because the next thing I remember was being in the woods.

The fog rolled in quickly and I heard a voice that I had only ever heard in dreams or if I were sick or scared. The fear in her voice nearly crushed me. Her fear sent me into panic mode.

"Haka! Heyhaka! Where are you?! I can't find you. Where are you," She yelled, her voice raising with her panic.

It was at that point that I set off at a run. I had to find her. I could nearly feel the leaves and muck under my bare feet. But, at that exact moment, the already dense fog became even thicker, if possible. As I ran, I heard the slight trickle of water over stones. Finding a wide creek, I decided to follow it.

Had she had these dreams as well? Had I forgotten to block her one night and she had seen it from my perspective?

"Wolf," I yelled into the mists.

"Haka! Over here," She returned.

"Keep yelling! I'll find you!"

She started screaming unintelligible things at that point.

Following her shrieks and cries, I finally found her, tied to a tree on a small island in the middle of the creek. She was bound by vines, from her hips down, so there would have been no way for her to escape. I saw her strong, gentle hands claw at the vines holding her.

Then she reached for me.

"Haka. Help me. I can't get out," Her voice mirroring my own panic.

The instant I picked up my foot to go to her, to leap across the creek to free her; a second set of vines sprung up around me. I could feel the darkness coming off of them. I grabbed hold of them and reached for her.

"Reach. Reach," I shrieked as I reached for her.

I could tell that we were both extended out as far as we could. Our fingertips were just touching, not enough to hold onto one another, not enough to find purchase; but just enough to brush upon each other. However, each time our fingertips brushed against each other, there were visions; memories, that spewed forth.

I admit, I got pretty angry by this point. "I will find you," I yelled as the vines dragged me back and the mists turned to darkness.

"I Will Find You," I yelled as everything faded back to black.

'Yes,' I thought, 'I will find you. I have not forgotten. Nor am I likely to.'

Then, I woke up enough to feel a hand on my shoulder, "KiKi. Wake up. It's just a dream."

I looked over my shoulder to see Lee Jooheon sitting at the edge of my bed, with his hand resting against my shoulder, his eyes filled with concern.

"Are you alright," he whispered, careful not to wake the others. I had somehow forgotten that everyone had crashed in my room. It is an open secret that I have some pretty nasty dreams.

I shook my head as I curled around my pillow. "Nightmare," I replied as I lost myself in the memory of the dream for a minute. I could still smell the forest, feel the mists on my skin, feel her fingertips scrambling for purchase with mine. Her voice and my promise were still ringing in my ears. It was mere seconds before the soul crushing despair at our situation set in and I did my best not to cry. Knowing she was trapped hurt more than anything.

The gentle tug on my sweatshirt drew my focus back to him. "Downstairs. We'll talk there," He whispered as he threw his feet into his sneakers and waited for me to do the same.

We quietly let ourselves out and went down to the all night café across the street.

Nothing was said as we got our coffees and slid into a small booth at the back of the room.

"Talk," He said, his voice heavy with concern.

I shook my head, "I can't put it into words."

He sat back, his eyes both wise and playful. Until they lost all the playfulness and took on a hard edge.

Honey PoV (A/N--Weirds me out.)

"Either talk or let me see."

That was something I never let on to be able to do. In truth, only he knows about it. See, sometimes, I can see things. If I hold someone's gaze too long, I can catch snips of thoughts, dreams, nightmares, and feelings. It is like picking up what has been left on the cutting room floor and using it to make a movie. I don't ever get the full picture but I see enough to get the idea. See, when I have been conned into doing aegyo, my eyes are a little crossed so I am not seeing things.

Kihyun sighed finally, "It's the same nightmare I have had since I was 14. It has never changed, but this time was more detailed, sharper. Only the woman in it and I have ever changed, we've aged. She used to be so pretty; thick chestnut waves that flowed down her back and hazel eyes with an inherent wildness in their depths." His eyes grew softer as he spoke of her.

"The nightmare," I asked again as I stared at him, tapping my fingertips on the table, hoping my gaze would push him to tell me. Seeing what others can isn't always pleasant, and sometimes, it's downright painful; but in this case, it's dead useful.

The more he tried not to talk, the more resolved I was to do this the hard way. Seizing an opening, I grabbed his head, placing my thumbs on his forehead, just above his brows. Then, I gently placed my forehead on his and said, "Look At Me," in the sternest tone I could muster.

His eyes opened and peered over the rim of his glasses. The image that came forward was of a woman, with blue green eyes and closely cropped chestnut hair containing more than a few strands of white. Her hands were fighting and clawing at the vines that held her slim hips firm in their grasp.

Her skin had a coppery hue to it, exactly like the milk caramel hard candies my mothers uncle insisted on sending us every year. This led me to, check her eyes, momentarily. Which only served to confirm my suspicions. She has indigenous blood in her, albeit watered down. However, one wouldn't see it if they didn't know what to look for; it's in the subtle almond shape to her eyes, her high cheekbones, and, the way her skin had taken on a soft, coppery glow in that single shaft of sunlight.

Her boyish figure was accented nicely in the diaphanous gown she wore. The way the gossamer fabric folded in about her tiny waist, only to expand and gently loop over broad, yet feminine shoulders. Those same structures led down into strong but gentle hands.

There, around her arm and peeking out from under her dress were lines and whirls of ink. On her left arm, she wore leaves of ranks. A Ghost? But they are rumored to have been killed off long ago. She must be the last. This is like finding a unicorn. There were also vines, small blossoms I did not recognize, and a tiny Leo symbol in the ranks on her arm. Around her right ankle, there was a thin, black band. Joy, so not only the last Ghost, but a Posted one as well.

Now, I had heard stories of the Ghosts, but at the time, I thought they were all just tall tales. But this one was nearly a four star general in her own right. It made no sense why she would be Posted and in Kihyun's dreams, unless...Unless, he was her Guard.

Taking a second to look at the surroundings, lead me to understand where she was. As the vision faded away, I heard her voice in his head,

"Haka. Come home."

The sorrow in her voice was almost too much. However, in the next breath, it was matched in his whisper.

"Soon, Mami. Soon."

"Mami," I asked as I sat back, a smile slowly spreading across my face. "You call her 'Mami'."

"Shut up," he growled.

"What? I happen to think it's cute. She call you 'Daddy'?"

"No," He chuckled. "Haka most generally. 'Papi', but only if I am calling her 'Mami'. The odd 'Hawkie', if she's playing. 'Heyhaka' if I am in trouble. 'Asshole' if I have been making promises I can't keep...again."

"We will revisit that last bit in a minute. Has her hair always been that short? With that much gray?"

Kihyun sighed and smiled gently, "No. It used to be long and thick with waves for days. But after the first few times, there were bruises, and then she shaved it all off. The gray is a recent development."

I sighed. "Abuse victim, if she cut it after a few bruises. Wow, must be super stressed for it to turn that quickly. Did you take in anything in the environment of where she was?"

He shook his head, "No. I was too focused on her."

I nodded. "I would be too. There was an old tree that looked like it was half dead, and some turtles around the shore."

"Hmm," he hummed as his brow furrowed. "Not sure what that could mean."

I sighed. "The indigenous peoples of the Americas called the continent 'Turtle Island'; and, judging by the shape of her eyes and the color of her skin, she has one of said nations blood in her veins. The half dead tree is symbolic of the current unrest here."

He seemed to deflate a little bit. "So she is an American mixed blood?"

I nodded. "Yeah. So, just how many promises have you made?"

"Mmm, ten, I think," He answered, his brow furrowed.

"Only ten?"

"No, I lost count around ten."

Shaking my head, I chuckled. "Oh boy. When was the last time you really promised her something? That you remember?"

He sat there thinking for a minute. "That time I had my appendix out. I was all of 17. I saw her and the fire and the moon and I followed the pull. I just stood there and swayed with her there. I know I woke up a few days later kinda sad."

"Oh, God," I growled as my head fell into my hands. "Do you remember what you said?"

"Not right off of the top of my head. Sorry," he replied.

"Hmm. You may need to let me see. If you did what I think you did, this dream is calling you home."

I leaned forward and placed my thumbs in the exact spots they had been earlier. He opened his mind to me and I saw...

"Even if I search for all of my days; it will only ever be you. I promise you, my queen, here and now, I will find you; even if I live a thousand years. No matter what happens, I will always find you. No matter the time or the distance, I will find you, my love. We've got this, Mami. I have not broken my oath yet, nor will I ever. "

Sitting back, I sighed, "Yep."

He looked at me with fear in his eyes, "What?"

"You tied yourself to her, or should I say re-tied. I'm not sure whether to smack you or congratulate you," I stated as I sat back in the booth and crossed my arms over my chest.

"What," He said again; a look of confusion clouding his features.

Shaking my head, I sighed. "I mean, Numb-Nuts, that you took an out of body, walk about and danced in the moonlight with your Ghost. I mean that you are married, KiKi. VERY Married."

"Hold up! I have NEVER met her in my life! How is this possible? It was just a dream...wasn't it," he exclaimed, his hands flying. The disbelief on his face was as plain as day.

I sat up, "Uh-Uh. You have met," I said as I held up a finger. "At least once, although probably not in this life. And as for the 'I never met her' thing, you didn't have to. You have each others names written on your souls. So, if you took a walk out your body during surgery, where would the Elders send you? I'll take 'Straight to her' for 1000, Alex."

"Whoa," he sighed as the realization hit him. He flopped back into the seat. After a few minutes, he said, his brow furrowed in thought, "That explains a lot, though."

"What does it explain?"

"About ten years ago now, she got married. She told me he was there and real; that she was tired of waiting. I told her that it would never work. That the piece of her I had, I would not give up."

"Urgh," I growled. "So she picked what was easy over what was right? And you are just asking for trouble. Angering a Ghost is never smart."

"But you just said she is real."

"She is. Did you not see her tats?"

Kihyun sat up and shook his head. "No."

I sighed and rolled my eyes. "From where her neck connects to her shoulder on the left to halfway down her forearm and wrapping over her ribs and legs, all the way to her toes. You could see them through her dress in places. The ones on her arm are ranks."

Suddenly, he got rather angry. I seized the chance and let my eyes un-focus a little. There they were. His own ranks began to unfurl over his skin and I could see he was a single rank below her, but also her Guard. Slamming his hands on the table, he jumped up and yelled, "You looked at my wife?!"

I groaned in frustration and pulled at my hair. "No, you moron, I did not look! You looked. I saw. Besides, you refused to claim her less than 5 minutes ago! Make up my fuckin' mind, will ya. Do ya want her or not!?"

"Yes," he shouted, but then deflated, sank back into the seat, and whispered, "What happens if I find her though? She is soo much older than I am. Don't get me wrong, I-I don't mind, but...," Kihyun trailed off.

"Hmm," I thought. "The way I see it, you two are stuck on either side of an ocean, but you are like magnets pulling at each other from across the distance," I said as I held up my fists and put them across from each other, inching them closer together. "The vines are trying to keep you both tied to where you are. They are physical manifestations of someone or something trying to keep you two apart," I said as I made my fists to look like they were being kept away from each other. "Now, If either one were to cross said ocean, without those bindings, you two would inevitably collide. And that colliding," I continued as I brought my knuckles together and made them look like an explosion, "would either completely destroy each other, or it would be the most beautiful, loving, passionate relationship known to man or beast. However, within that, you two will butt heads, because you are both so stubborn."

"How can you tell?"

"Two ways, You are both fixed signs, Scorsaggio and Leo," I stated as I held up one finger.

"How did you know that," He asked.

"Her tattoos. One is a Leo symbol. And two, because, neither one of you took that leap of faith when you first had the chance. Not that she had much of a chance to start with."

"What?"

"When those mists parted enough for you to see her, she was already bound. And from that thin black band around her ankle, she is tied to the Earth; well and truly a Posted Ghost.. Hobbled, more or less."

"So I would have to go to her either way. My leap of faith would have to be early. I'll test it next time," He nodded.

"As for the new details, it could be that she is close. Or, at least than closer than Seoul."

He nodded. "Which would explain why the first time I had the entire nightmare was while visiting my uncle in Texas. Also explains why it is so much sharper here, than there in Texas; so she is much closer to here. So where are you thinking of spending your break," he asked, deftly turning the conversation away from her.

"With my adopted sister. It will be a week, here in the States, with my big Sis and her family!"

"I didn't know you had older sister."

"Adopted. We adopted each other. We met in that lo-fi channel I listen to."

"Oh, yeah."

"Yeah. Bryn just turned 38, is married to the worlds biggest douche, and she's a mom. She wanted a little brother she didn't have to take care of and I agreed. I wanted an older sister who wasn't such a pain in my ass. That much older, and she is more like a cool auntie."

Kihyun PoV

Weeks went by, we were back in Seoul, and Honey's words were still stuck in the back of my head.

The next time I had that dream, I threw a rock into the water. It sounded much deeper than it looked. The first time I tried to cross it, I got swept away. The second time, I crossed it early and by some miracle made it to the island, only to be attacked by the turtles. For slow moving reptiles, those tiny box turtles hit hard. One shoved me off of the island and I got swept away again.

I will admit to meditating more than normal. But it had an added effect. I found I could reach out to her better than if I had been drinking or if I was exhausted. The connection is better, stronger, somehow. Drinking has never really been my thing. Mostly because when I drink, I start screaming at shadows and bawl my eyes out over her. Then, I work myself up to the point where I hurl...and then, I pass out. The guys have had to bring me back before, I either shadowbox at nothing or I turn into dead weight. Min says I usually do the former.

It must have worked, though, because as soon as I laid my head down, I dreamt of her again.

I feel her soft skin against mine, my name written on her chest, over her heart; in a language I could not read but somehow knew. I hear her say something about an upcoming battle, as she steps away, and I hear myself say to her, while staring deep into those gorgeous green blue eyes, "Wherever you are will always be home. I refuse to be parted from you, Ghost." I grab her arms and haul her to me, rather roughly, "I promise you, here and now, there will never be a lifetime that you are without me. I will find you; no matter the time or the distance. You are mine to protect; mine to defend. Mine." Somehow my hands are suddenly cupping her face, "My Queen." But then it changes and I am holding her, as her blood flows from a mortal wound. "I will find you, my love," I whisper as her breath on my cheek stops, "I will find you," I sob as I cradle her body close to me, rocking her through the screaming. Which, I suddenly realized, was me, keening out my own heartbreak.

This time it was HyunWoo who woke me up.

"Kihyun, are you alright?"

"Yeah," I answered gruffly. All I wanted was to be left alone or to shower; either way, I could bawl in peace.

"Really? Cause you were screaming."

"I was?"

"Yeah. Like somebody died."

Somehow, I fought back the tears long enough to choke out, "Go get Honey."

HyunWoo took off at a sprint and came back a few seconds later with Honey.

He no more than made it in the door and knew what had happened. He smiled softly and whispered, "You dreamed about her again didn't you?"

It was all I could do to nod. The lump in my throat and the tightness in my chest were growing by the minute, right along with the burning in my eyes. I wanted to scream. I wanted to rage, at myself for not keeping that promise; at him for not protecting her when I couldn't. And sadly, I was angry with her for taking a blow that had been meant for me; for sacrificing herself for me.

I wanted to shriek with a pain I could not name. It hurt like hell. And while my heart squeezed, my soul felt like it was tearing apart at the torture of having to relive it.

"Now, you know how she feels. If she is older, she has seen it many times more than you have."

That one thought alone nearly crushed me. No, I simply could not handle my queen feeling this way; it was absolutely unacceptable.

I sat back to breathe a minute and collect myself. Had she really seen that? Had she watched it differently? She was right, her own pain was unacceptable. It near killed me to know that she had seen her own death, and my reaction to it. I could only hope she did not see what I did in my grief. She would have been so disappointed.

Silently, I grabbed the next chapter out. Then, I carried the first to Honey.

"You and Min should read this," I said as I handed it to him. "It's as much to do with you as me. I had better get this back in exactly the same condition I am handing it over in...Or I tell HER, and let her take it out of your ass."

Both men paled slightly. Guess, after all this time, they are still a little afraid of her.

"We will be extra careful with it," Min said.

As I made my way back down the hall, I heard someone yell.

"What's for supper?"

"Order take out. Leave me alone," I answered as I shut the door.

In twenty minutes, Honey was at my door with supper.

"Went to Mickey's. I got you some nuggets with barbeque sauce and a sweet tea."

"Awesome," I grumbled as my stomach growled.

After a little over a minute, he asked, "Everything ok? Not like you to shut yourself away like this."

"After what I read today, I guess I am just a bit pissed off."

"At?"

"Myself," I sighed. "I said some pretty awful things to her in the past and I am not quite sure how to fix it."

He just laughed as he sat in the chair by my bed, "You just apologize and hope it's enough. Sissie is a whole lot stronger than you think," he said as he pulled out a double quarter with cheese and started to unwrap it.

"You jerk. You got a huge burger and stuck me with the nuggets."

Reaching in the bag, he pulled out another and tossed it towards me. So, I handed over five of my nuggets.

After he swallowed, he said, "Kinda like the old days, huh? Eating spartan, far from home, with your brother-in-law. All that is missing is a fire and a few horses," he laughed as he waved his hand in a circle out in front of us.

I chuckled but he could tell I wasn't laughing.

"C'mon. Talk."

"What if it doesn't work out?"

He snorted as he took a sip of his soda. "You don't know that sister like I do. That girl is the epitome of stubborn. She will move heaven and earth to make sure it works out."

I sighed and nodded.

"Besides," he continued, "If something happens, I drop a bug in Moose's ear and let him and the twins drag her back."

I looked at him over the rim of my glasses, "You wouldn't."

He just laughed, "Kicking and screaming, if need be. Course, if Elm gets to her first, he'll just blister her ass."

"He'd better not. My Queen arrives in less than her current condition and I won't be too happy," I replied. Just then, I took my first sip of tea. It was ok, but not like hers. Just made me miss her more.

"What's wrong? Old?"

"No. But my Queen makes better tea in her sleep."

He clapped his hand on my shoulder and chuckled, "That she does. That she does."

Supper was finished and cleaned up with little in the way of words spoken after that. The evening saw me curling up in my bed with a coffee and the second chapter.

A/N- "If there is a worse place than hell, I am in it." A. Lincoln.

Feels like that today.

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"Vintage" by Jeremy Shada Sentence Starters

BACK IN FASHION

"Are you sure you know what you're doing?"

"Let's bring back the golden age."

"Vintage is the vibe again."

"If you're gonna steal, better steal from the best."

PRETTY LITTLE LIES

"You wanna hear my voice, but only if it matches yours."

"We've done this a hundred times."

"How many ways can we say you're wrong and I'm right."

"Why do we do this?"

"We're lying to ourselves."

"I can't fool you and you can't fool me."

"Your perfect little life is just a perfect little lie."

"I'm done with your pretty little lies."

"It's like I'm an actor in a really bad movie."

"We're faking it, playing parts."

"The ending was written right from the start."

SINGING IN THE RAIN

"Our story's not like the classic movies."

"This ain't got a happy ending."

"I realized your love was fake."

"I always thought you'd wait for me."

"Guess I wasn't worth the wait."

"There's no escape to a happy ending."

IF LOOKS COULD KILL

"New beginnings never go so well."

"You look like heaven but you're bound for hell."

"You leave little clues in a trail of blood."

"Your body is the smoking gun."

"If looks could kill then I'm already dead."

"Your love's a bill that I can't pay."

"You could kill me right now."

THIS AIN'T IT

"I spy with my little eye, a liar."

"You're a devil in disguise playing on my desires."

"Should've known from the start that it was all a game."

"You've been bluffing and I've been played."

"Your lips are poisonous."

"This ain't it. This ain't love."

"There's only ever one thing on your mind."

"You're looking for a fight."

"I've only got so much blood to bleed."

"This was never love."

DANCING WITH STRANGERS

"No one's listening, no one cares."

"I feel so alone, but I'm never alone."

"I just wanna go home."

"I don't wanna be dancing with strangers at 3am."

"I don't wanna be wasting my love on somebody who doesn't know who I am."

"I know I need to move on."

"It's time to put the past where the past belongs."

"My heart's longing for something more than I've had."

"I might of lost my way along the road."

GENTLEMAN

"You stop time with that smile."

"Take my hand."

"Hit the floor let's dance."

"All the other jokers here let's foil their plans."

"They won't be taking you home."

"My love is tailored for you."

"When you dance you're the only one in the room."

"You're like a top shelf drink, always smooth."

"I wanna say yes, but I'll have to decline."

"Don't wanna mess with a perfect night."

"Your lips are tempting."

BEWITCHED

"You must be something rare."

"We got all night to do the wrongs that feel right."

"I'm out of my depth with you in that dress."

"You don't make it fair."

"I try to act cool but who I am trying to fool."

"You're driving me crazy."

"You're like magic."

"I'm bewitched by your kiss."

"I've never met anybody else like this."

HUMPHREY BOGART

"You add a little bit of color to the picture."

"I could look atcha all day."

"I think I got a little lucky."

"God knew what he was doing when he made you."

THIS FEELS RIGHT

"You drive me a little bit crazy."

"I guess crazy attracts crazy."

"This feels right, coming home to you every night."

"Your love keeps me living."

"I knew that you were mine from the second that you walked in."

"You make loving you so easy."

"You make loving me seem easy."

BORED TOGETHER

"Honey, I'm home."

"Glad we're alone."

"Doing nothing with you is what I love doing."

"I wanna be bored together."

"I wanna grow old with you."

"Day to day is where life is lived and where real love is."

TALKING TO A MEMORY

"I'm talking to a memory."

"Can you hear me?"

"I'm haunted by the moments of what we used to be."

"I can't help believing you're haunted by me."

"The world is empty when you're not there."

"The ending came too soon but it made us who we are."

"We'll be haunting each others dreams."

[pokefanbri]

Im still fucking fighting, i keep telling myself im not gonna let go & Fuck everyone else who thinks I should. But sometimes there's the opposite, im just lost & idk what to do....hes not gonna come back...so why should I bother to keep fighting 😔 If someone asks me...

Are they worth it? Absolutely. Because theres always room for improvement & growth, & we've been doing that apart for ourselves now for 7months. Did they give u the respect and attention u deserved? Are we not more valuable than that? Hell no & hell yes lol. Look I was happy just doing that for him but yea when it came to me honestly it was like nah im good 😒 & i know how fucked up it is that id go along with his selfishness but I did. I did deserve better & he knows I did... i just didnt wanna lose him & did anything he needed me for... but I ended up losing him anyway 😔 theres a reason why u work on that kinda shit & grow together as you go so everyone is happy, its fair to say we both lost sight...I was eager to learn everything about him cuz I wanted to be closer...but I was blocked out & pushed away, he wouldn't open up & talk to me or show feelings for anything, even of me when he used to all the time...like he was scared of being too attached or didnt want to get hurt..he didnt trust me or was afraid to show his true self or show any emotion that'd be viewed as weak due to the typical be a man complex. Idk I was confused & didnt know what was needed to help fix things so yea i walked on eggshells & me showing affection of my own free will was out of the question most of the time...I couldn't touch him unless he wanted me to & rare occurrences for my own satisfaction. Its the reason why I cried all the damn time, I felt avoided & unwanted because my own attention lacked pretty badly. How tf do I love a fucknugget bobblehead like that lmao, cuz I dont give 2 flying fucks he was my man ok! & being close enough to him made me happy enough I guess, I still looked at him like he was my world even if I wanted to slap him for making me feel so lonely at the same time. I admit his needs came b4 mine, he liked it more that way & I took care of him more than I did myself. But if he had more effort to take care of my needs in turn & I were happier than I was, & us happy at the same time, then maybe I wouldn't be so hard on myself...cry all the time & smoke like a chimney 🙁

I still don't fully understand why he held back, communicating with me on a deeper level is supposed to be natural & pretty much all normal couples show an appropriate amount of affection & understanding to eachother....but it was kept burried...was he afraid id hate him, judge him, make fun? No, id love him even more! Idc how dark he may think he is or whatever past bs he's gone through or even if he was lying about anything...its okay it can't hurt u anymore dear & we can overcome it just tell me what it is thats lacking & let's fix this. Id say "sit down babe, tell me everything, whats on your mind, what can I do to help 😊" & id give him the most gentle kiss on the forehead. I'd do anything to see a smile from that face & it makes me smile too. I want to help him, he needs somebody to hold just as much as I do cuz the fact of the matter is babe, he's just as broken as I am, we both need someone to put back our pieces & become whole again...after we try doing it solo it can only go so far b4 u want that physical presence of another again to help u more so. He keeps everything bottled up & especially didnt let me see what was happening to him I had no clue, if he didnt like talking to anyone he at least had me but still kept me away from him, whatever it was festered in him & he changed his whole demeanor toward me, he became colder & shut me out for good 😔 Making me feel even more unwanted. We didnt help eachother through our problems & I really wanted to, I wanted to save us for the longest time way b4 the end. Idk maybe if he put in as much effort & we knew how to function better together instead of a Corolla with just 2 wheels then we'd probably be fine...& our suspension wouldn't be dragging on the asphalt 😂 Its not all on him for fault, I take equal amount of responsibility, we failed eachother, we didn't know wtf we were doing & 9/10 it was just friends with benefits with only 1 of us in love & attached, & the other not really caring with side pieces to chat with 🤷‍♀️

U know what 🤬 They're right, he's right, & now I'm actually starting to accept it the more I write. Maybe just maybe,HE DOESN'T DESERVE ME AT ALL. Im still upset and frustrated. To answer the question again from earlier no maybe he's not worth it. I suffered through his bs and 10fold heartbreak afterward!! If he can't own up, right his wrongs & bring us both peace then no he's not worth suffering for afterall, and ive been loving the wrong soul this whole damn time 😣 He kicked me to the curb cuz he a fucking coward! He cant admit his wrongdoings, ask for forgiveness, say im sorry or actually put the tiniest bit of effort into a relationship to make it work, but instead disposes of me so he wouldn't have to confront any of it & just continue on like nothing happened are fucking kidding me!!?? I thought u were smarter than this, its beneath you to just run away & pretend I never mattered to you when we both know I did!!!....& im crying again. Im still feeling the betrayal apparently, ill never be able to trust him fully again anyway, let alone other men now. I dont hate you, I love you very much. But I hate the evil from you that you've shown me. I should've known honestly, I was naive to see all types of disrespect but this was the worst part. I still love him but i do deserve better than that & I hope he's changed his ways. Trust a guy with a high track record of ladies & a handful of em in their hand..what u think 🤔 can trust be gained back? Can I get over the bad uncalled for lying shit he's said about me to other women to make himself look better? Idk 🤷‍♀️ I haven't been able to rest without closure for so long, but enough is enough im making my own. You're absolutely right, you'd just manipulate me further, I thought maybe we could be better than before...round 2 at some point in the future...but maybe we're not salvageable after all. Thats up to u, I did everything I could, but now if u were to ever come back idk if I'd jump into your arms or slam the door in your face, I just dont know. Its better that I try never speaking of u again, or think of you for as long as I can so that I can heal better....cuz loving you even after the fact is tearing me apart & making me lose focus on what matters more, myself. I fought valiantly as long as I could, 7 months is a long time to not shut up about u lol.. maybe you've been hearing me I wouldn't know. I have to force it or ill never be able to, ill still silently grieve but as much as it hurts, Its time. U were my rock, an asshole but a good one, the best gamer I got to know, a boss at alot of things, with the cutest lil butt, & somehow the love of my life. Other than maybe something valentines or anniv related in Feb ofcourse....Ur getting what u wanted, I have to do whats best for me now, I have to let u go. I held on for so long but Im really tired & emotionally drained, im just torturing myself when i need to stop, im defeated, nobody won anything, everyone got hurt in 2020 why should our relationship be any different, id say we gave it our all be we both know we didnt. This hurts me so much to do, like my heart is breaking again. Bye babe, I love you with all my heart. 💋💞 💟

I tried to do what I could but if he left, I just gotta try to move on. If I take him back, I gotta consider how that's gonna look like & if I really got past the damage he did....obviously theres some I still haven't 😔 Its what im telling myself while trying to move past this. Others going through the same...We're in love and they ain't. We can't control their actions but we can control our actions. Im not a toxic person..only to myself, I love with all my heart, nobody bothers to understand...they just judge

[freefalllllllll-blog]

I ain't trying to paint you conclusions.It's pay to play rules and Today's a day for suit and tie celebration Nailed it hammered loose and I'm Falling down with shit caked in my shoes I ain't feeling this pair of 2s Ante up or just fold boy Take a whirl or take to Fakin' it baby I've been patient watching you the way move Detecting all of your clues Feeding off of your cues like 1 2 3 4 5 I'll get it right and play nice soon as you do Running off again running off of gin and cigarettes Front talking it's a cakewalk till I miss a step Make it there take a breath and start popping a sweat This molly got me in all my days I've never seen a show stopper like you Calling out the moves soon as you make em up, just a touch Could make a boy act stupid Take my delusions grind up into your bowl Puff on that till I'm blue green serpentine Visions snaking out of our tea Not sure what it all means But I could get used to seeing your cool demeanor lighting my scene up Tripping all day til we keeping our knees up Dripping always til our sins look cleaner Walking down mazes in our minds to find our ways permeate The walls in your room Permanent as all we been through Face in Placate Flake out For miles, for mine, for I know You could sell me on anything Reach for the telephone or let it ring Teach me to let it go I think no luck nothing but us in violence I hate fighting when I'm driving Leave me now or leave cagey for 25 exits Davis coltrane white lines exchanged in silence Service fell off in the underground Caught the line back to your basement Came with Fear in my heart Cold to the touch Love ain't enough a drug to make us Make us make amends You and i, we've been friends through screens The screens, the screen-door's coming off the rails Come in, come in Come off the rails Failed to reveal appeals apparent to my soul Call me back if you wanna talkLong distance collecting love Strong feelings ain't enough to break the silence holding us Hold my phone If you needed me then, then, then, why wouldn't you bring it up? Then why wouldn't we be together if "all that we need is us" ain't too much as ask for? Nah it ain't too much Ain't too much I hate to say that I miss you first but Send my love send my love right away baby All day all night I wish you would leave me Hurting I know us is more than we deserve but If I may and you're awake I'll be coming home late It'd be cool if I could stay for a minute Baby lately I've been waiting To feel your mood move me I love the way you know how I love the way you walk out I love the way you shut it Down Now Paint it moody orange.

[punkscowardschampions]

Jimmy & Janis

Jimmy: 💀💀💀 Jimmy: it's your turn to bust in & save me, you know Jimmy: cashing in that chip Janis: 🤔 what lesson you in and what teach you got first Jimmy: 🥖🧀🍷 Jimmy: bit of a clue Janis: you having a really boujee lunch without me Janis: rude Janis: especially after you ripped the piss for my 🍱 Jimmy: you & emojis! Jimmy: 🐸🐌 Jimmy: we getting anywhere? Janis: I know what lesson you in Janis: if I burst in there she might actually 💀 Janis: not starting the crime spree there Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: she might not even hear you Jimmy: but don't tell your brother I'm making deaf jokes Janis: 😂 Janis: definitely will Janis: bitch about you in sign Janis: is it true she falls asleep during lessons or what? Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: 🤞 today's one of 'em Janis: 'least you won't have to do any work Jimmy: soon as she's out so am I Jimmy: meet me Janis: do my best Janis: not got a geriatric teacher sadly Jimmy: you only walk out when you're 💔 then? Jimmy: hang on, I'll get Pete on the line to do his worst Janis: umm firstly, he would NEVER Janis: secondly, shut up Jimmy: it ain't my fault you put such flattering #content of me on the 'gram Jimmy: & got him all 😍😍😍 Janis: 😏 you went out like that Janis: know you wanted everyone to see, slag Jimmy: you know me so well Jimmy: 💕 Janis: unfortunately Janis: 💕 Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Jimmy: blasting that classic FM for you right now, don't worry Janis: might wake her up Janis: #childhoodbops Jimmy: how did she just hear me laugh Jimmy: she ain't heard nowt else Janis: saw the post too Janis: everyone 👀 you today, babe Jimmy: my new boy status star is fading, babe Jimmy: gotta keep my #appeal 🥇 Jimmy: so tah for the boost Janis: that was the deal Janis: or was it my #appeal Jimmy: all yours babe Jimmy: your appeal & my protection was basically the deal Janis: Blame your leg on someone else then Janis: or I'm 👎 and can't have that Jimmy: that was my own fault Jimmy: & that's not what I need you for Jimmy: Mia & co aren't coming to kneecap me Jimmy: 🐍 only Janis: 😂 Janis: doesn't she take french? Jimmy: do you wanna say hello? Janis: *bonjour Janis: but non Janis: maybe I will come and 👀 her Jimmy: I get it, you're over me Jimmy: bit rude but Jimmy: if I can't keep up, I can't keep up Janis: like she can Janis: one hair flip away from a heart attack Janis: jus' sayin', don't be taking her up on practicing oral thank you Jimmy: stop making me laugh Jimmy: she's looking at me right now like she wants to do target practice though 👍 Jimmy: 🥇 without being in the room, girl Janis: 💕 so real Jimmy: you coming to see me then? Janis: hmm Janis: tempting Janis: maybe Jimmy: go on Jimmy: I miss you Janis: I miss you too Janis: this lesson is so dry Jimmy: she's got us playing bingo so she'll 🥇 when she goes out later Jimmy: 💕👵 Jimmy: practice makes perfect, Ms Janis: love that for her Janis: reckon she'll believe it if I come tell her you're needed for something? Jimmy: I don't care if she does or not Jimmy: I need you for something Janis: yeah? Jimmy: yeah Janis: hang on then Janis: lemme convince this bitch Imma die if I don't go to the bathroom rn Jimmy: easy Janis: tbf easier for me Janis: want me to bleed all over your classroom babe or what Jimmy: just don't start a pregnancy rumor Jimmy: my dad would actually kill me Janis: eurgh Janis: don't Janis: everyone expects it anyway it's fucking rude Jimmy: this once I promise not to give the fans what they want Janis: 💕 Janis: good 🍀 getting past my watertight contraception boy Jimmy: challenge not accepted Jimmy: again only this once Janis: 👍 answer Jimmy: change the subject or get here faster 'cause not a turn on Jimmy: & I really wanna give you what you want & Mia what she don't Jimmy: 💕 Janis: I have to come in? Janis: 😳 Jimmy: was that not the plan? Jimmy: you asked me if she took french Janis: you think this is actually about Mia? Jimmy: it's about us Jimmy: but she's here, they all are Janis: poor boy Janis: have to sit up the front like a 🤓 to stay safe, yeah? Jimmy: you wish Jimmy: I'm at the back Jimmy: you only need one foot in the door Janis: I'm convinced you can stop Janis: also en route Jimmy: you know how hard it is for me to stop once I've got going Janis: shh Janis: we'll see won't we Jimmy: they'll see Jimmy: you'll feel it Janis: Boy Janis: exactly how much of a show do you wanna give here Janis: be careful Jimmy: if you wanna back out Jimmy: just turn around Jimmy: but I weren't gonna fuck you in front of 'em all Jimmy: I don't reckon the teacher's that blind yet Janis: shut up Janis: when have I ever Jimmy: first time for owt Jimmy: & it sounded like you were gonna Janis: nah Janis: what, like I'm scared of them Jimmy: I know you ain't Jimmy: been proven loads Janis: and I defs ain't scared of your teacher so Jimmy: come on then Janis: Bitch I'm walking Janis: was in the science block Jimmy: what kind of athlete Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: one that had a proper run yesterday Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Jimmy: if you wanna get your head down, Ms will probably spoon you for a bit Janis: your type not mine Janis: but go off Janis: it's room 26, right? Jimmy: your type is dickheads & she is Jimmy: 👍 Janis: 😂 sure Janis: dream threesome ain't happening, deal with it Jimmy: 💔 me Jimmy: worst girlfriend ever you Janis: I know Janis: get ready to be 😒 Janis: [comes in] Jimmy: [looks at her like well what are you gonna do] Janis: [sits down on his desk like you better kiss me right now boy Jimmy: [does & it's everything so get your phones out everyone] Janis: [obvs she's getting kicked out can decide if he does too] Jimmy: [he does too deal with it Ian] Janis: you know Janis: we don't have to go Janis: she ain't gonna check Jimmy: fuck it then Jimmy: where do you wanna go? Janis: do you wanna leave leave or wait it out somewhere 'til next period Jimmy: I wanna leave but Jimmy: probably shouldn't Janis: yeah, my thoughts too Janis: if we don't show to seclusion, they ain't gonna know to tell him Janis: be 😇 the rest of the day, simple Jimmy: where now then? Janis: [genuine pondering] Janis: better walk and talk or we're gonna get busted Janis: gotta be an empty classroom or something Jimmy: we could just walk in the staff room like we belong Jimmy: all you need is ☕ breath Janis: 😂 Janis: don't make me laugh Janis: you are so bad at being stealth Jimmy: piss off am I Jimmy: 🏆💪 Janis: you just like the attention then, yeah? Jimmy: yeah Janis: [stops to kiss him some more just 'cos] Jimmy: you're Jimmy: not the worst girlfriend ever Janis: clawing it back Janis: 🏆💪 Jimmy: it's a start Janis: that's how it is Janis: okay Jimmy: [stops to kiss her even more just cos] Janis: damn Janis: please say you don't need a 🚬 first Jimmy: I need you Jimmy: I told you, I miss you Janis: okay then let's just go bathroom Janis: come on Jimmy: #sucharomantic Jimmy: 💕 Jimmy: [but kisses her again cos love & agreement] Janis: turn around if you wanna back out Janis: [blows a kiss and starts heading towards nearest] Jimmy: [shakes his head affectionately in like a piss off type way] Jimmy: when have I ever? Janis: [skip them there 'cos how long would it take you know the drill] Jimmy: [pulls her in like when they woohoo in a cupboard on sims lol] Janis: ['keen'] Jimmy: [kisses her to shut her up but also 'cause he is] Janis: missed you Jimmy: [whispers in her ear that he missed her too] Janis: [giving him hickeys you're welcome fans] Jimmy: you really Jimmy: have missed me, yeah Janis: [makes strained 'mhm' noise 'cos yeah] Jimmy: good Janis: I want Jimmy: [tilts her head up for eye contact so he can look at her like what & just generally be hot af] Janis: ['you'] Janis: what did you need, you said you needed me Jimmy: [a really good make out for a while because] Janis: [😍 but being like 👂🤫 'cos someone walked in] Jimmy: [starts kissing her neck & doing his own hickeys cos little shit like that even though he heard the person too] Janis: you're such a dickhead oh my God Jimmy: alright, I'll stop Jimmy: [but goes harder instead cos rude] Janis: I can't be held accountable for my actions if you don't Janis: fair warning Jimmy: are you gonna hit me or fuck me Jimmy: I can't tell Janis: [is 😒 face but also holding in a lol] Janis: you can find out if you really want Jimmy: [kisses her grumpy little face like always] Janis: [person leaves] Janis: thank God Janis: would have been disgusting if they were taking a shit Jimmy: 😂 Janis: not that into you Janis: sorry not sorry Jimmy: 💔💔💔 Janis: poor baby Janis: [back at it again] Jimmy: we should just stay here Jimmy: til someone does take a shit anyway Janis: sexy Jimmy: it ain't my fault you brought me here Jimmy: I was #teamstaffroom Janis: 🙄 Janis: couldn't do this in the staffroom Janis: [saucy behaviour] Jimmy: we could Janis: I mean we could start Janis: but they're not all that zoned out they're gonna let us finish, like Jimmy: let's find out some time Janis: okay Janis: any other bright ideas for me, boy? Jimmy: I'll let you know Jimmy: it's hard to think when you're this close to me Janis: we could get closer Jimmy: [pulls her closer & does some hickeys on the other side too cos enjoy fans] Janis: I'm gonna be covered Jimmy: do you want me to stop, for real Janis: [shakes head] Janis: never Janis: I want more Jimmy: [gives her more] Janis: [kicks the toilet seat down and sits him down] Jimmy: fuck Jimmy: you're really hot Janis: I just Janis: I've gotta Jimmy: do it Janis: [always on his lap girl] Jimmy: [kisses so he don't make all the noise already] Janis: you did promise Jimmy: [nods with all the eye contact how they do] Janis: we've got time Janis: we can just Jimmy: I don't care if we don't Jimmy: I'll make time for you Jimmy: any time Jimmy: loads of Janis: so cute Janis: [lots of kissing] Jimmy: it's you Jimmy: you're just Janis: show me Jimmy: [does obviously we know why we're here lads] Janis: [biting on his shoulder to be quiet 'cos difficile as the french would say] Jimmy: [but like that'd just make him wanna make more noise cos damn] Janis: [puts her hand over his mouth but in a lol shh you cutie way not a threatening one] Jimmy: [good timing cos someone comes in then haha] Janis: shit Janis: [lifts feet up so looks like just one person lol] Jimmy: just don't stop, alright Janis: what if they hear? Jimmy: what if they do Jimmy: they won't know it's us Jimmy: long as you don't scream my name Janis: [🙄] Janis: do my best, babe Jimmy: me too Jimmy: just don't remind me what yours is right now & we'll be 👍 Janis: oh shut up Janis: [goes harder 'cos that bitch like don't make it easy] Jimmy: oh Jimmy: shit Janis: you asked for that Jimmy: I want it Jimmy: I really Jimmy: fucking Janis: tell me Jimmy: I just Jimmy: I Janis: you want me to go slow like this Janis: is that right? Jimmy: baby Janis: Baby Jimmy: please Janis: [really goes for it 'cos duh soz whoever the fuck hope you don't interrupt] Jimmy: [is proving he can be stealth sometimes by not being loud af for once, well done boy] Janis: [again, not helpful, up in his ear telling him he's so good etc hush] Jimmy: [I'm just imagining whoever else is in there knowing what's up 100% and it's making me lol] Janis: Shit Janis: Jimmy Jimmy: I know Janis: I really do wanna say it though Jimmy: just whisper to me Jimmy: it's alright Janis: maybe you're better at being quiet Janis: just this once Jimmy: what was it you said? I'm clawing it back Jimmy: after yesterday Jimmy: gotta show you I'm still 🥇 Janis: you are Janis: to me Janis: for me Jimmy: [has to kiss her for a while because EMOTIONS] Janis: you're such a good kisser do it again Jimmy: [keeps kissing her so much] Janis: I still don't know how you make all of it feel so Jimmy: I love you Jimmy: that's how Janis: [has to kiss him 'cos same bitch] Jimmy: [okay but hear me out what if the bell rings] Janis: [😣] Janis: fuck sake Jimmy: it don't matter Jimmy: we have time Jimmy: you said Janis: you better think of a reason we're both late to maths then Janis: can't stay in here all period Jimmy: I want you to stay Jimmy: there's yours Jimmy: & I don't care Jimmy: that's mine Janis: You're Janis: [smiling appreciatively like] Janis: I love you Jimmy: show me Jimmy: then we'll go to maths Jimmy: maybe Janis: [does] Janis: feel it, baby? Jimmy: [tells her how much he does etc now that they are alone again] Janis: really gonna have to wear a skirt every day from now on Jimmy: are you mad about it? Janis: how could I be mad about this Janis: mad we can't just do this all day, sure Jimmy: we can Jimmy: who needs maths anyway Janis: teacher's a dick Janis: probably get sent straight out for being late Jimmy: good 'cause I ain't done any homework for him since I got here Jimmy: playing hard to get sir, soz Janis: [😂] Jimmy: you're so Jimmy: you should get sent out of every lesson for looking like that Jimmy: it's Janis: Sir probably isn't looking at me like you are Janis: 🤞 Jimmy: he better not be Jimmy: I'll knock him out Janis: not exactly competition is he, babe Jimmy: not the point Jimmy: you're my girlfriend Jimmy: [is doing the pulling her closer even though he can't thing again cos] Janis: [we know what it does when he says that] Jimmy: [is kissing her in a possessive manner excuse him] Janis: [living for it] Jimmy: [likewise] Janis: I'm Janis: I can't hold on Jimmy: let go Jimmy: I want you to Janis: you want me to cum Jimmy: I'm telling you to Janis: [does 'cos damn] Jimmy: [also does in like no time cos how hot that'd shamelessly be] Janis: well Jimmy: [is sorting his clothes out but halfheartedly cos giving her full eye contact] Jimmy: well Janis: [can't stop looking at him even though she's all 😳 too] Jimmy: [reaches & takes her hair down cos I assume it's up for school & he's that bitch like we see you boy just wanting to touch it & her] Janis: really Janis: it isn't obvious enough you just fucked my brains out, you gonna mess up my hair too Jimmy: [is just like 😏] Janis: you're a dickhead Janis: and we're so late Janis: [starts actually adjusting herself] Jimmy: [actually runs his fingers through her hair so it looks like a mood & then kisses her but in like a let's do this kind of way not a let's stay here forever way] Jimmy: so come on Janis: [hand-holding] Jimmy: [showing up at class like oh hey] Janis: [people aren't even gonna be coy about it it's that obvious so the teacher gonna be casually fuming at this disruption, no sitting next to each other lads] Jimmy: [Grace wants to kill herself cos casually also there hey girl] Janis: 👌 Jimmy: 👌 Janis: what's the general consensus then, are we gross or are we legends Janis: can only hear big mouth in my ear Jimmy: I'm a legend Jimmy: you're Janis: 👍 Janis: 'course I am Jimmy: I'll shut everyone up Jimmy: fuck this Janis: don't bother Janis: only make 'em worse Jimmy: but Janis: I don't care Jimmy: I know you don't Janis: plus sir is about to snap so now's probably not the time to show what a good boyfriend you are regardless Jimmy: I don't care about that dickhead Janis: do what you must Janis: but rise to it then it becomes a thing and they'll 100% get your Dad in and I'd rather not Jimmy: [is 😒 but doesn't do anything cos knows she's right] Janis: I hate everyone at this fucking School Jimmy: me too Jimmy: everyone in this town really Janis: yeah Janis: agreed Jimmy: [Grace gets herself excused from class cos can't hack it 👍 good stuff] Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: agreed Janis: probably have the day off tomorrow too Janis: and I fucking can't Jimmy: we can skip Jimmy: if you want Janis: show them it got to me? Janis: don't think so Janis: not her Jimmy: show them we've got better things to do Jimmy: that's what our feed is for Janis: probably not Janis: enough scandal to be getting on with Jimmy: alright Janis: [actually doing her work] Jimmy: [isn't and is doodling blatantly instead] Janis: what're you drawing Jimmy: nowt decent Janis: not exactly best circumstances for inspiration to strike Janis: reckon you'll be forgiven Jimmy: what are you on about? Jimmy: got my muse right here Jimmy: been really inspiring she has Janis: 🙄 Janis: you don't want that rep Jimmy: what Janis: the weird anime kids that draw fucking not even soft really softcore all over their books Jimmy: this bunch of dickheads wish Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: not sure that's what they're dying to see from you Janis: 📷boy Jimmy: are you pissed off at me Janis: why would I be Jimmy: that's why I'm asking Jimmy: I don't know Janis: I ain't Jimmy: 👍 Janis: this lesson can go fuck itself though Jimmy: that's every lesson Janis: wish I could just quit sometimes Jimmy: #relatable Janis: 😒 Jimmy: I reckon I will though Jimmy: it's shitter here than my old school Janis: be alright if you had mates Janis: which assumedly you did Jimmy: yeah Janis: all schools are the same Janis: even posh ones Jimmy: didn't have to learn paddy lingo in my old one though Jimmy: such bollocks Jimmy: what am I gonna do with a month's worth of that Janis: make us all laugh with your attempts idk Janis: it's stupid Jimmy: if my interview goes alright & they gimme the job I could leave Janis: is that what you wanna do forever Jimmy: nah but it'll do for now Janis: you'll need some kind of school shit Jimmy: probably but that's to worry about in a bit Janis: your dad would never let you anyway so Jimmy: what's he gonna do, actually murder me? Janis: kick you out, probably Janis: part time barista ain't paying no rent Jimmy: not when he needs me to raise the other two he won't Jimmy: & I'd go full time if I didn't have school obviously Jimmy: much as they'd let me Janis: 🤷 Janis: whatever Jimmy: what's your issue? Jimmy: nowt's whatever with you Janis: what am I meant to say Janis: it ain't happening Janis: so Janis: it is whatever Janis: idk why we're even chatting about it Jimmy: see the future can you? Jimmy: 👌 Janis: you can't just leave, they aren't even meant to hire you Janis: there's laws, you know Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: like I said Janis: 🤷 Jimmy: it ain't my fault everyone's chatting shit Jimmy: don't be a dickhead to me Janis: did I say it was Jimmy: stop acting like it is Jimmy: it don't matter what you say Janis: then why are we talking Jimmy: right now I don't know Janis: #relatable Jimmy: piss off Janis: only funny when you say it? Jimmy: it weren't funny then Janis: not particularly Janis: no Jimmy: just leave it out Jimmy: you've been a dickhead since we came in Janis: couldn't exactly carry on as we were so Janis: what do you expect me to do Jimmy: yeah we could've Jimmy: & I expect you to not treat me like I'm one of 'em Janis: [is 'working'] Jimmy: bollocks are you gonna ignore me now Janis: what Janis: I'm trying to focus so I don't have to focus on them, if you don't mind Jimmy: well I do mind Janis: well what then Jimmy: fuck's sake Jimmy: what did you think would Janis: I told you I don't care Jimmy: & I've told you loads that you're shit at pretending Janis: No I'm not Jimmy: you are Janis: nope Jimmy: stop Janis: why Janis: you wanted to talk now you don't Janis: make up your mind Jimmy: make up your mind Janis: I know my mind thank you very much Jimmy: then stop chatting shit & tell me what's on it Janis: seriously nothing but this worksheet Janis: they're just being loud that's all that's annoying about it Jimmy: [crumples up his worksheet & throws it from his seat to land in the bin cos over it] Jimmy: 👌👍 Janis: alright showoff Jimmy: [doesn't reply cos the teacher is having a word like] Janis: absolute joke Jimmy: it's on the CV for all teachers that Janis: 😒 Janis: it's bullshit Jimmy: #relatable Janis: for fuck sake Jimmy: reckon it might get funnier each time I do it Jimmy: worth a go Janis: what else are you doing Jimmy: nowt Jimmy: thinking about going for a 🚬 Jimmy: you coming? Janis: you know that ain't happening Jimmy: you ain't gotta come with but Janis: you're alright Jimmy: in a bit then Janis: 👋 Jimmy: [gets up & the teacher's like UM EXCUSE YOU & he's like 'I'm going for a 🚬 sir, you fancy it?' & off he struts oh boy no] Janis: thanks a lot Jimmy: you were invited Jimmy: can't do nowt more Janis: no 'cos you get to be a legend again and I'm stuck here getting shouted at on your behalf like it's anything to do with me Jimmy: like you said, it's bullshit Janis: like I said, thanks Jimmy: like I said, in a bit then Janis: prick Jimmy: you wanna blame me anyway Jimmy: now you can Jimmy: you're welcome Janis: oh fuck off Jimmy: bit late Jimmy: I'm off Janis: shut up Jimmy: you can't make me from there Jimmy: always telling you Janis: you are infuriating Jimmy: you are Janis: you Jimmy: you Janis: this is just fucking stupid Jimmy: stop then Jimmy: focus on your work Janis: don't be patronizing Jimmy: It's what you said you wanted Jimmy: so do it Janis: I said that's what I was doing not what I wanted Janis: we all wanna just walk away but you can't Janis: you're as bad as her Janis: not talking about either of you negatively are they Janis: no Janis: but you two pussy out and I'm still sat here Jimmy: I ain't her & it ain't my fault she did what she did Jimmy: any of it Janis: don't matter Janis: ain't here either are you Jimmy: you shut me out ages before I left Jimmy: so nah, I ain't Jimmy: 'cause you know who else does that, if we're making bollocks comparisons Janis: what are you even talking about Jimmy: like you said, don't matter Janis: why bother saying it then Janis: go on Jimmy: why bother saying owt Jimmy: this whole lesson Janis: 'cos I wanted to talk to you, fucking hell Janis: excuse me for being in a bad mood when literally everyone is chatting shit to my face Jimmy: but you don't care, yeah Janis: I don't care but that doesn't mean I don't wanna shut them up, like I said, it's noise I don't need Jimmy: I said I'd shut 'em up Janis: yeah and you end up looking great again, you can't lose Janis: whatever the fuck you do Janis: I can't win Janis: end of Jimmy: I'm not in a fucking competition against you Jimmy: I wanna help you Janis: I don't need help Jimmy: then what do you care if I'm there or not Jimmy: fuck Janis: forget it Jimmy: you forget it Jimmy: you say I can't lose like I give a shit about any of those dickheads Jimmy: you ask me if it's about Mia when it's literally always been Jimmy: my dad is gonna kick off whatever I do Jimmy: that's the end of Jimmy: for me Janis: it wasn't my idea Jimmy: like I said, go on & blame me Jimmy: whatever Janis: I'm saying I'm not trying to get you in trouble with your Dad so don't say it like I am when I'm literally trying to do the opposite and stop you from getting in more trouble Janis: why did you think I didn't wanna come, for fuck's sake Jimmy: & I'm saying I could be a perfect angel & it wouldn't change owt 'cause there's always something with him Jimmy: it's never gonna be enough Jimmy: or about you Janis: I ain't saying it's about me Jimmy: just leave it out Janis: fine Jimmy: 👍 Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: save it for your worksheet Jimmy: riveting stuff that Janis: finished Janis: weren't that hard Janis: should've just done it Jimmy: get it out the bin for me if you're that 💔 Janis: 🖕 funny Jimmy: I'm serious, nerd Janis: you're so mean Jimmy: you still take 🥇 though, it's alright Janis: piss off Jimmy: again, I'm serious Jimmy: brutal you Janis: No you ain't Janis: you're never serious Jimmy: bollocks am I not Janis: name a time Jimmy: I'm serious about you all the time Janis: ew Janis: gay Jimmy: only for 👴 & a certain barista 💕 Janis: always good to keep track Janis: tah Jimmy: 👍 Janis: who else you straight gay for then Jimmy: that keeps my 🍽 full Janis: 👍 Jimmy: why you gonna set me up or what? Janis: obviously not Janis: I said Janis: keeping track of it all Jimmy: alright nerd, calm down Janis: 🖕 hilarious Jimmy: yeah should've tweeted it Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: got plenty of time Janis: doesn't take that long to finish a 🚬 Jimmy: if you're only having 1 Janis: 👍 Jimmy: 😘 Janis: don't think so Janis: not with that mouth Jimmy: bit rude Janis: I am, apparently Jimmy: & you're also a bit late but Janis: ? Jimmy: there's nowhere my mouth ain't been on you by now, babe Janis: I meant now after however many you've just had and you know it, idiot Jimmy: you saying what you mean now? Janis: when was I not Jimmy: just keeping track Janis: 😑 Janis: stop being so annoying Jimmy: take your own advice, dickhead Janis: you're the dickhead Jimmy: it's you Janis: we aren't doing this again Jimmy: not if you shut up Janis: why should I shut up? Jimmy: 'cause you're the one being a dickhead Janis: I am not I'm trying to talk to you Jimmy: you're trying to chat shit to me Jimmy: I don't want it Janis: rude Jimmy: yeah well I've got a very inspiring muse so Janis: stop it Jimmy: why? Jimmy: what do you wanna say? Jimmy: what are you gonna? Janis: why do I have to have something Janis: we can't just talk now Janis: alright Jimmy: not when it's just bollocks Jimmy: really talk to me Janis: I'm trying Jimmy: go on Janis: sorry, alright Jimmy: I'm sorry Jimmy: I shouldn't have walked out Jimmy: but Janis: don't blame you Jimmy: you should Jimmy: that was me Janis: I don't blame you for wanting to Jimmy: I do Jimmy: I fucked up Janis: no Janis: why Jimmy: I left you in there Jimmy: that's not Janis: it isn't like there's anything you can do Janis: or need to do Jimmy: I'm not having that Jimmy: just accepting that they're all dickheads to you Jimmy: I'm not your sister Janis: well this ain't just me, it'd be the same if it was any other girl yeah Janis: it ain't personal Jimmy: what they are saying is Jimmy: loads of it Janis: well what do they know Jimmy: they don't know you Jimmy: but I do & I'm sorry I was a massive dickhead, alright Janis: me too Janis: it's fine, it's alright Jimmy: I really fucking hate this place Janis: I know Janis: I do too Jimmy: let's just leave Jimmy: you've done it before Jimmy: you know how to Janis: what about the kids Jimmy: there's nowt I can say to that Jimmy: am I meant to wait 10 more years until he's not a kid Janis: exactly Janis: it's shit Jimmy: I didn't ask for this Jimmy: I don't want it Jimmy: she got to just Jimmy: & Ian's doing what? Janis: Yep Janis: if you gave less of a shit you could but Janis: I know you do Jimmy: how do you do it? Janis: it's different Janis: no one needs me, remember Jimmy: but that's bollocks Jimmy: I've met 'em Jimmy: they do Janis: nah, my parents have got plenty of kids and my silblings have got plenty of siblings Jimmy: it don't matter Jimmy: I've seen they give a shit Jimmy: so how do you not? Janis: it's not real Jimmy: what Janis: they just fake it too Janis: obligation, isn't it Jimmy: wish my dad had some of that Jimmy: or my mum did Janis: seems like he has some Janis: with the kids Jimmy: maybe Janis: it's all bullshit anyway Janis: family Jimmy: yeah Janis: but kids are different so you have to care Janis: like you said, what's Ian doing Jimmy: buying us a dog we don't want to gimme more bullshit to take care of Jimmy: that's his lot Jimmy: oh and fucking his way to finding us a new mum, can't forget that one Jimmy: 🥇 Janis: must be nice Jimmy: if you're into fucking middle aged women, probably Janis: eurgh Jimmy: waiting to see who he's got his eye on at parent teacher night Janis: actually making me feel ill Jimmy: don't throw up Jimmy: you've disgraced yourself enough for one school day Janis: win Mia 'round Janis: my goal always, obviously Jimmy: borrow her toothbrush or whatever she's got stashed Jimmy: #bonding Janis: 👍 Jimmy: just warn me so I don't watch it on her story Jimmy: tah Janis: I think we're not meant to know so Janis: probably on the secret finsta if anything, you're fine Jimmy: 💔 #purgepals could've really taken off Janis: we're all gutted me and her will never be Jimmy: one day we'll find the shrine Jimmy: & I'll be ready 📷 Janis: thanks for the #expose Jimmy: any time Janis: I'm such an idiot Jimmy: ? Janis: this whole mess Janis: sir said he's gonna talk to our parents so Janis: that won't be mortifying at all, tah everyone Jimmy: It's my fault, baby Janis: they wouldn't stop either he was already way more annoyed than he was letting on Jimmy: yeah but I started it by making you come into french Jimmy: & making us late for maths then Janis: I wanted to too Janis: I shouldn't have, sure but not like you forced me Jimmy: what's he even gonna say Jimmy: fucking hell Janis: I don't fucking know Janis: probably that he's concerned or some shit Jimmy: buckle in Ian & get your belt off ready to kick off Jimmy: it'd be so much more decent if he used his anger on sir instead Jimmy: 🍿 Janis: right Janis: this is gonna be Janis: shit Jimmy: or if they fell in love 'cause of the blatant #nohomo fueling their rage but Janis: don't think you want two dickhead dads Janis: not the dream Jimmy: I don't want a new mum either Jimmy: given up wishing far as he goes Janis: tell him he ain't allowed a girlfriend if you ain't Janis: see how that goes down Jimmy: that's why you're 🥇 Janis: was it really such a bad thing to do Jimmy: depends who you're asking Janis: you Jimmy: you know what my answer is Janis: i mean Janis: would your ex do that, would other girls Jimmy: my ex has done worse & he's called Barry so Jimmy: probably don't hold her up as an example Janis: great Jimmy: other girls would & have Jimmy: they just aren't as #goals as us so nobody cares Janis: it's exhausting Jimmy: put your head on the desk, girl Jimmy: how much more trouble can we get in Janis: may as well go home at this point Jimmy: I might Jimmy: unless you tell me to stay Janis: not going to make you Jimmy: but what do you want Janis: it's complicated Janis: I don't want to stay but I have to Janis: you know I always want to be with you Jimmy: if you have to stay then I'm staying Jimmy: with you Janis: I'm sorry Jimmy: I'm never sorry that I wanna be around you, alright Janis: yeah but sorry you have to be here still Jimmy: I'd do worse for you Jimmy: you know Janis: I know Janis: swear to God Janis: not always this much of a fucking trial Janis: well Janis: maybe Janis: idk Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: I love you Jimmy: so I don't care Janis: Promise Jimmy: I do Janis: I love you too Jimmy: you can tell me again when the teachers are done keeping us apart Jimmy: & making us even more #goals Janis: you're probably getting sent to seclusion Janis: so I really don't mind if you go, I swear Jimmy: I said I won't Jimmy: & I meant it Janis: okay Janis: might get sent out too Janis: can't send all of them out, can they really Jimmy: 🙄 Jimmy: we should go out tonight Jimmy: wherever you want Janis: sounds good Janis: 'til we can run away, like Jimmy: your mum & dad ain't gonna ban me, are they? 'cause I reckon it's better if I follow your lead & don't go to mine Janis: lol they can try Janis: when you elope at 15 and have a kid at 16 not really got a leg to stand on parenting wise Janis: why we're all so fucked, obvs Jimmy: it's weird they've been together since then Janis: I know Janis: think, well know because they're gross, that they still got to fuck around or it'd be mental Jimmy: I ain't gonna marry you or have a kid with you no matter how much the fans want it Jimmy: will fuck around though 👍 Janis: 😂 Janis: no you fucking ain't Jimmy: my dad would put me in the ground seriously Jimmy: only gonna approve of the last bit Janis: as much as I ain't arsed by you Janis: wouldn't wanna see you dead, like 💕 Jimmy: 💕 Jimmy: say the nicest things you Janis: I know Janis: got a rep to maintain now Jimmy: I miss you Janis: Miss you too Jimmy: you gonna watch longingly as they drag me to seclusion then? Janis: obviously Janis: hold me back, sir Janis: really amp up the drama Jimmy: final kiss Jimmy: that'll make him a fan Janis: I wish Janis: I don't regret any of it, you know Jimmy: you don't have to wish Jimmy: like I said, how much more trouble can we get in Janis: this lesson is about to end so Janis: where are you Jimmy: I'll meet you on your way out Jimmy: hang on Janis: 👍 Janis: #goals Janis: gonna carry my books like Jimmy: carry you out of this shithole more like Janis: would be Janis: alas Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: damn compulsory schooling Jimmy: who's fucking idea was that? Jimmy: leave me down a mine Janis: 😂 Janis: life expectancy be even shiter but you'd be looking 🔥 Jimmy: die how I've lived 💪😎 Janis: 😏 Jimmy: can you feel how close by I am? #realgoals Janis: again, I wish Janis: not soz everyone Jimmy: I can burst in now for one final show if you like Jimmy: I'm basically there Janis: fuck it Janis: make it worth our while Jimmy: challenge accepted Jimmy: [is & is glorious fuck you everyone you ain't seen nothing til you've seen this good day] Janis: [let's say she gets sent home anyway and he has half-day in seclusion 'cos teachers are shit like that] Jimmy: [later cos no phone for Jimothy] Jimmy: 💕 Jimmy: where am I meeting you then? Janis: can you bring the dog and come park for a bit Janis: literally been stuck in my room all day 'cos she was here too Jimmy: alright, Juliet Jimmy: Cass might bring the boy too but Janis: s'alright Janis: don't hate him by default like you Jimmy: 👌 Janis: how many times did you wanna kill yourself then Jimmy: 💀💀💀💀💀 Jimmy: bout that many Jimmy: I thought about you loads though Jimmy: 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 Jimmy: that's my maths for the day like Janis: such a nerd Janis: hand that in and reckon you'll have redeemed yourself, babe Jimmy: back at 🥇 yeah Janis: not sure sir was ever that 😍 himself Janis: soz 💔 Janis: know he's your type and everything but Jimmy: why he's 🍋 bout you babe Jimmy: #goals for all not just the few Janis: you're cute, sure Janis: but not 🤓 enough for him Jimmy: I know Jimmy: just for you Jimmy: 💔 Janis: shut up Janis: I'm #goals too don't be fooled Jimmy: I ain't ever been Janis: good Janis: my DMs have never been so active Janis: fucking sly Janis: where was this #support earlier lads Jimmy: as soon as I got my phone back I wanted to turn it back off Jimmy: lasses please calm yourselves Janis: people are so Janis: can't even think of a word Jimmy: I don't know how they can be like oh Jimmy I'd never do that she's so Jimmy: but do you wanna get with me though Jimmy: & do what girl? Jimmy: our homework Janis: if you got better ideas, where were you earlier Janis: 🙄 Janis: woulda done a twitter poll if I knew the engagement would be this good Jimmy: gutted I never 💔💔 Jimmy: & I got a lass in my inbox doing an anti smoking campaign Jimmy: not joking Janis: 😂 Janis: gonna save you in all the ways, boy Janis: 🍀 you Jimmy: bit late love but crack on Jimmy: she ain't even said I should put summat else in my mouth Jimmy: come on Jimmy: it's easy Janis: eww Janis: who is it Janis: gonna sniper message 'em all like I'VE SEEN THE MESSAGES HOES Janis: really #goals Janis: #wwmd #tbh Jimmy: paddy name & face Jimmy: actually can't read it Janis: could be anyone Jimmy: [sends her the deets cos that bitch] Jimmy: who the fuck is she Jimmy: never seen her before in me life Janis: oh her Janis: she's in my biology class Janis: dark horse Janis: more of a virgin than me Jimmy: is that my rep now? Jimmy: bit rude Jimmy: not gonna go round giving 'em all a decent go over Janis: 😑 Janis: can you not Janis: that was not my rep Jimmy: I'm only pissing about Jimmy: you got nowt to worry about Jimmy: you're Janis: don't worry, don't need to give me pillow talk Jimmy: don't need to but Janis: carry on if you're feeling it Janis: I'll be a while but am omw Jimmy: been feeling it since our #goodbye earlier Janis: yeah Janis: actually sad to see you go Janis: don't tell Jimmy: bit late Jimmy: already let the 🐶 know Jimmy: soz Janis: she's like yeah right Janis: know she misses me, boy Jimmy: 🥊 her for you Janis: so romantic, so manly and tough Jimmy: so #goals Jimmy: 🥇🥇🥇 Janis: not gonna argue Janis: soz Twix Jimmy: she's 💔💔 Janis: she's goals too Janis: not sure who's got more fans but we don't need to go there Jimmy: it's you babe Jimmy: #1 Janis: you know exactly what to say to stroke my ego 💕 Jimmy: I'd have loads of time to think about it Jimmy: had* Jimmy: & I told you, my head's been full of you Janis: Me too, as it goes Janis: more privacy though, thankfully Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: bit rude Jimmy: they coulda gimme some of that tah Janis: poor baby Janis: probably thinking we'd had enough for one day Jimmy: but that's bollocks Jimmy: I ain't Jimmy: I want more Janis: Incouragable, you Janis: but I feel it Jimmy: you will Janis: Boy Jimmy: girl Janis: ugh Jimmy: what Janis: you Janis: you're Janis: well you know Jimmy: I know you are Jimmy: that's why I'm Janis: distracted Janis: that's what I am Jimmy: where though? Jimmy: if you're on the bus you know what to do Janis: 😳 Janis: I am Jimmy: is it the driver we know & love? Jimmy: 🤞 Janis: of course Janis: the universe just wants everyone to know today Jimmy: or wants you to feel better after all that shit Janis: very hippie of you Janis: don't think the universe gives a shit 'bout me, babe but you're cute Jimmy: alright, shut up Jimmy: then I want you to Jimmy: busted Janis: 💕 Jimmy: 😘 Janis: I've missed you Janis: loads Jimmy: yeah? Janis: yeah Janis: like you said Janis: when we said goodbye Janis: you were so Jimmy: you Jimmy: I forgot where we even were Janis: I know Janis: I coulda just Janis: don't even care Jimmy: you can do whatever you want now Jimmy: it don't matter Janis: not exactly what I want Janis: you're not here but Jimmy: when you get here though Jimmy: just let me know Janis: okay Jimmy: til then, we can make it work Jimmy: [sends her a fire sext cos throwback] Janis: Jesus Janis: you should sell those Janis: people would hire you Jimmy: put the word out for me Jimmy: put the word out for me, girl Jimmy: but not right now Janis: no Janis: I'm gonna just Janis: for now Jimmy: 💕 Janis: we can do whatever tonight, yeah? Jimmy: I said Jimmy: whatever you want Janis: whatever it is I just wanna be alone with you for a while Janis: how does it feel like forever ago now Jimmy: we can Jimmy: 'cause it was ages Janis: long fucking day right Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: thinking of taking up that girl on her 🚭 Jimmy: I'm 💀 Janis: no 😡 Janis: I'll help Jimmy: you offering to be my new addiction, baby Jimmy: 😍😍😍 Janis: 😏 duh Janis: idiot Jimmy: always gotta be 🥇 Jimmy: not enough to just be a muse Janis: you know I want it all Janis: not interested in sharing Jimmy: you know I want you to take it all Jimmy: like you said, it's been forever Janis: I Janis: now I don't know if I want this bus to speed up or slow down 'cos I'm really really enjoying missing you Jimmy: you've had ages to miss me Jimmy: I want you here Janis: tell me how bad Jimmy: I don't have words for it Jimmy: just Jimmy: really really really badly Janis: works for me Janis: try and encourage him to step on it, like Jimmy: please Janis: oh Janis: one more time Janis: for my encouragement Jimmy: baby please Janis: okay Janis: you could get me to do anything I swear Janis: how Janis: why Jimmy: you love me Janis: I do Janis: fuck sake Jimmy: I'll make it worth your while Jimmy: just like I did earlier Janis: you always do Janis: like I said, I should fucking hate you Jimmy: I hate you a bit Jimmy: it's alright Janis: show me Jimmy: okay Janis: 🥊 Jimmy: 💪🏆 Janis: might let you win Jimmy: I'm gonna win Jimmy: you'll see Janis: what does winner get Jimmy: what do you want? Janis: so I'm winning now Janis: 😏 Janis: so cocky one second ago Jimmy: shut up Jimmy: IF you did, what are you having Janis: you, first off Janis: then I'll have to get inventive Janis: let you know Jimmy: 👌 Jimmy: don't think too hard 'cause I'll be 🥇 Janis: but it's fun Janis: you try Jimmy: you know I can't think when you're Jimmy: just Janis: think fast then Janis: 'fore I get there Jimmy: alright Janis: not against fighting dirty so Jimmy: 'course you ain't Jimmy: paddy rules is it Janis: dead honourable you Janis: 🙄 please Jimmy: you can get me to be if you keep saying that Jimmy: & owt else Jimmy: bit rude but Janis: baby Janis: how nice will you be? Jimmy: am I just getting the one please? Janis: have as many as you earn Janis: not just giving 'em away here Jimmy: there's your answer Jimmy: never backed off a challenge yet, have I? Janis: 🤔 Janis: trying to recall Jimmy: piss off Janis: just saying Janis: lots of challenges Jimmy: & I've done 'em Jimmy: don't be a dickhead Janis: I'm not Janis: I'm remembering shh Janis: leave me to my memories 👵 Jimmy: stop trying to turn me on with your memory loss Jimmy: 👵💕 Janis: know what you like baby Jimmy: prove it Janis: what do you think I've been doing this whole time Jimmy: what was it you said, I'm trying to recall Janis: you're such a dickhead Janis: keep my photographic evidence to myself then 👍 Jimmy: you can tweet it any time Jimmy: love a ban me Jimmy: 👍 Janis: oh yeah great idea, babe Janis: make myself even more popular Jimmy: that does gimme one though Jimmy: you should run my twitter for a bit Jimmy: how #goals that I trust you with all my passwords & access to my DMs Jimmy: the fans would be 😱😱😱 beside themselves Janis: 😏 how delusional that you trust me Janis: I'm down to make you regret it 😈 Jimmy: don't give a shit Jimmy: do your worst Janis: you're fun Janis: told you before Janis: also off the bus Janis: passing the CG 💔 Jimmy: gutted it's too late for me to carry you past Pete Jimmy: 🎻🎻 Janis: trying to sneaky see if he's in there but the windows are tinted as fuck why Jimmy: #moodlighting Jimmy: makes him look sexy 💕 Janis: don't tempt me to carry on faking my amnesia Janis: walk in, pretend he's you Jimmy: your real goal this whole time Jimmy: I get it Janis: playing the long game Jimmy: if you'd said that was why you needed me to fuck you senseless I'd have gone harder like Jimmy: I know you're a romantic Jimmy: get your man, sweetheart Janis: 😍 Janis: that's what I get if I win Jimmy: Pete? Jimmy: 💔 but alright Janis: yep Janis: how confident are you REALLY, boy? Jimmy: confident my boy will stay loyal to me Jimmy: he don't want you, girl, soz Janis: 😣 Janis: hate you Janis: that's so mean Jimmy: I hate you more, baby 💕 Janis: go away Janis: I'm 💔 Jimmy: come here Jimmy: I'll fix it Janis: promises promises Jimmy: if I break it you can break my 💔 too Janis: swear it's a deal Jimmy: it's a deal, Juliet Janis: okay we still gotta shake on it but I'll keep walking, stop crying Jimmy: bit late Jimmy: but I'll dry my eyes Janis: 💕 Janis: he's such a homewrecker and he don't even know it Janis: write a song about that, babe Jimmy: he don't care either, too 😎 Janis: ugh, stop talking bout him Janis: so distracting, honestly Janis: bitch tryna walk here Jimmy: tell me about it, I'm around kids Jimmy: how dare he be such a god among rockstars Jimmy: 🤤🤤 Janis: that's a rep no one needs Janis: best behaviour Jimmy: 👌 Janis: one scandal at a time Jimmy: promises promises Janis: oh 'cos it was my idea Janis: mhmm Jimmy: your fault Jimmy: you're just so Janis: amazing? Janis: yeah Janis: true Jimmy: alright, yeah Jimmy: if you want Jimmy: dickhead Janis: you weren't finishing the sentence ever Janis: thought I would Janis: #goals init Jimmy: I'll finish it Jimmy: like I said, come here Janis: You better already be there Janis: coming into view and I'll be fuming if you leave me waiting Jimmy: I've been here ages Jimmy: you're the one who lives in the middle of fuck all Janis: I've asked for my own place Janis: not that rich, appaz 💔 Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Jimmy: tell it to Pete's sympathetic ear over ☕ Janis: he isn't friendzoning me thank you very much Janis: we fucking or nothing Jimmy: get some patience then Jimmy: cause I saw him first Jimmy: keep saying it Janis: fine one to talk Jimmy: I've been here ages Jimmy: told you Janis: I see how it is Janis: will wait months for him Janis: I've got about half an hour and you're mardy Jimmy: he's #special remember Jimmy: you said it Janis: oh yeah and I am just a MASSIVE slag so Janis: fair 'nuff Jimmy: shut up Janis: whatever Janis: going shop Janis: want anything Jimmy: what happened to coming into view Janis: remembered I need something Janis: if that's alright Jimmy: 👍 Janis: that's you're all good then or what Jimmy: I don't need nowt Janis: k Jimmy: do you want me to walk over? Janis: can do Janis: only getting smokes though so Jimmy: gimme a sec Janis: 👍 Jimmy: [appears after longer than a sec but still not very long 'cause not far] Janis: [loitering in the shop, nods like sup] Jimmy: [gives a look as if to say what kind of greeting is that before going over & kissing her 'cause extra like that] Janis: [gives him a look like 'oh so you like me now?' 'cos drama queen] Jimmy: what's that look for Janis: 😒 Janis: be nice Jimmy: what's it for? Jimmy: I have been nice, ain't I? Jimmy: [kisses her again but soft] Janis: [bites lip] Janis: Probably Janis: *her own Janis: I'm still in a mood Janis: I don't know why Jimmy: [gives her a long hug] Janis: [lets it happen for a while but isn't fully into it because mad at self] Janis: it's stupid, come on Jimmy: [shakes his head but takes her hand cos okay babe] Janis: [gets cigs and lighter 'cos wants her own] Janis: both kids with you? Jimmy: Cass has got the dog why you can't hear her #drama right now Jimmy: she's off in a bit though Jimmy: mates to see Janis: Oh good to know Janis: starting to feel #unloved here Janis: 👌 alright for some init Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: 🤞 she'll take the boy back first so I can avoid Ian as planned Janis: [kicks floor] Janis: probably called him at lunch, when they usually do it Jimmy: [shrugs but is obviously thinking about it & bothered] Janis: gotta think of a plan Janis: to not get in so much trouble whilst still doing what we wanna Jimmy: if what you wanna do is piss everyone off there's no way Janis: is that what you wanna do? Jimmy: it's what the deal was Jimmy: get their attention you also get his Janis: that's Janis: that isn't what it is Janis: [paying and leaving shop] Jimmy: when Janis: what do you mean Jimmy: when is that not been what it's about Janis: [is like um what the fuck] Janis: literally what Jimmy: not an answer Janis: I get it, you need someone to blame Janis: fine Jimmy: that ain't what I said or meant Janis: I know what you said Janis: yeah, just one big attention grab, all of this Janis: cool Jimmy: how is it not Janis: I don't need this Janis: [is walking off duh] Jimmy: talk to me Janis: Literally why would I want to Janis: no fucking audience, is there Jimmy: don't be a dickhead Janis: me Janis: seriously Janis: fuck off Jimmy: you Jimmy: seriously Jimmy: you can't get pissed off at me for this Janis: yes I fucking can Janis: you know what this is why are you even Janis: why would you say that shit Jimmy: 'cause you're chatting about changing the rules like it's ever been about just us Jimmy: loads of the shit we do is for them Janis: you're so fucked Jimmy: why 'cause I'm pointing about how & why this came about? Jimmy: why shit happens Jimmy: you wouldn't have come into french if they hadn't been there Janis: sure Jimmy: & you're gonna chat like them too now? Jimmy: you wanted 'em to react you can't be pissed off at 'em for doing exactly what you knew they would Jimmy: same as me & my dad Janis: I'm not pissed off at them Janis: and if you want what your Dad's got then that's your own shit to deal with isn't it Jimmy: 👍 Janis: fucking hell Jimmy: what Janis: play ignorant Janis: you know what Jimmy: you reckon I'm saying all this is fake or for their benefit Jimmy: I ain't & weren't Jimmy: so calm down Janis: do not tell me to calm down Janis: you don't get to say all that and then say that Jimmy: all what? Jimmy: all day you've been acting hard done by Jimmy: all I said is don't Janis: actually go away Jimmy: no Janis: I have no desire to clue you in if this is actually what you think so Jimmy: you had no desire to clue me in anyway Jimmy: that ain't my fault Jimmy: like you said, that's your own shit to deal with Janis: what, what do you wanna know so bad Janis: you're chatting total shit Jimmy: & you're not Jimmy: alright Janis: no, I'm not Jimmy: whatever Jimmy: have it like that Janis: I will Janis: we've clearly been having different conversations Jimmy: maybe Jimmy: hard to tell when you keep switching Janis: I've switched Janis: okay Janis: whatever, guess after three times this isn't so much switching as just what you do Jimmy: what are you on about? Jimmy: what the fuck have I done? Janis: you're doing it again Janis: right after Janis: I literally can't do this right now Jimmy: all I'm doing is trying to figure you out Jimmy: 'cause one sec you couldn't need to see me more & the next you're hanging round the shop for ages & couldn't give less of a fuck if I'm there or not Jimmy: & that's just right now Janis: I just wanted to get a fucking cigarette alright Jimmy: [gives her his, angrily] Jimmy: here Janis: [can't not take it but let's it burn for ages not smoking 'cos petty] Jimmy: this whole day you've been Jimmy: & I'm the dickhead for trying to talk to you about it Janis: Well excuse me for not wanting to talk when all you're doing is chatting shit on me Jimmy: excuse me for trying to get a fucking reaction Jimmy: 'cause it's like Jimmy: such bollocks by now Janis: you happy? Janis: good Jimmy: 👍 Janis: so pleased for you Jimmy: piss off Janis: gladly Janis: [bows and stamps out the finished cig like bye] Jimmy: fuck's sake Jimmy: so you can walk away from me again, yeah Jimmy: & I can't say or do nowt Janis: you haven't said enough yet? Jimmy: not an answer that Janis: not a question, was it Jimmy: don't do this Janis: you Janis: you did this Janis: but no Janis: why did I come all the way here Janis: 'cos I don't fucking see Mia about and that's the only reason I'd bother right Janis: you fucking Jimmy: I didn't say that Jimmy: or if I did I didn't mean it like Jimmy: fuck Jimmy: come on Janis: literally what you said Janis: and you kept repeating it so I know you meant it Jimmy: I said, don't act like she's not relevant Jimmy: that pissing her & my dad off isn't part of this Jimmy: that's all Janis: you reckon you don't need to do anything to piss your dad off Janis: but cool Janis: let me know next time what we're doing and I'll actually try Janis: instead of trying to not get you in more shit Janis: silly me Jimmy: just 'cause I don't have to do owt don't mean I don't want to Jimmy: I hate him, alright Janis: I know Jimmy: & I love you Jimmy: you know that Janis: do what you want but I've got no interest helping you get beat up Janis: and I'm not sorry about that Jimmy: It's not like I want that Jimmy: I just Janis: Me either so Jimmy: I don't know Jimmy: it proves something about him to me Jimmy: & about her too Janis: your Mum? Jimmy: why she's not here Janis: 'cos he's such a cunt Jimmy: it's a reason Jimmy: more than she gave me Janis: I thought it was the reason Jimmy: she was a cunt too though Jimmy: they were both just Janis: yeah and who wants to be with someone as shitty as themself Jimmy: I'm sorry Jimmy: come back Janis: I can't just Jimmy: please Janis: [does] Jimmy: what can I do? Jimmy: you know I will Janis: you Janis: I just wanted to see you Janis: why do you think I want attention Janis: tell me that Jimmy: I'm not saying you're Jimmy: it's just part of this now Jimmy: we can't undo it Jimmy: so we play up to it, still Janis: they're never going to just ignore me Janis: that's not going to happen Janis: it isn't about what I want it's just facts Jimmy: I know Janis: and for the record I wish they would Janis: I thought you knew that Jimmy: I do Jimmy: I'm that much of a dickhead Jimmy: it got away from me, what I said Jimmy: not* Janis: [just nods] Jimmy: everything I said, it weren't about you Jimmy: it was about me Janis: well that's a bit far fetched Jimmy: why Janis: because some of that shit was pretty personal Janis: I know when I'm being #attacked Jimmy: yeah but it's my fucking issue that I go off the deep end any time I think you're pulling away from me Jimmy: same as it's my issue that I want my dad to react differently every time but I also don't Jimmy: that one don't even make sense Janis: I didn't wanna talk shit about the whole Dad issue Janis: sorry Janis: I wasn't even trying to go there Jimmy: It's not your fault Jimmy: it's not your damage Jimmy: it's mine Jimmy: I always do this, you said it Janis: Alright Janis: there's plenty of shit I always do Janis: hardly blameless Jimmy: so can I fix this or what Janis: of course Janis: not null and voiding my catchphrase Janis: rude Jimmy: how then Janis: At least I know where you were coming from, what you were trying to say now Janis: that helps Jimmy: I'm never just trying to be a dickhead Jimmy: not to you Jimmy: there's a Jimmy: there's something Janis: Yeah Janis: I do know Janis: it just Janis: scares me Janis: I guess Janis: when you do that Jimmy: I'm sorry Jimmy: I don't mean to Jimmy: but I get scared I just Jimmy: it's the same with my dad, he hurts me, I hurt him back Janis: it makes sense Janis: its reactionary Janis: but why were you scared Jimmy: I thought you were pissed off with me Jimmy: I don't know Jimmy: that you didn't want me around Janis: that's all I want Janis: are we bad at this Jimmy: maybe Jimmy: but I don't wanna be having a go with anyone else so Janis: me either Jimmy: & I'm better with you than I was with my ex Jimmy: you can ask her she'll happily send that rant Janis: I'm good Janis: no better at #womenssolidarity Jimmy: [does a little lol] Jimmy: you are good Jimmy: & all I want too Jimmy: in case the memory loss is back after everything I just said Janis: [looks up] Janis: just say it's real Jimmy: It's the realest thing I've ever felt, alright Janis: alright Janis: [kiss] Jimmy: that's why I get scared all the time Jimmy: 'cause you matter & I'm too used to shit that don't Jimmy: or can't Janis: I remember Janis: I'm scared too Janis: for the record Janis: deny it if you tell Twix but Jimmy: [does another little lol] Jimmy: I won't Jimmy: fucked up enough for one day Janis: we both did Janis: it was the plan, regardless why Janis: [pulls his head in to rest on her shoulder] Jimmy: [stays like that for a bit but also says ILY out loud, but soft] Janis: [says it back into his hair like] Jimmy was timed out 2 days ago Jimmy joined the chat 2 days ago Jimmy: [goes for the kind of long hug he was going for earlier but it's closer & just more cos he's a clingy soft soul and he done fucked up] Janis: [does the trying to get closer but can't thing] Jimmy: [is still holding onto her for ages but also just doing little kisses wherever he can like] Janis: probably gotta move Janis: or your sister is gonna be fuming Jimmy: [shakes his head & carries on 'cause no chill] Jimmy: she usually is Janis: [😏 face, gives him a proper kiss for encouragement] Janis: we can do this at the park Jimmy: & you reckon you don't want her to be fuming Jimmy: [but handholding & walking] Janis: she might be so morally offended she has to take Bobby home Janis: always thinking, me Jimmy: top one, nerd 💕 Janis: I know Janis: wasted on that School Jimmy: this town Janis: [squeezes his hand] Jimmy: [more handholding & walking 'cause not far to the park you can do this lads] Janis: [and you're there, no stopping for a makeout sesh or anything well done yous, Bobby being like 'let's go to yours!' 'cos he loves it] Jimmy: [Twix trying to trip them both up 'cause she's an extra queen] Janis: [giving Twix the love she desires and deserves and pushing Bobby on the swing 'cos compromise] Jimmy: [is chatting to Cass cos big brother duties never end] Janis: [is looking at him with love] Jimmy: [is helping Cass with her bike chain or something cos shit bike am I right? but keeps looking over at her likewise] Jimmy: swap with me I can't fix this Janis: you just don't wanna get dirty 👸 Janis: but 👌 Jimmy: [kisses her on the swap over cos blatantly using that excuse too even though Cass is like 😒] Janis: [lols at Cass like 🤷 but wins it back by being more competent help] Jimmy: [Bobby is just chatting away about the Cali gaff while he's pushing him cos fave place ever excuse me while I sob like] Janis: [Cass having to give Twix love 'cos she's like why does no one love me please] Janis: can tell who hasn't trained that dog, like Jimmy: one job, babe Jimmy: sort it out Jimmy: so easily distracted you Jimmy: [looks at her in a very distracting way to prove his point] Janis: sabotage, that is Jimmy: what are you gonna do about it then? Janis: 🤔 Janis: Decisions, decisions Jimmy: [keeps looking at her while she's 'deciding' Janis: tell you when it's just you and me Jimmy: I'll remind you Janis: I'm not gonna forget Jimmy: memory loss gone is it Jimmy: 👍 Janis: you're gutted, I know Jimmy: 💔 me Jimmy: can't you tell Janis: I'll fix it Janis: 🛠 me Jimmy: I know what you are Janis: should I be worried? Jimmy: nah Janis: did sound a bit like you were threatening to #expose me so Jimmy: one sec away from a twitter blast at all times me Jimmy: but Janis: shouldn't be trusted with an @ you Jimmy: it'll be in your hands anyway remember Janis: oh yeah Janis: gonna use my powers for good, obvs Jimmy: [sends her the deets] Jimmy: go on Janis: ooh Janis: lemme think of a masterpiece Janis: not Pete, this shit doesn't just come natural 💔 Jimmy: it's okay you're the art, babe Janis: just spam my face Janis: you do enough of that, babe 😉 Jimmy: you complaining about being my muse now? Janis: nah Janis: complimenting how 💪 and 🎨 you are Jimmy: good save Janis: thanks Janis: natural reflexes Jimmy: #relatable Jimmy: 💪🏆 Janis: not that I'm a goalie, tah Jimmy: so what is your position? Janis: 😏 I don't play on the footie team anymore Janis: was not doing wonders for the gay thing Janis: I'm point guard and captain of 🏀 still though Jimmy: we can still play ⚽ though Jimmy: we're really popular it'll be easy to get a team together Jimmy: also how is that less gay? Janis: 1. as much as they say they DON'T wanna fuck you in the toilets, I don't think what they REALLY want is to play footie with you Janis: 2. rude, fuck you Janis: 3. but idk? 'cos I'm tall and black-ish it's allowed Jimmy: 😂 Janis: poor girls, think you're hitting 'em back in the DMs like 😍 and you're just like are you a decent centre back or nah Jimmy: when your next game then, gotta find some pom poms Jimmy: be 😍 myself Janis: 😒 can joke but you would be, I'm great Janis: next tuesday 👍 shave ur legs Jimmy: I'm serious about cheering you on Jimmy: 👌 prepare your own 😍 for how I look Janis: 😂 Jimmy: I'll get Pete to pen you a decent cheer Jimmy: not my 🎨 Janis: bet he's really anti organized sport Janis: looks the type Jimmy: you'll be his #exception though Jimmy: make him break all his rules Jimmy: 💕 Janis: how american teen drama Janis: i'm the jock, he's the misfit Jimmy: the #goals by which all are measured Jimmy: 🥇 baby Jimmy: I'm the popular lad you should be with but you're too much of a dickhead to see it Jimmy: 💔 Janis: You ain't like the others, are you babe? Janis: so tragic Jimmy: I'm #sensitive Jimmy: & you're missing out, girl Jimmy: be nice & go through my DMs to find your replacement before you bag Pete, yeah Janis: sure there's some nerd girl in here ready to show you what you're missing Janis: full set then Jimmy: well chuffed with that for me Janis: calm your enthusiasm 'til I'm gone, thank you Janis: bloody rude Jimmy: but I have so much enthusiasm right now Janis: can feel it Janis: you've nearly tipped him out that swing Jimmy: come here Jimmy: feel it more Janis: okay, okay Janis: we can have a doomed love affair Jimmy: you've got the name for it, Juliet Jimmy: must be fate Janis: we can't change yours though it'll fuck with the couple name Jimmy: you said it suits me anyway Janis: yeah Janis: I like it Janis: readable, pronouncable, puts you ahead of half the class Jimmy: #paddyproblems Janis: #antisocialproblems Janis: really coulda learned them by now but you know Janis: better things Jimmy: 👍 Janis: [comes over finally 'cos gotta keep him waiting] Jimmy: [kisses her like it's been years instead of however many minutes calm down boy] Janis: 🤤 Janis: should make you miss me more Jimmy: not a challenge Jimmy: but it kinda sounds like a threat Jimmy: steady on Jimmy: not over the last 💔 Janis: we can just pretend then Janis: on this one thing Jimmy: [kisses her again cos he just wants to & has a lot of feelings] Jimmy: I have missed you Jimmy: I don't need to pretend Janis: Me too Janis: sorry I was so Janis: gone Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: everyone was really going some to be bigger dickheads than usual Janis: like you said though, what did I expect Janis: it's that, I just wanted to do it, it wasn't actually about them Jimmy: it don't make it alright, that's what I never said Jimmy: & I didn't have to make shit about them that weren't either Jimmy: 'cause I know Janis: I can handle them, it's when that's not the best thing to do I struggle Janis: when I can't just give 'em a smack or chew them out 'cos that just makes me look Janis: As long as you do Janis: I didn't even want to come in to French remember Jimmy: I really do Jimmy: I swear Jimmy: & it weren't about them for me either Jimmy: I just wanted to see you Janis: Yeah? Jimmy: you know you make everything less shit Jimmy: & french is like Jimmy: up there with the paddy lingo for shit I don't get or need Janis: don't they know your words are reserved for only me Janis: and in...some kind of english Jimmy: [does a lol] Janis: You're so pretty Janis: let's be mates Jimmy: why you always friendzoning me, mate? Jimmy: [kisses her again sorry everyone] Janis: you were never not my boyfriend, were you Jimmy: nah Jimmy: that's your issue then you wanna be BFFs? Jimmy: I'll get you a necklace, hang on Janis: #whenhebuysyoujewelry Jimmy: [is literally buying them on his phone as we speak the little shit so he can give it to her at school in a few days remind me] Jimmy: 💕 Janis: 🤓 Jimmy: shit at emojis you Jimmy: 😎 Janis: 🖕 Janis: oops Janis: my bad Janis: 👍 Jimmy: [is giving her a grumpy face but trying not to lol obvs] Janis: can we just stay in tonight Janis: not the best use of doing anything I want I know but Janis: kinda knackered Jimmy: yeah Janis: you don't mind? Jimmy: it's whatever you want Jimmy: I said Janis: well don't want you to be 😪 Jimmy: I wanna be with you Jimmy: nowt else Janis: that's alright then Janis: sick of other people today Jimmy: most #relatable you've been today Janis: it's a skill Janis: underrated one at that Jimmy: is there owt you can't do, girl? Janis: nope Jimmy: 👍 Janis: thanks for not coming back at me with a WELL Janis: not today, boy Jimmy: didn't fancy a smack Janis: you know I won't anyway Janis: also, the hitlist is pretty long today so smug to think you're 🥇 Jimmy: I am though Janis: Really? Janis: [playfight moment] Jimmy: [which then turns into kissing 'cause gotta distract her from him losing again] Janis: I love you Jimmy: can we be alone yet Jimmy: I just want Jimmy: it to be me & you Janis: I dunno, Cass is probably as keen to go so Janis: 🤞 ask for us Jimmy: what time is it? Maybe Ian'll bother to be home on time thinking he can bollock me for today Janis: it is like 6.30 now so Janis: time they're home Janis: she can text us and yay or nay, yeah? Jimmy: I'll send 'em off Jimmy: he'll be there Janis: when you're reliable in all the worst ways 💕 Jimmy: he takes #goals to a new level, he truly does Jimmy: [does send the kids & dog off cos literally not far & sits on a swing cos cool kid lol] Janis: wanna push? Jimmy: [pulls her into his lap instead 'cause she always sitting there & it's a mood] Janis: ain't done this in a while Jimmy: you're welcome then Janis: you ever try and swing over the top of the bar Jimmy: only every time Janis: good Janis: have to push you off for being lame otherwise Janis: whadya reckon we thought would happen though, honestly Jimmy: I don't reckon I thought about it Jimmy: I just remember my mum being like don't so I did Janis: 😎 Janis: sounds about right Jimmy: Cass always used to jump off Jimmy: still would if she weren't too 😎 for swings now Janis: 'Course Janis: my sister broke her ankle doing that, always weak after that Jimmy: sounds like the kind of bollocks my mum was chatting Jimmy: not summat that'd actually happen Janis: that kind of shit always happened to her Janis: casual cautionary tale for us all Jimmy: Bob's that kid too Jimmy: any remote chance of him falling off or onto some shit he will Janis: 🙄 Poor bub Janis: least it probably deters him from doing completely dumb shit Jimmy: could be my fault, first time he asked me how I got fucked up I told him I fell over Jimmy: loves to copy me so Janis: could be Janis: or he's just clumsy Jimmy: we'll go with that Jimmy: 👍 Janis: not gotta take on anything else, like Janis: though I did tell gracie it was her fault my brother was deaf so Janis: 🤷 Jimmy: was it? Janis: 😂 Janis: sadly not, the guilt trip of that would be 👌 Janis: he had meningitis Jimmy: not quick enough with the glass test, Grace Jimmy: sort it out Janis: [is loling] Jimmy: [is heart eyes cos she looks cute when] Janis: [pulls face like wot] Jimmy: [more kissing cos why not] Janis: [stroking his cheeks like ugh] Janis: it's rude to be this cute you know Jimmy: yeah Jimmy: you're really rude Jimmy: I know Janis: 😎 Janis: just a couple of cool kids Jimmy: thought I was a nerd Jimmy: make your mind up Janis: thought so but you did the swing thing too so you know Janis: retroactive cool points Jimmy: all it takes, yeah Jimmy: alriight Janis: no one out here saying how hard it is rn Janis: you should know Jimmy: 👌 Jimmy: give you that Janis: [shoves him but not off 'cos they don't both need to fall] Jimmy: [looks at her like oi but is smirky] Janis: dickhead Janis: just 'cos I'm swinging with you still, don't think I like you Jimmy: I don't think you like me Jimmy: I think you love me Janis: 😑 Jimmy: deny it Jimmy: go on Janis: [is looking at him like challenging but obvs doesn't say anything] Jimmy: [tickles her 'cause he's a little shit] Jimmy: I said go on Janis: [only got yourself to blame for all this squirming boy] Jimmy: you hate me so much, yeah Janis: not gonna say what you want Janis: so nah, complete ambivalance Jimmy: [cue make out session] Jimmy: feels like it Jimmy: 👍 job Jimmy: got nowt from you then Janis: shut up Janis: you're a crap liar Jimmy: you want me to be a decent one? Janis: when are you lying to me actual Jimmy: I don't Janis: then it don't matter Jimmy: do you wanna go home? Janis: not really but I do wanna be alone with you Jimmy: we could ride the bus until the driver can't handle how horny he is Janis: 😂 Janis: making the most of this bus pass Jimmy: tips and tricks I learned from Doris in my CG days Jimmy: 👵💕 Janis: fuck being over 60 she's been riding for free for time, know what I'm sayin' Janis: 🤢 Jimmy: [does a lol] Janis: we can go back to mine though forreal Janis: gotta prove I don't need any audience Janis: not even a grumpy middle-aged man Jimmy: [kisses her really hard] Jimmy: you don't have to prove anything Jimmy: but Janis: but, you wanna Jimmy: I want you Jimmy: whoever's watching Jimmy: or not Janis: you know you got me Janis: how many times have I told you Jimmy: tell me some more Jimmy: fuck it just Jimmy: show me more Janis: [use that swing to your full advantage babe] Jimmy: [let's just give them a moment like] Janis: well fuck Jimmy: I Jimmy: agreed Janis: see why people buy these Janis: though where do you put it when you've got company Jimmy: depends if you want 'em to join or not I suppose Janis: k if I give you the signal you gotta go hide it 'cos not feeling it Jimmy: 👌 Janis: nothing worse than having to be like not with u tho soz x Jimmy: done that a load, have you? Janis: all the time Janis: when I'm entertaining Jimmy: tah for letting me know Jimmy: be ready for the invite now Janis: all hors d'oeuvre and swinging me Janis: 70s housewife Jimmy: what the fuck are they though? Jimmy: who was like yeah I'm gonna just Janis: 70s housewives, probably Janis: lot of free time Janis: strange ideas about food on cocktail sticks Jimmy: loads of drugs Jimmy: & blokes they wanted to fuck up with a cocktail stick to the eye Janis: 😂 or pass off on their friend with the hot husband Janis: like have fun Jimmy: nearly makes me wish I had a few mates Janis: well idk how we're gonna fill up our free time otherwise, babe Jimmy: better get that job & cut mine down then Janis: I'll get a fucking vallium prescription Janis: get someone else to impregnate me since you won't Jimmy: Pete will volunteer & get it done Jimmy: work of only an afternoon for a super stud like him Jimmy: 💕 Janis: look enough alike we can fool you/the world Janis: soz but if I don't have two kids driving me crazy this whole bit don't work Jimmy: piss off do I look like him Janis: 😂 Janis: take the compliment Jimmy: [is pouting] Janis: [forever gonna bite a pouty lip] Janis: you're actually better looking if we're being real but shh Janis: he's the love of all our lives Jimmy: hang on, I need my twitter back for a sec Jimmy: need to let him know Janis: so rude Janis: you can't start real beef over imaginary 😍 Jimmy: so what can I start? Jimmy: [kisses her cos saucy behavior is the answer] Janis: only if you intend to finish it too Jimmy: when have I ever not Janis: got me there Jimmy: I'll get you there, baby Jimmy: you know I will Janis: Please Jimmy: [can't resist a please as we know so just casually touching her RIP the school skirt she would have changed out of but still doing his best anyway what a trooper] Janis: [taking time to kiss every hickey she had previously made] Jimmy: that's Jimmy: how does it feel so Janis: 'cos the skin is sensitive Janis: even a little touch is Jimmy: [touching her everywhere that's sensitive too wink wonk] Janis: Jim Jimmy: ? Janis: [moves closer] Jimmy: [goes harder for her cos the love is real bitch] Janis: [When you can be lowkey loud 'cos who at this park rn] Jimmy: [kissing her everywhere but not on the mouth cos wanna hear that lol] Janis: I want you so much Jimmy: [says her name out loud as he continues cos same] Janis: you remembered Jimmy: you're being very inspiring so Janis: you Janis: you know I can feel you like this Jimmy: [moves so she can feel that] Jimmy: yeah Janis: ['Baby'] Jimmy: [does it again but more] Janis: I want that Janis: but more Jimmy: [isn't gonna refuse cos no chill oh boy how are you getting away with this rn & always] Janis: God Janis: that's Jimmy: I know Janis: I missed you Janis: like this Jimmy: I missed you too, baby Janis: how was the bathroom even the same day as now Jimmy: it literally feels like weeks ago Jimmy: & I've never felt this much like Janis: It was a joke but if we couldn't, if you left Janis: I think I'd have actual withdrawals Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: I did feel like I was 💀 without you in french Jimmy: seriously Janis: I know Janis: it makes the day go even slower Jimmy: you're in my head constantly Jimmy: it was a 🚭 joke but can't get enough of you Jimmy: [goes harder cos true] Janis: then we don't ever have to stop Janis: fuck me forever Jimmy: [so many kisses cos that's a yes from him] Janis: this would be so shit with anyone else, wouldn't it Jimmy: yeah Janis: I believe you Janis: but don't need to, I just know it would be Jimmy: not to keep #dragging my ex when you don't even know her but Jimmy: everything was different Jimmy: & not 👍 different Jimmy: you know Janis: yeah Janis: I know I never but Janis: the stuff I did was Janis: well I felt nothing but even the way other people chat about it Janis: doesn't sound like this ever Jimmy: & it's not just this Jimmy: I couldn't chat to her like we do Jimmy: anyone Janis: me either Janis: even before Jimmy: she knew things 'cause she was there for them but Jimmy: she never asked me nowt about it Jimmy: how I felt about anything Jimmy: you just Janis: sounds like she had her own shit but still Janis: everyone's always too afraid to ask Janis: or just don't give a shit Jimmy: you do too Jimmy: but I don't know Jimmy: you don't shut up until it's real, do you Jimmy: so Janis: what do you mean Jimmy: I can't just get away with pretending shit Jimmy: even when that was literally the plan & the deal Jimmy: you were like Jimmy: you get it Janis: I know I probably should have let you Janis: but Janis: I mean obviously I don't regret it with you, us Janis: but I can't stand bullshit from anyone Janis: and there's so much of it, from everyone, all the time Jimmy: & I told you I can't either Jimmy: I'm surrounded by bollocks Jimmy: work, home, school Janis: You get it, too Janis: it's constant Jimmy: & exhausting Jimmy: I'd rather give my energy to you Jimmy: that's nowt pointless Janis: I'll take it Janis: I wanna Jimmy: go on Janis: [kissing to slightly cover how hard they going now] Jimmy: fuck Jimmy: don't let me fall off & I won't let you Janis: okay baby Janis: but if we do end up on the floor it ain't the first time Jimmy: it'd be a softer landing than some Jimmy: but it feels so good like this Jimmy: we have to just Janis: match rhythm Jimmy: don't be a nerd about it, but Janis: piss off, this nerd is about to make you cum so Jimmy: [laughs but where's the lie] Janis: you kill me when you look like that Jimmy: like what Janis: when you laugh or smile or Janis: happy, I guess Janis: looks good on you Jimmy: [has to kiss her cos 1. same bitch but also 2. emotions] Jimmy: you look good on me Janis: glad you agree Janis: 'cos I ain't going anywhere right now thanks Jimmy: you're so fucking beautiful, Janis Jimmy: bit rude honestly Janis: [can't even look at him 'cos] Jimmy: [makes her look at him 'cause hot eye contact ftw] Jimmy: you are Jimmy: take the compliment Janis: fuck Jimmy: I know you can more than a few words, yeah Jimmy: so just Janis: You know what your words do to me though Jimmy: I feel it Jimmy: you Janis: the way you feel inside me Janis: I Janis: I can't even try to describe Jimmy: there ain't never gonna be words for this Jimmy: us Janis: don't need one Janis: just you Jimmy: you've got me Jimmy: forever you said Janis: yeah Janis: I just don't like to think about endings when it feels like this Jimmy: you don't have to Jimmy: but you need to end this Jimmy: right here Jimmy: or we'll 💀 Jimmy: probably get nabbed by the 👮 too eventually Janis: is 💕 such a crime, officer? Janis: [goes in though 'cos yes] Jimmy: [is being loud soz everyone] Janis: ['tell me baby'] Jimmy: [tells her that he really fucking loves her & needs her even more] Janis: [is trying to get closer, holding him tight against her and inside her, right in his ear as she cums] Jimmy: [is always trying to get closer forever too so DYING RN] Janis: how did that feel Jimmy: I Jimmy: 🥇 that's it Jimmy: all there is to say Janis: good enough for me Janis: fucking hell Janis: surprised if they couldn't hear that from yours Jimmy: really endear Ian to you that Janis: I wish you didn't have to go home Janis: ever Janis: to him Janis: the kids are fine, no offence babes Jimmy: I don't Jimmy: it's only ever to them Jimmy: for them Jimmy: whatever Janis: I know Janis: but Janis: meh Janis: [rests chin on his shoulder] Jimmy: he's called me loads since I sent 'em back Janis: had time to think of some killer lines and he's still gonna lead w 🥊 Janis: do better, Ian Jimmy: can I stay at yours for a bit Jimmy: it'll probably make him more fuming but Janis: Yeah Janis: any time Janis: but actually mean it, not a throwaway comment Jimmy: [kisses her cos he knows] Janis: [ily] Jimmy: we should go Jimmy: if you can move Janis: just glad I'm not wearing the skirt right now Jimmy: personally I'm gutted to see it go but Janis: it'll be back tomorrow morning but trust you don't wanna explain why I'm coming home with cum dripping down my legs any more than I do Jimmy: soz that I'm too northern for the paddy's #1 trusted pull out method we're all 💔💔 Janis: you're alright, every sperm is sacred and all that Janis: fucking clearly in this fam Janis: I'm the one gunning 'em down Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: tah for breaking the mold babe Jimmy: 💕 Janis: 🙇 Janis: some cunts gotta at some point Janis: actual joke Jimmy: I ain't gonna ask how many nieces & nephews you've already got Jimmy: dickheads at school have painted me a picture & it ain't 🎨 Janis: 🙄 don't honestly Janis: can't even blame them, that's the shitty thing Janis: like yeah lads, I agree but ain't my fault or problem so Jimmy: who's next, Gracie, your hippie brother or the dickhead one? Janis: hmm 🤔 Janis: Iggy would probably father a child and then just forget to tell us like oh yeah well we're raising it like a spartan so I just left it up top of the mountains so Janis: Pablo is defs a forcing an abortion on you man so he's got my back Jimmy: [lols] Janis: 😏 Jimmy: you said you'd been stuck in for ages, do you wanna walk? Jimmy: or bus it 'cause you're knackered Janis: you mean you aren't gonna carry me the whole way Janis: honeymoon is over 😉 Jimmy: [gives her a look like challenge accepted and picks her up playfully] Jimmy: 🏆💪 Janis: [kisses him whilst she's there 'cos cute nerds] Janis: let's walk, no rush is there Jimmy: [cue more kisses when he puts her down & handholding] Janis: I know it's not ideal rn but Janis: always like it when you stay Jimmy: It's alright, I know you ain't 🤞 that my dad'll bash me more often Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: & I like it when I stay too Janis: Good Janis: would like that on record at the very least Jimmy: I'll screenshot it, don't worry Jimmy: not one for twitter but Jimmy: 👍 Janis: no, no one gonna be 😍 Janis: maybe gracie like wow, basic human empathy who knew Jimmy: is she gonna be there? Janis: I assume so Janis: also her gaff, like Jimmy: what the fuck's the use of her being friends with Mia if she's never at her mansion 🙄 Jimmy: sort it out, Grace Janis: you know, easier to stalk me from ours Janis: doubt she'll be up for the massive slag-off sesh if she couldn't even hack one lesson Jimmy: least it means they won't be there too Jimmy: unless they're SO SORRY #duh Janis: 😏 Janis: take my apologies in the forms of cash only Jimmy: I'm gonna start charging every time she looks at me 🔪🔪🔪 Janis: #thathoelife Janis: gonna paywall my DMs tbh Jimmy: the most #relatable you've been so far Janis: make the most of having a twitter secretary, babe Jimmy: 😏 Janis: just go through ❌ the uggos and ✔ the maybes Jimmy: no 🐇🍳 like Janis: you'd love it Jimmy: been there, fucked that Jimmy: Barry was a right one Janis: 😂 Janis: I'm sure Janis: wasn't you crashing his wedding or anything Jimmy: his eyes were begging me to babe Jimmy: come on Janis: [is lol] Jimmy: who's wouldn't be if they're marrying a 16 year old Jimmy: run Barry run Janis: 😬 Janis: have her parents literally signed her off or what Jimmy: they did yeah Janis: that's fucked Janis: least my parents 'marriage' wasn't real Janis: nan still don't like dad so good luck with that 👍 Jimmy: are they not married proper by now then? Janis: yeah Janis: she didn't object at the vital moment Janis: 💔 Jimmy: gutted Jimmy: she can step up for Ian's next nuptials if she wants to get into heaven like a good 🍀 Janis: I done told you she's Scouse Janis: and definitely not getting in Janis: but I'll ask Janis: hire her services Janis: better at 🔪🔪🔪 than Mia Jimmy: tah Janis: I'll just show and that'll put him right off Jimmy: whose name are you gonna try & say anyway dad? 🤔 Jimmy: It don't matter I'll give our kid the 💍s to lose Janis: 😂 all middle aged women have the same like 10 names Janis: he's got an alright chance Jimmy: you cheerleading him now? 'cause you ain't borrowing my pom poms Jimmy: get your own Janis: No I in team, babe Jimmy: what's the team colours Jimmy: I wanna look 🔥 Janis: 💙 Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: suits me Janis: compliments your eyes Janis: probably Jimmy: [flutters his eyelashes at her cos nerd. Why do boys have such long beautiful ones bitch?] Janis: I hate you Jimmy: 💕 Janis: 😣 Jimmy: [kisses] Janis: You're Jimmy: a dickhead, yeah Jimmy: I know Jimmy: [more kisses cos why not] Janis: cute Janis: and pretty Janis: and everything else you hate being called Jimmy: so rude you Jimmy: [tickles her again] Janis: I will kick you now I'm not at risk of falling too you know Janis: be warned Jimmy: go on then Jimmy: don't be all mouth Janis: I'm fair, thank you Janis: touch me again and Jimmy: [does the thing where's he's hovering really close by not actually touching her cos little shit] Jimmy: and? Jimmy: [then leans in for a kiss but likewise stops short for the wind up] Janis: [😡 and a vaguely aggressive smooch] Jimmy: [tucks a strand of hair behind her ear really soft cos can't resist and also gotta win her round at all times] Janis: [kicks 'cos you know rules but not actually hard 'cos that'd be rude] Jimmy: 💔💔�� Jimmy: ow Janis: Poor boy Janis: that's what you get though Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Janis: [squishes his face like n'awh] Jimmy: you only done that 'cause you know I can't kick you back Jimmy: such a girl Janis: you can try it, babe Jimmy: [playfight again] Janis: never give up, do ya Jimmy: nah Jimmy: wouldn't be #goals Janis: [🙄 but not as done as that face is lmao] Jimmy: [cheek kiss cos cheeky] Janis: [rubs at it 'cos same but is also 😍] Janis: I'm not your nan, you know Jimmy: she's 💀 so that's good news Jimmy: [little make out session though] Janis: 😂 Janis: sexy Janis: got me in the mood that Jimmy: you're always in the mood Jimmy: what I like about you that Janis: obvs Janis: any time any place Janis: girl guides prepared me Jimmy: course you were in all them after school activities, rich girl Jimmy: 👸🐎 Janis: oh please Jimmy: bit late to deny it Jimmy: but go on Janis: 😒 Janis: yeah yeah coal for breakfast lunch n tea I know Jimmy: 🎅 came to ours to stock up for the bad kids Jimmy: thieving fucker Janis: 💔 should hear how he treats his elves Jimmy: Ian's true form that Jimmy: why he's such a mardy bastard Janis: [snorts attractive babe] Jimmy: did you mean what you said Janis: what bit? Jimmy: 🚭 Jimmy: girl guides prepare you for that too? Janis: 'course Janis: got the leaflets on me at all times Janis: do you wanna Janis: not whatserface, idc if you don't Jimmy: I don't wanna read any leaflets or slide into that ginger's DM's Jimmy: but like Janis: sure Jimmy: it's your fault Jimmy: so Janis: wearing you out? Jimmy: piss off no Jimmy: needing me to live long enough to rescue you from your shit marriage to Pete Jimmy: already gonna have to fight against my northern life expectancy to see it through Janis: you and weddings Janis: gonna have to have it in the bahamas or some shit Jimmy: alright rich girl, stop flexing Jimmy: fuck's sake Janis: jus sayin Janis: gonna splash the cash to protect my mans Janis: he's sensitive, tah Jimmy: his skin is, he'll burn up Jimmy: put applying factor 50 in the vows 'cause your only job Janis: 😂 Janis: so precious Janis: must protect 💪 Jimmy: I'll hit you up when my 👵 missus has 💀 Jimmy: might leave me enough cash that you're interested Janis: 😍 Janis: I'll be sure to pick up ☎ Jimmy: I'll send you a text, know they make you 😍 Janis: shut up Jimmy: you'd have to break my hands Jimmy: that'd 💔 you Janis: [😒😳 combo] Jimmy: [kissing her cos so cute whatever her face is doing] Janis: [deepens it 'cos] Jimmy: [little make out moment] Janis: I like you Janis: you're a dickhead and everything but Jimmy: I get it, you want me to keep my 👅 Janis: I get it, you wanna stop Janis: don't need to seduce me if you need the breather, babe Jimmy: I need nowt of the sort Jimmy: [kisses her again to prove it & cos he needs her lbr] Janis: [running her fingers through his hair and up and down his back] Jimmy: I don't want you to stop doing that though Janis: might make walking a bit difficult but Janis: do my best Jimmy: [picks her up like now you can still] Janis: [does] Janis: such a trooper, you Jimmy: [is kissing her neck on all her hickeys but soft] Janis: ['mm' noise] Janis: you're gonna drop me Jimmy: [shakes his head & says 'I promise' cos always] Janis: [holding on tighter but not 'cos she needs to] Jimmy: [more kisses but less soft] Janis: [swings down whilst kissing him and backs up into a wall, streetlight idk] Jimmy: [is 😍 cos how swag & kissing her harder] Janis: [tugging at his top to look for somehwere to give him a new hickey] Jimmy: [takes it off cos boy privilege & it's may so not gonna freeze to death] Janis: [is just looking at him like 😍 and stroking his chest 'cos damn] Jimmy: [gives her a look like ? for the 😍 even though he knows damn well but also looking at her like ! cos what you gonna do babe] Janis: [stroking turns to little scratches and then bigger scratches because frustrated as hell, biting and kissing as love as she can get away with in public but obviously not low enough] Janis: low* Jimmy: [is swearing quietly but obvs cos he's living for it not cos fuck you lol] Janis: ['do you have any idea how bad I want you right now?'] Jimmy: [is giving her a LOOK cos yeah he does & like pulls her off the path to try and find somewhere slightly less public like] Janis: [insatiable kids] Jimmy: [I hope there's like some bushes or something for their sake. How sims lol] Janis: Here Janis: here is fine Jimmy: [takes off her top so he can get his own back for before cos of course he would] Janis: [is 😱 shooketh but obvs not complaining or stopping him] Jimmy: [let him crack on with doing that to her for a bit just so she's even more frustrated lol] Janis: ['Jimmy'] Jimmy: [says her name too cos teasing little shit & he knows what it does] Janis: [pouting so hard] Janis: come on Jimmy: [bitey pouty lip thing forever but harder than he usually goes cos mood as she finally gets what she wants] Janis: ['ow' but make it a moan] Jimmy: [kiss it better but make it sexy] Janis: you're so Jimmy: you Janis: [shakes head] Jimmy: [says 'take the compliment' as per] Janis: [more kisses 'cos shh but also 'cos] Jimmy: [going harder at everything just cos] Janis: how many pleases is it gonna take? Jimmy: let's see Janis: [#1] Jimmy: [pulls her closer cos always and does love a please] Janis: [is pushing herself into him and #2 'cos more always] Jimmy: [is likewise pushing her against a tree or whatever] Janis: [wraps her legs around him 'cos always and they long enough bitch] Jimmy: [perks of having a tall girlfriend got him like 😍] Janis: third time's a charm? Jimmy: [just nods 'cause can't even speak] Janis: ['Baby, please' with all the emphasis] Jimmy: [obviously gives in cos how can he not & SO MUCH KISSING BITCH] Janis: I Jimmy: I know Janis: [ily] Jimmy: [says it back] Janis: you're fucking gorgeous Jimmy: you are Janis: shit Jimmy: [doing the trying to get closer thing again] Janis: [using her hands in his hair to move his face level with hers and having the hottest closest eye contact ever[ Jimmy: [loud enthusiastic response cos damn] Janis: how do we keep ending up here Jimmy: I don't Jimmy: know Jimmy: care Janis: same Janis: just Janis: make sure it keeps happening okay Jimmy: you too Jimmy: don't get shy, yeah Janis: [little lol like wut] Jimmy: [kisses because she's so cute when she's happy & I'll keep saying so goodbye] Janis: don't think anyone is accusing me of being shy right now Jimmy: make sure they don't ever Jimmy: all I'm saying Janis: calling me predictable right now, really Janis: [cuffs his head but kisses him too 'cos obvs playing] Jimmy: I'm not calling you nowt Jimmy: I just like how you are Janis: JUST as I am though? 😏 Jimmy: are you trying to start a fight right now, really Jimmy: [but kisses her again cos also playing] Janis: Just keeping it exciting for you, babe Jimmy: do you reckon this is boring? Janis: not a word that I'd use Janis: if I was capable of saying much more than fuck, your name and God's, rn Jimmy: gimme one you can Jimmy: just don't give your god no credit Janis: [saying his name 'cos duh] Jimmy: [goes harder as a result cos he's into her saying his name too & we know it] Janis: holy shit Janis: just like that, that's so Janis: you're so good Jimmy: [says 'you'] Janis: [kissing him 'cos people going past not that far away so shh lads] Jimmy: you always make me forget where we are Janis: that's what I want Jimmy: to be my escape, yeah, I ain't forgotten Janis: don't Janis: no one does it better than me, remember that Jimmy: you don't Jimmy: I'm taking you away from here too you know Janis: I do know Janis: swear Jimmy: just swear you'll come with me Jimmy: that's what I want Janis: of course I will Janis: why wouldn't I Janis: I hate everyone here but you so if you ain't here then why am I Jimmy: I love you Janis: I love you more Jimmy: shut up, you can't say that Janis: just did Janis: what you gonna do about it Jimmy: [goes harder than ever & is doing all her fave things cos if it's a competition like] Janis: [we know what gonna happen] Jimmy: [I hope nobody else is about cos soz] Janis: fucking hell boy Jimmy: 💕 Janis: don't look at me like that Jimmy: like what? Jimmy: [but is still doing it cos he knows] Janis: so smug and Janis: ugh Jimmy: just my face Jimmy: not doing nowt with it Janis: 😒 Janis: you know exactly what you're doing always Jimmy: what was it you said, I'm keeping things exciting Jimmy: that's what I'm doing Janis: you're making me fucking Janis: fall in love with you Janis: that's what you're doing Jimmy: you're already in love with me Jimmy: I'm making you stay Janis: more in love then Janis: somehow Jimmy: good Janis: mostly good Jimmy: where's the bad bit? Janis: it's just a bit...terrifying sometimes, don't you think Jimmy: it's only terrifying when you don't know where you stand Jimmy: & we do Jimmy: you ain't questions, you're answers Janis: yeah Jimmy: you don't gotta be scared of me, alright Janis: it's not like Janis: I don't know Janis: can't explain it Janis: it isn't anything you do though, trust me Jimmy: a bit Jimmy: but I'm not gonna fuck this up again Jimmy: not for ages at least Jimmy: gimme about a week Janis: it isn't Janis: it's actually a me problem Janis: but I'll hold you to that anyway Jimmy: problems you? nah I don't believe it, rich girl Jimmy: [but kisses her because so much love and seriousness actually] Janis: ain't you heard money can't solve 'em? Jimmy: that's the bollocks that gets said when you're crying on a yacht or whatever I'm sure Janis: 'course Janis: can't buy genuine wisdom either, soz Jimmy: life's shit but it'd be less shit for me if I had enough money to leave whenever it was worse than that Janis: money ain't the reason you can't go though Janis: that'd be an easy fix Jimmy: it's a reason though Janis: not the main one Janis: the real shit is always way more messy and complicated Jimmy: alright calm down, I ain't asking you to donate to my gofundme or owt Janis: 🙄 Jimmy: come on, we've got loads more walking to go Janis: alright Jimmy: 👍 Janis: [lights up 🚬] Jimmy: [steals it even though he said he was gonna 🚭] Janis: erm, wasn't for you Jimmy: don't be rude Jimmy: share with your boyfriend Janis: [takes it back] Janis: sharing means sharing Janis: you've nearly finished it Jimmy: that's your fault for walking so fast Janis: you that was in a hurry Jimmy: I only said we had ages left Jimmy: not that you had to run Janis: whatever Janis: just try to keep up Jimmy: I get it, you're such an athlete Jimmy: calm down Janis: shut up Janis: i'm not even you're being slow Jimmy: piss off am I Jimmy: you've got a rush on, girl Janis: it is a school night 🤓 Jimmy: don't remind me Janis: can't be any worse than usual 🤞 Jimmy: tomorrow's gonna be so shit Janis: cheery Janis: why Jimmy: 1. it's school 2. people are dickheads 3. my dad ain't stopped ringing me Janis: the first 2 are standard Jimmy: it's standard that it's shit too Jimmy: where've you been Janis: bunk then Janis: like you said, no avoiding how in the shit you are with him now Jimmy: like you said, if we do everyone will reckon they got to us Janis: not saying I can Janis: you could though Jimmy: not without you Jimmy: I already told you that Janis: alright Jimmy: 👌 Janis: then what can I do? Jimmy: you ain't gotta do owt Jimmy: how many times, shit's less shit just by you being about Janis: well I'll be there Jimmy: 👍 Janis: can we just Janis: stop Jimmy: here? Janis: I mean Janis: I don't even know why it's gone weird really but can we just not Jimmy: yeah Janis: or you could tell me why so I can do something about it Jimmy: so you're saying I'm making it weird Janis: I'm saying I don't know why it is so maybe you do Jimmy: I don't Jimmy: I'm knackered too maybe I'm being a dickhead Janis: That's alright then Janis: let's just crash Janis: long as it's nothing serious then it's all good Jimmy: come here for a sec Janis: [does] Janis: yeah? Jimmy: [hugs her] Janis: [hugs back] Janis: sorry, I know it's shit Jimmy: It's just Jimmy: If my dad wasn't such a fucking Jimmy: we could have been at mine no time after we left the park Janis: I know Janis: we should've got the bus Jimmy: could've have done all that on the bus though Jimmy: couldn't* Janis: well no Janis: but Jimmy: ? Janis: I'm just sorry baby Jimmy: it was good, yeah Jimmy: don't be Janis: I'm not sorry about that Janis: just that tomorrow is gonna be shit Janis: and I can't do shit for you Jimmy: but you can Jimmy: you're 🥇 Janis: I dunno Janis: wish I could actually throw money at this shit Jimmy: [kisses her like shh but also ILY] Jimmy: just be my girlfriend Jimmy: I don't wanna buy one of them Janis: [halfhearted lol] Janis: bit tragic Jimmy: bit too Ian Janis: [actual lol] Janis: I hope you just mean he's 💪 and spending too hard on his gfs Jimmy: well he ain't ordered one online yet as far as I know Jimmy: give him another failed marriage & maybe Janis: maybe he'll move to Thailand and leave you all behind Jimmy: fuck that we'll go with Jimmy: ditch him first chance we get babe, deal? Janis: deal Jimmy: [puts his hand out for her to shake cos nerd] Janis: [spits on hers 'cos gross and remember when] Jimmy: lovely you Jimmy: [but does it too obvs] Janis: you're the one that likes me Janis: weirdo Jimmy: insult me all you want now cos when we get there I'm selling the 🐶 Jimmy: let 'em make a meal out of her Janis: joke all YOU want but the fact you're even bringing her shows you luuuuurve her Jimmy: [is protesting but also trying not to lol so we see you boy] Janis: 👦💕🐶 Janis: the best of friends Jimmy: in your dreams, girl Janis: wildest, babe Janis: I'll draw the art this time Jimmy: what else is in there Jimmy: let me know Janis: maybe Jimmy: [gives her a look like oh only maybe okay then] Jimmy: what do I have to do to make it more than a maybe? Janis: get a good night sleep Janis: you said you're knackered Jimmy: challenge accepted then Jimmy: [but you can tell he's thinking like when the fuck did I last get one of them] Janis: [smooches him like I know] Janis: don't worry, I'll help Janis: I wanna tell you Jimmy: so go on Jimmy: [gestures for her to have a piggyback cos gotta exhaust him further lol no offense babe] Janis: tomorrow Janis: gotta get you through the day somehow Janis: [piggybacks tho] Jimmy: 💕 Jimmy: [does a little run to be a show off but like actually be careful boy] Janis: [loling and 😍] Jimmy: [let's give them a piggyback moment for a fair while & distance well done boy] Janis: impressive Jimmy: sound more surprised about it, dickhead Jimmy: 🏆💪 me Janis: soz didn't know I was dating superman Janis: gimme a sec to swoon Jimmy: Clark Kent around the fans though, babe Janis: ohh that's why you're such a 🤓 Janis: just a cover, why didn't you say Jimmy: busted Jimmy: had to make sure I could trust you Janis: 😏 Janis: well I'm not gonna be that basic bitch but still, got your back Jimmy: tah girl Janis: Legit have a cousin called Lois Jimmy: 'course you do, nerd Jimmy: she got a sister called Penny? Janis: umm, I didn't fucking name her, 'scuse you Janis: and no, worse but you already know Janis: Leia, in our year Jimmy: ? Jimmy: more freckles than you Jimmy: that the one? Janis: that's the one Jimmy: how many cousins you got? Jimmy: half the school or what Janis: 🙄 pretty much Janis: who else would you know hmm Janis: Ollie in our year Janis: his sister Sophie, year below, that's probably it Jimmy: we should get him for our ⚽ team Jimmy: 👌 Janis: Yeah, bin off the actual lad, know you wanna Jimmy: nowt personal we're just too 😎 Janis: 😂 Jimmy: & I just can't around all those sweaty lads 😍😍 so Janis: 🚬 wheezing for all the wrong reasons, babe Jimmy: [lols] Janis: less of a look that being a footie dyke, trust Jimmy: you've got a beard now if you wanna get back on the team Janis: what else am I in this for Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: get your short shorts on then, babe Janis: but how can I compete Jimmy: 🥇 you Jimmy: come on Janis: but those legs 😍😍 Jimmy: but yours Jimmy: [reaches to get 'em] Janis: oi Janis: [protest too much] Jimmy: [little playfight that very quickly just turns into him getting her in a sexy way] Janis: we're nearly there now Janis: you can do it Jimmy: [tells her how hot she is in a VOICE cos how dare you distract him girl now he's gotta distract you too but does carry on] Janis: ['wait' and smooches him 'cos okay] Jimmy: [& then more cos forever mood] Janis: such a bad influence Jimmy: I just like encouragement Jimmy: I really Janis: [more intense eye contact] really? Jimmy: respond well to it, you know Jimmy: [hot kisses to prove the point] Janis: I Janis: I see Jimmy: [more eye contact just because] Janis: come on Janis: [takes his hand and lowkey drags him the rest of the way] Jimmy: [gives her a look like she's such a spoilsport & is all smirky but goes] Janis: you just go straight down Janis: I'll tell my parents what's up Jimmy: alright Janis: it'll be fine Janis: save the 20 questions later if I don't 🙄 Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: tah Janis: [comes down after five minutes or so] Jimmy: [he's just flopped on her bed cos tired boy] Janis: [sits down next to and strokes his hair like hey] Jimmy: [snuggles] Janis: you need anything? Jimmy: [says 'you' cos obvs] Janis: [snuggles down too 'cos 'you got me'] Jimmy: [all the snuggles and soft kisses and touches cos happy] Janis: ['I wish you could stay forever'] Jimmy: [just nods cos same & emotions] Janis: [just being gentle and loving 'cos gah] Jimmy: [likewise] Janis: [I love you] Jimmy: [kisses cos again same & again emotions] Janis: [gets him undressed but less in a sexy way and more in a caring way] Jimmy: [follows her lead & helps her with her own clothes not forgetting putting the hair down cos never & we gotta spend some time playing with that then] Janis: you're Janis: I've never met anyone like you Jimmy: too northern Jimmy: I get it Jimmy: I've met loads of paddy's but you're Janis: shh Janis: no you're Janis: maybe I've never been with anyone like this Janis: I don't mean just the sex and shit Janis: you know Jimmy: I do Jimmy: know Janis: you Janis: you feel it too right Jimmy: [all the eye contact & 😍] Jimmy: I feel it too, baby Janis: [is reassured like yes good and dying a bit 'cos closeness] Jimmy: [says ILY but it's basically a whisper cos how soft they are rn] Janis: [actual whisper 'why'] Jimmy: 'cause I do Jimmy: all them compliments you never take Jimmy: for a start Janis: [hiding how she do] Janis: okay Jimmy: [is playing with her hair and gently gets her to look at him because] Jimmy: you've gotta take 'em or you'll 💔 me Jimmy: [but smiles and is still 😍] Janis: I said okay, how else can I take a compliment? 😏 Jimmy: [more kisses] Jimmy: say it like you mean it Jimmy: maybe Janis: [🙄 but less mad as per] Janis: okay Janis: agree with everything you've said, I'm amazing, like Jimmy: [pins her down but gently not like !!! for more kissing because third time's the charm obvs] Janis: [ily so much] Jimmy: [says her name a few times in between kisses cos they both like it] Janis: thought you were sleepy Jimmy: I am but Jimmy: never that sleepy Jimmy: you're just Janis: [smiley and smug] Jimmy: [traces the 😏 face emoji on her with his finger cos art hoe] Janis: not gonna cut your hands off Janis: I've decided Jimmy: Yeah? Jimmy: what have you decided to do with them instead then Janis: [moves his hands down and does the thing where you move 'em with yours on top] Jimmy: thought you were knackered Janis: how else you meant to unwind 'fore bed Jimmy: [smiles and kisses her again as he carries on] Janis: I wanna Janis: touch you too Jimmy: [moves a bit so it's easier for her cos we can all imagine how close they were probably lying am I right, kids?] Janis: show me how you do it Janis: how you like it Jimmy: [does the same hand trick for her like a shameless copycat] Janis: ['I just wanna make you feel good, Jimmy'] Jimmy: [tries to tell her that she does but it's a moan though 'cause how hot do you wanna be, Janis, it's rude] Janis: [kissing him harder 'cos feeling that he's feeling it too] Jimmy: [and yet he's still managing to touch her too, what a trooper, not like me I'd be well distracted] Janis: you're Janis: [more kisses] Jimmy: you though Jimmy: [more kisses] Janis: ['you' over and over] Jimmy: [and her name too cos that's the mood] Janis: I love you so much Jimmy: [kissing again cos he can't even] Janis: [lbr gonna do this 'til sleep] Jimmy: [true story bro]

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Grace & Janis

Grace: Did you even tell anyone you were staying out?? 🤔🤔 Janis: Did YOU warn the fam you were inviting the devil inside? 🤔🤔 Grace: Rude! Grace: Someone woke up on the wrong side of the barista's bed Grace: OMG is he that bad? How shaming Janis: Wouldn't you all love to know Grace: Like you would anyway, you don't have anything to compare him too Janis: Again, you wish you knew Janis: but yes, I text them Janis: that it? Grace: Oh honey, we ALL knew you were a virgin Grace: Did he? Grace: Before you made it obvious, I mean Grace: You should have come home first, me & the girls could have helped you out Janis: It's cute Janis: all the things you THINK you know Janis: yeah, that'd be fun Janis: Mia must've dropped the invite on her way out Janis: with the story, likw Grace: 🙄🙄 Grace: girl please Grace: Mia'll get over it Grace: Unlike ME! You could've told me! Janis: Get over herself? Janis: Unlikely Janis: Told you what? Grace: OMG how hungover are you!? Don't be dense Grace: THE GOSSIP obvs Grace: I have to hear it from Mia Grace: so UNACCEPTABLE Janis: It's gossip 'cos she made it Janis: as if I had a chance to tell you or anyone, even if I wanted, when she went live with it Grace: There's always time to give me the real story Grace: You've got a phone Grace: Look how quick you answered this morning 🙄 Janis: 'Cos I thought you might have some real concern Janis: shoulda known better Grace: I AM concerned bitch Grace: you could be in a ditch Janis: Yeah, new boy's a serial killer Janis: this ain't the CW Grace: I didn't even know you were with HIM, did I? Grace: You never tell me anything Janis: Now who's being dense Janis: 1+1=2 Grace: Excuse me for having a nun for a sister Grace: Usually Janis: Again Janis: get a clue Grace: OMG Grace: I'm trying Janis: Bless 💕 Grace: Are you coming home TODAY? Janis: Are the coven gone Grace: I wouldn't bother asking if they hadn't Grace: I'm not stupid Janis: Probably then Janis: I got stuff to do Grace: One of them better be 🚿 Grace: Whelan's is soooooooo gross Janis: Not like you've ever got inside to know Grace: It's not like I want to Grace: like I said, ew Janis: Not with that baby face 😂 Grace: Shut up Janis: Like I said, bless Grace: I hate you so much Grace: This is what I get for being nice Janis: Nice Janis: Where? Grace: This WHOLE convo Grace: From the moment I checked you were still alive Grace: & I defended you last night GOD KNOWS why Janis: Shouldn't have to Janis: if your friends weren't cunts you wouldn't be in such a mood Grace: You're the only one being a bitch to me, Janis Grace: Newsflash Janis: Nah Janis: I'd have to be interested for that Grace: Yeah we KNOW you're only into barista boy Janis: Why would I be interested in anything you're doing Janis: it's them with the fucked priorities for giving a shit Grace: OMG get over yourself Grace: getting one boy to sleep with you doesn't make you God's gift Grace: 🙄🙄 Grace: Like I told you before, he'll get bored Janis: You first Janis: Like I told you before, get a hobby Janis: pass it on Grace: Whatever Grace: Don't come crying to me when he realises how much of a bitch you are Janis: 😰 Janis: Don't come to me when you grow a backbone and/or personality of your own Janis: still won't be interested Grace: I already have both thanks Janis: 👌 Grace: 👋 Janis: Cute 😂 Grace: At least one of us is Janis: Sick burn Janis: If only someone that weren't Mia thought so, eh babe? Janis: Sad times 💔 Grace: Take your own advice and get a clue Janis: 😂 #exposed Janis: get some self-esteem Grace: You need it more Grace: Letting that boy use you like this....tragic Janis: I'm God's gift, remember Janis: Can't have it both ways baby Grace: I said you think you are Grace: Not that he does Janis: SELF-esteem, Gracie Janis: not 'this boy would chuck it up me from behind' esteem Janis: poor thing Grace: Faking having it doesn't mean you really do, hun Grace: We can all flex on the snap Grace: You're honestly so embarrassing Janis: I don't need facetune to flex Janis: no filters gonna fix all...that 💋 Grace: You DO need it, you just don't USE it Janis: Nah, I don't though Janis: tragedy Grace: Sure Jan Grace: Keep telling yourself that, babes Janis: You keep telling yourself Janis: can't talk someone into feeling as bad as you do Janis: let your bestie in on the secret and maybe you'll both stop being such poisonous little trolls 💕 Grace: 😂😂😂 Grace: You wish Grace: Can't be bullied without a bully, but you're not that important to Mia 💔 Janis: Oh no Janis: not queen Mia Janis: suck her dick a lil better and she might love you back Janis: story of your life though, that 🤷 Grace: You're actually disgusting Grace: Save it for your boyfriend, I'm sure it makes him really 😍😍😍 Janis: Yeah, and I'm the Nun Janis: the swings and roundabouts you have to go on to make me the bad guy Janis: no wonder you're braindead 😵 Grace: Yeah sure 🙄 Grace: I don't have to say things to cover up the fact I don't know what I'm doing Grace: You sound 12 Janis: Lie of the year goes to Janis: that's all that comes out your mouth Janis: fuck what's going in it 😂 Janis: I'm glad I don't like you, it'd be exhausting having to pity you as hard as is needed Grace: Again, you wish Grace: You tell me to get a hobby, you make the same 'argument' over and over again Janis: it ain't an argument Janis: irrefutable facts Janis: don't like it, change it up Janis: we all got bored a long time ago Grace: Exactly, it isn't, it's you trying to throw shade TERRIBLY Grace: You don't know a single fact about me, babe Grace: Clearly you don't like THAT if you have to keep pretending you do Grace: Hm? Sounds like me with his convo Grace: Don't you have a boy getting bored rn? You might wanna focus on that Janis: Nothing to know Janis: Shadow of a shadow Janis: Literally how are you the blandest granola ass bitch outta the lot and they're all white as hell Janis: not even earning them mixed points, it's a real talent how uninteresting you are, truly Janis: tutorial on that, please Grace: 😂😂😂😂 Grace: But you're STILL talking to me instead of him Grace: What's the matter? Not everything you hoped it'd be? So sad Janis: I got more than one braincell Janis: can talk about put mascara on Janis: though the memes of you failing in your last vid have been amusing, tah for that Grace: You should try doing it Grace: Obvs you need more that mascara but every little helps Janis: Not with a face like that Janis: but you know, more is more and it almost constitutes a mask at this point Grace: 👏👏👏 Janis: There you go, now when you cry like a little bitch about it, you've got reason beyond your victim complex Janis: welcome ✌ Grace: MINE? You're the one who thinks that we're so invested in your little love story that we're all out for sabotage Grace: Please Janis: You know you can see when people watch your stories, yeah? Janis: she was like, the first view Janis: so much for not being important, don't worry, I won't steal your girl Grace: She's mad 'cause you outshined her coffee date moment Grace: Like I said, she'll get over it Janis: Should stop making herself vom Janis: wreaks havoc on your natural glow, but that's neither here nor there Grace: And she's the evil one Grace: That's not funny or true Janis: Cry me a river Janis: not gonna if she kills herself making herself look even worse than her personality Grace: OMG STOP Grace: You're as bad as she is Grace: Obsessed with each other 🙄 Grace: Get a room or something Janis: Awh, wanna be BFFs then?! Janis: 😏 Grace: Shut up Grace: I'd rather be the one who dies Janis: Didn't think so Grace: The first thing you've got right this whole time Grace: Well done, babes Janis: I ain't the one in remedials with the rest of the thickos Grace: Stop calling me stupid Janis: Any time you fancy stopping Janis: be my guest Grace: And what? Be more like you? 😂 Janis: You wish Janis: Be less braindead, would be a start Grace: YOU wish Grace: Caring about what I look like doesn't make me braindead Grace: It makes you a judgey bitch Janis: Yeah, that's the issue Janis: look like Sephora threw up on your face all you want Janis: at least be a person with it, not a painted fuckdoll Grace: So sorry I can't get top marks in maths or whatever OMG Janis: 🔬 Grace: I don't even know what you're talking about now Janis: Just trying to find your last surviving braincell Grace: Find it with the last place you cared about anything Janis: 🔭 Janis: Nope Janis: no signs of life Janis: soz Grace: So glad I could make you feel better about your crap shag by insulting me Grace: But I'm the idiot 👌 Janis: Awh, don't do yourself down Janis: never let it be said you don't have your uses Grace: I'm not here to be used by you, hun Grace: Deal with that Janis: Just a cumdump and Mia's personal bitch Janis: coolio 👍 Grace: Says you Grace: You've known that boy for like a day Grace: & Mia's more concerned with you right now, like I said Janis: 😱 Janis: Are you SLUT SHAMING me Janis: dundundun Janis: know you're 💔 but babes, girl code Grace: I'm stating a fact Grace: You think you're better than me, you aren't Janis: You think I am Janis: I just don't disagree, that's all Grace: I think you're the worst person this family has so far produced Grace: But whatever you need to tell yourself Janis: A dagger through my heart Janis: good thing you've got no place then init Grace: Yeah Grace: Bad enough I have to have the same last name as you all Janis: Marry the first boring white boy who will settle for you and no one ever need know Grace: And follow in your footsteps? No thanks Janis: You couldn't fill these shoes, figuratively and literally Grace: I don't want to Grace: You dress worse than your boyfriend Grace: At least he gets paid to look like that some of the time Janis: as much as I'd LOVE to look like topshop's sale rack Janis: you rinse 'em every time, what's a girl to do Grace: Obvs Grace: It's all my fault you look a state Janis: I don't, so don't trouble yourself Grace: You do, but I won't Janis: Mia don't seem to think so 😘 Grace: She hates you, that's her obsession Grace: Keep looking like that, it fuels her Janis: What, the body she's actually killing herself for? Janis: Will do and it's so effortless Grace: 🙄🙄 Grace: I'm the one who needs a hobby and is soooo uninteresting but you keep talking about Mia cos that's really not Grace: Go into her inbox, please Janis: Like I said, get a personality and we might stand a chance Janis: surgically remove yourself or are you less of a Siamese and more parasite? Grace: Sure, I'll turn myself into her so you can be obsessed with me Grace: You two are ridiculous Janis: 😂😂 Janis: Oh honey Janis: you clearly can't, been trying for years Grace: You wish Grace: Does your boyfriend know you're in love with my best friend? Grace: You might wanna share before he catches feelings Janis: Do you know your best friend kinda hates you? Janis: 😬 too late for you, awkies Grace: Rn the feeling is mutual Grace: Get over it Jan-Jan Janis: 💔 Janis: You'll get over it Janis: well, she'll walk over you, doormat Grace: Like you care Grace: either way Janis: What's the point Janis: You're never going to Grace: I care bitch Janis: You're never going to stand up to her Janis: Why should I be waiting on it with baited breath Grace: You've never waited on me Grace: Don't act like it's Mia's fault Janis: It ain't, it's yours Janis: she's a decent scapegoat though Grace: Again, you wish Grace: Nothing's all my fault, sorry about it Janis: Trust, no part of me wishes for you as my sister Janis: especially what you've become Grace: That makes two of us Janis: You said Janis: with all the care and concern you're claiming Grace: I do care, I just wish I didn't Grace: and that you weren't my sister Janis: Get over it Grace: You can try and tell me what to do as much as you like Grace: Not gonna happen Janis: I know, you're hopelessly pathetic Janis: like I said, no baited breath here Grace: Me? Oh babes Grace: Like I said, tragic Janis: Yeah, you Grace: 😂 Janis: 😥

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Rio & Buster

Rio: I'm sorry Rio: I handled that poorly Rio: and that fucked up being there for you about the Chloe thing so yeah, my bad Buster: She ain't the one I care about Rio: I know Rio: but I care about you and I didn't show it Buster: Nah, what you showed me is that you don't know 'cause you compared me to him Buster: He's never cared about you Rio: I did Rio: I was angry and I just felt gross, not an excuse but I didn't mean it Rio: You know I didn't, right? Buster: I don't know Buster: I've told you before, lads have done a fucking number on you, I don't know how you think Buster: Maybe it is all the same to you, like Buster: And maybe this is fucked up Buster: 'Cause I did wanna fuck you and yeah, I've known you as long as he has Buster: Maybe everyone's right and I'm wrong Rio: Do you want to stop? Buster: I don't wanna be another fucked up relationship for you Rio: You aren't Rio: and it isn't the same for me but if you don't believe me you don't believe me, you don't have to Buster: I want to Rio: I know you ain't got much reason to Rio: and it was especially fucked 'cos of how Chloe did you Rio: I don't know, it was easier to say that when I thought you were attacking me about it Buster: I'm a cunt when I get mad but I'm not ever trying to put this on you Buster: I mean it every time I say he's the one who's fucked Buster: You could be a literal star on pornhub and it still ain't right how he is with you Rio: So am I Rio: Yeah Rio: I just don't like thinking about it Rio: never mind talking about it Buster: I'm sorry Buster: I just want you to be able to talk about it with someone so you don't think bad shit like that, you know Rio: Don't say sorry, I'm meant to be apologising Rio: It's not easy, I know you get that Buster: I don't care, I feel it so I'm gonna say it Buster: I wanna make things easier for you but I somehow fuck it up so Rio: You do make things easier for me Rio: never mind easy, you make so much shit bearable that otherwise wouldn't be Buster: Tell me how I can make this better too Rio: I don't know, babe Rio: I'm messed up Buster: You're not Buster: The situation is Rio: Well, a little bit, let's be real Buster: No more than anyone else Buster: Less than me Rio: Come on Rio: Ain't a competition either of us need to wino Buster: I still am though Rio: Okay, okay, I'll let you have it Rio: Can we be good? Rio: It's Christmas Buster: We can be good 'cause I love you Buster: And I miss you Buster: I don't care what time of year it is Rio: Promise Rio: Promise you don't think I'm too fucked Buster: Don't be stupid Buster: You know I think you're perfect Rio: I love you Buster: I love you, babe Buster: And I'm sorry, like it or not Rio: Well I'm more sorry Rio: deal with it Buster: Touche Rio: How are you Buster: Standard Buster: Are you okay? Rio: Are you being honest? Rio: I'm okay now we're talking Buster: I mean, I'm used to feeling like this, yeah Rio: That makes my heart hurt Rio: What can I do? Buster: You're doing it already Rio: I miss you Rio: What are you doing today? Buster: I just got back from the gym so I'm open to offers, like Rio: I'll think of something worth it then Buster: Don't you have work? Rio: Yeah but we've got a few hours Buster: I can make that work Rio: I need to do some shopping Rio: you got much left to get? Buster: No but like I need an excuse to buy shit for myself Buster: I'll still come with Rio: You can help Rio: I have no idea what to get, I got Pablo in the secret santa 🙄 Buster: You know it Buster: Always ready for heroics, however small Buster: That'll be easy Rio: Yeah, what I figured Rio: he'll be grateful for your input and so will I Buster: Yeah? Buster: I'll do my best for you then Rio: Yeah, you'll see Rio: What do you want for Christmas, seriously, I need clues Buster: I want you Rio: You already have me Rio: Goes without saying Buster: Not with the fam around it doesn't Rio: You know I'll find a way Rio: when everyone is in a food coma in front of the TV, no doubt Buster: That's why you're my fave, obviously Rio: I should hope so Rio: no one better be coming for my 👑 with a seriously good present, like Buster: I mean, Nance has form for good gifting but Rio: No need to tell me Rio: Least she's off my list Rio: not in a shady way, of course 😂 Buster: You've bought her gift before mine? 😒 Buster: Rude Rio: Awh baby, no 😘 we agreed to skip it so we can have money for Milan in the summer Buster: Good Rio: If I'm extra nice today will you give me a clue forreal? Buster: We'll see Rio: 😟 Please Buster: If you keep asking me that nicely Rio: Noted Rio: You getting me etiquette lessons? Buster: Fuck no Buster: Yesterday aside, I love the way you talk to me Rio: Yesterday won't happen again Rio: I promise Buster: You don't have to promise me that Buster: I'm always angry, I can't be that hypocrite, like Rio: I want to promise it though Rio: I promise I don't wanna be that mean again, even if I am, yeah Rio: that's a compromise Buster: Well then I promise too Rio: Baby, I missed you Buster: I love it when you call me that Rio: Good Rio: 'cos you are my baby Buster: I've missed you so much Buster: I couldn't sleep last night Rio: Me either Rio: It's hard enough when you're not there as is Rio: never mind not knowing if you're okay or if you hate me forever Buster: Baby, I could never Buster: Stay with me tonight, yeah? Buster: However late you're working I don't care Rio: I'm on 'til 1.30 Rio: I won't wake you if you're sleeping like an 😇 Buster: Wake me Rio: Only if I can do it in a fun way Buster: I'm not gonna give you a clue for that Buster: I reckon you've got it covered Rio: Not a total amatuer, like Buster: Good to know Buster: 'Cause I fucking ache for you already Rio: 😩 Oh God Rio: and your body is going to be so hard from the gym, please Buster: [sends some gym selfies from earlier cause you know he just has those] Rio: I want you Rio: Fuck baby Rio: I need you before we go out, like, there's no way I'm concentrating otherwise Buster: You've got me Buster: I'm right there with you, babe Buster: I need you so badly Rio: You're so gorgeous Rio: I want to put my hands and mouth all over every inch of you Buster: Jesus Buster: You have to, please Rio: I will Rio: Until you're begging me to touch you where you really need it most Buster: Fuck Rio: That's providing I can resist going straight there myself Buster: I won't be mad if you can't Rio: I bet Buster: I am mad that I have to get dressed right now though Rio: Don't Rio: not yet Buster: Say please Rio: Please Rio: I want you naked Buster: Okay Rio: I'll come to you Rio: Is anyone there? Buster: No Buster: But even if they were, I still need you here Rio: Thank fuck though Rio: but agreed, sorry everyone Buster: Are you gonna be mad if we don't make it to the shops? 'Cause you're not even in my bed yet but I don't want you to leave it Rio: Not even a little bit Buster: I'll get the cuffs out if necessary but I know you want your hands free so Rio: I'll be good Rio: for a little while Rio: then I might need reminding Buster: You're always so good, baby Rio: 'cos you earn it Rio: you're so good to me, daddy Buster: I love you Rio: I love you Buster Buster: Come and show me Rio: 🤤 I'm just toeing the line of staying turned on but not being so needy I can't drive Buster: Worry about driving, I'll worry about getting you there Rio: Stop being so hot then thank you Buster: You're the one telling me not to cover up Rio: 'cos the idea of having you naked and not appreciating every sensory delight of that goes against everything I stand for Buster: I know Rio: Now I'm distracted again Buster: As much as I want you to hurry up, I'd rather you didn't crash Rio: That's nice to know, babe Rio: romance ain't dead yet Buster: Shhh Buster: I'm saving the romance for when you make it here in one piece Rio: I know Rio: such a cutie Buster: Don't tell anyone Buster: Or I'll take the ice bucket I set up back downstairs, like Rio: 🤐 Rio: Good girl, promise Buster: I can promise now that nobody's here or they would have seen me by now Buster: So you don't have to stay quiet for long Rio: 😂 I'm glad you get to save that view just for me Buster: Me too 'cause I'm such a good boy that I didn't even slip my robe on Rio: 😋 Rio: you really putting in the hours to get on the nice list huh Rio: never too late babe Buster: 'Course Buster: I meant what I said, don't be sitting on Santa's lap and telling him what you want instead of me Rio: I was so gutted when we started arguing 'cos you killed me when you said that and what a waste Rio: not the only reason but you know, priorities Buster: 😂 Buster: How has he earnt that though like? Fuck off 🎅 Rio: Fair, only putting in graft one night a year is a bit of a cheek for all the hype he gets Buster: Cheers, babe Buster: So supportive Rio: You already know you my favourite daddy Buster: I like hearing it though Rio: I'll tell you all about it when I'm reeling off my wish list, like Buster: Yeah? Buster: While you can still speak, like Rio: Fuck Rio: I want that so bad Buster: I want you so bad Rio: I'm coming Buster: You're gonna be saying that again for me soon Rio: Can't even say promises promises because yeah Rio: I'm ready Rio: good thing we got a while to keep playing Buster: I'm gonna make the most of every minute with and for you baby Rio: Least they can't open Christmas Buster: Thank Christ Buster: You want me to keep you company tonight? I've got work I can do as per Rio: It's what he died for Rio: wrong holiday but still appreciated nonetheless Rio: 'course, likewise always appreciated Buster: 😂 Buster: I will then Buster: You can work on your focus while I'm being the hot nerd you like Rio: I'll do my best Rio: Lord knows you've got competition with all the rowdy work dos rn 🙄 Buster: Tell me what my word count has to be on my essay before I can go from nerd to hero and distract you how I do best Buster: 500? 1000? Let me know and when I reach it I'll reach for my phone and fave app Rio: Depends Rio: What's your total? Buster: 5000 Buster: Easy, like Rio: Hmm, you need to do 1000 then Buster: Alright Rio: How you doin' babe? Buster: How do you think? Rio: Keep on keeping on Rio: Poor baby 😢 Rio: Don't they know it's the most wonderful time of the year Buster: I'll remind you you said that at work later, yeah? Rio: 😏 Rio: the traffic around your way is the worst Rio: I've not moved in ages Buster: Well, if you don't need your hands on the wheel, use that to your advantage, like Rio: I like the way your mind works Buster: There are reasons you've kept me around this long Rio: I know, but if you wanna remind me I'm not gonna say no Buster: Good to know Buster: And likewise 'cause I'm thinking about how good it'll be when you finally show up Buster: So anything you wanna contribute is always appreciated Rio: [Pics] Rio: I got you Buster: Fuck Buster: You're so beautiful Rio: You're lovely Buster: I don't have words Buster: Taking my breath away too Rio: Cheap trick to get mouth to mouth Rio: but I'll allow it Buster: Now all I can think about is kissing you Buster: And just that shouldn't be getting to me how it is Rio: Why not Rio: Kissing is the best Buster: I just Buster: I never used to think so Buster: Breaking all my rules for you, like Rio: Well, you did need to work on your skillz Rio: but you know I'm the best Buster: You went from it weren't that bad to it was perfect, not technically but, back to shading me Buster: Damn Buster: Clearly I do Rio: 😬 Whoops Buster: 💔 Rio: Tryna motivate not bruise your ego baby Rio: You know I was still 😻 Buster: Yeah 'cause you loved me Buster: And you didn't know any better Rio: I do now Rio: Still 😻 Buster: I can't even play right now and act like its not like that for me Buster: You were good then, you're even better now Rio: Baby Buster: Tell yourself I'm only saying it 'cause I'm so turned on if you didn't wanna hear it but like, that isn't true Buster: I mean, I am desperate for you but Rio: No, I did Rio: I just don't know what to say Rio: or why you're so nice and perfect Buster: You don't have to say anything, baby, it's okay Buster: I know what you think and feel about me Rio: You do? Rio: Good, 'cos you've got to know Buster: I do Buster: Nobody shows me like you do, you know Rio: Better not Rio: I'll fight them Buster: Don't tempt me Buster: I wanna see that Rio: 😒 Rio: Be more typical Buster: I can't help that everything you do is hot Rio: You have fun with that 'cos I won't be going anywhere near you if you get with someone else Buster: I'd rather have fun with you Buster: You know nobody else comes close, right? Rio: Just don't forget then boy and we'll be fine Buster: Come on, I can't forget Buster: And if I ever did you can fight me instead Rio: I don't wanna Rio: You're too pretty Buster: You're not gonna be able to reach my face so it don't matter, babe Rio: Babe Rio: You know I know how to get you down on your knees Rio: Don't test me Buster: You say that like it's not exactly where I wanna be Rio: Not if you're getting beatdown Rio: I'm very tough and scary, remember Buster: You're so fucking hot is what you are Buster: I'd let you hurt me if you wanna Rio: There's nothing I wouldn't let you do honestly Rio: is that fucked Rio: I don't care Buster: If it's fucked we both are Buster: But it doesn't feel like that to me Rio: Me either Rio: You never make me feel like that Rio: wrong Buster: Good Buster: 'Cause you shouldn't Buster: You make me feel like I can do anything and I want to give you that too Rio: Lots of my exes have, hell, people in general Rio: Good, 'cos you can Rio: gonna be so fucking good, yeah? Buster: I hate that Buster: But it won't happen again, I'm not gonna let it Buster: You're gonna be proved right again, babe. End of Rio: Sounds like a plan to me Rio: Okay, finally here Rio: Time to prove why you're my baby Buster: Thank Christ 'cause that traffic was killing me Buster: It's cold, get in the hot tub Rio: You don't need to ask me nice or twice Buster: The champagne is already there if you wanna open it but I'm not in no rush for anything other than you so Rio: 😍 Rio: Jesus, I love you Buster: I love you too

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Jimmy & Janis

Jimmy: Alright Janis: Not bad, boy Janis: you? Jimmy: Happy to be at work. Says it Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 full orchestra Janis: 😨 Christ Janis: assuming you're not just buzzin' to see your fave GILFs, what's the drama? Jimmy: 3 guesses, mate Jimmy: 1 clue, he's a top dickhead Janis: he's a child and you're rude Janis: jk bobs Janis: my number one fan, how's tricks Jimmy: he's #buzzing that we're back to being #goals like Jimmy: expects me to get the cake and bunting in every time he gets a new lass through the door though Janis: obvs its a competition and you ain't trying hard enough Janis: can't win though, cass said you were bringing him down before so what's he want like Jimmy: I've already won, me. Sorry dad but there's the reality Jimmy: Such a twat Jimmy: If you wanted me to date the other twin it's too late to register your vote Janis: Forreal Janis: the LDR might not last but can't be banking on it now Jimmy: Every time he pops his head round me door I keep thinking he's gonna wheel out my ex Jimmy: Having driven back up north to remind me of what I loved and lost Janis: Ha Janis: I mean, not the girl you need to be looking for, wanna get real about it Jimmy: Can't be getting real, can he? Jimmy: Unless its about me then he's gonna fill his boots Janis: What would he know about it Janis: 'less you're doing his job, when's he ever been arsed Jimmy: always time for a bit of father son criticism naturally Jimmy: makes the paid slog go with more of a swing Janis: what a prick Janis: wanna fake breakup? Jimmy: No Jimmy: Why should he get what he wants Janis: Shouldn't but idc about him Janis: if it gets him off your back then don't mind Jimmy: experience knows its not that easy Jimmy: gonna be something most days Jimmy: I packed a bag so many times when you were away only to figure I had nowhere I could actually go Jimmy: Or especially take Cass and Bobs along to Jimmy: nowt to do but unpack it again Janis: It's shit, babe Janis: you'll have somewhere one day but for now Janis: you wanna go somewhere after work Jimmy: I do Jimmy: only thing getting through this shift was reckoning you'd say that Jimmy: and needing money to get far Janis: 'course Janis: don't count as running if you come too right Jimmy: No problems with us both legging it Jimmy: as long as I can keep up 🚭 Janis: good, be shit if i fucked up my streak already, like Janis: can't be that loser Janis: can but try, mate Jimmy: 💪😎🏆 Jimmy: Challenge accepted as many times as it gets laid down Jimmy: 👌 Janis: stoptober the real challenge 😏😂 Jimmy: Funny Janis: I know Janis: s'been said Jimmy: But not the best track record at getting Twix to not do things Jimmy: So I'd need a better trainer if you were serious Janis: 😮 Janis: How dare you Janis: maybe I don't want her to stop Janis: clearly, I am that cunt, fucking with you and yours for the craic Jimmy: Life and times according to Pops Jimmy: As you said, what does he know Jimmy: you're just a piss poor trainer. Unlucky like Janis: 🖕 Janis: got you whipped like Jimmy: 😏 Jimmy: Likely story Janis: okay come thru with that denial Jimmy: It's genetic, mate Jimmy: Clearly foolproof Jimmy: 😒 Janis: Same Janis: awks when they're just bonding us further Jimmy: not mad about it Janis: he will be Janis: don't think any of mine are proper haters Janis: pablo, maybe but our bad Jimmy: and he's got no taste as shown for a full fortnight when those spanish lasses were here Jimmy: so if he don't like me I'm alright with it Janis: honestly 🙄 he's so...let's not even go there Janis: sure about that? Janis: idk if your ego can hack it, personally Jimmy: don't tar me with your brush, like Janis: just saying Janis: know it 💔 when you aren't fave Janis: i'm more than used to it, thanks mr. t Janis: needed cutting down, like 😜 Jimmy: I am where it matters Jimmy: Mr Lucas come through Janis: 😂 Janis: surprised he didn't find a reason to chaperone Janis: like bitch you ain't languages Jimmy: I bet he tried his hardest Jimmy: Would've def found a way to swing it if they'd sent you to a Spanish location with a load of beaches and pools Janis: regret hitting so hard i gotta seduce him to add to the shitheap Janis: 😬 Jimmy: Was there an equivalent when you were over there or is he in a league of his own 💘 Jimmy: Might dedicate my next artsy endeavor to him get those top marks Janis: truly one of a kind Janis: suck up Janis: not bitter i'm being replaced or nowt Jimmy: only in his dreams am I Jimmy: 💕 Janis: 🤢 shut uppppppp Jimmy: fancy helping me with the project yourself then? Jimmy: Less time on my knees and more in front of a lens Janis: what you doing Jimmy: Still in the planning stages cause my POV shifted from 💔 back to 💕 Jimmy: But we aren't busy and I've got plenty of napkins here to figure it out with Janis: Your teach is welcome, saving her from your angst 😉 Janis: cool though, help how i can Jimmy: And me from getting the piss taken by the rest of the class Jimmy: #blessed Jimmy: On the subject of angst though, how's Gracie? Janis: You know they'd lap that shit up Janis: basic bitches i 👀 you Janis: She's alright, he's as highkey so they're making it work Jimmy: Cute Jimmy: Better not be coming for our brand and fans 👀 her Janis: No danger Janis: even if I've pulled a Sinead and you're past your prime Janis: still got it, kids Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: still a decent muse, you Janis: Oh you Janis: not doing nude for free Janis: 😏 Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: I won't bin the job off yet then Janis: Probably don't Janis: shit fit your dad would have if nothing else Jimmy: nothing he does, says or thinks has any impact on me, don't worry Janis: 👍 like Janis: but if you put that on a phonecase the flat whites would buy it, just FYI Jimmy: Anything for a good earner Jimmy: Need petrol never mind them pricey nudes of yours Janis joined the chat 101 minutes ago Janis: listen, i can go twos on the petrol but i can't budge with the nudes, like Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: stick to your guns, mate Janis: get disowned by rio if i did it fo free Jimmy: We can't have that. You're the one with the decent fam Janis: Let's not get carried away Janis: they don't actively hate you, s'a start but they aren't the fucking... Janis: I'd say waltons but like Janis: was that not the goal Jimmy: 😂 Jimmy: Your nan started something and your ma was like, challenge accepted Jimmy: Can't fault her for it Janis: Competetive Janis: least I got enough sibs I don't need to come for the title next, like Jimmy: Gotta go the other way and get a different one, like Janis: that's the plan Janis: like I have one but you know Jimmy: We both want to get out of here. Done Janis: True Janis: Hold you to it Jimmy: Alright Janis: even if you're like married with kids Janis: homewrecking that shit 😂 deals a deal mate Jimmy: Who'd wanna marry this dickhead? Jimmy: The in-laws are so offputting an all Jimmy: You've got nowt to worry about Janis: Glad Janis: though I think you're alright, for the record Jimmy: 😎 Jimmy: You aren't too bad yourself Janis: soppy prick Jimmy: cute dickhead Janis: don't take up poetry Janis: words aren't your strongsuit, also you'd be more unbearable so Jimmy: told you before, strong silent type, me Janis: yeah, i know Janis: woulda ignored me for life Jimmy: You think? Janis: Yeah Janis: 😶 like Jimmy: not THAT strong, mate Janis: 💪 never tell your fans, like Jimmy: They probably know Janis: reckon? Jimmy: Is there anything they reckon they don't Janis: bunch of twats Janis: why's there no one decent 'round here Jimmy: Offensive Janis: You don't count Janis: ain't from 'round here, are you boy Jimmy: But I'm still stuck here for a bit Janis: I know Janis: sure there's nothing worse than the couple who only ever hang together Janis: #sooocringe #judgingyou Jimmy: Can't raise this 🐶 alone Jimmy: Sorry Janis: yeah, she ain't my only friend Janis: she's my fur baby Janis: 🤢 Jimmy: #socringe #actuallyjudgingyounowthough Janis: shut up you started it 😂 Jimmy: you gonna finish it then? Janis: too soon 😉 Jimmy: 😏 Janis: such a dick Janis: hardly surprising we're stuck with each other Jimmy: hardly gutting either like Janis: 🤷 had worse Jimmy: Me too Jimmy: Sorry to slander your fave, dad but Janis: Distance ain't made the heart grow fonder? Janis: awks, don't tell Gracie Jimmy: Only if I feel like being a dick Jimmy: So might do Janis: please do Janis: having to be uncharacteristically nice atm Jimmy: Done then Jimmy: If you wanna be uncharacteristically nice to me I'm due a break soon Janis: Hmm Janis: tough ask Janis: see if I've got it in me, like Jimmy: 👌 Jimmy: Keep me informed of your process, like Janis: fucking perv Jimmy: 😇 Jimmy: keep that to yourself, got fans to think of Janis: that i can do Jimmy: Alright Jimmy: Good Janis: yeah Janis: not like i got ulterior motives of my own Jimmy: Obviously not Janis: 😇 Janis: never believe you anyway Jimmy: I can be convincing when I want though Janis: prove it Jimmy: get yourself over here and I will Janis: okay Janis: really make the most of those 15 minutes Jimmy: Done deal Janis: did i tell you i missed you Jimmy: yeah but I don't mind hearing it a second time Jimmy: or third Jimmy: or as many times as you want to tell me Janis: ambitious Janis: see how many we can fit in Jimmy: challenge accepted Janis: 🥇 Jimmy: if I told you I want you I'll say it again Janis: still feels unreal so Janis: take it Jimmy: You're gonna feel how real it is, don't worry Janis: fucking hell Janis: rude of the real world to exist and take you from me Jimmy: I won't go back Jimmy: Like I care Janis: You gotta Janis: this is how addictions start 😏 Janis: think of the plan Jimmy: Damn Jimmy: Alright Janis: I know, buzzkill Jimmy: What are you doing tonight? Janis: Fuck all unless you gonna change that Jimmy: We'll make the most of your drive idea Jimmy: Find somewhere we can be alone for longer than 15 minutes Janis: Good 'cos I need you Jimmy: I need you too Janis: How stupid, 16 years without it and I was chillin' Janis: now, any time I'm not with you I'm frustrated as fuck 😣 Jimmy: 🥇 Jimmy: that's the only victory I proper want Janis: you got it Janis: and me Jimmy: I love you Janis: I love you

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Buster & Rio

Buster: Can you come over? I don't care if it has to be late Rio: What's wrong? Are you okay? Buster: No. And I don't wanna be alone here, with this shit, that'll make it worse Rio: Coming as soon as I can Rio: What has she said? Done? Buster: She's threatening to tell everyone about us and stop me seeing Jay if I don't dump you and get back with her Buster: It's fucking stupid and mostly not happening but Christ, I'm so tired Buster: And sick of her Rio: You know she can't stop you Rio: but if you have to then do Rio: Leave me, I mean, not the bit where you bow to her every whim and marry her at once Rio: if it makes it easier to keep seeing Jay, then I get it Rio: I don't know what I'll do but Buster: Fuck off. I won't. I love you Buster: I love Jay too, obviously, but like you said, she can't stop me seeing her Buster: I'll go to court, I don't care Rio: You know I love you too Rio: but I don't want to make your life any more difficult than it is already with her in it Buster: You're the only thing keeping me sane and you know it Buster: I can't lose you Rio: Okay Rio: You're sure? Rio: If you are, then I'll stand by you and support you 1000% Rio: Of course, I will Buster: 'Course I am. I know it felt a bit, I don't know how to even describe it, going from where we were to like bracelets and 'I love you's ' or whatever but it's been a long time coming, yeah? Buster: And I swear I mean it. I'm so sure Rio: Yeah Rio: Me too Rio: I just wish the rest wasn't such a fucking mess Rio: How are we going to face all the people we have to face Buster: I have no fucking clue, honestly, but I know I'll support you in whatever you wanna do or say Buster: We'll handle it together. Somehow Rio: I'm trying to think faster than she can post Rio: We have to get it out there before she does, right? Rio: At least it'll be the truth, I can own that better than whatever story she's concocting rn Buster: Yeah Buster: And it'll be better coming from us, I reckon, still a shock but Buster: They'll see where we're coming from instead of her POV Buster: Though maybe it's better for everyone to think we're just fucking and we can stop? I don't know Buster: That's what she believes Rio: But when we don't Rio: They're just going to think...Fuck knows Rio: I don't think it'll be good but Rio: I just don't know, I can't predict what anyone is going to think or say Rio: Do Buster: We could always let her post it and leave until some of the backlash dies down. Not what a mature dad would do like Buster: But Buster: She doesn't think I am anyway so whatever, yeah? Rio: Where are we going to go? Rio: We can't stay away forever Buster: This is such a headfuck Buster: There's no time Buster: Thriving under pressure is one thing, but she's proper ambushed us Rio: I know, I feel sick Rio: Stalking her feeds like its love Buster: I can't even bring myself to have anything open on my phone other than this convo Buster: How are we even gonna get everyone together to tell them? There's so many of the fuckers Rio: I don't know, mass group chat seems a little blasé Rio: Maybe, we tell the most important ones, and fast Rio: and then let them tell who they need to etc Rio: Let word of mouth do the rest Buster: Fucking hell, Nance is in NYC, I can't be like excuse the time difference but I've gotta just ruin your life again potentially really quick Rio: Oh, fuck Rio: I wish I didn't love you like I do Rio: would be so much simpler, wouldn't it Buster: I know, but don't say that again, okay? Buster: I told Chlo I don't regret you and I meant it Buster: Even if I have to let mum and dad tell Nance and let her think that's how little I care about her Rio: I'm sorry, I don't want it in any other way, and I only want it that way for your benefit Rio: I don't want to hurt you, ever Rio: Run to NYC? Buster: Good Buster: I would if I thought she'd have me. But I've got no right to ask her for that Rio: What if I ask? Rio: Obviously we'd need a place to stay when the shit hits the fan but at least you can do it in person Buster: Yeah Buster: She deserves that much after me being such a shit brother, as Chlo was quick to remind me Rio: You've had your moments but she still loves you, Buster Buster: Maybe she shouldn't Buster: Maybe I should just stay away from her Rio: Why? Buster: She's finally landed on her feet with uni like, she doesn't need me ruining everything for her again Buster: She's close to you and I've taken the piss so much already, she might not understand why I'm doing this Rio: I know but Chlo isn't going to help her understand, is she? Rio: If we're doing this Rio: if its worth it, we have to go in Rio: we're going to hurt people, and its gonna be fucking horrible Rio: but, it'll hurt me to have to leave you, and that's the only alternative we have left Buster: You're right. Making a habit of being, yeah? Buster: Looks like I'm getting on another flight then Buster: If I pass uni myself at this point nobody can say shit about my ego Rio: You know you can, you will Rio: Obviously you have to tell her alone Rio: but do you want me to come? Rio: I have the funds Buster: I want nothing more but what about your family? Besides Billie they are all here Buster: If you want to tell your parents first I can't blame you Rio: Maybe I'm being a coward, but I'm not convinced Chlo will actually do anything, she would've just done it, surely? I think if you can keep her talking, even if its arguing, it gives us time...like its all she has over you Rio: She'd be a moron (more than she is) to just let go of it that easy Buster: I reckon you're onto something, babe Buster: Or you just really want a holiday like Rio: How did you guess? Rio: Gonna have time and desire to see all the sights, like Rio: I just think...I don't know, she might wanna hear my side too, maybe, and it might help if she does Buster: Yeah Buster: I wish we could take Jay. I hate the thought of leaving her with Chlo right now Buster: And she can work any room, 'course Buster: No chance of staying mad with that face around Rio: Yeah Rio: I don't trust her as a Mum, I wouldn't say that just 'cos I'm the petty new woman, you know that Rio: I seriously don't Rio: but you said her 'rents are decent and do most of the work Rio: Sure they still will be, they'll look after her, even if Chlo won't Buster: Same. It's what scares me about her. More than anything she's ever threatened Buster: Thank Christ she still lives at home Buster: And Jay's too young to believe any shit she says against me Rio: She's going to know who you are, and what a good Dad you are Rio: You'd never let Chlo get away with that, and Jay wouldn't believe her over you Rio: who's put in the actual work, after-all Rio: just another thing she'll lament about, wah wah no one loves me Buster: I need to believe that or I'll properly crack up like Rio: Its the truth Rio: I promise you Buster: You're the best Buster: I know it shouldn't be a competition of who I fucked over more or whatever but you or Erin would never do this Rio: Most wouldn't Rio: Unlucky for you, you found one who will go above and beyond to fuck up your life Buster: Yeah Buster: How soon could you leave for NYC? Rio: As soon as you can Rio: Not ideal for either of us but Rio: Gotta be done Buster: I'm emailing my professors to get extensions and shit as we speak, not that a family emergency anywhere near covers it Buster: Fuck's sake Rio: No shorthand for this situation Rio: Though I'm sure they'd all love to know the drama Buster: Oh fuck, all my old friends are gonna lap this up Buster: Been waiting on my fall from grace Rio: Do you care? Rio: Most of them were cunts, has to be said Buster: Only thinking of you, babe. Not to late for you to hit up James again and choose him instead Rio: Please Rio: He was good for a warm bed and nothing else, you fool Rio: Try to forget that ever happened, like Buster: Good. Me too Rio: I already wanted you then Buster: I know Buster: And you know I did too, yeah? Rio: I knew for definite after Rio: Got no poker face and the jealousy was palpable, babe Buster: Fuck off Buster: Not my fault you're proper desirable Rio: Just write that on a postcard and be done with it, I reckon Rio: They'll all understand Buster: You just saved us a trip. Well done Rio: Always thinking, me Rio: Now we can hide forever just you and me Buster: I'm thinking my ma's poker face skipped a generation and my daughter got it all Buster: Yeah. I'm looking at flights there and not back, casually Rio: I reckon you might be right Rio: she certainly knows how to wrap you around her little finger already Buster: You being giving her sly lessons? I know her mother can't teach her anything about that Rio: What can I say? Make the most of my time Rio: Nah, just a girl after my own heart, like Buster: Take your word on that like Buster: We might need that hustle you've got if my parents disown me so can't complain Rio: They won't will they? Mine either Rio: Oh God Buster: I don't see how mine can after how they got together Buster: Basically brother and sister depending who you ask Buster: But who knows Rio: And everyone knows about Joe and Ronnie but they still talk to them Rio: am I just being stupid and naive thinking it might end up okay? Rio: not just wishful thinking is it Buster: True. I forgot about them, which shows how many fucks I give Buster: We can do this Buster: It ain't illegal, even if Chlo reckons otherwise. I could marry you if I wanted like Rio: Yeah, it'll just be adjusting to it Rio: like we had to Rio: all we can do is give everyone time Rio: but they can't make us not Buster: Let them be mad if they gotta but I ain't Buster: I love you too much Rio: I love you Rio: I have to be with you Rio: I don't know where I'd be if you hadn't have been there for me throughout all the bad shit Buster: I know you'd have made it, but I'm still glad I was there anyway Buster: If only 'cause I'm a selfish cunt Rio: I don't know Rio: I just know I don't just need you, I want you too Rio: That's all Buster: I feel the same, trust me Buster: I know it's stupid but I can't help wondering what Edie would make of this Rio: Probably thank me for taking the heat off her... Rio: I think she'd get it, she got most things, even the shit other people didn't want to touch Buster: Yeah Buster: We can get a flight tomorrow if I throw enough cash at it. Can you handle that? Rio: Yes Rio: Let's do this Buster: Make sure you tell Indie at least Buster: We can worry about Nance at the last possible moment Rio: Will do, at least she can cover for me if needs Buster: My mum and dad probably won't notice I've gone unless Chlo goes through with her threat and the shit hits the fan Rio: She's not got the bottle Rio: We'll be back to tell them as soon as we can Buster: Actually want you to be a know-it-all Buster: What's the world come to? Rio: Fuck knows, babe Rio: It ain't coming to an end though, not like she wants Buster: Come over tonight and I'll take you home to get packed in the AM Buster: Not leaving your side Rio: Of course Rio: I'm going to take care of you Buster: You can prove that to me later Buster: There's nothing I want more Rio: I'm going to Rio: Gonna show you why I'm worth this Buster: I already know Buster: But I'm always ready for you to tell me again Rio: You deserve it Buster: So do you, babe Rio: I love you so fucking much Buster: I love you too Buster: No matter what Rio: We're gonna have it all, remember? Buster: I won't forget Buster: I'm packing and I swear any drawer I pull out either has something of Jay's in or something that doesn't belong there which she's helpfully put there Buster: It doesn't feel like she was here long enough to do all that Buster: And it's gonna kill me if I can't see her again sometime soon Rio: You will Rio: That's why we're sorting this now, and not running Rio: For her, yeah? Buster: Us too though. 'Cause it has to be better in the long run Buster: We've done our share of lying and not saying what we mean Rio: Yeah Rio: We would've always had to have done this Rio: or stop Rio: she's forced our hand but Rio: I'm so tired of the lies anyway Buster: Agreed. Tempting as it'd be to wait until Jay's in college herself, I can't either Buster: She's done us a favor really, which she'll love Rio: Yeah, let that fuel you Rio: She's going to get nothing from this, she's only gonna fuck herself up Buster: Exactly. I tried to warn her as much Rio: She can't be told anything Rio: Fuck her Buster: Not again, cheers Rio: I'd be jealous but even my brain can't make that scenario believable Buster: Thank Christ 'cause if it could I'd have to reckon you don't know me like I thought you did Rio: No one's that self-destructive Rio: Not even you Buster: No arguments here Rio: Good Buster: Bad enough I did it the once Rio: Thank God for Jay Rio: otherwise that'd be nothing but an awkward regret forreal Buster: Any other mother if I could though, honestly Buster: I'd rather it was Indie even Rio: Um, I wouldn't Rio: She is all you though, sure you could've got her from someone else like Buster: Yeah? You reckon Buster: I wonder what the next one will be like when she's born Rio: Same Rio: Exciting Buster: We've been throwing some names around and none of them have made me cringe like Chlo's choice of middle name for Jay so that's a start Rio: That's a start Rio: All I know is she'll be dead cute too Buster: I'm sure Erin will be well happy you feel that way about her like Buster: But seriously, you're too much and I can't get enough of you still Rio: Shut up, she might not legit try and murder me like Chlo but I still don't think I should try my luck, like Buster: You'd be within your rights to murder Chlo yourself, some of the shit she said Rio: Yeah? Rio: Can't say I'm surprised Buster: I wasn't either Buster: Shut her up anyway though Rio: 'Course you did, so chivalrous forever Rio: My hero Buster: What can I say? I know what you like Buster: She tried to talk shit about Nancy too Rio: Cunt Rio: Nance is 10 times the person she'll ever be Buster: Yeah Buster: She proved it by bringing her up, as if she hadn't done enough already Buster: Trying to call her a freak 'cause in her mind it compares, the monsters she reckons we are and Nance being gay Rio: Shown herself up there Rio: Think what you like about us but get with the times on the gay thing, babe Buster: And she thinks she's the one fit to raise my daughter while I ain't Buster: Jay could be gay for all we know Rio: I don't think she even thinks that, she just chats shit for her own benefit Rio: She can't possibly think she's doing good Rio: Don't know if she cares Buster: Pretty sure she doesn't Buster: She basically said she only wanted Jay so she could play happy families with me Buster: Like there was no point to being a parent if she couldn't have that Rio: What the fuck Rio: She's so Rio: You had no say, she did Rio: she should've really wanted her Rio: So horrible Buster: I wish I could take Jay off her but there's no way Rio: Yeah that'd be near impossible Rio: She's not that level of awful Rio: When you're finished with Uni, set up, she'll have to custody share properly Rio: Get that sorted Buster: Yeah Buster: Maybe she'll get better over time, once the new baby is here and me and you are still going strong, giving her no choice but to accept things even if she doesn't want to see sense Rio: Can but hope, babe Buster: Fuck it I'm coming there. I need a drink. Buster: And seeing you wouldn't hurt either Rio: Yeah? Rio: I won't be mad about that either Buster: I'll stay until you're done. Keep you company like you've done for me Rio: I'll get to pouring Buster: Good Buster: Be there soon