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Kinda Yandere mostly manipulative Shigaraki Tomura x Reader

Warning: Reader has mental problems. A bit of a unhealthy relationship. This gets dark at the end yet one charafter ending. Also SPOILERS TO SHIGURAKI ORIGIN IN MANGA

When you talk to strangers online please be careful. I’m not your dad but please be careful because to many people dont realize the danger.

I don’t own anything

You remember sitting in the doctors office. Your family had been worried over you ever since your quirk appeared.

Your brothers and sister could laugh. You could feel their happiness when they did...but you couldn’t feel yours.

You could feel others emotions and understand what they feel. But you didn’t have emotions.

Your family slightly worried someone could manipulate you. Whenever someone slightly felt sad you just wanted to make them happy so you couldn’t feel their pain.

Your doctor looked at your parents and straight out told them.

“Your daughters quirk has caused her to not have emotions. It could be a side effect.”

Your family had been protective of you since. You had your grandpa’s quirk but he didn’t have the side effect you did. As you got older your quirk became stronger. You could feel people’s emotions through pictures and tv.

You weren’t allowed to go to school in your parents fear of you being bullied. Your brothers and sister were the only ones you considered your friends. But as the youngest you saw them slowly grow up. They began to talk and hang with their actual friends. They felt happy around their friends. Why couldn’t you feel anything?

After the last brother moved out you were officially the only child in the house though you were 17 years old. Your parents tried to have you make friends but you could always feel the other kids your age emotions. They felt annoyed. Like they were only forced to be around you...unlike your siblings friends.

Since you didn’t have any friends you mostly just played video games while being homeschooled. Tv wasn’t really your thing since you could feel emotions through tv which sometimes ruined things since actors or actresses would look scared but their emotions were mostly tired, depressed, or bored while you couldn’t feel any emotions through video games since they were just digital worlds.

While you were playing a online video game you were on a team with a guy named ‘Tomu’. He was good...really good. He must have been playing video games for as long as you had played. Now normally you wouldn’t play with others online but rarely you did when you were bored since you could feel how others felt through the game if they were real people.

“You need to be turning left. The bad guy is behind the wall,” ‘Tomu’ spoke into the game. You froze since you didn’t suspect him to speak but mostly because you could feel his anger and restless nights of sleep and constant annoyance of someone but he was mostly relaxed playing the game.

“Oh...how would you know that?” You asked, he scuffed.

“I’ve played this more times then anyone,”

“What are you, like a total gamer? I’ve played more games then anyone.”

“Yeah right. This is probably your first game,” That was the first time you talked to him. Things grew from there as you started to play with him more and more on every online game you had and you could buy. Your parents started to feel worried about you starting to play video games for longer and longer.

As ‘Tomu’ and you spent more times together you learned a tiny bit more since ‘Tomu’ was secretive but he did tell you his name Tomura. You told him a lot more about yourself then he told you about him. He was the only person who made you feel something almost. Closer then anyone else had made you feel.

He made you almost really laugh. When you told him about your quirk and it’s side effect he just said “You don’t have the most useful quirk but it could be useful for like seeing if someone is lying. Now stop being a cry baby and let’s just eliminate this bad buy,” He felt the same though a little irritated. When you told others they would feel sad or guilty for something. You assumed guilty of talking bad about you begind your back before they heard about your quirk.

You could his anger when he heard someone talk about heroes. Some people online would have Endeavor or All might as their names online and he would often just randomly kill them. When you asked him about it he would often just tell you they had been annoying him even if they never even talked before on the game. He would mumble things at times that made you question heroes a bit. It was slow but he definitely started to take an effect on you. He would talk about family in a toxic way. How old say how family could easily turn their backs on you just as easily as friends.

Your parents began to question you about your online friend especially when they heard you and him talking and him mentioning each other age. You were 17 and him only 20. They never trusted social media or online anything really though they wanted to be happy for you but your naiveness blinded you. He never FaceTimed or sent you a picture of what he looked like.

“Honey we need to talk.” Your mother said as you were about to go to your room to play with Tomura. You stopped before seeing your mom patting a seat next to her and your father. You sat down next to your parents. You could feel their nervousness and fear and desperation.

“We love you but we think your getting to close to that boy online. It’s just it’s sodangerous online. He hasn’t even shown you what he looks like. He could be anyone. We are just looking out for the best with you.” Your mom talked with full concern.

“What...What are you saying?” You knew what they were saying.

“Honey, we don’t want you to talk to him anymore,” Your father sat tall showing he is being serious. You could feel your work crumbling. For the first time in your life you felt something...over whelming sadness and anger. You had been talking to Shigaraki for so long. It felt like he was the only one to understand you. Did...you love him? He was th only person you felt something around.

“No...No. You don’t understand. I...I love him. I love him. You can’t keep me away from him. “ You said before running to your room as fast as possible to run from your parent’s as soon as posble so they wouldn’t try to to stop you or Try to take your game system.

“(Y/n) wait please just listen to-“ You slammed the door before they could stop you and immediately locked your door. You could feel something you had never felt before...tears. You...were crying? You sat next to the door.

“Honey open this door. Please...just tell me your ok. We love you so much,” You could hear your mom crying. You could hear your dad talking to your mom probably comforting her. You started to hear his voice. Tomura could comfort you. You could feel your heart start to beat at the thought of him. you could feel something.

You had started to walk to the game system and turned it on. You could see he was on like he was at that time.

“Hey what took you so long. Were you eating or something?? He said as you could feel his annoyance with you until he could hear you crying. He hestitated.

“(Y/n) open this door!” Your father commanded, you were sure Tomura could hear your dad.

“T-Tomura. My parents are trying to get me to stop talking to you. I-I don’t know what to do. I think...I love you. I think this will be the last time we can talk before my parents take me away from you. You were right. Family can betray you. They don’t understand. I think for the first time in years I have feeling again. Tomura...I don’t know what to do.” For a few seconds as your parents murmuring to each other on what to do before you could hear Tomura.

“Do you really to stay with me?” You stuttered your breathing

“I have a friend who can transport you to me since he has a quirk that can do that by just knowing your address. You need to know though...I’m not a normal guy. My name is Shigaraki Tomura. I’m part of the League of Villains. If you really want to be with me...you will have to do somethings you wouldn’t want to do,” You honestly felt you stop breathing. You loved him right? You were new with feelings so you still figuring everything out. This had to be love. He was all you could think of. Love meant you would do anything for the person you love. You began to hear your parents start to bang on the door calling out to you.

“I would do anything for you Tomura,”

“What’s your address?”

The door was finally opened when they were forced to get the key since their daughter wouldn’t open up. When they were in the room they only saw the game on and a note. The mother went to the not and picked it up.

‘I’ll miss you,’

“So this is your little play thing huh?” The lanky tall man with patched and black hair and electrifying blue eyes said staring at you. Shigaraki scuffed at him before putting his arms around you.

“That’s Ash tray aka Dabi. Just ignore him like his daddy did since all he does is talk and burn things,” Shigaraki said making Dabi growl a bit. You could feel Dabi feeling tired and annoyed though something about him was different. You knew what it was...you’ve felt people like him before...they were always different...the same feeling Shigaraki had...past/or/current abuse.

“You brought me a new friend?! Hi I’m Himiko Toga. Want to be friends?” A blonde haired girl appeared almost out of knowhere. You could feel the crazy off her practically without your quirk.

It had been almost a year since then...Shigaraki and you grew closer. You had actually met All for One...well sorta, you saw him on a tv screen. You had never felt so much...power hunger. You couldn’t move when yo first saw him. Later on he had you kill someone to prove you were really committed though you were only committed to Shigaraki. You had nightmares of killing that teen boy who only made the mistake of talking with the wrong people.

Shigaraki felt so excited when he talked to him. It confused you at first since his father appeared to be dead since he had his hand apparently...you didn’t ask...until he finally admitted everything.

Manga spoilers!

You layed on his bed as he played his video game. One of the characters told about their father being in danger which Shigaraki scuffed.

“Why do you hate fathers so much? I can feel your hatred to fathers even being mentioned.” Shigaraki just scuffed again

“It’s nothing,”

“You can trust me. I would do anything for you.” He thought for a moment. He looked to the side for a moment.

Manga spoilers! Shigurakis origin!

“Fine but only because you are annoying me. I had a family, quite a big one actually. I had my grandparents, Mom, Sister, Dog, and my Father. I had a thin of wanting to be a hero but my father hated heroes. Whenever he found me playing heroes he would punish m to stay outside in the corner but one day after my sister showed me that my grandma was a hero my dad found out and asked my sister what happened she lied and for the first time he hit me. He had no regret in his eyes. When I was outside crying and hugging my quirk appeared. I ended up killing my dog and that’s when my sister came out to apologize. I ended up accidentally killing my whole family until it was just my father. He came out and saw the mess. I killed him. Purposefully. Now can you stop talking and let me play my game,” You honestly felt scared a bit(Shiguraki was the only one to have you to feel emotions at all). You had killed someone yeah but kill your whole family.

Spoilers over

 You just had to find out the most scariest thing at the worst time. You wanted to spend the rest of your life with Shiguraki but this was different. You both went all the way once but they say it only takes once.  You were pregnant. You were 18 years old and Pregnant.

As you stood looking at the test you got up and thought for the first time about everything. You killed a teenage boy for someone to trust you. You still loved Shiguraki but this wasn’t You wouldn’t do it again. Not after everything. You packed your bags and walked out of that apartment you shared with him. This wasn’t a place for a child. A child should not be around killers.

You left with no note. Only with some clothes. You then went to a shady apartment place and then decided to get a short term job until the pregnancy was over so you could keep your apartment until this was over. It wasn’t that bad there. There were some really nice people but there were a few really sketchy guys you stayed away from especially when they flirted with you, you never responded.

After 9 months you finally had your baby. She was 9 pounds. She was born at exactly noon. She oddly had black hair which you assumed came from Shiguraki’s family. She had your (wavy/straight/curly/whatever) hair that you wish you could tell her in person how to control that hair but she would never be able to see you. After thinking over what to do you had your plan. 

As you sat with your daughter for a few days in the hospital you wrote a paper. If you just sent her to adoption then she would be found...she had to be with someone that All For One couldn’t get instantly knowing it wouldn’t be worth. 

You walked with emotions for one thing right now. Tears formed from your eyes as you walked and finally arrived. You looked down at the carrier and she looked up at you with those (e/c) eyes. Those were your eyes she had. You looked away immediately. No backing down. 

You set the carrier was set in front of the door and kneeled and tucked her in a bit more and kissed her not caring that tears were hitting her. 

“I love you so much,” You whispered, leaving the papers you wrote on the ground under her carrier incase the wind came. You kissed her multiple times knowing you could never do it enough. You finally stood and knocked on the door before running off as fast as you could. 

After a minute Toshinori finally opened the door to hear something crying and saw a newborn crying. 

“What the hell,” He muttered to himself before looking around seeing no one around. He picked up the carrier and saw a few pieces of paper and picked it up.

‘I don’t know what I’m doing anymore really. I never did. Everything happened so fast. I know you have a lot of responsibility's All Might but I can’t let her go into her father or All For One’s hands. I don’t have much to say. 

Shiguraki is her dad. The secret to her hair is water. After brushing her hair your put water on it to control the hair after. She may have sensitive skin so she may hate to have her hair brushed. I hated my hair getting brushed. Tell her I love her. Please keep her from trying to find me or anyone related to her father. Choose whatever name for her since I didn’t want to get attached. Keep her safe. Please.’

 Toshinori looked at the paper before looking at the baby and back at the paper then the baby. She seemed content just looking around before looking at him and laughed. She had a beauty mark where her grandmother did as she smiled.

“Aren’t you a smiler, I think I’ll name you Nana,” Toshinori smiled looking at his new daughter